A Voice From The People

35 YEARS TO SEE NEW YORK -562020

2020-05-08T08:33:00.000-07:00

Welcome to new york city, it took me 35 years. I always wanted to visit or live here for a couple of months. I'm finally here after visiting almost all of the major cities in the United States. Which wasn't a goal of mine but I'm thankful to have had the opportunity to visit and live all over the country. I've never been outside of the country even though I had a passport and had the opportunity to go to Puerto Rico once, I never had the desire to visit anywhere until I at least saw New York City. I can say that seeing New York City was probably my one and only travel goal. Well I finally made it. About a month after I got here, the whole city shut down and I no longer see the New York City that people have been ranting and raving about for years. I never in my wildest dreams would have thought that the strong people of New York would fold like pussies because the news and the government said so. I thought New Yorkers were free thinking people. I've never seen people so scared and in compliance with what the government told them. It's weird to think that the American dream is truly dead because people are scared to leave their houses or willingly quaranting themselves as if healthy people need to be quarantined. I can see how this was a great and inspirational city but now, it's pretty pathetic. Im speaking as an outsider so people can dismiss everything I'm saying, and the way New Yorkers are, they will, and most likely yell their point across in their obnoxious tone. Or is that just their accent. None the less I like this city, I like the diversity, the mixtures of cultures. The tall buildings, the international feel of the whole city. I can say with confidence that new york city is the greatest city in the United States, so I'm very thankful to be here and very excited for the governor or mayor to open back up the city, ive barely tipped the ice berg of what new york City has to offer and I'm very anxious to get my NYC experience on.

35-Alive

2020-04-27T08:46:00.001-07:00

We gon die one day, but not today

Happy birthday to me happy birthday to me, its 2020 and I turned 35 this year. I'm very thankful not to be young anymore. I think for me the worst thing about being young was being so dumb and doubting myself because society says you have to be dumb when you're young. Its not the truth. I would say that I was influenced to be very dumb. A lot of times when I was doing "dumb things" I was having the time of my life. I'll take experience any day over book knowledge. To tell you the truth all the book knowledge I learned in school I had to unlearn, that knowledge only became good to pinpoint places in my understanding that I needed to sharpen or correct. In my 30's I took a front line role in what I thought could be the best way for me to help people only to realize that not only do I not care but none of you need help. Looking for direction is the dumbest thing I think I have done with my life. Nothing truly matters and anyone who is looking for direction is really looking for conformation or justification to both I say you don't need. I myself have taken a more animalistic or natural way to live my life, as in animals do what they do. There is no real direction, no real meaning. I decided that I am not here to help anyone, mostly because I can't help anyone. I can probably comfort you on your journey but honestly it doesn't do anything for me. Your life is not supposed to be happy, your life is about experiences. Go experience life, guess what? It might suck, it might kill you, but people die everyday and if things suck you have the opportunity to change it or don't change it. I no longer care, it doesn't make me a bad or good person, it just makes me a person. I'm happy to be older, I'm happy to be where I am in life. And if I die tomorrow, its just another experience for me and you if you feel you need to be effected by it.

Is you serious?

2015-07-08T10:21:00.000-07:00

Skyview Atlanta

Is you serious? A question I pose to all who claim to have a belief system, or some moral background that you would call your up bringing. Normally I would write in the way I would be talking mainily to myself, but in this case because of this question I am asking yourself. The fact is all I see are people being slaves and saying they dont want to be slaves, people saying we don't support police brutality but support the things that are a directly and/or indirectly the causes of what we call police brutality. How about those prisions? Anybody against mass incarnation and still go out there and support these companies that a profiting off the mass kidnapping and enslaving of your brothers and sisters? When I first wanted to write this it was going to mainly be directed toward black folks, more toward the conscious black folks, because I see alot of hypocritical things going on. And I am not one to be looking and judging people but look at yourselves. If the doctrine is so powerful then how come so many who claim to believe fall short? Im not gonna look at you and blame the doctrine, because what you do does not or should not effect my growth or belief. The reason I decided to open it up to everybody is because we all need this talk and this question. People who denounce white supremacy and still support the instutions that are sometimes the foundation of white supremacy. You can not call yourself my friend and be a supporter or contrubituter to white supremacy. Why would you want your friend to go through that? So back to this question "is you serious?". Well are you? Do you believe in something and dont know where it comes from? Do you know what you and it repersents? Do you know the foundation of your belief? Do you believe that facebook is brainwashing and still fall for it everytime? My mom once told me, well she told me alot of times that " when you know better you do better" and as much as I would like not to, I have to agree with her. I can admit that I dont know everything about everything and I do engage in things that might go against my morals and beliefs but I am also active in trying to correct my bad habits, and I'm honest at least with myself in being able to admit that I don't know why I do things or where things come from or if I do know where they come from and what they are all about that I consciously choose to continue doing it despite what I've discovered about whatever it is I'm researching. Im constantly becoming consious of my short coming when it comes to my beliefs and morals. I adapt to making my words match my actions. It is a none stop process, never-ending. I am serious and concious about who I am and who I want to be. I am in the process of become who i want to be by constantly working on who I happen to be. For people who look towards me and read what I say and see my actions, I don't want to fake it. I think it matters if you are a person who influences other to be aware of what you maybe unconsciously creating. If in a sense you are duplicating yourself by influencing people, then wouldn't want to duplicate the best part of yourself? Your actions should tell you and others if you are serious or not. If I can take a moment and look out in to the world and my closer surroundings and try and see the state in which live, it will tell me that ya'll ain't serious and ya'll ain't living the way you claim to living, and ya'll ain't believing what ya'll say ya'll believing because your belief WILL manifest. are you always saying you want a more money or you want to move but won't quit your job or look for a new one or look at housing in the area you want to live?... is you serious? All ya'll pro black, pan african nationalist Gravesites who disrespect black women and some of yall only date outside your race? Is you serious? Marcus, Malcolm or Martin would not approve. You gotta go deep inside yourself and figure out who you are, figure out the way you feel about things and not let outside sources dictate how your supposed to feel or respond to situations. Half of the time yall give the same response to situations that occur. all ya'll sound the same, like someone else's opinion; facebook, the news, your friends who got it from Facebook or some documentary they saw on youtube or netflix. So my question to you and this question is ultimately for you, "is you serious?". If the answer is yes, good for you, I hope to meet you or your kids or someone you influenced one day so that we can have a great conversation. But the answer is no, then you my friend have a choice to make, you can make an effort to be serious about the things you believe in and the things that come out of your mouth or you can just keep faking. By the way if your a mutha facker, stay from around me. Becauase im working on being serious and practicing what I preach, and I don't need you around me distracting me with distractions that are distracting you.

Tricking the Black Man Again: Obama the Black Savorior

2015-04-20T09:51:00.000-07:00

Pay attention young man

Image is a powerful thing. For centuries and centuries governments and empires have used the power of images (propaganda) to rewrite history and control the perception of the world. Propaganda images are still being used today right under our noises. Everything we use to tap into information is used as propaganda, Facebook, cell phones, our TVs, Netflix, the radio, our music, and especially the news are used to control our thoughts and reactions. The schools and universities we attend help to control our very thought process and how we react to our environment. We have all been convinced to act a certain way, to feel a certain way, to react a certain way, to think a certain way, to dress a certain way. All my clothes have name brands on them. I’m sure where ever they made my clothes the people there were exploited and left in ruin.

One of the worst forms of propaganda is the news. Yes I say the NEWS. Newspapers and Internet articles are included, all forms of news are used. The news is the most dangerous because it is perceived to be truth, actual fact, most times without question. Belief and perception can cause anyone to do anything they believe is truth. We as a society have made the news truth. And the news has taken over the truth and over perception. I know the people in Ferguson MI can attest to the media reporting but not really reporting. And why won't the media say that ST. LOUIS has a racial problem instead of just talking about a neighborhood in St. Louis. Is that a good question to ask about the news? I used to be very entertained by watching FOX News, especially during Hurricane Katrina. I've known for a long time that the news was entertainment when I started seeing reruns of the news. I'd watch it again so I could be entertained again and again. Why are their reruns of the news with all the events happening every single day? I’ve seen the new all around the country, local, regional, national, and global. Thank god for YouTube and news web pages now I get to annoy my friends with all the great news I've found. It’s believed that what happens in the news happens in real life, but what happens on the news is actually someone else’s interpretation of what happen, a view point, a perspective, and a perception. Anyone can tell a story to an advantage. My momma called it half lying, not telling the whole truth. I would always be honest but sometimes I wouldn't tell the whole truth because I was trying to trick my mother into not knowing I did something wrong. I wanted to control her perception of a situation. This is exactly what the news is doing and has been doing. If you watch the news, it will have you believe that we are being terrorized by foreign governments when in fact most of all revolution that happened in the last 100 years have been countries revolting against an American oppressor. Not to mention what is happening to the stolen African people in the United States who has believe that they have “made it” in America because the president of one of the most profitable businesses in the world is a black man.

Here we go. We have been doped again and I myself have fallen for this trick, this ultimate slap in the face to all the African American leaders that were assassinated by the business known as the united states government corporation. Lord have mercy on my poor negro soul I have lived to see the day a black man is president of the most powerful nation in the world. That was me in 2008. Right before Obama helped bail out the banks and not the people who were getting their houses taken away by the banks, who tricked people into buying those houses anyway. From that point on I knew that Obama was not who he represented... change and me. I thought change meant different then before. They only difference is his skin color and its racist to notice. So the world see a black man the represents the stolen Africans. I am a stolen African. Obama is not a stolen African. His father is from Kenya and he was born an American. He does not have the same history I have. His great grandparents did not face the same percussions as mine. He is not a representation of Malcolm X or Martin Luther King Jr. Who died to have the power his image has. Obama does not represent me or any of the African Americans who have been surviving on this continent and to say he does is insulting to everything they stand for. The legacy of those men will be foreshadowed by the first black president. The elections in 2008 was the mark of the civil rights movement ending. All the struggles of the civil rights movement have been achieved by the inauguration of the first black president. All the wrongs have been righted, because a black man is equal to a white man in the United States of America. But is that the truth. Is a black man, a stolen African truly equal to the white man or any other man for that matter in America? As a black man a stolen African I can tell you from my own personal experience of being around different races and cultures in the United States that the black man is not truly equal to other races in this country. Well documented operations by the United States government will tell you that the black is definitely not equal nor does the country want them to be.

While the media pumps up and confuses us with rights for our sexual perfrences, how are black Americans doing with rights? What about the women's rights? How are they doing in this country? I don't remember the gays helping one bit to ending slavery. In fact I’m sure they may have been the enslaver. Don't make this an attack on gay rights because it’s not. It’s an attack on the image of Barrack Obama and how it is not what the world and we perceive it to be. We all need to wake up especially black people and stop supporting a man because of his image. If we can support a man bigger than his image then maybe stolen Africans may get the real change and the real hope we deserve and stop being gunned down in the streets because of the Hollywood imagines that the public have and the imagines we have for ourselves, because image is a powerful thing. You should control the images and the perceptions you choose to believe in.

This is 30 or The Soul of Hippie Shaun Boss Nigger

2015-03-01T14:57:00.003-08:00

somewhere over the rainbow, Cali

It's been a really really long time since I've really sat down and wrote, to tell you the truth I can't see myself sitting in front of a computer for too long like I used to. I'd rather be running my mouth to the people who like me until they hate me. I don't know what that's about but it's me. So I tried to write something like this the day before my birthday but it ended up being like an autobiography and I stopped because I don't have time to write all the trash that is my earlier life. I don't think the 80's were good for any nigga. Thank god for the Drug game 90's. And we had gangs, my type of decade, am I right?

So I'm 30 and I guess I can say since I've been 26 I've been slowly dramatically changing my life and the world (I mean that's how you change the world, change yourself and there is a better person in the world.). The direction of my logic and philosophy hasn't changed much. I heard one time that we are being lied to also I heard that we are masters of our life and universe. I heard that all we needed was something to tap into this ocean of vibrations and energy. I heard that we were all born with a way to access this and the only requirement to achieve this is to believe. I tried all of your suggestions, I worked a lot of jobs; assemble line, bag groceries, retail, customer service, FDIC, Veteran Affairs, unemployment, Network Marketing, The United States Military, I went to school, I moved to do more of everyone's suggestions. I mean you just get so down and out and disparaged that almost any suggestion no matter how crazy it might seems just might work. I didn't wanna die and I didn't want to hate my life and myself for trying to maintain a life I hated. This is something that all my friends and all my family were/are doing. I'm not one to follow the crowd so I needed to break this cycle and I did. Thus enters Hippie Shaun/ Shaun Lamar, Someone who is a master of his life and the universe around him. I love everyone support but truthfully I believe in myself. I thank everyone out there who has allowed me to do me without restraints. I love making good Art that people love and feel ways about it. Emotions carry a lot of energy and vibrations, so think about that when your experience art and you feel a strong emotion. No matter what the art is, whether it’s a painting a news article or even comedy. Talking with one of my comedy friends we came to the conclusion that if you can offend comedians, you must be pretty good. I mean I think I’m pretty good, but it's because I believe in myself and my ability to create awesome shit for ya'll. So this is 30, doing whatever the fuck I want without many boundaries. I'm down to a small backpack of belongings and I couldn't be happier. I never worry about losing or having someone taking something from me. I don't have much else to say. Maybe I'll start writing again. I don't know, but you can believe that I won't stop doing art. I'm gonna figure out was to get all this stuff to you. In the mean time some of my new fans don't know about my old stuff and some of my old fans don't know about my new stuff. So if I can I’ll at least start promoting the older stuff mixed with the newer stuff such as; videos, blog post, Podcasts, poetry, and maybe some audio of my stand up. Alright it's time to end this I love you all who have love and to the ones that don't love, Fuck you, you really are the problem, see ya'll <3

#SFDope

2014-06-24T08:34:00.001-07:00

Today on #SFDope we will have local rap and hip hop artists on the show for preformences and interviews, check out the links to their music

Equipto http://www.accesshiphop.com/store/?label=Solidarity+Records

Legends Live Forever http://legendsliveforever.net/

Johnny Kap https://soundcloud.com/johnny_kap_music

Monk McNizzle http://monkmcnizzle.com/

Soundearth http://soundearth.bandcamp.com/track/cant-stop-the-earth-from-growing

Promise

2013-12-31T14:43:00.002-08:00

If I get to live and other people don't... than i'm going to really LIVE!!!!!

Future Presence or See you When I See You

2013-08-15T10:47:00.001-07:00

I'll get back to this when I get a chance... meanwhile I'm working on wonderful things... so please bare with me and thank you for being so patient with me... it's always been said that greatness takes time... so give me some time :)

My Single Life or the Olivia Pope theory

2013-07-12T15:40:00.000-07:00

freedom beyond these bars

There was something in me that told me maybe I should apologize for my last post as it was one or two sentences. The title was longer than the post (Lol). I decided against it because when I tried to write more I just erased it. It is a perfect post and I’m at a point right now where in every instance in my life I need to bleed my own true existence and that means I need to do everything that is “me” immediately. I’m working on being okay with who I am as a person

Before moving to California and especially after living in Atlanta and New Orleans, I was very sure that I knew who I was. I didn’t know what my purpose was but knowing that I had a purpose to one day fulfill gave me confidence in who I was. When I got here with all my confidence and charm, slowly but surely, the person I thought I knew I was was slowly breaking down and disappearing. I left some things back in the south and it wasn’t just a storage full of memories and furniture. I left a world that I had known all my life, 20 something years was all I knew. I left chunks of myself there as well. So much so that people don’t even recognize my voice on the phone anymore. People I’ve talked to almost every day of my life. My own brother, who I grow up with, told me when he saw me that I look different, his actual statement was “Who are you, you don’t look like my brother”. That’s because I’m different from who I used to be, and I’m glad. Changing your life is not easy when there is no road map. (Speaking of change click here => Change: The Mad Scientist Effect Part 1 of 3 Mental Marauders)

When I was in the South even though I accepted myself and accepted who I thought I was, others were not very receptive of whom I was. A question from an inquiring candidate (someone who was interested in me) really got me thinking about some things. The question she asked me was “Why are you single?” I’m pretty honest and I wanted to answer it honestly. She asked because she saw everything that I do and how I present myself, being goal ordinated and basically awesome (Not by my own admittance) she really wanted to know why no one has snatched me up yet. I gave her a satisficing answer but that didn’t stop me from thinking more about the question and it didn’t stop her from asking more questions. Another question asked was; “How long have you been single?” my response was “Sheesh, It’s been a long time… (Pause for thinking)… like 6 years or something like that”. Way too long. There have been some interesting prospects but none were for me. The last person I was seriously interested in wanted me to wait and wait and wait until they were ready for a relationship. I feel like I put a lot in to whatever we were but at the end of the day I wasn’t getting enough out of it, even from a friendship’s point of view. I’m picky with the people around me, because I have to maintain a certain sanity in my life and sometimes I need not to be emerged in someone else’s bull shit. The reality was she just wasn’t that in to me and I’m cool with that. I’m a fan of keeping it real and not wasting time, which means if you’re not feeling me, move on and make some room in your life for the right person to fill that space instead of having Shaun Lamar temporarily in that spot thinking its permanent. That is just a thought. (I sound a little bitter huh, well maybe I am… lol) So the truth is I’m tired of being single. I’m at the point where I don’t even know how I act in a relationship because it’s been forever. I’m afraid that I may have become awkward. I have literary given up in the pursuit of a significant other. It’s tiring and the people I’ve been meeting just aren’t that great. There is no one even close to being Ms. D for Dramatic. If I talk to you and you think that we are something other than what we are this is in fact a wake up call. I’m a team of one right now and to tell you the truth that is exactly how it is going to be until someone shows me that they sincerely want to be a part of my world, maybe the center of it. Meanwhile I’m just going to work on myself and the different projects that I have lined up. People are always realizing, after being involved with me, that they love someone else so I always have house warming’s, weddings, and baby showers to go to. That’s just a little dark humor for you, even though it’s basically true and sad. The reality is I still have some changing to do before my life is ready to honestly support another person in it.

Hearts to Follow or Path of the Righteous

2013-07-08T14:06:00.000-07:00

Following hearts on these highways <3

At every given point in my life i'm 3 days from leaving everything and changing my life denying the moments in the direction I was going. Sometimes the need to follow my heart is stronger than the need to follow the program or "The Right" path as some would say.

My life in CaliforYeah or Reorganized Noise

2013-06-15T15:34:00.000-07:00

Port of San Francisco

First off I would like to give a shout out to my home town, Montgomery Alabama, I wasn’t born there but I was raised in the south and I feel we should never forget where we came from, having said that, I feel it’s getting real hard to connect with a place I used to know, maybe it’s because I’m so far away, but to tell you the truth it’s hard for me to connect with my old self, the person who I knew I knew I was, the person I used to be.

I can’t remember a time, while in Alabama, that I said “Boy do I love this place”. Besides having love for and having spirit for my high school and side of town I was from (Lee High School!!! EastsidE!!!!) I didn’t have much spirit or much love for Alabama.* I had a lot of love for the South but after living in some of the very best cities in 4 southern states I realized I didn’t like the South very much as I thought. I was ready to get out of the South and start a new life or just start my life in general

I’m an artist, I need an artist friendly city to live in. a city that wants to live it’s culture and breathe it’s residences. I came to California to live my life. I had no idea what was here I just was sick of my life in the Heart of Dixie and my life beneath the Mason Dixon line wasn’t getting any better. The spiral down was something to watch. I decided to change it. Freeing myself of my fears and all the things holding me back, which was myself. I had a habit of running to my comfort zone instead of trying to climb over walls and figure out ways around the bull shit that are the opportunities in the South. That comfort zone consists of hatred, jealousy, anger, suspicion, family, Alabama, negative criticism, insecurities, and self-doubt. Any time it would get hot in the kitchen I would run back to my comfort zone that I tried so hard to maintain.

My friend praying on the Bay

During this experience I’m learning a lot about myself and the world. I’m seeing that someone like me, with a head on his shoulders, has a responsibility to discover a better or a new way of living. We as a people should figure out where we are going wrong and fix it. Just like you as a human being work on yourself to become a better person, we should all work on creating a better environment and world for all of us. No matter the race, nationality or sex. We all want and search for the same things, we should just learn how to embrace each other and find what it is we’re seeking together. Two heads are better than one right? There is a world outside of the color of your skin and every day I live it. I love it. My perception of this world is exactly how my world is and so is yours. I stopped focusing on things that used to bother me and drive me nuts. Now it’s hard to even see those things exist. Not to say that my life is perfect and I shouldn’t work on myself. It’s not perfect and every day I continue to work on myself, my life, and the world around me. We can all act blind and try to ignore what is going on but don’t you want to make your life better and get into a position where you can possibly make someone else life better as well? It doesn’t take much to spread a little love every day, most people like smiles, Me on the other hand, I LOVE SMILES!!! Won’t be many time you see me without one on my face. The next time you are all flustered and upset about anything, take a minute to breathe and put a smile on your face and I promise you won’t be upset anymore, and if you are you will feel really silly with a bad attitude and a smile on your face.

I truly enjoy my life in California. Every day I do exactly what I want to do. Which is mostly exploring the city. One day my friend and I found a cave, it was pretty cool. I’ll make this statement today but don’t quote me on it; San Francisco is my home, I think it will be for the rest of my life. Now saying that I haven’t finished traveling yet nor have I lived in all the places I want to live in. I think my next destination will be Rome. Why Rome? Well I don’t know I just do what I feel. Will I live in Rome or just visit? Who knows? I have whole continents to explore and experience. I’m finding out what freedom really is and how much I used to limit myself and my experiences by making definite statement about things. That goes for everything in my life not just the things I think suck, even things I really enjoy.

My favorite time of the day in one of my secret spot

While I’m here in San Francisco I have somewhat of a plan, it’s more of a destination, but none the less it’s an achievable believable goal. So every day I’ll continue to work towards it and continue to grow my brands and have lots of fun while I’m at it. Also there will be temporary hold on all edited photos because I lost the phone that I used to do all that graphic design stuff on, so yeah if someone would like to donate an android tablet I would greatly appreciate, it can be the cheapest, I just need anything to work on. J

*I have a lot of love for southern FOOTBALL though #TeamWAREAGLE #TeamSEC

Pier Nonsense or Dated Up

2013-06-11T16:56:00.000-07:00

In the BAY chilling

I’m sitting on the Pier, just thinking and I start to think about relationships and the whole concept of the forbidden fruit, you know wanting what you can’t have. I thought really hard about it and decided to pull out my laptop and write. The concept it’s self is simple; people want what they can’t have. My question is why? And since we’ve come to the realization that people do seem to want what is outta of reach, why haven’t we, as a human race, put a stop to it. I mean wanting what you can’t have is where a lot of problems start. From wanting other people to wanting land or other’s country. I guess you can relate it to people thinking that the grass is always greener on the other side, and you always miss what you don’t have anymore. Why haven’t we figured out a resolution to these saying that have been passed down from decades, centuries, who really knows how long? I mean can we figure out a way to know when we are thinking in this manner? Can we appreciate what we have before it’s too late? Or how about knowing what makes the grass so green on the other side. I know we all have our journeys to go on, and we have all these experiences to learn from but it’s it time to find some new ways of living? I mean obviously we have been living in this sort of manner for a long time for there to be parables, myth, fairy tales, tale tales, and legends about them. Some are even written in Egyptian stone. That’s a long time to be living a certain way. What’s the benefit of the thought? Or rather the action because thoughts are just the beginning, the actual action going toward the direction of these experiences is where the problem lies.

I wasn’t going to just post a blog and act like I’ve been posting all along. Here’s a little explaining:

I figure I should make a decision about all this work I need to either get done or are actually in the process of getting done. I may be changing the name of this blog and or just shutting this blog down all together and focus more on the mental marauders blog. This blog was never really part of the branding it was just something I was doing that lasted a long time. It’s really the beginning of what I’ve always wanted to do and what I’m going to do. I have to figure out some things. Meanwhile mental marauders will be getting a much needed boost. A website will be coming so it will be easier to reach all of the aspect of D for Dramatic. Thank you for the patients and encouragement and continued support. There will be more

That D is Just so DRAMATIC!!!

2013-04-25T11:11:00.000-07:00

Greeting people, I guess I should tell people what is going on. A lot of ya’ll have been in the dark and the people that know somethings only know a little bit. I guess if I died today than all this information that I’m holding on to would die with it so let me expose myself and what I’m doing and what will come in the future for Shaun Lamar and D for Dramatic.

About 3 weeks ago I was depressed and I really hated my life because it was going nowhere fast. I thank my friends for helping me keep my head up and try keep a positive attitude. I had an idea to move to California since I moved back to Montgomery from New Orleans. It was so far-fetched to me and in my mind of timelines; it was at least a year out. I’m not going to tell the story today of how I got to San Francisco from Montgomery, leaving with only $50 in gas money and a prayer that maybe we’ll get there. Soon there will be a blog or maybe a book or something that I will write for you guys to check out. That project is still in the idea stage as of right now, plus I’m still getting situated here. My hope is to inspire you guys out there to live your dreams, follow your institution, and truly live life how we all were all meant to. If there was ever one person that found happiness in life than why can’t it be you as well? Nobody is too far gone. So what will I be doing in San Francisco? That’s the question the police asked us when we got stopped in Arizona, “Live” is the answer I gave, and it’s the answer I’m giving you as well. Because sides my smart ass answer, D for Dramatic is what I’m about, soon you all will be able to have some of my art in your house, on shirts, hats, bracelets, all kinds of stuff. More writings and more pictures, videos, art, music, and more poetry. Eventually I will open an art gallery that may host poetry nights and stuff like that. Do ya’ll like wine and cheese? We can eat cheese and sip on wine and talk about past lives and share love stories, or watch comedy or listen to spoken word, I don’t know what ya’ll are going to want to do, but we’ll be able to do it. So that’s basically the direction I’m headed in and that’s basically what D for Dramatic is. I thank all of you for supporting me and my endeavors even when you had no idea what they were. Together we can change the world by loving and supporting good things that promote positive ideas and love above all. So I’ll keep everyone posted and expect more awesome things, I love you… oh and I don’t hate my life anymore… it rocks!!

ya'll go over to http://mentalmarauders.blogspot.com/ and check out what we have over there

Never Made Love

2013-03-27T13:57:00.000-07:00

Once upon a time I was walking home listening to my ipod, probably bopping to my “COOL OUT-ter space vibe” playlist which consist of artist like India Irie, Jill Scott, Mos Def, Common, Outkast, Kanye, The Roots, de la soul, and a few others. I don’t remember what song was playing but whatever it was it made me think of all the people I’ve slept with. The quote was “I’ve never made love” and I know what you’re thinking, “That’s that song Bad by Wale and Terria Thomas”, this is true, they do say that in that song but this wasn’t the song I was listening to. However it did make me think of that song and how all of a sudden people went from getting good dick on the regular to never have been made love. The whole concept is laughable to me because I never believe someone who talks a lot when they are trying to defend how much they love their life. Happily (I use that word loosely) married women are saying they never made love… Awkward much? Much. So it got those wheels in my head turning and thinking about all the people I’ve had sex with and quickly my head broke down the concept of making love verses just having sex. I guess if I could dumb it down (and I did for this thought) I’d say that making love is having sex with someone you love. In my life I’ve been in love twice that I know for sure of. I’ve had sex with more than two people so I know I’ve had sex without being in love before. so the question is have I ever made love? I thought getting to this point it might be easy, but the two people I was in love with were not the people I had sex with… oops. Which got me thinking “damn I’ve never had sex with someone I was in love with… hmmm…” I kind of shocked myself as I went through my head of names and sexual encounters. It hasn’t been that many so it wasn’t as hard as some of the rest of you. I don’t judge so continue on with your count. By average standards I guess you can say I’m a prude. I’m not knocking down as many as the rest of you. I take pride in having a low number, I like to think I have value and everyone knows rarity makes the price go up. So I’m not out there “banging sluts” and “taking hoes down through there” as some of my brothers would phrase it. I’d like to think I was rather selective and one day when I do meet my wife I can truly give her the gift of me pleasuring her until the stars and moon fall from the sky, cause I can do stuff like that, not to brag or nothing but I’m certified. Okay let me stop. This was actually on my mind for a couple of days so I decided to write about it. Maybe you got something from it, I personally think it’s kind of sad that I’ve never made love but I sure know how to… okay I’m done for real this time.

Untitled Thoughts I

2013-03-12T11:23:00.001-07:00

In this world of confusion and understanding we go through life trying to figure out a purpose to life and maybe even just a point behind it. The big question: why do we exist? I think the bigger question is how we exist. I think we can all come to a conclusion that we do in fact exist and maybe we’ve come to a conclusion that maybe there is something more than us or greater than us that we come from (God, the source, the universe, Allah, Buddha, Krishna, the One ). If you do any research on any religion, ancient civilization, ancient beliefs, the human body, psychology, quantum physics, or whatever you will find that the human existence is not who we are. You’ll find out that we are a spirit in a human body having a human experience and if you do some further research you may find that a Soul/Spirit itself is in fact eternal, which is something that we, thinking and experiencing physical life, cannot even previse of because everything that we know has an expiration date, even these physical bodies. If we can’t be 100% certain on anything in this physical life we can be certain about these two facts, 1. We exist, and 2. We will die. There are a bunch of great answers floating around to age old questions like where do we go when we die and what is spirit. If you really do some research you may find that we have past lives and that we float in a pool of energy and we attract everything into our lives. If you do some more research you might find out that at every giving time you are in fact perfect. You might run into the golden number ratio, the Fibonacci spiral, astral projection, channeling, spirit guides, your higher self, the id, the ego, and the superego, future lives, parallel universes, the perfection of the spirit, the 4 agreements, chakras, merkabahs, movements, philosophies, wormholes, the real history of humans, even aliens, oh the list goes on and on. They don’t have this information in one particular class all these are subjects that come from that question; why do we exist? Pounds and pounds of evidence to support these theories and concepts, If you ever decide that you want to write about life and how it is, you’d better be prepared to write in pencil because the information that is out there will change your life and it will lead you something else you didn’t know that may even contradict what you once thought to be the absolute truth. How about the hollow earth theory where it’s said that another race of human being living in our core which has its on sun, or the theory that the moon is a satellite and was placed there. It’s always good to keep an open mind and not to dismiss something immediately when you hear it because once upon a time that way of thinking dismissed the world being round, even though ancient civilizations left us road maps about the earth and the heavens. There’s a book out there that gives a road map and explains the 5^th dimension which is what our conscience is shifting to, our next stage on the evolutional ladder. Don’t take my word for it you should do your own research. I can talk until I’m blue in the face (and if you let me, I will… lol) but at the end of the day what I know doesn’t help you much. We may be a part of the oneness but we all are a part of our own conciseness as well as the collective. If you think about it too much you’ll get confused it’s not hard it’s really simple. Turns out, life is as simple as breathing, when we think about breathing we fuck it up… everything. Like I was telling my new buddy this morning, “Life is happening and it is gonna happen, we just need to ride with it”. Peace my brothers and sisters we are love, Namaste’

God Like Me

2013-02-28T12:35:00.000-08:00

I don’t know how to start this off and maybe I’m premature in this thought. So I’ll just write and see what comes out of it. I heard a concept that cities are living organisms. The consideration of this idea has sent a tidal wave of thoughts and other concepts my way, mixing with that thinks I believe and know. I guess you can say my mind was blown. My mind went in to overdrive and I just keep thinking and adding and coming up with more ideas and more concepts. Would you like to know some of these things that have popped into my mind? Of course you do. Well one concept is that if cities are living organisms wouldn’t that make us cells? And every interaction and reaction affects the organism as cells in our own bodies affect us. If a city is a body wouldn’t we (the people living in the cities) be the blood cells? If we take a step back and consider a city as a human body, isn’t it true that some people don’t get along? Some people even fight. Other humans love each other; it’s the relationship I’m talking about. Consider the universe as cell or a blood cell. The possibility is endless if you consider that what happens on earth affect the universe as a whole and not just the earth. The idea of oneness and the collective has a whole new meaning.

Thought/Idea/Concept #2: We are Gods. Now before I start I just want to say this is an idea or a thought and if you feel offended it’s your own fault because this is not an attack or an attempt of conversion it’s just an idea to be considered, if you dismiss it immediately that is fine as well. With all my searching and studying what this life is supposed to be I’ve come into a boat load of information. This information has changed the way I see the world and the things I believe. It has been a long road to be at the point of understanding and openness that I am today and when I started (unknowingly) I had not the slightest idea that I would be where I am and I would believe what I believe. A while back one of my friends was telling me about these mind blowing questions that one of her friend had about god. At the time I just couldn’t imagine what kind of mind blowing questions you could really ask about god. So I asked not knowing what I was going to get. They responded by saying something like “What if god is a beginning god?” and “What if god doesn’t know what his is doing?”. I’m totally paraphrasing what they said, I’m really just trying to convey the idea that the god we look to for answers may not have the answers and that he may make mistakes. At the time I’m not sure if I believed in god to that effect so verbally I may have not given much contemplation to it. To tell you the truth, it was way over my head, but I never forgot it, maybe because it was just so weird to me to think that god could be like us. Even though I think we are makers of our universe and we are all one, I had old concepts that I learned about god, that he is a separate entity from us. The bible clearly says as well as all religious intuitions that god is everything, that doesn’t exclude my little dumb understanding of what I think is Shaun, my consciousness. If you believe in past lives and that your soul is eternal that means you could possibly believe that we built the pyramids and crucified Jesus and invented fire and lived through the stone and Ice age, but what about before that? If we are eternal doesn’t that mean we’ve always existed? My soul was not born on February 13 1985 in Omaha Nebraska, that’s when this body was born into this world. As far as I know we were (and still are) the animals, dinosaurs, the fish, the first fish to walk on land, the little sea creatures that look like ribs that they found fossilized in stones from a million years ago, we are the first cells and the big bang and star dust and all that other galactic shit that has been around before there was an earth and milky way. All I’m saying is that the reason given that we come back lifetime after lifetime is for the perfection of the spirit. Which leads me to the concept and idea that maybe, just maybe, we are being groomed to be gods and our consciousness (soul) will have its own creation one day. Maybe a billion trillion zillion years from now but none the less maybe it’s true. I believe in a spirit world and I believe in aliens that there are other worlds and creations out there. I think it’s a little silly to look up at the sky at night and see all those stars (Suns) out there and come to the conclusion that we are the only thing that exists ever. But if you don’t believe that we are souls in human bodies and that we are infinite than how can you even consider the idea of you being a god one day? Or now for that matter. Isn’t said that time is an illusion? As I said before this is just an idea or a concept that came to my mind, not saying that this is the truth and who says that there has to be one truth. Could it be possible to exist every time someone thinks about you? What’s the difference in experiencing something in a dream and experiencing it in real life? To your brain the answer is nothing. That should put a damper on what you previse as reality

Thought/Idea/Concept #3: The idea that synthetic and man-made is unnatural, human beings are natural, we grow we live we interact our existence matters because we affect the world. I thought about consciousness being able to bring back things that are extinct, like in the movie Jurassic Park. You know that we are headed in that direction right? Everything is just a chromosome and molecule away from each other right? It won’t be long before we are able to see animals that have long past and be able to eat fruit that we never knew existed before. If cities look like organisms and everything is accidentally designed by the golden ratio, which is the same ratio that everything not manmade is subject to it, wouldn’t it seem that synthetic is actually natural. It would seem that everything is in divine order, which in fact it is.

After getting all that out I am exhausted, I guess I needed to get that out because my mind was racing. I think I have more thought/Ideas/concepts but they will have to wait for another day. Tomorrow is my birthday so this may come after I write something about that whole thing. I hope you enjoyed this and maybe I have put something on your mind that you may consider and think about later my only advice is be careful and be open to the possibilities that your mind can take you. P.S. none of this was drug induced lol

Mirror's Edge

2013-02-28T08:40:00.002-08:00

I started to write a fairy tale that is my life, I wanted to name it honestly honesty, as in this is my real life as I see it right now. It was hard to write but I couldn't figure out why. Most of the time when I write these post seem to write themselves, I just put the words on the paper. Instead of trying to force an idea I’ll just write what is on my mind. For the past few weeks I have studying and looking at different lectures on youtube, Yeah I nerd out sometimes, but I don’t have a job and school is not an option right now so I have to keep up the brain activity the best way I can. Most of the lectures have been about life and the way we precise it. I’m one of the first people the quickly yell about the law of attraction and quantum physics, unbeknownst to myself, these ideas and concepts have been slowly introducing and integrating themselves into my life. When I hear things now I understand them almost immediately because I’ve heard parts of it before, it’s crazy how life steers you a direction and us being oblivious look up and wonder how we got where we are. I feel like I’m in the movie “Revolver” where the main character Jake Green (Played by Jason Statham) applies this formula, these rules or guideline (the ultimate con) to his life and becomes everything he wanted. But before he could become who he was supposed to be he had to gain success in his mind only to lose it just to see what he was really supposed to become. If you’ve never seen it, go check it out, it has Andre3000 and it discusses the Ego in a since of it being a separate entity from your true self, which I believe to be true in some aspect. These past couple of weeks the physical has been breaking down to me and I have been able to see the spiritual side of things. This information has changed my perception of life and the direction my life is actually going in. I realize that we may reincarnate but I will never be a Shaun Lamar again. In that sense “YOLA” has a truer meaning to me. Knowing this fact, I will never be “Me” again, should take away all my fears and allow me to take more risk. Not stupid risks but risks that where before I was doubting myself and having an unrealistic expectation. I suffer from the “It can’t happen to/for me” disease, which is self-defeating before I even try. I guarantee that I’ve miss 100% of the shots I didn’t take. I’d get anxiety over decisions that I needed to make, not realizing that what I was anxious about wasn’t even real, the scenarios that I dreamed up in my head were not even reality. I can’t tell the future all I can do is speculate and in that since I should have no expectations. Most of the time I’m doing something for the first time and there is no way to know how something would turn out anyway. It is kind of arrogant of me to think that my life can’t be changed, that certain events can’t go my way. The truth is with this thinking nothing will go my way. At every given time our life is perfect, even in destruction it is a balancing of our energy pushing and pulling at all times. We are attracting our lives and we get exactly what we want no matter how conscious we are of it. The law of attraction is more than just wishful thinking; it’s more than just having a positive attitude, it’s truly believing in yourself and God (if you believe in god) and the process of life. We created this world and everything in it. It’s perfect and there is no reason to ever think that it will not be alright.

It's My Birthday

2013-02-13T07:18:00.003-08:00

Email I got this morning... <3

Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu,

Happy Birrrrthday Dear Shaun,

Happy Birrrrthday to Youuuu!

A few years back, not so long ago, heaven and earth erupted into a major celebration with the news of your impending adventure into this very time and space. You see, someone like Shaun Darden doesn't come along all that often. In fact, there's never been a single one like you, nor is there ever ANY possibility that another will come again. You're an Angel among us. Someone, whose eyes see what no others will EVER see, whose ears hear what no others will EVER hear, and whose perspective and feelings will NEVER, ever be duplicated. Without YOU, the Universe, and ALL THAT IS, would be sadly less than it is.

Quite simply:

You're the kind of person, Shaun,

Who's hard to forget,

A one-in-a-million

To the people you've met.

Your friends are as varied

As the places you go,

And they all want to tell you

In case you don't know:

That you make a big difference

In the lives that you touch,

By taking so little

And giving so much!

Shaun, you are so AWESOME! For your birthday, friends and angels from every corner of the Universe, including buddies you didn't know you had, will be with you to wish you the HAPPIEST of days and an exciting new year in time and space. You won't be alone!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, Shaun!

Considering a Truth

2013-02-11T08:29:00.000-08:00

72 days for freedom (Atlanta 2012)

There is a way that we believe the Universe works that is wrong. This way has been passed down from generation to generation, From family to family, from continent to continent. How do I know it’s wrong? Because of the evidence against it. This one way that we think the universe works puts us in a helpless state, having us to believe that we have no effect on our lives, our destiny and the world in general, that we are the subject to the will of “it is what it is”. The truth is we are creators of our destiny, we are creators of our lives and we are creators of this world. That doesn't cancel out god in the instance that you believe there is a God. I believe in a divine creator or a master creator however that fact has nothing to do with anything unless you consider that my thoughts, what I believe in, along with your thoughts, what you believe in help shape or create the future. We are masters of this world and we don’t know it. Our lives can be so much richer and be more fulfilling if we just believe that we can and are shaping this world how it is. Instead of giving our power and control away to bad ideas, bad people, bad beliefs, and bad perceptions, we can keep our power and use our collective energy to shape a better experience for everyone on earth. The blockage or absence of this truth that we are divine ourselves is the reason we live in turmoil and destruction. It’s not an accident, there is a plan in order, but this plan is dependent on what we believe, our perception on how the universe works. There have been countless studies and books written that confirms that we are these entities of energy and what we put out in what we believe is how the world is. That’s where it starts by believing. It’s a will know fact that we are not these human bodies; we are not even the embodiment of these human bodies. There is such thing as a higher conscious and a higher self. There is a world that is deep in the memory of everyone that lives and everyone that has ever lived, matter of fact we are everyone that has ever lived. Anyone who has had a near death experience will attest to the fact that we are in fact immortal, that we go on existing after a physical death. It’s written about in ever religion and every tradition and “myth”. I use the word myth loosely because what we believe is truth and myth has it’s connotations with disbelief and skepticism.

Immortality

Buddhism

The Self is the Lord of Self… When a man subdues well his self, he will find a Lord very difficult to find… knowing that his body is like froth, knowing that its nature is that of a mirage, the disciple passes untouched by death… he in whom the desire for the Ineffable has anisen, whose mind is permeated by that desire, whose thoughts are not distracted by lower desires, he is named “Bound upstream”

Christianity

That the dead are raised to life again shown by Moses himself in the story of the burning bush, when calls the lord, “The God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob,” God is not God of the dead but if the living; for him we all are alive.

You are gods. Those are called gods to whom the word of God was delivered… no one who is alive and has faith shall ever die

Hinduism

That knowledge which though the soul is realization of both the known and the knower is… wisdom… Whenever anything is produced, it is due to the union of the body and the soul. The deluded do not see the spirit when it quitteth or remains in the body.

Deep within abides another life, not like the life of the sense, escaping sight, unchanging. This endures when all created things have passed away

The individual soul is nothing else in essence than universal soul… Human beings all are as head, arms, trunk, and legs unto one another.

Islam

Riches are not from an abundance of worldly goods, but from a contented mind. Whatever good you do for others, you send it before your own soul and shall find it with God, who seest all you do.

Judaism

The Lord is my shepherd; I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures… he restoreth my soul… Yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for Thou art with me… Surely goodness and merry shall follow me all the days of my life; and I shall dwell in the house of the Lord forever.

Just a few examples of how every religion talks about how we are eternal spirits and live on after a physical death. It is not proof but if you believe that what you believe is the truth than it is a form of proof. Now the question is “do you believe the truth?” it’s been writing right under our noses. The fact is we live this life every day; we are living proof that we shape our lives, we are live truth. Doesn't what we do today and right now have a direct effect on what happens tomorrow? Isn't it true that what we experienced yesterday has a direct effect on how we act today? Don’t we use experience to handle life in the present? I don’t have the answers and I don’t have it all figured out, but they say the first step to solving a problem is realizing that you have a problem, and lets be truthful there is a problem with our lives and how we live and the way this world operates and if we never come to the realization that this is true than we will never fix it. I’m tired of living like this, and I don’t have to ask you because I know you are too. I see it all around, it’s one thing to be optimistic and have faith and it’s another thing to actually be happy and live in real love and truth. All we have is right now, the future is a story and the past is one as well, what matters is right now, because what we do right now and what we believe right now is what we will become. We are what we think, let’s think love, peace, harmony, oneness, empowerment and then use what we think to motivate our actions into making a place where love, peace, harmony, oneness and empowerment are the only things that matters.

Just Breath, Be Brave, and have No Regrets

2013-02-01T15:51:00.001-08:00

sunsets

Happy February!! My favorite month, let’s see you have black history month, my birthday and a host of Aquarius birthdays, Valentine’s day not to mention a couple of my favorite Pisces are born in February. I’ve decided to start my resolutions this month, I always use January as a buffer zone or a transitional phrase, or a trial run to see if I like and/or can actually do the resolution. Most of them are really goals and not really resolutions, I just want to maximize my success. Another thing I’ve decided to do with my goals this year is to write them in a form of achievements, as if it was January 1, 2014 and I was looking back at 2013 and all that I’ve done that year. I don’t know if it will work but if I think about it as already done and achieved than isn’t that the same as willing it done?, Law of Attraction, it’s also in the bible so I figured it couldn’t hurt. So with all that being said I guess you imagined that this post was going to be about my resolutions? Or maybe black history month? I’m actually writing about something different and maybe my theme of this year, which I think will be “No regrets”. Which I rarely ever have them but sometimes I hold back when I know I can go harder. So this year I won’t regret any choices I make, I’ve decided to listen to my heart and be brave. Sometimes in life when we’re faced with a decision we’re overwhelmed and a bit anxious, I know I do. I’ve had a panic attack or two in my time. I just know that if I go by the track record of my life no matter what I’m faced with at the time, no matter what obstacle I’ll have to get over everything will be just fine just like it always has been. I remember one time I was going to get an i.d. made because my license had been suspended. I went through the whole process of filling out the paper work and smiling for my picture and they actually printed my I.D. out. Right before the guy was about to give me my i.d. he stopped and said that the big guy in charge wanted to see me. I really didn’t think anything about it, silly me. I foolishly went to the back of the building (which was packed with police officer) into this guy’s office. When I entered he was on the phone and just pointed for me to sit down. I sat down and the guy who escorted me left and shut the door behind him, still not thinking anything about it I’m just sitting there twiddling my thumbs. He put the phone on speaker phone and when someone answered he told them that they had someone down here and they need to send a county car because he has a warrant for an unpaid ticket. Oh hell, now I’m sweating, mind going a million miles an hour trying to figure out what ticket and how much it was and how the hell am I going to get out of here. My first instinct was to talk, so I started talking and asking a bunch of questions and he wasn’t budging. The only thing that was saving me some time was they didn’t have any squad cars to come get me. So he started asking me question. Questions I didn’t want to answer like; “is someone with you?”, and “how did you get here?”, and “did you know you had a warrant?”. After answering the questions; “No nobody is with me”, “I drove my car it’s outside”, and ”No I didn’t know I had a warrant” he asked me if my license were suspended why the hell was I driving? I didn’t have an answer to give him. He just shook his head and call the county jail again. He told me the ticket was some 200 dollars. I pulled out a wad of cash and was like” look, I have it right here” (I can’t remember why I had all the money on me but I was making moves that day)”Just let me go and I’ll go pay it “this dude was not budging one bit. All I was thinking was I got to get the fuck out of here. I’m thinking up all kind of scenarios, what if I just walk up out of here? How many police did I see on the way coming back here? How many could I fight off and get to the door? Could I make it to my car? How far would I make it out of the parking lot? Will I be on the news tonight? I was looking at the windows like “can I break through that?” I was just canceling all those ideas and was thinking “naw I’m not going to jail, something is about to happen, I can’t go to jail today I got other things to do” all of a sudden it was like the heavens opened and he looked at me and was like “you can go”. I was like “What the fuck?”. He said they aren’t sending anyone to come get you and we don’t have anyone here to take you so just go but you can’t have your i.d., I tried to run up out of there before he changed his mind. He walked with me to the front door and a squad car pulled up and this police officer stepped out and said “Ya’ll called and said ya’ll needed me to take someone to jail” and I stopped walking and looked at him and head guy looked at me and told the police officer “naw”. He let me get in my truck with no license and a warrant and I drive off. I went and paid that ticket, and that’s an example in my life that I know everything will be alright. That wasn’t the first or the last time something like that has happened to me. Over and over again I’ve been in sticky situations and I’ve made it out just fine. I’m very thankful that I didn’t go to jail that day and every other time I didn’t go to jail or didn’t get a ticket, or didn’t get caught, or didn’t die, I’ve done some very foolish things in my life and time after time I’ve gotten second chances so I know everything will be just fine. So when you find yourself in a situation where it doesn’t seem like there’s a way out just stay calm and breathe, be brave and know that everything will be all good. Just believe.

A Voice from the People!!

2013-01-31T17:39:00.000-08:00

Hello this is just a little update since I haven’t updated in a while. My plan was to write about my New Year’s goals and I’m still going to do that but this month (January) I have just been trying out my Resolutions. So Feb 1 is the real date that I will start my resolutions. As far as this blog goes I will continue to write and post I have a couple of things that I haven’t posted yet and my plan as a whole was to move this blog in the direction of spirituality, I may change the name, I may not, but look forward to upcoming post about soul mates, past lives, Chakras crystals, ascension, the afterlife, astral projection, dreams, déjà vu, the law of attraction, astrology, astronomy, incites, agreements and much much more. I hope you all like the direction that I've decided to go in and I look forward to sharing with you

3...2...1...YAY 2013!!!!

2012-12-30T02:24:00.001-08:00

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I thought today is the last day in in 2012. I wanted to do like this huge information dump where I released all this information I’ve been holding on to but I guess time caught up to me and I’ve really only written one post plus I have been working on the other blog I have. I don’t know, maybe you’ve heard of it? “How to Start a Revolution”. There’s my plug for my other work. It’s getting consist hits and I’m pleased with it. I’m really excited to find out exactly what it will become in 2013 as we continue to post and update the blog.

I always love this time of the year because of New Year’s holiday. It’s always a good time to reflect on the past year’s achievement and reevaluate the past years disappointments. I try not to be cliché but I think we all get caught up in the hopes of possibilities of the new year. There’s so much to hope for, it’s almost as if it’s a new beginning. It feels like we can be a new person. At least it feels that way to me. I don’t care if you think I’m cliché, I’m going to do better in 2013. I have goals that already have time limits on them. I wouldn't call them resolutions but I’m going to achieve them and work on them. I’m excited about 2013. I was born on the 13^th, so that should mean something, right? My main goal for the year and every year is to work on myself and not limit my possibilities by small minded thinking. I’m going to work on not criticizing my friends, because I don’t think it helps when people are on their journey in life. Especially if they didn't ask, I guess there is a point when you see your friend going in a direction where we would perceive as bad but I don’t think if it’s a deadly direction than we shouldn't give our two cents about it. We’re here to support our people, even if that means we can’t see their vision, we should just trust that they believe it and encourage them to greatness. As far as this blog goes I don’t have any plans in stopping. It may slow down a bit with me being back in school and working on other project but I don’t plan on stopping this blog. However I think in the new year I may be getting more metaphysical with topics about; balancing your energies, Chakras Soul mates, Past lives, Astro-projections, Astrology, and other stuff relating to those topics. I’m not sure if those are subject that you all will be interested in but that is the direction my life is headed and these are the subjects that I’m increasingly being attracted and attached to and I enjoy talking about these subjects. I look forward to doing some more great things in 2013. I hope you all had a wonderful year and I hope next year will be more abundant and loving to you. With everlasting and unconditional love Happy New Year!!!

Last picture i'll take this year 2012

Like it's the End of the World

2012-12-16T11:37:00.000-08:00

I couldn't resist writing about this because I love history and the Ancient world and science fiction and New Age stuff. So there’s this Mayan calendar that’s about end, or rather start a new cycle on December 21, 2012. I guess I could tell you what I think, but who really cares if I think the poles are going to shift causing a flood to rival the floor that all the ancient cultures wrote about, or who cares if I believe an asteroid is coming or a rouge planet is coming the size of earth that will smash into our earth and case another Ice Age or if I believe a solar flare is going to cause all of our electronics to no longer function. I’m not telling you I believe in any of that, and I’m not telling you if I don’t believe in any of that, just know that I have done my research and I’m confident in what I do believe in. I would encourage you to do the same if you’re interested. One way or another, whatever is coming, is coming and a simple writer such as myself can’t do anything about it. So I’m cool whatever happens or doesn't happen.

For the past couple of week my friends and I have been discussing post-apocalyptic scenario. Question like how long would you make it if you this were to happen or if that were to happen. It got me thinking about the movie Castaway (also it came on TV) where a guy is stranded on an island and has to survive to the best of his ability. And it got me thinking about the TV show Lost, which was about a plane crashing on an island and they had to start over and survive. Lost was nothing like castaway and they weren’t alone on the island, sigh, I miss lost, what a great television show. So the question came up what would be the hardest thing to deal with and what would you miss the most? I just starting thinking and pondering and I just blurted out that I would be sad that I wouldn’t remember the words to my favorite songs or just songs in general. I mean of course the obvious; you’d miss your family, friends, electricity, hot showers and soap, sex, maybe driving, probably computers and what not. But I think it would break my heart to wake up one morning with a tune in my head, which is something that often happens, and not remember the exact words that went with it. I guess music plays a pretty big role in my life. I mean I’m constantly listening to it, and constantly talking about it. I guess if the end of the world happens then music would be something that I miss the most.

Gayerific

2012-12-13T15:10:00.001-08:00

Our difference should only be something that we use to experience life with one another. I’m not talking about the color of our skin or our race, which is a constant subject in our country. I mean things like we should go see a movie together because we both like movies or we should go sky diving together because we both like to jump out of the sky. I’m not going to lie and say I haven’t promoted my race and skin color, because I have. At this point I’m wondering if I would have as much pride or feel the need to openly express if my culture and past hadn’t been ripped from existence. With this country founded on the basis of freedom, because they were tired of being persecuted by England, you’d wonder how United became so divided. It’s seems to be a trend, it’s almost as if there has to be something bad if America the beautiful is to remain good. It’s easy to follow the trail of racism in America; there was a big war about it, followed by a history of discrimination and segregation attempts. That is the history of the division of black Americans. You can trace back all other races including religious beliefs as well. If fighting for race and real religious freedom wasn’t enough, America has decided to attack who we are and what we love. Yes I’m talking about our sexual preference and who we chose to love. Admittedly I’ve never been gay so I couldn’t tell you about my experiences with coming out to my parents and dealing with my sexuality because I don’t have any of those experiences. I can only imagine how one would feel to have to go through something that is naturally you and the world seems to hate. I personality don’t understand what the fuss is about. I would say it’s not my fight but some of my closest friends are gay, and their fight is always my fight. So let’s talk about it.

This is the way I see it; spirit has no gender and it’s true that inside of us we are both male and female or rather feminine and masculine. I believe in soul mates as I’ve stated time and time again, a soul doesn’t have a sexual preference because there is no gender in spirit. That goes the same for skin color and religious belief. You’re born what you are and it cannot be changed. You can try and suppress it but you will be much happier if you chose to live what you are instead of what some made up rule says you should be. Feeling are real I don’t chose to be jealous I just get jealous. I don’t chose to be upset about something I just get upset about something. True the way I handle that feeling is important but the actually feeling itself is out of my control. Love should not be regulated and people should not have to hide who they are. Everyone should be treated with love and respect. If there’s a rule/law that gay people can’t get married than no one should be able to get married. It’s selfish to think otherwise in a united country. We outta be ashamed of ourselves to keep letting these differences divide us. When can we focus on something other than differences? Can we focus on what we have in common? There’s an unseen agenda that is happening and it’s going unnoticed because whoever’s agenda it is keeps pulling rabbits of hats and we keep looking at the rabbit and go man where did that rabbit come from? When it isn’t even about the rabbit, it’s just to distract us from the next trick

And another thing the opposite of Gay is not straight or normal. You’re either homosexual or heterosexual. We talk so destructive to each other and we shouldn't There are powers in words and we should all watch what we label ourselves and others.

Namaste'

2012-11-11T11:50:00.002-08:00

A scene from the movie "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" where Joel says to himself "If only i could meet someone new" not knowing that the person he wanted to meet was a person that he had already known before <3

Namaste': The God in me recognizes the God in you

I don’t profess to be anything other than what I am. I see the world as I see it and if that’s different from the way others see it I’m perfectly fine with that. I don’t have all the answers and I’m not even sure if the answers I know are the correct ones. I find that one only has to believe something to be true for it to be true. (What you believe is the truth andtruth is a lie) I experience life just like everyone does, I’ve just decided to tell people about my experiences and what I’ve come to learn about myself and life as I see it. I love that people are inspired by the things I've written and done in my life as I am inspired by everyone I meet. I love to hear about people’s lives, how they've conquered fears and climbed over obstacles, how they’ve fallen in and out of love, how they've belonged and related. It’s all beautiful to me, life is beautiful to me. This is how I see life.

I see life as a flow of perfect energy, always pushing and pulling. I see us as spirits in a human body. I believe our spirits are eternal as energy can never be destroyed. Our spirits are energy. I believe we are always connected to the source, God. God is us as he (Not referring to a gender) is everything. I see our lives as being perfect. Whatever our individual purpose maybe in this life our spirit is always going towards that direction. I believe that our life and energy is at all times is in perfect balance with our purpose. I believe that our energies attract one another to complete a need that has to be met, or a lesson that has to be learned or taught. Even though we may not perceive it to be true I believe that in every interaction or relationship we are equally fulfilling one another’s need. I don’t believe in coincidences, our personalities and attributes are just for us to recognize each other in our physical bodies. Spirit is our true nature and we can feel each other without ever seeing each other, that’s what we call vibes or vibration. In this dimension everything is vibrating. Just as a fish is in water we are surrounded by vibration. I believe that this is how the law of attraction works. Our thoughts (vibration) are sent out and we get what we attract weather negative or positive. I don’t know any of what I said to be facts nor am I trying to convert you into my way of thinking, I’m just saying what I believe today. Tomorrow I may believe something else.

Belief is important in our lives it’s what guides us and helps us make our decisions. I think it is very important to know what you believe in, to know your own process of how you make decisions. I don’t have it figured out by far but at the rate I’m learning new things I’ll be learning for life times to come. I’m thankful to be alive, I’m thankful to be able to have experiences, I’m thankful for every person I meet and have ever come across. At the end of the day you are human being and your trying to navigate through this world just like I am, and who am I to judge your journey. I hope I get to hear your story someday, if not I love you just the same. If I can give some advice it would be, follow your heart you can’t go wrong, God is in there. He may need you to walk through the fire to get you to see your own light because some people, who are stubborn like me, need that. So follow your heart and love is the answer.

Namaste'