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Gasping For A Whiff Of Reality

2012-05-18T10:31:00.003+08:00

It is the reality, stupid.

Entering the realm of questioning reality is like trying to dig for gold in your backyard. Dig and dig, we find crumbs. CRUMBS. Nothing more, nothing less. Unfortunately, all we need are crumbs to make us addicted to our primary objects, gold.

So, what if we try digging for reality? Do we dig and dig and just find mere crumbs? Yes. Reality if thought about thoroughly enough, is indefatigable. In the end, are we actually searching for the right thing? But surely, the 'right' thing does not really exist.

And so we move on the existence. Related to philosophy now, you say? Yes, and there lies the problem. No, philosophy is not the problem. Neither is it the mind. More like the thinking is somewhat problematic. Are human beings really born to think? Yes. Are we meant to think about something meaningful? No. I think.

Again, does it matter? Before we can even figure out whether what we are thinking so hardly matters to us or our environment, we might soon face nothingness. We hit a block in our minds that cannot be defined, we just can tell whether we are doing things 'right'.

So, simply put, we change our plans. Try to tweak a thing or two here and there, in our minds of course. Then again, is this reality?

The Two (Cyclic) Sides

2012-05-11T11:34:00.003+08:00

Where is the third? It is too vague to discern whether there is one.

Incessant barking is not the worst option.

Rejoice though, for there are at least two sides two things. Yes, yes, it is slightly problematic to think the world is 'good' and 'evil' or someone is 'bad' or 'good'. But take note that they are AT LEAST two.

This however is subjective and only slightly objective at best. Can actually prove something is only based on two characteristics? Maybe, if that thing is made of two main characteristics. That means other characteristics branch out from the two main ones.

Again, there is a problem of existence: how do we know? Being subjective, our opinions of the two sides can be biased. And it does depend on what kinds of bias we have to actually prevent that bias from affecting our judgment. Then, another problem would be what our two (or more) sides actually are like, i.e. what roles they should play.

At some point, there should be awareness that this may just be a mind trick. An illusion. A gimmick. Logical fallacies seem to have been thrown out of the window. Objectivity may have left us.

Until then though, at least it was a good ride. Now all you would have to do is go for another cycle...

Redemption Time? Sounds Witty To Me.

2012-05-04T13:53:00.000+08:00

How is it possible that the 'now is the moment' can become so inappropriate at a particular moment of time?

Dual reality, paradox, logical fallacy. Let them breed in your mind and watch closely. Is it remorse? It is anguish? Angst? Before we can even fully ascertain ourselves with what we are supposed to be feeling, then it comes. The thought that nothing really matters.

All that we have been looking forward to is a waste, if we can find out how to utilize it. Instead of pure interest, we have pure denial instincts. Unfortunately, unless we 'get in there' and tell our minds that nothing matters, we would continue living in a state that cannot tell the difference between illusions and non-illusions.

Then we resort to the other option : recoil. We start to doubt ourselves... no wait, we are way past that by now. We are already in early stages of wanting to 'strike' back at our doubts and anguish, so we choose the redemption. "No one messes with ma' mind." becomes the superego.

Thankfully, it is not that dramatic. There is not much connection to reality. Because it is fairly meta-psychological business, the physical world is not very much affected.We still walk by, eat, sleep and all that. But we just cannot shake off the nervy feeling.

So, how is mind redemption resolved? Never, because we love it.

Unable To Specify? Uhm...

2012-04-20T15:41:00.001+08:00

Is it too hard to recognize something?

Let us say, we are currently way above our expectations. And what is more is we are good enough to stay at the top. Or say we are languishing at the depths of the ocean. We are trying to swim our way up. Two contrasting situations. But each with contrasting mentalities.

Is it honesty that we need? Our minds tell us we can reach our goals quickly, but in truth we are pretty far off. Or, our minds tell us we are forever underwhelmed, undermined to nothing more than a speck of dust. are those truths true?

Aye, they might be. But after going through certain 'calibrations', our mind tends to tell us the 'real' truth, which is of course, not the truth. We are in reality worst off than we were a few years ago, or way better than we think we are, in fact. So why?

Is it denial? Repression? Filtration? Pretentious? No not really. Just unable to tell ourselves the reality of things. Yes, yes, we perceive, and hence there is a little bit of truth in what is in our minds. But no, no, consciousness is different than perception, is it not?

Then again. why bother though? In the midst of finding our path towards reality, we deviate somewhat from reality itself. And the reality is: it does not really matter, if it does not really affect anyone or anything in today's world. Oh no wait... is that even reality?

Much has been said about the fourth dimension...

It Comes Again...

2012-04-13T21:44:00.000+08:00

Those intuitive, emotive feelings. They just never leave you, do they?

On your feet, lad.

It is frenetic, what you can describe as 'feel'. It is either stupid, downright out-of-place or just plain unreasonable. Not fun... yet we need it. There is feel as much as there is reality.

Yes, it could be anxiety we are talking about here. Getting over it is easier said than done. Why? To be more exact, trying to make a move to overcome that anxiety gnaws at our very beings like needles. It is so... ah, it is no good trying to reach out to it.

But do we repress that feel? Be sociable. Be proactive. Be outgoing. And all the near-platitudes we can think of. So, why not just try to look at things from different perspectives?

As light as that sounds, it does work to 'lighten the load' somewhat. Then again, the anxiety is never gone. As long as we try to repel, there is connection. Hence the burden reprises once more...

Then again, then again... it is not our duty to warrant a let-up. We go on. And move. Shame to succumb to cliches? Fine, but just do not die. Not our call, eh?

Paranoia - We Want It As Much As We Need It

2012-04-06T14:21:00.001+08:00

Detrimental as it is, we should admit : It does make us feel safe, secure and anxious. Wait, anxious? Is that good?

To hell with it. Anxious or not, it is a cliche. Something that binds to our thoughts all the time. As little as we like it, we must, must see the benefits. Our minds have deceived us into all this foul play.

Backtrack a little,eh? Alright. Anxiety and paranoia. Why? Because humans, like all living beings, want to live, as we already realized as life and death instincts. But are we bound by those instincts?

Still, we should not shy away from the topic at hand. How are our instincts born? Is it natural? Yes. Is it meant to be controlled? Most certainly... not. Is it considered repression? Maybe. So would we turn into silent 'alter-egos' deep within? Wait, wait, let us not get into partial meta-psychology.

But what is real? Our anxiety is real? So says Lacan. Our humanistic realism is what keeps us alive? Saying it with uncertainty is not going to help is it? We should strike while the iron is hot, and just believe... until of course, objective flaws bring us back down to Earth.

Still, it does not matter. Our mind readjusts itself, not before doing itself some damage, of course.

Gathering Against The Tide

2012-03-30T13:44:00.003+08:00

Way to go pal for doing it solo.

Does it take a mass of followers to change something? Enough about the science, but let us talk basics.

Are we always entitled to the right to have a group of people following our orders as though it was a matter of life and death? For one, it does feel like going against the flow, the rhythm, the order of things.

Yikes, there are flaws in that statement. Feel. Flow. Rhythm. Order of things. For a sceptic, is there such a thing as a flow? And how do we feel? Painfully, one has to admit that it is not easy to feel. Our consciousness lets us think many things like feel and flow with the rhythm.

What are chances of us failing? No, more importantly, why do we not think otherwise? There is no obligation to not 'feel' and not 'flow' with the usual tone. But we are constantly being forced into something that is both ambiguous and opaque.

Alas, the contradiction is always there. Relate it somehow, opposition always comes with everything that moves. Essentially, if there is no opposition, then we can safely proclaim: "We are history."

The point you may ask? Cliche. The reason? Predictable. It does sound like defeat to something superior, but there is nothing, nothing more than we can possibly fight. But who knows for certain, though?

Unrelenting Realism

2012-03-24T02:56:00.001+08:00

Are we meant for survival?

Sure, we point to all kinds of ideas to prove that we are somehow made to survive. Then again, what if that sense of anxiety, of guilt, of realism appears suddenly?

Obviously, one should be much aware of the defense mechanism. Our ingrained being of repelling notions that we are weak. Simply put, we do not want to 'feel bad'.

So what happens then? Should we manage our stressful 'feelings', we should face a new problem: realism. Subjective? Of course not! But its objectivity can be more than we bargained for, sometimes. We want to be real. Yet we tend to oppose realism. It is a theoretical paradox, dogged by uncertainty.

Being realistic is want we human beings should look for, but most of the times, who cares? We just want to survive... hence the opposition to total realism.

Well, should we be discouraged then? Fortunately, we need realism, which breeds acceptance.

It hurts. And it is real.

Kickbacks.

2012-03-16T09:44:00.001+08:00

Analyse all we want, but are there any kickbacks?

Of course there is. The moment we start thinking is the moment our thoughts start to repel. Why? First, we should see how. And what the hell is a kickback?

Substantially, when we try to incorporate something (new) into our minds, like a form of knowledge, do we immediately accept it? Do we immediately repel it? Do we do anything at all?

Well, frankly, does it matter any more? This new generation of minds in the New Age has proven that our ways of thinking have differed. Thanks to modernisation, we have progressed, it should be fair to say. Instead of instincts, we have differentiated subjectiveness. So what does this relate to?

But are we settled? In other ways, can we still progressed? Are there any perks to it? Are there no perks to it? But alas, the mind does not view things as perks. Or wants, desires. Well, at least, not entirely.

Whether we choose it or not, sooner or later our thinking changes, but remains on the same goal. The same aim, reference point, path to some kind of mindset that keeps us all mindfully humanistic.

Still, wouldn't it be a tad too dry? A tad too simplistic? Now this is where the kickback begins. We oppose, and therefore we think. Is that how we think nowadays? Oppose?

Sure we can.

Feeding The Ghosts

2012-03-09T09:59:00.003+08:00

Are we sustained?

See a shrink!

No, wait, that is probably not the ideal word. Is there a part of us that warrants our attention, constantly? No, I am not talking biology here, just, as always, the mind.

Consciousness is vague when it comes to this point. We feel compelled to do something, therefore our mind is telling us to react to it. Should we? Is it bad? Is it good? What if we look at this without looking at the pro-cons bias? Just analyzing to be precise.

Still, would there not be a different consciousness now? Another compelling thought? Alas, this is where we should pacify. We pacify our minds' thoughts, but not, never illusions.But why though? Why not just pull out? Why must we revert to our basic thoughts, i.e. our instincts?

We are animals with a higher consciousness. But that argument seems a tad flawed, because that would mean human beings who revolutionize do just that by having a 'higher' consciousness? Seems unfair. And worse, discriminating to the weak. Or weaker. Or weakest. Chances are, we are all weak in the mind of the 'higher' consciousness.

So do we feed that 'higher' consciousness? Hard to say, all we need is a compulsion.

Get Going, But Slowly...

2012-03-02T14:28:00.000+08:00

At some point, we get desperate. Sure, you might say, "I ain't got time to bleed...". But sorry tough guy, we tend to fall into the same trap. One way or another. Solipsistic or not.

Is there a balance in our minds? Yes, there is. That 'equilibrium' which we tend to move ourselves towards ever so lightly, day by day. If we are mad, we trudge back to normal. If we are happy, we get back to normal. So what is normal? Subjectively, we might or might not control the measure of 'normal'. But objectively, who knows?

Still, we do not know why. Or whether there is such a balance. One might think that balance can be delicate, tough or just plain rogue. To address that balance simply requires a push of some sort. In other words, weaken our minds, but respond by strengthening it again.

Missing the point? Yes, I agree. Is there such a thing as a 'balance'? Frankly, there might be one for the reason of wanting to think so. If we think there is something we refer to while trying to mentally gauge ourselves, then there is. But should we not accept it, hey, there is always consciousness.

The point is... balance, people, balance. Complacency, optimism, pessimism, pride, repetition. Who knows? We are already hanging by a thread.

Judging By Your...

2012-02-24T22:28:00.002+08:00

First impressions. What should we make of them?

Clearly, we have 'revolutionized'.

Death has befallen us. Hope leaves us. Rest assured though, for we often stick to our early-made conclusions. The tendency to 'stick to what we believe at first' is so great, oh so great.

But are we really talking about first impressions here? Are we really somewhat obliged to follow our instincts, for a lack of a better word? When we encounter something that is affecting us (be it morally, intellectually, emotionally), do we prevail? Or do we rely on our in-built thoughts about a specific subject?

No, alas, no. Our strength of mind does not actually do much to change our opinion of something. If we are fixed, well, that is just that. However, having said that, I strongly disagree with notion of excluding all other reasonable doubts concerning whether our mind is strong or weak enough to combat a certain change. A certain paradigm shift.

Ah, for our own sake, let us not delve into the unknown. But, again, intellectually, we are being pushed. Imagine if the kind of 'push' of thought is intensified (up to a out-of-comfort-zone point), how do we cope? Simple question, hence simple answers: Go on a holiday, man! Or, play some games! More crudely, get laid, dude!

Obviously, we can casually choose to do so. And we don't even have to think of the regrets. So, why not, right? Take a chance. But wait, this is almost precisely what the whole point is: we are going back to our basics modus operandi here. Instead of pressing deeper, we shift back to our comfort zone with equal 'push'. We do not want to move.

Overall, what do we choose to do? The thing is, we have already. We just have not been conscious of the thought yet. Well, that is in my opinion at least, which is flawed by basic animal-human instincts.

Hello, my name is...

2012-02-17T17:49:00.002+08:00

The power of connection has never really been talked about...

Beware, the power backfires...

Which doesn't mean I have to bring up the topic now. Specifically, it is the thought that we are connecting with others that just eases our mind in ways unthinkable. (Wait, that doesn't quite add up.)

So, why connect with others? Theories anyone? Bah, because we already know them. And they are not theories. You see, when we are aware of the consciousness that permits us to 'feel' good, we begin to do things to reprise that 'feeling'. Apostrophes are for uncertainty and ambiguity.

Again, why connect? And again, theories? No, precisely, what kind? Theories according to the norm? Subjective theories? Simple, objective ones? Chances are, they are come down to this: we 'know' we want to connect, for the sake of 'feeling' good.

Yes, I hear you... it is unfair to describe people who connect for a living (or for the benefit of a living) as one-dimensional. But, undeniably, there is a knowledge -intelligence,really- that urges us back to the equilibrium we set ourselves to live in.

Anyway, back to connection. Associative coherence tells us that connection can pick up its pace in a matter of minutes, days. It tells us the 'good' things by inherently connecting the 'good' ideas in our minds with the act of connecting. Optimism bias, anyone?

Alright, alright. I connect, you connect, everyone connects. Conclusion? There is an intelligence that inevitably keeps us on our toes, at most times.

Has There Ever Been A Reprieve?

2012-02-10T20:14:00.001+08:00

It certainly is smacking against your face. Woosh...

Just deny it. Cancel it out. Okay, to put it in slightly more mild terms, do your very best to get away from it. Never face it. Run.

Questions: What it? Why run? How does it matter? Answers: Think in whatever ambiguous terms you can come up with. Because we live in our own illusions and affected thoughts, we can almost never get to do things without the slightest influence. So, why not just keep being in our illusions?

Temptations? Not quite. But there is something. Something that is pulling you towards... no wait, are we not being a little too off-topic? That is exactly what happens when we want to face something. Cold feet? Call it whatever. But it certainly is imploring us, just trying to pull us from the things we put so much energy in.

Alas, we are looking for something that is not there. There is always something that just eludes. No, wrong again. It is our mind taking a toll on us. We are looking for an entity, to put it extravagantly, that just is not there. Unlimited wants? Recognize that? Limited abilities.

Moral of the story? Now, this is where we get down to the semi-cliche brass tacks. Moral? Moral? Moral? Are we really, really, really considering morals? Importance does play a part here, but more importantly, should we not be looking at a different 'something' other than moral... AH, to hell with it.

There is not a lot hope for achieving a constant flow of uninfluenced thoughts. We are in a state of being constantly illusion-ed. Certainly, we long for being disillusioned. Oh no. Is this the result of ambiguity?

Just say it. Relieved, now?

What is the use of being disillusioned to the point of being confused?

The Speculative Balance of Rhythmic Thoughts

2012-02-03T13:52:00.001+08:00

Rhythms. Patterns. Yes, we have heard this before. Human beings form these things that track a series or sequence of something, whether we choose to or not.

Will it balance itself out?

Is it a bi-pattern? A mind frame that is split into two separate systems. Again, you probably have heard about the subject of systems of the mind or consciousness thoughts - you would think some sort of plagiarism is taking place. But, there exists such a thing, right? "I think, there I am..."

Enough about introducing the idea, it is time to give some thought to this. Why do we think we have a separate modus operandi? No wait, why in the first place should we be solipsists? Again, the human mind is playing tricks on us. It is built in our systems to make it seem that everyone has the same frame of mind. I think, therefore you think too? Economically, it is not always a good idea to press an idea on others when they do not have the slightest clue of the subject at hand.

But what if it is not of a solipsist feature? I.e. what if we just need to an orthodox outlook, an objective one, before going deeper to more subjective things to explore in our minds? Ah, speculative now, are we?

Going back to the two-systems subject, we usually start with a hypothetical question, right? Why do I feel? Why do I analyze and think? Is it due to the right-brain-left-brain analogy? Bah, all this points to is a lot of theory talk, but little proper analysis, unless of course, we decide to think and think.

So, is there a balance? An equilibrium? The point in which we set our minds to be calibrated, a reference point (my apologies for another act of plagiarism). Why do need that anyway? Now, that certainly requires thought. But if we use our 'systems', is it not an unbalanced thought process occurring?

Hence, do we find something in between the two systems? Something that keeps everything sane? Who knows?

Trekking Where You Cannot

2012-01-27T10:49:00.001+08:00

Up to a certain point, there is uncertainty. And then there is certainty. Which one do we choose?

Be amazed, be very amazed. Are we destined for failure? Be pessimistic. Are we losers? Think again. Chances are you are not going to be as pessimistic as you think. How does it work then? Why am I saying there is certainty?

Ha! Beating around the bush again, I apologize. What is the point then? What the hell are we talking about here? This is exactly my point. We want to get to point. It is either that or bust. Cliches, perhaps. The probably flaw in what we all do (decide on decisions) is evident and not ignored, but just shoved away like old linen.

So what do we do? Resist the temptation to say, "Nothing!". Or, "It doesn't matter." Because it does, but we do not realize it. We are imaginative and creative beings, and we would not do justice to ourselves by telling us things aren't as important as they seem. BUT then again, what is the point?

Fortunately and unfortunately, there is no point. (Or maybe there is?) It is just that, we have been looking around for a 'point', for something is vague and at the same time right in front of eyes. Confused? Look for the answer. Pointless? Then look for hope. Depressed? Then look for happiness. We keep looking for something we are not even sure is there.

Is that how our minds work? Partly. It is a flaw as well as a boon. Anyway, the point? Look for it. Chances are, we ain't getting anywhere.

Precise...

The Start of A Start

2012-01-20T13:40:00.002+08:00

Contradictory? Maybe...

Can we actually figure the beginning of the beginning? No wait, why do we need to know the start of something at all? Can we cope with what happens at the start? Questions. They cannot be answered, can they?

Subjective... or objective?

Yes, there is such a thing called the start of a start. Ha-ha, laugh all we want. But what we perceive as silly, oblivious and downright ignorance is different. Still, we all somehow or rather already have an idea of the start of something. So, the next question is... why do we have start a start?

The word 'unorthodox' is probably in our minds when we pose questions like this. Like, what is the end of the end? What is the middle of a middle? What is the mind of a mind? Enough! Heck, I guess, we are all missing the point. Then again, is there really a point? Perception of the mind is all there is. Subjectivity, objectivity...

Imagine, why do we perceive things as they are? Relatively, we are being subjective or/and objective while judging something, right? Human beings are probably processed to be flat and pattern-minded, but what is the pattern in thinking of something? Curiousity, once again, defeats us. We are too neglected and ignorant of the what really counts, eh?

Answers are always what we are looking for. Without them, we are possible the lost souls. Say possibly, because really, why do we say something when we do not the entirety of it? Ergo, the start of a start has to be present to create.

Under The Influence

2012-01-13T14:46:00.002+08:00

What is the point of doing something when we somehow have a feeling that something just isn't right. Something is affecting our judgment of things and we just don't know how to express our thoughts, feelings, emotions etc.

Well, think of the times when you feel confident. No make that: when you feel confident but in fact, you have an inkling that you aren't confident, truly (think optimism bias). So what do you do? Try and try as you might, you just can get over that 'feeling'. Leave it, and it'll manifest into something more influencing, in a not-so-approving way of course.

There are pangs of panic, anxiety, apathy and self-consciousness of something in us that is there but might not be there. Is it doubt? Is it our flawed judgment? Maybe there isn't anything there. We are only searching for something that really, is not there. One word: paranoia.

So, why do we get this certain kind hunch (thoughts, precisely) that we can't trust out judgment just because we feel there is 'something' influencing us? Simplicity is the key word here, based on the outside view. We can just set our frame or state of mind to be straight to the point, arranging our thoughts for diferrent experiences. Now, wouldn't that be so simple?

But to our (mine at least) relief, it's not all smooth-sailing. Somehow or rather, we tend to resist simplicity, right until the end when we realize our mistake of ignoring simplicity.

For a pessimist, we can't really change who we are. If we are flawed, we are. That is the way it is. But to a realistic optimist, we can at least reduce our flaws. Who are we? Who knows? We would always be under the influence, anyway.