A Fairy's Thoughts

Financial Security

2011-04-24T11:04:00.000-04:00

This morning I came a upon an article about being financially fit. The article is a good one as it discussed things you can do to manage your money. It also offered a few links to places where you can create a budget.

So, I decided to go to the website and check them out, The first one Learnvest is nicely designed and looks easy to use. So I signed up for it, began my entering of things and nothing. The page got caught up on a script and the site never loaded. I blame Microsoft.

Then I went to Bundle. This site seems more promising. So I signed up and clicked on a few things thinking I am going to create an account for myself. Low and behold it ask for my bank, my username, and my password. Why on earth would it need all that? I closed my window never to return to that sire again. They are not getting my bank information.

I have seen a lot of articles about people who get ripped off, so here is some advice.

1. Don’t ever give away sensitive information. Hold those user names and passwords under close surveillance.

2. If it’s too good to be true, it probably is. No one can turn your $5,000 into $5,000,000 overnight.

Blog Inspiration

2011-04-22T00:06:00.000-04:00

Tonight I stumbled upon 2 blogs that was well, inspirational. It got me thinking and I realized that this is what I need. In order to be more creative I need to have fun, just do, and forget the rest.

Here are those blogs. Enjoy them.

how-to-steal-like-an-artist-and-9-other-things-nobody-told-me/
15-minutes-of-fun-to-spark-your-creative-brain/

Educational Cancer

2011-04-02T09:00:00.000-04:00

Upon waking this morning, I decided to check my email. As I gazed upon Yahoo’s homepage, an article caught my attention. It was about the amount of money Rutgers paid Snookie to appear at the college. I am not interested in why she was there, but that Rutgers paid her more then a Nobel Prize winner.

This fact is one of the many reasons this country is having as many issues as it is. When celebrities trump scientists be wary, very wary. Doctors, scientist, engineers are all the people who help to innovate and improve our lives. They are worth more then those who act like trash.

As a country, intelligence needs to be regarded, prized and held in esteem. Unfortunately the politicians are attempting to force feed you that the educators and the education system are draining our society. As funding is being cut more and more from the schools, the education of our children is getting worse.

This country is getting dumber and dumber. Go ahead, sit back and watch some moron on the TV, maybe they’ll cure cancer.

Articles:
http://abclocal.go.com/wabc/story?section=news/local/new_jersey&id=8046956
http://delcotimes.com/articles/2011/04/02/news/doc4d96a91b901da691944036.txt

http://www.takepart.com/news/2011/03/31/the-10-most-painful-education-budget-cuts

Anorexia for Gas

2011-04-01T08:53:00.002-04:00

Ideas don’t come easily these days. I wonder if it’s from being an adult. Does your imagination fade much like the sun on a winter’s day, leaving you with an empty void to be filled by useless games and mind numbing TV.

So I decided to write all this down and instead I am finding frustration. The words are not coming as easily as I hoped. My fingers are not connecting with my brain. Mean while I am chili and I have no heat, no TV, just the internet.

I had cancelled the TV in hopes of saving a few dollars. The satellite service also was the worst thing ever. A snow storm would knock the TV off. But what amazes me, is how people will pay hundreds of dollars to be entertained, but will keep the thermostat at 60 degrees.

Unfortunately, the price of gas has been increasing, along with that natural gas, and other commodities deemed necessary. Expect to pay more at the pump and go on a diet. Anorexia here I come. It’s just cheaper to not eat, but at least I’ll be entertained.

For those who want to check gas prices before they leave the house try www.fuelmeup.com.

Article: http://www.nj.com/mercer/index.ssf/2011/03/every_drop_counts_as_gas_price.html

Side Bar in My Life

2011-03-30T21:21:00.002-04:00

Writing has become such a side bar in my life that I haven’t blogged in two years. I might almost begin to think that I have given up on doing something I love. This abandonment could only mean a few things. I no longer love writing. I have let too many other things side track me. Or, maybe I simply have become the most lazy person I know.

Once upon a time writing took up much of my day. I journaled at least once a day and made sure to turn powerfull thoughts into poems. It took a person from my hometown to remind me of what I haven’t been doing. He said “You can’t find one hour in the day to write?” So with that comment, I ran out and bought a brand new journal. In one month I wrote four entries. Four!

Alas, the full time job has become full time life. When did that happen?

A Single Leaf

2009-10-26T12:02:00.001-04:00

As one stumbles through life, looking for what they think is a rewarding and filling existence, time often becomes an issue. Is the time moving fast or slow? Have we become a slave to a clock that one didn’t even realize existed? What is time, anyway?

Is time what one perceives it to be? A moment that stands out in a field while the rain gently beats on an upturned face staring at the night sky. Or is it more imaginary then that which is tangible? An intangible minute, an hour, a day, a year that passes by and one can only judge the time by looking at photographs, which were taken with a camera or a mind’s eye.

Is it the perception of reality that changes time? Has my time slipped passed because I didn’t see the opportunities that were there? Have I missed many moments many chances to change things simply because I thought it was not the right time? Is there ever a right time? Can I really see time as tangible? Maybe there is just one single moment that we are all waiting for. A single leaf hanging onto a tree waiting for the right breeze to come a long and send it on its way.

Disclaimers

2009-07-09T23:17:00.001-04:00

My blogging has been at a bit of standstill that last year or so. Not really sure why I haven’t bothered, I have had many ideas though I haven’t taken pen to paper or in this case fingers to keyboard.

I could be lazy, or more afraid of who might read it. Strange.

I think I shall right disclaimers on everything. This blog in no way is referring to any persons real or imagined with whom I might interact with, on a non personal level or otherwise socialize. If you think this is referring to you it is not because there are no persons specifically being referred to in this article and I take no responsibility for the thoughts and or actions of myself or Mr. Boots.

http://www.msnbc.msn.com/id/29796962/

A fury of detail

2009-07-01T00:13:00.000-04:00

A fury of detail
An existence
Ending?
Quietly sneaking up
Or is it
A loud bang
Like thunder
A crash of lightening
By the sea
A tossed sea
Ravaged by time
A storm brewing
The sunsets
A day ends
Do we stand together?

for your reading pleasure

2009-03-26T20:19:00.002-04:00

read me

I am outraged from hearing the constant babble about left vs right. If my thoughts are not allowed, one day yours will be banned too.

Today's issues and problems are a people thing not a left thing, not a right thing.

http://www.alternet.org/workplace/132155/does_america_face_the_risk_of_a_fascist_backlash_/?page=1

Some Meanderings

2009-02-28T22:43:00.001-05:00

I was searching Google images for female arm tattoos and this is what came up.

female arm tattoos

It’s a picture of a wanted female.

I think that is about the oddest thing a random search has produced.

Today, I meandered through Bergen County. It was productive. I ran errands, visited the cemetery, and applied for a part time job.

I spent $100 very quickly and realized how strange cash flow is. I have been hearing a lot about socialism, capitalism and what ever the buzz word of the hour is and I am very disturbed. I am trying to figure out how a garbage man who may make $12 an hour doesn’t work as hard as a CEO who makes $500,000 a year, plus stock options, bonuses, and sends the company into bankruptcy.

It only baffles me because as of late I haven’t seen to many CEOs who deserve that money, and with a garbage man at least I know he does his job. He always takes my garbage away and probably doesn’t steal from his Mom.

Fraud

Madoff

Natural Thinking

2009-02-11T18:16:00.001-05:00

Many are completely amazed by a nine year olds talent to create programs for computers. I find it not only amazing but rather natural. Children are some of the most creative individuals out there. When given the right tools they can in fact do a great many things.

As a society we are constantly being forced in to stereotypes, gender roles, and societal norms. Once a person reaches adult hood creativity is shunned and thrown aside. Thinking is hampered simply because those around you do not want you to think. Maybe it’s because you could make them look bad. Maybe it’s because as an adult you are expected to act a certain.

Unfortunately in this society the dumb jock is revered long before the smart geek, the creative thinker, or the questioning artist. Any one with a brain is made fun of and shunned. What a sad state of affairs. No wonder other countries are making leaps and bounds in science, technology and art.

http://videogames.yahoo.com/feature/nine-year-old-writes-hit-iphone-app/1287368

The cannibalism of Slim Jim

2009-02-01T01:46:00.003-05:00

As I stood in the gas station mart a small but specific food was calling my name. I thought it would be a good idea to go and buy this item and eat it. I haven’t had it in a very long time and I was excited to be eating it again. I cautiously chose the mild flavor thinking that it was what I always ate growing up. Was this idea correct? I am not sure, but I do know that the Slim Jim did not taste as good as I thought it would.

Was this complete and utter disappointment due to the atrocious way that meat is raised in this country? Have all the antibiotics and growth hormones changed the taste of the very foods that we eat on a regular basis? It only seems to me that it has. No one has been able to prove that rGBH or antibiotics help keep the animals healthier and fatter. Not only that but it has been proved that excessive use of antibiotics only create super bugs, stronger bacteria.

Humans keep these animals in tight quarters, small cages of course they will become diseased. If these were humans there would be an out cry, a questioning of what are you doing? People do not deserve to be treated this way nor do animals. Of course, cannibalism is taboo.

http://www.ejnet.org/bgh/nogood.html
http://www.preventcancer.com/consumers/general/milk.htm
http://www.breastcancerfund.org/site/pp.asp?c=kwKXLdPaE&b=3367753

http://www.mayoclinic.com/health/antibiotics/FL00075
http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2008/08/11/080811fa_fact_groopman
http://environment.about.com/od/healthenvironment/a/superbugs.htm

$7 Tattoo

2009-01-21T20:37:00.001-05:00

Though, I have had many ideas for a blog these last few days, it has been nearly impossible to get motivated to write. I may have to destroy the bigger TV.

I could share my pearls of wisdom, my gems of advice in a list format with some commentary from myself. I could sit and write about what I think has been the bane of my existent. Why things never go the way I want them to. I could talk about how there are those who don’t want to see me happy. They try everything they can to make it so. I could discuss my ability to take advice that in no way is good for me or would make me happy. I could discuss how my cat is a cute fur ball or that work sucks or that I could make a very long run on sentence using the word or.

Of course these are the ideas that I keep pushing off, placing them in the back of mind going, I will write them a another day. I procrastinate, I delay and that is my downfall. I have lost my get up and just do it, my go and get it, my I have to have it now.

Is this because I am older, wiser, or is it something else. Ah, money. That seems to be the big excuse these days, worse then when I was making $7 an hour. I should just go and get a tattoo.

resolutions

2009-01-01T17:23:00.002-05:00

As I was driving home last night from watching a friend’s band play I thought it would be a good idea to post a blog with New Year’s resolutions. Of course by the time I got home and woke up this morning I second guessed myself about writing the blog.

There a few basic reason as to why. One of which is who keeps there new years resolutions anyway. So I think the first resolution should be….

1. Keep New Years resolutions.
2. Quit smoking. This is the resolution that always gets broken first. So far I am already freaking out. I ordered a sample of a CQ Nicoderm patch but I think by the time it arrives I may have pulled out all my hair.
3. Save money. Ha-ha, my credit cards have a balance that seems like it will never disappear.
4. Go out more. But who has the money. Even if I find a free place I still have to pay for gas. See # 3 for more info.
5. Exercise. This one will be taken care of next week as I will start skiing with my nephew, niece and family.
6. Remember that other people’s actions are not my fault, nor am I responsible for such.
7. Remember that I am who I am if you don’t like it too bad.
8. Remember the only way I will fail is if I don’t try.
9. Remember all that I have written here.
10. Re-read # 1.

Maybe I will keep it maybe I won’t. Who knows maybe it will inspire you to do something new this year or break a bad habit.

Much love, prosperity and health in the New Year.

Adolescent Friends

2008-12-23T19:56:00.001-05:00

I’ve been thinking a lot about motivation and various other life issues and was going to write about motivation. However, the various other life issues is putting a strain on my mind right now. Why do I keep thinking about who my friends really are?

It’s odd because I know I have made mistakes and could be better at contacting people but it just seems like that when I do no one is around, or rather it’s as if they don’t want to bother with contacting me back.

I read a really good quote the other day that said something along the lines of “fuck up and see what friends are still standing next to you.”

Well I see the friends who are still standing next to me and those who aren’t and yet I only seem to think about those who aren’t. Why? It’s some strange left over adolescent need to be seen, wanted, or just plain noticed. Even as adults people can be just as insecure as they were at 14.

Call Me Al

2008-12-01T21:39:00.004-05:00

The one thing I hate about being exhausted is that I never seem to actually fall asleep. I take these little cat naps that then give me enough energy to stay up half the night. I think it’s a left over habit from my partying days.

So watching TV tonight is a bit scary, revealing and out right annoying. The world is a scary place people. Not only can you call our friends from any where, thanks to cell phones you can now track them. I think the iPhone that allows you to GPS your own friends just helps to breed future stalkers.

Then I have to endure several shows about relationships. Normally this isn’t a bad thing but somehow I think the universe is trying to tell me something. Yes I know I made many mistakes. Some were fixable, others were not, and some are about to be made because I will just chicken out anyway. Yes that’s right I will chicken out and not and not…my god this blog is getting to to to personal. Must be the drinky drink.

Anyway I did a see a small acoustic performance by Paul Simon. The only thing I could think of was wow, people age and “you can call me Al”. So here are the lyrics to that song. Better yet, a youTube video.

You Can Call Me Al Lyrics
Artist(Band):Paul Simon

A man walks down the street
He says why am I soft in the middle now
Why am I soft in the middle
The rest of my life is so hard
I need a photo-opportunity
I want a shot at redemption
Don't want to end up a cartoon
In a cartoon graveyard
Bonedigger Bonedigger
Dogs in the moonlight
Far away my well-lit door
Mr. Beerbelly Beerbelly
Get these mutts away from me
You know I don't find this stuff amusing anymore
If you'll be my bodyguard
I can be your long lost pal
I can call you Betty
And Betty when you call me
You can call me Al

A man walks down the street
He says why am I short of attention
Got a short little span of attention
And wo my nights are so long
Where's my wife and family
What if I die here
Who'll be my role-model
Now that my role-model is
Gone Gone
He ducked back down the alley
With some roly-poly little bat-faced girl
All along along
There were incidents and accidents
There were hints and allegations

If you'll be my bodyguard
I can be your long lost pal
I can call you Betty
And Betty when you call me
You can call me Al
Call me Al

A man walks down the street
It's a street in a strange world
Maybe it's the Third World
Maybe it's his first time around
He doesn't speak the language
He holds no currency
He is a foreign man
He is surrounded by the sound
The sound
Cattle in the marketplace
Scatterlings and orphanages
He looks around, around
He sees angels in the architecture
Spinning in infinity
He says Amen! and Hallelujah!

If you'll be my bodyguard
I can be your long lost pal
I can call you Betty
And Betty when you call me
You can call me Al
Call me Al

A Bag of Garbage

2008-11-30T16:09:00.001-05:00

After spending a few hours cleaning out photos and negatives, I’ve come to realize how much I love digital cameras. It is so much easier to store digital photos then it is to store film. I just download to the computer, burn to a DVD and there it is simple, easy storage. It’s much smaller. No need for boxes upon boxes of photos.

And, when it comes to an ex it is so much easier to hit delete then it is to cut them out. Though there is a cleansing process in cutting. I prefer delete rather then a pair of scissors. The only issue now, is I have a bag full of garbage to chuck.

Diet Mask

2008-11-23T13:46:00.001-05:00

As I sit here overdosing on caffeine by drinking more tea then anyone person should, I have realized it has been some time since I wrote a blog. My own laziness and fear of who might read it has kept me form posting. Yes that’s right, you did read properly: "afraid of who might read it.”

Imagine that I have chosen not to write simply because I haven’t wanted specific people to read the blog. Of course this doesn’t mean that they would even see it. My only concern is why is it okay to allow complete strangers to read my inner thoughts, but I would care to hide them form people I have known all my life.

Odd isn’t it? Is there a solace in knowing that strangers won’t judge you as harshly? Are you afraid to let the people closest to you know who you really are? Are you hiding because you don’t want to be what they think you are? Is it all rhetoric?

Why is my cat always looking for food?

These questions may never have answers but one does. Mr. Boots does not like his diet.

voting

2008-11-04T21:55:00.000-05:00

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/McCarthyism

fascism

2008-10-30T20:17:00.001-04:00

Someone sent me a poem about Obama and at the very end was a line stating “if you don’t want socialism go out and vote”

Though I think I am much more afraid of fascism and modern day feudalism then I am socialism. After all, you can not create wealth. There is only so much to go around and if a few are hoarding it well then the rest of us are SOL.

fascism: a governmental system led by a dictator having complete power, forcibly suppressing opposition and criticism, regimenting all industry, commerce, etc., and emphasizing an aggressive nationalism and often racism.

feudalism: A system of obligations that bound lords and their subjects in Europe during much of the Middle Ages. In theory, the king owned all or most of the land and gave it to his leading nobles in return for their loyalty and military service. The nobles in turn held land that peasants, including serfs, were allowed to farm in return for the peasants' labor and a portion of their produce. Under feudalism, people were born with a permanent position in society.

capitalism: an economic system in which investment in and ownership of the means of production, distribution, and exchange of wealth is made and maintained chiefly by private individuals or corporations, esp. as contrasted to cooperatively or state-owned means of wealth.

note: all definitions taken form Dictionary.com

The Color ReD

2008-10-16T21:01:00.001-04:00

After looking at some election information I noted to myself that the republicans are represented with red. I realize that the flag is red white and blue and this is the reason why red and blue were chosen to represent the major parties, white is just a boring color. But I just couldn’t help the thought of red all by itself was disturbing. Red is the color of communism.

Red, Republicans, communism, coincidence?

State of Affairs

2008-09-29T20:27:00.002-04:00

After listening to the financial radio all day and realizing the impending financial doom that this country is in, I came up with a few ways to save money or make a little.

1. Shower once a week. Of course you will have to deal with my BO because perfume can only cover up so much.
2. Wear your clothes more then once. Again the smell factor. Bite me.
3. Who needs a fridge? I’ll unplug it, eat canned food and drink warm beverages.
4. No more lights, candle only. (If you catch me cooking my food over a camp fire its real bad.)
5. Last but not least I am going to rent my couch out. Any one want to live with me :)

The DOW Plunges

My last thought on the whole situation is the mattress is looking like a really good place to store money.

Then I go to read the news online and China is trying to kill people again. Why oh why?

Tainted Milk

facts of life

2008-09-28T17:14:00.001-04:00

Dreams have a way of disintegrating in front of our eyes. This phenomenon doesn’t happen simply because we wake up in the morning and forget what our minds processed the night before. It happens because life throws us curve balls. There is something in the universe that sends us in a different direction then what we intended to go in. Why?

Why does life change so fast that we can no longer believe that this is what our lives have become? No one will ever know, but all we can do is take the good and take the bad and there you have the facts of life. OK so life isn’t a theme song from an 80s sitcom. But it is a matter of living with what you have and taking it all and turning it into something you can live with.

So here it is; just be your self, live, love, laugh. Go out and be yourself and don’t let any one tell you differently.

Heaven and This

2008-09-04T20:33:00.004-04:00

Today had its usual presence of pain and laughter circling around my persons, but one comment that caught my attention has me thinking much.

“I can not believe, you do not believe in a here after. There has to be something better then this”

Why does there have to be a here after, a place that is considered better then this world? Why is “this” so bad? Is “this” an evil place, a nightmare, a dream?

Our concrete world is not so bad, not so nightmarish. It is the world I live in and care to be a part of. I don’t want to spend my time looking for another place that will be better. Besides if you’re so busy thinking about a better place to go, how can you enjoy this one?

mmmm Cake

2008-09-02T20:05:00.001-04:00

I officially ended my vacation today by going back to work. Ugh….the humdrum of normal life. I spent many a days and hours just kickin’ back and relaxing this past week. I wish I could do it all the time.

Though my vacation did not start with the big bang that I had hoped for, instead I was rushing my cat to the vet. I know have a large bill to pay but Mr. Boots is doing much better and peeing like a champ.

My vacation did end with a nice get together. My friends came over and we all ate and drank. The cake was a scrumptious hit. Thank god for Emma and her magically awesome baking skills. Can’t beat chocolate rum banana cake. Yum.