10 things I'm grateful for

2-14-18 grateful for today

2018-02-14T03:51:00.000-08:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful little car
3. Morning routine
4. Comfy sweatshirts
5. Cold weather
6. Unconditional Love
7. Moon
8. Trees, especially Oaks
9. Being okay with myself
10. Music

I will go through my day today knowing I am blessed and God is devoted to me.

2-13-18 grateful for today

2018-02-13T04:09:00.000-08:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car
3. Trees
4. Unconditional Love
5. Understanding
6. Music
7. Candles
8. Light
9. Moving
10. Freedom to change my mind.

I started up a new morning routine and wanted to do a gratitude list. Not so much publish it for everybody. I didn't know where to put it, and since this is already established, I started putting it here again.

2-12-2018 Grateful today

2018-02-12T03:50:00.000-08:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car
3. The house I am moving into
4. My work and co-workers (and dogs brought into the office)
5. Music
6. Spirituality
7. Unconditional Love
8. Trees
9. Rain

7-29-17 grateful for today

2017-07-29T16:19:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful little car
3. Kayaking in the morning
4. OA meeting
5. Mastermind
6. Love
7. Sleep
8. Rain
9. Trees
10. Air Conditioning

I'm ready for fall. I am not a summer heat person. Give me the cool weather where I can comfortably wear a sweatshirt and long pants on a long hike. Let all the bugs and creepy crawlies go back into hibernation, especially the mosquitos and the rather large spider in my breezeway. I want the leaves to fall off the trees so I can see a long way into the forest. I want to go camping in the cool weather with a nice fire. Love and Light.

7-27-17 grateful for today

2017-07-27T04:48:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful little car
3. Music
4. Crying
5. My job
6. Clothes
7. Trees
8. Friends
9. Love
10. Rain

There, I've made a list. I put 10 things on it. Now I'll try to feel grateful for them. Love and Light.

7-25-2017 grateful for today

2017-07-25T03:43:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful car
3. Rain
4. My job
5. My apartment
6. Paper and pencils and color
7. Trees
8. Music
9. Beautiful photos and art
10. Air conditioning

I want fall to get here fast and last a long time. Fall is my favorite. Summer is my least favorite. Most of my friends who love the summertime do not understand my seasonal depression. Most people don't. The majority of this culture understands those who get depressed in wintertime, that's what they think seasonal depression is. Myself, it is the summer and the heat and the brightness. I revel in thunderstormy days and retreat into my air conditioned cave when that yellow ball of fire is scorching everything outside. I'm ready for fall. Love and Light

7-21-17 grateful for today

2017-07-21T02:44:00.002-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful car
3. Co-workers who strive to do a good job
4. Trees
5. Music
6. Sleep
7. Kleenex
8. Air Conditioning
9. Paper and pencils
10. Love

There you go. 10 things. The first two always come easy as they are the only ones in my head. I had to think hard for the rest. Love and Light.

7-20-17 grateful for today

2017-07-20T08:20:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My wonderful little car
3. Music
4. Friends
5. Trees
6. Shelter
7. Means to pay all my bills
8. Air Conditioning
9. Moon
10. Ability to walk and talk

It is my goal to start this up again and continue with it diligently everyday. Today it took me a while to think of 10 things. I've been struggling for meaning.

Love and Light.

1-28-16 grateful for today

2016-01-28T04:43:00.001-08:00

1. My car running well
2. Having an income, shelter, and food
3. Music
4. Cold weather, cloudy rainy
5. Sleeping well last night
6. My arms and legs and brain working well
7. Loving caring friends
8. Trees, oaks, maples, birches . . .
9. Pens, paper, writing
10. My new puppy

Notice the theme of this list? Most of the list are the very basic necessities for me to survive. I had a hard time coming up with anything else to be grateful for. Also, if you have been reading my other posts, every single one of my previous posts started with number one being "My Adorable Dog". Well, that adorable dog died in April of 2015. I could say that that is why there was a big gap and I did not do this list for so long, that would be a lie. I got out of the habit of this list being daily a long time ago, before my dog passed. I wouldn't say I was in a full-blown depression, but I was headed that way. Now? I don't know, I probably am in a full-blown depression. This list is one tool to pull myself out. We'll see. Love and Light.

2-17-15 grateful for today

2015-02-18T05:55:00.002-08:00

1. My adorable dog
2. Cold weather
3. Quiet morning
4. My car running well
5. Warm blankets
6. My Light within
7. The Light
8. Love
9. Naps
10. Working from home.

It took me all day to come up with those 10 things. I need to do this more. Love and Light

2-13-2015 grateful for today

2015-02-13T08:04:00.000-08:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Soul retrieval
4. Music/Chanting
5. Sleeping well
6. Cold weather
7. Heating pad
8. My apartment
9. Unconditional Love
10. The Light.

I don't have much to say today. I'm working from home now and I miss interacting with people. Love and Light.

2-1-2015 Grateful for today

2015-02-01T15:38:00.001-08:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Spot Bot cleaner
4. Unconditional Love
5. Meeting
6. Music and Chanting
7. Washer Dryer in the apartment
8. Cold Weather
9. Warm Jackets
10. The Light

I was thinking the other day about halos, and auras. In old paintings and mosaics, the halo is depicted as a disc vertically behind the head, shining out, like light. When did the halo become a golden ring floating horizontally above the head? It never looked right to me, even as a kid in cartoons. I would ask what it was in the cartoon and my grandmother would tell me its a halo, and show me and old picture where it was the vertical disk. The two were not the same and I puzzled in silence. Now I believe that halo is really aura, that when one shines their Light given to them by Spirit, people can see that shining aura around them, maybe back then it's a different word for aura. The floating golden right above the head seems more materialistic than Spiritual. Love and Light.

8-25-14 grateful for today

2014-08-25T05:16:00.002-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Sleeping well
4. Choices and responsibility
5. Friends
6. Unconditional Love
7. Freedom
8. The Light
9. Breathing
10. Cool mornings.

I am ready for fall. There are some weird bugs that come out toward the end of summer here in Georgia. And after 20 years in South Florida, I am ready for fall to arrive. I did not want to go through summer again. And I realize that I had been allowing the weather to affect me. The familiar depression I was feeling in Florida has come up in me, not wanting to go outside in the sweltering heat, dreading the hot car (so I just won't go to the grocery store or the bank), not wanting to take the dog for long walks. My dog and I have not been on a hike since Memorial Day and I haven't even taken him for a long walk around the neighborhood. Not only is it hot and sticky, I also seem to walk through fine spider webs wherever I go. . . . . so, this does not sound like being grateful at all. This sounds like a whiney rant. And it is NOT the weather causing this. It is my own decision to not see the gorgeous blue sky, to enjoy the beautiful cool breeze this morning and last night, to enjoy the thunderstorms and rain. I am always my choice. Love and Light.

8-23-14 grateful for today

2014-08-23T07:56:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Saturday! (and air conditioning)
4. Endless possibilities in every moment
5. Choices and responsibilities
6. Unconditional Love
7. Sleeping and resting
9. Books and imagination
10. The Light

There is a part of me that sabotages my own wants and needs. I used to fight against this part. Try to get take care of my wants and needs faster than that "other me" could sabotage them. I tried to ignore and deny that that "other me" existed. Neither of these tactics worked and the end result (regardless if everything was neat and tidy in my life or if my life was in shambles), the end result was me being depressed, hating myself and beating myself up. I have learned that this is not an "other me" it is not a part that is "outside of myself" no matter how much I try to put that part there. This is a part within me. A part that decided a long time ago that my own needs and wants were not important. A part that behaved in a way to make sure that my needs and wants were not fulfilled. A part that knew at the time in my life as a small child making that decision, it was the best way for me to survive. Now, as an adult, that decision no longer serves me and that part of me is now sabotaging my health and wellbeing. I now have much compassion and love for that part within myself. I, as an adult, am now able to care about and make important my want and needs for that part of me that is unable to do so. I am now able to love unconditionally for that part of me that is unable to love. I flow my love to and through that sabotaging part, showing that part of me, showing within me and teaching myself what unconditional love is. Teaching myself what making my needs and wants important feels like. Love and Light.

7-14-14 grateful for today

2014-07-14T05:20:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Working with wonderful people
4. Choices and responsibilities
5. The Trees, the Standing Nation
6. The Light
7. Family and friends
8. Connection
9. Unconditional Love
10. Music

I had difficulty coming up with 10 this morning. And I'm in a very good mood which is strange. Usually my difficulty comes from being in a dark place, and not so today. I slept really well. Woke up happy and content to start the day. I am fitting in well at my new job. Today, things change around for me at work. I had been covering for an admin on vacation, and now she is back and will take back all the responsibilities I had been doing, so I will be learning new stuff this week. Love and Light.

7-7-14 grateful for today

2014-07-07T15:34:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. My new job
4. Trees and hills and mountains
5. Music
6. Love and Light
7. Myths and stories
8. Animals
9. Breezes
10. Getting cool at night

I'm not sure what I want to talk about today. I want to get more in the habit of putting this blog out every day and right now at 6:30 pm, I'm a bit comfuddled. Yes, I made up that word (although, I have a sneaky suspicion that I've heard my Mom say it). Basically, I have lots I want to get done. Somethings I need to get done. I'm trying to get back to a routine and a schedule so that all my needs are taken care of. So, knowing and deciding what to work on next, and then feeling tired from a full day of work. All I can say is that I'm alive. I'm here. What I choose to do next is what will happen. Love and Light.

7-3-14 grateful for today

2014-07-03T05:20:00.002-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Friends and Family
4. Trees (especially oak)
5. The Light
6. Unconditional Love
7. Being of service
8. Endless possibilities in every moment
9. Choices and Responsibility
10. This Beautiful Day

Thank you for this moment in time. Thank you for now. Thank you for all my emotions and all of life. I enjoy being of service. I enjoy being an administrative assistant and helping others accomplish their dream for their business. That's an interesting statement I just wrote. I enjoy being around others whose values align with mine. Love and Light.

6-25-14 grateful for today

2014-06-25T05:27:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. Honesty and Integrity
3. My car running well
4. My new job
5. Friends and Family
6. Unconditional Love
7. Choices and responsibility
8. The Light
9. Trees
10. Being of service

I like my new job very much. There is a good energy with the people there and an openness and honesty. I feel I bring expertise in computer applications that they need right now. I feel there is growth with this company. I am grateful for the time I had off between jobs. This feels like I fit well. Love and Light.

6-23-14 grateful for today

2014-06-23T05:52:00.000-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Starting a new job today with wonderful people
4. The Light in everything
5. Trees
6. Beautiful day
7. Sleeping well
8. Choices and responsibility
9. Unconditional Love
10. Being of service.

I start a new job today. I am excited as I am working with wonderful people. I need to keep myself grounded to the earth and centered and open. I am safe and relaxed. This is exactly where I need to be. I am looking forward to stability and also being of service and bringing my talents to this company and to these people. I am shining my Light to grow with the company and it is my intention to enjoy working with these people in a long-lasting relationship to my retirement. This is part of my balance. This stable job and routine with loving respectful people. And my sacred home-life pursuing my variety of interests. Love and Light.

6-17-14 grateful for today

2014-06-17T10:57:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. Beautiful day
3. Trees and hills and mountains
4. Unconditional Love
5. The Light
6. Friends and Family
7. Drumming
8. Music
9. Silence
10. Sleeping

Love and Light to everybody. I had a good interview today. I really liked the person I interviewed with and loved that he had a vision of the culture of his company. Not just what he wanted to get done, but that culture of respect and integrity and caring. It doesn't matter what I'm doing, it matters who the people I'm working with are and the values that they have. Love and Light.

6-16-14 grateful for today

2014-06-16T08:53:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog.
2. My car running well
3. Sleeping
4. Choices and responsibility
5. Music
6. Writing, pens, paper, crayons
7. Unconditional Love
8. The Light
9. Trees
10. Parks and camping

I almost had an interview this morning. I had the appointment set up with the temp agency recruiter since last week. I found the office (it was hard to find tucked back behind a building with no sign on the door) with still time to spare and waited. . . and waited . . . and waited. The door was locked and no sign of anybody in the office. I waited. I called the recruiter and found out she set the appointment and never got a confirmation back from the office. They didn't know I was coming that day. My interview is now tomorrow. I tried to stay calm, to stay grounded and in my heart. Nervousness and fear kept coming up for me. Now, I'm tired. I'm having trouble keeping my eyes open. Love and Light.

6-14-14 grateful for today

2014-06-15T13:32:00.002-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. Beautiful day
3. Quaker Meeting
4. Unconditional Love
5. My car running well
6. My apartment
7. Abundance
8. The Light
9. Music
10. Sleeping

Am I my authentic self? I was pondering a time in my past where I felt my most authentic self. There was a time in my life where I was laid off of my job and I had enough money where I didn't need to get another job for 2 years. I loved that time in my life. I camped all the way to Denver. I wrote a book. I loved it. Was that me being authentic? Did my authenticity come out because I didn't have that "society created" need to get a job to pay bills? Bills that are created by the society we live in? Or was a I just having a good time? Now is the present and I'm wondering what is my authentic self? Being of service? Living off the grid? Writing? Camping? From this post it looks like I'm full of questions about myself. Know thyself. Love and Light.

6-13-14 grateful for today

2014-06-13T07:47:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. My car running well
3. Setting up an interview for Monday
4. The Sun and Trees (especially Oaks)
5. Full Moon tonight
6. To be of service
7. Family and Friends
8. Unconditional Love
9. Choices and responsibility
10. The Light

I'm working on getting myself into a routine. Something where I touch on every category that is important to me every day. My categories are Sacred Space, My Dog, Personal Growth, Be of Service to Others, Self Care, Friends and Family, My Creative Projects, and Physical Exercise. I have other categories that are important because they are necessities. These are here (I believe) just because of the society and culture that I live in and not necessarily things I would have on my list by my choice: Material World (this is stuff like shopping, filing taxes, banking), and Job (currently I'm looking for a job. I look at this now and see that these categories that aren't so important to me emotionally, but are needs, are all about money. Money and money transactions are not important to me and are necessary to survive in our culture. I believe I have my priorities in a healthy order. Love and Light.

6-9-14 grateful for today

2014-06-09T10:49:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. Chanting
3. Music
4. Choices and responsibility
5. My car running well
6. Endless possibilities in every moment
7. Guidance
8. A good book
9. Creativity
10. The Light.

I applied for a few more jobs today. Not sure what is going to unfold in my life. I trust in the flow of life. I need to be in it, engaged in my life for it to flow. I need to be fully open. I realized how I had put a wall around my heart and that collapsed all my energies close in to me. That is too much pressure, weight of all my energy being so close. I need to open and spread my energies and my life will become lighter. Love and Light.

6-7-14 grateful for today

2014-06-07T15:07:00.001-07:00

1. My adorable dog
2. A beautiful day
3. Choices and responsibility
4. Completing chores
5. Unconditional Love
6. Trees and more trees
7. National Trails Day
8. Being me
9. Honoring all of my emotions
10. The Light.

I know I've proven it to myself before, and yet I am always amazed that doing the cleaning and projects of hanging up pictures, and other chores around the house, I'm amazed they take less time than watching one hour of TV. And again, doing things on the computer, like job hunting, writing this blog, finding information on trails to hike, take so much longer than I expect.

I am committed to stay on track with my feet under me. Love and Light.