26th June 1984 - A star was born.. :)

DIAPERS CAKE :)

2010-04-15T03:31:00.007+08:00

I hv always loved to decorate. I did few hantaran for my friends but i did it all for fun. :) Since i love to decorate a lot... i am now opening orders for Diapers cake. Not so many malaysian knows bout Diapers Cake. Diapers cake is a common gift in US or other part of the world for newborn and center piece for baby showers. So here's a few pics of my version of diapers cake. I always give it as a gift for my friends who just deliver their baby. :) For those who interested to order, u can email me at babyfairies@ymail.com. I create the email especially for this. I have registered a blogspot especially for this as well but i just never have the time to promote. And i nvr have the time to update the blog. Anyway just visit the blog lah.. http://dafairies.blogspot.com. So enjoy the product of Da Fairies:

For newborn gift (with netting)

noticed the Da Fairies tag?

For center piece (without netting)

*hugsandkisses* tenten MDP 2010

CAFE and BOUTIQUE cool concept!!

2010-04-15T02:46:00.000+08:00

*pic courtesy of polomalaysia

Last week a friend of mine brought me to a place called MY POLO Cafe Boutique in Kota Damansara. I was so impressed with the concept. It's a boutique and a cafe. The most impressive part is the product that they are selling which is a POLO tee . It's so cool that you can customize your own POLO tee. They have few POLO products that can be customize which is Cap, towel, apron (YES, an apron.. the apron that we use in the kitchen.. cool ya!), and of course the POLO tee.

The drinks are super delicious and the food is nice (nyaman...*wink*) and cute. Yes.. its cute.. :)

Well apart from that, from the visit to the cafe boutique i learnt few info and history bout POLO tee and the most important fact that I think everyone should know is.... POLO tee is not actually belongs to any company. It's the just a type of t-shirt. But of course there are sooo many big companies that is producing POLO tee as part of their clothes design. We have big names like Ralph Lauren, Lacoste and etc. So MY POLO is another brand that is producing a POLO tee. Many people would misunderstand that it's not an authentic POLO tee since it's Made in Malaysia. But the truth is, it is authentic. The company does not imitate or produce imitation of other company's POLO tee like Ralph Lauren, Hackett and etc. They just come out with another registered brand for POLO tee. If you want to find imitation, go and find in Petaling street or any uptown or pasar malam. The design is almost the same with Ralph Lauren and etc. But it's imitation. Made in China or Thailand :). So, as a Malaysian i think we should support our own products right. Better than supporting imitations stuff right? :)

Anyway the quality is good and it comes in sooo many colours and the best part is we can customize it. Words, logos, numbers and etc. (thats the thing that attract me most actually.. hehe)

Other than that, the company has a vision to let everyone own a POLO tee. So they come out with one networking program. And most important it's not MLM :) (well people will always connect the word networking with MLM and will get scared.. hehe) Anyway back to the vision.. So they have this vision to let everyone wear POLO tee and earn cash at the same time. Isn't that cool? Yeah believe it or not.. i saw it happened right in front of me.. Cash on the spot. Cool ya? So for those who loves POLO tee like i am. U should visit the place. And if u're interested to know more on this you can visit http://polomalaysia.blogspot.com

I brought home with me few (yes.. FEW.. haha) POLO tee the other day. I love all the colours.. :)

Ok then, think dats all for today. Need to take some rest. Nites!

*hugsandkisses* tenten MDP 2010

Back on track!

2010-04-14T01:16:00.002+08:00

*miz diz moment.. soon will be back*

When something happened in your life, ~~bad~~ or good, happy or ~~sad~~, ~~wrong~~ or right.. there is only one person who knows exactly how u feel.. yourself. Many will gives their own opinion and even judge u. Sometimes you will feel ~~sad~~ when you think too much about what other people might think about your life or decisions you have made in your life. It happened to me. The result, ~~I almost lost my career. Cause i've been down and focusing on all the negative energy~~. The outcome, ~~soooooo many things stuck~~. Investment and etc. So now, i have to deal with everything from zero.

I have decided not to let my emotions suck my energy and just believe in Him. I'm in the process of adjusting my career and life. It's hard when suddenly your income is not even half from what u used to earn. And it's a challenge to get back all the positive energy that u used to have. Cause it's been a while that ~~i actually let my emotions suck all the good energy away~~. Now, i'm training myself to have a good mindset everytime i wake up. I didn't know why i actually stopped my morning mindset habit. I can't even recalled when exactly i stopped from doing it. So, now i'm training myself to have it everytime i wake up in the morning. I left sooo many of my daily routine actually. I actually let my emotions be the priority of everything. Maybe that is when everything becomes blurry and slowly fade away.

Anyway, i always remind myself what ever i do, as long as it is good in His eyes, then i should not worry bout anything else. With His blessings no matter what people says bout me, i'll go through the tough time. So let it be.. just moved on and pray. And remember tough times never last but tough people do and success is not measured by what a person accomplishes, but by the opposition they have encountered, and by the courage with which they have maintained the struggle against overwhelming odds. I believe today i will get good news from my clients. Amin. Ok for now, good nite everyone..!! Sweet dreams.. Always remember, everything's gonna be alright..! everything's gonna be alright..! everything's gonna be alright..!!! *woot*woot*woot*

*hugsandkisses* tenten MDP 2010

When the going gets tough, the tough get going!

2010-04-12T01:03:00.005+08:00

Yes!! when the going gets tough, the tough get going! There are moments in our life we feels like its the end of the world.. its the end of everything.. but trust me, every time when bad thoughts come across your mind or you feel the burden is soooooo heavy... tell yourself "everything's gonna be alright".. you'll feel better. Keep on telling yourself "everything's gonna be alright"! You have to have faith that everything will be alright. You have to believe in yourself and most importantly Him.

Everytime u feel like falling down on your knees, always remember when the going gets tough, the tough get going! But it will keep on going away from you if you keep on attracting and focusing positive things. Stop focusing on the tough moments, the problems or even the sadness.

When we failed to achieved something, doesn't mean we lost everything. We have to let go on certain things in order for something greater to comes in our life. So stop, crying or feeling depressed over things that we have done. Regrets won't help. Actions to make things better will help. Forget bout the failure, take it as a challenge and move on.

The choice is ours. I have failed in few things. I have made mistakes. I let my emotion conquer my focus. I have not been working properly. But, i will not let my failure or mistakes stop me from achieving my GOAL. I have to start back from the bottom and i will work harder and I will never fail to pray to Him. I believe, I will be back on track on my journey towards my GOAL or maybe even better ME than last time. With prayers and hard work, I know I will achieved it.

GOAL that will be achieved in 6 months time:

1. Settled down with Mr. Hubby

2. Buy a house

3. Back to my 5 figure income constantly

4. Savings 5 times my monthly income

5. Learn ----

6. Settled all my outstanding cdt with the bank

7. Lose the kgs

FOCUS!!!!

Don't let anything stop you. Pray for the best. Amin. Please pray and support me instead of condemning me. Let me live on the life that I have choose. I still love everyone as I have always been. I have learnt to appreciate life even better now. I'm sorry if i hurt anyone. But, like i said before i have decided. All this while I have let all the emotional feelings conquer my life. I have not been working properly and I have been giving excuses to myself to not to focus. I have enough. It's time for me to be back on track. Please let me ya..? I'll work hard to make this happen and let God do the rest. I have faith in Him.

*hugsandkisses* tenten MDP 2010

have you ever?

2010-04-11T07:18:00.000+08:00

Wow!! it's been few months since i feed my blog.. life has been busy.. i didnt even get the chance to bid everyone happy 2010... :) and its almost middle of the year already huh? well, so maaaaaaaanyyyy things happened that has stop me from blogging for a while. Business, family matters and etc. Few unwanted challenges occurred throughout end of last year till beginning of this year. I"m still adjusting myself to be back on track actually. Trying to fix things to be normal and back to the extraordinary me! :) focusing on positive things.. varnish all the negative things. Well, we will never learn until we make mistakes right? Fixing the business to be back on track. Wish me luck ya!!

Anyway, have u ever listen to a song that makes u seat and reminiscence about your childhood and adolescence? this is what i feel every time i listen to this song.. my cousin deasy use this song as her background music for her blog. I'm not sure whether she still using this song as her background music or not cause my lappy is a bit slow to upload nowadays. *wink* maybe its time to upgrade.. :)

Enjoy this song ya.. I feel so peaceful and relax every time i have this song on in my mp3 player. Sometimes, when u feel so down and low.. it's good to find a good music, close your eyes and listen to the music.. it works.. and if u feel like crying.. let it go.. u will feel better.. trust me.. :) then view back your goal and your vision wall.. look at it, think of it, feel it and ACT! :) *reminding myself actually* (0_o) Anyway, enjoy the song...

*hugsandkisses* tenten MDP 2010

stay POSITIVE

2009-11-21T02:36:00.003+08:00

hey there fellow readers.. its been a while since my last post.. life been busy... i'm in the middle of running towards my 2009 goal.. its almost end of the year and i have to achieve all my 2009 resolutions.. :) last few weeks have been hectic especially last week.. soooo many thgs happened at one time.. i was diagnosed with bronchitis and few work issue.. an few friends issue due to unwanted and unexpected occasions.. anyway.. we shouldn't stressed out the less positive thingy rite.. so just live and focus with my goals.. something big is coming.. YEAH!! working and praying hard for it.. He will show the way and He will lead the way... With faith, ibadah and sincerity surely we will feel happier and live happier. So with this post i will include one of my fav motivation clip.. it's a good video to watch to boost ur energy.. to motivate urself.. enjoy the clip..

*hugs and kisses* tenten MDP 2009 YEAH!!!

Libra Man versus Cancer Woman

2009-10-03T00:18:00.003+08:00

Last month i went through Rachel Chua's blog, and i saw her entry entitle Horoscope of boyfriend past. After reading it i requested her to give me details for libra man and cancer woman.. and she did it.. thanks rachel.. so below are the details: (copied from here)

LIBRA MAN

A man who has no balance like his Zodiac symbol. He is not the gentle, cool , calm and charming guy like what you see. He has another dark side of aggression, stubborn and he likes to start an argument the most. Sometimes he can be so depress and unstable. Up and down like he is trying to balance himself most of the time.

To many people, he is a friendly guy and always smile even when he is mad or up set. His voice always gentle and calm. he always set and comb his hair as if he comes out from a shampoo advertisement. Mostly Libra men are good looking, even the ugly one is charming. When he smiles, it is so bright that the whole world is smiling with him too. When he is in a balance mood, he is the type of person you want to be with. In other unbalancing mood, he likes to make people argue about something and watching it with fascination and fun. He will wait to be the one who compromise and clear thing up. He likes to be in a conflicting conversation.

Libra man is lazy by nature. After his tired day at work, he likes to sit still and just look out of the window or read quietly. He likes to be in his own world. After recharging his battery, he will be very energetic again and may even take you out that night. Libra man normally will not do any shocking or abnormal things to be noticed. He likes to be conformed with his crowd, but if you watch him carefully, you will see the different. If he wear a shirt, it will have to be a zipper front instead of buttons, or a special tie bar.

There is always something in him that he will not allow totally conformity to take him over. A straight forward , no non-sense guy. He is careful and delicate in details. He will spent extra time to doing it right, than comes back to correct them later. He hates people who boost, or exaggerate. He does not like over dressed woman or make herself a center of an attention. He loves to read. He loves poems and loves art. When he works he can work like crazy, but after work he can turn on romantic jazzy music and treat you so gently. He loves to give people advice and normally give a good advice.

If you fall for him, you will stay like being trapped in a spider web. If you want to break up with him, he will persuade you a zillion ways to stay and you can not stop him anyway. After he persuade you to stay, or after a big fight, he will be so sweet to you as if he has never hurt your feeling before ever. He will has his own way to win a girl love and affection. Once she says yes, he will lay back and wonder if he should go on or if he should back out. In his teen, he changed many girl friends because he can not clearly separate loving a friend and loving a girl friend. He will check and re-cheek if his match is suitable and compatible with him. Even he is a romantic man, he can hardly understand the emotion of the one he loves.

He is a generous guy even he sets his life so systematically. He never knows when he makes you unhappy. He never knows how he up set you. He will never knows what he said wrong. If he is your lover, be prepare for this. A not so pretty girl with no brain is not his type of woman. If you are not pretty enough, he will not mind talking to you but he does not care to get to know you. Any girls, pretty or ugly can ask for his help, he will be happy to help. He hates to argue by yelling at each other, so you tend to see he argue with his girl friend seriously but try at best to be very quiet.

He likes to have a girl friend by getting to know each other like a friend first. If you want him, you have to like the same thing he does. He prefers a pretty and gentle woman than a smart and ugly woman. You have to understand his mood especially he can has many different moods. He is a private person, so when he needs to be alone better let him be.

CANCER WOMAN

When she is in love, she will act both ways. First, Shy and polite trembling to be near you. Second, Attach to you like glue and trying to be with you all the times. She will try to go home with you after work, or have every lunch with you. It is O.K. if you like her too, but if is is not the case, you will feel very uncomfortable.

She hates to be talked about or gossiped by someone else. If she knows she will be very hurt. In nature she is a shy type, except she has been influenced by some other Zodiac. She is not a brave or daring type, so if you like her then you better be the one who start first. She will not accept her true feeling, so if you like here you better tell her first. She is like a musical note always change in tunes, so one minute she can be funny and cheerful, and one minute she can be sad and depress.

Other people may think of her as "Over-acting", or "Over-reacting". When she is depress, she will go out and look for things to make it up. She loves money, and thinks of having "Money" as "happy", not as "God". She will not look down at you if you do not have a lot of money, but she will help you make money, save money. She is not an extravagant person and sometimes will tell you not to buy her expensive and not useful gift. She is the type who enjoy a long and quiet walk. Cancer woman also influenced by the "moon", so under the moon light she will be fascinating woman.

She has a constant fear for many things. She fear of not being smart enough, not pretty enough. Even if she is not fat, she will not be satisfy. Assuring her of her look would help, because she can change mood 4 times a day. She is not stingy, but you will not surprise if you see she collecting old or broken junks. She sees that everything are useful to her. She will find a way to re-use it again some day. She is not a jealous type,but possessive. The best part of her is that she will sacrifice everything for her love one with no limit.

Don't leave her in times of troubles, she will never forget it. She is not a weak type, even she looks like one, Example if you argue with her, she might cry her heart out. Once you left, she will wipe her tears and start clean up her apartment normally. She is a very careful mother and will look after her kids every steps of the way. If she is a mother of your children, you are at ease, but if she is your mother in law, you are in pain. Not to worry, this type of mother in law will not let her own daughter being an "Old mate".

She could be moody and argue with you in many little things like many women, but she always wait and want to take care of you. If you argue with her and disappear a few days, she will be waiting for you, but not for long O.K. This kind of testing is risky, try not to do it.

The Cancer woman need 2 things to be happy which are "Work" and "Love".

She can be live in a dusty house, but she can not live in that same house with no Love.

Well, what do u thk of the combination of libra man and cancer woman? *wink* two different personalities ya... but i think at the end of the day it's all about understanding, respect and love ya.. dats the secret ingredients of a relationships.. so i'll pray that me and him will always be "US". Amin.
love, tenten *hugsandkisses*

WeeeeHEEEE~~~ trying to feel healthy :)

2009-08-31T13:14:00.003+08:00

Hello there fellow readers.. (mcm lah byk readers kan.. *wink*) I just came back from Bandung.. It was a fun shopping trip... tiring but worth it... on my third day in Bandung i was down with fever, cough and sorethroat... but of course that didnt stop me from shopping.. heee~~~~ but of course i put my mask on all the time...

So here i am today still down with fever and etc but dun worry , the first thing i did when i reached kl is i went straight to Hospital Ampang and i did the H1N1 check up.. and thank God it turned out to be negative. The doctor said i'm having a normal fever.. That's all.. it's just that my body temperature is quite high but nothing to worry about it. They gave me paracetamol, cough medicine, piriton and antibiotics.. Hopefully i will recover soon.. apart of the heatiness of my body.. my sorethroat and dry cough is disturbing me.. So pray for me that tomorrow i will wake up without all these uncomfotable situations.

So will update more on the shopping trip at my next entry ya.. I need to take some rest.. but before that i would like to share one song that my dear sent to me through fb when i was in bandung.. It's a very meaningful song... Sooooo sweet of u dear... Enjoy the song~~

love, tenten *hugs and kisses*

I FEEL GOOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-17T19:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPINESS :)

Love, tenten *hugs and kisses*

mode: happy and excited

Visualisation is on its way to reality..

2009-08-17T19:09:00.005+08:00

Have you ever feel the vibration of good energy within you? when you feel that something great is coming and it will make a difference in your life? i can feel it now.. :) *goosebumps*. My visualisation is on its way to reality.. its very near.. as near as the day after tomorrow.

I have faith and i'm praying everything will fall into the right place.. just like i always visualize it will be. So dear friends do pray for me as well ya. Especially you shida.. hehe.. remember.. London-malaysia tickets? hehe.

part of the visualisation that will make it happen. *wink*

Tun Mustapha (Yayasan Sabah) Building
pics taken from here

Love, tenten MDP of the YEAR! *hugs and kisses*
mode:excited

My perfect partner?

2009-08-17T02:41:00.006+08:00

P/S: Just another jiwang post from me. I believe appreciation and gratitude is something GREAT that can make ur life much better.. So this is just another entry to show him how important and thankful i am to be part of him.. So discontinue reading if u're not in jiwang mode. Hehe.

Who is your perfect partner?

My perfect partner would be someone who complete me in every single aspects of life and he should always make me feel I'm the best woman on this whole wide world.. *wink* and I found one and I'm praying that he'll always be the one and only. Thanks for making my life more meaningful dear.. and thanks for always loving me no matter how bad the situations is... Just another post especially for you to let u noe how much u mean to me.. :) Thanks dear.. Love ya.

One of the song that kept me strong to always believe in "us".

Love, ur lover, tenten *hugs and kisses*

the lion sleep tonight?

2009-08-15T01:06:00.002+08:00

I have this copy since I was in Johor 5 years ago. Till today it never failed to make me smile.. today i found another version of it.. and it makes me LOL.. so which one do like more? :) enjoy the clips..

The first version:-

The second version.. LOL

Keep on smiling everyone.. :)
Love, tenten *hugs and kisses*
mode:happy with nephews and niece.. and nvr stop missing u dear.. :)

:: AFFIRM :: FAITH :: ACTION :: ACTION ::

2009-08-11T19:38:00.005+08:00

I want a copy of this. Hope i will get it when I'm back in KL cause i can't seem to find it anywhr here. Just want to share with everyone.. :) the sequel of The Secret.

Love, tenten *hugs and kisses*
mode:excited and yeah still missing u dear..

Hadapi dengan senyuman :)

2009-08-11T15:03:00.001+08:00

All that we are :)

2009-08-11T07:00:00.006+08:00

"All that we are is the result
of what we have thought."

Buddha

Yes! another good quote ya. It's a quote by Buddha. It's been known for centuries that whatever we think will reflect on the end result. If you think rich.. you'll end up being rich.. if you think healthy, you'll end up being healthy.. if you think forgiveness, u will forgive and u will get forgiveness, if you think depression.. you'll being depress about every little thing in your life, but if you think of love and gratitude, you'll end up with love and happiness. Its all yours to pick. No matter how big the obstacles or challenge in your life but if u choose to think it as nothing.. nothing it will be.

That is the good thing of being human being. God created us to be someone who has the ability to control our emotions. But again, it's up to us to decide whether we want emotions to control us or the other way round. But how come there are times when we think that we have been thinking to be a better person or to be rich or to be happy but yet we stuck some where else? For me, maybe the sincerity is not enough. It's like we think we want to be happy but our heart is not 100% contributing to it.

So what shall we do? do things that will lead to our goals. Don't do things against it. For example, you wanted to be happy but you keep on watching sad movies or reading sad things and etc. So do you think you'll end up happy? of course not. If you want to feel happy you should be listening to good songs.. or watch happy or funny movies or looking at cute pictures. :) Find a reason to be happy not finding an excuse to feel bad. :) There are days when we feel less happy.. its all up to us how we look at things.. how we can make it a better day right?

Well, it's not that i'm one perfect person that always feel happy but when i feel less happy.. i will remind myself that i could make things better. It's like a reminder to myself when i share this thoughts with everyone. :)

So let us all choose what we want to be. God will always give His blessings if its a good thing that we're doing. :) So choose, have faith, pray, be gratitude... appreciate and love.. there you go.. You're one of the happiest person on earth! WOOHOOOO! Yes you are! Yes you! WOOHOOO! Give me that great smile! Yes! :)

Today, i woke up and open my facebook.. i received a msg in my inbox. It's from my dear. He sent me this clip ;) I feel appreciated. The lyrics might be differ from the message his trying to deliver.. hehe.. again.. it's how u want to take it.. for me he's trying to deliver no matter what happens he will still be there for me to love and cherish me. :) *ahaks* i can be very jiwang sometimes.. hehe.. thanks dear.

Love, tenten *hugs and kisses*
mode: happy and missing u dear!

Follow your bliss ;p

2009-08-10T13:56:00.006+08:00

"Follow your bliss and the universe
will open doors for you where

there were only walls"

Joseph Campbell

I feel so excited when i have to wake up early in the morning.. its not so easy to wake up as early as 6am if i'm in KL.. here, in KK its part of my routine to send my lil sis girl to Uitm. So to make sure she'll arrive on time to class we have to leave early or else we will be stuck in the jam. First, it was quite hard to wake up.. but as few days past, it becomes my routine and everytime i wake up in the morning i will feel excited.. i just love the morning view of KK.. and some more i'll get to see the sea throughout the journey.. such a peace of mind.. i feel relaxed and happy. Part of the happy mode is usually contributed by JJ and Ian with the gotcha call and stuff.. there's always a reason to laugh.. and i find that laughing in the morning will always make my day.

I believe that if we're happy.. everything seems to unfold at the rite place.. Such a great feelings when everthing is just there the way u want it to be.. I've been visualizing few things.. and it feels so good when i can feel it is on its way to me.. or most of the time i feel like its already here with me.. what i want is in my hands... hehe.. :)

Well the message i'm trying to deliver is actually.. let gratitude be the first thing in your mind when you wake up.. Be thankful to our creator, God that we're still breathing and we have another chance to be in this fun game called live. I believe if u wake up with this good thought on your mind.. u will have a great day like mine. I'm not a perfect human but i'm trying to make my journey here in this place called world a good one.. so sharing is caring rite.. XOXO Till then.. always keep the good feelings near u and hv a great and positive day everyone :)

Love, tenten. *hugs and kisses*

p/s: am missing u dear!

::WEALTHY::HEALTHY::BEAUTY::HAPPY::

2009-08-06T22:53:00.003+08:00

Law of Attraction... visualize and it shall be there for u.. :)
This is my Vission Board.

Love, tenten MDP August 2009
mode: *missing my dear*

One of my latest fav song.

2009-08-03T01:22:00.005+08:00

I love this song.. the lyrics is meaningful. And it's for someone that i love.

Bukan Cinta Biasa-Afgan
OST Bukan Cinta Biasa

Kali ini kusadari
Aku telah jatuh cinta
Dari hatiku terdalam
Sungguh aku cinta padamu

Cintaku bukanlah cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang memiliki
Dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku

Terimalah pengakuanku
Percayalah kepadaku
Semua ini kulakukan
Karena kamu memang untukku

Cinta ku bukan cinta biasa
Jika kamu yang menemani
Dan kamu yang temaniku seumur hidupku
Terimalah pengakuanku

Love, tenten
*hugs and kisses*

will there be another Yasmin Ahmad?

2009-08-02T23:04:00.007+08:00

It's been a week since the BEST malaysian story teller has left us.. but, i'm still in denial.. i just cant accept it.. it was so fast. I remembered i was surfing the net and i came across Anil's blog entitle Meninggal? i was so shocked.. grab my hp and start dialing my fren's no. Bonnie. His gf is working wif murai and i know i can get the real info from him.. He didnt pick up the call. I cant sit still.. try to google for the real story but all the story that i found was all negative. 5 minutes after that i received a sms "Yasmin is in the operation room.. she's still alive." I feel a lil ok.. but still in shocked.. Eventhough I didn't get to talked to bonnie nor did i sms him to ask bout Yasmin condition.. he seems to understand the reason why i tried to call him.. I replied his sms"Pls update me her condition ya.. thanks.. lets just pray for her.. thanks again."

I was worried about her condition.. i kept on praying that she'll be ok... and i keep on telling myself that she'll be fine.. Suddenly near midnight of 27th July 2009, i received sms from Bonnie.. "Yasmin Ahmad dah meninggal dunia pukul 11.30 td.." I was with Shida that time.. in her hse in Muar as it was her engagement day. I told shida and i said i still cant believe it that she's gone.. she said well this is life. Our time will come as well... well thats true..

So here i am today still feeling sad and still trying to digest the truth that she's no longer here to share with us her great stories. I always think that she's a great woman that can make anyone cry watching her one minute advert. One minute advert that will make u seat and think deeply about life and how much we should appreciate everyone around us. That is always the message she wants to deliver. Love, respect and appreciate every single person that is in ur life. Live in peace and harmony... skin colour, beliefs, traditions and etc shouldnt stop us from living in peace and hormany. Treat all equally. Its like the One Malaysia campaign.. how far did we contribute towards it and actually how much did we apply it in our daily lives? We might see the campaign goin on here and there but how much did it change us?

How many will have the same thoughts like her? will there be another person likeYasmin Ahmad? That is the question most of us will think off? Maybe, instead of thinking or searching for a replace of another great woman like her.. we should ourselves first practice to live in harmony with respect and love to all humankind no matter what religion, race, colour, and level. Cause no matter how we search for a replace we will never find another Yasmin Ahmad. So let us just apply and practice the message that she has successfully delivered to us. Live with respect and love. Anyway, that's one of the reason why we love her so much rite.. her love message. :)

And to those who read the kosmo paper (last monday) about her past.. please don't jump into conclusion that Yasmin had duped everyone and had attempted to hide who she really was. The article is not complete. They didnt reveal the whole story of her. So pls just don't make ur own assumption ya.. I was mad and sad when they actually wrote such thing bout her in less than 36 hours of her death. I came across an entry by Daphne Iking about the boycott of the paper and i support the boycott cause i think it is so inhuman to make bucks out of someone's grief.

Lets just pray that her soul will rest in peace. We will miss ur story Yasmin.

Love, the fan of a good storyteller.

** The entry above is just a personal view on general issue. It has no intention of creating racism among malaysian or humankind or anything close to that. **

Ups and Downs

2009-06-28T14:12:00.004+08:00

Good day... its been a while since my last entry. In my last entry i was talking bout the dilemma on breaking the news to my family... well, i did it.. i told them bout 'it'. As expected everyone were shocked and they cant accept it. I should understand if they cant accept it at that very moment. But, i believe slowly they will. I know.. sad, anger, disappointment, everything was thr... mum and dad i'm really sorry i've hurt ur feelings.. but slowly i know both of u will understand my situation.. i just want to let each one of u... mum, dad, sisters and brother.. no matter waht happen i'm still me.. the daughter and the sister.. seriously i duno how to express diz.. do u think there is anythg in diz world that can actually break the relationship between parents and children? none.. my love will still be here in my heart and its even deeper now.. wif all the stories.. the history... pls.. dont take my action as im leaving the family or anythg closer to that..

I never forget where i came from.. all the sacrifices of mum and dad.. i was thr when we were really broke.. i was thr when all we hv in the kitchen was rice, dried fish and egg only.. i was thr.. i feel so thankful that i went through it all wif everyone... i saw how mum and dad work hard so that we always hv the best in education.. i hv always want to be the best in their eyes.. to make them happy wif my results.. i feel all the bitter and sweet moments with u all.. so pls... dont say that i never appreciate everythg... my decision wont change me.. as the daughter and sister who will listens to ur problems.. to be the shoulder when u want to cry.. to love each one of u with all of my heart.. nothing can change the love i hv for each one of u...

I just want to be a better person, closer to God and live my life in something i believe in.. I just cant wake up everyday and lie to myself in what i believe in. I feel so ashamed if i continue being something that is not me. Its easy to lie to others but not to yourself. At the end of the day, all of us will come back to Him.. so why should i lie the purpose of my decision. I know some may think its because of a 'guy'.. but pls remember at the end of the day when my time to see Him comes, it's not that the 'guy' will be thr to answer all the questions about my life, my sins and my faith.. it's me.. for once, pls stop dragging someone else to be in this issue.. i'm living my life everyday thinking about God, I believe in Him and i'm scared of Him.. of His punishment.. and how could any of u compare my belief towards Him is because of guy created by Him. He is God.. and the 'guy' is only human being like us.. how could one compare my faith towards God because of a 'guy'.

If i'm living my life for a 'guy', what is the meaning of life then? And some of u out there may get confuse with your life.. regret with your decision of life... BUT, please don't think that i will end up like u as well.. each person has their own purpose of life.. their own beliefs, their own point of view.. but not every person will end up the same way.. give urself time to thk... when u did ur decision last time was it the same reason as mine.. if u lied.. pls don't thk that i lied as well.. pls.. again we're two different person with two different direction of life...

I'm so sad so many untrue stories has been told to my parents.. I keep on comforting myself.. the truth will always reveal.. And outsider who loves to judge and gives unwelcome thought.. pls live your own life.. Stop interrupting all the friends relationships and family relationships.

I will pray that one day everyone can accept my decision and give me the blessings to have a gud life. I'm so sorry for hurting each one of u.. i know i've hurt everyone wif my decision.. but i know one day everyone will understand... pls remember i didnt mean to hurt anyone.. i love u all....

Mum and dad, there is nothing i want except your blessings. I know i cant take away the feelings of ashamed to have a daughter who made such decision and the sadness in ur heart.. I'm really sorry.. truly i am.. but, this is the best for me to be a better person religiously. I love u mum and dad. Thank you for giving me life and raise me up to be what i am today. Thank you for all the sacrifices, prayers, happiness and love. I know i've been the most complicated child since birth.. all the complications when i was born.. thank you for all the patience and never ending prayers and love.. I love u both mum and dad. Nothing can change my love for both of u.. pls always remember that.. I love u.

Love, the daughter, the sister, the fren,
tenten

p/s: sorry for the emotional post.. ayat pun out of order..

I've made my decision.. but in dilemma to let it out..

2009-04-13T21:14:00.003+08:00

Hie everyone.. as I mention in my earlier post I'm in KK now :) I have few things that i need to settle... work and hmmphh a lil confession to my family.. ermm lil? is the thing i'm gonna tell them is lil? NO! its kinda big thing.. it's a decision of life.. my future.. my beliefs.. my faith.. and my love..

Some of u may feel a lil confuse but one of u may understand what i'm talking about..

I know some may not agree with my decision.. but, i think this is the best for myself. Some may say I'm not mature enough to decide but I'm not to young to ignore and get confuse in what i believe in..

I wonder is it wrong when u decide to change something in your life when you feel that the changes will make your life more meaningful spiritually, mentally and physically..? is it wrong when u feel that u have the right to decide on what to believe in this life.?

It's not a decision that I've made in few days time.. It's been months.. years.. So, is it valid for someone to say that i'm taking things too fast?

I wanna believe that when i break the news to my family they will be ok with it.. Some of my siblings and friends already know bout 'it'.. and they are ok wif it.. thats what they told me lah.. i can't read their mind but i can sense whether they're sincere or not. I should understand not many will accept it 100%ly.. but i do believe those who loves me will support me.. as many have told me.. "if u're happy then i'm happy for u" the support and sincerity really touched my heart.. Thanks..

I'm praying so hard so that my parents will be ok with my decision and above all.. i want their blessings.. i want their trust and love towards me remain the same.. sometimes an angel will whisper in my ear.. 'why should you worry? worry won't help you.. why worry if you believe in Him?' *duh* felt like someone slap my face.. well, i believe things will be ok cause this is the beginning of my journey with Him. When i think about Him and how important is my faith towards Him, and how much i want to do my part while i'm here in this world.. i feel so strong.. but when i think of my family.. *scared2*.. i'm not scared of others.. i'm scared of my family.. coz their in my heart.. my parents and my siblings.. coz i love them and i don't want to loose their love and the relationship that i have with them...*sigh*.

Do you believe in destiny? I believe in it.. and this is part of my destiny. I have the chance to choose.. so, I choose this. This journey.. So peeps.. please pray for me so that everything will be ok ya.. Pray for me so that i have the courage to tell 'it' soon.. family and friends thanks for your support.. Love u all.

*hugs and kisses* tenten MDP April 2009.

Live is all about choice not chance.

2009-04-12T11:50:00.005+08:00

Hie peeps.. :) i'm currently in KK.. actually i have prepared one entry for me to post last night but after reading it for the second time i think i should write about something else .. and keep that one for my next entry :) So today i'm gonna share about the decision and choices that we have in life.. a related topic to my next entry that i've prepared last night. So the topic for today is 'We live by choice not by chance'. One of the topic that i love, from the book Life greatest lessons-20 things that matter by Hal Urban. I recommend you to read this book. :)

Life is all about choice not chance. Is it true? Yes! 100% true. In our daily lives, in everything we do, we have to decide on something. When there is a decision to be made, means that we have to choose between two or few things. So at the end of the day we have to choose only one decision.. it's all about choice.. It's choice determines our destiny not chance.

We can alter the course of our lives any time we want, because whatever we do, we do by choice. One can say "I have to do things or I was forced to" but, the reality is that we do what we choose to do. It's a simple yet great discovery. We all have the ability to take charge and create the things and the situations we want if we choose to. Once we realize that we do things by choice, we begin to accept greater responsibility for our own lives and to take more effective control over them. Not many people notice that we're the result of our choices.

It wasn’t our choice to be born into the world. And it’s not our choice that someday we’re going to die. However, the period in between, the one we call life, presents us with countless choices. There are some obvious ones due to the nature of our society. We can choose our friends, careers, lifestyles, political affiliations, faith, where to live, what kind of car to drive, and what kind of music to listen to. But there are some other choices which, while less obvious, are far more important. We’re either unaware of them or just don’t give them much thought. Yet, they’re the choices that determine the quality of our lives. The most important choices we get to make:

• We’re free to choose our character—the type of persons we become. We can allow ourselves to be molded by others and our environment, or we can commit ourselves to self-development. We can become less than we’re capable of, or we can become all that we’re capable of.

• We’re free to choose our values. We can let the media tell us what’s important, or we can decide for ourselves. We can base our standards on what others are doing, or we can base them on what we know is right and good.

• We’re free to choose how to treat other people. We can put them down, or we can lift them up. We can be self-centered and inconsiderate, or we can be respectful, kind, and helpful.

• We’re free to choose how to handle adversity. We can allow ourselves to be crushed, to give up, and to feel sorry for ourselves. Or we can choose to look for a source of strength within us, to persevere, and to make the most out of what life deals us.

• We’re free to choose how much we’ll learn. We can look upon learning as an unpleasant duty or as a great opportunity for bettering ourselves. We can be close-minded or open-minded; we can be stagnant, or we can grow.

• We’re free to choose what we’ll accomplish in life. We can allow our circumstances or other people to determine what we make of ourselves, or we can choose our own direction and goals. We can be undisciplined and lazy, or we can be self-disciplined and hardworking.

• We’re free to choose our own belief system. We can ignore our spiritual nature, or we can accept it as an important dimension of life. We can worship pleasure and the world’s material things, or we can look for something that’s ultimately more important.

• We’re free to choose our own purpose. We can wander aimlessly, or we can search for a meaning in life, and then live according to it. We can live to please only ourselves, or we can find a cause that’s greater, one that helps us understand and appreciate life more fully.

• We’re free to choose our attitude regardless of circumstances. This is the most important choice we’ll ever make because it affects everything we do in life.

We're always choosing but most of the time, we fail to exercise our choices because we’re not aware of having them. Yet, those choices are available to us every day of our lives.

So peeps.. choose what type of life do you want to live.. :)

*hugs and kisses* tenten MDP April 2009
**miss someone badly**

Introducing Bootylicious Beyonce

2009-04-09T23:49:00.005+08:00

Today i went out to buy few things for mum and i went to car wash.. give shakira a lil shower.. hehe.. it's been a while i didn't drive her.. well K has been driving her beyonce since i arrived last week. Beyonce is a very special car. Its fuel efficient.. fuel consumption is 1 liter at 27.4 km. Dats how gud it is. Well, just imagine the journey from KL to Terengganu he spent only RM35 compare to tam's car, Wira 1.5(A)spent RM80 for the journey from KL to Terengganu. What makes a hybrid car different from the normal car?

The Honda Civic Hybrid is engineered to provide amazing performance and excellent fuel consumption. This is achieved through an electric motor installed between the engine and the transmission.

So to those who are looking for a nice, spacious, elegent, and saving your fuel while you help save the earth.... i highly recommend Civic Hybrid. Below are some pics of Bootylicious Beyonce:

me and beyonce.. :p

who's that girl? lalalalalaalala

one of his way to show his love.. hehe like deasy said.. Wife Saya Aaaa 1010.. hehe

another one..

its him! in action

U can read more on the specs of the car at http://www.honda.com.my/civic/hybrid/index.cfm

Ok thats all for today.. need to pack my things.. tomorrow am going back to KK.. Nite2.

p/s: my dear have a safe journey to Kota Bharu.. *hugs*

*hugs and kisses* tenten MDP April 2009

2009 :)

2009-04-09T01:15:00.004+08:00

helo peeps.. its been a while since the last time i blog.. ermm.. i noe, busy is not an excuse to get online but to spare some time to blog.. i think, busy is a reasonable excuse.. hehe.. ermm yeah.. i've been so busy for the past few months... when was the last time i blog? ermm last few month.. and its a new year already... i noe.. 2009.. its a new year.. new resolutions, new goals, new visions for work and life. This year everyone that were born on the year 1984 will turn 25.. yeah.. i'm one of them. 25 years old? hmmph.. time to settle down.. work, business, love and family. So thats the few things dat actually making me busy diz few months. I have goals to achieve. Yeah!

Goal? What is your goal in life? Have you achieved your goal last year? last month? or yesterday?
I believe life will be more meaningful when we set goal daily or weekly or yearly. Thats how we can make our life happier and meaningful. Wat say u? do u think your life will change if you start to have ur daily or weekly goals? Try to practice it and let me noe :) it works for me.. might work for u as well.. :)

Here are some tips that might be useful to have a brighter day, a successful career and a happier you no matter in ur relationships, work, study in short a happier you in every aspect of ur life.. Got some of the tips during my training conducted by Ziana and she recommended us to read a book called " Dont sweat the small stuff --and it's all small stuff" by Richard Carlson. So, after the training and reading the book , here are the tips that i would like to share wif everyone:

1. Don't sweat the small stuff and it's all small stuff :)- think and rethink.. hehe

2. Make peace with imperfection

3. Let others have the glory (Don't be ego centric)

4. Let others be right most of the time (Sometimes, its just an opinion, different people different opinion so there is no right or wrong)

5. Be the first one to act loving/ to reach out

6. Surrender to the fact life isn't fair

7. Lower your tolerance to stress

8. Repeat to yourself life isn't an emergency (Worry is like a rocking chair, it brings you no where)

9. Search truth in other opinion

10. Resist the urge to criticize

11. Just for fun! Agree with criticsm directed to you. (then watch it go away)

12. Be grateful of what you have instead of thinking of what you want

13. Practice ignoring your negative thought

14. Remember what you become what you practice most (if u practice gratitude then u will find live full of appreciation but if you practice depression.. then depression will be loyal to u.. attracted to u...)

15. Think of your problem as potential teacher

16. Stop blaming others (you take responsible on your own action). Don't play blaming game.

17. Breath before you speak

18. Relax

19. Turn your melodrama into a 'mellow'drama

20. Live this day as if it's your last day, it might be (be gratitude towards everything.. gratitude.. gratitude)

So dats all for today.. juz wanna share good tips wif everyone.. lets practice it together and have a wonderful day everyday!

*hugs and kisses* tenten MDP April 2009 :)

last post for today.. :)

2008-11-23T19:12:00.006+08:00

ok.. i've been online since afternoon.. i was supposed to go for my london session but i didnt go cause im not feeling well.. im having fever and flu.. and i notice the appearance of red spots on my face.. i thk its because of my body temperature.. i hope its not something else like measles or anything.. its only on my face.. im so lazy to go out and see doctor.. if i still dun feel good by tomorrow.. then i'll go to clinic.. i really hope its only a normal fever.. i cant afford to take any leave anymore coz i have so many things to be done before my long holiday for christmas.. so i've posted more than 3 entry today.. an update for 5 weeks.. hehe.. oklah.. will update again in few days time.. *sigh* im missing someone badly.. but its ok.. he's coming back to kl today.. gonna meet him tonight.. u drive safely dear.. :)

these are the pics of the red spots on my face if u can see lah..