The Cryptic Soul

The Quiet Funeral of Your Potential

2025-08-09T12:01:00.000+05:30

It feels good, doesn’t it?

To do nothing.
To lie down, grab a slice of pizza, sip a cold drink, munch on snacks, dim the lights, and lose yourself in a gripping thriller. One episode after another, the story pulls you in, and you’re loving every minute of it.

But while you’re enjoying yourself, something is quietly dying.

It’s your dreams.

They’re gasping for air—thirsty for your action, your consistency, your dedication. Instead, you starve them of the attention they deserve, while feeding your time to things that bring no real value to your life. You live in an illusion of pleasure and an inflated self-image, convincing yourself you’re “doing okay,” when deep down, you know the truth—you’re just avoiding the work.

You are enslaved by laziness, paralyzed by comfort, and frozen by habits that slowly poison your life and choke your potential.

Pleasure, in itself, is not wrong. In fact, it’s what we all seek. But when pleasure comes at the cost of your dreams, it turns into poison. Procrastinating when you should be taking action… drifting when you should be focused… letting destructive habits control you while knowing they’re destroying you—this is self-sabotage in its purest form.

One day, time will run out. Your dream will die—not in flames, not buried underground—but in silence, from neglect. And when it’s gone, you’ll try to justify it with excuses, but deep down you’ll know the truth: you killed it.

You’ll be just like the crowd—another below-average soul who never rose to meet their potential, who underperformed, who chose aimless scrolling, binge eating, and fake comfort over real growth.

The cruel irony? That same comfort will become your torment. Because when dreams die, they don’t disappear—they haunt you. They wrap around your life as guilt, as a shattered self-image, and as a recurring pattern of mediocrity that infects everything you do.

The choice is yours:
Pain now, and glory later.
Or comfort now, and a suffocating life forever.

Death

2023-05-03T06:19:00.000+05:30

psychological closure , i dont know if i ll get it , read somewhere that "disinterest is the closure" , i dont know, for me closure is death, whats this life about, people want cars, house , best looking people but eventually what does anyone get, they get to die.

yes, death is the ultimate destination. you can get a bunglow but eventually it's all going to end. its all going to come to an end one day and thus it doesn't even matter to me now.

should it matter ? please tell me one good that it should, people say they want to travel, they want to explore the world, they want to explore cultures, but what for , what the hell in this world for ?, eventually we are just seeing people surviving in a different way, it might be different in india, different in canada , different somewhere else and how does me seeing that survival style make any difference to whats in store at the destination.

its just like i am going to delhi, but there are many other states in the destination , i pass them, i stop there, i observe them, but eventually i am going to go to delhi.

the question here arises, do we have memory after death, because if we don't , then whats the point ?? whats the point of this all ?

What is life all about ?

2021-06-01T14:18:00.001+05:30

Fear, insecurity, ambition, love, greed, wants, needs....

why do we have it all ?, where does it lead to ?, what are afraid of ?, maybe life itself.

I don't know but i feel a sudden stillness while thinking about it all. Thinking about why all of this even exists, why do even i exist ?

I saw people really close die, some were even of my same age, so if death is a destination and life is a journey, why am i afraid of things around, why am i afraid of not being enough, why do i want more, why do i want to have enough ?, why am i soo lost in the journey whose purpose i am unsure of ?, which brings me to another point, what is the purpose of our existence?

I don't know the purpose, is it to take care of the ones around us, spread happiness, bring more good into this world, i don't know. I don't even know if thats going to even matter once i go away.

from what i feel right now, i prefer stillness over happiness. it's calming, it clears your head, gives you a fresh eye to look at things, makes you stop and question why you are doing what you are doing, why you want to achieve it all ?

Achievement, an illusion of it's own, Have you ever thought as to why we like to achieve, why do we want to become better?, maybe to be more acceptable or because i want to be accepted by myself. It could be that this life is to connect with myself from whom i have been running away.

We know people around, we know their patterns but how many of us really know ourselves, when was the last time we fought with ourselves. i don't know what life is all about but these questions make me ponder if its a search or an answer waiting to unfold.

Coalesce : the final destination

2018-06-20T01:00:00.000+05:30

Beautiful beyond description, a marvel of God's creation, she is a beauty which personified angel. Relationships, as you hear this word, what comes to your mind?, quite subjective for me to judge but whatever does, I got my own outlook on it.
As far as I see life, I see everything has to end in a divine state, a state of bliss where we merge our existence into something higher, something that adds meaning to our lives on this planet.
Same goes for relationships, I see a relationship as an opportunity to merge our consciousness with our partner, rise above the sexual urge and merge. Its our consciousness that create us, it's that force driving us, its our real identity.
A kiss if seen from a sexual lens is of little meaning but if perceived as an act of balancing the energy, an act of transfer of consciousness, becomes a potent stair to balance, a way to heal, an act of sublimation into each other. Is this life of any meaning if it is lived in a state of thirst and want all the time?, the plane of vibration will always depend on our perception, seeking the spiritual side will eventually dry out the impatience, providing you the stability and luxurious realms of the ecstasy.
We didn't came here to die in low vibration, a relationship is another way for two people to reach a blissful state together, subliming our consciousness to create a higher dimension of existence is our aim, that's what is going to add meaning to everything that is here, else it's just two thirsty souls trying to quench their thirst with salt water, and in that case it 'll never go away...

The Expression Paradox

2018-06-17T18:52:00.001+05:30

Any sort of addiction , obsession is just a signal that this energy is trying to talk , that it's there , it's making you feel it's presence, the real you inside is crying to express itself , you just gave it maybe the wrong tool which is destroying you.
getting high , experiencing the life , seeking something different all the time, wanting to be a bird flying high, no restrictions, free world, does all this sound familiar, it somewhat describes the major section of people.
are we really seeking it all or there is something deep inside that we misunderstood and instead started chasing the leaf forgetting the roots. yes we did , every behavior is triggered by a need , a human need to be understood , to be expressed, to portray that their existence means something, the significance of 'i' is what drives our behavior and in some this expression of the self is the most dominant need , it is this expression that creates the Mozart , the Shakespeare , the Ramanujan , the genius who breaks all the way to conquer the mountains.
i wont go Freudian here but all i know is that this power is like a river that wants to flow ,blocking it at any time will cause the waves that will flood you in the future , it will be enormous and you might already be experiencing it , if we can tame that we become genius else we destroy ourselves,our destiny is in the decisions we make.

some people might like alcohol or some will be all before girls or in some sort of sexual addictions but all that is not them , its the inhibited self trying to find an expression in those activities, an addiction is a sign of a flood of energy inside you, tame it , the world will be at your feet.
if there is anything more scarier than the death , its the death of the expression of the self and that's why we do what we do...
we all are in a cage of our own existence but there is a key,do u want to know ?
do you want to be free ??

A Spell

2018-04-15T13:00:00.000+05:30

in the warmth of my bed , the comfort of the blanket around me, breeze gazing through my skin, i felt something, my heart skipped a beat, a magnificent sight possessing an allure that could break a heart without breaking a sweat , an epitome of fascination, a cold breeze in the warm waters ,a girl with a mystical magnetism and i remembered her,

so i closed my eyes she hacked my attention, what a seductress she is and as the night advanced this is all i could think,

i am the man i am because you are the woman of my life.

A Flawless Beauty

2018-04-15T12:32:00.001+05:30

What a flawless beauty she was..

Handpicked from the plantations of the angels, she was gem perfectly brewed
Soothing as a cold breeze on a sunny day, a creation so magnificent that it would make the creator smug.
an awe-inspiring work of the divine art that no strings can ever encrust.
And my words are just an expression to the beautiful stimulating serene beauty that found its personification in you.

What a flawless beauty she was..

Rachit Sharma

That moment..

2015-09-20T12:24:00.000+05:30

Sitting alone , hearing the deafening silence of my thoughts , wanting to break a tear but it just feels like time has stopped , the heart skipped a beat , the nerve stopped to pulse and all i can think is nothing. a wave of turbulence has took over my mind invading the caves of peace i once had and i ask myself , am i so weak to be happy on my own? when will that moment come when i will stop chasing and start leading my life the way i want and the bigger question is , is there a moment like that? .

Drowned in the waters of experience that life has thrown me into, all i can say is , real happiness will never come if all you live your life trying to please someone else and having their recognition and praise, people change and so if you thought that you will be happy if they will appreciate then wait you will get a big LOL in life soon.

may be it's all about working for yourself and in the process you can make others happy but if u think the other way that while making others happy you will work on yourself , then you are not failing to prepare but preparing to fail in life, and at the end of that road you will find yourself more miserable than the one that started that beaten path.

having said that, i cant ignore the fact that yes, our happiness is somewhat closely related to how others respond to our presence but take my words , if u tried being miserable and they didn't respond well to it . pledge to be awesome from now on and then the equation will just reverse. i m trying it , u also do and lemme know if that works.

you won't get things in life knocking on the door begging, you get the stuff you want when you knock the fucking door down.

become awesome and the moment of your life will come !

Effortless Bliss

2015-09-07T20:41:00.001+05:30

The calmness of the cool breeze, the refreshing scent of the petrichor,the excitement of witnessing an arc of prismatic colors appearing in the heavens and the stillness of an effortless peace. this is how i describe love, a feeling that filters all the turbulence and makes you streamline, it solidifies you into the calmness and the serenity of a peaceful companionship.

love is not all about kisses and hugs , that is affection , love is when you own someone in a way that you crave for her presence and when she arrives , you get lost in her smile, that smile means world to you, you are ready to fight against the world to keep that smile on her face, you look into her eyes and you tell her that you own her and she is yours. a feeling of possession gushes into your blood and you feel a rush to steal her away , taking her somewhere where you can protect her , hide her and never let her go away from you and give her all the comforts your love deserves.

love is not about accepting someone's best , it's about respecting and adoring their worst, supporting them when they are down knowing that your love is strong enough to pull them out of the pit of sadness into the celebration of the effortless bliss of love.
adore your partner, own them , when you love someone give it your all for their happiness , dive into this knowing that it's going to be uphill but when you truly love someone , their smile will override anything . you will do anything to put up that smile back on because it is the universe for you.

90 days to KICK ASS

2015-06-10T19:03:00.001+05:30

It feels good to be back guy, it's been a long time i last wrote but that may be because i was really going thru some shit in life and i got serious about it and so here i am guys giving you guys an advice and take a serious note of this "Shit happens but just don't get serious about it incase u do then join the gym".

okay lets get straight on this , i used to love a girl and she pretended she loved me , the bonding was way too strong guys and i really was serious about her and probably thats where i went wrong , doesnt it happens with u people , like u get serious about someone and then that person starts to treat u like a dog , fuck yes , same was with me , i loved her , i cared for her and in the end all i got was "i have so many friends i dont need a boyfriend ?", ohh man really , i was burnt till the core guys , i was like i didnt knew how to react , may be since it was the first one .i still remember her smiling face and those traces of sublimated love that she had, she had forgotten all what we had been like , she had forgotten all my love and care, she had broken all her promises and all i knew at that time was that only drowning in the tears could take me back to the surface.

so then i surfed net and got to know about thus 90 day "NO CONTACT policy" and i was like , i wanna get that bitch out of my mind man and i went with this , 90 days no message , no call and then block the shit. guys i used to miss her and shit , with all the bad taste that was left i used to feel like calling her and making her realize how wrong she had done to me but i resisted to all that and as the days became weeks , weeks became months it went down , the feelings i had for her started to melt away and here i am guys after 90 days , completely recovered. this works !!

remember guys , the greatest revenge in life is being happy and move on , get six pack abs guys and then post pictures , surely it ll burn her inside out incase u r a girl reading this, hit the life back by being in better shape (ur waist 70% of the hip size) and show that mofo that u deserve to have more in life , u deserve a man rather a barking needy dog. be someone guys , be remembered , build a legacy and life will never be the same , it ll turn beautiful.

i feel soo free now and i feel like living guys , incase you are also having problems overcoming the bad taste someone threw at u , feel free to drop a mail , would love to help.

A lover's Fear

2014-02-16T22:22:00.002+05:30

well let me get this straight for you and put it like this , in every relationship that exists there is always a person who has a greater fear of losing the other, all his actions are directed so as to bring the other person into a zone where he/she experiences the joy of a pure relation, his eyes get moist with even a slightest thought of losing his partner and he lives a life of submission in order to be with his life.

there are times when there occurs a little friction and take a note that even if someone goes behind you after you have been rude to them , they love you more than they respect themselves, your words might make their eyes heavy but for them your smile is everything. relationships were never meant to be easy and neither hard on the consistent basis , it's always has been a blend of soft and bitter realizations and we keep wandering till we get that one person who means everything to us , without whom you cannot imagine this world and you always know it when you find such a person.
life becomes so beautiful when you have someone who builds a mansion of smiles on the land of pain and rejections, you just want to be with them , spend as much time as you can and all the more the last thing you can't see is their Anger towards you and that's because "you are afraid , that you might lose them", and that feeling , that insecurity goes in recursion till you have a talk and you see them smile. life stops and heart gets heavy and all you secretly pray is that your fears should never turn a reality !
#adore yourpartnerin everywayasyourlovewillswipetheiranger

did she really go ? , yaa

2013-07-29T15:18:00.002+05:30

29 july 2013

so the fucking day is here

hello , i dunno who all are reading this but this time i am just gonna tell you that its just not a blog , it s something more than that , its something i have been way experiencing , its something which i just can't talk because tears don't allow me to speak and you know i am trying a lot to control to control my emotions but these fucking tears just come out as i remember what i HAD.

isnt it interesting guys , most of us don't have a smile of our own . we find it in other people , we neeed someone to excite us , to make us happy , to make us feel worthy , to make us feel that yes there is someone for us when all that we possess is lost and what when that someone leaves you .

take deep breath , yeah it does seem like world turns quite a fuck , u loose the meaning of your life , you donno what step to take next and everything goes scary as you know now you are all alone.

That hand which held you , the arms that wrapped are no more there , u shiver u shrink and all you know is that no one is gonna support you , , u know what i damn fucking cannot write ,because when your true love breaks you , someone has to pay and that someone is you . you pay for yourself , you know there is a fucking life ahed of you which you have to live alone .

separation , it kills , it kills who u r , it kills who u were but it decides who you become and all you can say is that "yes , i was happy too", but its all a past now and the truth is your life sucks now. its gone just a shit you never waana live.

when all you love has been stolen all you can think of is death .

dedicated to true lovers

The diary of a broken heart

2013-03-14T16:47:00.002+05:30

# the diary of a broken heart !

I too had a heart and someone really beautiful came into my life and stole it and you know what i loved the way she stole my heart , i rejoice that accident , that looked to be the best thing that ever happened to me , i loved her , i loved her like anything , getting someone like her was my dream and you know what god gave me an angel in her form , i wanted nothing from her in return as for me her love was everything , she was my sweet little angel and all i wanted was to adore her all day long.

you know what the best thing about her is her smile , when she smiles it looks like flowers showering all over , the surroundings get scented and looks like the nature dancing and rejoicing her cute and sweetest smile, her eyes , look into it and you 'll be lost into the deep ocean of sincerity and love , into the deep waters of purity. talking to her and listening to her sweet voice was the best part , anxiety used to take over in the absence of her voice , time used to stop and heart used to flood with the waves of insecurity for her, i loved her and loved her so much.

breakup was never my style , i wanted a girl and just wanted her for life , imagined a small world with her , where i could love her and give her all she deserves , all the luxuries BUT

maybe god wanted someone else , maybe i didn't took care of her angel well and he just snatched her from me, i no more possess her , lost her , my nightmares , my insecurities , everything turned reality, tears replaced her and the memories now fill her void , i know i will never get her back again but my love for her will never die , i ll fill the cracks in the mirror of my heart with the nectar of your love and may be ....

# chote gawar , be happy

/* on request , for a friend still overcoming from his breakup ! */

Thinking about ..

2013-02-10T11:29:00.000+05:30

Something is missing today and i don't know but i m not that same , lost lost lost somewhere , into someone , may be into her or may be into something else , even music lacks that appeal today and just like the turbulence in the waterfall , i am experiencing the same in my heart , its not still , it wants to go somewhere , it wants to break away and fly.

But you know what life is not always how we want it to be , it has its own conditions, its own terms, its own turns , its own grounds and all we can is just sit and stare , wait for something to happen and be a victim of immense anxiety till it takes place and may be this is what happening with me today .
I played a song today and within a minute i was lost , lost into the calmness of her smile , lost into the shine of her beauty , lost into her stringed hair , lost into the deepness of her eyes and the purity of her voice.
i wish i could just snatch her but you know love is not about possession its more about what other person wants keeping your desires aside. love is not that straight lane man , its a rocky terrain and you are lucky if someone is there for you , is with you , is there to hold your hand , is there to balance you when you fall as some just ferry all alone.
and irrespective of what you feel sometime you have to see where you belong and the truth is you cannot have her, yes you cannot, poverty poverty and poverty of love , no matter how much you think man , sometimes the other person is too good for you to have and handle , no matter if you need her more than sugar , or your love blows your mind , life's crude reality assures you one thing ,"celebrate your 14 Feb alone !, its not the time yet ".

# diary of a boy in love !

Ohh ! That Blush ..

2013-02-07T18:06:00.000+05:30

Man, i am not just writing a blog , i am living that moment , ohh that was splendid , the best 7 minutes of my life i 'll say , she looked damn gorgeous , her eyes looked so deep that you 'll just keep drowning and drowning. Those small little things she says , that crispy voice and those words when slip out of her mouth become adorable , she smiles and it looks like flowers showering all around , i dont care how much she weighs because she 'll be a flower to me and i 'll adore that.

I don't know how to say but it feels like i am stuck on her and i mean man , i have been through so many phases in life but i wanna say this is the rocking one , just thinking about you and you, my love , darling you rock !
she hasn't said a yes to me but what is more important is that i had a few minutes and she listened to all i had nicely and i adore her for it ! , that means a lot , a lot to me ! ,
you know her blush , ohh man , that is simply killing , take a deep breath, ya , i don't know i have to every time i think about her , its like the breath goes fast , heart beats abnormally and all i can think of is you!
She glows and her smile shines ,i am confused whether to call her the sun or the moon , no actually she is a star, no matter how far she goes , she 'll always be shining.
i live my playlist now ! and ohh man that cute face , that ballistic smile and that small little talk blew me away just as the calmness of the still water , it was so comforting and you just cannot feel the deepness unless you step in !

Respect your love you are lucky if you got one as some just dream and live there ! They Never Get It !

Electronics in Love !

2012-12-01T12:59:00.000+05:30

when a true Electronics engineer Proposed a girl :

1. you are magnetic and i would love to be an iron bar .

2. I am a transistor looking for biasing , will you bias me .

3. I used to wander a lot but dammit you polarized me .

4. I would not like to be a rusted iron , so will you galvanize me.

5. I am kinda paramagnetic , looking for some strong field.

and when he got rejected he said :

I turned an inductance gyrator but you never told me that fucking mental midgets like you always relied on back emf . run away from here at supersonic speeds but i ll never be able to erase you as my heart is not re writable.

share if u like , i ll add more soon :)

It slipped out and ... !

2012-11-30T11:56:00.001+05:30

Light music , faint memories and a smile u just cannot get your head off. you got a lot of work to do but you do nothing , music hacks your mind and you keep drowning and drowning into those memories , into that beautiful giggle, that beautiful sight , you breathe deeply and deeply and deeply and all you do is remember her . your mind swivels in the chair of her memories and yes man she becomes the reason for your subtle smiles , your conversations with her are your secrets you read them again and again all day long.

Angel is all what you call her , you see her pass by and all you want is to sit by her side , to share some moments and preserve them , preserve them for lifetime, when she is with you , you dont even give a damn to what world says as your world shrinks to her , you look for every single way you can just get in contact with her and make her speak to you , you listen to that crispy voice and it crawls onto your heart all day long, you look at her , actually i don't look , i stare at her but i make sure she doesn't notices me doing that :-D , you want her recognition at any cost , a wave of desperation drives you and all you want is to keep looking at her all day long. you love her more that yourself and the crazy part is you don't know why ?, you wanna let her know that you are here for her but ......

but there comes a time when you got to face the truth , she is beautiful , she is gorgeous and you donno what to do because you are never going to be with her , you remember her as you walk by , you don't know if you 'll see her again but you are certain that you 'll never be with her , a sarcastic smile and a moist heart which is dying to be with her says you to leave and face the fucking reality and break away from your fantasies as what you imagined is improbable ,
you break into tears at heart but you sometimes got to accept that and more importantly move on ....

but her memories will last till the end ....

# your page will never be deleted ....

PS: this blog is dedicated to my friend who was sanctioned rejection for loving someone more than himself .

Second Choice

2012-11-22T11:05:00.001+05:30

I don't know why the heck am i writing this man , i mean it just came to me and compelled me to write , i m stuck on it and i don't see a way out but to write it , may be if everyone calls it a bullshit i seriously got no problems because i m goddamn stuck on this way and here goes the story :

moist eyes ,sitting in a corner ,dark lights and a heavy heart , he was all alone in the crowd , he had some friends and a void , a void he has learnt to live with , a void which kinda kills him but he got be easy on that , sometimes in life you have to fake things because you don't want to get hurt more or you wanna find an escape , you know sometimes in life you choose a different lane not because you cannot ferry along the other one but because you don't wanna get hurt more, you change your attitude so as to change the way you feel ,
i don't give a damn man, becomes your favorite one liner.
and you know what he's got a story too and i am gonna say that to you ,
he is a good person , does bad to no one and loves to help , smiles everyday and sometimes laughs too but he was never treated the way he wanted to , second choice is all you can call him , he wanted to be someones primary , to be really special to someone , to be someones star , to be someones breath or to be someones dear that the other person would hold anyone for him but life was too fair that it denied him all , helping others is his habit and all he wants in return is someone listening to him when he wants to but people listened to him when they wanted to, sometimes he buried his joy as there was no one to share that , he smiled and then cried a lot , no one understood him ,his feelings were other's toys, some said him psycho and some said him fucking insane but he took everything , never said anything back , he never hurts those who hurt him but silently moves away , he smiles and smiles because he's got no other choice , he just needed someone who would hold others for him but he is okay with being the second choice as he's got nothing else.
he is still sitting there with tears in his eyes and in a shaking voice he says :
all i want is a good friend who never leaves me , i know it ll take time to find one !!!!
and after saying this he nods his head down and says "till then please treat me well "!
and then breaks into tears....

Is this life ? ya

2012-10-02T10:17:00.002+05:30

# diary of a person of sacrifice

i don't know why the heck am i writing this blog , i just felt something inside and i took my laptop and started to pen this down , eyes are moist and throat is strained but the feelings are flowing and may be i just want to stop them down , i dont want my feelings to take me over and so i am writing this down and this time what i have in mind is something which has now become an integral part of my life and the second name for me , i think i am that way or may be i am wrong as i have always been .
sometimes i think is life so unfair to me or it's potentially more fair to others ?, someone give me an answer please, i m kinda now tired of spitting through my eyes every time or it may be that what all i am doing is what god has sent me to do .
Sacrifice, a feeling that is so sacred , so divine and so pure , a mother sacrifices for her child , a soilder for his nation , a person for his love and a true friend for his buddy . life is sometimes not all what you want it to be , it's sometimes looking into the heart of the other person feeling their pain and stepping down the lane for their comfort , life is not about me , it's about we,even if the other person says me , life is sometimes about choices , whether to step up for your happiness and joy or stepping down for your friends , life is sometimes about tears and sometimes about joy ,it's sometimes about leaving what you love to hold and sometimes taking what you wish to avoid, life has offers , it provides plans and its all on us how we execute it , life is sometimes way more than living for yourself , when u r in true friendship it boils to others comfort first, life is not all about gaining and it's not all about losing too , but its fair enough that when you lose something you gain something else , may not be that bigger but surely is something you can hold and so i m not afraid to back off for u buddy.
sometimes i feel how it would be like to have that one buddy i can hold for a lifetime because eveytime i got a friend and thought it's kinda all in flow it all turns a scrambled egg , no more in shape , but nothing is static and yes i ll always be the person who 'll step down for my buddy's happiness , may be that way i can get a buddy for lifetime or even if i don't , i 'll at-least have no regrets ....

the happy loner

Hater's out there !

2012-09-22T20:34:00.001+05:30

To,

Mr. Hater

hater's ground

backstabbing lane,

Subject : NOT needed you ll read the full letter once you see it's written by me.

Respected S for sucker,

Chill out dude , i know i m cooler than , i can do the things you just can't even imagine to , you wanna bring me down , you wanna hurt me ha , try it , come on man , lets play , mess with me and i m gona clear this shit right away okay , your sucking smile isn't of any use , i give no damn to it and you may never know how much i have struggled , why did i acted that way , you never know what the fuck life threw at me and now when i am at top , you wanna bring me down, you want me to slip ,common kick off , just get the shit out of here.

i knew you 'll always hated me , i knew all you ever wanted was to bring me down and you know what i wanna tell you something , baby just dream , keep dreaming , even my shit is more valuable than you, you piece of unused flesh , u degenerate , you smile at me , aha , that's great but i wanna tell you that your smile is so fake that i just can't take it anymore , you want me to hustle but i ll never , you wanna break me , you want me to back down , you want my life to be a piece of shit and you know what i have a bad news for you , just keep trying you will never break me down .

never ever , lastly , i am grateful to you as behind all my success is your hate , thanks

i want more success , so just keep hating

your's sincerely,

true lover of your hate

BAD man

2012-09-16T11:17:00.003+05:30

when feelings get crushed , it breaks and it echoes a lot but never gets heard
dates back to the time when he was kind , he was humble ,he used to care and his eyes used to get moist in the pain of others , he used to love but the story doesn't ends there , it starts again and this time behind his eyes is a bad man , who is hated , who tells lies , whose dreams and whose love is now just a vengeance , people don't trust him, blame replaced faith and he is now all alone,he is desolated , he doesn't gives a damn to others now , don't mistake him for a kind of person who even gives a shit , and you know why ?, just because he is a capital B A D man .

he is now a loner , he is sad , no juice in his life , no love , no friends who trust, just a bunch of people who approach when they need to get the shit out, he is hated , he is defeated and he discovers a new state of loneliness everyday , he is now obsessed with what he does as he fulfills his thirst of appreciation himself , he smiles to hide his pain and while he smokes he stares at his miserable life but why did he turned that way?,you know what , he was good , he was nice and caring , he used to love but life was not that fair.
just feel what it would be like to care and get rejected , you dream about someone and that person doesn't even gives a darn to what you did for them , the person which seemed world to him , who was the source of his everyday happiness and when that same person gives you a new state of loneliness and desolation ,it KILLS inside, he cared till the end but got the rejection when he wanted a little care from others , he was tagged weird and expecting too much , he was thrown out to carry his life himself , there was no one to share his burden and he turned this way....
life struck him but he struck back with a puff of smoke and the feelings that now don't show up , his moist eyes are his greatest support , and the broken heart and crushed feelings are now his gloomy road, so the next time before you say someone rude or bad or else you meet someone who says he just don't gives a damn, think over it again , he might have suffered and rejected by those for whom he cared a lot ....
and so i say again....
when feelings get crushed , it breaks and it echoes a lot but never gets heard .

Lover's deafening silence ?

2012-09-04T19:00:00.000+05:30

Dammit ....
One person , ya just one , u cannot even imagine your life without them , tears replace their void , heart beats in the rhythm of their name , u feel really really excited when they are with you and you know what, life looks a gloomy lane without them , you keep waiting and waiting and waiting , eyes never dry , heart never beats the same way and whole world haunts , heart weeps and you company along , silence goes deafening and you just cannot bear it more , you want them to come back, you plead you beg you cry but prayers never got heard and the one kept crying and slipped into the cold lane of desolation where lies quiet desperation , where lies no love but endless wait ,a wait that kills and the silence that deafens.

if this sounds cheesy, kindly skip the part below man, but if you feel a connection , if you too had or have(u lucky) someone you wanna gift your life then you are going to unlock something cool .

you are on the phone talking to that person who means world to you , you listen to her crispy voice and all your tension sands down , you feel relaxed , you feel like you got all the happiness and pleasure kisses its peak , isn't it ? , ya i know you are smiling , common i too am ;) , and then suddenly you are out of topics, you have nothing to talk about , nothing at all but you don't want to disconnect the call , you want to keep talking, but what ? , she says nothing , you say nothing and then a silence crops up , a silence that you can enjoy , a silence that says a million feelings , a silence that gears up the zeal inside , a silence that beautifies the charm and beauty of her voice , that crispy voice looks way more crunchy afterwards but that silence doesn't last too long and you say , "U thr ? na ", ohh ya , and then a smile appears , did this happen to you , i am sure it would have !

a lovers silence is way too amazing, sometimes it just rips you apart and sometimes it may be tooo beautiful to imagine, a person's fake agitation and you bending on your knees to get them spit that knowing that it's fake has it's own juice,isn't it ? , sometimes it's the reason for our smiles and sometimes for our desolation and i have experienced both , what about you ?

Slough of de-spond

2012-08-23T23:25:00.000+05:30

i laugh , i smile , i never cry , i say i am too strong , i say i can handle anything, i am the master of my emotions but then a sound deep inside echoes ,"who are u kidding?", and i say ,"myself". I get numb , i don't know why but ya i do, looks like i m all alone and my eyes speak it all and you know what i ferry through this gloomy lane everyday, sometimes i think i should quit but is it the real solution? , i don't know but at least i ll be free from loads of expectations and i ll no longer annoy people whom i care for, whom i live this life for , who are the source of my everyday excitement and happiness.

Nobody understood me and i don't expect people to understand me too, they ask, why do you laugh too much? ,and deep inside i say just to hide my tears, pain kills and it kills more when you have no one to share it , my laughter, my mindset this is just a way to reduce it, just a way to suppress my everyday desolation, it helps me to ferry across the desert of dejection hoping to emerge with a little cheerfulness.

I found my happiness in helping my real friends , in solving their problems, in making them smile whenever they went low ,i myself went into the cave of despair seeing the tear in their eyes, their smile used to make my day and you know what now it looks as if my actions are annoying them, may be in the search of joy i overlooked my limits and went beyond the lane i was supposed to and it now burns me up inside.

It's fine with me, every time i think something's coming in flow and my life is back to normal, just then something happens ,something just strikes and i am compelled to enter the cave of trophonius ,that again the history is going to repeat itself. I don't know why my relations never work out , i always hurt people , i annoy them , i disturb them but with tears rolling down i wanna say i never ever meant it , please someone understand me , i am not that weird, i have feelings too , i too want excitement but if it hinders my friend's joy , i am ready to back off , i am ready to experience the slough of de-spond and yes i mean it .

Parched Eyes ....

2012-08-18T14:29:00.000+05:30

Chilled heart , dry eyes ,shallow breath and covered face , he lived in the deserts of ignorance , desolated and dry , depressingly bare but what made him that way? , moist eyes , a never ending care for someone, love that never rebounded , people who never cared and sacrifices that never counted , his mistakes were accepted and his love was burned, the court of god never provided him justice, life was unfair , wind blew the opposite way , those dry offshore winds gave a never ending imprints of glass on his heart, he was wounded and alone , he cried but the sound only echoed in in his heart , no one listened and there sublimated the man with a reason.

No one ever understood him ,he stood by people but people never , he cared for them but they never , he made friends but he never had any , he cared for even a small tear of someone and what he got in return were the moist eyes and quite desolation , a person who wanted everyone to smile was looking for joy himself, he thought what his life would be like ,with some happiness in it , how great he will feel when there will be someone who 'll understand him , when someone will be there to wipe his tears , when someone will be there who stands by and you know what that someone never came, he kept hoping but the glass of hopes broke and so did he.

he started helping others thinking someone will care for him too but tears never left him and eyes never went dry, he cried along with people , he felt their pain but god was too cruel to him that no one felt his , he was always there when others needed him but the his life was deserted when he needed someone.

you know you are very lucky to have friends in ur life , even if u have a single one , the one true to you , you are blessed , he never had anyone , he was always alone and still is , he is not sure when will someone who came in his life will leave him as others did , he still cries and he is still is waiting for his friend's call or a message from them inquiring about "is he alive?", you are very luck if u have atleast one friend who disturbs you ....

moist eyes .....

Fish your Friends

2012-08-15T21:36:00.001+05:30

Doing nothing is so hard and so i had to , sitting idle and i don't know what crossed my mind that i came up with this small baby code to tease my friends, so here it is the customized code for the same image which i developed just today .

Code starts here ........

@ECHO OFF

ECHO.//////////////////////Reality//////////////////

ECHO. Hello This is reality Zone, come in !

Echo.//////////////////////////////////////////////

set NLM=^

set NL=^^^%NLM%%NLM%^%NLM%%NLM%

set /p name=Hey lemme know who you are? :

echo.so you are %name%!

ECHO.Computer: i wanna tell u that you are just awesome !

set /p name2=%name%:

echo.%NL%

pause

set /p name1=Computer:Hey lemme know who ur best friend is?%NL% %name%:

echo.Computer:so %name1% is ur best friend!%NL%

ECHO.Computer:Don't mind but he is such a moron !

Echo.%name%: yeah %name1% is such a moron , hahaha !%NL%

echo.Computer: ya , the one with Ghanta Dictionary ! :P

echo.%name%: hahha, u got it mate ! WAM , hahaha%NL%

echo.%name1%: ohh %name% shut up u siffs , and u computer *BITCH please*!

echo.Created by Rachit Sharma !

pause

ECHO ON

Just COPY PASTE this code in NOTEPAD and save THE file as fun.bat, and run the file , u ll get the same result

so what are u waiting for , jump in :D have fun , and gimme feedback on how we can create this baby code to a giant elephant ;) i wanna improve