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Staying Upbeat Even Though It's Raining: Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head By BJ Thomas

2013-06-26T04:09:00.000-07:00

Though it's a bit hot in the morning, don't be fooled. After lunch, the clouds start to turn dark grey and a rumbling sound coupled with a scent of water in the wind fills the air. Before you know it, it starts pouring buckets as the rainy season has finally arrived. It's a downer especially when you got a lot on your mind and no money in your pockets but it won't stop from being hopeful. Staying during the rainy season reminds me of the song "Raindrops Are Falling On My Head" by B.J. Thomas.

This was taken from the soundtrack of the movie "Butch Cassidy And The Sundance Kid" during famous bike scene. Going back to the rainy season, it could be a hassle when you have to commute to work most of the time logging around your rain gear and trying not to get wet. Apart from that, you got problems at home and at work hanging on your head. Still, you have to set that aside and concentrate on what needs to be and what you can do. Rain or shine, it'll always be with you but if you hang it there, it will eventually it will be resolved.

Well it's starting to pour again and I try to get a ride as quickly as I can. Though, my coat, trousers and shoes are soaked, I'm sweating inside cause of thickness of my clothing. Another hard as ended and the only difference is that I come home wet instead of sweaty. Still, I made it through and am still hopeful that something good will happen if I keep on trying. Not even the rain can prevent me from doing that.

Why We Love The Outlaws: The Outlaw Blues By Peter Fonda

2013-06-25T06:35:00.000-07:00

You know every time there's a movie about outlaws or rebels challenging authority, people are quick to watch it. These are the guys who often challenge authority even when the odds are against them. From books to movies, no character gets so much fascination as an outlaw. I guess because they're willing to do things that we are ourselves are afraid of. When I think about this fascination, the song "The Outlaw Blues" by Peter Fonda comes to mind.

Why do we admire these guys even when what they do is against the law? It's because despite their unlawful acts, they are not afraid to challenge the establishment. As blatant as they are, they are willing to keep going when where we are afraid to tread. Most of all, they do it in style. Now who wouldn't love that?

I'm not saying that I want to do something reckless or dangerous but when someone has guts to throw down when we don't, it inspires us to do the same. Those who are afraid simply throw taunts and wait for the opportunity for the guy to fall just to heap insults on him. When they do that, it only shows how afraid they really are because they can't where these guys can. In the end, we love because they can and they will even if they lose.

Well Another Summer Has Passed: Summer Is Over" By Dusty Springfield

2013-06-24T04:24:00.001-07:00

I've been so stressed out lately that it just dawned upon me that it's not as hot as it was two months ago. Apart from that, when I pass by the local mall, they are now posting sales on school supplies and uniforms while removing all the beach balls and inflatable pools. It all point to one thing: Summer is now over. That means that over hear, apart from getting ready for the rain, half the year is now over. I guess the song "Summer Is Over" by Dusty Springfield is appropriate for this post.

Once again, I failed to enjoy the summer and instead got a lot whole lot of heat. It was bad enough that I had a lot of problems to deal with only to find myself in a really bad situation where I and my friends are hanging by a thread. It was a cruel let down after working so hard and experiencing one disappointment after another. The long dark shadow casts by that one bad development still hangs heavy as rumors and gossip fill the air and we prepare for the worse. It's a disappointing verdict but those were the cards we were dealt with.

I don't like dwelling over spilled milk but when the thought of what could have been really cuts like a knife, especially when we thought it was a sure thing. It was a brutal reminder that you have to expect the unexpected and this was something nobody expected. Now the air smells of water as the rain starts pouring hard whenever I go home. After bearing the summer's heat, we now have to deal with both our personal storms and the elemental storm brought about by the rainy season. The summer's gone and the rainy season is now here so I have to put this pass me and just move on.

All These Bad News Can Really Drive A Guy Nuts: Delirious By ZZ Top

2013-06-22T05:34:00.000-07:00

These days it never fails that something will happen and turn my world upside down. Whether I do something or not, crap just happens and it's been happening way too frequently. Too much so that I'm just trying my best to keep up with all this craziness. Still, getting too much crap isn't good and I am determined to fight through this insanity to make things happen. Dealing with all these crazy surprises reminds me of the song "Delirious" by ZZ Top.

Every month, I keep my fingers crossed hoping that something would come out from all this hard work only to come up with nada. To add insult to injury, it happens when I need it most. To top it off, some nasty situation comes out of the blue leaving rattled and almost delirious. It really sucks the life out of me and I am sick of it.

They say, life doesn't give you something thatyou can't handle. I just wish life would be a bit kinder cause I still have a lot to deal with and it's really killing me. Well, it's either you beat it or it beats you. I'm going so that means there's hope. It drives me crazy something but doesn't stop me as I keep trying till I get it done.

Just Keeping My Fingers' Crossed For Something Better: See What Tomorrow Brings By The Archangels

2013-06-21T01:19:00.000-07:00

The time is ticking and the days are dropping off one by one. After being dealt a bad hand last month, we've been sitting around and waiting what the verdict will be. When the news came down, I felt that the floor that I've been standing on was starting to crumble so this time around, I swore that I'd be more open and consider my options when the envelope is opened. All this in the hopes that it would lead to a better future. Hoping for a better future reminds me of the song "See What Tomorrow Brings" by The Archangels.

I've been in this situation before and back then, I didn't handle it right. As a result, I struggled hard not once but twice. As much as I wanted things to keep going, it happened again. This time around, I swore that I would be less stubborn. I have no choice as I have to make do with what's there and not much to go with. It doesn't help that this comes at a time when I already have enough to deal with but if that's what I got to do, then that's what I'll do.

Right now I'm just making my preparations and keeping my mind open to whatever options are there. Too rumors are floating around but I'd rather lay the foundation on what I got to do when the time comes. All I want is something better after going through all this. I know it doesn't happen by magic and I have to work hard for it to come true. Well, I'll just keep my fingers cross and see what tomorrow brings.

Trying To Relax Again Tonight: Keep Same Old Feeling By Willie Boboo

2013-06-20T01:40:00.000-07:00

One of the reasons why I've been to jazz again is to try to chill out more. These last couple of years have left me so tense that I have the word "worry" written all over my face. Apart from that, there are little venues where I can find where I can put myself at ease. Sometimes a good jazz can do that. That's why I'm listening to Willie Bobo's "Keep Same Old Feeling" as I write this post.

While I'm listening to this song, I try to clear my mind of all the crap that keeps dogging me day in day out. I try to remember the good old days when we'd laugh at the end of the day. Think of things that make me smile and goals that I want to achieve. I know this is only for the moment but let it be a moment that I can savor as well as purge those bad experiences that ruin my day. It's not much but it helps me face whatever the daily grind brigs my way.

I'm trying to run away from my problems (I'm too old to do that and that won't solve anything). I'm just saying that I just need some time to chill. I have to admit I miss that feeling where you don't have to worry and everyday was a breeze. That's why I'm listening to this song tonight. I just want to relax and relive that feeling if only for a moment.

Another Song About Preparing For The Worst: Worse Comes To Worst By Billy Joel

2013-06-19T04:13:00.000-07:00

Nobody's talking about what they intend to do when that bomb went off two weeks ago. Some are just trying to get by while others are already making their plans or considering their options. Until we find what the verdict is, I guess anything can happen. We hoped for the best but now we have to prepare for the worst. That's why for this post, Billy Joel's song "Worse Comes To Worst" is a good choice for this post.

It's a wicked game of Pascual's Wager where you have try to make the best and safest choice possible. It's a dark reminder that you have to be prepared for anything. That's the reason why you need a plan B because you don't what to expect and life doesn't always go the way you want it. We are now learning it the hard way. We didn't expect it to happen and now we are scrambling to salvage what we can.

Right now it's a matter of wait and see. Most of us already have our cards prepared and we are now waiting for the dealer to show his hand. The waiting is tough and a lot is riding on this gamble. Whatever happens will happen. Just be prepared. That's all you can do when worse comes to worse.

Too Many Things In My Mind: Voices Inside My Head By The Police

2013-06-18T04:21:00.000-07:00

I remember when I had an activity in a workshop I attended where people would write what they thought of a person's face when they saw them. Whenever I get piece of paper, it always says that I think too much or I have a worried look on my face. That was 17 years ago if I had a worried look back then, it's a heck of a lot worse right now. Lately, I've had so many things in my mind, I don't get any sense of peace day in day out. That's why I'm using "Voices Inside My Head" by The Police for this post.

These days, I've got the weight of the world hanging on my mind. There have been a lot of problems that I'm still dealing with in the past and more problems keep coming my way. The latest one has my livelihood hanging by a thread. Whether I'm awake or asleep, these problems keep dogging me like voices that won't clam up. I may look okay on the outside but my mind is so full of these things that I don't what to do.

I just try to deal with it as best as I can. I am just preparing for the worse as my hopes were dashed last May. I just hope that when I rise above it, things would get better. Till then I do what I can and it's not much but it's something. Hopefully when all is resolved, these voice will stop.

Really Need Some Quality Time: Time (Time Of The Heart) By Culture Club

2013-06-17T16:39:00.000-07:00

With all the bum deals that keeps taking me by surprise .lately, I feel the need to have some quality time for myself. Lately, I've been alternating from being restless to being beat and worse part about it is that I haven't made use of the time given to me properly. I guess it's because I haven't found the answers that I need to get things started. As a result, whether it's a day or month, I still don't feel that it's enough and I'm left feeling restless and tired at the same time. The need to find quality time and be satisfied about it reminds me of the song "Time (Time Of The Heart)" by Culture Club.

That feeling of being restless and tired at the same time is not a good feeling. You want to find answers or accomplish something but your body wants to have some time to rest up. When it doesn't get done, it sure weigh heavily on you especially if it's something that's vital to your everyday needs. When the days and there are no gains, that's a real bummer. It's another reminder that you wasted good time over nothing.

Man, I still believe that it's out there. I wouldn't be wasting my time if it wasn't because I was able to reap the benefits of it before and I believe that I can do it again. With so much at stake, I can't give it up now. When I do find it and harness it, only then I can truly rest. Hopefully, I'll really enjoy some quality time.

Still Out There Trying To Make It Happen: Cinderella Man By Rush

2013-06-16T01:54:00.000-07:00

You know every time I try to do something new, something comes up and just ruins everything. Right I'm experiencing that again and it's' leaving a bad taste in my mouth. Yet despite all these setbacks, it only serves to fuel my desire to achieve my goals. At this point in my life, I'm sick and tired of of having all these distractions that's why I'm doing the best that I can to make it happen. Rush's song "Cinderalla Man" helps keep me going when times are tough.

Apart from the disappointments from the last few years, I also am dealing with a bunch of new problems that's turning my world upside down. I know nothing in life is permanent and you have to ready for change but it still hurts because of the hard work you put in to make happen. I'm just using that anger and frustration to fuel that drive to keep on going to make things happen. Like I keep on saying, I was able to do it before, I can do it again. It's better than doing something stupid.

Life has been throwing me nothing but grief. Still, whining about it won't make it better. I'm doing what I can to make what I got left real. I've so much as it is and I have only myself to blame. I just want to get some order and stability in life as so many things have fallen apart. Nobody said it was easy but nobody you should give up. that's why I keep going.

He Was The Last Of The Tough Dudes: The Last Rebel By Lynyd Skynyrd

2013-06-15T08:56:00.000-07:00

In the midst of my melancholy state, I find myself my friend from my high school days who I wrote a couple of posts in my blog. Man he wasn't cool but he was tough as well. Yet despite that being cool and tough, he hung around with anyone so long as you proved yourself to be the real deal. Sometimes I wonder if there any from this generation who would be as tough let alone as cool as he was. Listening the song "The Last Rebel" by Lynyrd Skynyrd made me ask that question.

What separates him from other toughies in my batch was he never had to swing his weight around nor did he had to intimidate others just to show that he had guts. In fact, he was tough without having to act tough and you can feel it coming from a mile away. If a fight erupted, his fist would be the first one in someone's face cause if you want it, you got it. He hated the fact that there were negotiations going on and when it was suppose to be a rumble because it was wasting his time. He was never one to start a fight but if a fight got started he had your back and that just goes to show how tough he really was.

I still think of him and my other friends fondly and I wonder how they are doing. I doubt if I would see them in a class reunion because they hated to stand out. Maybe I'm getting older but when I look at the younger generations, they weren't as tough as that dude let alone the guys before him. They just act tough and get into trouble but don't know the meaning of what really being cool is all about. As I look back, I can truly say he was the last rebel that school will ever have.

Another Song That Encourages Me To Keep On Trying: Just A Loser By Robert Cray

2013-06-14T01:20:00.000-07:00

Lately the problems have been piling up around me one after another and this blog is the only venue where I can vent my frustrations about it. I can bear if it's just me but lately even people I care about have been having a hard time lately. Still, that doesn't mean that I'll curl up and hide. Despite the setbacks and the pile-ups, I am still determine to keep on trying till I get it right. I can Robert Cray's Song "Just A Loser" to that lists of songs about trying again despite repeated failure.

This lasts couple of years have stressed us all out. The worse part of it all is that problems are getting bigger and more difficult. As of now, all of us are feeling the pressure and things that we thought would remedy the situation turned out to be a dud. Still though I haven't gotten it right, I won't quit. I know the answer is out there so I keep on trying. This is not only for me but for people around me as well.

You're only a loser if you give up the fight. No one will call me or anyone around me that. I know it's easier said than done but there's no other way. I still believe I can turn things around because I did once and I can do so again. The fact that you're still trying doesn't make you a loser so cheer up and good luck.

Habits That We Want To Break: One Bad Habit By Micheal Franks

2013-06-13T03:46:00.001-07:00

Ever had that situation where you make the same mistakes again and again? You ask yourself why that happens despite every precaution that you make? One of the reasons why that happens is because of certain habits that you do. These habits have a way of preventing you from achieving your goals and that's why you have to find a way to break them if you want to succeed. Wanting to break certain habits that do that reminds me of the song "One Bad Habit": by Micheal Franks.

What are these habits that often keep us from attaining success? Well they can hesitation and doubt, laziness, negative attitude or refusal to come out of your comfort zone. We don't want to admit but we all have some habits that often act as a distraction and it could distract us at a time when we least need it. When it does get the better of us, that's it. Everything goes down the drain and deep inside you know why that happened.

Our inner demons often produce these habits. We grapple with them constantly as we make it through the day. If we want to succeed, we have to break these habits as well as not to give in to our own fears. It's not easy but if you want to make it happen that's what we need to do. Habits are hard to break but if the rewards are worth it, do it.

That's All I Want To Do: Back On My Feet Again By The Foundations

2013-06-11T05:17:00.000-07:00

The last five days have left me drained mentally, emotionally and physically. Apart from that, I still have to deal with this situation where I have no control on. I swear there too many unpleasant things that are happening around here lately. All I want is to get back on my feet and have peace of mind. Listening to the song "Back On My Feet Again" by The Foundations always reminds me of that wish.

I wish I was like the character in that song where he had someone help him to get back on track. The sad reality is that you have to do that on your own. That's what I've been trying to do all these years and I still can't get it right. Just when I think I spot something that might help, it turns into dust and I back to square one. Now that I'm getting older, things just keep getting tougher.

Though it's gets harder, I still am determined to keep going till I find it. To be able to stand on my own and have some peace is all that I want right now. I've been through too much tumultuous and disappointing years and though I have accepted the end results, that doesn't mean that I'm quitting. I still believe that I will achieve that even though my good days have passed. That's all I want to do right which is why I'm trying to do all that I can to get it.

I Stand By My Family Forever: He Aint Heavy He's My Brother" By The Hollies

2013-06-10T21:57:00.000-07:00

My aunt did something really amazing on Facebook. She posted a slideshow that depicted old photographs of my late father. They were so old and so rare even I haven't seen them before. Apart from the photos, there were some music from their era that was also played along with the slideshow. One of the songs that was there was "He Aint Heavy, He's My Brother" by The Hollies.

I guess I mentioned this because this month we celebrate Father's Day but sadly it's been three years since he passed away. I still miss him to this day and what hurts the most is the fact that he died just when things were starting to look up. Apart from my father, this song applies also to my brothers and my mother. Their joy is my joy and their sorrow is my sorrow. Right now they are the world to me and all I want is to see them happy and safe.

As I've mentioned time and time again on this blog, my family is everything to me. I don't mind having it tough so long as they are all safe and sound. Even when we disagree at times, I will always stand by them. If I help them, I don't ask for anything in return because they're my family. They are never a burden to me because I care about them and they care about me. No matter I stand by my family forever.

Always Remember That People Care About You: Good Feeling To Know By Poco

2013-06-09T16:45:00.000-07:00

I have to admit that I've been griping a lot these past few weeks. I just needed to blow some steam about all the things that have caused me and a lot of people a great of anxiety. Things have been so tough that I've been stressed to the max. Be that as it may, I don't forget the fact that there are people out there who care and they are always there when things don't go so well. It is because of these people that I keep going. The love and care that these people give to me reminds me of the song "Good Feeling To Know".

Sometimes the stress that problems bring you can drive you crazy. It's during these time when people help you during your time of need. A pat on the back, some words of encouragement or even a joke is an effort from these people to uplift your spirits. Some would even go through extraordinary lengths to bail you out without asking for anything in return. This is because they believe in you.and more importantly, it shows that they care.

Support like is hard to come by and that's why we don't take these people for granted. They are there for us when no one else was there to lift you up. More importantly, they lent their support without asking for anything in return. Never forget that there are people who care about you. That' thought would make anyone feel good.

Waiting For Things To Get Better: How Long By Y & T

2013-06-08T03:35:00.000-07:00

I have a bad feeling that June and July are going to be very rocky months. The fact that things didn't go well for us in May and right now we all have swords hanging on our heads. It was bad enough that the previous years have been bad but now they are starting to look worse. I can't wait for this bad cloud to bug out so that things will be better. Wondering when this bad funk will be over and when the good times will be back reminds me of the song "How Long" by Y & T.

And I thought my bad cycle years were bad enough. These days, I wake and sleep with stress and worry everyday as something always happens and things just fall apart. The problems just keep coming this time around and it's more than we can bear. I'm beginning to feel I am playing a more level of this sick cycle that I find myself in. The worst part is it's not just me but around me are also feeling the heat and that really breaks my heart.

The only thing keeping me from giving is remembering Bergson's "Shipwreck Theory" that one day this will be over. Until then, I am just trying to find ways to help ease the situation though it seems I'm just bouncing off the wall. Still, I know the answer is out there and I'll trying till I find it. I just have to wait it out till things get better. I know it will someday.

A Loner At Heart: The Loner By Gary Moore

2013-06-07T08:10:00.001-07:00

Whenever someone would ask me how describe myself, I would always I'm a loner. I was always the type of person who didn't exactly fit in with others when I was young. This was because my first exposure to society didn't start well and it took me a long time to get along with others outside my family. To this day, I still maintain a certain degree of separation from others even though I get along with them. This is because deep inside I am a loner who still longs to find something that will give me some peace of mind. That's why for this post, I am using the song "The Loner" by Gary Moore.

Ever since that bad debut into society, I always kept a certain distance from what was going on. This went so far as not even getting into the "in" stuff that people enjoyed at the time. I was always selective of the people who I hung around with. Like me, most of them were lone wolves who wanted to find a place where they can be themselves. I didn't want to be part of the crowd but to get away from and find that which I can feel I belong in.

To this day, I still have that loner mentality. Oh I get along bests as I can and do what I have to do because it's part of surviving in this world where no man is an island. But inside is a restlessness in me that wants to be where I can be with my own kind. Maybe when I find that which I am looking for, only then will I truly loosen up. The restlessness in me stills fuels my being a loner because a lot of times no one understands and I doubt if any of them ever will.

Hoping That The Start Of The Day Will Be A Good Day: Come Morning By Grover Washington, Jr.

2013-06-06T03:09:00.000-07:00

Lately I haven't been getting a good night's sleep because I tend to linger a little bit too much before I turn in. I'm doing this too often but I do so because I'm trying to find answers to questions that nag me to no end. Sadly, I keep coming up with nada which adds to the frustration. I guess this is why I wake up earlier than I should cause I hope that when the day starts, it would lead to something good for a change. Hoping that the would be good day reminds of Grover Washington, Jr.'s song "Come Morning".

Everyday I try hard to find answers to questions that hang heavy inside me. Just when I thought I find something that will lead me to the answers I seek, it turns out to be a bust. As a result, every time I wake up, I always have too things on my mind. Still, when I see the darkness fade into dawn, it gives me hope that there is another day and with another chance to find that which I seek. New day means new hope that I'll find it.

Why do I keep going? I was able to do it once but something happened and now I'm back to square one. Still, if I was able to do it before, I am still hopeful that I will do it again. I just have to keep on going and keep on learning. Maybe come morning, I might be able to get the answers that I seek.

Knowing What You Want And Going For It: What Do You Want Out Of Life By The Tubes

2013-06-05T01:22:00.000-07:00

By next week it would be the first month of June and students will now be back at school and new graduates are either trying to find a job or are getting adjusted to their new jobs. My only hope for those new grads is that they be able to do well in life because I know what it feels like when your plans don't come true and you have to build with what's left while feeling uncertain about the future. If you know what you want, go for it and don't let anyone tell you otherwise. What comes to that question, it reminds of the song "What Do You Want Out Of Life" by The Tubes.

When you're young, you have all these expectations that you want out of life. One of the things that you should expect is not everybody will agree with what you want and they dissuade you and even make fun of your plans. Just remember, it's your life and you have thought over a thousand time and still want to go through with it, then go for it. Just remember to learn what you have to learn and get the tools that you need to make it happen. It would happen by waving a magic want but by hard work.

Do what it takes to make it come true but if it doesn't happen be ready with a Plan B. Still, there's nothing more fulfilling by having your dreams come true. That said, it doesn't hurt to listen to suggestions and even constructive criticism. If it's to help you get closer to what you want, take it. The road to failure starts when you please others instead of yourself so know what you want in life so you will be happy.

Remembering The Happy Days Of The Old House: Our Town By Marshall Crenshaw

2013-06-04T01:22:00.000-07:00

Last week was very stressful and now I gotta get up early because has started and I wanna beat the traffic. To add to my woes, the air of uncertainty stills hangs heavily around me as I still don't what awaits us. I swear, I'm beginning to think life is starting to play jokes on me. Only the good memories of summers' past give me comfort during these hot months. Remembering great times I enjoyed as I kid to my early adult years reminds me of Marshall Crenshaw's song "Our Town".

Back then, we always frolic and ran wild in the summer. The old house was big enough to do anything and there was always something to do in the summer time. If we didn't go out, we'd play war day after day. As we got older, friends would drop by and we'd party till we'd drop. That was how we would spend the summer year after year. It was really a blast.

Today is a different story. The last couple of summers brought a heat of a different kind as problems to pop around this period. Each really stressed me out to the end of the year. I really wish I can go back to that time when life was fun but I can't. The good memories of those summers are all I have left.

About Not Wanting To Let People Down And Being Let Down: Never Let Me Down Again By Depeche Mode

2013-06-03T03:54:00.000-07:00

Among the other things that I stress on this blog is about fulfilling your duties to others. When you say that you'll do this you better deliver because if not, they won't trust you anymore. That's why when I say that I'll do it, I'll do it even if it's hard. Sadly when I'm the one relying on the help of others, it always comes up short. That's been happening a lot lately. When it comes to not letting others down but being let down by others, the song "Never Let Me Down Again" by Depeche Mode comes to mind.

As much as possible I mind my own business but life always seems to throw some kind of baggage in my arms. For some reason whether I like it or not, I'm in it for the long haul so I do what I can to resolve it. I wish the same can be said when I'm in need. Day by day, I look for the answers but find none. Some promise me help and I wind with nada.

Every time that happens, it's like a slap to the face. I know you have to work hard but can be so frustrating when the tables are turned. As if you fulfilled your part of the bargain but wind up getting screwed. That's a bitter pill to swallow. That's even though it's hard I try to do things on my own because I hate being let down by big promises that offer nothing in the end.

Why My Blog Post Have Been So Dark Lately: Diary Of A Madman By Ozzy Osbourne

2013-06-02T02:36:00.000-07:00

When my obnoxious batchmate paid me a visit, he asked my why are my blog post are dark? Given what's been happening in the last seven years, I have very little to smile about. Even during the supposedly good times, something happens that just spoils my mood and ruins my day. It's been happening a lot lately and apart from working out, blogging is my way of expressing my frustrations. How frustrated I am can best be summed up in the song "Diary Of A Madman" by Ozzy Osbourne.

These days something always happens that puts me on edge. Apart from that, unresolved problems from the past haunt me like a ghost day in and day out. One of my classmates who I bumped a few months back chided me for letting things get to me too much. I can't help it because I care a lot about the people around me and to hear them having it bad really affects me. Apart from that, I too have to deal with a new bomb that really took me off guard and with no outlet for my frustrations, blogging is the best way to express these demons out of my system.

Blogging about my problems is thus far my way of dealing with them. It's not like I'm airing my dirty laundry for everybody to see. I just need to express these thoughts on some platform to put me at ease. Still, I am also trying to find a way to resolve this and I hope one day I will. Till then, majority of my posts will be like a diary of a madman who is trying to make sense of this crazy world driving people crazy.

It Is How I Feel Lately: Whipping Post By Allman Brothers Band

2013-06-01T07:47:00.000-07:00

It's the weekend but I still feel low. The same anxiety that has hit me two weeks ago continues to haunt me like the grim reaper on a terminally-ill patient. So far, everything that I banked on went bust as if life forbids me to enjoy any kind of achievement. When things keep going bad, you feel like you're being whipped all the time. This is the reason why the song "Whipping Post" by The Allman Brothers comes to mind.

Nothing's been going right for a lot of us lately. Every time I try to hope for the best, those hopes get shot down like a duck during hunting season. What I get instead are a ton of problems and the worst part about is it happens when you already have too much to deal with. Every bad news is like a lash on the back with a whip. It makes you wonder if anything good will happen at all.

Well, right now I am just taking the bad as well as the good that life throws at me. With more bad than good, that sure is hard to do. Still I try my best to keep my head high despite all the disappointments. Hopefully the day will come when all this bad juju will disappear. When that happens, I won't be feeling like a whipping post anymore.

Chill Man, Chill: Chill Out By John Lee Hooker

2013-05-31T06:39:00.001-07:00

Just when I thought I was already stressed out from everything that's been happening around here, I get hit with another bomb. Just when stress thermometer was going down, it suddenly shot up again, driving me into panic mode. Then I stop myself and try to get it together. I remember that no matter nasty the things life throws at you get, chill out then work it out. I have to John Lee Hooker (together with Carlos Santana) for his song "Chill Out" for reminding me of that.

A long time ago, I stayed positive no matter what life threw at me. I always remained positive but these days, I feel at I am at the edge. At the back of my head, a voice is to hold on.. Dear God, I am trying my best. It isn't easy cause life is throwing everything at me including the kitchen sink.

They say that there isn't a problem that the Good Lord won't give you that you can't handle. All I know is that I am doing the best that I can. The problems keep pouring in and I try to handle it but it sure is tough. I just hope that the solution won't be far away. Till then, I'll just chill.