A tie and a shoe string

OOTD - WORKFLOW

2013-05-22T12:03:00.001+01:00

Hey Guys, I think I look ripe these days... You know, that ripe tomato look.... :/

OOTD

2013-05-21T10:28:00.001+01:00

Hey hey hey!
Happy new week babies...
I have weirdly bn over excited this week... I am really not sure why... But all I know is "I FEEL GOOD! TARANLALANLAAA"

OOTD:
Dress: Er.... Atmosphere
Shoe: new look
Hair: Peruvian
Model: Beautiful Miss Debo!

Happy new week guys :)

Food for Thought

2013-05-19T18:50:00.001+01:00

My mum sent this text to me couple of minutes ago, and I decided to share with ya'll :) think about it :)

"If we want to direct our lives, we must control our consistent actions. It's not what we do once in a while that shapes our lives but what we do consistently"

Have a great week ahead guys :)

Outfit of Yesterday

2013-05-19T12:38:00.001+01:00

Hey guys :)
I finally went for a wedding. My first one in about four years. It was Ekpedeme's sister's wedding... Irony of it all is, the last wedding I went for (four years ago) was Ekpedeme's other sister's wedding.
I didnt really take pictures of the food, decoration and stuff, but I'll get some pictures from people and post up. However I think the wedding was really nice. Absolutely how I'lld want my wedding to be. You know, the sweet thing about the ceremony was it was short and not rowdy. It was sort of like a small wedding....
But the bride was so happy, like you could see it allover her face. And she was simple and pretty too. I thought the chief bridesmaid was a bit too shape-y to be a bridesmaid; you know too cute, smallish figure with a really nice bum! You dont want your bride's maid stealing your shine on your day.... But who am I to say anything.... I've got really hot friends.. Chances are my chief bridesmaid will be way hotter than me. Have you seen Tola? Deedee?
Another fascinating thing about the wedding ceremony was how much I had grown since I last attended a wedding ceremony. Last time I went to a wedding was on my 18th birthday "June 19". I was just done with second year of uni.... Still had a lot of schooling to do. You know finish a degree, get a master's degree also. So going to that wedding all I could think of then was "FREE FOOD". However, there was something different about my feelings yesterday. It was obvious I had grown up, having completed two degrees since the last time. Living like an adult.... No I wasn't thinking of "getting married NOW" I was thinking of how I think I may be ready to take that bold step very soon, and maybe have a very similar wedding ceremony.
Lol! My friend did not help matters by "pretend" proposing to me there. I think i teared up inside me.
It's good to know one actually GROWS.
Okay, back to this post. I was going to wear a white dress to the wedding yesterday, but I felt it was inappropriate to wear a white dress to a wedding. Don't confuse people that just came to chop free food. I ended up wearing my very "long-lasted" dress :)

OOTD

2013-05-14T00:29:00.001+01:00

Apparently, Nigeria's sun has not affected me so much..
"In everything, give thanks"
Happy new week guys :)

Happy Birthday Rotimi

2013-05-09T15:20:00.001+01:00

Party! Partay! Partayy!
Friday was my camp boyfriend's birthday... The young man is growing old *sobs*
It was a good night, we started the night at Ciroc Bar, then moved to Caribbean night club.... Next I found myself at Play night club, then Aramis lounge....
I didnt actually take pictures... Most of the pictures are on Rotimi's ipad, and the illiterate doesnt know how to use the ipad :/ Manage these terrible pictures.
Happy birthday Rotimi :)

Birthday boy "Rotimi" whispering what I don't know :/

Say hi to Crysty's camp boyfriend "Francis" btw! She'll kill me if she sees this caption

Birthday boy acting like a pant

Hey baby

Work work work- Outfit of the day (Old)

2013-05-07T19:50:00.001+01:00

Hi guys...
This is actually a late post, I wore this outfit to the office some weeks ago. Due to the lack of posts, I am gonna do an outfit of the day post.
I love my hair in this picture, cos it feels absolutely different from the normal hair you see these days...
Hey!!!! See Miss Debo looking like a bosslady
Pants: Dorothy Perkins
Shirt: New look
Waistcoat: Atmosphere
Bag: My sister's closet
Shoe: Charity Shop in Dublin
Model: Amaka

Quote of the Night

2013-05-03T21:49:00.001+01:00

"If you are Born poor it's not your mistake, but if you Die Poor it's Your mistake" -Bill Gates

Quote of the day

2013-05-03T16:23:00.001+01:00

"Men are born soft and supple: dead they are stiff and hard... Thus whoever is stiff and inflexible is a disciple of death. Whoever is soft and yielding is a disciple of life." - Tao te Chang.

Happy new month guys :) Btw, its my birthday soon :D

Workers Attitude In Nigeria

2013-04-06T13:28:00.001+01:00

Yes! Yes! Yes! I am about to rant. I am tired of workers' attitude in Nigeria; especially service providers. Whatever happened to taking your job seriously? Making your customers happy and satisfied? Attending to you customer/client's needs?

So yesterday, I went to The NYSC office to submit my acceptance letter... I approached one of the workers, with smiles I went, you know trying to form the whole cute girl thing...
Me: Hi, good afternoon sir *smiles* I came to submit my acceptance letter... Who do I give it to?
The man reluctantly turns to face me and sluggishly answers
Man: where did you get posted to?
Me: *still smiling* JW. Hippo, Asokoro sir
Man: okay... Go to room 5 and ask for Mrs xxxx
Me: *still smiling* Thank you
At this point, I should explain that i had this conversation with an accent. I found out in camp that having a British or an American accent gets you attention and takes you places your normal Nigerian accent may not take you... So hell yeah! I practised the accent I picked from my five years of living abroad :/
Anyway, so I went to room 5 to find Mrs xxx... However, the office was empty...
So I went back to mr Sluggish... Still with an accent and a smile
Me: There is no one in room 5 sir...
Man: Come back tomorrow.
Me: *eyes wide open* er... Tomorrow is Saturday
Man: *asks colleague* who collects letter for Asokoro?
Colleague: ehn Mrs xxx
Man: come back on Monday then..
Me: Sir, isn't there anyone else I can see?
Man: Cant you see I have a headache *still speaking in a small monotone voice oo*
How I am supposed to see he has a headache I don't understand ooo, not like he was putting his hand on his head and wailing like in all those panadol adverts o
Man: Please I don't have strength. I have a headache, there is nothing I can do for you.
Yes! He was somewhat more polite than some workers I've met in Nigeria.... But eiyysss! He has a headache so he cant attend to me? Like really???? What is he getting paid for? Why come to work if you know you wont perform your duties? Why not just call in sick?
I was really disappointed really.
I have heard of loads of experiences with lazy, non-chalant, rude workers... But heyyy! My smile and accent have worked real good for me.

How's the weekend going guys? I start work on Monday... I am actually looking forward to it... You know the first real step into adulthood... I pray and hope I gain fulfilment :)
Have a nice weekend babies *kiss kiss*

Story of the Day

2013-04-04T08:52:00.001+01:00

Morning everyone, How was your night? Splendid? Or like mine? I slept on the same bed with my brother last night and he bastardised my face with his legs while turning every minute :( Should have just slept in my room oo. Dunno who sent me message. (Ta lo ro m'ise)

I was playing across the streets of twitter yesterday when I saw a tweet about the two faced man called Edward Mordrake of the 19th century. I decided to read more, with the help of google I read some enlightening articles... And here I am telling ya'll the story of the day....

Before I go further, the story of Edward Mordrake cannot be said to be fully true. Some articles presented it as a "tale" talking about how there is no documented evidence, and how it's bn a pass down tale from generation to generation just like the story of tortoise and king lion....
Some also went ahead to say, the pictures people see today about Edward wasnt a real picture, but an artist's representation of how Edward would have looked.
Edward was said to have an "evil twin" at the back of his head... The face could not talk or eat, but laughed, cried, sneered and according to Edward, whispered evil things to him. It was said that the face made "faces" to people, and the lips always moved, sometimes mimicking others, but a word was never heard.
Edward claimed his "evil twin" tormented him at night, and although most of the articles described Edward's front face to be "quite" handsome, the back face was said to be "demon-looking"
Some articles went ahead to say how much of a fine young man Edward was; he was termed a scholar in some, others wrote about his love for music, art and other fine things of life.
However at the age of 23, it is recorded that Edward could not take it no more *i cannot take it no more 🎶* and decided to commit suicide. While some believe he did so by poisoning, others said he put a bullet through the eyes of his evil twin; leaving a note which said the face should be removed from his head before burying him, just so the evil twin does not torment him in the grave.

A similar story to Edward's was that of Chang Tzu Ping who was discovered in the late 70s or early 80s... However, unlike Edward, there was documented evidence of Chang's face, even a tv appearance on the show called "that's incredible" which showed the journey of Chang from China to America to surgically remove the face.

Corpers wee!!!!!

2013-04-01T11:55:00.001+01:00

"Youths obey the Clarion call
Let us lift our nation high
Under the sun or in the rain
With dedication and selflessness
Nigeria's ours, Nigeria we serve"

I am not sure of the last line... But that's supposed to be the NYSC anthem...
Meet Corp member Deborah Motilewa from platoon 5 *whoop! Whoop!*

Corpers wee ooo!

Happy April

2013-04-01T09:58:00.001+01:00

Hey Guys, happy New month. I am sorry for my absence from the blog... Ya'll have bn on my mind, but I am still yet to fix my internet and I hating blogging from my phone.
I've got sooooo much to blog about, but most of the posts are pictures posts and blogging from my phone does no justice to them...
Starting from my little trip around Nigeria in February, my two days valentine special from "le boo", my hustle to get my NYSC call up letter, the best of all, my NYSC camp experience...
Soo much! Soo much! Sooooo much!
Hopefully by next week my internet should be working, and ya'll wl get the juicy details of my life in the past 3 months...
I really do miss blogging... But hey! Things are definitely looking brighter

Special Introduction!!!!!!!

Meet my new twin sister Christabel, I think we were separated at birth... You'll be seeing a whole lot of her in my coming posts....

February Challenge: Day 4: OOTD

2013-02-04T22:34:00.001Z

February challenge

2013-02-04T21:13:00.001Z

Day 3: Role Model: Ngozi Okonjo-Iweala

Hello

2013-02-02T16:27:00.001Z

Eyin ara-ile....

I am not 100% sure, but I think that means people of the house.... I miss you guys so much :( lol
I miss blogging...
As some of ya'll know I am back in Nigeria, and things have bn well.... Things have bn different... :(
Not good/great different... Just different.... But I guess it's because I am still trying to adjust.... I am just looking at the long run you know... Things might not be great now, but the future sure looks bright...
I was running home just for the "family time"... Yet I've seen my daddy just once since I got back.... Saw my brothers for just a night, and I am still yet to see my sisters :(
Completed my NYSC registration, so I should hopefully start serving in March. ...
Bn stuck in Abuja since I got back.... I really just want to be in Lagos right now....
You know the whole fantasy of getting a job, getting a car, getting your own apartment..... Well right now its still a fantasy....
I really do miss blogging, but blogging from my phone isnt half enjoyable... And the internet at home has scoin scoin.... I miss my TV shows :( I miss Elena's annoying face from vampire diaries... I miss Phil's jokes from Modern family.... I miss Jenny's weird but similar behaviour from New girl... I miss Klaus, I miss Damon, I miss watching SouthPark with Alex... I miss Randy's stupid behaviour in South Park; getting cancer of the balls just to get medicated marijuana; I miss Kasarachi and her funny but stupid ways.... I miss fighting with Alex when he wants to watch RAW Mondays and Fridays... I miss cuddling Tola :( i miss doing things when I want to not when my mummy tells me to.... I miss freedom... I miss going out by 10pm without anyone giving me a lecture... I miss not having to take permission for everything....
I miss the cold.... As absurd as it is... I'lld rather the cold to the scorching heat of Abuja....
But at the end of the day, change is inevitable.....

I am going to try out this February challenge... Something to work on :) i find it hard to complete things.. I hope I complete this one....

Day 1: lock screen
Day 2: my two best friends Tola and Deedee... I know they are too foine and hot

Fashion show 2012

2013-01-06T01:56:00.000Z

Happy new year beautiful people.

Year 2012 was really a great year for me * Yes! I am about to share my testimony* By God's grace, I accomplished quite a lot; got a Msc, got my dream job, although I quit after a while, as weird as it sounds, working as a sales associate, or retail adviser as most people know it has always bn my dream job, that and bn an air hostess. Just wanted to have a feel of it. And I am glad I did get the experience in 2012.

Backstage with Princess; the creative director of Ela-Rose designs

Kicked off my clothing line in full force, got a lot of support from friends and family, met the best of people in 2012. Got a new best friend in 2012, even with his many wrong doings, he was there for me and made me happy.
Learnt valuable lessons about life, friends, family.... e.t.c.
Of course I had my downs also, but all in all, I wouldn't trade 2012 for anything.

2013 holds a lot of uncertainties for me, and as such I have named it my year of FAITH. For the first time in forever, I am entering a year not having an idea of what I may face. With faith I have bought work and NYSC outfits, knowing God will definitely place me in the right job. Looking at pushIng my business further this year, got a few other business plans I am working on, hoping to start my NYSC by February, hoping to start a PhD. So many hopes tbh, I guess I need to put my life and future in God's hands now more than ever.

I had my last fashion show for the year on the 30th of December, it was actually quite a blast. I got to showcase some of my works, and I gladly modeled a wedding dress again :D for a fellow designer. This geh right here is gonna make a beautiful bride someday :D Here are a few pictures from the show, it's bn a big job trying to upload the pictures *phew! too much oyinbo technology*

Model Fifi in Debbie's Kente shorts

Debbie's Kente shorts on the runway

Model Terrisa in Debbie's Uju Lace skirt

Debbie's Uju Lace skirt on the runway

Debbie's Kente Jacket

Debbie's Kente Jacket on the runway

Ela Rose wedding dresses and Wobia of Wobia house entertainment

Model Fifi in Debbie's Tola Dress

Tola Dress (Back)

Tola Dress on the runway

Feeling like a superstar.. :D Thank you Thank you :D

Princess of Ela Rose designs and I on the red carpet

Model Terrisa in Debbie's November Dress

Debbie's November Dress on the runway

Debbie's Deida dress on the runway

And it's a wrap!!!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!!!!

Outfit of Boxing Day night

2012-12-28T17:58:00.001Z

I've had this skirt for some time now, never had an occasion to wear it to because a few of my friends apparently do not like it, and whenever I tried it on they always went "nay"... Ofcourse when I added swaggu sauce for a christmas party at my friend's house on boxing day, they had no choice but to accept it.

Skirt: New look
Top: Birthday present from my friend Omo.
Shoe: Just Fab
Earring: Usc
Belt: Fapped it from my sister about 5 years ago
Hair: Tola's cousin
Model: Deborah, but my fans call me "Sister Derby" If you haven't listened to the song "Uncle Obama" by Deborah, you are dulling.

Have a Nice Friday night guys :) I am still hustling for where to go tonight. Started writing a new book this week, if I don't go out tonight I wont feel too bad, cos I haven't written anything since the first day I started.

Late Christmas Wishes

2012-12-26T22:04:00.000Z

Merry Christmas everyone :)

I know this is quite late, but better late then never. My first christmas day spent in Aberdeen. Last year I managed to escape christmas in Aberdeen by running to London, but this year wasn't bad at all. In all honesty it was one of the best I've had in years. Had Christmas lunch with a friend's family, it was really good spending the day with a family on Christmas day, Felt like home to an extent:) At night chilled with the guys, it was a semi party, but def the best we've had in Aberdeen; food, booze, just two girls, but it was maaahhdd!

I am thankful for the family I have, the one God kept me in, and the ones I formed myself. It was good spending Christmas with MY family even though MY family wasn't with me.. I am def grateful :)

OOLN- Outfit of Last night

2012-12-23T21:08:00.000Z

Too much on my mind

2012-12-16T17:07:00.001Z

Hey guys :)

9 days to Christmas *whoop whoop whoop*

The last few months have been on a 200m relay race, not sure where they are running to.. but heyyyyy! I'lld appreciate it if the days can go slower.

I am still in Aberdeen :( Mixed feelings about that. Not sure of my return date to Nigeria, got a wedding to attend in Lagos on the 22nd, but judging from where I am right now, it seems like I'll be in Aberdeen till January. Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining. Or am I? Disadvantage: I really want to spend Christmas with the family :( I miss our yam festival :(
Advantage: I get to do more research on the projects I have planned for my return to Nigeria, and I get to spend more time with "the family" in Aberdeen. Not sure when next I'll see them.

Projects? Yeah... sometimes I get pissed at myself for bn too ambitious. You know those people that at every given time have one or two business ideas running through their minds? Yeah, that's Debo for you. And till I complete everything on my mind I get panic attacks.
So right now, I am suffering from severe panic attacks. I've had a particular business plan in my head for a while now, a little bit over a year. I thought I still had time, seeing as I need to start working to fund the project, because I don't want to get a loan for the business. However, I was on bellanaija a few days ago, lo and behold some one else has started my business. Yes! it is my business because as far as I am concerned I thought about it first. Anyway, this "finding" challenged me, thus pushing me to fall on loans :( Hence, I have to work really hard in producing a top notch business plan that would attract investors.

As if that is not enough, remember my fashion line? Debbie's? I have bn working on a new collection for a while now, although I am halfway through, I need to do some more marketing, and so I need to create a lookbook. Now I keep cracking my brain on the perfect idea for a lace collection lookbook. Working with a few friends, the photo shoot is bn processed. But till I see good enough pictures to post online, I am still having panic attacks :(

Oh that's not all. I need to start packing for my journey back home... however I've got so much luggage, I don't know where to start from....
Er... the list goes on.. but why disturb you with the things on my mind? Oh I remember ya'll are interested in my life :D aww! I feel special

Happy new week guys.. Do something for the "betterment" of your future this week. Remember, no matter how young you are, it is not advisable to rely on any human. Start a business, get a small job! write ideas! be an entrepreneur! Apply yourself into something good this week.

-Debbie Motilewa :)

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The power of praise

2012-12-09T16:34:00.001Z

Happy Sunday guys :)

Hope ya'll went to church or at least had a mini service at home? I didn't go to church, but I had a mini service at home, more like a big service cos I was watching Shiloh 2012. It was magnificent I tell you. My dad almost had me for breakfast yesterday when he called and asked if I was watching Shiloh online. I tried to escape the question as best as I could, but knowing he is DADDY DEBO, he obviously knows me too well. Bros nabbed me and made me promise to watch it. I just mumbled some mumbo jumbo not really saying if I was going to watch it or not.
Anyway, I slept for the most part of yesterday and of course missed it. So when I missed service today cos I had to help a friend that has a big day tomorrow, I decided to go back to my Godly roots and watch Winner's Chapel's online service. On other Sundays when I miss church I watch my RCCG Aberdeen's service or when I want to listen to mad praise I watch Daystar Lagos.
But Today, Shiloh it was.
And so I tuned in to Shiloh 2012 thanksgiving service, and I must say I felt the difference.

PRAISE!!!! It was a thanksgiving service so the most part of the service was HOT BURNING PRAISE.....

You know the way music heals the soul, and makes you better and for some people listening to music takes you to that happy place. Now imagine listening to music that makes sense, music that shows you the glory of the supreme being? Music that takes you to a higher place, the throne of grace.
That's praise.
I cannot emphasize what praise does to me. For those few minutes of praise the world becomes a better place. I don't see the evil of the world, I don't feel the hearbreak that was in my heart a second ago, I don't feel the menstrual pain I was feeling nanoseconds ago, I don't remember how I didn't do so well in my course. I don't remember what my family is going through. All I see is the Lord in his magnificent glory. All I see is how he died on the cross for me so I may be made whole. All I see is how much he loves me, All I see is his beauty. All I can do is smile, laugh, jump, my heart feels its best, at that point I don't want to be in a relationship, at that point all I can say is "FATHER I LOVE YOU" all I can say is "FATHER, I KNOW YOU LOVE ME" "FATHER DON'T EVER FORSAKE ME" "WHAT CAN I DO WITHOUT YOU" All I know at that point is "let everyone leave me, let my family forsake me, let my boyfriend leave me, let my friends run away, but FATHER I WANT YOU".

When I go to church, once I miss praise and worship, I just feel like I have lost my calling for that Sunday.
Instead of praying, sometimes I just go into intense praise and worship, and immediately I connect with the spirit, I don't see the need to make any request again.
I don't know if praise has this great effect on just me, or it is the same with everyone. But for me, my happy place is in PRAISE LAND.

- Debbie Motilewa

No Name - Chapter 3

2012-12-07T16:08:00.001Z

Chapter 2 - The Stranger

When I found out she was only thirteen, I was greatly astonished. The girl was a bit too tall for her age, and was very beautiful. A young damsel she was.
I was new in the village and tried to avoid getting in people's way, never been the society type. My job was to silently observe and in due time leave the village. I noticed she liked spending time with her neighbor's kids; probably because she loved kids or she just used them as an escape from the chaos called her family. What actually attracted me to the girl I wasn't sure, apart from her natural beauty of-course.
She seemed to have this magnetic aura that attracted both good and bad to her.

It was getting dark and I was on my way to the stream to take a bath when I heard voices; that of a man and a girl. It wasn't my business, so I kept walking. But then the voice of the girl sounded distressed in comparison to that of the man. I listened carefully, and that was when the voice registered as Nonye's.
"Please stop disturbing me" she said "I have to get home soon before my mother starts getting worried. moreover I don't talk to strangers."
"But I am not a stranger, young girl. I have already told you my name is Kelechi." The man said. He looked in his mid thirties.
"This is my first time of seeing you in this village stranger. So you are still a stranger to me" Nonye replied and picked pace.
The man followed at the same increased pace.
"Sir, what do you want from me?" Nonye innocently asked.
"I want to be your friend young girl" The man said with a crooked smile.
"But Sir, please go"
In less than a minute, the man was in her face. While holding her hands firmly with one hand, he used the other hand to unfasten the zipper on his pants.
"Now bend, go on your knees girl"
"Please Sir, please Sir. Stop this. Please this is not right" Nonye cried.
"I said on your knees girl, don't let me force you."
Soon, he forced Nonye down on her knees and forced his large manhood into her mouth. Pushed her flat on the ground and was soon inside her.
When he was fully satisfied, he shuddered, got up, zipped his pants, smirked at the girl and walked away without even a backward glance.

The girl just cried in the bush, covered in her own blood. She cried herself to sleep right there.
I watched it all from the beginning to the end without helping her. That is the saddest part of it all. Not because I didn't want to. but because I couldn't.
I sat there all night watching her sleep.
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I had to cut the rape scene... I am not sure of the age range of my readers, wouldn't want to corrupt anyone's mind.
Please do not forget to leave comments, reactions, share the post, repost and whatever it is....
CONSTRUCTIVE CRITICISM IS WELCOME.
The chapter one can be found here, and the chapter two here

-Debbie Motilewa

Pride Goes Before A Fall

2012-12-04T18:12:00.000Z

My second post in a day :D Yesssss!

Hey guys :) sooooo, this is actually the original post for today, but my post about medical doctor vs educational doctor was a side dish, just like garlic bread. I am still yet to receive your opinions, and i appreciate people that send their opinions via Facebook, twitter, email, e.t.c, but it'll be nicer to have them as comments on the blog, that way more people can relate to them, and I could always easily look them up in the future.

Anyway, back to today's post. What is pride? According to the oxford dictionary, "pride is a consciousness of one's own dignity". Pride is an attitude of the heart towards acquisition

I havent said pride is wrong or right, but lets critically examine it from my view. Mr A attended the best secondary school in Nigeria, when he comes on twitter, and people are yarning about the schools they went to and how their school was mahhhhhhd! Mr A's tweet will be something like "nah, I just can't with twitter bants. People are calling schools and "this one" that schooled under the bridge is also calling his school. Wait till you go to a school like mine before you boldly say you went to a school".
Did Mr A actually go to a good school? yes he did? should he be proud of it? yes he should. but should he show his pride in this form? NO, HE SHOULDN'T...

Now, this is where I come in.. In every human, there is an atom of pride;

it is this atom of pride that stops us from embarrassing ourselves on so many occasions, what some people term ego... but in some people the atom becomes a molecule.. hence a group of atoms joined together by er.... *that's all the science I can remember from secondary school :(* in the instance that this atom becomes a molecule, the said human should then become worried... Over the years, I have learnt that sometimes my atom of pride builds up to molecules, and at that point I give myself pep talks, reminding myself of God's words concerning the proud.
Why am I writing this post?
Some days ago, I got a result from a project I did some months ago. Now I worked really hard on this project, and automatically expected a really positive response , however I got what I'll call a not so good response. Now was I disappointed? of course I was. but days after I tried to look for a positive side to it, and then it dawned on me "PRIDE" If I had gotten an extremely positive response in that particular work, of course I'll be grateful to God, but because of the extra accomplishment, my atom of Pride would be getting closer to a molecule. This is not the same with many people, but knowing myself, achieving my aim on that particular project may just have a negative effect on my relationship with God. And then it clicked, God does have a reason for everything.
Molecule Pride is the reason people lose what they really want; just because they cannot bring themselves to admit bn wrong or admit needing help.
Okay, i cant find a suitable way to end this post. So I'm just going to end abruptly here.

End of story :D

Dr Motilewa

2012-12-04T11:57:00.001Z

Hey guys :)

Happy Tuesday :) for those of you in school or at work, I know how Tuesday feels. It symbolizes a day closer to the weekend :D
When I was writing about how I had so much to post about yesterday, this post wasn't in my head. It just came into being some minutes ago. I'll try to be as explanative as possible as I need advice, opinions or whatever you can from you guys.

So, it was my graduation last week, two degrees now, and I am already aiming for the third one. I've for sometime now bn considering doing a phD.. well it was my daddy's idea earlier on, and tbh I couldn't be bothered. But after sometime, I actually saw where he was coming from and paid more attention to the whole phD thing.
Anyway, this morning, few minutes ago... I was watching "new girl" and there was this doctor friend of Jess, a gynecologist to be precise. When I was younger, in my science days, I always wanted to be a gynecologist, even up till when I changed my major to accounting and Finance, I still considered volunteering in hospitals. Years into Accounting and Finance and I kind of closed the whole medicine chapter, throughout my masters program I barely thought about it, because to an extent I felt I was were I was supposed to be. The only time I thought about my medicine dream was whenever I saw or heard of a doctor. "aww! that is where I should be" always crossed my mind.

Anyway, after seeing Jess' gynecologist friend, a big question mark was left in my heart. "WHY DO YOU WANT TO DO A PHD DEBO?" of course I have answered this question on numerous occasions, I loved my field, I wanted to research more, I needed to know more....., but at the root of all these, I WANTED TO BE CALLED A DOCTOR. I may have escaped bn called a medical doctor, but I am still inline to bn called an Educational doctor.
And that's where it hit me... why can't I go back to school and study medicine instead?