I bet you are happy now, playing around with your friends in a beautiful place with a lots of greenies. It’s been 100 days without you here and I miss you every single day. I can smile and laugh now, I’m letting you go, because I know you are in a better place, aren’t you proud of me, Bao? I also learn to eat carrots, your favorite food, coz it reminds me of you. It’s amazing what you can do to me, my little girl.

There are days when I still cry over you, but don’t worry Bao, believe me, I’ll be okay. I can always find the strength from the memories we made.

I’ll see you again Xiao Bao Bao!

As an internet marketer, my passion is about making money online (MMO), even though I already make money online, I know that I can do much better than this. Currently, I’m having a project to promote Amazon Affiliate Products and I realized from the very start it’s not going to be easy converting my traffics into sales, even if it happened, the commission would be very low since I sell physical products. My plan is to create content as many as I can for straight 6 months (starting Jan 2010) and tweaking on page and off page SEO for good SERP. I also spend my time to read what’s new in internet marketing related forums, apply new tricks from other people experiences, review IM tools that could possibly make my work easier, etc. But apparently reading other people success stories distract me from doing what I had planned ahead :D, every one method is like saying “This is the next big thing”, if I could do it, so can you. They all look simpler and easier compared to what I’m doing now. Well, fortunately, I can put my mind back to focus on my own blue print, I always remind myself that all those “The Next Big Thing” internet marketers are mostly trying to sell their products, that’s how they make money online … by selling MMO methods/products. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t against internet marketers who sell MMO products, there are a lot of real gurus out there who know exactly how to make money online in various niches even long before they sell MMO products to genuinely help others.

Maybe I should just stop reading other people experiences for awhile, to avoid the unnecessary distraction from my head and keep focus to my current plan as scheduled.

“Get your priorities straight. You don’t have to make decision of what you’re gonna do, you already made decision ahead of time. Because passion and emotion, in the moment, is always gonna give you the wrong answer. So you do the map ahead of time, it’s not an issue in the moment” — Will Smith

Anyway, people often ask me “so, what do you do for living?” my answer is “I’m an internet marketer”, and most all of the time they would reply “huh? what is that?”. At this point, I get confused how to explain it to them, especially when they don’t even know about internet or website. Yes, these people do exist, minority, but they exist. Most of the time, it would be easier for me just to answer them “I’m a web designer, I create websites”.

Some people who know a thing or two about internet would continue their question to “How do you make money from the internet?”. Again, this is a very generic and broad question, because there are so many ways to earn money from the internet, but the first thing is, you need to have a website. In this post, I will write a list of program that I’ve joined and earned money from:

1. Google Adsense
I add google adsense code in my websites, and every time a visitor clicks the relevant ad from Google, I get paid.

2. TribalFusion Network
TribalFusion is paid per impression network, which mean for every 1000 impressions, they will pay me some money.

3. Selling Ad Space
I do sell ad space directly to advertisers

4. InfoLinks
Almost like adsense, but InfoLinks is inline text advertising.

5. LinkWorth
This is a place where you can buy/sell link space.

6. Product Reviews
If you have high traffic websites, people will pay you to review their products and post it on your website. Some even let you have the product after reviewing.

7. Amazon, CJ, ShareASale
These are affiliate programs that I’m studying and practicing at the moment, I prefer to sell physical affiliate products because I just feel weird about the idea of selling digital products, products that you can’t touch or feel after making a payment. But I might want to look closer into the art of selling digital products one day, I want to see my potential in selling these non-physical products.

8. Online Stores
Although I don’t like dealing with stocks, shipping, and customer services, I have to admit that I’m curious with my skill to run an online store, it’s like giving a challenge to myself, can I do it? can I do it? That’s why I built an online store back in 2009 to sell Victoria’s Secret products, imported from U.S.A and the second one in 2010, I sell kid’s clothes. I do make money from the first store, but for the second one, it’s still brand new, but I hope to see good progress in a few weeks ahead.

I accept that you’re gone, otherwise I wouldn’t be in such pain. I try to dedicate myself to my work, doing everything I can to the best of my ability, for you Bao, to honor your memories. Even though you’re not here, I’m sure you would want me to move on. I’m still grieving for you, you are worth every tears and pain, and this is my way to move forward. This kind of wound takes time to heal. I promise you, I’ll make it through … someday. You left a mark in my heart, I want to keep it to remind me that I felt at my best when I was with you. I have faith, this is not good bye, when it’s time, I know, I’ll see you again.

You were born as a dog, but you died as a best friend, a partner, and a special family member.

I can still remember vividly the day I saw you. You looked really cute with that beautiful eyes, charming smile, and tufted hair. At that moment, I fell in love with you instantly, did you know that Bao?. I thought that I’d make you happy, I’d teach you cool things to do, little did I know. It was you who taught me a lot of things and I thank you for that.

Thank you for teaching me how to love unconditional.
Thank you for teaching me the meaning of loyalty.
Thank you for teaching me “no matter what you do, I won’t get mad”.
Thank you for teaching me how to stay happy no matter what.
Thank you for teaching me how to have fun.
Thank you for waiting for me while I work at night.
Thank you for licking my face to wake me up in the morning.
Thank you for jogging with me in the morning.
Thank you for sitting nicely while waiting for me to read a newspaper
Thank you for the free kiss.
Thank you for hugging me at night.
Thank you for loving me with every beat of your heart…
I hope you know that I love you with every fiber in my body and every beat of my heart too.

“She was my friend, my partner, my defender, my dog. I was her life, her love, her leader. She was mine, faithful and true, to the last beat of her heart. I owe it to her to be worthy of such devotion.”

Letting you go was the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do. It broke my heart into million little pieces and I don’t know how to put all those pieces back together. I screamed to God I would give 10 years of my life for you. Every inch of my body is screaming in agony. At night, every time I breathe, it’s like there’s someone squeeze my heart, knowing that I won’t be able to breathe the same air that you breathe anymore, knowing that I won’t be able to give you a good night kiss, knowing I won’t be able to hear you breathe next to me…

I don’t know how can I go through the day knowing you won’t be here next to me. Knowing you won’t welcome me home, it brings tears to my eyes. I don’t know how to live in the world without you in it. But I don’t want you to feel my pain Bao, you should go on…

Do you still remember when I asked you “Are you a secret agent Bao?” with one raised eyebrow, I looked at you suspiciously, and you just laugh at me with those beautiful eyes and licked my face. You were a secret agent that God sent to my family. I must have done something right to deserve this bless. Do you still remember the song I used to sing for you at night Bao? When there were just the two of us, and I held you in my arm. It’s a beautiful song, perfectly describe how I feel about you. I’m not the best singer, but I hope you liked it when I softly scratched your tummy and kissed your eyes while singing this song….

First time I saw Bao Bao, I knew I was in love
She was the gift I got, from somewhere up above
O wow, o yes, o joy, so joy right here in my arms
She looks at me, I can see she’s showing all her charms
Can’t remember what I do before I saw her face
But now she’s here and I can feel her amazing grace

I never knew I could feel love like this, till I met you, Bao. For the last 2 years, there was not a day that went by without a smile or a laugh because of you. Your beautiful eyes and smile never failed to brighten my day. To be able to hug you was like the most peaceful feeling in this world. Seeing your smile was like knowing things are going to be okay. Everyone says how lucky you are to have me, but the truth is, I was the one who’s lucky to have you. I hope I treated you well. It’s a privilege to have you here, a luxury that not everyone is lucky enough to experience. There are no words can describe the pain of losing you nor how much I love you. But I have to let you go, “to love is to let go”, right? But how come it’s really hard to let you go while I truly love you. I want to give back your unconditional love by letting you go Bao, I really do. I thank God that I can be with you till the last moment of your life, holding you in my hands. I hope you are in heaven now, I’ll pray to God every night to tell Him how good you were as my dog, how beautiful you were because I put your new clothes and clean you up to be ready to face Him. As I used to say to you, Bao Bao good girl, smart girl, I love you Bao.

I was falling like a fool for you, do you know that Bao? Every time you looked at me, I fell a little further, I just couldn’t help it. There’s nothing you can do to make me love you less. Your memories will live forever in my heart, will you remember me too Bao? Thank you for miraculous 2 years, even it’s only a short of time, my life will never be the same again, you have changed my life in a way that I never expected you would be, a piece of my heart goes with you. Thank you for all your love lessons. Rest in peace my little girl, my little angel, my secret agent, Xiao Bao Bao…Till we meet again sweet heart.