BluFfin' MuFFin'

2011-01-17T23:57:00.000+08:00

It almost three months since my last posts, and i guess its not too late for me to say Happy New Year. Welcome 2011 Sayonara 2010. Hope we can achieve our goals for this year and start a new beginning with positive minds and attitude. Happy New Year!

Home

2010-11-15T01:43:00.000+08:00

Yeay! Home sweet Home!

Glad finally I’m home. Thanks to Fieqa for the ride.

That all =)

Finale

2010-11-10T19:37:00.001+08:00

It’s getting over…

My whole semester finally comes to an end in this few days. Yeay! Glad that I’m going home this Saturday or Friday. My last paper would be:

*Business Communication

*2 hours

*8.30 Till 10.30 a.m.

Mood: tak sabar nak balik!

Life

2010-11-10T04:05:00.000+08:00

When life gets too hard to stand, kneel.

pray

Proud Son

2010-11-09T01:27:00.001+08:00

Dear diary,

I know lately things getting tougher for my family. With the loss of my beloved uncle and expenses needed for my sister and brother things getting much complicated especially when it comes to money.

Dear ayah,

I know you have forced yourself to work long hours so that you can earn extra money to keep us alive and educated. You also with your hardest effort try to fulfill our needs especially when it comes to education. I remember once when I asked you how to answer my homework or scientific words that I didn’t know and you replied “Maaf Along, ayah belajar tak tinggi dan keputusan ayah tak seberapa, Along belajar sendiri ye. Ayah tahu Along pandai”. I know deep inside your heart you really want to help me, I realize that and because of that I learn to do things on my own or in other word “independent”. But ayah don’t force yourself too hard, you slept only 5 hour per day and you went to work at 6 a.m. and return home around 1a.m. gave yourself some rest coz you really need ‘em. Sorry I can’t help you today, But I will someday. I will always proud with both of my parents, it such a blessed to have you both as my parents.

{Md Akhir Abd Wahid & Nor Adha Bte Mohd Salleh)

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;

You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;

I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;

You raise me up... To more than I can be.

Muhamad Shahid,20

Pergi

2010-10-30T23:31:00.001+08:00

Khamis 28 oktober 2010,

Jam 12.30 tengahari Pak Ngah telah pergi untuk selama-lamanya.

Meningalkan 3 orang puteri yang kini tidak lagi mempunyai ayah dan ibu. Mereka kini tiada lagi tempat untuk mengadu dan meluahkan perasaan malah untuk menagih kasih sayang seorang insan bernama Bapa. Luka kehilangan Ibu yang telah 12 tahun meningalkan mereka masih kelihatan dan kini terpaksa menangung kehilangan seorang bapa.

Tujuan aku menulis ini adalah kerana ini adalah rutin yang selalu dilakukan ibuku setiap kali insan yang disayanginya pergi meningalkannya selama-lamanya.

Al-Fatihah

MissIn' It

2010-10-28T02:10:00.000+08:00

"Sometime you must be apart from people you love,
But that doesn’t mean you love them any less,
Sometime it even makes you love them even more"

2010-10-22T14:39:00.000+08:00

“The only person that deserves you is the one who will stick by your side no matter how much you mess up and who will forgive you, mistake after mistake”

Final Exam

2010-10-21T17:36:00.000+08:00

Final exam, just one word describes this HELL!. This whole month of final exam will be tenser than the other months before this. Lucky for me my first hell month started with LAW. Good rite? Followed by banking Operation, Malaysian Economy and Business Communication after a week. I just had to stuck here in Jengka for about a month. Stuck with no entertainment besides internet and movies, my life seems have been taken from me since I have to study for these final exam.

~Hope this month will ended well

I Give My First Love to You

2010-10-18T02:47:00.001+08:00

Last Wednesday, after all those fuckin’ assignments and test finished, I finally get myself a little break.

This movie is about Takuma, a boy who is told he will die before he’s 20, and Mayu, a girl who is in love with him… The story begins when they are little kids. Mayu, whose father is a doctor, meets Takuma, who is hospitalized in her father’s workplace. They develop feelings for each other, but Mayu learns of Takuma’s grave illness and that he will die before he turns 20. They both make one promise for an uncertain future. Time passes, and the girl becomes a young woman, and the boy, a young man.

Mayu continues to support and love Takuma. On the other hand, Takuma, who knows his days are numbered, pushes away his feelings for Mayu and distances himself from her. He cannot stand to see her cry or hurt her more than he already has. Then Mayu meets another man who has feelings for her, and Takuma meets a woman who has the same illness, and their feelings for each other begin to waver.

For the rest of this story? Watch it yourself peeps. But this movie is not a typically love story that always have the happy ending end.

Mayu quotes:

Takuma,

Living is just so sad
it’s filled with such heartbreak’s like this
but...

Takuma,

you know I don’t regret a thing that I meet you
That I felt in love with you
If I were to meet you again
Even knowing such sadness awaits me
I’d definitely
Fall in love with you again..

Not So Sweet Break.

2010-10-18T02:25:00.002+08:00

As usual study leave week. Students always take for granted including me. After half year struggle it finally reached to the end. Wow! I manage to get through this semester even it’s rough at the beginning. As usual I went back to my home with the intention to chill and have fun but unfortunately it turns out to be no so sweet break because I had to help Ery with his unfinished ETR assignments, buying some materials for his new design cocktail dress? And work as a free-of charge driver for my mom.

xoxo Sweet isn't it xoxo

Dear Heart

2010-10-05T13:14:00.000+08:00

Monday 1.25 A.M

I don't know this feeling. Being such a jerk. urgh!

They often called me fat or huge. Sometime I'm just let it passed my brain but sometimes they don't make it. They stuck in it.

It make me sick knowing that my body grew bigger every single day.

I never in this million years want it to be like this but i just can't.

My body just don't know how to resists the intrigue smell of food, the more i tried to resists the more i wanted to taste it.

Damn!

I wish i could stop this. I just tired with the tease and smirk around me,

I just want to feel what i had felt before and wearing anything without letting doubt to take control.

I really want to change this,

Now and Forever

and i know if i never start to starve myself i gonna regret it forever.

Missin' them

2010-09-19T01:11:00.002+08:00

"Missing someone gets easier every day because even though it's one day further from the last time you saw each other, it's one day closer to the next time you will."

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together? I guess that wouldn't work. Someone would leave. Someone will always leaves. Then we would have to say goodbye and I hate goodbyes. I just need more hellos.

Guys really miss all of you~

Eid 2010

2010-09-19T00:55:00.001+08:00

I guess it's too late to make an entry for this eid but i just make it anyway.
For me this eid just like a normal eid like before neither happening nor not.

On the first of Syawal my family went to my grandmother grave at Kg Jeram and headed to Sg Besar after that.
Its one hour and a half journey from my home to Sg Besar.
We just visited my mom and dad friends and relatives house. Even it seems boring, i really enjoyed that moment because eid is only once in a year rite?

Sg Besar View

Aww! Cutie~

kiddo~

On the forth of Syawal i started my move to my friends house. Because of too many house that we had to go, Im still go to their house even today. tired rite? But Freakin' AWESOME!!


~

Them :)

I guess it enough from me~

C.I.N.T.A

2010-09-12T04:00:00.002+08:00

Ya Allah,

Jika aku jatuh cinta ya Allah,

cintakan lah aku pada seseorang,

yang melabuh kan cintanya padaMu,

agar bertambah kekuatan ku untuk menyintaiMu ya Allah

Ya Muhaimin,

Jika aku jatuh hati,

izinkan lah aku menyentuh hati seseorang yang hatinya tertaut padaMu,

agar tidak jatuh dalam jurang cinta nafsu

Ya Rabbana,

Jika aku jatuh hati, jagalah hatiku,

agar tidak berpaling daripada hatiMu,

Ya Allah jika aku menikmati cinta kekasihMu,

janganlah kenikmatan itu melebihi kenikmatan indah nya

bermunajat sepertiga malam terakhirMu.

Tired

2010-09-06T01:34:00.001+08:00

I'm tired..

Of this |Lie,

Of this |Life,

With Low-Life creatures,

With a Man of words but without actions

UpdaTed

2010-09-05T11:40:00.001+08:00

Fuhh! Finally i managed to update this blog..

Got through half of this horrific semester, great!

Fever, Test , Fever and plenty assignment to be completed within a short period of time.

I'm Done!

Now it is time to take a break and enjoy Hari Raya with my beloved

Family & Friends

No more assignments, test, project for this very moment. Yeay!

-updated-

Dear Ayah

2010-07-01T04:46:00.000+08:00

I know I hate u once because u always gone when I need u the most. To get through childhood without u beside me is really hard. To be the person that is responsible for ur responsibility its not fair! I’m young at that time indeed so young to take those responsibilities and for me to see Ibu suffers without u by her side make me hated u even more. Where have you been when I need someone to sign my portfolio? Where are you when my first day at school? Where are you? Do you know how much we suffered when u are not with us. Isn't your responsibility? To Protect us.

But now things changes, U indeed have change A Lot. For us u change and for Allah u change. Thank You! I just pompous to have you now with us. And Ayah even we were poorer than before I don't care because I had u by my side guides me through this harshness of life. Even u working like slave now to raise us. U just have my words to you and Ibu that one day ur not according to plan son gonna make u PROUD. My love for you two is perpetuity and I shall take away ur burden soon. Believe me..

MY DAD MY HERO

Knight and Day

2010-06-25T02:32:00.001+08:00

Seriously this movie is AWESOME! Total KNOCKOUT MOVIE!

With the combination of The Hottest Man Alive Tom Cruise and The hottest blond chick in Hollywood Cameron Diaz what can we expect?

It’s totally hilarious + full of thrill action + Romantic

You just have to love this movie. This is fun, romantic, action movie that I have seen this far

Oh and one more! This movie gonna take u around the globe with the fascinating architecture and scenery

I never expect that Austria is full of interesting places

Perhaps one day I’ll go there, and It just a Perhaps.haha

Anyways u never gonna expect the ending because this movie is full of unexpected things.

The synopsis? Read it on Wikipedia or somewhere else peeps

Because I’m not the preeminent storyteller.

Monologue

2010-06-17T04:09:00.000+08:00

Lately, saya termenung..

merenung masa depan, mencari hala tuju hidup ini,

Mungkin hidup saya tidak lah seindah yang saya harapkan tetapi...

saya yakin bahawa ia tidaklah seburuk yang saya sangkakan..

Lagenda Budak Setan

2010-06-12T22:01:00.003+08:00

Sebuah Karya pena Ahadiat Akashah,seorang penulis novel puitis melayu. Saya bukanlah peminat novel melayu terutama novel yg berunsur "cinta & puitis". Namun apa yang dilakar ahadiat dalam penanya wajar dikagumi. Menjadi impian setiap penulis apabila novel karya mereka di filemkan. Filemnya di garap oleh pengarh terkenal Sharad sharan

Secara peribadi saya merasakan novel ini digarap baik oleh Sharad tetapi sebuah filem tidak dapat menandingi tiga buah novel. Filem ini berlatarkan percintaan Kasha dan Ayu semasa menuntut ilmu di kolej dan dikembangkan dengan beberapa konflik di sepanjang percintaan mereka. Filem ini bukanlah sebuah filem "Happy Ending". Sayangnya masa dan cara menggarap mungkin tidak cukup, sehingga saya tidak dapat menghayati secara mendalam watak-watak yg ditonjolkan.

Bagi mereka yang kurang atau tidak suka menonton filem melayu what can i say is that "Even if u think that it's not standard and so not updated or cool enuf? Huh that is ur own race trying so hard to impress the world and what do you do is nothing proud compare to them =)" shame on you!

dup! dup! dup!

2010-06-10T18:30:00.000+08:00

My heart pounding so bad rite now! urrghh!

That miserable feeling coming to me when it's time for the final examination result burst out!

Congrates to all of them having such a really-really good result!

I know u deserve it beb! =)

Its ur effort and hardwork through this horrible semester had paid!

Yes! my best friends got DL!

REALLY proud for both of u!

me? i'm slightly afraid becoz student portal stuck!

ChiLL =)

2010-05-28T07:50:00.001+08:00

Day : Wednesday

Venue : JUSCO Bukit Tinggi

Date : 26 May 2010

Person Involve : Me, Ery, Hafiz

Activities : Movies, Pizza, Shopping

Nightmare On Elm Street

Reviews : Not Bad, since this movie is a parody and it's an repetition of an old version of this movie with a slight of "modern" touch to it. The plot is still the same but for me the "old" version of this film is more freakin' scary than this movie!

After serial off scream inside the screen, we decided to shopping. Hafiz shopping like there is no tomorrow! Seriously me and Ery are pretty damn tired try to catch up with him. Done with shopping, and we heading to Pizza yeah!

After "makan-makan" time, i just want to go back home and take a good rest because i juz freakin exhausted! I sleep at 9.00 pm and woke up at 12.00 a.m and asking my mom " Ibu dah pagi ke?" and my mom said "pagi kepala hotak ko!".

~~p/s: I really love the "Freddy song"~~

1,2, Freddy's coming for you

3,4 you better lock your door
5,6 grab your crucifix
7,8, stay up late
9, 10, never sleep again

Hey yoU~

2010-05-26T04:45:00.002+08:00

Friendship

Dear MidNitE

2010-05-26T04:34:00.004+08:00

Its midnight and
my eyes just staring at the wall opposite
no sleep, no dreams, i sit and
watch the drama unfolding before me

Like an empty canvas waiting for an artist
i wait in anticipation wondering
when and wondering why
I did all i could, so i believe so,
what is happening is beyond my grasp and
i can only watch as a mere spectator

A mere spectator in my own life
one moment its all the way up,
the next its hanging in balance,
the tension is nerve wracking

Patience is all i have and
patience is all that i need as i watch the things unfold
and let things take shape at its own pace
i waited a long time for this,
so what difference it is going to make to wait a little bit more
but for how long should i be the villain in my own life
i wish i could answer all the questions running in my mind,
i wish i could end all the battles being fought inside,
i wish i do not have to wait for long i wish,
i hope and i believe (maybe) tomorrow will be better than today