KISAH DUNIA AKU

My youngest sister is getting older.

2017-02-08T01:21:00.000+08:00

Dear Najihah,

Yesterday(5/2/17),marked my youngest sibling,Najihah's birthday.I have never been a person who frequently dedicated a post of my siblings nor my friends everytime they have their birthday coming.But I thought i will write something for her,since she is turned to 16 years old.

It feels like yesterday when I was at standard 3 when my mother give birth to her.I remember the exact place and time,in which Najihah was born.When I heard that my mother was rushed to Hospital on that tuesday's morning,I was glimpsed with both mixed feeling of excited and happy.Why?Because i got to have another sibling in-coming and most importantly,I was very sure that I will not attend the school on that day,hehe.

I was hoping to see the baby upon finished delivering her,but we were told that it was Macrosomic baby with weight of 4.5 kg!And it was delivered normally.haha.Hence,Najihah was held in NICU for couple of days.When I heard my father talked to us and exclaimed about his surprised reaction of how big the baby is made me thought:The baby must be as big as me since everyone was giving the same reaction of how shocked they were when they heard the news from my father.But,of my view on the day seeing Najihah for the first time,was like,"meh,it is not that big"(Well,this was a thought from a 9 years old boy who was still yet to determine wheter it is normal or not).

I also remember that,abah was still excited seeing you as his new children,as much as he excited seeing us when we were babies too.He would come home from his work,no matter at what time she arrived home,and play with you.Me,myself,I was growing up together with you and seeing you grow up from toddlers to adolescent,but I'm looking to you in a brother's perspective.I had a memory when you were 8 months old and Mak used to give you Nestume and I will squeezed around asking for the same food.Sometimes,I even finished the baby cookies that Mak bought to feed you and come to her attention that she felt weird noticing the food in the rack was already finished though it was only 2 days buying it.

As you grow,Mak,Abah,Kakmirah,myself,Nabeelah,Nadhrah and Fauwaz all noticed of how you are changing from a baby to what you are now.Najihah is the only sibling in my family that does not go to a boarding school.When I asked Mak about this,she said "Kalau Najihah pergi asrama,sunyi lah rumah ni,sebab semua orang pun takde kat rumah".Though she is the youngest,but she never been a spoiled and pampered child.In fact,she often get scolded as much as we were when doing wrong things.She never asked for any expensive stuff,and even when she was offered a present,Najihah could confidently rejects for it.The only present I gave to her was when she was in standard 6. I bought her a Barbie doll though she does not play it much often.

One thing I realized about your attitude is,you often feel reserved and shy in moment.You rarely speaks for help and at times I'm afraid that you are hard to gain self-confidence.After few hours of lecturing(Since I am always free at home,so let's find some job to do for example schooling my siblings will ya?),she started to change a little day by day.Now,I see a mature you.I like how well you are accepting your weakness and try to fight it everyday especially after changing your school.You know when to study,when to socialize yourself and does not blindfolded-ly wasting your time.You have shown that you are able to guide and cruize your future without depending on others.I'm not sure what are you planning for your future,but trust us,we will always be there no matter where are you going.

As much as my ego as a big brother scarce my emotion towards you,a big part of my heart is proud of you.Well,you are probably never get to read this unless,someone shows this to you,which I can confidently mention,no one will ever be(since,none of my siblings read my blog).But if you are happened to read this one day,please be someone that everyone really cherished for,proud for.And I can assure you that , InsyaAllah will be seeing the more successful of you in the near future.

Najihah is on the second right(Next to my auntie).Well,she is really tall compared to my other sisters.

I should be studying

2017-01-29T17:17:00.003+08:00

Salam and hi there.

It has been 6 months since I finished my med school and upcoming 2 days will be my day for SPA interview.Honestly, time flies so fast that I barely count every second since the day I started my foundation in AUCMS with a dream to flee to Ireland.Well,things didn't come as what I planned but it was the nicest plan from the Almighty that I'm able to reach my current state,graduating from MD UKM.Not bad afterall Alhamdulillah.

There was time during my degree years that I was perhaps almost getting planked down,but thankfully I managed to climb the ladder back.I was having trouble during my 3rd year when my former collage was declared bankrupt.We have almost nowhere to go but as a bless as I could,for been a goverment scholar,they managed to absorb us into MD UKM,yes because of the similar programme and study we've gotten back in AUCMS.Lucky for us to be getting chance to study in this prestigious med school.Alhamdulillah,from 58 of us entered UKM,the last pro exam noted 54 of us passed the exam(The other 4 are going to pass the exam this coming february InsyaAllah).

Since before we finished our study,we were bathed with news that medical grads need to wait for at least 9 months before embarking the housemanship world and guess that it is being true.So for the next 48 hours,I will be facing my interview and need to wait at least until the first day of April before they announcing the results and another 15 days to fill up the E-houseman(For us to choose which hospital we are interested).So by calculation,we might start our housemanship at the end of April InsyaAllah.

Another predicament that need to be faced by us is the Houseman contract,which I believe the doc-eats-doc world is beginning.Basically,we need to fight with another thousands of Houseman for a limited post for goverment medical officer and if we fail,go get ourself finding a private sector(as if the private sectors want the rejected).

I cant consider myself as a passionate young doctor.I want to do what I am able to do without driven to be the best among the best by taking chance on others.We all know that we are all going to fight for the post,but not in this way.I'm praying that I am able to do the job sincerely and getting myself a supporting team that would not let each team members lagging behind.

To be truth, I do miss my day as a medical student though I'm yet to start my job.Even though there were times when I'm getting tired with certain people or situation,stressed to get up so early and found out you forgot to cover the bed during ward round and being scolded in front of other people,feeling embarassed but it is all the harsh reality to train me to be a better muslim doctor in the future.I am not a type of telling myself too much about my profession,it just today I want to tell someone about it,or in this blog.

When certain people of my age start to get settled down with their loved one,building a business,buying house,I am still nowhere near to that.But I am blessed with what I have now,rich with love from my family and friends and most importantly,I can really feel that Allah loves me as His servant so much that I feel ashamed being a weak servant and not able yet to reach the level for a pious muslim to serve Him.

To all my friends out there and the readers who are reading this.Remember,if you are having trouble of your life and you feel alone like no one care about you,no worries,talk to Him.Everyone of us are having the time of ourself,each one of us facing our own problem but it all depends on you how do you managed it?Dont give up and whenever you are feeling down,let yourself up and seach again the spark.The spark that once ignites your inner spirit to start the things you are giving up now.

p/s-Do pray for me for my upcoming interview. ^_^

I'm an adult.

2016-10-16T20:03:00.001+08:00

Salam.Last time aku update blog masa kahwin pet November tahun lepas.Dah nak dekat setahun rupanya pet kahwin,bila ntah boleh dapat anak buah Beta yang first,hehe.

Alhamdulillah,aku dah nak masuk umur 25 tahun dah tahun depan (2017) .Pejam celik pejam celik,aku boleh dikatakan dah suku abad hidup kat dunia ni.Banyak benda dah jadi dan alhamdulillah aku dah completekan degree perubatan aku yang ambil masa 6 tahun untuk complete campur foundation.Aku memang suka menulis tapi tak semua aku masukkan dalam blog.Tapi sayang,tak ramai yang mampu nak menulis selalu dalam blog termasuklah aku.

Harini macam nak bercerita zaman dari kecik sampai lah dah besar sekarang ni.Tak tahu la ada orang baca ke tak,tapi aku tulis je nanti boleh mengimbau kenangan sikit bila bosan bosan :).

Aku memang orang Ipoh termasuk parents aku memang orang asal Ipoh.Cuma arwah atuk dan nenek aku belah abah asal keturunan Bugis dan belah mak memang datuk nenek aku asal Cina dan Jawa.Dulu masa lahir,sempat aku tinggal kat Ipoh tanpa abah atas urusan abah sambung belajar di Jordan.Cuma masa aku umur setahun tengah pakai pampers tu,mak bawak aku dan kakak pergi stay sana selama 3 tahun lebih.Dapat lah adik sorang lahir kat sana,Nabeelah namanya.Masa kat Jordan,aku rasa aku memang budak kecik yang tak boleh duduk diam.Dekat nursery home sana,aku akan stay dengan budak-budak International yang lain,ada dari Europe,Japan dan budak2 belah arab jugak.Aku suka pergi nursery home walaupun mak aku boleh je jaga sebab tak kerja.Sebabnya 1)Otw nak ke nursery home tu,mesti ada Uncle Yusuf nama dia selalu jual strawberry dan dia mesti bagi aku 3 biji strawberry dengan krim setiap kali lalu."Syukran" aku cakap kat dia setiap kali dapat.hehe. 2)Aku suka naik basikal roda tiga dekat dalam nursery home tu,tapi nak dapat basikal tu kena berebut dengan budak budak dalam tu tapi seingat aku,aku yang selaly conquer basikal tu ^_^

Kalau tak pergi tadika,aku bosan sangat.Sampai ada la dalam 4 kali camtu,aku tengok mak aku masak kat dapur,aku lari keluar jalan sorang2 dekat sekitar Amman street,tempat kitorang tinggal dulu.Aku mesti cari budak2 pakai baju sekolah sebab nak cari kakak aku ajak main.yela bosan kan kat rumah.haha.Last last,kakak pun aku tak jumpa so aku duduk je dekat bangku2 kat taman rekreasi sini.Aku selalunya akan bawak mainan bas mak aku belikan untuk aku buat teman duduk kat kerusi.Lepas tu pernah jugak menangis sebab tengok semua orang sedap makan aiskrim coklat lepas balik sekolah,tapi takde siapa bagi kat aku.Yela ntah anak melayu mana ni kecik2 duduk sorang2.End up macam nak petang tu,mesti ayah aku datang cari aku dengan kawan dia,Pakcik Arbi.Muka risau tapi aku biasa la mana tau apa.

Mainan bas macam ni la aku punya dulu.

Contoh Basikal roda tiga kegemaran ramai masa kat tadika dulu.Boleh bergaduh woo.

Then,aku balik Malaysia dalam umur 5 tahun pastu stay dengan nenek 1 family untuk 4 tahun.Fast forward,aku happy je sekolah dari darjah 1-6 walaupun adala in between aku nakal jugak masa darjah 4 dengan ponteng sekolah apa.haha.Tapi tu je la aku buat takde benda lain cuma keluar masuk la bilik disiplin pasal hal ni sampai ada cikgu ingat aku takde harapan untuk masa depan aku hahaha.Err actually,masa aku tadika,ustazah sorang ni pernah cakap aku bodoh sebab tak reti membaca langsung,hahaha sedih mak aku dengar dia cakap camtu kat mak aku.tapi Alhamdulillah,aku boleh la jugak skor masa upsr.

Then masuk tahun yang aku masih trauma sampai sekarang,2005-early 2006.Sejujurnya,aku menghadapi depression yang teruk tahun ni sebab macam2 jadi, dari patah kaki takleh jalan lama,masuk ke sekolah asrama penuh yang aku tak suka,sampai aku menghadapi Insomnia yang teruk dan depression.Bila dah belajar Psikiatry,baru tahu oo dulu aku pernah kena Major Depressive Disorder(MDD) dengan symptom2 semua sebijik.Bersyukur cuma setahun lebih je kena dan start middle 2006 aku berjaya cope dengan problem tu lepas dapat pindah sekolah semua,dan akhirnya Alhamdulillah bangkit untuk skor dalam PMR.Belajar jugak macam2 masa kena tu,tapi buatkan aku untuk kental sikit hadapi jalan yang liku liku haha.Sejak aku hadapi depression tu,hati aku jenis sensitif sikit tapi tak tunjuk kat orang.Macam senang betul terasa dengan orang tapi aku biar je sorang2 sampai rasa jadi macam perangai perempuan.hahaha tapi jangan risau,aku memang laki sejati.Tapi tu dulu dulu lah,now dah normal kot.

Aku rasa actually banyak kali jugak rasa depress contohnya masa tak dapat Ireland 5 tahun lepas.To be honest,aku still terasa scar tu sampai sekarang even dah grad pun,haha.Dont put too much hope on something,scare it will turns you down.

But,here I am,living as healthy as possible,to be His-servant.Thanks to Allah for showing me the righteous path when things are not going according to what we planned.I felt thankful to be gathered by my important people that help me along the way.My families,friends and I think I have found my other half,Ireen.

Hopefully,InsyaAllah.

Till then..

Tahniah pet :)

2015-11-15T18:04:00.001+08:00

Sabtu lepas(14/11/15),tarikh matpet kawin.Matpet ni gelaran kepada kawan sekelas aku masa kat Saser dulu.Nama asalnya Khalis,tapi pasal orang kata dia nampak macam penagih,so lekat la gelaran matpet tu sampai sekarang,haha.Masa dia umum kat facebook yang dia nak kahwin tu,punya la terkejut aku.Eh,senyap senyap je dia ni dah ada orang dia nak kahwin.Biasa la,last jumpa matpet ni 5 tahun lepas,tu pun lepas dapat result SPM.Lepas tu semua orang dah buat hal masing2,nasib baik la facebook ni still ada,so boleh la nak tau update family2 kawan2 punya hal semua.

So,sabtu lepas,gerak lah aku pergi kenduri matpet sekali dengan si Pucong dengan si Basyir.Semua orang pun ada gelaran masing2 yang lekat je lagi even dah habis sekolah lama pun,haha.Dah la kitorang dengan muka confidentnya sampai dekat Dewan Felda Jalan Semarak sebab ingat si matpet majlis dekat situ.Masuk2 je dalam,dah apehal matpet kahwin pakai coat ni.Tengok-tengok memang bukan matpet.Nasib la kitorang tak buat nice salam pakcik yang jaga kat depan ni ingatkan bapak dia.Baru nak ucap tahniah Khalis dah kahwin,padahal silap orang.Cepat-cepat la kitorang keluar dari dewan tu dengan gelak terbahak-bahak.Tak pasal-pasal datang majlis orang tak jemput ni.Rupa-rupanya,majlis dia dekat Dewan Felda Titiwangsa,depan dalam 3 km dari Dewan Felda Semarak -_-.

Mana la nak tahu dah nama dewan dekat2.

Sampai-sampai je okay confident sikit.Penuh perempuan pakai tudung niqab dekat majlis ni.Tahu pun sebab bini matpet ni memang geng-geng usrah UM.so tak hairan la.Masuk je dalam tu dah nampak matpet tengah duduk atas pelamin dengan bini dia.Matpet turun jumpa kitorang bagitau "kejang muka aku senyum dari tengahari tadi.biasa la,selalu aku jarang senyum'.Takpe la pet,mana la tahu lepas ni kau berubah jadi orang yang ceria je sepanjang masa.Untung matpet kahwin dengan isteri dia ni.Elok tudung labuh,belajar usul fiqh lagi dekat UM.Sejuk mata memandang,tapi takleh pandang lama-lama,pasal bini orang :D

Tengok muka Matpet ceria dapat kahwin.Belah kanan gambar-Naif,isteri dan anak.

2 minggu before Matpet kahwin,dia ada contact aku tiba-tiba satu malam ni

"Pul,sabtu ni free tak?Ingat nak ajak lepak sekali dengan Pucong dengan si Basyir.Dah lama tak jumpa kau ni,ada la 5 tahun"

Sudahnya kitorang jumpa dekat kedai mamak kat Putrajaya.Duduk la borak-borak pasal zaman sekolah semua.Orang itu orang ini buat apa semua.

I remembered we used to sit together right after we finished our Prep class,every night.The same routine as what we did last week,the differences were,the setting and our age.We had exactly the same topics of conversation like what we did few years back.We mocked others(guy friends will always be like this),we opened the talk on how we were naughty back then,and almost every day,we'll be having discussion how fun if we get married,and we even created our future children's name,LOL.I remembered how serious were Pucong and Matpet,brainstorming what would be the best name for their children,and tried to combine their name with the name of their future spouse,of course at that time,we didnt have any.We picked any beautiful girl's name and hoping that would be our future wife.And there was Renggo,also one of our closest friend in our class,where we used to mock him as Mr-Know-It-All,since he seems to know everything in the universe :D.Unfortunately,we were not able to contact Renggo to join us that day,if he does,he'll get tease off again,haha.I do miss my time in Saser,though i only had to face for 2 years(read:Very tired),but the experienced and the moments there,indulged me.

Dari pukul 10 sampai la pukul 2:30 pagi baru la kitorang habis berborak.Dalam kereta masa nak balik,aku berdua dengan matpet masa tu.Dia kata dia pun tak percaya dia nak kahwin dah.Susah dah dia nak buat benda masa bila zaman bujang-bujang dulu.Tak boleh sesuka hati keluar pergi lepak dengan kawan,main futsal,lepas tu tinggal bini sorang-sorang dekat rumah.Aku start fikir,aku tak rasa aku boleh lagi nak sampai tahap jadi suami orang,at least,not yet.Dengan diri banyak tak betul lagi,tanggungjawab dekat family.Dah nak dekat 10 tahun aku tak duduk constantly dengan family.Yelah,5 tahun asrama,5 tahun belajar medik.Tapi,apa-apa pun,masa depan apa pun boleh jadi.Tapi matpet ada la nasihat aku,suruh habiskan belajar dulu,then baru boleh fikir pasal benda alah kahwin ni.Dah macam parents aku punya nasihat pun ada :D.

Aku pun tengok keliling aku,masing-masing dah membesar.Yela,takkan nak kecik je sepanjang masa.Aku rasa aku tak berapa sedar sangat apa jadi kat sekeliling.Orang ni dah kahwin,orang ni dah ada anak,orang ni dah keje,orang ni dah tak duduk Malaysia, macam-macam lagi.

Aku masih lagi mencuba untuk sesuaikan diri dengan keadaan sekeliling.Cuba fikir yang sekarang ni dah umur 23,bukan remaja dah.Ntah la kenapa aku still rasa 23 ni budak-budak lagi -__-.Betapa pentingnya aku kena ubah perangai untuk jadi lagi berguna dekat agama dekat masyarakat.InsyaAllah,pro exam aku 11/7/2016.Sekarang masih lagi struggle untuk belajar medik ni.Baru je habis posting OnG,dan akan start dengan posting Family Medicine,esok(16/11/15).How time flies.Rasa macam takde la lama sangat aku daftar 1st year dulu.Dengan kena paksa sorang 2nd year ni suruh kitorang rendam dalam kolam masa tu,pengalaman repeat paper urinary masa 2nd year,pengalaman first time dapat kereta,pengalaman first sekali posting klinikal dekat hospital Kulim,pengalaman pindah ke HUKM cheras masa 4th year,and the list will be continued from time to time.Sesiapa yang baca ni,minta tolong doakan kami,5th year MD UKM pass pro exam dan menjadi doktor yang berguna untuk ummah,cei :D. Akhir kata,wassalam.

Matpet,sehari sebelum bernikah.kahkah

another post of 2015

2015-03-31T19:28:00.001+08:00

Di kala hati yang tak keruan,kau tak zahirkan,kau ceritakanlah pada sang pencipta.Akan kau ketemu jawapan.

It's saturday

2015-02-21T17:41:00.000+08:00

Salam.tiba-tiba bangga pulak dapat update blog dalam tempoh masa kurang dari sebulan.hehe.Alhamdulillah,aku baru baik dari demam denggi,di mana cuti raya cina aku selama seminggu tu separuh aku habiskan stay dekat ward kat ipoh ni.

Sakitnya demam denggi tu dengan pening kepala,demam panas,perut tak selesa,rashes gatal2 dan macam2 lagi.Allah,selama ni baca dekat buku je,sekarang nah Allah bagi cash kat aku suruh belajar ingat symptom denggi macam mana.Takpe,yang penting dah sembuh.Anggap ni kifarah dosa,nak cucikan diri tatkala diri banyak lalai semua :)

Terharu aku bila Dr n kawan2 yang hari2 mesej tanya khabar macam mana semua.berkat doa semua,Alhamdulillah dapat sembuh.banyak betul terharu rasa.part paling terharu bila hari dah sembuh tu pergi melawat rumah opah.sedih aku tengok opah aku menangis tengok aku dah sembuh.punya lah cover diri kononnya cool tak sedih.Bila diri ni down ke stress ke,kena sedar diri,ramai orang yang care pasal kita,kita je kononnya fikir hidup independent la ape la.Bukan ke kita hidup kena saling melengkapi :)

Oh ya,ni cuti panjang last yang aku.esok dah kena balik ke HUKM tercinta yang masih lagi dalam usaha cuba untuk mencintai.nak sedih,sedih tak boleh.dah tahun 4 sem 8 pun takkan nak sedih lagi.Lepas ni ada long case examination psychiatry then masuk posting triad.janji kena usaha betul2.Betulkan niat belajar lillahitaala.Lepas ni jugak akan pindah masuk ke hostel IPG.harap semua2 nya baik belaka.

harini jugak,kawan kepada kak mirah dah datang rumah.harap semuanya berjalan lancar dan kak mirah punya hidup diberkati Allah selalu.it's good to see smiles from them-my sister,my parents and all,including me.Tiba tiba rasa umur 23 ni banyak betul turning point,and surely I'm getting ready for myself to get through it.Tapi at the same time,i miss my childhood too.Is it time to say goodbye?

okay lah sampai sini je nak tulis.time to pack my belongings.oh,Perak lawan lions malam ni.. :D

p/s-Dah tiba masa kena kurang dengar lagu2 lagha.mari mendengar nasyid supaya hati tak kotor :)

Things that I love the most

2015-02-02T16:26:00.000+08:00

Salam.Dah masuk tahun 2015 dah.Cepatnya aku pun tak sedar.Sekarang ni,aku dah dekat HUKM cheras,tahun 4 sem 2.haih tua dah.Umur dah nak masuk 23.aku mula tulis blog umur 18.walaupun update setahun sekali jadi la.kira okay la ada diari setahun sekali :D

Alhamdulillah,aku pass posting paediatrics dengan orthopaedics last sem,sekarang ni posting psychiatry then lepas tu triad(ENT,opthal,anaes).Harap2 boleh lepas masuk tahun 5,doakan aku :)

Klik untuk mendapatkan feel :p

how can i sum up my 2014?well,up and down then down then down then up then down balik kot.haha.penat jugak nak hadapi itu ini,tapi tapi,aku kan lelaki,so lelaki ni biasa la kena tabah sikit,kalau tak camne nak jaga family :p

Things were so smooth last year,that I dont even think that i'll face this problem,but who are we to question things that are beyond our understanding?

No matter how honest you are,care others first though it hurts you as well.Well,I am wrong to think eventhough you are trying hard,but if others dont want to be in the same possession,what could i say? :)

tapi,since I was in my primary school,the word 'giving up' never across me.I'm trying to be better,time by time,well becoming a good guy really consume wealthy of time.Life long learning,a wise thing to say.

It's good to know,while i'm knocking down,my friends and family will always be there.people that I trust and love the most.

oh,related with the title above,there are so much thing that i love,wheter it's already done,on the way,or just by imagination.

I'd love to spend my time here,place where I born and perhaps die,later.

Bandar.Ipoh bandar yang paling aku suka dan tak jemu.I was born here,raised here,my family is here,dan jugak makanan yang banyak dan sedap2 semuanyaa.

Ipoh waktu malam.cantik tak,cantik kan :D

Okay dah.tu je nak cite.jumpa lagi tahun depann,InsyaAllah :D

Bye bye JKM

2013-11-07T15:59:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

"One can choose to go back toward safety or forward toward growth. Growth must be chosen again and again; fear must be overcome again and again". ~Abraham Maslow

rindunye nak menaip dekat blog ni.last update 8 bulan dulu,lama sangat ni.btw,sedar tak sedar,aku dah masuk tahun ke 3 medical school yakni clinical years.first posting aku JKM atau orang panggil public health.ni posting paling rilek skali dalam medical years,so aku pun terikut lah rilek sampai tak study ape-ape sepanjang 2 bulan ni.Asyik main game je aku ni.

I'm in holidays right now,sampai ahad nanti.ntah la,cuti rasa macam tak cuti,takut je selalu.takut dengan macam2.lepas ni,exam,then aku masuk posting internal medicine.dah start masuk hospital,lagi lah stress jawabnye,kena marah dengan doktor,kena clerk patient,dengan penat cuti sehari je seminggu T_T.tapi takpe,sampai bila aku nak rasa selesa je nak cuti selalu.

bagi aku definisi cuti ni makin besar die dah jadi lain.dulu aku suka sangat cuti sebab boleh keluar dengan kawan2,main bola tak ingat dunia.tapi bila dah besar,time cuti adalah cuti.duduk je rumah,tido,takpun siapkan assignment ke ape ke.

sometimes,i wondered myself,what on earth that i need the most?rasa macam ade kosong je kadang2.contohnye,bila dekat kolej,beriya nak balik rumah,tapi bila dekat rumah,nak balik kolej balik.sekarang ni,dah la tinggal sorang kat rumah sampai ahad ni.aih pening kepala,haha.nanti dah balik kulim mula la buat perangai rindu rumah balik."house is where the heart belongs,if there's mom inside it"

lastly,doakan aku berjaya lepas 3rd year dengan jayanya then dapat masuk 4th year,then 5th year then graduate jadi HO.eh senangnye terus jadi HO.tak jugak,aku tak tau apa yang aku kena hadapi lepas ni.harap,takdelah yang teruk sampai downkan aku.insyaallah :)

Alfatihah untuk arwah muaz(baju hitam merah),anak jiran aku,pakcik anuar.tiada lagi penghibur ketika more di bulan puasa untuk tahun depan dan seterusnya..semoga berjumpa di syurga kelak :)

Once a year post

2013-03-04T18:25:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t

Dapat jugak spend masa nak tulis dalam blog ni.bukannya dah tak berminat nak menulis,cuma asyik lupe je yang aku ni ade blog,hehe.cukup la aku buat blog ni tempat menyimpan kenangan yang tak seberapa ni.nanti bila dah tua ada cucu nanti,boleh terkenang2 kembali kisah lama,cei.

click video untuk mendapatkn feel

Alkisahnye,sekarang ni aku dah pun masuk sem ke 4.sekarang tengah belajar module GIT yakni module perut,hati dan seangkatannya.Insyaallah dalam beberapa bulan lagi,akan melangkah ke alam clinical,kalau tak ade repeat,insyaallah takde :)

So far,aku masih macam dulu,belajar sekadar bila perlu,lain aku pergi spend masa internet,lepas tu sanggup setiap minggu tengok bola pukul 3 -4 pagi kat luar.mana tak ngantuk dalam kelas esoknya haih.tapi nak buat camne,minat susah untuk dikikis :p

kisah budak md ukm aucms nak pindah ke kulim sampai tak ke sudah2.tapi kitorang rilek je,dah paham aucms camne sejak dari pre med lagi.tak kisah mana2 pun,kepala batas best jugak,dah ade mall baru semua,haha.tak sangka plak kepala batas dah boleh jadi bandar sekarang,ingatkan dulu milky baby land je paling up.tapi apa-apa pun,3rd year konfirm pindah hospital kulim insyaallah sebab memang clinical kat situ.tapi tak tau la aku dapat group mana nanti pasal nanti dia bahagi2 kan ikut hospital taiping ke,kulim ke or buat public health kat selangor 3 bulan.

oh ye,eom GIT Isnin minggu depan,n macam biasa,perangai aku seminggu nak exam baru pulun betul2(X pulun sangat la tapi).kawan2 rumah aku planning nak lepak ipoh rumah aku then pergi cameron.tengok la jadi ke tak.kadang2,time tu la nak kena setel itu ini.

lastly,some random pictures

The pathway

2012-08-09T09:27:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t.

lamanya tak update blog.macam biasa,rindunya aku nak menulis.sedar tak sedar,dah 8 bulan aku tak log in account blog ni.baru lepas baca blog pucong n anas tadi.tiba2 rasa nak menulis jugak.:D

sekarang dah bulan 8,macam2 benda pahit manis aku dah tempuh.alhamdulillah,bulan 9 ni aku masuk 2nd year.betul2 rezeki aku dapat lulus sem 1 sem 2.dengan demam panasnye.teringat masa exam sem 2 hari tu.punya la bz sampai hari2 masa study week tido pukul 5 pagi,bangun pkul 11.dengan nak recall balik ilmu2 yang dah lupe,memang penat.tambah2 ade euro.sebagai peminat bola sejati,mana boleh lepaskan setiap match,cei.padahal dulu dah janji,german punya game je aku layan.exam pulak takde gap.straight je jadual dia seminggu tu.malam exam microb,aku gamble taknak tido.aku pikir takpe,nanti lepas exam aku boleh qada' tido sikit.lepas asar sambung baca MOD.malangnye,sebab aku spent banyak sangat masa study microb,aku takde tenaga langsung nk recall MOD malam tu.nak dijadikan cerita lagi,aku boleh plak demam panas n pening kepala.esok nak exam,tapi tak boleh study sebab pening.aku sedih gila masa tu,siap nangis.hahaha.teringat masa tu,tengok dorang semua study,aku dengan panadol dekat atas meja,paksa diri nak baca.K nasihat aku,"takpe pul,orang demam ni berkat die banyak,trust me"

aku last2,terus tido,tak study langsung.repeat pun repeat la,aku dah tak larat.esok time exam,sayu je tengok sorang2 study before masuk dewan,aku pulak sandar dekat dinding.pasrah dah,ape nak jadi,jadi la.Allah memang betul2 nak uji aku,aku dapat seat paling depan sekali depan lecture,n lecture ni plak memang jenis takkan bantu clarify soalan.so,im dead.time exam,aku redha je buat,ape2 yang ade dekat otak aku,aku tulis je.tapi betul la cakap K,orang demam dapat berkat.memang Allah nak tolong aku,ape yang aku baca n aku ingat,itu lah yang keluar exam.syukur gila masa tu.

Alhamdulillah,lulus jugak akhirnya semua paper.tapi,aku takleh happy macam tu je,ramai kawan2 aku repeat paper.harap sangat dorang lepas.dorang takde,memang tak hidup la life aku.

so far,hidup aku sekarang ok.tapi sejujurnya,macam2 benda dah jadi tahun ni.berat memang berat,tapi aku kena sabar je.betul la orang kata,lagi tua,lagi besar tanggungjawab.macam2 benda dah hilang dalam life aku sekarang,but life goes on.takpe,now kena concentrate dekat dunia medic je.kurang2 kan tengok wayang lepas ni,study jelah.haih.

Insyaallah tahun depan pindah kulim.rumah je tak tau macam mana,MARA tanggung lagi ke tak wallahualam.Dr bad cakap termasuk yuran yang MARA taja,tapi ntah betul ke tak.AUCMS ni banyak ragam dia.dari pre med dah jadi macam ni.

BTW,lama dah tak kontek kawan2 lama.ape khabar semua agaknya?...:)

someday,aku nak travel 1 dunia,n aku nak duduk tepi tower bridge ni sambil minum kopi tengok sampai jambatan tu terangkat.:p.told u,i will not stop dreaming.

come back for a while

2011-11-28T14:34:00.000+08:00

salam.just a short post.

it's been a long time since i wrote about my life here.well,as the usual me,nothing special in my new level of life.just to inform, i'm now enrolling in ukm medical degree,but the place of study is still located in penang,and going to spend the next 5 years in north.2 years for pre clinical,and 3 years clinical in hospital.

life is great here.well,my batch is now trying to develop chemistry between each other.some of the new students came from ccums,some are from matriks and foundation.well,they are great friends,and it's not a problem for us to create bonds with them.

i'm currently living in fully furnished house together with 5 great friends.haha.well,most of them are able to cook great foods,and as for me,i've been given duty to prepare drinks during eating time.hey but i'm up to a new level where i learnt already how to prepare nasi ayam.yeah,that sounds great for a guy like me.haha

the next thing is about my study.the things that i heard before about how tight the schedules,where most of the time we spend on books,and we dont have enough time to relax,err i must say it's true.but i'm trying my best to suit and immerse together will all the time table.less lectures,but here,medical students are prone to problem based learning(pbl) as our study approach.

ok lah,that's all.going to pack all my belongings.bye2 to my house,welcome back my hectic life.when it should be ended?#sigh

think out of box,shall we?

2011-08-12T03:44:00.004+08:00

assalamualaikum n happy ramadhan to all readers(if any)..=)

Ever heard about Theory of Darwin?a scientist who claimed that,ape is our predecessor and chimpanzee,monkey and humans come from the same ancestor?gosh,it's so hilarious.let me,as a normal student answer this.remember,my points are just a few out of millions.it can be varied,use our brain wisely,instead.

well.some famous blogger are in the Darwin's side.of course they are malays and muslim(definitely yes!).they support the statement because they think themself are pro enough knowing all the topics about the theory of evolution.By reading a few evidence saying that a homo sapiens evolve from the existence of apes,support with the research made by Darwin,saying that 96% of human's DNA is exactly the same as an ape's.i'm not sure wheter the research was truely being done,or it was just a "make-up" experiment in order for the jews to twist muslim's mind.wait a minute.96%?woahh,as far as i know,genetic study only approve similarities of something to something,if they have a flawless result,meaning that,there's no any lackness or "hole" that can change the nature of the object.for example,humans and apes.And let say yes the DNA facts proved that we are related to apes, but that alone can't be used to support darwin's theory of evolution.as im fully concern,i believe to the phrase,environment affects achievements.same goes to DNA.it is very spesific and sensitive and it is not easily changes according to the nature.to make DNA,we need a phosphate,sugar bond and also a suitable niche.it doesnt create to itself,proving that,DNA has been inside humans since we were created.it's special and nothing can be compared with it and be changed easily.unless if u try to create another bomb massacre.the next Hiroshima and Nagasaki.got what i meant?

if a DNA test proved that a grown man and a newly-born baby is biological related,can i say that the man is originated from that baby?one more thing,a DNA is just a sequence,but it doesnt count as a same level of genome right?and functions of genome is completely different to each spesies(campbell page 286,just recalled,haha).

err,btw,i heard from a trustful resource,says that,the theory of Darwin's is just a theory,and doesnt count as a fact.so,it cant be accepted right.a theory is not definite and prone to change.well,how about an archeology expedition made by Darwin(i guess i'd said his name thousand of times),showing that numbers of complete skeleton with skull of apes and when a test been done to it,it shows they were lived during the Paleolitic's years(the era where scientist believe the starter of home sapiens civilization)So,what should we say about this?we trapped already?not yet i guess.this is the answer.correct me if im wrong.according to Al-Quran:

So when they were insolent about that which they had been forbidden, We said to them, "Be apes, despised."(surah Al-A'araf,166)

It has been written in Quran,saying that there was a group of people living next to a sea.and Allah has made an illegal for them to catch fish during saturday,but they against the restriction.so,they have been changed to apes.maybe the skeleton figures found by Darwin's,were them?

in conclusion, Allah can create life whichever way He like - evolutionarily, 'just like that', mix of both or any other ways.in my opinion,evolution does esixt.

Btw, if evolution is the only way all of life on earth (we)are created, who or what can stop Allah s.w.t. to make exception(s)?Isa a.s. is an exception too right?

my advice,dont ever try to questioned about the power of divine.who are we to hesitate about His power?we are just slaves.Thanks to Darwin,people start to realize the power of Quran.

its quite creepy kan?:O

p/s-oh,im too late to change my course.kidding..=D

vous oubliez...:)

2011-07-28T02:37:00.002+08:00

hai.

rindu lah zaman after spm.we used to hang out together eventhough it just a while kn.luckly,we were in the same state..:)

up until now,we are still contacting each other.yesterday u tried to prank me by sending crazy stuff and thought that it was a virus..-___-"

and btw,no more super saver eh.before this we had 3 hour non-stop talking.bahaha.

goodluck dekat uitm.one day nanti,kite try jumpe.peace!

=D

No worries..:)

2011-07-23T19:34:00.001+08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t

Short post..:D

dear friends,

kita sama2 tempuh md ukm.we'll make sure there's no regret of studying there.we'll be planned a lots of activities soon.and our bond together will be strengthened.

aku janji punyelah,lama2 kita akan suka gile dekat kepala batas or kulim nanti.lantak pergi cuaca panas ke ape,jangan kondem ape2 yang kurang kat malaysia ni.negara sendiri jugak paling best.nak kata panas,hidup je orang2 kat sini,tak banyak kerenah pun.siap ramai lagi best students medic kt malaysia ni.ala,lagipun,api neraka panas lagi lah..:)

rumah pun dekat nanti kan.rindu ke stress ke,jumpa je family.lagi 1,medic ni busy,so bile dah devote life kite kat medic ni,macam takde masa nak jumpa family kan.ambik peluang kat malaysia ni.jumpa selalu..:)

makanan pun jangan risau,lapar je,ade banyak je stall ke restoran ke kat tepi jalan ni.semua halal insyaallah..:)

nak travel 1 dunia?ermm,ala,ade duit nanti kite travel la sama2.ramai2 baru best.travel untuk melancong,less stress kan?

last but not least,kita akan jadi family.janji tempuh sama2 semua.sama2 usaha nak berjaya ok.c'mon,move on.kita dekat tempat terbaik untuk kita sekarang.believe in yourself,friends..:)

grow up eh..:)

2011-07-21T12:38:00.000+08:00

Assalamualikum w.b.t

19/7/2011.tarikh keramat kot bagi aku.bukan keramat syirik tu,keramat bermaksud tarikh event penting jadi dalam hidup aku.actually,takde ape pun,just masa tu interview medic ukm je.hehe.congrats to me,i've stepped to another level..:)

no more ireland,guess what,aku sekarang dah ubah persepsi aku.sekarang,aku insyaallah a-good-doctor-oriented.tu yang aku harap2kan.salah aku selama ni,nak ireland sangat instead lupe nawaitu aku yang sebenar.nasihat aku dekat sape2 kat luar,buat kerja berdasarkan niat tau,bukan sebab keseronokan.nanti jadi macam aku dulu,tension tak bertempat tak dapat ireland,hehe.takpe,benda dah lepas.aku ngaku,2011,tahun aku ditimpa macam2 ujian.betullah orang kata,zaman habis sekolah,zaman ko baru nak masuk alam dewasa,banyak lagi benda tak lalui lagi.

Alhamdulillah,aku tak menyesal.aku rasa aku dah pilih jalan yang terbaik pilih aucms dari pilih pasum dulu.bukan ape,aku risau aku kat pasum,aku banyak main,lepas tu pointer rendah,for sure tercampak course yang aku tak nak,then aku menyesal itu ini.aku percaya life aku kat kulim nanti akan jadi benda yang baik bagi aku.tahniah sape2 yang dapat ireland,sape2 yang dapat upu,n ape2 je lah.yang tak dapat,jangan risau,Allah dah simpan rezeki untuk kau,cuma kite kena cari je.percaya je,life kite dah tertulis n just follow the flow.insyaallah,one day,ko akan jumpa kebahagiaan kat tempat tu..:)

looks like,we'll be separated for 2.5 years,dear friends.rindu kot 120 pre-med mara.lepas ni,pergi kelas,dah tak nampak dah 57 orang yang fly tu.tak nampak dah kereta Lulu man punye,yang dalam die,mesti ade man,meah,acap maarof semua.tak nampak dah kereta kancil atisya dengan isi2 dalam die,hehe,myvi kudo,persona hakem,mazda rx8 kid(kete hot ni..:D)n macam2 lagi lah kereta budak pre med.sure i'll miss all the memories that we had together.n then,takde dah teman aku bangun sama2,pergi kelas sama2 naik bas aucms,futsal sama2.goodluck Hesam iranian..:)

yeah,pre-med memang sedih,but memory should not be faded away.2011 tahun di mana aku rasa macam,aku dah membesar sedikit,dah tahu ape sumbangan kita kat dunia ni,dah matang sikit,tau nak buat decision baik buruk.thank u Allah for letting me to face all these kind of tests from u,as they help me to grow as a grateful person.aku percaya liku2 hidup aku tak stop setakat ni je,banyak lagi ujian akan aku jumpa nanti.biarlah zaman pre med ni antara ujian paling besar pernah aku rasa,tapi penting untuk aku sebab experiences teach me a lot.tu yang penting..:)

at least,study malaysia,aku still ade time dengan family,dengan kawan2 aku yang study sini,or tak fly lagi.

last but not least,study well tau dekat sana A.L.2.5 tahun tak lama pun,pejam celik,nanti jumpa la balikkan.tipu la if saya kata tak sedih,but life goes on.insyaallah,hospital taiping kan ade.3rd year nanti,kitorang jadi senior korang skett je,boleh buli awak.haha.pastu cepat2 la masuk housemanship eh?haha

ok,tu je.insyaallah aku akan update life2 aku nanti bile dah masuk medical degree.hidup bukan senang rupenye,ooooo~takpe2,tak give up pun,tapi jadi makin kuat adelah..:p

ok,bye!

macam haram

2011-07-15T00:37:00.001+08:00

hello friends.takde ape nak cakap,just tadi aku jumpe video roller coster ni.serius tak nak naik,aku baru tengok video,dah menjerit2.mak n kakak aku usya pelik je.dorang ingat aku sakit ke ape terjerit2 sorang depan laptop.kakak aku dah kutuk2 aku cakap pengecut la ape la.aku suh die tengok terjerit jugak.siap lagi kuat lagi..-__-"

part takleh blah time atas curam tu,aku cari la,mana die punya rail ni,tak jumpa2...= O

ok,cakap banyak tak guna,nahh.sila menjerit.

what?tak menjerit,err.no komen

grateful..:D

2011-07-10T22:30:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum w.b.t

aih,makin lama makin aku rindu n sayang semua benda depan aku ni.dah nak masuk 19 dah pun aku,kena lah peka dengan keadaan depan aku semua sekarang ni.btw,minggu lepas aku dah pergi 2nd interview.alhamdulillah ok kot.just redha je dengan ape2 ketentuan Allah kat aku.err,one thing for sure,aku nak cakap,if jadi ape2 dekat kite,jangan lupe doa.doa changes everything.doa yang betul2 ikhlas la..:)

lately,aku suke dengar lagu zain bikha,tambah2 yang ini.tenang je rasa hati,ni sebab aku dengar dari blog adam la ni.hehe.erm,thanks dekat family,kawan2 aku,yang doa2 kan aku ni.aku appreciate sangat.n abang2 n kakak2 ireland lagi la baik,sanggup korban macam2 nak tolong kitorang budak2 pre med ni.tambah semangat nak belajar sama2 nanti..:)

sekarang macam2 cerita jadi kat malaysia kan,Bersih 2.0 jadi topik utama.err,aku no komen benda2 ni,agak sensitif kan,lagipun tak cukup ilmu nak cakap itu ini,just dengar dari media2,blog sume ,ntah betul ke tak kan.no offense.semua orang ade stand die yang tersendiri.yah,time for me to become a more mature person,tak nak ambik port sangat benda2 kecik ni.bukan ape,insyaallah masuk medical degree nanti(tak kire mana2 pun),aku kena kuat.kuat ingatan,kuat jaga diri,jaga iman semua.nak jadi doktor,doktor yang bagus,bukan kejar pangkat harta je,amin~

sampai sini je post aku.aku nak mintak maaf dekat sape2 yang terasa dengan aku selama ni,well,human is not perfect kan,still banyak lagi lopak sini sana,kena upgrade itu ini..:D

ok,sekian,2 je.salam.

Dont give up

2011-06-30T02:28:00.003+08:00

assalamualaikum n haiii..:)

Once again,lama gile aku tak update blog.well,actually nak update blog bile ade good news je,but takpe,langkah je la.saje,aku taip entry ni malam2.fresh sikit.lately,banyak bende dah jadi kat aku.bende private but,lambat laun,kantoi jugak.so baik aku citer je.tu pun kalau ade yang bace lah..:)

sepanjang bulan ni,aku frust je keje.tapi sekarang dah ok la kot.first mule dengan result ielts,lepas tu placement dekat ireland pulak.dah down gile aku,mule2 dapat tau tak dapat.jangan jadi macam aku,give up je mule2.sampai rasa macam,nak stop ambik medic,tukar jadi lain,chef ke,ape2 lah,haha.tambah2 lak,orang2 penting aku dapat,aku tak dapat bayang dah camne pisah 5 tahun,rasa macam dah sampai penghujung plak,haha.

thanks dekat family aku,kawan2 aku,yang sentiasa support aku masa aku tengah down gile tu.rasa macam down masa aku form 1 dulu.hal lama biarlah.

aku ingat lagi,masa aku tengah tension tu,mak aku lah yang susah payah pujuk aku.die bawak aku pergi makan2 kejap kat luar.2 orang je.we had a heart to heart talk..:)

ingat lagi ayat die,"kalau Allah tak letak tempat kamu dekat ireland tu,maknanye,bukan tempat yang terbaik lah tu.rezeki kamu dekat sini,takpelah.dekat dengan family kan?spend banyak masa dengan mak,nanti jadi doktor,dah kurang masa kan?hope u shine the brightiest..:)

This is mak..:)

then,aku mule dah boleh telan semua benda dah,eventhough pedih,sebab impian dari kecik kan.majoriti tak dapat fly budak course aku.takpelah,takde rezeki.bukan sebab result kitorang teruk,bukan sebab ielts,tapi sebab tak pass interview je.ramai je budak kolej aku ielts tinggi2,result 4 flat semua,tapi tak dapat.ketentuan dari Allah,mana boleh lawan..:)

bersyukur lah aku dapat family yang supportive,yang tak down kan aku,but lagi boost spirit aku.ayah aku sanggup buat macam2 nak naikkan semangat aku.Last2,die sanggup pergi pejabat mara kat Kl,awal2 pagi pukul 5 bertolak,hantar appeal letter for 2nd interview.Alhamdulillah,pihak mara cakap,sape2 yang lepas pointer and ielts,dapat 2nd interview.aku dah bersyukur gile dah,eventhough aku grieving lagi masa tu,sampai semua orang cakap aku nampak kurus and tak sihat,haha.ini bukan aku ni,jenis tension2,nak aku yang dulu..:)

now,aku tengah prepare for 2nd interview aku,6 julai ni.aku akan buat yang terbaik,and if tak dapat jugak,aku tahu,memang Ireland bukan tempat aku.next time maybe.If dapat,aku janji takkan main2 belajar dekat sana,sebab aku tahu,bukan senang nak dapat golden ticket ni.aku akan ingat sampai bile2..:)

Friends,pray for us..:)

Shall this little light guide us passing through the tunnel.Dont give up friends,wel'll be faced it together..:)

p/s:fuh,first time main luah2 perasaan.malu plak.hehe

Paranoid

2011-05-26T13:59:00.000+08:00

salam..:)

semalam(25/5/11),aku dengan 5 6 orang member aku,pergi lawat sekolah lama balik.takde ape pun,nak ambik sijil spm je.alang2,aku memang nak jumpe cikgu2 pun.rindu kot.tapi dapat jumpa berapa orang je,sebab yang lain dah balik.aku nak gile jumpa madam Lim,tapi sedih la,die dah balik awal.sedih aku..:(

wah,sekolah skang dah lain la.kantin sume dah up(boleh la),masjid memang besar,then yang lain tak berubah sangat pun.jumpe cikgu shahrul,macam biasa la,tergelak2 dengar lawak sindir die.haha.memang semua kena drop semalam.haha.

tengok blok kasturi,lekir semua,teringat plak zaman form 5 dulu.time perkampungan ilmu,lepak dekat dorm pucong.prep malam jumaat ponteng,pergi bakar hotdog dengan segala jenis hape tah nugget semua.dah la gune heater budak form 4..:D

tapi serius rindu sekolah tu.dulu masa f4,biasa dari ipoh nak ke seremban,mesti aku muke sedih je dalam bas tu.sampai pulak time maghrib,dengan langit mendung nye,memang tambah lagi sedih.tapi semalam lain plak,time nak balik ipoh plak yang macam sedih.tapi,aku rindu suasana die je,tapi bukan style belajar.kalau bab belajar2 ni,penat gile lah.hampir seminggu tu busy je.dengan kelas habis lambat habisnye.tapi ok ape,kalau tak pasal kelas2 ni,hancur spm aku.

then,pergi hantar azam dekat rumah die.first time pergi rumah die.jumpe rumah nabil semua.tapi die takde plak.pergi skuba kot.lepas ni dah susah dah nak jumpe semua orang.ha,lupe nak cakap,kitorang jumpe lisa surihani jugak dekat klcc tu,dating dengan yusri.lawa la plak die pakai baju kuning tu,yusri errr,boleh lah,just kalau shave janggut sume,aku rasa lagi hensem..:p

ok lah,tu je nak update.malasnye.

See You soon..:)

2011-05-23T15:23:00.002+08:00

21/5/2011

I don't know whether i should feel sad of leaving something or i ought to be happy as I'm leaving all the hardship behind.No book for 4 months and the results are the scariest things right now.I reckon that my life would be as same as my life after the SPM,online,watching television,sleep and sleep.I know that there will be time,i start to feel boring and wanted my life to be coloured back by books.

But,ponder yourself saiful.U'll be missing your free time,because after this,every second will be moving so fast,and to exaggerate the story,there's no time for u to grab the food.Be praised,enjoy the holiday.

B.T.W,glad that all of my family and friends are here,in Ipoh,the city where i live,where i start to know how to spell apple,differentiate between car and cat,and having one of my best friend here is one of the greatest thing i ever had.

So,stop mumbling,off the laptop,go get foods,sleep tight,wake up again,do the same things..:)

Bad acts girl

Random

2011-05-08T02:25:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum.

nothing much to tell.but regarding about my schedule life,it starts to turn into a pathetic one.my final is just around a corner,with a bunch of books in front of me.doing nothing,even touching it.a lot of things need to be recovered back,as my mind start to detoriarate about the idea of learning anatomy subject.to whom should i blame it for?

To make it worst,i also need to face an ielts exam next two weeks.and a band 7 is a must for me.

I'm hoping that i can do the best for this final semester,and then take myself back to home,meet my family,spending time with my friends,and if the luck belongs to me,it will yet add more recipes to my life.

i wish that all the pre med students can do their best and we'll get the chance to study there.ah,1st list is my dream..:)

A compliment

2011-04-30T00:32:00.000+08:00

Yang pasif kat alam realiti biasanya antara mereka yang paling aktif dalam alam maya-Sam

yeah,that's so true.no wonder i'm very rare updating my status on facebook.haha..:p

yeah,live your life.it comes once.explore the world.

cherish the life

2011-04-23T23:02:00.004+08:00

Today was the first time for me to meet a tailor.i mean,my truly intention,not because of being forced by someone to have a nice shirt so that i can brag with everyone.actually,the reason why i met the tailor,is because of the pre med's annual dinner.my head start to spin off when i first saw the theme for the dinner.the attire.guess what,bold and beautiful.why dont they just change it into beast and beautiful?well,basically,it written there,BOLD.so,for this kind of glamorous event,and the theme actually,the guy need to find a tuxedo which may cost thousands,unless if we rent it.

so,to make it short,my mother bring me to the tailor.well at first,this decision really overwhelmed me as i can own a tux where it fits me well(just because of it's created just for me).my brain start to turn its function into a more simpler task,the calculator.i keep thinking about the price,and maybe it will range from 400-600 bucks.

as my legs started to enter the tailor's shop,my eyes was pointed on a notes been sticked on the door.it stated there,the fee for the tailor's is at least,550.not included with the duration for the attire to be done.well,butterflies in the belly*

but,it's ok.i considered that as a joke.so,my mother and i entered the shop and then showed the designer what kind of tux i'd love.so,here's the dialogues.

me:aaa,tokey,baju camni boleh buat x?style japanese sket?blakang panjang2 sket?

T:ha?ini macam ka?sy dah tengok banyak kali style macam ni.memang popular ni.ramai tempah,cina,melayu,india pun ade(then he started to giggle,dunno why)

me:so,berapa harga die agak?bile boleh siap?

T:baju macam ni,artis je pakai ma.dia olang ade designer dolang sendiri maa.

me:oh,so sy x boleh la baju camni?(heh,u think u are an artist?pissed off)

T:boleh tu boleh,tapi duit manyak sket maa.

me:berapa?

T:*he showed a "peace" sign with his fingers(means two)

me:ohhh,2 ratus je?wah,murah2.

T:dua latus tak boleh laa.mana boleh cari makan maa.2 libu maa(means two thousands)

me:erkkk?takpela tokey,sy gerak dulu.thank u.

my dream start to burst into pieces.waa,2 thousands to be spent for a starchy black tux?just for a dinner?is it worth?i dont think so.i decided to make a survey first,anywhere.ptfffff.pity me.T__T

next time maybe

get lost.will u?

Congrats friends.:)

2011-04-14T19:44:00.002+08:00

assalamualaikum.A simple word,but brings a good meaning.peace be upon u..:)

as usual,as u the readers can expect, a same and boring things will be written by me.it's nothing actually.i'm just thinking to pamper myself by feeling envy to those who are finished already their foundation class or any particular exam.yes,it's going to be a long paradise day after this right.darn.leaving me here,stuck by a lot of assigments,with all the crappy things here.haha,just kidding.trying to put a sense of humour for this tedious post.let me enjoy the recitation.

For my Pasum's friends,glad to hear that all of u finish already the exam.The day of reckoning,hehe.i'm very sure that most of u can endure it well.well,it's just a small matter for all of u,the selected student kan?..:)

For my Palam's friend,i heard that all of u got the result already.just praise to allah for anything.there's must be a reason for the things to happen.dont be overwhelmed by it,ok.forget about it,keep yourself with the exuberant mood.ignite the fireworks.got what i meant?

ok,that's all.another futile post..:)

OMG..:)

2011-04-12T19:44:00.001+08:00

Friend,while i sympathize,i cant really do very much to help u.nah,just kidding.come closer to me,let me pat your back.*sincere thought maybe..:)

nothing,i just write something but then my hand suddenly erase it back.i wonder why i dont have an enough strengh to fight all those invaders that keep lingering my life.of course it's not the human.i start to think further about my life.do the same things everyday,i'm used to it.imagine if one day(god willing),i plant myself in ireland.will i suffer from a common syndrome(it's for the foreign students actually)?or it's so called the homesickness disease.should i call my father,and ask him to charter the airplane for me,so whenever i feel like missing my family,straight away the airplane appear in front of me and then swift on the air,pass the clouds,mesmerizing by the beautiful of the blue sky.ah,airplane,i wonder when i can own it.haha.or maybe my father can hire someone as the liaison so that the person can provide me with all the information about my family,so that all their business is always in my hand.i'm pretty sure that this kind of feeling makes them worry.oh worry is not in the term of anxiety but annoying..-__-"

saiful,why dont u just stop typing something as it looks like u talking gibberish.dont wasting your time,im so sure that u have a lot of "things" that need to be pampered.yes,u should thinking about your anatomy subject.

with tonnes of human part including those that we can't see with our naked eyes.ahh,brain,brain,hold on,dont burst into pieces yet.try as hard as i can to remember the subject.flawless,maybe..:)

ok,that's all.got to do something,recalling2.