A Little Insane

For Tomorrow and Beyond

2007-07-31T20:14:00.000-07:00

Within the madness of the days,
Something to look forward to.
Even if its just a tender hope,
I can hear it in a sweet voice.

The troubles of yesterday defines,
What may be to what may not be.
The person moulded for tomorrow
Corrupted yet polished!

For tomorrow and beyond.
Your honour Silent and Loud.

Let not be taken for a ride,
Often been told over and over.
Yet kindness wishes to see,
Only the good in others.

Fires will burn and leave scars,
Love will end and leave memories,
Fear will seize and leave stories,
Honour will rise and fall only with you.

For tomorrow and beyond.
Your honour Silent and Loud.

In the many paths to one truth,
Honour will value the most.
No gold, no diamonds nor loved ones,
Compare to the beauty and flair of honour.

As memories fade and faces around change,
know that you will be remembered.
Even if its in a little silent prayer,
Never a tear to wash away the pride.

For tomorrow and beyond.
Your honour Silent and Loud.

Spring Affairs

2007-05-04T16:57:00.000-07:00

This spring weekend,
As the fragrance of Romance & Passion fill the day,
Its time for the affairs of the heart to be renewed;
The whispers in the air all around you,
Are my words of love to you!

Am I to be the one..?

2007-04-19T00:28:00.000-07:00

Am I to be the one..? To hold you in arms
To grow and to wither ,
In the storms we are to face,
And the smiles we are to share.

In this world where hate prevails,
When a person rarely finds his other;
I found you among the many thorns,
My rose, my wondrous source of lust

My mischievous sweetheart,
I bow my head down to your love.
My eyes behold your face,
The teasing words reveal your truth inside.

I stand here just a picture,
I forget your oppressions;
Looking at your ecstatic eyes,
I see only your radiant love.

The affairs of passion adjust,
When consciousness meets unconsciousness
Like every person knows when he meets his other
I now know my heart has met it's match.

My eyes crave for you alone,
Still I ponder, Am I to be the one..?
The one who isn't found despite finding,
To be the one lost to into the wilderness beyond.

Dancing Girl

2007-02-24T10:26:00.000-08:00

Hours past midnight and still looking into her eyes,
Moving to the beats with her arms between mine,
When suddenly interrupted by the dawn of day.

Life took over with a single ray,
Memories of the dancing girl,
The night faded away like tequila shots.

Guitar strings stop in haste,
Dancing shoes slow down their pace,
The keyboards here no longer play my tune.

I wait in thirst for the spark of night,
To dance again with my love,
An addiction so fond for me to lose.

Limited Dreams

2006-12-19T09:29:00.000-08:00

Temptations, these temporary limitations,
An elevation of my many dissolutions,
In a mind with a life in own,
A dream so far away from reality

Words collide - Passions fly

Logics collide - science overtakes

Visions collide - Art engulfs

Love collides - hate outshines

Wicked or weird the callings of the dark,
Fallen or risen from our unknown maker,
A life to live if not but a dream,
Heaven and earth but all the same.

For Those Untamed

2006-11-15T22:26:00.000-08:00

Love holds no pleasure for those untamed,
It’s a parasite, spreading disease and hungry to kill.
Love, Spreading filth in a beautiful world,
Truly inspired and defined by unfeigned lust.

Fear holds no grounds for those untamed,
Their fury burns any spirit that may rise.
Fear, Liberating those very hopelessly lost souls,
Disguised and living in search of love.

Faith holds no purpose for those untamed,
And luck is for those frightfully ignorant.
Faith, Too confused to know evil from good,
Wandering night and day, among the breathing dead.

To The Nights

2006-10-21T10:56:00.000-07:00

Tonight to tomorrow, every night, sundown to sunrise;
Celebrate life...in all its form, in all its name.
There is no tomorrow if there is not a today,
And nothing is gonna stay the same as yesterday.
This Life is all you got, to call to your own; so live..
Live tonight to tomorrow, every night; sundown to sunrise.
Call the days with its names; the nights are all the same,
There is nothing more certain than tonight before another tomorrow.

Doors

2006-10-16T01:31:00.000-07:00

All around in circles and squares,
In every laughter, in every pain,
These battered souls search for their doors,
With the unmarked key, in search of their homes.

Home is not anywhere they hang their hats,
It may not even be through the door up the stairs,
The hollow key they hold, shows no map, no signs,
Nor do their minds in this comic suspense.

So excluded from their waiting nest,
They seek pleasure in flesh and sweat,
Drowning away their emotions one by one,
In a web of illusions they call out their truth.

Tangled with riddles of love,
Lust, fear, pleasure and all they call life,
Forgetting their search, forgetting the doors,
That take them back to their homes.

Knowing not any longer one from the other,
Blinded by the lights of life,
These ghosts run in circles and square,
Forgetting to look beyond themselves.

A Shadow to Love

2006-07-31T21:22:00.000-07:00

Feels like I have been out here forever,
Awake all day and all night,
Drifting with the voices in my head,
Knowing not if today is a dream or reality.

I value lesser this new world around me ,
Its words, Its ways, Its desires,
A crypt holding dear my insanity,
Untouched by the madness surrounding me.

Beaten down by the routine of days,
Dreams mount higher than clouds high above,
Somewhere ahead into the light,
I look for the darkness to clear my eyes.

I forget how it felt to be loved,
As I give away move than this world demands,
I fade slowly into the brightness all around,
With not a shadow near to hold my name.

In All Dreams to Come

2006-07-08T00:55:00.000-07:00

I preach tonight, like the many before me;
Without a candle to see my face,
With only one message to be told:
‘Silence! my fellow beings,
Is in all your dreams to come'.

The nights speaks lesser tonight,
Of the lessons forgotten so very soon,
The heads turn away and the smiles grow slim,
Words of passion, Words of honor, words in all,
Heard less strong in a weakening dream.

The good times; always another reach away,
Enough no longer an option,
As whispers fill shadows with expectations,
Entertained by desires once condemned,
Unfolding into a final disappointment.

The nights to go, the dreams to stay,
Count not up, count not down,
For nobody is sane, it’s been told:
‘Silence! my fellow beings,
Is in all your dreams to come'.

Distant Thoughts

2006-06-04T10:19:00.000-07:00

Staring into the hill tops far ahead,
She sat, reticent, on the leather seat.
While the traffic in the background buzzed on,
She shifted in hope to a more comfortable position.
As time stood still in conscience,
Her thoughts refused to wane.

In a slow relaxed motion, she reached out,
Held my hands in a gentle grasp.
“Ti voglio bene" She mumbled in her accented Italian,
Then receded back into her deep thoughts.
Even the loud music glaring from the car stereo,
Now seemed distant as those hill tops up ahead.

Her trance broke, trying to focus, she forced a smile,
Her beauty unparallel, that innocence said all.
I forced my eyes back onto the road,
The road up ahead now looked very different.
Headed for our separate destinations somewhere far away,
Silence spread around, in our minds into our thoughts.

Inevitable

2006-05-31T17:00:00.000-07:00

I'm tempted to take this plunge,
Could be my most spectacular failure yet.
This was not by any given choice,
Nobody really chooses who they fall in love with.

I'll bet my everything on a single possibility,
If she loves me, she will say she does.
It's hard to determine what emotions are valid,
How they're justified or when they're just mistakes.

One bad decision inevitably leads to another,
Yet one good one rarely to another.
I search for words to fill the emotions,
I wait for her love to share my feelings.

A Song For The Unknowns

2006-04-11T01:39:00.000-07:00

In the witching hour when only the devil listens,
I think of you and I think of me.
My thoughts splitting the amazing wave,
Racing and riding the coming darkness.

It's been long since it happened last,
Indulgence into my body and mind.
As others detach from everything around,
I unite into the surroundings hidden.

Reminding myself not to forget the questions,
Looking out for what I am to correct?
Knowing well there is nothing here,
But the thoughts hidden in others minds.

Into midnight as sanity sleeps,
Ask aloud for my madness and I shall show,
Mystical and deep, you'll be touched,
Sometimes I call it wisdom..Sometimes poetry.

Tonight as rhythm sleeps,
I shall sing in praise of all the unknowns,
Behind the shadows and in the light,
Calling it a song riddled in fear.

Reality

2006-04-05T10:23:00.000-07:00

Reality , such a myth
Hidden deep within realms,
Open to minds of only the insane.

Everything told and everything to be told,
Everything held and everything to be held,
Makes no dent on this hidden myth.

Such cruelty, in the name of reality,
A false sense of security,
A broken sense of existence.

Real to none but its own reality,
Living up to its own myth,
Its stands like truth yet to be understood.

Beginnings

2006-03-29T02:43:00.000-08:00

Memories of the many beginnings,
Some we remember, some we don't.

With all the old vanishing angles,
New circles and new functions arise,
Waiting for none , not even the one.

New boundaries to many questions,
Going on and on like a storm,
Breaking all that seemed clear.

No signs of decline,
In your head, nor in mine.
So then what's to fear?

New beginnings are here to hold
Some we remember, some we won't.

Tilted

2006-03-25T00:04:00.000-08:00

I sit on my chair,
My head tilted to the left,
Opening my eyes to the light.

Hanging on to whats seen right,
I ponder about everything,
Through the eyes of everyone,
I have met in the past months.

I dont understand their words.
I dont understand their hurdles.
I dont understand their feelings.
I dont understand their truth.

Yet somewhere in my future,
Is an answer I hope to understand.
The time beats faster than my heart,
Here I wait to hold my chance .

Still on my chair,
My head tilted to the left.
Shutting my eyes to the light.

Moments

2006-01-26T10:29:00.000-08:00

Moments of confusion, in and around,
Stacked up higher and higher, above the other,
All came rolling down, in one little tear drop,
As her voice broke with a pinch of sorrow.

Still trying to find her own stand,
Abstract to all those things combined,
Her intentions, her emotions, her memories ,
Wishing against those morning, waking all alone.

Perceptions of my human mind,
Those from her words spoken in such trust,
Some strange feelings, some others even stranger,
Left me holding her on closer than ever.

Strokes

2006-01-04T10:51:00.000-08:00

I am plagued with the unknown
Living and breathing, waiting for reality,
To magically appear, from under my nose,
And set aside a fear, that’s only in my head.

Limited by the stroke of my thoughts
I write these words in paragraphs,
Beginning, middle and end,
Already set deep in my mind.

I'll move to breaking down the scenes,
Those that are crucial, for my preaching insanity,
Going back through to connect the dots,
Only to abandon it, thirty words into my story.

Nothing said, nothing to be said,
This is my new plan,
Thus far, it is not working,
But all is well here, this is another year.

strokes

Wilder Days

2005-12-20T21:55:00.000-08:00

Childish in my wilder days,
I had wished for this ghost girl,
Who walked down my school hall,
Haunting my every day since.

The ghost that I knew,
Who never answered my thoughts,
I wondered if she was always wishing,
A way to find her a ghost boy.

Never did I know,
In the many years in between,
It was I who haunted her there,
With my boyish arrogance.

She went away without a whisper,
Leaving me looking inside a portal,
Wondering what it would have been like,
Had I been the ghost boy she desired.

Defeated by this beautiful ghost ,
I ran alone the miles and miles ahead,
Counting those memories never made,
Molding myself into the man today.

wilder days

To Be More Than Whats To Be

2005-12-13T10:48:00.000-08:00

Today, I am what you see
Tomorrow, I am what I dream.
My stream, My being.
Yesterday to today,
On my way to tomorrow.
I am to be a better form,
To be more than whats to be.

In this enterprise of my own,
The emotions that I learn.
My rules, My destiny.
Superior to one,
Inferior to none
I am to be a better form,
To be more than whats to be.

Unspoken Tunes

2005-12-08T17:41:00.000-08:00

Memories faint struggling to surface,
In all its turns, insane tunes,
Wondering if it will ever be heard,
In a voice I wish to be yours.

Your name is back in the air,
All around me and in my head,
The unspoken tunes from my youth,
Ringing with that certain grace.

A soft silence in my reality,
Hidden feelings of unspoken times,
My hands drumming away words,
Never to be written , Never to be heard.

Fallen

2005-11-28T06:48:00.000-08:00

As I sit here now,
I can smell your fragrance,
In the air behind me.
I search for those perfect words,
And the strength to say them aloud.

I threw down your love once,
It fell hard, as would anything else,
Disfiguring and disappearing,
I walked away on a foggy night,
As the winds changed tones.

I never thought I could leave you,
justified it I try with many a crazy reasons,
Yet on that rainy night when insanity struck,
I rode off into the night, into my darkness,
Deaf to the many voices in my head.

I remember you always teasing:
My eyes spoke the truth,
On those little times they ever spoke.
I can feel your innocent touch,
As I sit here falling deeper into my ignorance.

The words I then spoke aloud:

Walk away from me before I turn,
Save our love and all that you trust,
Let it remain as pure as it be,
Your love that I once misplaced,
Don’t push it down for another fall.

Forgive me if you must,
For I deserve a repute not such,
Your love that breeze so strong,
Has a place forever in my life,
Don’t push it down for another fall.

Silent Melody

2005-11-10T22:37:00.000-08:00

On a rainy night, with silent melody,
I, shatter like glass,
Into a million glitters,
Spreading sparks into the dim sky.

Rain beat them down,
Taking me closer into the ground.

At this hinge of my unity,
I seek separation;
Of the mind,
From the bonds of my body.
Of the silence,
From the depth of my dreams.

Rising like a cloud, with silent melody,
I, to the sands above the sky,
Closer to that midnight sun,
Away from good and evil.

Rise to my place hidden,
Beyond the holds of sanity.

At this hinge of my insanity,
I seek union;
Of the thought,
To the signs of my soul.
Of the faith,
To the depth of my knowledge.

A Picture Within

2005-11-03T22:34:00.000-08:00

Holding on to that treasure,
As your eyes hit upon mine,
The beauty this picture holds,
I wish so to behold.

Your words that are held back,
Those that i wish to sound,
Breaking free from within
Spreading love into my name

That fury your eyes seek,
Cutting deep into my mind,
To witness such insanity,
In a picture unreal to hold.

If those thoughts so seek,
Spread your lips into a smile,
Breaking free from within
Spreading love into my name.

So Unforgetful

2005-10-18T13:25:00.000-07:00

Sweetness on earth,
My rarest sight no more,
Your presence as pleasure grows,
In all my seven rhymes,
Never a touch so virtuous,
So unforgetful to my senses.

Your words, these words,
Worlds not mere words,
Parading mystery riddled in love,
Pleasant words that burn,
Brighter than your beaming smile,
So unforgetful to my senses.

Only delight to the perfect mind,
Flavored with modesty and benignant grace,
Affection with a tint of fear,
In an earth burdened by your beauty,
My arms proud to hold in yours,
So unforgetful to my senses.

Towards a future beyond today,
Of the many paths unseen to my eye,
As darkness awaits the failing light,
I stop to reflect my wealth,
The love beaming through your eyes,
So unforgetful to my senses.