I just wanna live

CJ ON TRIAL THE VERDICT

2012-05-29T02:36:00.000-07:00

Clueless of what is happening right now while composing this short posting about the trial of the Chief Justice. I checked with yahoo to see updates but seems like their still on there way of polishing the reports. When I logged in to my networking account, I saw some shout outs of my friends who in my belief are currently watching the trial on their television sets.

There's this shout outs from a friend that quoted Senator Lapid's speech, where he says : mas naniwala ako kay Farinas dahil sa POWERPOINT, she commented on her post how cerebral Lapid's explanation is. Well, it's not new anymore to the public how some people question Lapid's education and his communication skills.That's life, I guess. While some posted a picture of Miriam Santiago, with an advertisement that looks like an ad from a mobile provider. Haha. It says, Enjoy unlimited speech valid for 24hours. Text unlispeech to 8888. See, how fast are we Filipino when it comes to creating humorous features. Another friend of mine posted on her wall about what Trillianes vote, when Trillianes says my verdict is guilty , this friend of mine commented to move on and ask him to go jump, haha. And those wall post shares are making me more curious on what is happening right now, So I wanted to go home now, pack my bag to watch that new update at home.

(Picture taken from globalbalita.com)

A TOKEN FROM THE CHRISTENING

2012-05-28T05:30:00.002-07:00

Yesterday was the christening of my friends baby and since I was selected to be one of the God mother I block the date for the event. On the day of the event I was not able to make it, as my weekend schooling has started also. Needless to say I have to choose so I went to attend my class. This morning when I reach my table, my friend hand me the give away for the christening the day after. A cute teddy bear and a nice picture frame. While she was on her way to her cubicle I noticed that she was wearing a customized t-shirts that according to her , husband personally design it. Nice and cool.

COUNTING DAYS FOR TURN OVER

2012-05-28T05:18:00.000-07:00

For the past few months I try my best to help the Engineering group in hitting their deadline they are expected to turn over the floors for the hotel renovation, but because of some circumstances that sometimes beyond our control, changes started to occur that makes the group frustrated.Revolving fund for the construction needs at times becomes insufficient to purchased all the materials critically needed for the project. But despite all those pressuring moments, the team is glad that the last piece to complete the work hit the cut off. The flooring for basements was successfully installed.Now , the team seems relax and wrinkle free.

BORN THIS WAY BALL TOUR

2012-05-18T22:21:00.002-07:00

Lady Gaga fever will be invading Metro Manila this coming May 21-21,2012 .Gaga, whose known for an unusual performance in front millions audience draw a different comments and concerned to some active groups and neighboring country. I have once witness her concert in a video and per my goggling the concert was held at Miami , concert where it was called the Monster ball last April of 2011.

The video was entertaining, my eyes was feasting of her unusual masterpiece in front of audience. Audience seemed satisfy for the penny they spent for the ticket. Gaga, even even says that she does not do lip sync on concert for the contentment of her followers. And I think should be the case in any concert, singing live. Anyway, As I was talking about gaga's concert, to my observation of her video concert I realize some bullet points, the first one is that I agree that she really is a performer and an artist as well who make use of her talent by associating the symbols of the dark force.I learned those symbols from the books of Dan Brown.The Angels and Demons and The Davinci code, where some symbols of masonry ,Knights Templar and Satans sign crafted perfectly to become sugary when showed in public.Her every actions becomes fashionable and trending that our young's imitate. Gaga, called herself the fame monster and her audience the little monsters that believes she is cool. The 3/4 of our youth believes that Gaga is the expression for equality on sexuality.

I understand that some artist and her million followers, those innocent patronizers of her will argue to some groups that opposes to Gaga's disturbing , harmful and blasphemous performance. Also, I agree to some commentators on Yahoo news where Gaga was warned to tone down performance , for they say if you do not like Lady Gaga, then do not buy her tickets , simple as that. But more so,I believe that this not just about watching her concert and entertaining ourselves to the Gaga's songs and on stage performance. But, it is that we believe there is more of her performance to be worried about that we must be alert and vigilant to protect the innocence of our youth. The question now, that is playing inside my head is that, how do we know that? if we ourselves have no deeper knowledge and understanding of God's reminder were we can read in the Holy Book.It's okay if you might say I am being religious and paranoid, but I am not. The right term would be, I have just known the truth, and if you think its not about good and evil but your just after for her jaw breaking performance, the more you need to be informed and be enlighten. Aren't we warned not to conform to the pattern of this world.Aren't we warned to be careful on what we patronize, we idolize , we follow?. Romans 12.2 (NIV) Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God’s will is —his good, pleasing and perfect will.

Ignorant of the law excuses no one, we must equip ourselves in doing our best to live a Godly life. We most not be Ignorant in order that we may not be deceived by the principality reigning in this world. Just a thought, Is this the kind of artist we want our children to mimic and grew up. I hope not.

REINVENTING A NEW LOOK

2012-05-16T05:55:00.000-07:00

A close relative ask me a favor to canvas tarps for them since they know it's one of my hobby, to surf around the net and look for limited offers at its best. Giving me their preferred specification for the item, I begun my searches. Those that I found fair enough to their demands, I gave them the contact numbers for them to get in touch with the supplier.

Looking back, I agree with my cousin that its time that their mini restaurant's extension outside the place needs a new look and improvements to make it more presentable to the customer coming in and out in every time. To make the place more visible to the public and and neat, I gave them the the estimate for white canvas tarps. And per update with them so far the supplier is supportive in giving them other package option to choose from. If they decided to go for custom tarps it will be quoted for them as well according to their budget. And that I think is remarkable. Sooner, if the deal is closed I will be visiting to a same place with a fresh make over for everyone to see and enjoy under the roof of my cousin's business establishment.

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY

2012-05-13T04:05:00.000-07:00

To my dearest Mother, I want to say thank you for taking care of us since birth, for giving us all the comfort even if it means shorter time for you to sleep, even if it means living a life without strong guarantee to hold in return, even if it means bearing all the pains and sorrow on your own. Again thank you. Though, I hardly understand you when we were growing up.. for me you are so mean , cold and arrogant, you never loved me. Never did I understand your way of discipline to us. So I grew up keeping a distant.

When I moved out and went to live on my own and begun to see the real world and experience the bigger challenges bestowed upon everywhere. I subconsciously begun referring on your manuals , for the right response on the kind of stones thrown to me.I was even recognized by some because they believe my mother raised me well to become a responsible person, a trustworthy and smart kid. And that I will disclose to this moment how you deserve to have that credit, for polishing me to bring out the rainbow color in me. :D

But with all these the highest credit goes to God, for making mother strong and determined to raise us a good sons and daughters. I also thank God, for the provision , guidance , protection and blessings He has poured out yesterday, and continuously pouring in without ceasing every time. Thank you Lord, you really are a God. Mother, forgive me for all our disobedience and thank you for hugging us every time we needed a person who will believe in us and love us no matter what. Happy mothers day, Mama. I love you and always will be.

PRACTICE MAKES PERFECT

2012-05-13T03:09:00.000-07:00

Indeed, practice makes you to perfection. When things seem so blur and confusing that you think you cannot arise over the test, most of us disheartened to what they pursue.If some lose their heart and quit dreaming for their dreams, others do some strategy to cope up with the challenge by studying hard, focusing on their goal, striving amidst huge waves along the way.

With my experience right now, because I have the desire to pass the board exams I enrolled in a review class to help me refresh the subjects I took during my undergraduate. Likewise some student who want to equipped themselves undergo refresher and other preparatory training in order to ready for gre practice questions when the need for testing the knowledge arises.

ORGANIZING STUFF IN PROPER ORDER

2012-05-08T17:59:00.000-07:00

Sometimes it annoys me when I am at the middle of rushing an important report when out of the blue, trouble happens on the network system. The reason? my shoe accidentally touch the wiring under my table. I do not know what the technical support here in our office was thinking when they put the router down the table. Which I conclude is one of the reason why my connection got cut every now and then. I have already ask them one of the member in their department if they have a wire management plan to avoid the interruption every time I accidentally hit the cables with my shoes. I do hope they will come up with a better plan to transfer the cables where it will be accidentally touched.

THE MEANS OF WORKING PASSIONATELY

2012-05-06T06:00:00.002-07:00

Work passionately and you will see at the end how successful you become, I hear that line from a seat mate at the review school earlier. He seem to lecture and give some good advice to fellow reviewee that I assumed under his circle of friends. I was on my way of closing my eyes when I over heard him talking , my attention was caught and senses went on. Listening with this man makes me realize of some bullet points I should be highlighting and doing some assessment seriously.

Yes, I mean seriously because at some point of my life I thought of investing on effort, time and discipline but I somehow forgot along my way that it takes passion as well. What are those time for? those efforts? and discipline if I cannot answer clearly myself why what for that I am doing? Am I just bored , that needed another channel to invest in to feel worthy? . Oh my, wishes that question marks be replaced with wisdom from above.

ONE OF MY FAVORITE PLAYER

2012-05-06T05:38:00.000-07:00

Growing up exposing to different kinds of sports and other other activity I came to a point where I followed every news , updates and events of my favorite player. To mention, she was a good equestrian player and from there I seem to have an eye for equestrian apparel maybe it has something to do with my admiration with Ms. Cojuangco in her days.lol. I guess it happen normally if your a fan , you copy cut and mirror in their lives.That's why I believe it is very important that we choose the icons we look after and follow.

THE BEAUTY OF TECHNOLOGY TODAY

2012-05-06T05:23:00.002-07:00

I do not know if I should be thankful that I am born in this generation and not on the era of my oldies, because it means difficulty in most of all matter during their time. Take for example the way of communication they have before compare to what this generation is enjoying. The difference of now is that when my Aunt from the province message me on my phone to go online for us to make an audio and web conferencing with other kins online in just a minute or two were connected to each other exchanging hi and hello.And that is the convenient we have in this techie days of ours.

MY FUNNY RIDE

2012-04-30T21:35:00.000-07:00

Preparing for work every morning has been my routine for many years now , during these days of my transporting to work and in home and one of my thing is watching people like me commuting to workplace. And here are some of my observations when riding a bus and PUJ. Why some drivers are too greedy to pick up passengers when in reality his seat is already occupied making some passengers looks like a sardines inside trying to fit their but in the seat. And what will you do if your the passenger uncomfortable with your seating position? It's not right as far as I can see it. I understand that they need to earn but the goal is not only for himself to earn, would it be fair if the driver will consider the quality of his service not just the quantity.

On the other hand, when riding a bus. There are bus drivers that I dislike nor I like because they are the ones that drives the bus like their racing with death.And there are those that has ample time to stop over on every corners in the highway which looks like he is waiting patiently for chance passengers. These two kinds of drivers makes my day challenging everyday. What do they have in common is that, they drop me off to my destination, only the 1st one gave me goosebumps while the 2nd resulted me to have a written memo asking me to explain my tardiness.

BREAK ON BOOKS

2012-04-27T05:50:00.000-07:00

After taking the final pre-board the feeling was like I am free and I can watch again my pending movies in my cabinet. And yes I did find myself enjoying the stuff I stop doing since I started reviewing, but afterwards I felt the stress eating me so to ease the danger of my being burned out. I took a break and go back to my self indulgence.

Talk about self discipline , of course I was guilty but the other side of me was telling me , I deserve a break. What? Do I really deserve that, when I do not have yet to called as accomplishment. If I am not willing to do some intense reviewing, chances are I am missing the point and I missed the time I should have studying instead of watching. So what's the point of enrolling in the review center anyway? , those are the line my other ego was reminding me. Well, I guess I have to make up my mind and be responsible. I need a motivation, a discipline and a passion. On the other hand, my mind was reasoning again tying to convince me that the weather lately has something to do with my current behavior and looks like my actions is vouching my crap.

GRADUATION PRESENT

2012-04-23T07:30:00.001-07:00

Semestral break is on indeed which is why my niece is so excited to receive her gift that she requested to me when she told me that she was awarded in their school as a First honor in the entire class level. The Graduation day was already due but my gift was for her is still for delivery.I promise my niece to send it through courier if I cannot make it this week. I do not want her to wait any longer for she deserves a small token of appreciation from her Tita.Maybe I was just lucky to discover that there are cowgirl boots at BootCity.com all the while I was busy looking somewhere else, but the search is over and any day from now , my lovely niece will have her precious present with her.

TO FATHER WITH LOVE

2012-04-22T21:14:00.002-07:00

Father loves adventure trips and anything that challenges his capability to win a particular goal He aim to accomplish. He was vocal too to let us know his plans and mission, last time he told me he wanted to ran or ride a bicycle only his bicycle is too old for a long drive and I know it needed a replacement. Just when I was canvassing a bicycle, when the sales Representative of the product started demonstrating , yakima bike racks And I realize at the end of demo, I am 90 percent convince and considering availing their offer. What do you think?

HIGH AND ALIVE

2012-04-22T21:04:00.000-07:00

I could not sleep last night after drinking energy drink which according to my Aunt, she had stomach ache and can't sleep too when she take that kind of drink to make her alive for an extra hours. I did the same because I wanted to last longer. To this moment I'm still wandering around but one thing had caught me thinking , the high t senior that my eye accidentally scanned through the search list. Hmm.. looks interesting to to read an article for that topic , I'll make sure to update myself about it to have detailed information of the matter, soon.

CRAZY HOT

2012-04-20T19:23:00.001-07:00

The time now in my wristwatch is nine fifty five in the morning and yet I cannot enjoy anymore my sleep. Though I used to wake up late in the morning during weekend, now I really can't stand the heat. How much more if I stay still until two o'clock in the afternoon. No way, I am going to stay in the mall after this rambling. Crazy hot, the electric fan cannot compensate the heat, yet I am not tempted to open the aircon because of the news last night that says, the service for electricity will increase these summer. So better go out and chill in the mall, until the sun goes down.

I believe this has something to do with our natures imbalance. The other day I saw on T.V about the solar flare, but they say it has no direct effect on Earth. But really I am wondering if it does not have effect on Earth, to think the sun is a part of our solar system, abnormal activity in our solar system isn't it alarming? . Anyway , this is just me my own opinion.

SUMMER PARTY

2012-04-20T18:50:00.000-07:00

My circle of friends posted on our wall proposing to have our summer outing, and so the suggestions started to roll.What's funny is that we do all have place in our minds were we think our party will be best held. Good thing, before other issues arise in our proposals, one of us suggested why don't we check out first some offers in the net and see if it will meet on our requirements. Later I will also check out grill from GrillsDirect.com see offers that might excite the group.

MUSIC PLEASE!

2012-04-19T00:03:00.001-07:00

What's the fuss? why the silence in here looks like everyone is trying to beat their deadlines with BIR. Except me, busy as well but I can't take the silence anymore.My eye is retiring , encouraging me to take a nap letting the body rest and relax for a couple of minutes. Oh no, I need a music that would entertain me and will make me lively while doing my work.

I almost forgot I have an acoustic guitar which my old friend gave me on my birthday three years ago that I stock in the attic, the guitar was cute and I like it so much but was set aside as years pass by, my desire to learn to strum a song had gone cold. Now my friend here breaks the silence took one of Italia Guitars and start humming a familiar lyrics.

IT'S NOW OR NEVER

2012-04-17T18:45:00.001-07:00

If you risk you must risk and give all your best to have no regrets in the end. My mentor use to tell me this word of advice. I told her my fear my weakness my limited resources, my mind is full of plans and whereabouts am I really destined to put up my own business.

I wanted to break free , quit my job establish my dreams step by step, but how? my mentor says every time I got disheartened of many circumstances think of God's promises and think of once common people in their times that becomes successful who confidently continue despite all failures , who fails many times to become unshakable to the end. Just like her, who started the business from almost bankrupt but now I can say she have grown a lot and have become good in her line of business, which makes her credible to me every time I need some encouragement.

It's now or never, If I do not do something nothing will happen the other way around, if I do something I have something to look forward to.Oh Lord, Help.

BREAK OUT!

2012-03-31T04:30:00.002-07:00

It is good to hear some words of encouragement everyday , not only on dark days I believe.Reading bible has taught me so many things , I don't know about you if holy bible made sense to you, but for me it causes transformation and brings forth wisdom upon me viewing life's challenges. I wish to share tonight the message God says in proverbs 3:26 - The Lord will keep you safe. The story can also be read in proverbs for life.

Fear comes in various shapes and sizes some have even names, no matter what you maybe afraid of, you know what fear feels like , your stomach feels like it's being cinched up with a belt, breathing becomes labored, you begin to sweat, speech is difficult. And it's not fun. Fear can completely dominate a person's life and for many that's the case. When fear rises -up reach out and take God's hand. Fear cannot remain in the presence of God. Place your confidence in him, and you can safely navigate any situation life has to offer. (Whoever listens to wisdom will live in safety and be ease, without fear of harm. proverbs 1:33.)

PENDING ROUTINE

2012-03-31T04:06:00.000-07:00

Times like this that I plan to go out to shop for grocery and other basic needs, but the weather today makes me lazy to step outside because of the wet ground. My mind was already set last night that I am to do some replenishment and likewise visit yoyo store to see if the toy my niece requested me to buy is still available,I end up staying here at home the whole day seating in front of the monitor while waiting for the rain to stop.Needless to say tomorrow weekend will be over so whether it rain or shine I have to accomplish all my pending work while I still have extra time.

SURPRISES WORTH A SMILE

2012-03-31T03:36:00.003-07:00

Treating loved ones with a gift is one of the sweetest thing I know specially on times they least expect it.I mean not just on special occasions. Sending them gift on special day counts of course but for me its cool, when you Find anniversary gifts for him that can be delivered, imagine the time and hassle you save from letting the experts do the work for you. I don't know about you guys but mostly I seek for the assistance of people who dedicate themselves in making other people lives easier. The last time I went to check for the service of some delivery shops was when Father celebrated his birthday last month , he was not expecting to receive a gift from a messenger but I saw his face in surprise mode and in excitement while wondering who send him the birthday gift and whom. I find it cute and flattering when Father learn whom his sender is.

WHAT'S HOT TO WEAR THIS SUMMER

2012-03-31T00:37:00.002-07:00

I was thinking over the weekend of the swimwear to pack in this coming long weekend if our out of town island getaway would be finalized and all. Out of excitement I went to dig my old clothes in my closet to wear and recycle. While looking for a piece of swimwear I invested years ago, the idea of buying some one for myself crossed to mind, but then the other side of me was reasoning. If I can find a cheap beach wear that would not hold up my wallet , then that would be great.

I could not hold on anymore my excitement so I turned out looking for some hot clothing for summer. Maybe its time for me to let of old summer wear and let myself be updated of the newest fashion sense.Again , I was just after for the cool yet cheaper deal to my view it is not practical to push myself buy those branded ones then return to home broke. And here are some of my top picks for this summer that I desire to have one, I'll see if I can afford the price tag. Then if it's to my favor, why not reward myself :) ( pictures from http://www.fabsugar.com )

SELF PREFERENCE

2012-03-30T00:25:00.000-07:00

My sister who live abroad came here to spent a two weeks vacation with us, Her first day at home was like christmas, she was like the santa claus , handing to everyone her presents. I was after for the chocolates while my other sister was for beauty products. At the end of the day,everyone was happy, we all got our favorite presents, mine again was chocolate, my younger sister was a goody goody Cleopatras Choice fragrance , to my parents was more of house accessories.I was observing my sister while she was handing over to us her presents and she seems to be happier than us.The saying that says "its better to give than to receive has just justify my sister's case.