A collection of different views, ideas and opinions

Depending on who?

2011-10-03T20:04:00.000-07:00

Not too long ago I was mad at the world, or at least at the people in my world. There came a time where I was in need of help, for my mental well being (no I was not crazy), and also to accomplish certain goals. I was depending on people that I loved and cared for, and still do. On people that have been there for me and I for them, so my expectations where high however not everything worked out the way I would of thought and I learned a valuable lesson.
Many people I depended upon where irresponsible with matters which were dear to me, for instance they promised showing up and would not call, cancel important meetings, not arrive on time and always unprepared.

I wasn't lost but I found myself angry at family and friends for being so irresponsible. I figured that they didn't care so why should I bother with them.The time would come when they would call me and I would make smart remarks, or bark at them like a father or try to give them the ultimate guilt trip at how irresponsible they where with me, and how I would never do that to them. Ultimately I realized that I was wrong and the only person I had to be mad at was myself. It sounds like the right thing to say but if you think about it, it does not make sense, being mad at myself because others were irresponsible with me? But let me explain. The root of the problem was that I placed people highly in my mind. I had high expectations of them so when they did not come through for me I would be very angry but it was never their fault, it was mine. Is like giving a regular employee a manager role without telling him and expecting him to perform. I also understood that people change and so do their situations and you don't know what that person has going on in their mind. We can judge them all we want but we don't know people's lives like we think we do. Sometimes people are going through stages in their daily lives were you are not involved. They mean to do good and be responsible with you but it might not aways work out the way they have it in their head because of their reality and then they end up being an ass, even though that was not their intention.

I decided to remove these people from these high positions in my mind because at the moment they did not deserve them. I would still cherish and appreciate them but I could no longer count on them for the most part. They were going through their own troubles in their daily lives and I would no longer count or bark on them. Sometimes accepting change is hard but inevitable so therefor I moved on. This was a life lesson I learned at the beginning of the year and wanted to share with you the reader just in case you are passing through something similar.

YOU BETTER FORGIVE AND FORGET

2011-09-22T18:27:00.000-07:00

If you decide that you want to be with your partner after he/she was unfaithful than that is the decision you make and live with it. Not to long ago I read an article where the author said that she wont forget what that person did to her even though she forgave him. But is that real forgiveness? no I don't think so. I know it is not easy to forget after someone you love betrays you but you cannot live life happy with that person if it is still in your heart and mind. Obviously your heart is not a hard drive where things that happened can get wiped out instantly, but then again it is in a strange way. I think you can learn from that experience and become a stronger person and down the road even help someone you know who is going through the same agony you went through. But "not forgetting" should not be an option because all that will lead to is insecurities. Not forgetting its like having a seed of doubt planted in your heart an anything, in your mind, strange that your partner does you will began to doubt. You will begin to question his/her motives and sooner or later you will start reaching conclusions, which most likely, are wrong. That seed of doubt grows and trust me it will make you and your partner miserable, and many times you will look pretty ridiculous because of your insecurities.

So either you forgive and forget or just let it go. If you cannot let it go then let your partner go because you will only bring agony to the relationship down the line by never forgetting. When I was young and I would get hurt in my basketball team my coach would tell me " walk it off ". He was right, most of the time i'll be fine afterwards. So now I tell you the same if you got hurt by your loved one and you still want to be with that person then " walk it off ". Its that simple. Either you forgive and forget or move the fuck on.

The Real World

2011-07-21T22:57:00.000-07:00

by Vladimir Rodriguez

I always think about life, the world and everything in it, the same way you do, or at least some of you. And I came to one realization. I figured out what the world is about. All this time it was under my nose and I never knew it. Now you can lie to me, or yourself, and say "yeah I knew that" but that is bullshit you didn't know crap because you would have had related the message, but anyway enough about you lets get to the subject. This is how it works, or at least the process I have been thinking about. Everyone lives on earth but everyone is in their world, ok this is the obvious, but what we tend to forget is what makes up our world. When I say "our" I mean it as our individual world. So what basically makes up our world is our friends, families and loved ones. That is it. It sounds pretty simple and stupid but I find it quite appalling and intriguing that my world is made possible by someone else. If you always see your mother, or husband, or kids, that is basically your world, other people are your world. Many times these people dominate your emotions which can lead to you making decisions. Some worlds become so routine that people eventually end up unhappy which leads to many negative conclusions. For instance, working in a job over 40 hours a week, your world is pretty much, yeah you guessed it, co-workers. Other people live by always being around strangers, and sometimes deep inside being unhappy because their world has no intimate relationships, in other words, their world is temporary.

Now I have only stated the obvious but their is plenty more like TV and internet which can take hours of your time without realizing it and next thing you know that is your world, a virtual one. So to sum it up, your life is basically the people and things you surround yourself with, which leads to a daring question. What does this mean if you are unhappy or depressed? Is this you? is this your fault for feeling this way? or is it the people around you? or the people in your past?Does this give you the right to blame your unhappiness on someone else? Obviously there maybe other things that you are unhappy about, such as bad life choices and circumstances. But overall if the people you choose to be around are not making your personal world better then maybe you are in the company of the wrong crowd, if this philosophy is right. Let this simmer down in your mind, give it some thought and let me know your opinion.

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My Bullshit Recession Advice

2011-07-15T21:33:00.000-07:00

OK, so, there are no jobs, there is no money, life is ~~fucked~~. Errrrrrrrr, stop right there, that is where you are wrong. Now is the time to take advantage. I am not talking about stocks or anything of that monetary nature, which I am sure is on your mind, because it is on mine. I am talking about the little things that we truly bypass every single day. OK maybe this sounds stupid, and actually, I just read it back, even corny, but what else can we do when the money is scarce. There is no rain, green rain that is, so the best thing to do is basically live life. I have so many bills is not even funny and many I have to pay late every month, but should I get my glass of water and drown in it, get stressed out, get sick and die like a wounded deer that just got shot by a politician for a hobby. NO! I gotta chill out. Do what I can to take care of the necessities for me and my family but I also got to live. So here is what I did just to give you some examples. I cut the cable and phone however i left the Internet, so I slashed like $60 from my bill. I downgraded to a cheap carrier and now I just pay $50 a month rather then $100. Rather then the movies or a bar, I do a lot more walking now and take a lot more strolls in the park, where I can read, listen to music and do what I love to do best, which is to think. Basically life has gotten more cheaper but more productive mentally thanks to the recession. So there, I left you a quick recipe on how to cook recession depression and make life out of it. #gottaloveit

- Vlad

Jamaica ( rated Dirty - D)

2010-08-03T12:44:00.000-07:00

Jamaica ( rated Dirty - D). By Dayanna Carrion

Hay Jamaica!
uhmmm Jamaica!
If you kiss the way you talk,
cook the way you taste,
Feel the way you smile,
Touch the way you move…
Love the way you dance
Pray the way you fight
Dream like you breathe
Please, drown me in your waters!

Damm so much chocolate wonder to eat…
Yet you don’t share with me.
Come solo!
So greedy! Feed me!
Uhm! You’re a piece of heaven wrapped in ocean breeze,
A decadent caramel, sugar dumpling sweet,
A walking time bomb, you damm terrorist!
Change your ways, help humanity by doing a good deed….
Adopt me!
Oh if I were your hands to caress your skin
And ride a roller coaster up and down your jeans.
Wish we were an elephants so I could hold your trunk
Bizca! Cooked- eye to see u twice,
The sazon you in your rice,
Honey nectar and you the bee
Pollinate me, sting me… deflower me.

Damm Jamaica!
Si cocinas como caminas...
if you cook the way you walk...
I’ll tell you I will even eat the burn.
When I saw you ...the chemistry...ohm baby
It was like a paper cut or splinter
Yeah mon! It was instant!
I want to taste your passion fruit
be kissed by your sun,
travel across your land
and see all of your wonders...
Starting, at your lips.
are you feeling me feeling you?

Oh Jamaica
I keep dreaming bout you
Take me away...
I keep dreaming bout you,
Let’s get away....
Hay...ummmmh Jamaica
if you kiss the way you smile,
Touch the way you move…
Love the way you dance
Pray the way you fight
Dream like you breathe
Smile like you tease
Fu@k like you taste….
Please, please drown me in your waters!

Day-Dream ~2003

The Rough Guide to Jamaica (Rough Guide Jamaica)

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The Thief

2010-08-02T04:40:00.000-07:00

The Thief - Written by Vladimir Rodriguez

I Am staring at the thief who stole my dreams
Snatched my goals and ripped my wishes
The thief that broke my ego
Darkened my vision
And distorted my perspectives
The thief that last night
Stoled a Dance with my soul
One dance
And disappeared into the night
Of my mind
This thief is cold
Like the last dirty ice cube in the freezer
Shoes walking on ice, slick
No beard, yet wise
Perfectly healthy yet completely sick
I have been staring at this thief
Thinking all this time I was the thief
Yet i am not this thief, or am I?

Uncharted 2: Among Thieves

Tittle: A~Cro..ba~ics____ by Dayanna Daydream

2010-07-27T14:36:00.000-07:00

Tittle: A~Cro..ba~ics____

Acrobatics... what I practice. High I bat performing my art which is synchronized slow... and detailed like an etch -n-sketch. Difficult feats of balance, agility and full body ability emerge while I push forth expressing thoughts, emotions, experiences, repeating overlaps, walking the tight rope, but this was not learned in a circus. Oh friend,this comes from what-chu-ma-call-it.... experiences? Tears! A broken heart wanting to be mended, hands caressing tenderly a waist which wasn't mine and hopes for a fairy-tale to tell were all screaming out... "Please let me be!" Awh I tell you, those are some tumbling practices! They take place in our discovery, fights, tears, past and such events aren't choreographed. Bouncing on a trampoline, aint nothing like the first time. Damm does it hurt but damm does get better! I rather tower dive into my soul, pole climb right into my emotions and board spring all of me right into him. I'm learning not to be afraid to swing , twist, rip, write, bite, move, shove , erase, re -write all that I deserve and trust me Is no damm cow manure. This art of bringing back the death with a kiss, making spinal cords bend and healing from the inside out was made for hearts in progress. They might call them... helpless romantics, dreamers, fools. I like the terminology because after all, we are a dying breed and yet not afraid to fly out of the safety cocoon. The unusual form of physical display may be rough for some gymnast, but I leap from my trapeze. Yeah, It is my pedestal board and my heart creates the fascinating swing admired by others. You know the ones who call us dreamers, crazy, delusional. If they only knew that at it’s best the adrenalin rush goes deeper than Egyptian sheets, past unworthy lovers, Shakespearean poems and it magically floats making the eyes of the most cynic dazzle. I'm branded with love; I’m a slave to his symptoms. I have found ways to create tongue twisters while making love to him… call that talent. My vocal cords splatter verses over walls giving birth to what was once considered dead, divine sensations rape the consciousness, happy tears easily wash of the sweat and I have not yet reached the perfect score of 10. Oh i'm how many ways is God called. You see even those who don’t call themselves gymnast are now working out their eyes, feeling the anticipation rise while following my words. Congrats! you are now taking a small leap. I'm sure you didn’t even know. This is a matter of the heart. Yes, it is a difficult feat of balance which comes from a what-chu-ma-call-it... which is no cow manure, the physical display may be rough for some but nothing compares. Such events aren't choreographed; they take place in our discovery, fights, and tears. Damm does it hurt but damm does get better. Therefore, perhaps, you might call it ...acrobatics.

Dayanna "Daydream" Carrion

July 2007

Acrobatic Tumbling : From Rolls to Handsprings and Somersaults

3 Benches - Poem By Vladimir Rodriguez

2010-07-26T20:30:00.000-07:00

3 Benches - Poem By Vladimir Rodriguez

3 benches from me a man sleeps
Is he homeless?
Or is he dreading of losing love like I am?
Is he tearing from the emptiness the future holds?
Like I am
Just 3 benches from me a man sleeps
Is he tired of fighting for life?
Or tired of fighting for love?
Like I am
Is his armor in his bag? which lays, by his head
Or is it getting soft from the tears
Like mine is
3 benches from that man sleeping
Will be another man sleeping.

written 6/13/10 (and there was actually a man sleeping 3 benches from, so it is a true story)

Poems by Emily Dickinson, Three Series, Complete

Can men and women be friends?

2010-07-23T07:35:00.000-07:00

Can men and women be friends?
By: Vlad Rodriguez

Really? Like really. Simple question but many views. Some people (mainly women) say it is possible and some say it is impossible. What do you think? I have changed my opinion over time on this subject matter. I once thought that it was impossible because I know many guys and girls who are friends, yet the guy always has something to say about the female friend, and when I say something to say, I mean sexual. Maybe I am wrong, but many women when they have a guy friend he really is just that, a guy friend. Many dudes operate these friendships normally yet secretly in love with the female friend. And if not secretly in love he just has a dirty mind and takes advantage of any opportunity that presents itself for instance if she bends over to pick something up. I have in the past mentioned situations like this to females and they looked at me like I was insane, like they never thought about their male friend in any another way and they are sure that he never thought about them like that. But some fail to realize that the train of thought of a woman is not the same as a man. The woman's train of thought is express while the man goes locally (like the 1 train and the 2 train). Hmmmm.

I must admit that over the years I have changed my views. I think a man and a woman can be friends as long as there is one factor involve. Age and experience. As you start reaching that hill that looked so far years ago and now seems to be right there things change. Life changes. Your perspective takes twist like a twizzler and what you thought was one thing is actually something else now. I think age it is a factor because it gets to a point that wait wait I forgot about something. I was speaking with a friend, a female one, and she said something that had me thinking for hours. She said that "people are friends because they are somehow attracted to each other". Now it is easy to agree and be like yeah, but wait a minute now, think about this. Attracted, that word captivated me when she put it in that sentence. Maybe she is right and people, mainly men and women, are somehow attracted to each other. But what kind of attraction? is it sexual? or is it to the other person's personality. I guess we can say the friend's personality. But being attracted to somebodies personality would you not say that somewhere in your mind there might be some sexual desire. I mean I was thinking that at this point of my life men and women can be friends so long as the man has many experiences in his "woman resume" and a couple of "relationship championship belts" (is not for you to understand). But then I got caught in that bomb of a quote "people are friends because they are somehow attracted to each other", and I know she meant nothing sexual but more about the other's mind and way of being. But what if there is some inner desire there in a couple of cabinets in your subconscious. The cabinets might be locked up but they are there, and one day something can trigger a key to pop up out of nowhere and next thing you know..forget I might be getting a little to ahead of myself. I conclude with this: Men and women can be friends as long as we men can control out dirty minds, no I don't like this ending lets try it again. I conclude with this: I think men and women can be friends as long as there is respect. Yeah that is better.

Nature: What Females Want and Males Will Do

Are you shackled?

2010-07-17T20:34:00.000-07:00

I have been thinking about the system. The system that is in place right now. I usually say that it is slavery. Working 9-5 then going home to go right back to work the next day. Then you get your paycheck and spend your money on a nice restaurant, some nice clothes or the new gadget that just came out. Don't forget the sales that you have been seeing all week during your lunch break. It seems like everything is designed to drag you in, drag you in a hole so that you cant get out but at the same time convince you that you are happy. I find it incredible how far human society has gotten, yet at the same time how backwards everything seems to be going. It seems like we take ten steps forward and 15 steps backwards. I feel as though the system is like an ocean and we are always underwater swimming. The only time you come up for air is on a vacation. When the vacation is over back to the swimming, however there are some that are on boats and even some who are on land, yet most of us are swimming.

I don't know if you understand me but after being treated like an orange, where they squeezed the juice out of me then they just threw me out, I have opened my eyes and understood that the system is like a prison. But we all give up our liberty in return for something. And what is this something? it is for the state to protect us from ourselves, or rather people. We all pay for this. But what if you don't want this? That is too bad because you do not have a choice. This liberty that you give up it's forced on you because we live in a society. I am not against it but I am well aware that there is a group of individuals whom are in control and are taking advantage of it. Sometimes I feel stuck like the freedom that I am looking for I really do not have unless I move to a deserted island, which realistically I probably could not live in because after 2 days I will be missing the people I love whom are stuck to the system like flies in a glue trap. I feel like writing more but I feel like I am going around in circles and this is mainly because the system has us going around in circles. Unfortunately life has turned into a washing machine that just goes round and round and once in a while you throw a new piece of clothing, that gives it new a new color, yet it is the same cycle.

V-Rodriguez

Introduction

2010-07-16T07:26:00.000-07:00

This blog is about everything you can and cannot imagine to think of. Is that simple. A collection of writers with different ideas expressing themselves. Do you really want more than that? No I don't think so. Subject matter? Well that is easy, whatever one of the writer's want to express. It can be poetry, an essay, a political view, a religious view, philosophy, and opinion about something happening right now or maybe a statement, I don't know, it is up to the writer all I can say is welcome!