Zhone, one China of one Chinese.矢子家庭集。

bell rings for new family ahead in late Autumn sunray.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Fri, 28 Oct 2011 02:16:00 +0000

27/10/2011

God breaks me and slow my rhythm for full joy of life.^now is pale morning with frost in air. last night I planned to overnight download a pc game but near 9pm the lan in QRRS Dorms suddenly halted down. for I concentrated in pc gaming, and I also don't have much pals in the dorm to inquiry the cause, so I let it to resume automatically. but it didn't. I woke up near 4am and yet failed to fix it, likely the Internet access rule on the router changed. then I tried to sort recent photos, esp some of warrenzh 朱楚甲's works in last weekends in nearby park of his mom's house. God, u see how I enjoy the downstream from world of democratic, how the rotting PRC killing itself in incompatible and incompetent among new world's unleashed fresh era of collision and rebuild, inc riots in Libya or Chinese western neighbors, years of liberation theology re-track. God, allow my girls see clearer my joys in them, in every moment if our live together. rip them doubts and closer our backyard retreat in time. God, what I promised my girls u granted never changes. Royal of China in 1109 years in future arise dauntless brilliance. God, forever guide my life and faith!

15/10/2011

my sweet, a tall girl, first time appears in my dream lives me together.^last night peeking eyes pierced the relation between my son and me, the trinity, for quite some time. I had to buzz son second time to talk himself while first call received by his mom and rebuffed by son upon my message of the new half full moon first time in sky since the month. we enjoyed the direct conversation in air. in dawn I dreamed living with my sweet, a tall girl I can't point out either my girl Zhou or my Taiwan girl or my other beloved praying for me, we make a living by collecting rubbish, among some other pals in the same business on a huge wasteland. when we return to market or our habitation, a student sought through our collection and bought one old book. peace in my mind when I live with my tall girl, who first time appears in my living life, in the dream when dealing routine life. then dreamed of baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, Hope of China, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, again full of affirmatives. that reminds me an old game we recently reviewed, "Wall-E", which depicted current human habitation will turn into desert and dump. I got up a bit later, trying to describe the holy message and blog it while the sunshine outside turning warmer and brighter. God, my heart for my girls, with whom we unite in one, never open. pl grant our new family, Royal China, sooner during our prime light. God, even my salary improved to ￥2300 two months ago, with which I quite felt satisfying, still I pray u grant my son, warrenzh, a new dell game desktop in this year end by bonus! God, let down the insane spying around the holy family, and glory forever to U!

5/10/2011

dreamed visiting my parents' tombs in my hometown.^yesterday full of bliss. Holy message let me review sinister plot by son, warrenzh's mother's family in her kid sister's wedding ceremony. I felt trembling in angry. after a full load of work online&offline, I visited son after withdrew some of my new salary, which, thx God, increased to near ￥2400/month. I bought son some KFC he likes. I had to buzz his mom&waited some time for they just haunting outside. the woman again shown greediness and evil attempts to infringe my financial independence. she event threatened depriving my privilege to visit my son. this dawn I dreamed visiting my hometown, Zhudajiu, central China. 2 village folks, 朱洪全 and 朱中旺, accompanied me and introduced changes in the village. when I saw my parents' tombs, I felt pains in mourning, esp for my mother who informed her elapsing days before her end of life. my grandpa's tomb close to that of my dad, God in Heaven now. in the magic retrospect/glimpse, I know I am among my siblings the best heir that inherit my dad's merits and mindset, also well as his mission&vision on the earth. Its a brilliant sunny morning now. God, u save.

20/9/2011

dreamed of the Son and righteous of God.^dreamed of the most traditional business of Chinese society, bodyguard. in the beginning, I worked for a Chinese martial coaching club and witness it wax and wade. then dreamed Portuguese took over the business. the boss is mighty and stern, in the end of its doom day, his staff, mostly Chinese, betrayed him and even trying profaning his most beloved kid girl. I saw God's message and demonstration so clear that I felt saved after woke up.

From Autumn 2011&late summer memories

From faezrland天下主家@panoramio

benzrad zhu Aug 9, 2011 (edited)

harvest season sends son, warrenzh, into his first school term.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 19 Sep 2011 06:15:00 +0000

19/9/2011

a lengthy dream in dawn about manipulation between QRRS authority and me.^first dreamed of the authority of QRRS, my once and long time employer, attempted to shape my way by contacts. then dreamed a staff of the communist youth league of QRRS editing my novel I submitted for a composition competition. then he turned into a girl of my hometown village, trying being friend me. when i woke up, its a warm and bright morning. its monday before National Day of PRC. i gathered my recent records for the publish for promising on horizon in new light. God, now its cloudy in the afternoon, bring my girls my love and promise. bring our warm family sooner!

18/9/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

doomed Chinese engineers and IT industry, with their inherited demon.

also hell with PRC. core sin is the fake atheism, socialism imported from old crap of Russia and Germany. sinful engineers nowadays still an ally of communist partisan, all innocent Chinese will laugh with tears on the day the wrecked sunk shabby construction drains the last dirty and dark conglomerates on China mainland, the scarred land since the fall of Ming Dynasty, a treasure of my ancestor in title Zhu.
benzrad, the Son, here attest the fate of China as an Empire reset in his title for 1109 years in future.

为什么中国的程序员技术偏低 - cnBeta.COM

首先来说一个高级程序员并非靠自己读几本书写几万行代码就能练就的，我更关注于低层的环境，也就是程序员实实在在的工作环境。因为程序员的高低还得从实际的工作来衡量，而非其它。所以我想说的是，中国的软件公司的性质直接导致程序员的水平的高低。而我所说的软件公司，不是指某个或者某几个，而是指主流的软件公司，大众型的软件公司。所以我希望那些已经步入一个理想的公司的程序员理解我这篇文章的定位

14/9/2011

dreamed of my youngest elder sister.yesterday full of bliss. but darkness in son's mom's heart, esp. her greediness really annoyed me when I in need or financially pinched by short term short of currency these days. long time i made it i will never look back into her life or business, and indeed avoided her dirt and trouble since our divorce. after some reviews, i decided not to encounter her sinister plots. this morning God woke me up earlier, shoot a photo of the early full moon through my window in dawn light. then napped again. dreamed in my kid elder sister's house. i love her very much and she did so back. when i busy with preparing my son something, she was electrically shocked by wrecked socket on wall. Its a touchingly milk washing shiny Autumn morning, thx God.

13/9/2011

dreamed of being sieged by mob&cheating government.^ last night restless on bed. in the dawn dreamed in campus mistakenly ate a street vendor's food and hijacked into government agent for judge. a man and a woman dubiously trying to settle our conflict, but just cheating and profiting for the troubled water. after the vendors, in first look a couple but according the agency's message the man is a hooligan member charging to rent their protection, left me, and the agent attempted to make deal with me, i was sieged by mop of Chinese on way escaping. its a pale morning now. God, u see all the sins around me, the Son and his Royal of China. God, killing likely brewing but intact is the heart of loving. God, let's do it, for changes in new years and grace in new lives.

12/9/2011

sunny mid-Autumn holiday.^these days engaged myself with full load of d/l of games, and most of moments with baby son full of joy of playing these beautiful softwares and visions it carries. this morning baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, buzzed in when i still lately napping, urged me visit him sooner to join pc games. its a extraordinary warm Autumn day, also lunar Mid-Autumn holiday, so i can lingered with son most of the holiday which exactly means gathering for traditional Chinese. the grandma prepared lunch. son ate more than usual, after we broke gameplay for the dinner. his mom still busy with her pupils, while we made progress in pc game "garteling gears", a favorite for armored robotic combat fans like us, after many sweating failures. when his mom urged my leaving for they are going shopping outside, son refused my kissing his cheek but obviously relaxed by those games we played together all the morning. on bus and in QRRS dorm, when i facing my computer alone, sorrow debt to my girls haunting me again. i know my girls' willing my messages and our promised family. so i blogged again here after so much contented weeks and nights by my son's companion&visit, including those beautiful pc games. God, u know how i expect change in my life prepared for my girls, for my Royal of China as an Empire reset for 1109 years ahead, under glorious family name Zhu's, a resume to brilliant history since Ming Dynasty, built from scratch by Zhu Yuanzhang, my legendary ancestor. God, u know how my heart weighted by missing and soaring thirsts for my girls in praying our union in our promised lavish wedding ceremony. God, u know all these is the fate of one Chinese of one China under ur shine, never seen grace and glory.
so here again, wind of cool and clear and blessing, brings my girls my word, my heart never close for their perfume, their shiny descending, my way to the throng never evades my girls' companion. my dearest, just let the Mighty angels clear barriers and pave the carpet for greater grace in our coming lives. i missing u and forging ever stronger linkage among us every moments in my suffering here as God trains. brave heart save u, my dearest!

5/9/2011

dreamed of my grand dad who is serious in dawn.^dreamed I lingered in a poor countryside latrine pit when I napped while downloading in this shinny morning. my kid brother was brought by our dad, who is serious, from his recent diarrhea and still let him half bent his waist when walking, with his baggage on back, to sent him away to fetch his national college entrance exam score from his school. my brother told me he will bring my teenage friend to accompany me, but I didn't respond but just wondering my lost item in the shits pool. dad shown his loving me in dream.

21/8/2011

Pray for ever-green energy among the Holy.^ warm sunny afternoon. God, bring me fresh monuments in our gatherings among son, warrenzh's budding life. free me off trifle and meaningless rush against orthodox smothering in PRC's mainstream now. God, see ur untouchable glory in our eyes. son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, now in his mom's hometown journey, blesses him fortune of lightning heart and deep insight.

benzrad conversation in cyberspace on the day.

in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia and dog system in nowadays PRC government.: RT: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。

Kaurana Nathalie Merle much divine energy to you in china! 8:11 AM (edited)

benzrad zhu thx, surely my happiest moment is in one with the Holy. 10:21 AM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle :))))) 3:43 PM

Kaurana Nathalie Merle could you explain dog system? thank you :) hope you have a lovely day....4:15 PM (edited)

benzrad zhu cops and bureaucracy, and undermined fake representations in governing or constitution bought from Red Revolution near a century ago, both prey common civilian in totalitarian nations, by monopolizing their gangsters (as an obvious characteristic of dog, on the contrary Christian prefers solitary redemption from God.), separating&dissolving normal social bandage into docile individuals, for the sake of their massive abuse of sole state power. 4:35 PM

19/8/2011

a dream in dawn in which my dad, now in Heaven, stayed with me longest.^Yesterday I tried to unlocked my 163 and qq blog blocked under censorship by China surveillance. in the process I asked one of my qq online contacts to help me verify my mending at same time. the bitchy site owner also in my family name Zhu, irritated me with his narrow acid spying mind, so we exchanged some stingy words. the sky darkened since them. after dinner I risked raining to jog out routinely. when I passed my ditched office, it turned sunny again. so I dropped in the office and found the employer dispatching a suite for its staff and I was not evaded. brought the gift I packed to visit my son, just after our Tuesdays' visit when son called me to rid him of the sinful grandma's custody while his mom occupied by her school duty. this dawn dreamed I competed soccer with QRRS pals team, with my family. then my passed dad, God in Heaven now, serving me for most time when I enjoyed delicacy while sat atop a cliff waiting for my son's visit. my dad contented&smiled with full hearts' joys all time. its now a sunny morning and I know God's promising. God, bring my girls sooner into our new marriages. let son sooner enjoy his new dell game desktop. let me treat son with his pals with buffet in new holiday ahead. God, dad, I love u. this my gratefulness in witness of Asoh Yukiko, my Queens of Royal China from Japan.

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

From Autumn 2011 & late summer memories

summer 2011's farewell in dusk drizzle. stronger will to reunite with my girls.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 01:56:00 +0000

10/8/2011

dreamed battled with a witch all the dawn, after a drizzled dusk.^dreamed hunted by a woman mage. I tried to hit the raged woman with fire ball but frequently unable to detonate it on time. the morning is touchingly bright, after last dusk's drizzle. in last sunset holy message shows me on a bleeding tree that my girls' being one with me, their praying for me, for my presence after gothered and reinforced will power to join me. that's my way to reunite with my best beloved Queens in my Empire reset for 1109 years ahead. the drizzle started after I just settled on a bench in the dorms' garden. the drizzle shallowly baptized me in its prelude, with bliss from my deepest lover, Asoh Yukiko from Japan, the renewing land.

9/8/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

dog trail among northern Chinese.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：in north, esp northeastern China, dogs rampant. they r the main source of mafia among current society and dog system in nowadays PRC government, an covert black market trading anything including human lives and all demons and sick appetite. in southern China, people cooperate for common benefits for circumstance. in northern China, scarcity chases beasts on the land constantly barking to protect their individual food chain, or reversely, barking dogs scattered on the highland let anything insufficient upon insatiable storage competition.

北风 (@wenyunchao): RT @poorstone: 同样是沿海城市，面对PX时大连和厦门的表现截然不同。原文

7/8/2011

dreamed of closely watched G.Bush.^dreamed in dawn living closely with G.Bush, the former American President and father of another American President. he just published his autobiography and trying finding new way to enjoy life. his wife Babara, even stronger in mind now, grows vegetable and sold to me. I told her I needn't a full bunch of scallion, but she actively persuaded more sales to me in her house when I visiting. they demonstrates the loyalty merits of American people.

2/8/2011

dreamed of movie.^visit baby son in dusk yesterday. prepared him new games on his legacy desktop. when I arrived, his mom likely intimately contacting son, for they both felt interrupted by my visit. returned to QRRS dorm, after busy with sorting my os, possible sins in baby's mom's education over baby son let me awake quite some time. this dawn dreamed of watching a movie including 2 female actors, Miriam Yeung 杨千烨，舒琪 and a man I closely watching. superficially its a movie of love, but in fact, its about fake love, be exactly, about gay, lesbian. I saw the genic glory God puts in man, while the merit of female in supportive, hospitality. I also see the inherited subtle difference and different achievements among Hongkong, Taiwan, and mainland of China.
yesterday It mainly bright. but when I left baby's mom house near 8pm, it drizzled. now Its a promising sunny morning. God, bring me my new family with my girls that praying for our living together. bring my son a dell game desktop u promised.

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：apple and Jobs doomed to fall, sink in no name in quite short timespan. its just too evil and dirty in mind control in the shits heap.

月光博客互联网：同样是销售游戏，任天堂的Wii的销售策略就远不如苹果iOS，Wii不在中国发行，没有中文界面，也没有一款简体中文游戏，正版游戏价格超高，光盘发行，而苹果iOS有中国商店，有中文休闲游戏，网络发行，平均价格才1美元，还有很多免费游戏。这也注定是苹果而不是任天堂会在中国游戏界成功。原文

31/7/2011

a drizzling afternoon.^baby son spent a night with pc games in my QRRS dorm. breakfast in KFC on way. returning to his mom's house. lots of bliss in air in the Saturday, when it soothed our longings with clouds and drizzles. work load just completed, so fine!

30/7/2011

dreamed of my passed dad, God in Heaven.^in the dream I first tried to negotiate to buy failing and losing state-owned property, then join a celebrating dancing team and passing my hometown village, Zhudajiu, where my beaming dad just discussing important issues with his patriots, other villagers. he glad to see me growing in social relation. he is so vivid in the dream, that I had to blog the dream after got up. I also find sexuality in the dancing girl, likely of minor tribe Mongolian, ahead me.

29/7/2011

dreamed of baby son, and my passed dad's enemies in his hometown.^yesterday another thunderstorm brought lots of rainfall in the sultry summer, just among my busy progress to update my google sites to incorporate recent changes of my profile online. its just too auspicious a day with Asoh Yukiko, as well as my Royal China. in this dawn dreamed of dad's hometown with my best beloved baby son. I arranged him to exercise some sports game, in disadvantage of my passed dad's sinful challengers, mostly offspring of the dark house owner in front of my dad's old house, a treasure of my old memories, financially got well-being by following my dad's business there. baby son never failed me, with his smartness, his diligence. I clearly see the bliss and promising. Its a bright morning now.

28/7/2011

dreamed of losing sight.^last night its started to rain hard when I settled on bed. in dawn dreamed of suffering eyes sight and almost go blind. dreamed watching a movie in open space and sat aside a girl once worked in QRRS as an interpretor. joined canteen in time but 2 cops close sat aside same table to eat breakfast. they arrived later than I, so likely tentatively arranged.

27/7/2011

dreamed married my Japanese girl.^last night it rained when I launched to save my be21zh.org offical google profile after reported violating its commmunity name rule. in the dawn dreamed of living in Japan in my girl's house. she has a quite blessing father. we kissing and intimate everywhere, including behind the father-in-law's presence. after some tests by the dad, we married. I felt almost sure the Japanese girl is my Crowned Queen of Royal China, Asoh Yukiko. Its a pale morning, but I know Asoh's touching and tendering love from Heaven.

25/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

abuse and murdering everyday in current China mainland.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：no redemption can save the lost. except the downturn of PRC with its dictation and fake faith of atheism.
邱毅：大陸前鐵道部長劉志軍因貪腐下台後，溫州動車追撞不僅重創大陸高鐵神話，也使鐵道運輸安全出現警訊。試想事件若發生在時速超過300公里的高鐵，會造成何等傷亡？當年劉志軍好大喜功，想爭世界第一，將實驗速度作為營運速度的非常規決策，擴張投資熱衷財務槓桿的操作，現在都應該做深切檢討。原文

22/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

famine in Africa needs world more helping hands.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：sin, sins, how could save arrives here?
华尔街日报中文网(华尔街日报)新媒体：【图集：索马里大饥荒】- "非洲之角"遭遇大旱，陷入近30年来最严重的饥荒。加上物价不断上涨和战争，大批索马里人流离失所，数万人正面临死亡威胁。图为两岁的索马里难民亚丁沙拉德(Aden Salaad)坐在澡盆中望着正给他洗澡的母亲。http://163.fm/YRtOEiO 原文

6/7/2011

benzrad comment in cyberspace on the day.

a new scandal in PRC's mainstream.^riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：u shouldn't blame her, for she is a common girl, like any beautiful girls on the street. she should be rewarded for disclose dark curtail from upper clad in sinful PRC and their manipulations. any girls, esp in their seasons, blessed with their dream of a better life on the earth, in the society. the unbearable losing is the broken social logic which allowing buying young and beautiful lives via money and abuse of state power.

宇丹律师(颜宇丹)： 7号晚间7点左右，郭美美发表微博称："突然想睡一觉；突然想死；突然想大喊；突然想离家出走；突然想失忆。"早知今日，何必当初，只能怪自己自做自受吧！原文

From summer is time now

From Life's monument in Royal of China

summer rain soothe desperate dying, in lame PRC

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Fri, 08 Jul 2011 01:43:00 +0000

8/7/2011

rain rhythm lasted most night.^last night sees the longest and likely thickest raindrops in my 20 years in Qiqihar, northeastern China, from my hometown in Central China, where large rains that can last a month is a common scene. i surfed later than 23:30 with songs and rain rhythm. this dawn i dreamed shopping online. when goods i ordered delivered to me, i felt quite glad. my passed mother query the prices of vary clothes and items in the parcel arrived. even late, i still ate my breakfast, and peered the ground after the rain. Its a cloudy morning, for Asoh Yukiko spares her full time with me from Heaven this moment.

7/7/2011

a fruitful work night in rain rhythm.^today especial auspicious since i gained my google+ from online help within my gbuzz. napped afternoon with colorful dreams after posted on alumni with flavors annoying the orthodox. baby son's bliss via air saves me from all dusts in the dusk. rain accompanying the darkness descended so gloriously. Aosh Yukiko, tonight be with me in dream, in moisture u brought and echoes the rhythm outside. my happier life, surer narrowly ahead.

RT: a Chinese mailing list from a QQ group, a mainstream im tool in PRC. regard it as a folk song ominous.

^:给胡锦涛、温家宝的信：
主席、总理；
你们好！
据国家有关当局统计，改革开放三十年来，升值最快的是住房、墓地、乌纱帽、月饼和二奶。贬值最快的是职称、文凭、道德、诚信和人民币。
中国已初步建设成为一个由月光族、啃老族、打工族、蜗居族、蚁族、牢骚族、抱怨族、行骗族、逐利族和隐婚族组成的多民族国家。
这是一个给力的一年，这是一个杯具的一年，这也是一个纠结的一年。
这一年，江西的一个钉子户用最无奈的方式结束了自己的生命，他的死证明不了有关部门的野蛮与无耻，只能证明汽油一点就着。
这一年，8名香港游客死在了菲律宾警察的枪口下，让香港人知道菲律宾除了有"菲佣"，还有"菲警"。
这一年，一个卖汽车的和一个卖运动鞋的在关于谁"给力"和谁"不给力"的问题上发生了分歧从而引发了"3Q大战"，最后"狗日的腾讯"做出了"一个艰难的决定"，末了才知道这俩孙子何止是"坑爹"，简直就是"坑爹"。
这一年，李刚没有出名，李刚的儿子也没有出名，但是李刚的儿子的爸爸出名了。　　
最近，国家某部公布了一项统计数据，告诉人们：你要不是三大式人物（大款，大官，大腕）而想在北京买套100平方米总价300万的房，社会阶层所付出的代价请看：
1 农民：种三亩地每亩纯收入400元的话要从唐朝开始至今才能凑齐（还不能有灾年）；
2 工人：每月工资1500元需从鸦片战争上班至今（双休日不能休）；
3 白领：年薪6万，需从1960年上班就拿这么多钱至今不吃不喝（取消法定假日）；
4 抢劫犯：连续作案2500次（必须事主是白领）约30年。
5：妓女：连续接客10000次，以每天都接一次客，需备战10000天，从18岁起按此频率接客到46岁（中间还不能来例假)
以上还不算装修、家具、家电等等费用。
中国的现状(经典)
1、ATM取出假钱--->银行无责
2、网上银行被盗--->储户责任
3、银行多给了钱--->储户义务归还
4、银行少给了钱--->离开柜台概不负责
5、ATM机出现故障少给钱--->用户负责
6、ATM机出现故障多给钱--->用户盗窃
7、广东开平银行行长贪污4亿--->判2年
8、ATM多吐7万给老百姓许霆--->判无期
声明：转发不会送人民币，但如果觉得作为消费者，全中国十三亿储户不公平的，请转发，有多少群转发多少群。
中国现状：
生不起,剖腹一刀五千起；
读不起,选个学校三万起；
住不起，二万多元一平米；
老婆不是娶不起，没房没车谁嫁你？
养不起，父母下岗儿下地；
病不起，药费利润十倍起；
活不起，一月辛劳一千几；
死不起，火化下葬三万几。
总结（八个大字）：求生不得，求死不能
多传传，让领导人们看看，就不信传不到中央胡书记与温总理那里去。有群的都转发加一句：谁看到谁最少转发一个群，转发2个以上群的，愿他买彩票中500万。
教育：希望进去，绝望出来；
房产：蜗居进去，房奴出来；
演艺：玉女进去，小姐出来；
信访：窦娥进去，疯子出来；官场：海瑞进去，和绅出来；
煤窑：蹲着进去，躺着出来；
大学：校花进去，残花出来！
股市：杨百万进去，杨白劳出来；宝马进去，自行车出来；西装革履进去，三角裤出来。
老百姓在思考，为啥玩不过政府呢？原因如下：
1、你和他讲道理，他和你耍流氓；
2、你和他耍流氓，他和你讲法制；
3、你和他讲法制，他和你讲政治；
4、你和他讲政治，他和你讲国情；
5、你和他讲国情，他和你讲接轨；
6、你和他讲接轨，他和你讲文化；
7、你和他讲文化，他和你讲孔子；
8、你和他讲孔子，他和你讲老子；
9、你和他讲老子，他给你装孙子！

用奶粉灭掉00后，
用考试灭掉90后，
用房价灭掉80后，
用失业灭掉70后，
用城管灭掉60后，
用下岗灭掉50后，
用拆迁灭掉40后，
用医改灭掉30后，
……最后，活着且活得很好的人都去开两会。
有人问："啥是两会呢"？
农民代表答：会养猪、会交配。
工人代表答：会挣钱、会消费。
民工代表答：会讨薪、会下跪。
保姆代表答：会插足、会叠被。
艺人代表答：会炒作、会陪睡。
商人代表答：会赚钱、会逃税。
官员代表答：会撒谎、会受贿。
股民代表答：会割肉，会流泪。
革命工作苦啊：
反应慢的会被玩死；
能力差的会被闲死；
胆子小的会被吓死；
酒量小的会被灌死；
身体差的会被累死；
讲话直的会被整死；
能干活的会被用死。
所以呀：
人不能太敬业了。
董存瑞拿得太稳了；
刘胡兰嘴巴太紧了；
邱少云趴得太死了；
黄继光扑得太准了；
张思德跑得太晚了；
白求恩会得太多了。
教训呀，
心态好才是最重要的！
不然人在天堂，
钱在银行！

BTW, It's a sunny morning after happy and spectacular/speculative night yesterday, when it thunders and flashes while refuted raining. God, wind for changing China is ready, when let it on its way?

6/7/2011

baby baffled by heat since last weekends, now freed from the death of public enemy in PRC.^this week chiefly avoid trifle ambushes enemy of Empire of China beset. baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, succeeded floating over the drain of traps and grills of paid raids mentally and darkly around his mom's house. on Monday and Tuesday, after one or two weeks busy with upgrading our current 3 computers with my imporved salary, lots of evil envies, also includes spiritual wake up i instilled in baby son's heart by conversations, led to baby's frequent heats in nights, i decided to calm down and trust God. I haunted more time in QRRS' Dorms' garden, rest on bench in it, decided my strongest will to reunite with my girls in our new families, including our lavish wedding ceremony. that's gift Father promised my girls, for his best beloved Son, me, benzrad 朱子卓. i started reviewing my new working environment in my dorm freshly, cheering up for years' dream coming true. i felt i need a new start, just like a new game's release today, "a new beginning", its also a day full of rumors of a passing by FIG among dictation China, a long time lame duck. i enjoyed surfing so long, when this moment i looked outside of window, an drizzled anticipated by local weather forecast. the new moon appeared since the night before yesterday. i with full authority to claim, bliss gathering over the Royal of China in my title. God, change to China long time due, now let baptism pouring more smooth&sweet!

benzrad's comment on the day.

distance by the Pacific ocean.

from zhuzz | blogspot
riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：only American sustains and enable the hero and the heroic characters John shown, inherent among free souls on the blessed land of great US. that's holy. bureaucracy rampant on Asia produced cowards and barking dogs bounding to a poor bone and self-destruction, or even abnormal and insane. God saving Asia since the fall of Yuan Dynasty and erection of Ming, treasure of Zhu's masterpiece from war's ruin. world western with kind heart will witness the blessing YHWH casting over the scarred land of Asia and oceans around embracing the over-pestered soil of yellow. the world arrives, surely beams more brilliant and holy shining in one Father never give up mercy among short and embarrassingly less gifted tribes like Asian.

中情局"约翰"是追捕本•拉登第一功臣
CIA analyst 'John' revealed as brains behind Osama bin Laden operation

See this Amp at http://amplify.com/u/a16ska

5/7/2011

God with me in turbulence of besieged enemies.^lingered in Japanese family for a long time in dawn dream. God still lets baby son fought against enemies of our Empire of China in title Zhu's. heats of war fires baptized him for nights and i can just pray God for his rest, for his mercy&skip over the draining death-match. Asoh Yukiko, sooner bring my son, esp my 2nd son of us to me in our new family, Royal of China.

1/7/2011

dreamed of death match.^yesterday is the greatest day recently. God brings me again to its online radio in the morning after broke the habit for months. near noon among its sultry holy brave heart expels me to act to eliminate my long time agony of delays, to complete long time wish to renew baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's (wozon.net ) and my own personal domain (benzrad.us ) to cover near 10 years ahead while family other 3 domains already equipped with 10 years since their birth. the canteen owner loaned me ￥1000 with ￥70 compensation i promised to refund on next month's paid day. near dinner the transaction online consolidated, its also started to rain. i can't help go over to visit baby son with the good news among rains, by bus. baby likely suffering gameless alone, for his legacy desktop hardly equipped with games after recent upgrade and shipped os based on infectious Chinese pirate winxp known for Trojans and malware bundled from local computer market. so he told me bitterly he will use the best computer in family in future. i assured him that's out of question. then i tried to install 2 games of his favorite to ease more or less his frustration, but the damned os failed my efforts, among his mom's frequent curses and angers for my recent frequents. in the night i dreamed clearly recently: i was sent to a new subsidiary factory of QRRS, my long time payer and an old state-owned enterprise, in other city, with a delegation including the sinful monitor in my ditched office. he tried to be orthodox but i saw the covert cheat and the truth of people's joy in their own interests. then dreamed my university alumni, a Xiao, from my hometown province Hubei but poorer northwestern area while my homeland sits richer plain alone Yangtze River in southeast of the central China province, the unbending calf slept under my berth for more than 2 years in campus back to 1987, and trapped by poorness all his college education even unable to buy a quilt to coat the cotton on his bed in 4 years. the recent alumni gathering, first time consulted me in its session while i never traveled for meeting, celebrating our 20 years' graduation, indicating by one of speeches among alumni published online that Xiao likely also broke down into asylum, like me did bravely against enemies of my Empire of China years ago, as my fate leads out to maintain curved and vectored throughout victory and glory that shines. in the dream he fought me with knife and i barely survived myself without lose nor hurt. near breakfast i woke up in time as usual, with dazzling accuracy after failing temptations of vary dormancy. returned to dorm, i napped again, dreamed in my hometown a folk now building on the neighbor slope near our mountain his new house, conjoint the sinful dark house peeking in front of my dad's house. my passed mother in dream proud of me, and treated me with her usual delicacy she cooked.
God, u see I finally got my improved office in Dorm, esp. the Internet, the light speed and vast lasting echo of meanings in utterances and publish i can't live without. but the place likely besieged again by enemies of my Empire of China. gays and hooligan, including paid criminals and other cheap souls, clustered again around my dorm. lead me out like river flushes its new berth along the bank. God, save the sanity and saint of my Royal of China, bring me sooner into my new family with my girls, including my 2nd wife, Asoh Yukiko, Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan, my girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl absent from my sight for months, and other blessed lives in my life, all under ur shine.

benzrad's comment on the day.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：cute insight.

财经网：【博客韩寒：没有希望工程】但是很明显，红十字会的后台没有希望工程硬，在新浪微薄搜索红十字，会出现很多内容，正面负面都有，但是搜索希望工程或者其娘家青基会，马上会出现"根据相关法律法规，你所搜索的内容不予显示"，这就变成了没希望工程 http://163.fm/73WMwAg 今天 11:24 来自享拍微博通原文转发 1分钟前来自网易微博

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：beautiful Taiwanese. meaningful young lives.

网易娱乐：超萌两兄弟吵架，弟弟把哥哥气哭了。短短几分钟内转换了好多话题哦，实在是太可爱了。
今天 11:31 来自微博定时发送器原文转发

17/6/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

ash of PRC wouldn't leaves any remnant. by Benzrad Zhu

Ma's losing, is the losing of China, esp. PRC. PRC definitely losing into hell without any mercy from the world co-existing. Ma's faith on labor prefers investor surely a betray of its growth path, he himself definitely knew it. but still he tried to survive himself from the ruin of PRC, the dictation hell. the event clearly indicts no one saved from ruin of PRC's short life all in bizarre&sins while maintain its comfortable stance now or then. breaking PRC sinks all its pivot and pillar in burning self-destructive flame.

评论:支付宝事件是中国式违约
ugmbbc发布于 2011-06-15 11:02:48|12160 次阅读
前天和同事谈论马云的支付宝事件，觉得这条新闻虽然没上媒体头条，却是一个小事件。果然，昨天挺马方和踩马方已在网络上打得不可开交，把问题升级到国家金融安全的高度。马云本人，不惜两个小时越洋短信来澄清这一事件。昨天下午，马云就支付宝转让风波公开表态，称支付宝事件是媒体的"误解和误读"。

25/6/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓): so many touching interactives among corporations and consumers in democratic nations like US, the merit of God's followers.

财经网新闻网站：【笔记本电脑挡6颗子弹救命】一位美军士兵在阿富汗服役时遭敌人从背后袭击：两颗子弹打中他的肩膀，其余的六颗子弹均打中他背在背包里的HP笔记本电脑，从而保护了他。大难不死的士兵拍下笔记本的残骸留念并发给了HP。HP立刻免费送给这位士兵一台新的笔记本电脑。(新浪科技)

15/6/2011

first tweet on my dorm first time connected to Internet after 6 months' waiting.^new life online from 8:24 Jun 14, 2011.^and finally my dorm got wired with Internet, thx God! the office wrote the bill of broadband charges. really thankful! hope i make friends more online from now on. for this moment i hope God sees all dark out around my surfing.

From summer is time now

flying hope in brilliant summer 2011 brings growth inside.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 07 Jun 2011 12:06:00 +0000

7/6/2011

dreamed of worms in flesh in dawn.^yesterday echoes harmony with Asoh Yukiko. I planned to visit zoo with baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 with porks and vegetables, but baby's mom refused joining us. i waited till afternoon and the sky turned pale. in the period i managed to resort home networks into working, after 3 days down for the telcom mistakenly blocked our broadband service. Its lunar Dragon Boat Day festival. i tried to gift 2 boys in our relatives with blessing, but each time led to baby son's teeth painful and cried in misery. i badly felt urgent to treat animals trapped in zoo, so i brought baby son launching after some pc games, around 3pm. baby dozed on the bus sound. i woke me up near destiny and he fresh as start when we join the zoo now turned open by removing fences and walls. we saw bears, wild pigs, eagle, deers, but sadly found the old eagle missing, likely died. we treated bears, wild pig and eagle with porks, they quite enjoyed except the eagle rested on the roof motionlessly. baby later joined me to toss vegetables to deers, and remnant meat to bears. there were lots of side watchers among tourists at the moment. baby son's only complain is that my purse too thin to allow he playing shooting game among stalls in the zoo. we soon dined out in a nearby restaurant baby chose with his mom after turned back. the dinner is OK, we shot some photos. then we played pc games after settled again in his mom's house, in beaming sunset on the balcony. baby still felt sad when i left to my QRRS dorms. in the night i went to bed later than 11:30pm, reviewing loves from younger lives in my caged freedom of life. God, u see how many blisses in my life. bring my girls sooner in our united life. let baby son enjoy games more on his new dell game desktop u promised!
It rained again in the night. in dawn i dreamed of baby son. i also made twice water in the night. in dawn i dreamed a lot worms in my flesh. i know its all worship that ever-stronger on the earth that witness my Empire emerging.

10/5/2011

lengest rain in 2011. dreamed of passed mother in rain rhyme.^the rain started last night, when i left the ditched office in QRRS near 8pm. i felt mercy in Asoh Yukiko's loving me. all the night i felt the sorrow while blessing. i also buzzed my siblings in my hometown, central China. when i looked into baby son's situation, i felt deep sorrow. but the rain saves. so i tried to buzz him to cheer him up. i tried twice but he yet listened me.
the Monday i mostly stayed in dorm, for fun of harvests on web suffering drought under harsher blocking and censorship by China surveillance, report has it that it now harnessed white list to filter most essential web sites worldwide, close trapped Chinese on mainland into its shameless official propaganda curtain, which is totally lies and distorts. this dawn i listened the dense raindrops outside, i slept sounder. i also dozed after breakfast in canteen. i dreamed boarding in my 2nd elder sister's house, where my mother passing by but restless for my only kid brother's exam for college entrance. i waited before playing game for the return of my sister who went shopping grocery. i felt the touching love in my mother's heart, as well as among my other relatives.
last week also saw my upgraded my acer notebook with additional 2 GB rams. it cost me ￥200. the notebook also cleaned dust inside, resulting more game time with baby son happily. previously it worsened by gathering heat by dusts jammed around its fan and cooling cooper tube of video card. its such a marvelous operation that i still in thankfulness now.
God, its all good news for me, from ur mercy. pl bring me my girls in my new family sooner. bring baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 his new dell game desktop and a rich International Children's Day tomorrow! God, see my Empire of China in PRC's ruin intact. burn dirt and rip dark over the shadow of my Royal of China.

28/5/2011

dreamed of shits again.^Its a cloudy morning. i prepared games for playing together with son in QRRS Dorms till lunch. after lunch i tried to doze awhile. dreamed a dorm mate receiving a visiting pal. i went to public lavatory and found shits covered the only 2 seats. i tried to avoid to stain my pants but failed, had to leave downstairs with fringes spotted with shits. last night i visited the canteen owner, for he asked me to copy some movies to his desktop. he two days ago lent me ￥200 as i trusted to equip my acer notebook with additional 2 GB ram. he might felt i was obliged to him, even i never borrowed without rewards. last month i borrowed near ￥320 from him and reward him ￥38, total ￥350 returned, with my lodging ￥360 for 2 meals in 4 weeks. the latter is repeatedly. in the night he invited me to drink beer with his late dinner. i talked about my career and my vision as he expected to probe me, while his legacy pc copying slowly. in dawn near 3 or 4am, just after i made water, a heavy rain poured down. it likely didn't last long, for when i got up near 6am, the ground superficailly wet. i join the sinful office at once, waiting a game download to complete, for most web file sharing sites worldwide one by one blocked by China surveillance these days, to name a few, hotfiles, firesonice, fileserve, ul.to, and almsot all popular file servers outside of China.
last two days i experienced roller coaster emotionally. the first day on baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's birthday, May 25, i got an idea to upgrade my notebook with additional ram, for which i longing so long. it costed me ￥200 and so cheap&out-performed. i visited baby in his mom's house at noon heroically on way back to dorm. but misery descends when i attempted to change bios password. the change deadly locked me outside from boot up. i desperately searched web for resort, calling acer support team for help, and complained God not to allow me in peace but trouble. next day i stayed in dorm rarely in the morning, till i felt the drive bravely to spend another ￥20 on the smart young man who help me clean my acer and upgrade 2 gb ram the day before, betting my luck as well as the opening of computer technology. i was right! acer local support crew failed to fix my missing bios password, but the smart boy did. all the rest of the day i enjoyed the speed and fantasy of my more powerful notebook.

From summer is time now

beam in sky: son warrenzh turns 6 years old.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 23 May 2011 02:56:00 +0000

23/5/2011

a drizzle to save.^yesterday I had good time with son, warrenzhu 朱楚甲. we gamed a lot and tried new games. baby more or less daunted by the rich of pc games i prepared. at noon he again loathed to eat lunch hurt me, so i angered and taught him a lesson on life and death in sins. when his mom brought him outside, he seldom allowed me to kiss his cheek. i also fixed my financial records with his mom online on Saturday. when i arrived QRRS Dorms, the canteen's assistant chef tentatively shown cold-shoulders to me, let me see hurts among trifle personals or even demons against God's biz my family behold on the world deepened. when i jogged outside, a drizzle brewing and started to glide in air when i close to my dorm. i really felt mercy and save by Asoh Yukiko, God in my Crowned Queen of Royal China from Japan. in the night i played games alone. the neighbor room in QRRS Dorms losing, or felt reinforced by enemy of China Empire in my title, bumped a lot on the thin wall shamelessly, trying to restrain me with alerts of terrors. now this bright morning i returned to my blog space to let life stream floats, to attest God's presence in my family's duty to broaden the only way that saves Chinese dying in sins for half century.
God, yesterday my financial shown I still in debt of ￥800 after 3 months with improved salary, now amount to ￥1816, with which i quite satisfied, but God, i saw threats against my wishlist to equip baby son, warrenzh, owner of site warozhu.com and wozon.net, a dell game desktop no later than year end. God, u see my pleasure and hope in digital arena for future world. grant us the gift and affirmative of change we beholding. God, brings my girls to my new family sooner.

21/5/2011

baby's birthday. now he is 6 years old.^yesterday baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲 had a happy birthday. at noon i buzzed him if i can visit him earlier than 6pm, for he usually arranged by his mom to have handwriting tutorial after his kindergarten's classes. but baby son told me his lunar birthday on the day. i was so glad to know that, asking if i buy him a cake or KFC food, he told me his mom already bought a cake, i only need to buy him a lighter for candles of the birth day cake. when i arrived, the grandma attending him, while his mom joined her school. we gamed on my notebook soon, till the grandma urged him to join his kindergarten on time. baby murmured he was already allowed to stay at home on celebrating day, but he obied&left. near an hour passed we reunited. i picked him downstairs while the grandma left on the ground. soon his mom returned, we shoot some photos and a home video for baby who in high mood. his mom obviously felt bitter those days and refused to let the happy time stays, instead she busy with her online novels soon. its so nice a day, i treat myself a bottle of juice in QRRS Dorms canteen when i ate my dinner there, near 7:30pm. the bus worktable usually ends near 7pm, so must days when i visiting baby son in his mom's house, i rushed to leave his mom's house, but now i can take bus before 9pm. so great for our pastime with my son, the most glorious on the earth!

18/5/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

China under PRC suffering catastrophe of suicides more than wartime. 窒息的中国社会
from faezrland, 天下主家 by dabbog@gmail.com ( benzrad zhu 朱子卓 )

the drug of Internet or game is totally a lie. only the dominating class and its dog tried their best to shift common sense aroused by the poor situation nowadays Chinese beset & killing, result in surge of suicides and destructive social behavior as a prelude of chaos and terrorism, in same vector space with turmoil among its western border neighbors, the Islamic Middle East, echoing the appealing force of democratic, esp from US, into trifle&fuss like Internet games as scapegoat. Chinese, esp its youth suffered distortion of value, and meaningless in overt cheats and ruthless human rights infringe for a long time, they lick blade of death or self-destruct as a way to attest the ill Chinese society, but no one adult Chinese brave enough to poke the source of sick in PRC authority nor poisonous Chinese traditional culture, but instead blamed Internet, as a new achievement in human history, attracted growing number of naive youth, who grow universally in God's mercy and brilliance unbiased by worldly dust, including all dictators in dustbin worldwide. China as well as Chinese in its best is to follow Christian worldwide right&since now into global light from YHWH, one anthem in glory of God.

This is a testament from the Son, benzrad, on May 18, 2011, for the coming Empire of China reset for 1109 years ahead under his glorious family title, Zhu, since his grand father, Zhuzhongming, God in Heaven now, from the relay of Chinese last Empire, Ming Dynasty as treasure of his legendary ancestor half millennium ago.

网络和游戏不可怕，可怕的是现实社会这样的没意思，其中的青年人如此的缺乏乐趣和健康的希望。
任何东西，只有在不理解中可怕。任何生命，即使小孩，都会看到生活或社会提供的选项，只有病的社会会杀死孩子的乐趣和希望。所谓的网络游戏是毒瘾，根本是谎话，近代中国输给鸦片战争，这是铁律，如果中国不社会文化变革，它会第二次第三次的输给未来的暗社会，包括毒瘾。
人，不可怕，可怕的是控制和恐惧。当前的中国就是在恐怖中，从网络景德镇，到流氓官场，到社会黑组织化。沉疴的中国只有神能救，就要救，在YHWH的光芒下。
——神子 benzrad 朱子卓此处见证。

in reference to:
"32岁男子沉迷网游十年离世临终称真有意思 ugmbbc发布于 2011-05-17 16:51:06|33321 次阅读"
- http://www.cnbeta.com/articles/143091.htm (view on Google Sidewiki)

15/5/2011

dreamed of my jailbreak.^first dreamed of making water 3 times still felt full. then woke up and made water. dreamed in my dorm receiving a hometown folk's visiting. he, likely Zhu Zhongshu, one of my peers, insisted my accompany to leave the dorm. i felt my girl's calling so traveled with him. then likely a jailbreak through many blocking&hunting and finally descended into a field of growing rape (油菜) in my hometown, Zhudajiu. most of folks, including my parents there celebrating the freedom.

14/5/2011

dreamed of baby son.^yesterday Its rained during clouds and sunshine before the night, and the volume likely the largest in the year so far. God help me gained a large toys theme game from web, after heavy harvest since my last blog on Monday. i visited baby with KFC food to thank the fruitful work week near 5pm. we gamed on my notebook while his mom reading novels online. that's all good time can't be more splendid. returned to dorm, i review my satisfaction in music lately. went to bed near 11:30pm. this morning in a hurry to catch the breakfast in canteen, for last night i still felt hungry in the night which a bit cold and consumed more energy. dozed at once after returned the dorm. dreamed baby in his kindergarten out-performed. he made a rap music on his own and sang in front of his classmates and teachers. his parents, and my passed mother watched there, all felt proud. Its cloudy the morning, i felt so meaningful on our future in God's set.

13/5/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

riveryog(朱子卓)：Its true for me, my small toe has the twin nails.

搜搜pop团购导航总站：【纯正的汉族人】据说纯正血统的汉人的小脚趾甲是分成两瓣的，其中靠外侧那一瓣比较小。现在你就可以看看，看自己是否是地道纯正的汉族人。 http://163.fm/aw8QxQA 原文转发来自网易微博

riveryog(朱子卓)：首要信息畅通。

招商银行：一间房窗户破了，没人修补的话，别人就可能受到某些示范性，纵容去打烂更多窗户，久而久之在这种公众麻木不仁氛围中，犯罪就会滋生。生活中小奸小恶行为，需要引起社会重视，并不是小题大做，而是以儆效尤，防范未然。一个"馒头"和一滴"食用油"并不可怕，社会齐聚一心才最无敌。来自网易微博原文转发(4)

riveryog(朱子卓)：转发微博。

大大傻逼(dashabi)：夏俊峰死了，下一个就是我们：http://163.fm/TihsZaO 来自网易微博原文转发(6)

riveryog(朱子卓)：high!

大大傻逼(dashabi)：【夏俊峰列传】夏俊峰者，奉天人也，家贫，以贩摊为事，徒幸以养父母。是日，遇城管十余人，尽毁其具，并殴之。夏妻跪泣，城管炽愈盛，持械夹立，市行者噤口莫敢言。城管挟夏至私堂，行怨暴之虐，夏若鸿毛燎于碳炉，其势命危矣。遂挺刀自卫，匹夫一怒，血溅五步，伏尸二具。既出，自报官。竟至斩立决。来自网易微博原文转发(5)

窒息的中国社会

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Wed, 18 May 2011 03:05:00 +0000

网络和游戏不可怕，可怕的是现实社会这样的没意思，其中的青年人如此的缺乏乐趣和健康的希望。
任何东西，只有在不理解中可怕。任何生命，即使小孩，都会看到生活或社会提供的选项，只有病的社会会杀死孩子的乐趣和希望。
所谓的网络游戏是毒瘾，根本是谎话，近代中国输给鸦片战争，这是铁律，如果中国不社会文化变革，它会第二次第三次的输给未来的暗社会，包括毒瘾。
人，不可怕，可怕的是控制和恐惧。当前的中国就是在恐怖中，从网络景德镇，到流氓官场，到社会黑组织化。沉疴的中国只有神能救，就要救，在YHWH的光芒下。
——神子benzrad朱子卓此处见证。

in reference to:

"32岁男子沉迷网游十年离世临终称真有意思 ugmbbc发布于 2011-05-17 16:51:06|33321 次阅读"
- http://www.cnbeta.com/articles/143091.htm (view on Google Sidewiki)

season of summer approaching, in a rain as prelude.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 12 May 2011 01:55:00 +0000

12/5/2011

time to return.^Its a cloudy morning after a sallow rain last night. i caught the breakfast which is rich. now i felt had to write something to make this blog complete. the sick office i intended to ditch still let me ill for the sinful souls in it any time desperately challenge me, like China surveillance exerts all over scan and constrain over me. life on this scarred continent dominated by dog, including machine dog. but, after all, God, don't u see my life beaming so bright, my level of satisfaction ever increasing in ur blisses? God, last night u touched me with girl's love, i do missing my girls even urgent. in this rained air from 4th floor, God, i entreat ur bringing me my new family with my girls sooner. that's my beautiful hope in this lovable wet morning.

11/5/2011

a busy month puffing for online stuff.^this month i almost absent from my blog sphere. the reason is that i picked up my old hobby, collecting free stuff from web, esp. the shared, for i valued them high and no cause not to harvest while they still available in the spirit of freedom or pirate. everyday ends in elation with what heaps on my hard disk, for they mean happy time, no matter games or readings, under attraction of freedom world, esp from US. its really like a weightless dive, in God's shine.
last night i slept later, reviewing my chat below, God brings me insight in tangles among folks in my past dad's hometown village, Zhudajiu, mostly from a same ancestor, but devils among them drove the lost trying to challenge and defame my old family which so brilliant in its short earthly presence before i witness it vivid. i saw hostile so strong even generations unable shift the acid jealousy. God, u see the strong baring from the stem of Royal of China, and the even boarder world stage for my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of warozhu.com and wozon.net, future world leader every blessed sees. God, road toward glory unbiased straight for my family since my past dad, God in Heaven now. God, in this raining night, i see all bliss since my childhood, i witness the most scenery in the world my dad unveiled to me, in the mountain and its valley. God, the doomed against my Empire of China now even losing, harsher tools from the stolen state power barking desperate, God, u save and only ur word persist in one that untouchable. God, thank the month and today, thank the rain and thunders outside in this darker prelude of summer night.

10/5/2011

a chat online via qq with hometown folk, a childhood friend.^ [ 2011-05-10 ]
benzrad朱子卓 16:13:31
真不容易见到你。生意怎样，生活顺心吗？
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benzrad朱子卓 16:16:00
我的生活还不错，跟我儿子朱楚甲玩电脑游戏给我挺多乐趣。就是工资低，因为自从2006跟单位弄僵后没有具体工作，爱干啥干啥。现在盼着有结余坐飞机去看老家亲人。
朱才魁 16:16:01
您好，我现在有事不在，一会再和您联系。
朱才魁 16:50:36
我去年过年在家里过的
朱才魁 16:51:00
一家人都回去了
benzrad朱子卓 16:51:14
恭喜。我老家就两个姐姐我觉得亲一些。
benzrad朱子卓 16:52:15
你三弟现在靠谱一些不？前年在朱大九见到他儿子。
朱才魁 16:53:34
还不是长不大，现在两个儿子了，还不是我父母来管
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:06
真的很难跟他小时候的可爱和你说的现在的样子联系起来。不过，谁也不能看准谁的命运。
benzrad朱子卓 16:54:59
你父母那样不对吧，应该让他自己承担责任，否则总是没有机会看清他自己的处境。
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:39
有很多事得自己来，别人越帮越乱。
benzrad朱子卓 16:55:53
你几个孩子？
朱才魁 16:56:16
现在想想也是我父母管教子女的方法不对，生的子女都是没用的
朱才魁 16:56:57
我还能有几个，一个儿子跟你一样
benzrad朱子卓 16:57:52
不要悲观，人多数看不准的，命运能让劣势变成优势。真的。
朱才魁 16:58:58
也没有呀，现在都是靠自己，过得也不错呀
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:12
你三弟不喜欢家庭和孩子也可能他的锐气太重，那也可能是好事。一句话，凡事别太用定势去看，因为人实在太弱小。
benzrad朱子卓 16:59:56
那就好。快乐最好，千金难买。
benzrad朱子卓 17:00:37
下班了，你在店门面吗？
朱才魁 17:01:38
那个我是这样想的，人一辈子，年轻没受过苦，到长大总得吃苦头
朱才魁 17:01:57
现在是在家里的
朱才魁 17:02:07
店没做了
benzrad朱子卓 17:04:54
那现在怎么谋生？人命好我觉得不用你说的那些繁复。报应的看法很必然导致佛教。我觉得佛教是误人子弟，坑害中国人几千年。
benzrad朱子卓 17:06:15
世界的模式很可能不是像佛教的零和和孤寂。我这么想。
朱才魁 17:06:52
现在还是做生意呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:08:12
基督教教人相信万能的独神，这个信仰就能改变世界，即使极端的不自由也不能缚绊那个大自由。
朱才魁 17:09:38
人年轻的时候父母宠爱没吃过苦，长大了，父母帮不了，自己吃苦是必然的，这不是什么教，这是经验呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:09:54
不辩论了。
朱才魁 17:11:08
那也是没办法之后的办法了，人活着总得生活
benzrad朱子卓 17:11:16
我爸从不让我尝尝他的工作的苦，所以我今天的世界比他的更好。父母的爱能这样提高孩子。
朱才魁 17:14:06
父母不能溺爱子女，小时候让孩子吃点苦，子女大了，才能更好的应对生活呀
benzrad朱子卓 17:17:19
真心的爱，包括父母的真爱，是不会不想到孩子大的一天，独立的一天，自私的爱才是窒息人的。你的父母可能原本就是有不对的，在他们对你的三弟的态度里，所以你三弟这么逆。你怎么不相信世界上的事都是一个巴掌拍不响呢？！
朱才魁 17:19:23
这不是每个做家长的都能做的好的，要不怎么说是溺爱呢
benzrad朱子卓 17:21:10
你对。
朱才魁 17:23:37
我这是自身体会呀，现在走到这一步，真的吃了蛮多亏的
benzrad朱子卓 17:28:34
要用感灵的话说，你的生活多少都是你期待或接受的，人生每一步都有选择，如果你觉得世界在你的生活中提供选项太少，那很可能是你还未开化，你的世界原本就是黑暗的。看见恩典，就看见了光明，看见了自由（选项）。
朱才魁 17:30:39
你这又是那来的大道理，我看不大懂
benzrad朱子卓 17:34:05
我去吃饭了，再聊。祝你生活更开心和满意。
朱才魁 17:35:14
好的，
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:12:13
我觉得我刚才的发言不错，想留到我博客里给我儿子将来看，我把你的名改成"朱才魁"，行不？不是单独作为一个博客日记发表，而是作为一周的日记里的一天，跟其他几个工作日的日记一起发布，行不？盼你回复。我的博客：http://riveryog.blog.163.com
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:12:49
我不会那些东东
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:14:44
你爱咋弄随你
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:28
你不用管，真名隐去，就是在对话中显示我的思路。看起来就是这样：
太长聊天窗口发不过去，你放心就是。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:48
我写博客4-5年了，
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:15:58
就是自己的生活和想法。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:51
就是从聊天记录里拷贝下来。你看聊天记录，就是这样。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:16:57
谢谢你放心。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:18:50
西方叫信神的"spiritual"，中文叫灵修。就是有心人观察到人人心灵互动，世界大有逻辑。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:19:51
你的话真是多哦
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:20:33
我在得精神病后，放弃了强要，就开始观察到神的存在。然后读一些书。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:22:28
书也不能当饭吃呀，也试着做点什么赚点钱呀
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:22:43
每个人的道路都是有缘的，都是神的安排。我从来觉得自己不差，所以亲神是必然归宿。当然，我的父亲给我巨大的指引。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:24:00
你难道不知道你的道路是不用求的吗？我现在很好，为什么要去争庸人的东西？
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:25:32
金钱不是万能的，没有金钱是万万不能的呀
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:25:53
你要是感恩，你就不这么苦痛你过去吃过的所谓的亏。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:28:02
我吃亏是指我生活的态度，不是钱的错
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:29:11
富裕没有极限，我现在觉得我的生活里的东西够用，就是我上面说的恩典，我相信这是神的安排，我为什么要去做神不让我做的东西，比如张皇或抱怨？感恩就是富足。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:30:45
你说的也是，知足常乐，也不用为钱苦恼
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:33:32
难道钱多就能买来一切吗？比如纯真，或执信？人没法返回到童年，钱也没法洗赎不公正。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:34:03
今天我是话多。
朱才魁2011-05-10 18:36:31
唉，有钱我就不会让父母受那么多的苦了
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:38:09
有可能你父母一直预料着他们的今天。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:39:41
你现在开始不指责或耽心你家里的亲属，他们可能就真的慢慢不用你了。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:40:38
你不记得你爷爷吗？他抱怨他的生活吗？我记得他很少担忧。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:41:20
很有可以你父母心理不成熟。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:43:58
成年人过分姿态僵硬，不通融，可能就是不成熟。毕竟世上人没有太对的。尊重年轻人和新社会就是睿智。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:46:08
你家可能太在意经济上出人头地。老是耽心落困就可能招来贫困。我觉得真有信心的人总是会看着机会和繁荣。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:47:34
佛教是最典型的看空的信仰，结果真的使中国一步比一步羸弱和破败。
benzrad朱子卓2011-05-10 18:50:01
这话智者说过很多遍：你想什么你就是什么。现实就是你的视野和天空。注意：一般人会说你的视野就是你的现实。

7/5/2011

benzrad's comment/tweet in days.

riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：

no doubt it did so long.

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：for the sins in PRC, and most of the survivor&their offspring after civil war as well as sino-Japan war half century ago.

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：wonderful! glory to American people once and forever!

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riveryog神泉扶明宫(朱子卓)：God, grant me an improved workplace. save my energy from trifle violence ambushed by enemies of my Empire of China. 2011-05-03 08:58 来自网易微博

fine art of seasonal hope in raining moment.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 18 Apr 2011 01:39:00 +0000

17/4/2011

repentance in peaceful night.^last night before went to bed, God shows me my self-poised crashing baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲's space. i saw his need to live unbiased and independently fresh. i saw his deep love to his dad, me. after went to bed, i found all the mistakes the rain he made was in fact my fault, my unable to accompany him to game and fun finding. i saw my too proactive a fake cause to stay with him, Hope of China, God of Universe, full heart and full time. on bed i pray God to let baby know my repentance at once while i can't buzz him for too late. i pray God meaningful tomorrow will bring more joys when we gather together, pray God let me less commit cheap utterance that can lead me astray.
Its a sunny morning now. God, let my mistake meaningless, restore baby son's lightening heart and pure of joy. God, forever u see all facts and definitions predated. God, bring baby son his dell game desktop, that seemingly even urgent for my acer notebook now frequently power down when gaming, likely its video card too hot. we need a sound gaming gear.

17/4/2011

an official spring rain.^last week busy with hunting for downloadable pc games for son. also launched to backup source file of family album to google picasaweb. baby son yet recovered from cold, so his mom refused him to visit my dorm. i managed to visit him twice in the week, for joy of great games. last night i busy in my ditched office later than 8:30pm, listened music and rest in dorm lately. i let the window open when i went to bed, in dawn i woke up among rain drops' noise outside. its the largest rain so far in spring 2011, and i saw so many blisses in it. in dawn i dreamed of my college campus. Wujiang, one of my Nankai university alumni and now a professor in US, contacted a visiting faculty selling ginseng aside a lake. i was at a loss for my alumni swim skill better than mine. in the afternoon after i returned from baby's mom's house, i dozed on bed in dorm, dreamed of my past mother's affirmative love which protects me from any insane seduce. its a large rain and last so long, when i blogging here i wondered how to visit my baby son, whose house 4 bus stops from here. God, bring my son a dell game desktop as he asked. bring my girls so sweat in my heart and memory. leading me to the brighter life ahead, and more bliss in surest glory.
buzzed baby for the possible detaining by rain, but he insisted my visit. so launched after breakfast in canteen. with borrowed ￥10, i took bus then walked in drizzle and arrived. baby watching animation online, i waited aside some time, then we played pc game, a Japanese air combat. after some turns, i told baby i felt flat, asked for accomplishing my own tasks. all the day busy with uploading family album to google picasaweb, also restored his mom's notebook os from backup. baby lately engaged with watching an animation trying reiterating legend of Chinese traditional zodiac. the Made in China product quite sinister in propagation, so i quit baby and told him sins in Chinese, and everlasting seduce from demons' against the holy. i warned him be cautious on Chinese culture products, urged him less waste time on the shits, where bureaucracy is its main theme and obsession, and dirt in ordinary Chinese souls which blind from YHWH by poor quality polytheism, and sufferings as punishment for the blind. baby listened carefully, while his mom rushed to shift him away from me. i lately showered in public bathroom, returned to dorms in time for dinner. after enjoyed jog around the dorm, i sorted recent photos, then blogged till now.
God, purify baby son with saint readings, rid him off trash of traditional and new craps from PRC, or any sinister nowadays against my Empire of China ahead. God, forever powerful and holiest with son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, God, u see it.

9/4/2011

dreamed of past dad preparing his sons for travel.^dreamed in dawn. my past dad in good mood, preparing my 2 elder brothers and me to travel to his another workplace for trade. we all have nice parcels and baggages. kid brother and my baby son likely also enjoyed short gathering before depart. the villagers watched our launch of march with envy. Its a windy sunny morning while i missed breakfast, and i due to visit baby and entertain him with pc games now.

7/4/2011

benzrad's comment on the day.

fool's play for world hero in PRC's doomed outreach in this century.

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China losing on inconsistent with American platform, comparing booming Indian tech human force in US, and loss gaining weightily till it can't afford in future, till the last straw smashes again the bony mule drug, smuggling, forgery and tortures, ie. lawless addicted like a century ago, humiliated again against its official textbook whitewashed recent history, reveals the truth of gapping wound and vulnerable indispensable in root Chinese. China with its current fake socialism doomed to be buried in coming decade. People in the world will see PRC's barking in the corner as funny as fool's play, or dog's tail self-chase.
the world tomorrow, undebatable the one world under God's shine. glory once on US forever cherished by global citizen that's reasonable and responsible. God, one God, YHWH, clearly shows the road under Heaven ever-bright.

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a laugh soundless in PRC's wrest for world hero.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 07 Apr 2011 11:02:00 +0000

China losing on inconsistent with American platform, comparing booming Indian tech human force in US, and losing more till it can't afford in future. China with its current fake socialism doomed to be buried in coming decade. People in the world will see PRC's barking in the corner as funny as fool's play, or dog's tail chase.
the world tomorrow, undebatable the one world under God's shine.

in reference to: http://www.cnbeta.com/articles/139326.htm (view on Google Sidewiki)

budding life weights.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 07 Apr 2011 03:32:00 +0000

6/4/2011

a gloomy morning, a drizzle in afternoon and a rain in night.^Its first work day after the lunar holiday, Qingming. i joined the ditched office almost on time, to harvest downloadable games for baby son, even i hated to confront the sin on facing desk. all the morning the crap frequently overt stuck out his neck to stare at me, profaned the saint. I didn't even blink upon the sieged dirt&threats, self-possessed with tasks in executing. after the noon break i returned to dorm, napped after sorted my notebook disk. mostly its gloomy, like a prelude of sandstorm. during fixing my gtalk within gmail, i told my cyberspace friend from Taiwan that i planned to buy storage from google to store raw files from my FujiFilm camera, to endear family album more realistic. he helped me by accpet video chat invitation but never comment on my request of help on google storage plan, which doesn't support alipay, a Chinese mainstream online payment tool and my only overseas payment method now. i hope i didn't hurt friends from freedom world i wouldn't like to be separated from. God, bring us freedom of lightened hearts, shows the height and weight of human freedom of independent and friendly. God, bring me freedom of arranging my life as wished, bring my baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, owner of site warozhu.com and wozon.net, Hope of China, God of Universe, his promised present, a dell game notebook. bring my girls into our new marriage. God!
after gamed awhile on my notebook, its started drizzling. Asoh Yukiko, in such a extraordinary blessing event, could u see my situation? could u be safe and save Japanese from their vested land now in disaster? could u determined to join me to pave new road and garden for future Japan, the fate our blood linkage means to give? God, Asoh Yukiko, i'm ready for the historic migration, opener fence for our nations Heavenly bond since my spiritual wakeup. Yes, I'm the only captain on the vessel saves. join me sooner as God lets, as u will.

5/4/2011

dreamed of my past parents.^Today is lunar Qingming. this dawn dreamed of my past parents who saw my poor financial status. one of my teenage friend in Zhudajiu, my hometown village, Zhucaigui brought me some gifts. my parents watched me had to wait for remittance from baby's mom or my once work unit, ie. from my once work place. dad especially hope i can improve his living which so far shabby. then i got insight of devils in the village regarding my dad as their enemy. they r the 2 sons of my dad's 2nd elder brother, who died in his middle age, a neighbor who long time operated monopoly rice machine in the village, a neighbor who once a teacher in Mao's years, and long time cheap mimic of my dad's expertise and whose grandson still profaned my dad's name by mimic & mocks. this morning is sunny outside. hopeful baby's dell notebook sooner arrives. God, grant my son new dell game notebook, as my best gift in this hopeful Spring. God, dad, i wouldn't follow Chinese custom to burn printed paper bill as money in world of died, u will see the reality how well-being my Royal is to be under sunshine.

4/4/2011

dreamed of Royal prophet.^dreamed of Empire meeting about Royal secret. the prince too young, the math teacher praised the woman likely baby's mom, and scorned me for my mind absence. the course discussed part of the fate and secret of Royal of China. late sleep till 10:48am got up. Its a beaming Monday but according lunar Calendar Chinese in PRC enjoying Qingming Festival, a time to mourn past ancestors. yesterday baby showered in public bathroom with me. he immersed in wresting with a sin, likely a middle aged man who evaded my sight when i turned back near end of my shower&caught the dirty threat rushing to slide himself into hot pool where men herds, attempted to hide his sins from my aware. baby's nose ran out a large block of blood and mucus when i put on him, i wiped with towel but first time ditched bathing pack there, found the mistake till arrived baby's mom's house. i fetched it back on my own. on way back with baby son after bought him some candy from grocery aside the public bathroom, i affirmed baby son the mighty of God, forever blissed and growing his life on the earth to witness. when i left to QRRS dorms, his mom brought him with toy bike to roam outside, where brilliant sunshine still glorifying the day, Apr 3, 2011, lunar 1st of March. God, bring baby his promised gift, a dell game notebook. bring me my blessed marriage with my girl Zhou, as well as my other girls, like Taiwan girl, girl Lü, girl Jiang, girl on train from Harbin to Qiqihar in my 2nd hometown journey, and my God, my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. grows my Royal of China in course of my coming Empire&lives its 1109 years lifespan, God.

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happiness and anxiousness interweaved.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Sat, 02 Apr 2011 03:04:00 +0000

2/4/2011

days in bliss.^these days saw lots of beautiful girls around me, and i know my girl Zhou coming to me.baby's mom also overt talking about her new marriage, dispelled my visiting her house where i can dwell with baby with pc games. all these things moving and sorry, i mean, change occures in time with resolution. times and times I was drove by sexual desire from passing beauties, and this time my girls, best in best in my eyes' candy, due to descend and melting me in her boundless wave of ocean of love making. saint moments with baby son also let me sorry in retrospect, for he is so smart and faultless. i pray for more time to serve him for harvest and joy together with God in his universe. I tried to download more small games from web, but he still gamed a lot with his favorite game, worms 3D. his mom refused leaving him alone with me in my dorm, saying baby son yet recovered from recent cold. God, isn't my good time arriving, doesn't the world focus, like Japanese earthquake, Christian crusade diminishing Islam and Russian, pokes itself into world agenda and appeals the presence of Son, Son of the only God and creator of Universe, his decision and save, his brilliance and hardness? God, doesn't my girls broke sieges of enemies of my Empre of China and aligning under my castle that universally evergreen? God, doesn't new life of my Royal, my 2nd son, my 3rd son and other children glad to step in from world hedge? God, I'm ready for a long time for the booming of my family in ur shine, in title of Zhu's. God, bring my girls as well as my new families sooner in sunny summer, lift me into meaningful weighted life experience on the most pivotal stage in the world unites in one. God, see my girls the straight way to my rest room, God, u see.

27/3/2011

dreamed of alumni re-gathering.^dreamed of a guy in family name Xu, whose scores in our senior middle school usually quite enviable, in alumni gathering party. another guy, Peng Jinglei, also appeared. yesterday i update my online alumni pages with new photos, and read updates from my once classmates. Its now a bright morning, and I just enjoyed my delicious breakfast. these working week i usually joined old office on time, trying to gain stuff from web. the hard core gay on my facing desk again turned agile, busy on his seat profaning me from time to time, while his companion or mate, the monitor, this moment avoid joining the mud, likely learned from my exit so far since the dispute over office door's openning or closing. yesterday i worked in old office longest, left near 4pm, joined again from 6pm to 8:30pm, aiming prepared baby's weekend visit with more attractive pc games. on way back to dorm, i reviewed the office gay's wrong orientation since his childhood. God urged me to keep alerts among my attitude toward my sons, enabled them all independent and perfect self-possessed. God does not weaken his blessed by uncompleted. the dorm area first time encountered power down, resumed when i reviewed baby son's gaming experience. God, bring baby's dell game notebook sooner, let me enjoy family life with my girls! no matter how i busy with Internet, my empty heart for love brews hot. God, Asoh Yukiko, raise me to my life i deserve, inspire baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, hope of China, God of Universe, with changes under ur shine. God, u know.

11/3/2011

saw death itself.^dreamed in dawn. saw ghost of death master jumping to me, while I determined to see through, then woke up in terror. this week i joined the ditched office mostly mornings, usually left in fatigue, likely under the siege of sins there. however all my task list cleared with the convenience of Internet via corporate lan. google's reader still frequently broken, unable to load my subscribed feeds, google account was defied logout but less times after i did it via proxy tool against the surveillance, who likely realtime espionage. i can felt hatred against google gathering weight among dictator elite in PRC, and the elapse of the socialism also speeding up. barking dogs in the office continued their doomed fight, but that's a far distant echo of historical wound. baby's 2nd site, wozon.net, likely finally released, with homepage rewrote, some subdomains, like blog, wiki and forum, nicely settled. last night when i went to fetch baby son, i shown him the works online, he didn't comment, but i know the prize. i reported him my discuss with Taiwan friend on the gift, a dell game notebook as God promised, encouraged him praying for the ready after barrier behind it, surprise in front of it. i also shown his mom, who refused baby leaving her house the night for baby got cold, google maps. its so bright in the end of yesterday, baby son greatly enchanted by 3 new games arrived from web. i saw God's bliss even thick in this sunny dawn. God, bring me my girls and our offspring, bring my son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, Hope of China, God of Universe, his promised gift, a dell game notebook in nearest spring.

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noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 24 Mar 2011 02:58:00 +0000

The brightest star over the Oriental horizon already rising. warrenzh, 朱楚甲, hope of China, God of Universe, driving his world behind the dynasty on the tiny planet, the Earth, already launched. star of the world, prophet of the Earth, doesn't the bird of first dawn sunray singing at its highest chord? does not Son of men wrestle and won the sinkings? now its time to echo with the greatest bliss so far, God his own addressing the planet, on the scarred land of China that's proceeding into its second Dynasty of M明ing, again under title of Zhu's. blunt and blind people, don't u hear the mighty storm whirling over the Pacific Ocean? don't u spare ur works by witnes the brilliance of Heavenly descending? so its now, for u and ur cared, attest the shine.

24/3/2011

dreamed winning media awards.^dreamed won youtube and flickr award from my published video&photos. baby son and his mom accompanied me to join the ceremony. then dreamed of watching a table tennis contest, in which a outgoing sportsman won his weaker counterpart.
Its again a golden dawn. yesterday I visit baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, again by the way sending his mom my salary bank card. the improved salary, now amounts to ￥1800, arrived the day, after i checked more than 4 times on ATM since i received salary sheet several days ago. it was amazing sunny the moment i withdrew my living support to clear my debts on baby's new domain registry, and bundle of meals in canteen&sent to office. so i decided to visit baby as i promised him. the grandma already there, likely just fetched baby son from his pre-elemental school. i bought baby som cookies on the way. soon baby gamed on my notebook with a new game i just gained from web. the grandma left just minutes ahead her daughter's return, likely met on her road to arrange her daughter. so baby's mom refused to dine out with us, and cursed my frequent visits. i had to analyse her situation to persuade her change mind. I told her nothing can daunt me, nor death of mine or baby son, nor her incoordination or even sinister, for i solely follow God, the Majesty creator of all things and world, and order of God's. baby read a book on the floor when i elaborate with his mom. then we launched. on the way to restaurant i discussed the weakness among Chinese and Muslim, comparing with American people. i told him the ongoing war against Islamic ruling in Middle East, adoration of human respect and personal freedom, from the examples American leads. his mom soften her stance during the dinner, raised a question on google maps product for my tips. i picked last bus returned to my dorm. God, u see how rich the day for me and my Royal. God, Asoh Yukiko, bring baby son a dell game notebook, as he recently inquired about the promised gift. God, loosing China surveillance over Google products, let me read freely as usual. the sinful dictation in nowadays China these days restlessly broke google reader, attempted to trap me by refusing my logout google account, frustrated most websites around the world and global information seeker in the comfort of Internet. God, i know the downturn of the falling evil from fake idealism of Marxism-Leninism exactly on its way, closing to end never so speedily. God, let shine the scarred land in eastern Asia, follows Japan, Taiwan and other democratic systems soundly operating since World War Ⅱ. God, attending the dying dog machine in PRC, spare Chinese most from the ruin of political monopoly.

23/3/2011

dreamed of surfing the air.^dreamed of surfing in air with a surfing board. my past mother, baby son warrenzh, my kid brother appears in my air-surfing dream. in late dawn dreamed of baby son and my kid brother again.

20/3/2011

dreamed of shooting movie, and baby son.^dreamed i was preparing to produce a movie. my 2nd elder brother trying to make cheap alternative shooting way but failed. i tried new camera. in the end dreamed of baby son, and his heartbreaking pure love of Son's Heavenly. Its a sunny morning, after last night's strong wind. yesterday i carried baby to visit my ditched office in QRRS to settle his second domain, wozon.net, our family's 5th domain, after recharged by good news of improved salary, which amounts to ￥1800 2 months in series, on Friday when the salary sheet arrived on my desk. transaction settled on Mar 18, 2011, but for time zones' difference, i was affirmed by baby's godaddy account till this Saturday. i spent near an hour to find free hosting space plan disabled by the domain registrar, while baby waited aside for gaming on notebook so long. how smart he is and forever so! in the last i had to give up uploading my simple web site source files, with google apps free smb account in hand. we gamed awhile, then i persuade baby giving up his second night in my dorm for his mom urged him to return to have his handwriting class, and i badly want a hot shower in my frequent bathroom near baby's mom's house. baby narrowly admitted me, with reservation. we left my dorm near 3:30pm, soon i brought baby shower in the public bathroom. the underground bathroom let baby unease, i told baby my current financial status don't allow him enjoy baths more comfortable. baby then fought and complete shower, gamed again after we settled in his mom's house. the sinister younger sister arrived during our absence, likely trying to spy my data disk left in her sister's house. this morning when i arrived baby's mom's house, the sin slept in baby's bedroom where baby and his mom recently slept. enemy of my Empire of China paid the dirty and dark sin, the bitch, to pest my family, esp. baby's living place. i aroused&raised some blames before the sin left the house, while baby's mom, who turning more and more sinful in the fell and hell of her old family, kept silent. it's warm and bright when i launched to donate for suffering people in Japan after earthquake, as well as in Yunnak, southwestern China. for i can't find other available donating way via alipay.com, with which i had an account, so i picked a Japanese shop ( http://item.taobao.com/auction/item_detail.htm?item_num_id=9613022220 or http://aruyo.taobao.com/view_page-45548372.htm ) on popular Chinese e-commerce site, taobao.com, to make the transaction. the ammount is small, ￥60 (￥50 for Yunnan. https://lab.alipay.com/life/donate/enter.htm?name=zfbaxjj ), but i still felt God's praise, Asoh Yukiko's adoration. I also prepared a pc game baby asked on his desktop, gamed awhile as baby asked. when we left for baby's music lesson, we really thankful, except the losing woman, baby's mom with her easy angers. i told coldness gathers in elders' heart, encouraged baby finding fun his own against boring and meaningless, esp the surveillance from nowadays Chinese authority against our vested Empire of China under title Zhu's, separation&disperse against my Royal of China emerging in one as pre-date in Heaven. last night reported the largest moon in half century for recording space intimate to the Earth, but since afternoon its windy outside. when i got up to make water midnight, i saw the halo really brilliant and soft. now with sunshine outside, after missing 2 meals today, in this tiny&shabby room alone, i pray my new life with my girls descending me sooner, pray baby's burden of loneliness lessen, all in ur setting, God, Asoh Yukiko, dearest dad, best of the best in ur bliss!

18/3/2011

dreamed of pets.^dreamed in an UN force team assigned to Africa. afraid breaking my kid brother's hand wrist but in fact its well. played in holiday, later found heavily wounded&bleeding pet cat, also a doggie. till i felt sorry and remove their barrier, they returned to their nest&settled. their suffering and enduring silently shocked me with love. Its a gloomy morning, but I know Asoh Yukiko's blessing.

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hope of Internet in the end of annual congress session

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 15 Mar 2011 12:05:00 +0000

15/3/2011

dreamed of blacks.^last night merely backup some home movie to picasaweb. China surveillance heavily blocked my posting photos to my online album. this dawn dreamed lengthy in a continent whos habitants mostly blacks, with a guy from a pc game "lost horizon" I played with baby son months ago. his name is padlock. we made friends among the black, including girls, and their King, in the progress underwent our commitment. when i ate breakfast near 8am, in canteen a hooligan once lived in the dorm back to years when I was single and just joined QRRS, the railway wagon mill, now in his 40's, there stared me bluntly. yesterday he also visit the dorm when i leaving my room. local mafia really smelt bloodiness from paid murder conspired by enemy of my Empire of China. Today is also the end of annual congress session which lasted a week, hopefully machine dog that ruling China now would rest for some time. last night China surveillance first time in the week didn't cut down my Internet after 8pm. God, bring my dorm Internet, lead me into my life i dreamed, with my girls who so aspiring out of dirt&dust.

14/3/2011

bright morning after cleansing snow in early Spring.^time glides as it should be, but my pray for a improved workspace endures. baby son now regularly visit me and berth Friday night in my dorm in QRRS, my previous long time employer. he asked for 2 sequent nights in my dorm but i so far refused him for the sake of his mom's jealousy which turning thick after i unbiasedly shown her freedom in my heart after our resolved divorce, after found painfully sins in her family too deep to afford for sternness of my family, nor cohere in glory of God, my son&my past dad's. baby still reined by his mom by compulsive e-piano practise, sometimes his miserable cries loathing to the music instrument lets me sorry&baseless. i wait for his own desicion to quit the burden said according his mom chose himself half year ago, influenced by his pal and attracted by a nearby music school, which rampant in nowadays China, when he still came over to QRRS' kindergarten. i sure saw why his mom so energetic to bridle the green life with constrain in which she gaining in advantage post likes a teacher. i pray God let baby son, warrenzh, be decisive, and i will forever support his choice. God, in this sunny morning, u see my sorrow and loneliness. bring my girls into my new family, bring my improved workspace, reunite baby son with his proud dad in his elegant palace.
Its a busy Monday morning. last night i sorted stuff on my notebook till 1am. however, i got up earlier than 7am and had my favorite breakfast in canteen. all the morning busy on computer, rarely recently for i usually sleepy after breakfast. napped at noon, dreamed of baby son's sufferings and my heartbreaking love in him. also dreamed of my eldest brother returned from northern China to our hometown, Hubei Province, central China, reporting bankrupts in medicare system. then in half awaking, reviewed the elapse of my past mother, felt that's her wrong doing, or her payment for her mistakes, or risk herself to test&attest. in holy flashlight, i saw nothing reverts God's everlasting life, and timeless Majesty, and any creature of God enjoy broadest freedom to make errs, to die, to experiment, under God's ever sustaining saves. in a retrospect, i see life's bearing and endurable, i see boundless freedom of quest one's destiny at will, in God's timeless and limitless creation and loving. in a light i see braveness in heart of baby son, warrenzh 朱楚甲, and among my beloved. I know my past dad 朱中明, God, chose to ditch his worn body I took for granted, for him a just weightless step for ascending world, remould into Spiritual &all sources. It turns pale now, but I know touching love in Asoh Yukiko's heart, in holy source we linked.

11/3/2011

a clear day among Spring late snow.^it started to snow likely in mid night, covered the ground considerable when i woke up lately around 9am, after a nice dine out with toast beef with baby son and his mom last night. the buffet restaurant jammed heavily when we arrived after 6pm, but baby's mom managed to be shared a large table with other 2 families, an couple just in their honey mood, a family with a son in three. meat is rich, we hardly swallow all, including baby's mom's good appetite after baby and me finished our dinner rapidly after cookies. we walked on way home awhile as baby's mom suggested, then took bus, departed near Qiqihar railway station. baby walked home with his mom while i on feet walked passing 4 bus stops to my QRRS dorm. baby asked my visit on this Sunday but refuted by his mom. God lets me buzzed baby for grant first, after failed in the air to alert nor alter baby's mom about baby's painfully loathing to practise piano while his mom push hard to harness him with the clause in which she niched by superficial gaining role as teacher's. then i took bus to visit baby in his mom's house, where the sinister younger sister of baby's mom again there occupying computer&Internet. i waited untill the sin left baby's room for lunch, then i continued my work to secure family google accounts with 2 step verification based on cellphone's sms function. baby's mom cooked porridge and asked me to have some. after lunch, baby's mom tried to force baby napping with her, but baby soon gave up his obedience, got up to play pc games i just made ready on his desktop, found interesting when we gamed the night before in my dorm, the second night in which i gradually made it a custom to live baby a night in my dorm when I solely serve him on every Friday, after the breakout the sinful family of baby's mom aroused weeks ago, as disclosed in my previous blog. when i too busy between baby's game and my on work to make exemption of sms tweeting between ISP&client through baby's contacts under custody on his cellphone, to allow family tweets' sharing, i persuaded baby to try his own in game or rest if too hard, his mom woke up&scorned me as usual, blaming my absence even with baby aside. then we left together near 2pm, they for baby's music lesson while i returned to my dorm. the warm air of Spring lets snow melting all around. so i told baby the merit and rarity of mountains against flood and bizarre weather, as well as my hometown, mountainous Hubei Province in central China. his mom asked we left first, as she frequent practices recently, prepared herself behind alone. the dorm is quiet when i arrived, i felt the precious moment of boring in rain day, warmth of family and relatives, bliss of Asoh Yukiko, God of Sun&wind&rain, but i saw more silent moment anyone facing oneself in full loneliness, and even urgent Internet for me, as way of meaningful and creative.
God, these days so beautiful for me, for my Royal of China, esp. this cloudy and snow-melting day! bring me my improved work space, bring me my new family with my girls that pray and in full hearted love and adoration. God, sanity forever with my baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe. U see, God.

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life under siege looking forward breakthrough.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Tue, 08 Mar 2011 11:39:00 +0000

8/3/2011

wordless elation for new hope in Spirit.^last night i again dreamed of my sibling gathered for my broken family. i felt sleepy&got up later than 9am. last night in office i tried to settle family qq emails' interconnection, as the monopoly Chinese portal offers free backup email accounts. but the shit ISP blocked my operation for several times since last weekends, erring too frequent accounts' authentications. download turns normal, first time since the annual congress session, which offered China surveillance a cause to tighten its Internet espionage&blocking, result in lagging surfing days. but they shamelessly blocked my logout google several times, likely trying steal my cookie or keep session alive after i go offline via mirror port on all routers they control. returned to dorm i busy with sorting disk till 9pm then went to bed. yesterday likely a new college class join QRRS, the railway wagon mill, for practise. i casually watched them noisily queued to join the dorm i settled near a year transit to my new family. there is few girl among them, indicating Chinese young population really gender far unbalanced. last night i also buzzed my elder sister in central China many times, attempting to express my delayed sense about their financial pinch, got wired lately when i on way returning to dorm from ditched office, told her i will set paying back her money, amount to ￥3000, as my highest prior in this year. she tried to pacify me&i know the love. today is a bright day, for the sunshine so straight&amazing. God, Asoh Yukiko, u know my past days webless in near 4 months is really a test for my sustainability, and i enjoyed it so far, in the aim to make room for coming affairs that's more important in my agenda or daily workload. i think i can graduate from the camp now. bring me my girls and my lifestyle lavish now, improve my workspace now for the bliss in air i deserve. God, see my situation&shift me to new height facilitates my saint task here, in ur title.

6/3/2011

wonderful Sunday morning.^this dawn dreamed of my old family, including my elder sisters, younger brother's family, gathered for my broken family, trying to make my life alone easier, in my hometown. crows shrieked outside at once i woke up, reminds me sadness in baby son's heart, as he did yesterday when i forced him to return to his mom's house after a night full of pc games harbored in my QRRS dorm, amongst his insisting a second night here in my dorm. he cried again seemingly unreasonable when i broke his watching animation online in his mom's house, in an attempt to fix the poor webTV sofeware Chinese made which unable to save his watching history nor bookmarks. i scorned him, trying to bring into light what really let him so sad in such a casual case and sound day. when i accompanied him with his mom, who leaving to shop for baby's educational gear his school demands, i gabbled about the vitality of one's self-confidence, and the otherside, the unreal outer world like education, work experience heavily exerting competitive burden on any youth, misleading nowadays Chinese kids' lives and expectation on their earthly existence. his mom kept silent during my preach on way to my bus stop. in the night i listened music via my notebook all time, praying gift, a dell game notebook for baby son, and other wishlist while jogging in dorm. baby's enjoyment last night in the tiny room still warm my memory&worldview. God, Asoh Yukiko, u see how pure baby's love in his dad, who trying his best to guard his teenage education as well as spiritual awaking. God, dad, u see all my afforts secured by ur Majesty, shines in dented copper Royal history of new China Empire under title of Zhu's&lives 1109 years ahead after rest, under God's shine. God, i need my second son and third son to descend from Heaven, i need tenderness of my girls' love from noisy crowds. forge us in new horizon in first sunray of Spring dawn, in this year, in this season, on the land. God, show me ur light and enlightenment as usual&forever, God, let now the brilliant sunshine outside since my arrival to baby's bed's side testifies it for the blind minds! God, save my hometown beloved lives in considerable confort, for ur land means hospitable for the blessed, like my sibling' family in central China.

3/3/2011

op phoenx to break sieges.^yesterday dauntingly smooth when i launched to rebuild clean os after found strange behavior on my notebook. since morning planning the operation against China surveillance. in office after work time, i got all patches to os&av&common tools online, all almost finished at same time among especially lagging Internet due to the defensive attitude by China authority for the coming annual congress session. i left office near 8:30pm, gratefully. there were 2 once colleagues worked there overtime. they stayed since the day before yesterday, likely officially assigned to espionage me when the congress session just to open&lots of state forces harnessed all over the territory in fear of rally of protests or revolt gravitate the event. in dorm i continued to sort os&backup, went to bed near 12am, felt so happy through the infectious sniffing of China surveillance jamming the Internet domestic. this morning i first time kept active after breakfast, migrating saved games. my Taiwan friend these days appeared online in my contacts but didn't respond to me when i informed him my remittance, i doubted if our chat blocked asymmetrically by China surveillance or he felt hurt&loathed to befriend me anymore. baby's mom with baby son returned from her hometown journey on Tuesday&buzzed me in the night. i hope in this weekends we enjoy our pastime as usual. God, bring me dell game notebook u promised as my best gift for baby son, warenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, grant me independent living that anxiousless. Asoh Yukiko, join me sooner and bring my girl Zhou, girl Lü and my Taiwan girl. my life needs new lives now.

1/3/2011

dreamed of passed mother&hometown.^dreamed of my Nankai Univ. alumni on a train to my hometown. one of my cousin, Zhu wusong, help me travel from neighbor village to my past dad's village, Zhudajiu, &very glad to arrive my hometown. got up earlier&ate breakfast. dozed again, dreamed my past mother inquiry my dream, so i reiterated baby&his mom in my dream. then review the heartbreaking farewell scene in movie "under hawthorn trees", doubting the English translation of the protagonist's Chinese name, which only has first name Jing 静秋, never disclosed her family name. the actress, a Zhou, however, i got known from the starring list.

28/2/2011

a day sees peace&fruits.^last week meaningful for sainity of baby's living space: i at least temporarily drove away the sinister younger sister of baby's mom. she slept with baby's mom, as well as baby son, warrenzh, for quite some time recently, like a rat in dirty cave. she also used all her sinful means to seduce baby son for the clif of fell. i tolerated it for weeks, but unable to hold on on last Saturday when she let baby counting down 200 digit to play qq social game online with her. she in fact a dying prostitute&infectious, that out of debate as i spoke out in my previous blog. she in her 20's but still in a drifting life, without a job nor supporting life tools like boyfriend or social circle. she clearly know what a crap she with her life had been&continues to be. but she felt her elder sister's broken marriage can allow her remarks, like leaking egg for flies. i told baby many times how dirty the sister of his mom is, but God let me to break out&drive it away, rather than by baby, who is so green&pure, himslef to shows cold-shoulders to the bitch. the noon when the grandma, a sin herself, cooking fried beef, i refused to dine together. when baby was held by his mom trying to sleep to avoid my blames, i started to name out sins in the distorted relation among the mother&daughters in baby's mom's old family. i blamed baby's mom in fact belongs to her mother or her old family, far from a normal mother nor wife of her own. the little woman soon brought baby son to her workplace to avoid my criticism. i went to public bathroom to shower, while the grandma cleaning her daughter's house. in the shower stream, i felt upset, exhausted, but near the end of shower God summed me up to my sound decision. when i returned the house, baby brought by his mom returned from her school, likely trying to pacify my rages. i told her if she continued messing our baby's bed with insane or sick persons like her cheap kid sister who selling everything everywhere shamelessly, she would facing my sue in court. i told baby China's modern law system all borrowed from US, the land blessed by&obeys to God. i told him he is protected by civil world that disallow abnormal abuse against teenage. his mom didn't refute, so i soon carried baby on shoulders launching to leave her house. i brought my salary bank card&withdrew ￥600 from a nearby bank with baby. a woman in police suite just leaving when we queued to be proceeded. the bank clerk cordially acquainted us when we finished operation. i carried baby on feet to my dorm, for no small changes to pay bus. baby slept on my shoulders half way. he also slept in my dorm first night, after dined in the canteen which also welcomed us warmly. we played pc games lately, then i washed baby's feet with warm water, answered his questions about his past grandpa's legend, &common science. i encouraged him to buzz his mom 3 times before we went to bed near 10pm. even the bed&quilt too small, i didn't suffer cold in the night. baby son reported restless before falling into dream but i senseless upon it for i slept soon in the night. next day i brought him together to bank, trying to remit my Taiwan friend for his old help on my family domains' registry. but banks don't allow overseas transaction in weekends. so we visited my ditched office, trying find funs on the web. the dog in office working there, lately left. i setup online games via google chrome webstore&let baby gamed online awhile. soon baby's mom asked to fetch baby for his music lesson. so we soon left after the office dog left. an once female colleague who brought her son to visit Qiqihar Peace Square near River Nen, both on the other part suburb of the city, met up us on bus stop, sinisterly claimed baby son looks more like his mom. baby's mom squeezed not to allow me enter her house when we arrived, so i left. on way God lets me return to settle 2 games baby son enjoyed on my acer notebook last night. i acted accordingly&returned the house. i migrated the games as well as our saved profile onto the desktop&hasee notebook in baby's mom's house. baby left for music lesson with his mom near 1pm, after wept for compulsory exercise on electronic piano his mom demanded. i surfed there, trying to download more games from web. the grandma join the house later&washing, then left abrupt by threat from her abusively bullying second daughter, who likely accused her for ally against me on the phone. they deserved hell for the downward abnormal family bond&selfishness inside even in kin. baby's mom reconciled after returned with baby, asked me to write back their bill in KFC after baby's music lesson. she said again she will bring baby son join her grandma's birthday next 3 days, let me not to buzz her for cross provincial communication costs additional mobile fees. in the night, i thanked God for the save downturn upset&silent building of sufferings to righteous correction into baby's environment poisoned by enemy of my Royal of China, superficially the sinister sister of his mom's. this morning i woke up later, dozed again after got up. near noon i finished remittance after queued for more than half of an hour. sorted disk&web brower's data after lunch. now its brilliant outside. God, bring my girls sooner, esp. my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, into my life on new horizon. grant me new improved workspace&gift long time anticipated for baby son, a dell game notebook. God, bless me ur Holy message like sun beams in this spring abundant. God!

fight&reach out for improved life digital&online.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 24 Feb 2011 11:04:00 +0000

24/2/2011

a day for gift for baby son.^yesterday is a bright day. the night before when i worked in the ditched office online, God let me discuss new loan of 6000rmb, for a dell game notebook, with my Taiwan friend. he helped me preview changes i made to baby's site, warozhu.com, for it deadly blocked in PRC. China surveillance cut down my Internet just after i claimed, the brighter my future, the better i can pay him back. i waited for Internet resume for half an hour, left office after found the breakdown by China surveillance is thoughtful&determined. the night i buzzed my elder sister in hometown, central China, about my hatred kid brother. she told me she with her husband loaned our kid brother 30000rmb for his small business (officail site: http://www.pinschina.com ). i dozed again after breakfast, as recent frequent cases. when my energy resumed, God shows me to act at once for the coming gift. so i went to baby's mom's house, trying settle the deal to buy baby a game notebook from dell.com. the house jammed with baby's mom's family, the grandma, her second daughter, baby's mom herself. i elaborated with Taiwan friend, who felt the loan too large&refused me. when he told me his decision, baby asked me to game with him. dinner soon started. i told baby's mom my assignment of the missing income, amount to 1500rmb, found on the rebuilt bank card after she lost it. she less irritated&checked my expense log on http://www.buxfer.com , accepted my writen back bad debt on her stealthy withdrawal&spent. returned to my dorm, i watched agian the movie, "under the hawthorn tree", wept again for the pure love. God, the burning love shines the dark years Chinese struck for a better future inspired by Marxism, a masked fake dogma just fitted in to break the dying, vicious&poisonous Confucius disabled Chinese for thousands years. i was encouraged to cherish new republic of China as a breakout and new transit paving my new Empire of China will last 1109 years, under God's shine&shrine. in this dawn, i dreamed gathered with my Nankai Univ. alumni, shooting photos when we sport to upstairs the skyscraper, TV tower. God, Asoh Yukiko, i know baby's dell game notebook is now out of doubts, still i look forward to see it sooner. God, Asoh, this week still is a bright week, and right time for the new bliss. cheers baby son up with the timely present. God, my dearest, u hear. love me, love my bird sooner. join in our family&blood bond.

22/2/2011

second snow in lunar new year 2011.^last night i again surfed via the ditched office. i talked with my Taiwan friend who loaned me to buy domains that i decided to admit the loss baby's mom withdrew from my account stealthily, amount to ￥1500. the change occurred after i watched a movie "under the hawthorn tree" baby's mom lent me. its a touching love story happened in China decades ago. i wept a lot for the pure love. God shows me the most valuable thing on the earth is timely love. i buzzed baby&his mom several times after the watching, attempting to express my love to the world. his mom still in anger but less exploding. its a sunny day, exeptional bright. after dinner's jog, i can't resist appealing of Internet, so i dropped in my old office. i tried to fix the homepage of baby son, warrenzh's site, http://warozhu.com . even proxy tool can't penetrate China surveillance, so i had to ask help from overseas friend to preview changed result. this dawn i was woke up by busy people cleaning snow in the dorms. yesterday likely the first day large scope snow melting. Spring, with its warmth&sunniness, stepping to us. God, Asoh Yukiko, i mostly seeing my preferred season, as well as life style lavish as i like, fetching me into my harbor of mental&physical. God, Asoh, these webless months let me know how important my own slot of supply is. grant me a new improved workspace, with thunder speed Internet. God, u see how i value the works of web as future reality, as baby of mental. bring me onto the magic landscape of vast&vest. save baby's mom from ruin in her heart, redeem her sin by her baptism. forever ur untouchable glory, God, Asoh Yukiko, our baby son, warrenzh, God of Universe, forever his joys&anxiousless. Asoh Yukiko, save me from loneliness by ur companion now.

21/2/2011

finally got my acer notebook.^past week especially busy. i surfed most work nights in the week in the ditched office after work time over&its staff left. i settled most urgent tasks i enlisted, like claimed new publishing account for baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, prepared him his workspace online. i also tried to update family 4 domains' homepage, adding google friend connect web elements onto its forums, like http://forum.be21zh.org ,fine tuned family google sites&forums with new sidebar which includes all resized logos i designed. previously i only place the original size of my logos online, just let my web pages to resize it, which costs more time to download. now most of them have orginal&iconized size. till Tuesday i saw light of free time, and i buzzed first time baby son in the week. on Friday, i got salary spreadsheet, visit baby at once for the improved salary, amounts to ￥1821. i talked online to my Taiwan friend who loaned me to register 2 domains, talking about returned him ￥500 first. in Saturday i treated baby&his mom in a Koreal cuisine restaurant with toast mutton, as i hungry for it when i suffered hunger alone penniless in the past lunar Spring Festival when most Chinese enjoy the greatest holiday. baby ate happily, more than his usual bites. on way returning to his mom's house, his mom left us to withdraw from my salary bank card. i played awhile pc game with baby then went to shower. when i returned, his mom told me she lost my bank card&need my own go to bank to reclaim a new one. its near over time, but we managed to make a new account for my salary from QRRS, my once and long time employer. the worker in the bank help us to print transactions since last month. i asked to keep the print sheet for i need the new account id on the paper to inform the accountant in QRRS the change. soon in dorm after i check the sheet, i found missing income from QRRS, who totally added bonus near ￥6000 around lunar Spring festival, while baby's mom totally withdrawn ￥6600 in the period, when my debt her less than ￥3000 before the festival. God, isn't it ur arrangement to let me see ur seasonal gift i prayed for is richly granted? isn't it ur righteous help to let the sinful little woman quit from her crime of cheat&stealth? God, isn't it as u told me i was the most informed&pivot of world most important affairs? in the night i roamed in dorm later than 11am, with enlightment of hidden foul by the sinister&joice of new gifts from Heaven. i informed baby's mom about the fact near 8pm. the night i slept sound, dozed again after next day's breakfast. when i woke up after 12am, i got Holy message that i can from now on keep my acer notebook i laid in baby's mom's house for baby's games but mostly occupied by his mom so long, now that the hope of buying baby a new game notebook appears more promising. when i buzzed in baby's mom claimed she is leaving the city to join her grandma's birthday a trip of 3 hours train, and no one stay her house to let me fetch my acer notebook. in less than a quarter, i decided to visit her house by taxi. when i arrived, the woman cursed me for my visit as usual. baby&the grandma didn't leave all the day, herself later than 3pm buzzed in, said she missed the train&didn't travel. so she likely had a longer time behavior of lying me. i busy with migrating data there, then went to computer market to buy a 16gb udisk for myself, a mouse to replace the broken for baby's desktop. its so nice a day, who is sunny most the day. in the night in dorm, i felt hard to calm down for my acer notebook. in the dawn, i dreamed a lot. a once colleague, Mahongsheng, appeared in my dream. he promoted to a higher rank&boast his management expertise in dream. then i dreamed of the ruling tribe of latest dynasty in Chinese history, Manchu (满族), i worked among them to inspect a leaking dam erode by many underground streams. God, its a pale morning, but my old hope of improved family life is even stronger. save me from defacement by sins i walked by or through, bring me my new family with my girls on new horizen! God, bring baby son a new dell game notebook, so as let us happier in the ill-cogged interest in his mom's.

From Lunar Spring Festival 2011

narrow door hole towards brighter future in the stealth night.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 11:55:00 +0000

10/2/2011

a restless night preparing baby son workspace online.^now its a sunny morning. i got up near 6am after woke up in the rest of elation in last night's operation. my task list queues longer since the office relocation. in the past greatest lunar Spring Festival, i broke my neck to look out Internet arriving my work place in QRRS Dorm, a niche exiling from the sinful office where paid criminals baked me with threats daily and profaned me for a long time, but in vain till yesterday, the 1st work week in lunar new year 2011. i buzzed the dorm's director, but reply was ambiguous, like all the contacts i made with the authority. i knew China surveillance making buffeting decision, and still in doubts upon its doomed failure. God, &my glorious ancestor since Ming Dynasty, already grants me my improved workspace. baby still in tour with his mom visiting her relatives in neighbor province, i sometimes ate poor food, like canned instant noodle, in the happiest time in Chinese memory in a year. on the day time seemed still, failed my many tries to kill it, like pc game, sorting disk, roaming, etc. its however, a bright sunny day. near the end of work time in QRRS, the mill of railway wagons, i decided to borrow my old&ditched office Internet for some hours. on routine jog, i figured out tasks urgent to accomplish in the operation before the close time of the office building. God helps me smoothly execute, in the near 3 hours in puffing rush. i claimed new namespace, wozon (http://www.flickr.com/people/wozon) and wozonow (http://wozonow.blog.163.com), for baby son's less important content account against China surveillance when he still greenhorn in the cyberspace. i also narrowly posted recent photos to picasaweb. even intended to post 2 written blogs in dark time of webless for more than 2 months, but time's limit curbed it. in dorm before went to bed near 10pm, i sorted bookmarks to catalog the loot in the light of holy. this dawn i continued bookmarking till see the brilliance outside. God, bring me my new life with my girls, spare me in my new&improved work space!

6/2/2011

a cloudy day.^yesterday i buzzed too much hometown that got some hurts among my relatives there, as well as my brain by the cellphone. i reviewed my kid brother's fading marriage, his sinful intention to challenge my soveraign by stealth&covert, and not surprisingly the enemy of my new Empire of China that lives 1109 years ahead conspiring to tear my siblings apart, via seduction and cowardice both, on the weaker or pendinger among my old family members. my kid brother lived hard now, with hungry mouthes for feed, but he long time had a tendency for violence&rapacity. he was mainly educated by my dark mother, who left the world last year, and these years brewing failure&hatred upon my unbeatable authentic under shine of my passed dad, God, alone. my kid brother felt he can make a living by robbing me. he just bland upon the sainity of the Royal of China, the forever untouchable glory of the Son, for he is blunt unholy now. i tried to elaborate my anxious with my 2 elder sisters, whom the brother just visiting for traditionaly Chinese custom, but i narrowly failed myself, for the sin evaded my description the moment. on bed after washed my feet, it turns clear, and i prayed our dad, God, to grant me freedom to act capable anytime anyway. praying God to see through&lead over the direct conflict between my kid brother&me against enemy of my Empire sieged us, the sore mud&hot water their virus hidden sown. praying God brings space&freedom into my kid brother's heart&business, deceases burning imprudicity&arrogancy stemmed from failure or hurt inside, let him support his family independently and respectably graciously. God, my Royal of China, as well as the holy land in ur title, forever untouchablely saint&beautiful&unmistakably legitimate. bring my girls so sweat&cordial to me in our prime time for the coming Empire of China! God, shift me into my improved workspace as u promised, lightn the world by my gospel here from ur Spirit.

2/2/2011

new lunar year of 2011, starter of new progress from old oath&commitment.^this Spring festival is the most enduring holiday i felt so lonely. baby's mom kept uncoorperative to bargain me for her interest in our ended marriage. baby first time visited my new dorm after last Spring festival visit when my dorm assigned on the 2nd floor in the same building. with 2 small cabins, a computer desktop, my new office attracked baby's likeness. we gamed on notebook, and one Japanese game extraordinarily immersed him. i carried him haunted twice a seasonal open-air market for crackers, once after lunched nearby economically. he greatly enjoyed those crackers when we fired them together on the ground. he also received quite some praises from working staff in the QRRS Dorms on his smartness&charisma. we bought a cake on way returning to his mom's house in sunset. its a bathing piglet theme&we accompanied the full process it molded&painted by a beautiful girl in the cakeshop. we enjoyed it in the night, while his mom especially in the present summoned to shot photos. the night baby insisted we slept on one bed in his mom's bedroom. baby laid his leg on my belly crossing 2 quilts, one in which i slept alone. i slept lately but sound. his mom arranged to spend the eve of Spring Festival in her mother's house, so we departed in morning, &reunited around 2 am to dine together rich the grandma prepared. in the case i talked a lot with her step-father, whose intimacy with the family quite gappy after his failures in his career not only bankrupted his state-owned company when he in charge, but also his private investments, in my view. baby quite glad&listend my talks aside patiently. we gamed&created new records in pc games after dinner, after found the young uncle self-defeated&refused to help us break each hard mission in 2 games as we previously expected from his game expertise. i walked to dorm in dusk, stayed till time to watch CCTV Spring Festival party live. a male dropped in when i alone watching in the neighbor dorm's TV room, challenged several times but none succeeded&quit finally. i received a call from hometown, in which i encouraged my kid brother's wife to endure her hard time when their marriage besieged by the husband's new female partner in his business in Guangdong, southern China. i left the TV till the end of the party, with stronger faith in my bond with my girl Zhou, as well as my Royal&family duty over China in next millennium. its a sunny festival, but my hope for my new life, my new family with my girls, even brighter. God, help me step forward firm&in ur bliss. this is my prayer on first day in lunar new year 2011.

From Lunar Spring Festival 2011

From in deep winter 2010, &early beams of spring 2011

2 dark months webless.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Thu, 10 Feb 2011 10:26:00 +0000

26/1/2011

2 overnights online in visiting baby son.^this week God attests my sound body: i surfed 2 overnights, only slept 3 or 4 hours in the afternoon between. baby still haunted by regular boringness, &complained about his mom's obsession with online novels or games while let him lonely&aimlessly. when online in late night&dawn, i research my sites' SEO, haunting for games downloadable. i see clearer sky over my web presence, as my glorious ancestor grants. I also in these days felt unsettled about the feeling of my girls', esp. my 3rd wife girl Zhou, and 4th wife my Taiwan girl's. that more or less upset our gaming pleasure when baby joined me playing pc games. I also tried to persuade baby practising typing via a typing instructing software, but baby loathed to obey, partially want to bargain with me for more time accompany him in his mom's house, the only place now we can make full use of computers&Internet. last night he asked twice to combat with elastic paper rods with his mom, who still busy with her reading online. baby miserably told me he now only has his mom based, that let me even acide in heart, for I this moment didn't faciliated spare to care his living hand by hand routinely. but when i joined their combat game, performing a swordsman, baby greatly entertained&sweat after actions&screams. i kissed&woke him up in this early morning. he joined at once his favorite game, "angry birds", with setting unlocks all missions i just downloaded from web, with bearing concentration. when i prepared to leave and urged him to keep active&enjoy life, he told me he frequently felt tasteless. that let me sorry after i settled in QRRS dorm. so i buzzed his mom aiming to persuade her to attend baby more, but she rebuffed me as usual, till afternoon i got a coupon from QRRS which cheered her up a bit. when i buzzed in again after dinner, they dining out. God, u know this night i will settle in the dorm, where i more and more felt like my own workspace, protect baby any time with meaningful and interesting ideas&actions! bring the most beautiful things he deserves into his teenage, God, i entrust u! tomorrow will be day for my second wife, Crowned Queen of China from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. my dearest, my God, smooth baby's hard single heart with ur tenderest love&hospitality, my dearest, bring our family in harmony together sooner!

24/1/2011

last snow before lunar Spring Festival 2011.^last weekend again in elation of God's seasonal gifts: i got a bonus of ￥900 from QRRS, my once&long time employer. visited baby soon after got the information from department cashier. i told baby's mom my assignment of financial support for the coming greatest festival on lunar calendar. baby's mom again sighed for unsatisfied upon the bulk. the Friday night i slept on baby's bedroom, where i more and more dislike comparing with my dorm. baby first time agreed to shower in public bathroom with me in Saturday afternoon. we basically had a nice shower, beside baby more or less shocked by men's flesh scene for he never joined public male bathroom before. except lagging download sometimes upset me, our gaming experience on pc can be exciting in the weekends, as usual. i had to research a game alone after returned to dorm to breakthrough the dead lock, &succeeded. my Taiwan girl those days restrained herself from me, likely warned by China surveillance against me. i also in the 2 days told baby more about the important moment now i chose sliding away from his mom's bad tempor&messy house, eager&closer to my new marriage which will brings us a solider niche for stable life experience, after so many years of drifting in dorm&impairment.
these days mostly sunny days. some casual snows never covered road. God, Asoh Yukiko keeps her promise to lighten my soul&eyes with sunshine. last night a shallow snow started to drift. this morning i saw the new gift from sky drove people cleaning, but still its not a pest but a gift. my Internet in dorm yet not ready, its a game to manifest bliss over me, man of Son that changes the world, at least Chinese. God, bring me my girls into our new houses, bring us harmony family life&fruitful&fertile. Asoh Yukiko, join me sooner, my second son, our first baby, urges to visit the world u shines. unite it via our blood bandage, including my girl Zhou, my Taiwan girl, my girl Lü, and who belongs to me pre-date. God, dad, grant me a dell game notebook, as my best cheerup for baby son in the lunar new year.

21/1/2011

burning feeling for change.^last night Holy message informs coming bonus for lunar Spring Festival. when i refered my living support, again i got baby's mom's scorn. this morning i reviewed my situation, and the insane of baby's mother upon my tolerance on her keeping my financial account. long time i endured her bitchery and stupid shortsight, endured her insatiable self-posed by scorning others with her idiot's selfishness. this morning till after noon relentlessly, yarning for financial freedom, for my due glory&independent custody over baby, floats atop the dark relation in these years when I shared responsiblity with the stubborn stub for the sake of baby's healthy growth. its time to change, all the morning God lets me focus on the topic. i need steady workspace to lead out task from my dad, also from Heaven, while baby needs steady play&study ground for the training challenges during his tennage&youth. its time to change, for the dirty in his mother's family can't lead other but to sink&fell. its time to change for my new marriage that's the shiniest on the northern hemisphere on fatherland of China, on which my new Empire lives 1109 years ahead. its time for change for new lives in my Royal of China, my sons&daughters, ie. princes&princesses from holy preganance arriving.
Its a bright day so far. God, i looking forward to ur seasonal gifts, gifts for baby son, Hope of China, God of Universe, warrenzh, 朱楚甲. he needs a game desktop, as well as tablet&printer to digitalize his homeworks from now on, while i itching for taking over the most powerful computer I had now, an Acer notebook baby&his mom now using, to replace my current Hasee product which a bit outdated. God, i also need renew my registry over domain benzrad.us, which means my life online. God, let me free once and forever from debts (in fact i never owed more than ￥4000, usually total ￥2000 a year, to baby's mom, main costs r buying baby food when i felt he in low, or to gratify brave&rich under God's, but that bit caused tons of abuses usually in one aim to satisfy her ill self-importance.) to baby's mom, the sinful&greedy bitch, a born cheap soul. God, bring my girls in our new families sooner! bring my baby son in elations everyday, with his step mothers' warm hospitality. i'm sure all my girls will do in our new houses! for we all live under ur shine, in ur spirit, as u promised me! last but nonetheless, God, restore my improved workspace sooner! i love my new desk so much, bring me Internet to surf in light speed, pl!!! God, today literally means my union with baby son, warrenzh, owner of warozhu.com, but i so far staying here lonely. let my girls unbiasedly know that my sole wish is to make family with them, not the dead one since my divorce with baby's mom. reinforce all goodwill that adds beauties onto my Royal of China, God, u see, my dearest, u see, join me sooner for the unutterable!

17/1/2011

dreamed of wonder again.^yesterday i returned to QRRS Dorms earlier again, after baby with his mom's companion joined his music lessson. i carried baby to bus stop, told him discreet to use arbitral claim when he claimed would never try muder/killing or other pc games on dark theme. i told him men's favorite changes in different phrases within his growth. my Taiwan girl in the weekends avoid to eye contacting me, changed her usual suite with school uniform. i knew China surveillance attempting trapping me with accuse of abnormal behavior or cult. they also attempted to seperatet me from my baby son as well as his mom, who more or less still accorded to help me on trifle life, like laundry (paid small amount by me), or store of my old clothings for free, housing us when i visit baby son&game. in the Sunday i turned less immersedly in pc games baby chose, for i wanted to be availabe for my Taiwan girl. baby tried means to attract me, but i just less patient to enjoy his making independent progess in his pc game together. reveiwing baby's cute loving sacrifices last night on bed, after baby shown low mood in our daily conversation via our mobiles, i was affirmed God's goodness again. how right&righteous baby always is!
this dawn i dreamed of sinful force. a traditional opera performance team fought against me&my Royal, likely including baby son in the dream, as they mimic the spirit of lion&tiger. its a lenghty dream, after i made water 3 times in the bright moon night. God, u see clear my girls approaching me closer, my new marriage stepping into my life weighted by the change God set forth upon me&my Royal that reshapes world atlas, in the new lunar year of 2011!. God, never allow me fail my girls nor my sons. bring us season gifts in the lunar Spring Festival ahead within a month! dad, God, refresh my holding memories of u, ur life on the earth throught which i saw the timeless&boundless.

11/1/2011

burning month looking forward online life i had been deprived so long since office relocating.^this month really too slow to endue, without Internet. i know sins in China authority, and enemies of my 1109 years' Empire under title of God, hated to hear my voice from Holy casting online. i visited baby more frequent, sometimes just to avoid the boring in dorm in waiting for the new optical fibre cabled Internet, rumor has it that it will put into operation within a month, to arrive. baby enjoyed some new pc games, as expected. sometimes my scheduled visits broke for the holiday season brings unexpected break on baby&his mom's agenda. yesterday the conspire/devise/reckon among sinful minds against my web presence brewing in my mind as it occurs in China surveillance the moment. i had to pay attentions sympathetically to those accusations that i'm not rightful to adopt Internet offered by QRRS, my once long time employer&complying agent of China surveillance hidden over me years. in night i decided gaming with baby on pc more meaningful for the new moon. so i did, in the curse by baby's mom when i arrived. in chill in baby's room i restless in most dark time on bed, saw through the moral conflict between freedom world in title of YHWH, and that under constant threats&terrors, like Chinese tradition, Confucian, or Islamism. spying in neighbor rooms let me unconfortable, so i got up&kiss baby&woke him&his mom in pre-dawn. later i watched TV in dark, till bored&surfed Internet via lagging home adsl. my blog hosted on 163.com days found malfunctioning, and quite some other sites of mine inaccessible, no clue the isp blocking them, or China surveillance directly deployed the blacklist on continental routers. i managed to gain a small game from web till baby with his mom left for his kindergarten, then returned to QRRS' Dorms, a boring day ahead for the descending of Internet. God, bring me an adequate workspace, bring me my girls&new family! It likely snowing now, holy killing is right time to secure my works online as well as offline. God, Asoh Yukiko, secure my Royal of China, secure my love, secure my forever linkage with the Holy. God, dad, secure my baby son, Hope of China, God of Universe, u know.

Note on family album from baby's kindergarten party today:
baby's time in kindergarten so short as i felt. he previously joined a kindergarten near his mom's house, but soon the kindergarten ran out of service. so he join the kindergarten of my once employer, QRRS, an old style state-owned enterprise. his mom still reluctant to let me visit our baby son there almost for a year. i totally visited baby twice between. once i told baby to stick out to our lucky day ear by ear tearfully, for he just cried before joined his class, as he usually did, for he too active&unable get used to the compulsory noon nap there. the other time i was blocked by the guard from enter the building nor its yard, even can't get baby out to talk to, as a common phenomenon that legal persons, or in Chinese "单位" (work unit), suppress human individual's right. the only bottle of juice as my visit's present also detered&transfered to baby's mom when she fetching him over time, instead of delivering to baby immediate. his mom scheduled after this lunar Spring Festival of 2011 to let him join a pre-class near her work place, a junior middle school, also near her house. that's reasonable&undebateable. but still, how i missing months when my office hundreds meter from the QRRS kindergarten, where my best beloved baby son learning sociable, when i felt so rich in the world bestowed. God, forever unite the son&the dad, my baby&me, the proudest father, for nothing on the earth can compare to the purity and beautiful the love is in our hearts, u verify.

4/1/2011

temporary pleasure in want of web in companion with baby who in true complaicent with season gifts.^my web presence deterred for more than 3 weeks since i filed to apply for new office with QRRS, my once long time employer. these days i read some ebooks on my notebook in QRRS Dorms where i stayed as my temporary office. God brought gifts for baby son in time, the bliss so great that baby son, warrenzh, Hope of China, God of Universe, kept giggling these days. i stayed 2 or 3 nights with him in his mom's house, celebrating year end, the gift season, while all the new year's day vacation i tried to play pc games with him in daytime, routed between dorm&his mom's house. i also enjoyed deepening love with my Taiwan girl. baby son now starts to talk to me proactively via his new mobile as season gift supported by bonus from QRRS, also from the saint source, while in the past he usually reluctant to talk to me on his mom's land phone when i call in. God, thx for ur love upon ur son.
this winter especially warm, even more&heavier snows descended. baby echos the same feeling upon the weather, even he stroke once or more by cold. so many occations i was enchanted by golden sunshine outside, on wall of houses, or street paves, or among branches of trees. i even eager for the coming marriage with my girl zhou, who activated my journey on web for fetching her again since our departure before we got familiar with each other, including each name. God, i didn't feed up by ur generous gifts, on the contrast, i look forward more surprises ahead. brings me my new families with my girls, unite my life with baby son, warrenzh, the Majesty&the Holy. thank u, God.

22/12/2010

strength of praying in dark&solitude.^these days in QRRS Dorms slept a lot, in God's glorious arrangement. sometimes read ebook on success, which drives me to retrospect my passed dad, God vivid once in my life, and his successful life&business when he raised our family. i felt the eager to make my own different from the losers around me, including my once colleagues still lingered around, my baby's mom who humiliated me so lots. i see God's way so prevailing among people winning. i see the ultra trumph is living every moment with God, the source of life&happiness&success. i also have time to retouch pages, as well as layout of some web apps i distributed under my family domains. God sees how rewarding the task brings. in every blood pulse, i yelling for success, for meaningful, for grace&plenty, for not to continue living up with those losers&falling evils stretching out for brightness like my life so far. in every inner sight, i call forth heart prayer to live new and higher with God's almighty, to get rid of being disposable, not to tolerate dirt&mess&dispossession any more. Son of men and his glory under holy shine is due, from now on.
in these days&nights without Internet, i rested a lot, scrutinized my business pattern or moral. mayber its time to upgrade. sins once on my way toward holy hurt heavily, &that's partially why my web presence temporarily deprived for more than a week. but God, u see&u promises me, my domain shines even more in future. the world will see the most successful, the most invincible business is the way of Holy Spirit. God, grant me the cornerstone of the shrine of ur presence, grows my Royal on the earth like the forever harmony in Heaven, in ur title, under ur shine. God, bring me my girls in our prime time.

17/12/2010

looking into freedom of bright, after trapped in separation from the web.^these days I waiting for my new office deponds on QRRS' official decision, after i filed dispute with the sinful gays in my old one. i enjoyed reading in scholar works or thsis on International politics, philosophy, etc. been separeted from Internet is painful, but God sees the best settlement for the interest of Royal of China, as well as my personal intelligence wakeup. this afternoon i reveiwed source, history&meaning of my web presence, see clear divine duty's call from the start, when i enjoyed sharing online of living experience, ever-evalueable moment in baby son, warrenzh's life stemming up from his infancy, for the sake of golden memory of the best beloved in the world to know. i see clear my way on the road of success, of fame, of forever green in timeless river of life. i see clear why the pastime of blogging turned into burning cry for God's bliss, for my girls' descending. i see clear the stimulas of China's pitfall, the struggle behind people in light of hope&peace.
Its a sunny Friday, i cherished my free time as usual, but great bliss from Heaven ahead, i assert. God, live me in forever happiness, lives my Royal of China sustainably right&bright.

8/12/2010

a day ends in delight.^yesterday is for my second wife, Crowned Queen of China from Japan, Asoh Yukiko. arrived in office early, soon in sunshine. but the sin in office, the monitor, continued to struggle on its door: closed door once i open it, kicked it to shown his dominating. i later roamed in the corridor to avoid the dirt. the facing sin also joined. when its sunny i called the high rank in QRRS, a Zhou, about my urgent need to change an office. the office soon brewing in agitation about my appeal. when i busy with sorting my bookmarklet, the deputy director talked to me, soon the monitor stood against my desk to accuse. among the 2 sins' curses&threats, i left office in elation. God, grant me a new work place, for the dying old one now sinking into desert&noname. God, bring my girl Zhou sooner to me, bring my new family. in dawn i dreamed of raising a python at home. baby son appears in my dream.

7/12/2010

a day in hot water.^yesterday mainly posting a blog to include recent tweets, &mother's elapse. posting smoothly except myspace, which failed my logon many times. the sins in office attacked necklessly, the office door again been kicked&quite some evil ears on the floor watched up. i also saw lesbian among female colleagues among the staff, when i visited the neighbor room where there r 4 women. God all time accompanies me. when i joined the canteen, all troubles turns into warm smile.my 2nd elder sister called in just after i finished my dinner. this dawn dreamed of Holy message, upon tolerance&mightiness from Heaven, killing&suffering for the righteous. Its a crisp morning, but Sunshine already redden the horizon. God, bring me my girls, esp my Taiwan girl. bring me into my new family&fun of partnership.

From Baby's farewell party in QRRS kindergarten

It turns sunny after mother's funneral in weekends.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 06 Dec 2010 03:05:00 +0000

its a happy weekends whose joys can't add more. Saturday i launched to restore infected os from backup on acer notebook baby's mom now using. when baby watching animation, i finished all backup for stuff from web. baby didn't urge me to play pc games, how i obliged to him. when i rest in QRRS Dorms, i felt exhausted&slept before 8pm. in Sunday as we scheduled, we picked games we made progress, found so many merry, succeeded new missions in all games we reviewed, including hard mission once blocked us. baby also invited me to sport indoor for quite occasions. near 5pm, he dozed on my shoulders when i gossiped about pc games. his mom shift him to bed, i cared him there, massage his head till he slept sound. i kissed him then returned to QRRS dorm. God let me know i don't need the local church to gather with God, my dad. so i roamed longer time in snow around the dorm&aloof out of the church.
on last Friday, just near work time over, after the sinful monitor closed door&profaned a long time, i had a break for refreshment&gossip in the neighbor room where there r 4 female staff about my site online. the talk&viewpoint in the conversation startled China surveillance, which likely spied most work space in the office building, shown agitations when i returned to my office. in the dusk jog, 2 male cops shown around me, one mentally attack me&caused my attention. in the weekends, more cops appeared on way i routed to see baby son.
the weekends dawns i also dreamed a lot. on Sunday morning i dreamed my hometown setup many minor ethnic restaurants, offer variable feature foods. i also dreamed of places likely underworld in Saturday morning, for my mother at hometown likely put into earth these days. my brothers at hometown so far didn't informed me the left life, except my 2nd elder sister buzzed my baby's mom, a nephew also sms her, both after a day&more time after the moment my mother left the world. their plot of depriving me as heir off my parents just a laugh in Heaven. i still waiting when i got known who banned me from been informed of mother's funeral.
Ok, its a bright morning now, after many days of pale, cloudy or snowy. sins in office still risk their dirty lives to challenge. God, i don't bother here to re-assert their broken bone in the soon end feeds wild baseless dogs. that's ultimate true.
God, now its my prayer: God, bring my girls sooner to me. bring my new family to curb&sustain the warmth of life, ever-green life we share. God, promise baby son forever light heart&beam of sunshine, beam of laugh. God, u save.

3/12/2010

a day in mourning without regret.^yesterday again saw brutal attacks. the sins in office challenged a lot, the dying monitor again kicked/smashed the door to show blood-thirsty. in the morning baby's mom buzzed me, for my elder sister informed her my mother in hometown, central China, left the world. my first response is why she didn't inform me directly, for she knew we lived apart. all the day i didn't call hometown relatives. before work time over, i met the daughter&second son of my second elder brother's online, got know my mother died on Dec 1, 2010, in the morning. even i long time decided&let my mother known i wouldn't join her funeral, but the second brother promised me month ago that if mother's health worsen he will buzz me. it turns clearer that the folks in hometown conspired to deprive my heir under my parents. in the night i in usual peace&light heart. woke up near 6:12am, &join canteen for breakfast. now i see redden sunrise in sky over horizon. God, bring me my girl zhou. bring me my 2nd son with my Japanese Crowned Queen, Asoh Yukiko. bring me my Taiwan girl, who will give birth of my 3rd son. give my girl zhou a twin of ours in coming marriage. God, dad, bring peace&hope on ur land in central China, among ur old family that scatters.

2/12/2010

day for coming Asoh Yukiko, my Crowned Queen from Japan.^yesterday under attacks from sins in office. since the morning the monitor stayed&profaned, till defeated by an online lecture on bible i watched, left abrupt. i enjoyed the peace gladly around noon. about an hour before the work time over, they returned, including the facing sin in his vacation, brought their pal who likely a gangster. they challenged me heavily while i watched games' trailer online, left after tasted its failure&head for dinner together, likely for conspire of murder. i left office near 6pm, after see light from web i endear. the canteen owner shown their despise, lets me swallow a large dish of rice with an egg, with some pickles for prepared dishes sold out, &new dishes cooked for package to send out. in night i buzzed once near 8:30pm, baby picked phone then shift to his mom. so many hostile in QRRS ignited me, but God, baby son's voice let me satisfied&hopeful. It snowed last night, in breakfast a boy student sat in front of me&talked with his girl classmates frequented the canteen, i know God doesn't bless them. browser's ssl broke yesterday, forced me apart from my google account, instead I refined my profile at chinaren.com, a sold site built by overseas Chinese student graduated from US. now the falsed ssl likely resumed to normal after i clear its history, thx God. Today is day for my second wife, my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, my dearest, if u hearing, pl join me&let us together bring birth of my second son, our first son ahead our other 2 sons, in God's shine. Today is ur day in our history, dearest, join me to root&boot up our Royal&future of Asia. dearest, show me ur presence in my life, so as to allow me cling to u. i beg u, i entreat u, my liver, my kidney.

1/12/2010

a fine day.^yesterday is fine when i left office in dusk, as God nods me. i read&gained from web. secured myspace account, linked it with my facebook. sorted portable suite at last. the dying monitor all time trying to profane, so did the dying neighbors&once colleagues lingering&trying seige me in the building. in night buzzed baby, when his mom felt at a loss&warn not to receive my call any more, baby talked to me&ordered not to call in. its so charming to hear his naive voice. around 8:34pm, i buzzed him again for assurance, they shown me their hospitality as usual. i again woke up earlier than 6am this morning, in the sweet memory of love. its a chill morning, but God, u know, bliss in air is thick. thx for ur protection when i secured my work environment yesterday, dad.

30/11/2010

pale morning, new snow gathering.^yesterday posted a blog entry to include recent tweets&photos, at http://riveryog.blog.163.com/blog/static/122437369201010291014089/ .posting comparably smooth. left office soon after work time over. the demon, the monitor, all day challenged, stayed in office, left exactly when i prepared to leave. God promises me the sinful sank in death&brutality. in night after dinner, i rested on bed&envisioned baby's mom, emakingir's painful losing in her fate. buzzed twice baby, but he didn't talk to me. slept earlier than 9pm. in dawn woke up by sweet memory of my Taiwan girl, &love power lingered in my body till breakfast time. God, save my work online&offline. bring me my new family&refresh baby's experience of living on the earth.

benzrad's recent photo blog:

Qiqihar railway station through view of its police station's open space.

a Japanese invader's villa now occupied by CCP local high rank, among dense residentail area.

dark days passed, new hope in sunshine.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 29 Nov 2010 02:41:00 +0000

last weekends we played less pc games, for i too elated in purchase, including blank dvds, mouse&mouse pad, power sock to facilitate baby using pc or desk lamp without messy wires his mom usually ignores. moments with baby all bright, esp before i left him on Sunday 5pm, when i held him in arms&on laptop to watch TV. baby sometimes ate less dinner, &bargain for eating. i hope God not allow him suffer insufficient nutrition.
in the weekends i also saw local mafia members. the bus route me between QRRS dorms&Qiqihar railway station where baby's mom's house locates, namely No. 9 bus, usually jammed like a fish can. on Saturday dusk, just after i join the jammed bus, a young man stood against front door of the bus pushed me&let me here&there to stand, like there is a real rule aboard, but in fact its only message just to reveal his sovereign. them when bus passing some stops, 2 men just loudly quest the passengers if anyone leaving, if not then just passed the stops without porting. when i managed to approach the leaving door of the bus, a man stood against the door heavily profaning a girl, forcing her to browse on her mobile irritatedly. so long time rumor that QRRS&its area infected with mafia likely a fact.
the sermon in local church also less satisfying. the Priest said traveling to other city, a woman looks like his sister offered the preach, which likes other preaches by women i heard there, don't research the bible but just ruling out persuades sometimes commonplace reinforced by excerption from bible. and its point or examples of God's mercy quite trifle. in the night i dreamed of my Taiwan girl passionate&woke up to make water twice. also dreamed baby fell into a tunnel full of water, when we watched workers install pole of power line&electronic equipment. God let me avoid breakfast but joined office directly, where the sin, the monitor, profaned heavily, challenged me by closing office door persistently.
its a bright morning after 2 days snow, the 3rd in winter 2010. God, great bliss ahead let me fly in wonder. God, let my girls join me sooner, in our new families. i need family, as u know. let my business has its stance&boot up. save my works online. sanitize my girls in any situations. God, dad.

26/11/2010

sunny days after snow.^since yesterday i enjoy nice service from meebo.com, God saves. these 2 days sees more idle time online, also more time i enjoyed using the office in QRRS alone. in night buzzed baby's mom, who complained a lot about my abusing bonus. I let her shut up&told her unlikely borrow her money any more in the future. in night reviewed how baby love his own mobile with 2 toy cellphones, felt deep sorrow for my ignorance upon his dewy likeness, &decided if financially allows i will buy him a baby mobile phone in coming months. chill in dorm woke me up early 5am last dawn, so i made some changes in room layout against chill near window. this morning i found likely an official spy in dorm peeking my room. God, save my works, bring my girls into my family ahead!

15/11/2010

an auspicious day.^yesterday mostly pale, later in afternoon started 3rd snow in winter 2010. got official inform from cashier of the department to fetch bonus of ￥300. there i was even cordially told bonus directly into my bank deposit card is more than ￥1400, while most crew earns ￥2500 or so. so rich meanings in the bulk. the sky likely opener&brighter for me, for I see God's promise that I'm the most informed&decisive versatile. tried meebo's new service. read&tweet. baby's mom also relieved by the good news of long time rumored bonus, while baby busy with animation online&refused to talk to me as usual. i really hope sooner i can treat him a dinner he likes. God, thx for ur gift in time. these days i more&more sensed closer my girl Zhou&our marriage ahead. i know ur arrangement is the best for the Royal of China, my family with my girls&sons. God, help my mother in hometown recover from her dying age, as dad allows. Its a bright morning, God, thx for all beauty in my life.

14/11/2010

a day in celebrating.^yesterday finally got family namespace with about.me, a site just roll out off its beta stage. then posted tweet daily. the company, QRRS, dispatched bonus among its staff, the sinful monitor in office avoid informing me, while a tricky female colleague let me know&persuade me to fetch my share on my own, but she is not from official channel, so i did like usual: just waited for formally informed. got a game delayed days from web, so aspiring. left office in time. baby's mom told me my salary just arrived in my bank account, nearly a week passed after i received the salary sheet /invoice. on way left office, doubts of harms by the criminal minded demon in office let me anxious, esp. unease about if they steal my income from QRRS amid, now that i intended to be contacted only by QRRS official. God ceases it as i pray the Majesty not to let anyone on the earth can deteriorate my full responsibility&sight. the full moon especially bright. i know that's all of my Empire of China in God's shine. God, bring me what i deserve. shine ur Son&the Holy with seasonal gift. God, bring me my Royal of China sooner, my girls in our prime time.
PS: bonus arrived. the clerk woman informed me. i got ￥300 cash&￥1400 or so in bank deposit card. with the bonus, i just remit hometown ￥1000 for my duty. bought badly needed teeth brushes&paste, and my favorite drink, tea. Its a pale morning, but God u see, how blessing it can be.

13/11/2010

a day sees light.^yesterday mostly busy with posting recent photo for 2nd snow of winter 2010. China surveillance blocked some time, myspace failed my logon strangely many times, but later accept me to post the blog. sins in office again attacked heavily, now that their failure overwhelming&doomed. at noon activated family google apps' new services for small companies with their web domains. after dinner when i roamed outside QRRS Dorms, it turned clear why the monitor so furiously hated me: the sin losing its potency, &in horror of been found of the fact beyond his family! the dirty administrative of the dorms harnessed 4 and more camcorders in the corridor, one of its staff, the only provincial folk from Hubei, a Li, buzzed in at noon, inquiry about espionage software to filter cams' video for non-attendant alarm. so lots of trifle thoughts harassed me when i roamed in night. but after rested in dorm, my joy gathered. buzzed hometown to express thanks, &my offers to support mother's living there, with the rumored bonus. when i went to bed, it turns clearly a blessing day.

benzrad's recent photo blog:

From Days Through Dead Dark

for google's picasaweb blocked within China mainland for years, here some digest hosted domestically.

late full moon on dawn sky after 3rd snow in Qiqihar, notheastern China.

baby son, warrenzh, 朱楚甲, watching movie online at home in snowing day.

weekends snow in pure joys.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Mon, 22 Nov 2010 07:38:00 +0000

last weekends brings so many touching bliss that i hardly to reiterate. On Saturday i arrived early as baby's mom let, for baby's music lesson postponed. we played pc games till baby tired&slept on my shoulders. his mom left awhile to visit her school, i shown her pupils there baby's album i ordered online from 163.com with a discount from my blogging there. a visiting guest, a fat woman, baby's mom's friend, with her son who is baby's kindergarten classmate, also shown her admire upon the album. but baby's mom complained costly. baby woke up exactly when i laid comment improperly on my future relation with QRRS, my once employer. baby asked for gaming again. for to late for QRRS canteen's dinner time, i ate dinner there, with baby. his mom reported after visited bank that my salary, as well as the bonus rumored from my once colleague in office, both didn't transfer into my bank account. she agreed my settlement that i should live with what God offered, no hustle to make baby's life different from what we endorsed now.
the second snow, a heavy one, likely covered the half night. on Sunday morning i saw the beautiful scene. i played pc games with baby till he left with his mom to join his delayed music lesson in the direction of center of Qiqihar. there r moments so precious i enjoyed with my Taiwan girl. baby witness&correct some of my misleading. i sent he&his mom to bus, then returned to QRRS dorms by bus. i soon on bed napped, till coldness woke me up for i only cover myself with a woolen sweater. the joy in my heart so full, that i had to roam outside, ate dinner early around 4pm. after these, i still feel need to thank God for the bliss, so i look out for the local church. i don't want to join the praying party in church, early to the meekly sermon, but i m in urgency to be with God sole&alone, so i intended to join Internet Cafe to kill some time, even i dislike Chinese Internet cafe very much for dirt in it&among the surfers. then i found the church open, &the priest there chatting. so i approached, discussed him with my oath with God, my free of duty to support the church this moment assured by Heaven. when they started praying, i left to dorm, rejoin the church 6:27pm. a woman offers preach, which not so strong, but described half faith in God like many trifle family wives do. in night i woke up to make water 3 times. the full moon so bright in dawn, that i photographic her beautiful face at once when half nuked after urinated. God, save my work online, bring me my Royal of China, my family in warm places. God, thx for ur bliss which makes my life so meaningful&rich of beauty. God, never let me fail my girls, or the reverse.

benzrad's recent photo blog:

From 2nd snow in 2010 winter, pure joy

for google's picasaweb blocked within China mainland for years, here some digest hosted domestically.

QRRS front space in heavy snow.

late full moon rarely hangs above dawn sky of QRRS residential area.

Posted via email from be21zh.org, bring China abreast 21Century

frost days, ice breaking in China democracy.

noreply@blogger.com (benzrad华中朱子卓) — Fri, 19 Nov 2010 04:08:00 +0000

Its a frost morning since dawn. the sin, the monitor in office, urgent to declare last afternoon just before work over that it will snow in night, but it didn't. i saw so many bliss in the white among branches of trees outside of my window now. recent news has it that QRRS, the company offers me an office, had dispatched bonus directly into bank account of its staff. so, i likely can launch in coming days to equip baby son a tablet&printer/scanner in the aim to digitize his homework routine. God, let me do it with enough financial support from my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, the girl in serenity of plenty&dignity from Heaven. God, let me present baby son in this year end full of joys to glorify his presence on the planet. thx, Dad.

19/11/2010

a day archives.^yesterday again sees fruits. supplemented tracking family google albums&blogs. activated twitter's authentic with my yahoo account. left office earlier a quarter to avoid dirt in office. roamed additional time outside around QRRS Dorms after dinner. baby son talked to me when i buzzed in. in night rested eyes by scratching on paper instead of cellphone as i liked. this morning is a frost weather, but hopeful it will turn sunny at noon. God, save my works i appreciate, bring me into my new family with cozy workspace.

18/11/2010

a day for my 3rd wife, my girl zhou.^yesterday mostly bright, since morning frost clear itself gradually. at noon break, my Internet via corporate lan broke, as frequent cases, i decided to wait to see how long the penalty by China surveillance exerted. when i looked outside of office window, i saw my girl zhou at once. it took seconds before i recognized her, for she in a suite i first time seeing. nothing can ascribe my thanks to God for the moment, &how i satisfied by my girl zhou who so attracting me. its a busy day, i may concluded, reading, finished long time awaiting task, ie, adding traffic tracking code to all my family picasaweb albums, &blogs on google. in early winter night, God lets me own games from d/l&left office in time breezily. my salary again suffers loss, decreases to ￥1091, after last month resumed to ￥1600, presumable the normal stable standard but constantly in fluctuations since it was reached half year ago, just after i planned to buy baby a dell game pc. its so nice to know God already arranges my promising life ahead with my girls i searching on web so long. God, let me see the bright sooner&constantly!

17/11/2010

try to reach out for gift season.^yesterday sees again gaining from web. after noon break, started to research dell desktop as planed last night. contacted dell sell representative for detail, for its site blocked&broken on China mainland. in the coming hours, tried to contact possible credit lender/leaser among my once friends in QRRS, my once employer. all failed, in sunshine outside, till God lets me know enough of it. baby's mom got irritated at once as usual when i attempting to introduce my plan. never i would allow another woman as messy as her in my life in future. the monitor in office bought a car&shown nearby with his colleagues aboard, drove by one of his pal for he lacks driving skill nor license. i know no one's gift can be ascribed to mine, the Son who here to reclaim his land vested from history itself&Heaven.
God, let the coming season brings surprise to my Royal! God, let warmth of share of ur shine prevailing in the winter of 2010. God, bring me my new family!

16/11/2010

a day in danger.^It turned cloudy after noon. the company dispatched winter uniform. the facing guy in office brought mine to test if i would befriend him. i no doubt still on my heel. then the shit attacked me heavily in more than an hour. when i ready for a break after lots of reading. i haunted neighbor office rooms. a once follower of my computer enthusiasm proactively talked to me. so i tough him&others a lesson on computer's benefit on children's early education. when the guy attempted to brag his porn video collections, i told the hobby can lead to tastelss&impotent. on another room where there r 4 women, i talked about my brand online, my family members' id in the cyberspace. after returned to my desk, i saw the danger of spying&dispute among sinful minds in the office, praying God for fearless, for spreading my opinion in my blogs universally visible&unshakable. left office in time. in night buzzed hometown, for the second son of my second elder brother's requested talk online just before i left office. then i got known they exchanged the land phone between his house&my passed dad's. the demon's conspire to steal dad's wealth before dying mother left the world turned clear. God, let me defeat the devil, my second elder brother who hated&hurt me from time to time, once&forever in future&on my dad's land, for i m my dad's only heir. God, let me rich of lectures for people come forth with modesty, let my voice unbeatable clear&straight forth, let my web publication official from u, even enemies&sins i cursed in it conquered by its formidable, &decease to their cage of dim they deserve.
God, last night i relentless for plan of equipping baby with new digital gears. we need a gaming pc, a tablet, a scanner/printer to rid baby son off pencil&scratch of paper. with ￥7000 budget, baby son can earlier adopt digitalized homework&constantly lives online. God, grant me to act free of wants. God, even now its pale this morning, i know stars&lights belong to me anytime.

15/11/2010

bright Monday morning.^posted a blog to include recent tweets&comments, also noted recent events in office, &happy with baby son in gaming, at http://benzillar.blog.163.com/blog/static/942754620101015111341460/ . the morning is bright, since last Sunday. QRRS dispatched thick coat&the facing guy likely asked to bring me mine by the way, showily the favor when i busy with my task. God, bring my new family sooner! and the gift season coming!

benzrad's recent photo blog:

for google's picasaweb blocked within China mainland for years, here some digest hosted domestically.

Chinese customs&a dirty play: burning ghost money for their relatives in grave.

benzrad, 朱子卓,rested in QRRS dorm.