From A Failure's Mind

Insomnia Talk.

2011-12-01T10:57:00.001-08:00

Hey everyone,
Right now is 2.57 am, December 2nd, 2011. And I'm not sleeping yet. As the title suggest, i am insomniac. simply, i have insomnia. Insomnia is difficulty in sleeping. For more info check this website http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pubmedhealth/PMH0001808/. I would redirect you to Wikipedia but i think this is more reliable source. It has been a quite some time now i'm stuck with this. It is eating me from the inside.
To be honest i don't know whether this is really insomnia or not. I mean I am only 21. Most people my age wont be sleeping at during this hour. A lot of us have works, homeworks, playing games and etc. I never went to a psychologist or a doctor to report my problem yet. I mean why, its not like the doctors would believe me anyway. They might just say I being a spoiled kid who doesn't want to sleep. Plus all the student in the world aint sleeping at this hour. What make me different from them. I don't blame them. Drugs are not cheap.
What the fuck am i writing?? Man this sucks. I cant play Starcraft 2 because my wrist is hurt. FUCK THIS SUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Alright, i think i'm ending this right now. I have nothing to offer and i'm writing shits right now. They say friends heal depression. Where are them now?

Update #2

2011-11-09T16:11:00.000-08:00

Hello everyone,
It is me again. Today i feel like updating. why you might ask. because i value this blog. and writing in it was fun. so i'm bringing the fun back to my life.

But i have to be honest. nothing exciting ever happens to me. Thus i come out with an idea. I will change the name of this blog to From A Failure's Mind. that is my first step. i know it sound depressing but successful mind already rule the world, so i think it is a good step.

Next i want to write a series of me rambling about stuffs. which right now is about games. i'll call it "Me On ... (Something)". I've been spending a lot of time on games right now since i have nothing better to do. So instead of finding a job somewhere. i decide to sit on my lazy ass and play game and wrote my experience on to my blog. So that will be my plan. Right now i have already have some games i've played during my 21 years old life. Among them are:

Starcraft 1 & 2
Final Fantasy series
Resident Evil series
Doom series
Need for Speed Series.
Age of Empires series
Age of Mythology
DC Universe Online
a bunch of MMO and etc.

Mind you that i am NOT a pro-gamer. Not even close to being good. The best skill i have is on Starcraft 2 but still the community called me a noob (newbie). So this will not be a series of well educated review on the games. Just me rambling about the games. You may like it or not, i'm still going to write it because i'm bored and i need to tell someone about something. I hope you guys will continue to read this blog even if it hurts. :P

That's all for now. This has been Leonhartxtreme signing off.

Update...

2011-10-31T02:42:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,
Damn, it been so long since i last post anything in here. why u might ask? Well the reason is simply, nothing good happen in life so far. Maybe my first Aidilfitri in Malaysia after 4 Aidilfitri in Canada but it is just the same as 5 years ago. in fact, it was pretty bad. No Aidilfitri BBQ. My bro have to leave early. and no out of this world fireworks that i expected. So I did not write anything. and then with very little income, i cant do anything super fun. plus i dont have license to drive a car. and public transport here only take you the boring place. so yeah, no update.

However, i wanna make this post cuz, i'm thinking of creating a new blog. Probably a photoblog, if all goes well. Or maybe i wanna delete this one. Thus, i wanna thank everyone who read my blog and comments. Thank you.

Gaming Wednesday: E3 so far

2011-06-08T00:07:00.000-07:00

Hi everyone,
I want to start something here. So just go along with it.Ii will try to post news or my opinion on the gaming world every Wedenesday and I will call it Gaming Wednesday.

So since this week is E3 Expo at Los Angeles Convention Center, I thought I share with you guys what I watch so far. To be honest, the convention officially start tomorrow, but the major companies has already held their press conference announcing their biggest announcements. but today i will talk about the current major console company; Nintendo, Sony and Microsoft. These three companies has make me wake up early to turn on their livestream to watch their announcements. So let's get started:

Nintendo:

I'll start with Nintendo first because I actually get really excited for this company. One because they said they are announcing a new console on this year E3. Two is because they have not show the true capability of Nintendo 3DS. Now, lets start with the 3DS. This has been in my wishlist since the day it was release to the world of gaming.
Now, the DSes has been among the famous handheld gaming devices alive now. With the dual screen gameplay and touchscreen, it has changed the way games where played. and since it is from Nintendo, you know there is a lot of huge name to be in it. But with the arrival of Nintendo 3DS, Nintendo has changes the way people see portable gaming a little bit more. With the non-glasses 3D screen, people are amazed by its power. But ever since its launch, it has not been presented with big name games. So this E3, they decided to announce the release of its long awaited games for the handheld masterpiece. Here are among the titles are Legend of Zelda: Ocarina of Times and Kid Icarus.
But this is not the biggest announcement they have. Their best announcement their next generation console, the Nintendo WiiU (i know the name kinda sound stupid). But I'm definitely impressed by it. here is its picture;

The WiiU

The new generation of Nintendo's console is schedule to be released in 2012. i think they'll schedule it for the holiday season, just like any other console before. First of all, the huge thing you sees in the picture in that person hands is the controller. Can you believe that? the new controller will have around 5-6" diagonal screen. based on Nintendo's presentation, there is a lot of stuff that can be done with the controller. Among it was:

an split screen for multiplayers.
a screen itself when someone wants to use the TV.
an additional screen for better gaming experience.
and lot more.

i am totally amazed by how Nintendo manage create such a thing. I am totally amazed. what more amazing is the fact that Nintendo sticks to its gun on coming out with family entertainment instead of stuffing us with more "gamer" games (if you know what i mean). But that doesn't mean Nintendo is avoiding the "true gamer" society. They also announced that a lot of third party developer is interested in working with them to create more awesome games for the WiiU. Among mentions in the presentation were; Batman: Arkham City, Assasin's Creed, and Battlefield 3. Nintendo is truly grabbing the interested of casual family gamer and "true gamer". Here is the video of the new Nintendo WiiU

Sony

Now Sony, the Ferrari of console game. The company with big bucks and not afraid to use it. First of all, they apologize for the Playstation Network downtime. As they announce stuff, i think the PSN downtime have been a major factor of Sony announcements. Sony have one major announcement this year which capture my eyes. The announcement of their new handheld Playstation device, but first they announce quite a number of major release for this year E3. But i have to say, it is pretty weird that they barely mention their motion controller the PSMove. As when i thought that motion controllers battle is among the hottest topics right now, Sony did not come out with new concept or idea with their PSMove. Did Sony has given up in developing the best motion control games?

Now, lets talk about games. I think the best announcement they made with game is the release of their third chapter of one of the most famous brand they have; Uncharted 3: Drake Deception. To be honest, i cant talk much about any game they announce, because i dont own any console. :)) But still i can still comment on the graphic and gameplay based on the demo the showed during the press conference. And my thoughts on Uncharted 3 looks really awesome. how awesome it is makes me want to empty my bank account and buy a PS3 right away. They also showed Resistance 3 and the new generation of multiplayer gameplay with their magic of a HDTV and 3D glasses that solved the problem of split screen. Here is a picture on how they do it.

Now, let's talk about the best thing about Sony press conference. Sony unveil the name of their Next Generation Portable device. They called it the Playstation Vita or PSVita. This is not the first time they shows this product. they showed it before. but on this E3, they announce the name and the price. before i watch the conference, i thought Sony might changed a little bit on their initial idea of the PSVita since i think Sony is going overboard on the capability which i think it would be ultra expensive. But i was wrong. Sony did not change anything about it. Here are they madness release on this portable console:

Front touch screen
Rear touch panel
2 analog sticks
2 cameras
awesome processor that allows stellar graphics preformances.
Wifi and 3G
and etc

when i saw this, i thought this gonna cost a fortune to own one. And then they announce the price of this sucka. it is price from $249.99 for Wifi version and $299.99 for the 3G and Wifi version. if we look at it as it is. yes, it is expensive. but if we compared it with Nintendo's 3DS, with $249.99 that is actually reasonable. it is crazy. they showed a gameplay video of Uncharted: Golden Abyss on the system. And i have to be honest Sony is crazy to put that price on the system. However, lets travel back in time, to the moment where PSN went down. i think Sony is really afraid of losing customers so they announce a lot of cheap products. The announce their set of entertainment with the PS3 which i cant remember how much but still cheap. They announce a lot of sequel titles that will have the previous game of the sequel in the Blueray disc. So yes i can conclude, Sony is winning back their demographic by lowering the price. HAHA. anyway, here is the video of the PSVita;

Microsoft

Nothing much i can say about Microsoft. in fact, i think Microsoft is pretty sad. During their presentation, they can only talk about new games that excited everyone. A lot of games were announce for the console. Unfortunately, Microsoft have nothing to combat new PSVita or the Nintendo WiiU. They only push the Microsoft Kinect further. I think i will try to talk about games on my next Gaming Wednesday entry.

What Microsoft offers this E3 with the Kinect are Fun Labs and a whole bunch of awesome games that can be play with Kinect. The Fun Labs looks pretty fun but i think it is just not a huge deal. However, playing Star Wars with Kinect could be fun. Or the new Dance Central and Kinect Sports could be fun. But that is about it. Microsoft announcement was pretty dull. However, they still deserved a video:

So to end this post, I wish i could go to E3. Maybe one day. But the announcements by these big companies are amazing. I cant wait to see how gaming will evolved as time progress. so i'm leaving you with this GIF.

Photography through my Eyes...

2011-05-20T23:52:00.000-07:00

Hello again,

I've cried my eyes out on the last post. Therefore, I think I share something that make me happy in this post. As the title suggest; it is about my take on PHOTOGRAPHY. I'm going to give you any tips because I'm not in a position to give such things. i just an enthusiastic photographer. I'm not a pro. i wish i am but i doesn't reach that high of an achievement. however, if you think what i wrote is any good for you. then please use it. I'm happy to teach anyone about this i knew.

But first, I want to speak of a short story on how I get into this business. it is really short. The story is I DON'T KNOW. :)) Actually, I think I started to get interested in photography is because of a friend. his name is Ajwad. also known as Ajinda. We haven't been talking for a while now. but I think I can still can him a friend. or maybe someone I admired. back in MRSM Kuala Lipis, I never knew anyone that is so interested in art at such a young age. back then we like to talk about cameras and comics art. of course, he was the better one. he was my mentor I could say. Anyway, seeing him so interested in photography and art makes me want to engage this world too. Unfortunately, because of my blind ambition towards getting rich fast, I put art on the side and try to focus on science and the professional part of life. Another reason for my interest, I could say is my mom. at my house there is a old Konica Minolta SLR lying around broken. my mom always told me that she wants to take picture with that camera one more time. My burning heart said "you know what mom, I'll give you even better. I'll give you a DSLR."
But not out loud of course. Anyway, with that I think to myself, maybe once I get to Canada I want to buy myself a DSLR even if I'm going to starve myself. haha. I guess my mom love towards camera is inherit to me. and my dad love towards gadget is also inherit to me. but that is on some other time. Third, I think is because I watch National Geographic and Discovery way too much. actually make me want to see the world. Thus born my love towards photography.

now, let's talk about my gears and why;
My Gear

Canon EOS 50D

This is my baby right now, Canon EOS 50D. With 15 Megapixels CMOS censor, a speed of 6.3 fps and DIGIC 4 image processor. It is pretty awesome for someone of my degree. I wish it has video recording possibility but it is okay. Still pictures are way more fun. :) But before i bought this one, i have another one. Canon EOS 1000D or Rebel XS. It is a beginner camera, so since I think I want to do more stuffs I change to my baby right now. 1000D was fun but the 50D is way more fun. Right now my 1000D is with my family back in Malaysia, hope it is doing fine. I want to list out the capabilities of this camera but I think it is insignificant. Only the nerds inside me wants to know that and I know you guys don't give a damn about it. Haha. but its okay. because it is not my baby who make me a photographer that I am it is my trio; Tokina AT-X 116 PRO DX 11-16mm f2.8, "the nifty-fifty" Canon EF 50mm f1.8 II and Canon 28-80mm f3.5-5.6 USM. I spent most of my time using the Tokina and the nifty fifty.

Wide Eye

Wide Eye

First of all, I think it would be cool to call my "weapons" with names. So this one is my favorite. "Wide Eye" the Tokina AT-X 116 PRO DX 11-16mm f2.8. I wont bother to tell what all those stats are. I will only tell you that it is an Ultra Wide Angle (UWA) lens with very fast aperture and it is my favorite lens and also it is a very heavy lens. But although with that much weight in addition with my baby, I still have the most fun with it.
Now let me tell you the magical story I have with this lens, the scenery and the experience i shot with this weapon of mass photography. When we use our eyes, we see the wide angle of God's creation with our eyes. that is where the magic begun. this lens allowed me to take pictures as I see it. I love to sit on top of a hill or on a cliff (although I'm a afraid of height). With this lens I can capture the mood I was in. Looking at the sunset, seeing the beautiful Earth lay upon me. Unlike a telephoto or a zoom lens, a UWA capture the story of scenery, a story how a beautiful scenes come together. Capturing every essence of the sunset, of the beach, of the mountain, of the sea and all that God created. That is why I love this lens so much. Sharing scenery to the world is so much fun.
But Wide Eye is not only for landscapes, I also love using it indoors for people shots and sometimes objects. It will make the person looks weird because of the distortion, but it think it's pretty. And with the f2.8 aperture value, it is fast enough to take pictures without people taking time posing. I'm

Sunset with the view of Hull and Alexandra Bridge

A LAN party at Carleton University. indoor photo with low light situation

Tulips and Parliament from a far.

This is the best lens I have. I don't if I ever can give it up. The only why I might let it go if people offer me Canon 16-40mm L series lens. This lens is so much fun. I LOVE THIS LENS!!

Nifty

Nifty

This is among the most popular lens in the world of Canon photographer. Almost everyone owns one. Because of the cheap price, and awesome quality, anybody with a Canon DSLR should buy this. The Canon EF 50mm f1.8 II or the Nifty fifty. again, I wont bother to tell you the details of this lens. But I'm just gonna say that this lens has a very fast aperture with f1.8 and very light. Most of the structure is plastic, that's why is light and also making it is pretty fragile. But it is money well spent in deed or even better.

Maybe, I love my Wide Eye but I think I used this lens more than my UWA. My reason is because it is a "book". A medium of story telling. they say that a picture speaks a thousand words or story. So Nifty is the story teller that pass the story to my camera. Nifty is called a portrait lens. so basically this lens normally used to take portraiture. A person face has a story to tell, so Nifty get the job done. Like a Jester telling a story to his king, this lens tells a story to me. Walking around seeing people and objects become more exciting with this lens. Taking their pictures and share it to the world is really satisfying. I LOVE THIS LENS TOO. Here are my some of my stories.

A boy with a dinosaur painting

Klik

A Working man

Orange Tulips

I wish I could show you more pictures. But it is going to take way too much space. :)

Stan

Stan

This is the lens I use the least. It is not that it is not good. but it is just way too old of a lens. This is the Canon 28-80mm f3.5-5.6 or I called him Stan. The reason I have this lens is because when I bought my baby, it is a kit with Nifty. So I needed one standard zoom lens first temporary. But I don't have the money to replace it yet. But it doesn't mean it doesn't pack a punch. With a little help from an editing software it can be a good lens.

It is still a weapon to snipe a good photo.

Portrait of a Duck

Kid

Guitar Man

Ending

Photography really make me happy when I'm sad. almost exclusively, after a very bad results or a very bad fight with my ex, I will take my camera and go for a walk. I think there is only 2 times I took my camera to snap photos that I really planned. Most of the time, i just walk and take photos. I don't care who I took, I don't care for who. As long as I can tell the story from my photos. Everybody have a story to tell, and I'm glad to be the guy to tell the story to the world. Although I can't write very well, I can still give my stories with a photograph. Photographs make me appreciate life a lot. Enjoying the beauty of God's creation. Plus;

Pictures Speak A Thousand Words.

Where Are You?

2011-05-20T00:59:00.000-07:00

i remember,
when you are little,
you're a riot,
always making joke,
always running around,
causing trouble to Tok Ma and Tok Ayah,
an energetic little fella you were.

i remember,
you are full of dreams,
scientist, astronaut, aeronautic engineer,
artist, doctor, football player,
psychologist, photographer, Starcraft 2 gamer,
those are your dreams,
a litlle dreamer you were.

i remember,
a smart one you are,
skip standard 4,
the 3rd person in line to become the best students in UPSR,
your math teacher love you,
even used you help to solve a PMR problems,
sciences teachers amazed by your passions,
your art teachers like you,
your language and religion teachers,
last but not least; your Computer teachers,
they all believe you are smart,
an intelligent fella you were.

i remember,
you have many friends,
everyone you call friends,
those who hurt you,
those who ignored you,
those who love you,
those who you hate,
everyone is a friend,
a friendly fella you were,

i remember,
how religious you were,

but now,
you're always tired,
you're not even happy you're alive,
you're failing everything,
you're alone,
you're...

so syazli,
i'll ask you,
where do you hid me,
please bring me back...

My Adventure Across Ottawa

2011-05-11T04:20:00.000-07:00

This will not be the continuation of my sad story. but this is the story of my adventure. why i called it an adventure because i cycled for 4 hours yesterday. just because i want to see the Tulips Festival 2011 here in Ottawa. At first, i was only planning for an hour cycle to downtown and back. but i think to myself. why stop there. so here is my route;

Hog's Back-> Major Hill Park-> Downtown-> Hull, Quebec-> along the Ottawa River-> War Museum-> Britannia Park-> Experimental Farm.

All those destinations took me 4 hours. i can't even believe that my body can handle that much of cycling. so basically i rode my bike along the Rideau Canal and along the Ottawa River. To paint you a picture of it...here are the Google Map of it...

My Route. From A-D....how cool am I...haha

i know this doesn't mean anything to you. but i just think i manage to do something here. it just amazing. just since everything that happen to me lately. it just so fun to accomplish that i did this. people (Alias) told me to enjoy this time. so this how i enjoy myself. Other than i can cycle that much. i also manage to take few pictures along the way. and here they are.

Akebono

dont know what its name...

Major's Hill Park Tulips with National Art Gallery

Parliament and Tulips

Britannia Park

On The Farm

Feeling Jiwang

So it was a day very well spent. get the most bicycle ride i had in month. sightseeing Ottawa on a bike is so much fun. Colorful Tulip Festival is always a treat to my eyes. I'm going to miss this place. i love it. seriously. Also, today i learned that Netherlands actually the bicycle capital of the world. wonder what i can do there. Alright that is all for now. it was fun writing about something fun for once.

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Food!!

2011-05-02T13:37:00.001-07:00

Food!!, a set on Flickr.

an intermission before i continue with my sad life story of failure...

Via Flickr:
food that i ate

How I Disappoint Myself

2011-04-30T11:48:00.000-07:00

this will be a sad post. if you dont like reading me complaint, i suggest that you close this page right now. i will tell you the story of how i become me right now. this is not just a complaint post but also i want to figure where i went south. where everything start to get messed up and fucked.

lets start backward;

Where i am.
I used to be a great student. right now, i am waiting for MARA letters containing my flight tickets to come home back to Malaysia. YES. i failed as a student here in Ottawa. therefore the contract between me and MARA clearly said that i have to end my study here in Ottawa. it not their fault on being to cruel or whatever. i just lost the "fire" to strife for excellency.

What I used to be.
i'm not stupid. not at all. at least i think i'm not. i know all the past achievement dont mean shit now. but UPSR, PMR and SPM all i manage to get straight As. heck i manage to skip standard 4 because PTS. and for ICPU or Ontario Grade 12, i manage to score a solid 83% marks. it qualify me to embarks on the small world of Engineering Physics here in Carleton University. i remember, back then, i was the happiest person in this fucking world to get to take the opportunity to be the only Malaysian here at Carleton to tackle the hardest engineering program there is. how fucking naive was me. in a class of 12 people, i started my struggle.

Engineering Physics.
people might say this is where my mistakes start. who am i thinking that i can handle the worst program there is. i'm just a normal malaysian. not even the top students from any of my previous schools. and suddenly i want to tackle the hardest engineering there is. To paint you a picture of how hard it is, it is like taking a double major physics and electrical engineering. they said electrical engineering is hard, then to add physics in the misery. its like double kicks in the balls. how i think i can do it? all started in ICPU where i manage to get an 86 on physics. which basically an A. so i thought to myself. i'm not that into any particular department of engineering. why not just go physics. i like physics and there is engineering in it so MARA will sponsor me. Stupid aint it. the first year, it was okay. the engineering stuffs in first year was easy. well easier compare to the physics course i have to take. and the engineering physics course. i spent almost 60% of my time in freshmen worrying about physics. and it was carry to second year.

i maintain that 60:40 ratio of physics to engineering. unfortunately, it backfires on me on my second term of sophomore year. why u ask? because i was taking this Digital Electronic course and an Optics course. Digital Electronics was said to be the 2nd worst course in the whole sophomore year. and Optics is no walk in the park. and with those time ratio i set to myself, i manage to fail both courses. yeah, it hurts that bad. i have that 4 years time limit that MARA set to me. i cant afford to extend. that is also the time i realize. this is a losing battle.

there is no way in hell i can come back after this. so, i think i'll try to save myself by changing my program to EE (Electrical Engineering). but to be honest, in my third year in EE, i was like the 300 Spartans against the Persian army in the movie 300. i was fighting a losing a battle. i will die under the burden. getting out of Engineering Physics is like a soldier that is send back because his leg was amputated and just to find out he still need to work to keep his family fed.

i was enjoying Engineering Physics. it was a dream. it was hard, but i was fun for me. the moment i sent the application to change program. a large part of me died, not a little but a large. that is the moment i realize dreams are never meant for me. i dont know who dreams are for but it is sure as hell it is not for me. to add salt to my wound, the summer of my sophomore years, instead of going for a holiday after an ass busting session. i decided to stay and bust my broken and swollen ass a little more. i took summer courses. 4 to be exact. i thought it would help taking complementary studies. i doesn't help at all. it makes thing worst. junior year was a falling year. a story of how i jump off the cliff.

this is too overwhelming to write. i'll continue on some other times.

Canadian Museum of Civilisation

2011-02-25T18:40:00.000-08:00

hello everyone,
so yesterday i went to another museum. museum is kinda fun to visit sometime. and this one, Canadian Museum of Civilization i actually enjoyed the most. The War Museum was fine. but this museum actually fascinated me the most. it is not located in Ottawa, Ontario but in Gatineau, Quebec. which is on the other side separated by the Rideau River. fortunate for me there are bus to go there although it is on a different province. so for once in my life i can say i went to Gatineau alone without knowing any french at all (yeah right, like i spoke a word there). anyway, there are a buttload of information to learn there. From the First Nation, kids, Post Office to how Canada came to be what it is today. so by far, i had the most fun here. here is some pictures i took there.

this is the first floor of the museum. this is basically the native stuff. always fun to watch the First Nation art crafts. they spay attention on precisions and details. the symbolism., i dont care much, you have to read it on your own time.

This is actually a graphical representation of how the Earth was created by the original people of Canada. i'm not gonna fill you guys in. want to know u can google it or visit this Museum.

they shows the differences living state of all the First Nation people in Canada. i think this one is the up North people. around Nunavut and stuffs. where it is cold.

some equipments of wood carving i snap.

A totem pole. i dont know what it supposed to represent.

a ceiling in the Museum. just want to show you the colourfulness of it. hehe

A 3D representation of Canada. guess where i am.

A ghost..........i kid. no, it is actually a nun mannequin inside a hospital/church build inside the museum. not full scale but pretty cool.

I dont remember what this is...sorry.

A house inside the the Museum.

Yes. A train station

now, i have a lot more pictures but i think this is enough. the best part about this museum is because it show how civilization progressed in Canada, so what it does is shows a whole town. making you feel like u are in that time period. mostly around the the 30s or something like that. unfortunately, i actually went there on a free day. which is on Thursday from 4-8 pm. so i cannot stand read or hear everything (yes, i am not a fast reader). thus i don't actually know about everything in there. THERE ARE A LOT OF STUFFS.

ending this post, i would like you guys to check out my tumblr. i usually post something what i think is funny on there. also, check out my flickr and follow me on twitter. i think that should be all. hopefully more posts in the near future. toodles... 0.0

War Museum

2011-01-06T20:52:00.000-08:00

eeeekkkk ooooo....hehe...me again...nothing much...life goes shorter and shorter...so best way to reminisce about memory...yes MUSEUM!!!...haha...anyway...i'm really on a museum mood this couple of week ever since i knew that museum give free admission every thursday...well actually there only been two exhibit i went...National Art Gallery and War Museum....here in Ottawa....i have already shown something about the art gallery last week...now for the War Museum....

I've got to be honest...i'm not a man of war...any war...the good, the bad, the ugly, or even Narnia...which exactly why War Museum was not something i'm looking forward to....but learning stuffs about war here is absolutely amazing and worth the 20 minutes bus ride to get here...plus its free...any knowledge got free is always a good thing....

i want to take the picture of the Museum building but can't...because it was dark and it was big...anyway, the architecture of the building reminds me of a bunker....u know...somewhere where the "important" people runs to when there is nuclear holocaust or something....but still it is in keeping with the mood...and it is a War Museum...what better structure to show than a freaking bunker....

Hitler's very own Benz.....this give me chills....seriously looking at his car give me chills...

A war apparels of the First Nation people in BC.

The first machine gun ever....who would have thought one of the most peaceful country in the world right now actually used the first machine gun...

A panoramic view of the aftermath of World War 1....it was sad to say the least...

Cell in front of Canada's own tanks...can't remember the name...

Another Canada's tank, 105mm round...the bullet is bigger than my fist...

a line of the cavalry of modern warfare....a frightening sight....at least for me...

Sory that all this photos is not chronological order when i went there....more pictures i took but no way i'm gonna show everything here....check my facebook album if u want to...

oh....before i forgot...HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! maybe i'm gonna put a post about new year...but not a promise....because i'm not looking forward for anything this year...so no resolutions....haha

National Art Gallery

2010-12-30T20:46:00.000-08:00

today....i went out again today....to a freaking museum....HELL YEAH!!!anyway....i grab a slice of cake and a cup of orange pekoe tea (sounds grand right...not at all...just some stupid tea and a slice of cake)...the cake was good....but i have better...so not gonna recommend....and then it was 4.30pm....and i said to myself....i wanna go in the National Art Gallery of Canada...all bcuz i got to see the inside of the Parliament, i just so pumped to go visit the Gallery...i spend a lot of time outside the gallery collecting thoughts in the summer....so in winter we go inside...i wish i have a lot of pictures to show but photography is not allowed inside...plus if i show u everything here...it will give reasons not to go there....so wanna see what i see...go the National Art Gallery of Canada

The Building: National Art Gallery

Inside lobby

Hallway

A garden in the middle of the Gallery in the middle of winter

The only piece i'm gonna show just bcuz i was amazed by this...just look at it....it is freaking beautiful....

A lot more to see in there...make sure u guys check it out....

p/s: after 5 till 8...the public gallery of the museum is open free for everyone...but not the special exhibit...the ticket before 5 or to go to the private exhibit is $7 for student.

The Inside of the Parliament Building

2010-12-30T04:58:00.000-08:00

finally...i have been to the parliament hill too many times already...to relax, to watch concert, to make snowman...but never once i have the courage to enter that british inspired building...it is free for public tours...a tour guide will bring you around to show you important part of the building n the parliament...the common room, the senate room and the most magnificent library i have ever seen...they will show you...and did i mention, it is FREE...if only i knew sooner...the tour guide will also give you some info on the history n the process involved in parliament...but being an ignorant man towards the government, i choose to just listen the mumbling sounds...and took pictures instead...

Memorial Chambers

Hallway

Common Room

A sculpture...dont remember what for.

Entrance to the library

Another waiting hallway

Senate Room

A special mention of the people i went with.

p/s: a much more funnier story...i dont even have a clue about malaysian parliament or how it look like....but canada come first...haha

HDR photography

2010-12-28T20:17:00.000-08:00

i never was a fan of HDR....i think it is fake...but i never try it before...done a couple but not great one...until today....i go out and think to myself....what would make my photoshoot session in ottawa a bit different from before....HDR directly pop into my mind...and this what i got....

i have no idea what to name all this...but for it is sure is pretty...

The river to quebec...

Petrify

The old gazebo

Parliament Building

Nightmare

This is all that i can do for now...i have never left ottawa so making the same scene originally different is tough work...but i like challenge....and this is my result...do comment...

Sketch 2

2010-07-15T23:08:00.001-07:00

okay…one last post for the night…just to say thanks to Ahlina for giving me an assignment…the assignment was to sketch her twin portrait…it is for her birthday…no…their birthday…why i thanks her…this is a real assignment with due date, draft and assessment…really enjoyed my time sketching her twins…i trained my sketching technique and also i gave more details in the sketching because it is a freaking assignment…seriously…i have a lot of fun…anyway…here are the picture…

this is Ai Nina(fb name…i never know her…i know her twin sister…hehe)…So Ahlina ask me to draw this…and this is what i came out with…i’m proud with myself…not as good as any other portrait artist…but for an EE student…this is not bad…haha
here is something i made for Ahlina for her birthday…hahaha…i did this just for fun…i did not spend more time on this one…but it is okay…hehe…
anyway…again…thanks Ahlina for giving me the trust to ruin ur twin sister and ur face with face…hope u 2 like it and everyone else love this…i will try to improve my techniques…and hopefully i got better…hehehe

Post World Cup 2010

2010-07-15T22:56:00.001-07:00

The legendary picture in Spain history…YES PEOPLE!!! SPAIN WON WORLD CUP 2010 SOUTH AFRICA!!! LA FURIA ROJA!!!
yes…i know…it has been more than a week after the World Cup…but the heat from it is still beaming everywhere…it was a wonderful tournament…with a lot of surprises…this is one of it…
okay…from my last post about The World Cup…my pick was Brazil, Spain, Italy…but Italy had the worst tournament in their history and Brazil disappoint me the most when they lost to Netherland…why it was disappointing…Brazil can’t control their emotion…really frustrating…but looking forward for 2014…the World Cup is gonna be at Brazil…hell yeah…
Anyway…here is my list of teams that is worth mentioning in this tournament:
1. Netherland-their tactics can make people wanna shoot them…seriously…they play the field like it was World War II…with the kicking and stuff…but they are the runner up…and they beat Brazil :((
2. Germany-the best performer of this World Cup…except for their semi-final match against the Champion…i think it because young Thomas Mueller wasn’t on the field…worth mentioning… Mesut Ozil…
3. Uruguay-the forth place team shows why they are the 2 time World Cup Champion in the old days…Football is in their blood too…and the Golden Ball award was given to Diego Forlan…
other team worth mentioning probably:
New Zealand-the team without any losses…the nation without any football league…
Ghana-they fought hard for the only african team to make it to the Quaterfinal but their hopes was destroyed by Luis Suarez handball…which is necessary to get Uruguay to Semi…
Slovakia-they manage to kick the 2006 Champ, Italy…
South Africa-the home team is the 83rd rank on FIFA…but they showed that they have guts to give their all…best player on team…Tsbhalala…really loving saying his name…hahaha
i dont know anymore team to mention…maybe you guys/girls could comment on the other team that worth mentioning…
Now the Stars in this tournament:
based on http://www.Fifa.com
GOLDEN BALL: DIEGO FORLAN-i’m so happy he won this…he is the only player that can control the Jabulani consistently throughout the tournament…his goals was thunderous…he played with beauty…i hate him before the World Cup because he knocked out Liverpool from the Europa…but he just prove me and everyone else that he is one heck of a player…
Best Young Player & The Golden Boot: Thomas Mueller-20 years old but he scored 5 goals already…this is his first World Cup and already 5 goals…this young man was amazing…looking forward to see him more in football world…

Golden Gloves: Iker Cassilas-well he is the goal keeper of the Champion…and also the captain…once the ball come at him…he knock it out of the park…very cool guy…watch this…but seriously…he is a very good goalkeeper…ever since i saw him in Real Madrid…really like this guy…

Overall…this World Cup was so much fun…and watching it at Canada was another level of fun because all match were on the evening…no need to stay up at all…
Can’t wait for World Cup 2014-Brazil…hopefully Brazil gonna give their best and win the World Cup…Okay…See You Guys in 4 years…

July 1st 2010- CANADA DAY

2010-07-15T22:05:00.001-07:00

Hello everyone…it has been awhile since Canada Day…but suddenly i have the tiny mood to write a new post…actually i’m not gonna post only one blog post today…first entry…CANADA DAY…here is the picture…

this is an image of how many people were there…2 years living here, never thought Ottawa can support this much people…haha

The Snowbird(i think but i think i’m wrong…haha) come soaring…unfortunately without any telephoto…i only use my nifty fifty to shot this…hahaha

there were performances and a whole lot of stuffs going on…even Queen Elizabeth…but i couldn’t shoot any picture of her…

but the cherry on top of the awesome day was the fireworks that night…here is some picture…but again…unfortunately i watch the fireworks blasting at the perfect place to experienced it but not the best place to take picture…here we go!!!

u can check out all this picture in my Flickr or just click the picture for the bigger view…again sorry for the sucky picture…but i have a lot of fun that day…

World Cup 2010

2010-06-11T09:53:00.001-07:00

stuffs are getting hotter…its time to celebrate the biggest game in the universe…THE FIFA WORLD CUP 2010…all eyes is set on South Africa to see the biggest name in football in action…Kaka, Lionel Messi, Fernando Torres, Wayne Rooney, Stevie G, Arjen Robben, Van Persie…everyone wants to make a name for themself to carry their country to the finals and wins the 18K Pure Gold trophy…

So who do i look at this world cup…well here is my list…
1. Brazil- I’ve been supporting this team for 3 world cup before because of the France 1998…so this year it will still be Brazil in my heart…but i have to be honest, i don’t actually recognize a lot of Brazilian player since i only watch Barclay’s for the past 4 years but i surely can’t wait to see how Kaka will perform…

2. Spain- people said that Spain is favourite…a lot of player are on form…a lot of player got their name up in the sky for the last 4 years…and of course their are the Euro 2008 winner…so how can they lose…this is my 2nd favourite team…player i’m gonna watch, fellow Liverpool FC…Fernando Torres…

3. Italy- honestly speaking…not my favourite…but since they are the 2006 winner…i hope they perform better and have one hell of a show…

above are my choose for this year World Cup…but i think it worth mentioning three other teams:

4. Argentina- under the supervision Maradona…this team has been in turbulence before the World Cup started but with Lionel Messi on their team…i think they will put one hell of a show…
5. England- for me…England had never rise up to expectation…for me…but with Capello, people since to think that it will be different this year…plus they have the most publicity…hopefully they will put on a great show…
6. The Hometown Team, South Africa- honestly speaking…i don’t know any name in this team…but seeing past World Cup…especially the South Korea and Japan 2002 World Cup…home team has never disappoint anyone…let see if South Africa can do the same thing…
well that’s all the rambling of a person who right now don’t play soccer anymore and a supporter of a losing club about the World Cup…i can’t wait to see all the match in South Africa on my laptop…ciow cin ciow…
p/s: South Africa vs Mexico ended with a 1-1 draw…not a good start for the home team but impressive play by the 83rd rank team…

Good Charlotte - Misery

2010-06-09T20:41:00.000-07:00

Take a look around
Don't you see it
See that you are the only real face in the room
No one here has a clue what your feelin'
Don't feel bad
Keep your sadness alive

Look at all these happy people
Living their lives
Look at all these plastic people
There's nothing inside
Look at all these shallow people
Telling their lies
Look at all these empty people, people

Don’t you know
That misery loves company
Yeah I heard
That misery was looking for me
Happiness, is a face that don't look good on me
Yeah I heard
That misery comes looking for me
Whoa, misery's my company
Whoa, misery is looking for me
Looking for me

The hands are up now
Everybody singing
Everybody’s movin’
They've programe their feelings
their synchronizin'
And criticizin'
Don't feel bad
Keep your sadness alive

Look at all these happy people
Living their lives
Look at all these plastic people
They're dying inside
Look at all these shallow people
Telling their lies
Look at all these empty people, people

Don't you know
That misery loves company
Yeah I heard
That misery was looking for me
Happiness, is a face that don't look good on me
Yeah I heard
That misery comes looking for me
Whoa, misery's my company
Whoa, misery is looking for me

Don't you know this misery loves me
Don't you know this misery loves me
Don't you know this misery loves me
Don't you know this misery loves me
Loves me

So you're tired of runnin'
You're tired of hurting
You're tired of living in their lie
You're tired of listening
You're tired of hurting
Keep your sadness alive, alive, alive

Don't you know
That misery loves company
Yeah I heard
That misery was looking for me
Happiness, is a face that don't look good on me
Yeah I heard
That misery comes looking for me
Don't you know
That misery loves company
Yeah I heard
Misery was looking for me
Happiness, is a face that don't look good on me
Yeah I heard
That misery comes looking for me

Whoa, misery's my company
Whoa, misery is looking for me

sketches…

2010-06-05T09:30:00.001-07:00

hi everyone…it is summer…its nice not to burden my head so much with engineering and physic knowledge…i can say i’m very as a bird in a big cage like the one at any zoo since i still taking summer course…but it is all the freedom i need for now…so it got me thinking…since it is summer….i wanna do something that i’ve been neglecting for awhile since fall and winter…i’ve been doing a lot of photography…i can’t go to vacation since i’m broke…and then it struck me…it has been awhile since i drew…so in the spirit of so-called-freedom…i pick up my mechanical pencils and bought myself an eraser(i don’t need an eraser before since i' usually crossed out word i did not want) and get myself a piece of paper and draw…but i had been so long since i’ve drew anything, i’m dried out on idea…so i opened my Flickr account and try to make portraits out of the portraits pictures in my Flickr…and this is what it turns out to be…

i know none of is good….but cut me some slack…i never have professional training on any kind of art…my high-school teacher never got the chance to impart any good knowledge of art on me…and it have nearly been a year since i’ve last drew anything…so for someone like me…not bad la…but anyway…i could use some help on how to get better…if anyone knows a good website or a good book that can help me…please share with me…that is all for now…chiow chin chiow…

Midwest Games…

2010-05-27T13:25:00.001-07:00

hi everyone…one fast entry again…just to say…

GUD LUCK TEAM CANADA!!!!!

I’ll be here in Ottawa rooting for you guys…bring home some gold for CANADA guys…Semangat Bowgal…KOOL LA WEY!!!!return home with gold around your necks okay…

also….for the girls…I’ve tried all my might to teach what I know for soccer…hopefully it is enough for you girls to win gold in Purdue University…i’m sorry if i was too hard or too soft or too inexperience…or whatever la i did wrong…u girls can win…WALAWEI!!!!! anyway gud luck la…

also…Jenie and the gang for volleyball…u guys can win…i’m sorry if i disturb ur training or anything…i’ve trained with u guys also sometimes…it was fun and i think u can win gold too…CAYALAA!!!! also…last but not least…the badminton team…chess…all the other teams that i forgot to mention….gud luck la…

p/s: sesapo tak pegi…kito doa jo la kat awok ni…mugo2…nga doa kito diorg bley mene n belanjo la kito skit bilo awok ni blk…kis kis kis

hi everyone…

2010-05-02T15:49:00.001-07:00

hi, i almost forgot i have a blog…haha…anyways…after my finals nothing happen to me so far…i did not go anywhere, just stay at ottawa…all alone lonely in my house…anyway…i’ve got myself a new lens…although it is a used lens but hell yeah it is a very cool lens and a lot of fun to play with…

it is the Tokina AT-X 116 PRO DX AF 11-16mm f2.8…it is a really cool wide angle lens…creative production would really come awesome with this…but when you have no idea of when taking picture it is really hard to use…but it is really cool to used indoor since it has a constant aperture of f2.8…but it is really cool and fun lens to play with…
although it is really fun to play with…i could use a telephoto lens…but hell i need the money for that…haha…so i’m hoping i’m gonna buy a telephoto zoom lens someday…
here is something i shot with the lens…please comment…
bed of tulips…
flows…
1st time trying HDR….kinda cool…
orait…see u guys again later…if i remember i still have a blog…hehe

3.26 am

2010-04-09T01:12:00.001-07:00

hi everyone…it is friday before my first final exam…why i’m writing instead of reading a whole bunch of crap that i will forgot 2 weeks from now, i will never know…one thing for sure i know is that i am not asleep yet at 3.26 am and i have been awake at this hour since…well i think 2 weeks now…but i’m okay…still breathing…but don’t ever think i was studying…i just stay awake…anyway…just wanna hope u guys wish me especially and all my friends here for their final exam gud luck…please pray for us and hope that we manage to make it out of this alive…haha…anyway…that’s all i gonna write today…have no idea anyway…so to all my friends:

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!!!

Zack Purmiow….just wanna put some picture…

p/s: i wanna change my major from EngPhys to EE

12.26 am

2010-03-14T21:58:00.001-07:00

hi anybody reading this…this blog is really getting less viewer…but i don’t mind…i only talk about myself anyway…who wanna hear about that rite???anyway…i wanna say that the daylight saving time has officially ended…so now we lost an hour…i don’t know how to describe this but a simple way to describe is Ontario, Canada is now 12 hours different with Malaysia’s time since i think most of my readers(if there is any) are from Malaysia…so if anyone wanna annoy me…just remember u r p.m…i am a.m capeesh…hehehe…anyway…if anyone read the last post…u know i bought a new camera body…and hell yeah i’d been enjoying it quite a lot…but i had to say…time doesn’t allow me to do so this couple of weeks…but i don’t wanna used it also cuz the surrounding colours look like something from a funeral…gonna wait for some colours to show up and then really taking it for a spin…it won’t be long now since rain has started to fall down moisturizing every tree on God’s beautiful creation…Alhamdullilah…alright…i need to go study now since i have a lot to study for…chiow…check out my Flickr…not good but worth the time…hehehe…
the perfect error…
mamee instant noodle…

9.44 pm

2010-03-09T19:27:00.001-08:00

hi everyone…i’m back again with a new post…a lil rest from “study”…a lot happen after my last post…seriously a lot…first my mom when to OT…she is okay now…but still pray for her fast recovery please…hehe…and then my friend, Syamsul Hashami went to a knee surgery because of his ACL…(same thing as me when i did my operation 2 years ago…~not important…hehe~~)anyway…pray for his quick recovery too…the guys need him on the field…hehe…other than that…i went to a physiotherapy session for my knee also…the therapist said it maybe a meniscus injury or something…i was glad it wasn’t another ligament…i kinda get some trauma after being in warded a few time before…anyway…if anyone knows anything about meniscus i would like to know…maybe just to speed up recovery…cuz i can’t even run to catch a bus…hahaha…

on another side…good news…i change my DSLR body…i used to take picture with Rebel XS…this Rebel XS…

but now i have a new one…this one…

yes baby…a Canon EOS 50D…it cost me some money…a lot actually…but worth it…it is really different than the Rebel…the picture get a lot sharper and the colours was beautiful…plus i also have the 50mm f:1.8…really sharp lens…really love the camera…but unfortunately…i don’t have any good lens…so now my dream is to save money for after graduate to get marry and buy a new lens…i am thinking of the Canon 10-22mm or 15-85mm with 70-200mm lens…the main point here is that i am looking for a wide angle lens…after i have the money la…hehe…anyway…ending this post i wanna share some of the picture taken with the new camera…

alright guys…see ya next time…anyone wanna leave a comment about the camera please do so…could really use some tips…