last part here:
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I'm supposed to be asleep. I had a dr's appt today and had to get labs done. My labs are done very fast and i just got the results. My doctor hasn't even seen them yet but they look very straight forward. I was in the normal range for all but 2 things.

Both readings have registered in that same range before in the past couple of years so I guess I'm OK.

My glucose was a little high this morning at 112 but that was after 6 cookies and 2 brownie waffles at 10pm the night before. :)

So far all my labs seem ok but another part of me is waiting for something terrible to happen. It sounds batcrap, but this is how my mind works. So far, all my tests look fine.

I can't sleep. I feel wired and I don't know why.

I'm still anxious and I don't understand why.

I hate this 100%.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG GGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!

Ok, I'm fine now I think.

Gonne try this sleep thing again shortly.

BTW...F anxiety. I hate it with every fiber of my being.

Ok freakout over. Carry on. :) Sometimes you just gotta vent a minute, you know? (I realize the obsurdity of my stress. SMFH.)

Checking in on day 907

I've had a few ups and downs lately. I haven't felt very connected to my recovery at times. I suppose it's been a while since my drinking days and not drinking now is just the norm.

I'd like to reconnect with the recovery version of myself. That person who was grateful of sobriety rather than just someone who doesn't drink. I've been thinking of going back to AA but I always find excuses of why not to go. And I always think I should post more on here but I never really feel like I've got much to say!

In general though I am doing pretty well. I can not imagine going back to the daily illness of drinking. My health and wellness have become so important to me, which I think is very common for people in recovery. After all those years of poisoning the obvious antidote seems to be the pursuit of wellness!

I turn 18 on the 20th, so in like 5 days
I have always felt like the fact I cant go into a store and buy alcohol has helped dramatically in keeping me sober.
but that wont be the case anymore.
I think everyone else here is older therefore have been legally allowed to buy alcohol for like the whole time, but when something as easy as that is there and you can so easily access it, how do y'all stay sober.
tips anyone???

My semester two exams start on Tuesday, and I haven't been to college since early March when I had a bad psychotic break. I did make it through that day sober.

I'm 17 days sober. I've been hearing voices almost every day though, and desperately wanted to drink when I was. But it's easy to stay sober when you're at home and don't want to leave the house psychotic. But if I'm already away from home and I start hearing them... lots of off licences around college. Alcohol is like Super-Ativan. It works fast. I haven't left the house since my last vodka run.

The voices get very distressing. I don't like to talk about the things they say, but I become convinced they're real and there's audio implants in my ears. I lose touch with reality completely. I become convinced my murder is imminent.

I haven't been giving my meds a chance to work tbh.. With the exams approaching, I'm stressed. When I'm stressed, I chug water. I don't understand why. Water intoxication causes psychosis. I just got up and had two coffees and 2L of water already. But I wasn't water intoxicated when I had the psychosis at college in March.

Yesterday I gained 9kg from water intoxication before I stopped drinking. Not as much as when I've had seizures. My last one of those since April 2025.

So anyway, I need a plan to stay sober through the exams. Especially next week when I have three of them.

I'm going to go to the shop when it opens. I need an elf bar at any rate since my coils are all fried, but it'd be good to get out of the house. Gentle exposure.

I'm going to bring my night meds with me to college. That way I have something to take if the voices become overwhelming. Better than drinking.

It's also important I get a handle on the polydipsia. Honestly I'm gonna go for another 2L when I press submit. The compulsion is extremely strong. It's not the first 4L that make you psychotic, but it feeds the polydipsia beast. I'm gonna buy diet coke in the shop and have that last me the day after this little indulgence.

I]]>������ ]]> Newcomers to Recovery OldMedusa https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470575-need-resolution.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470570-weekenders-peeling-away-layers-15-18-may-2026-a.html Thu, 14 May 2026 03:49:37 GMT Weekenders: Peeling away the layers ~ 15-18 May 2026 Image: https://i.postimg.cc/0QFrg4Nw/7183BCA5-6571-4894-B1CF-FA0064F1896B.png (https://postimages.org/)

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]]> Newcomers to Recovery Mags1 https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470570-weekenders-peeling-away-layers-15-18-may-2026-a.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470569-youre-all-invited-my-1-year-birthday-party.html Wed, 13 May 2026 22:09:52 GMT

Im having a party tomorrow this time tomorrow (so in 24 hours from now), it's my 1 year birthday

You are all invited. I need a music man/woman, balloons, other decorations, snacks/food, soft drinks and lots of love. No presents or gifts required. You can bring your pets. Prize for the best dressed

Come along and join in the fun

]]> Newcomers to Recovery RisenShine https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470569-youre-all-invited-my-1-year-birthday-party.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/friends-family-alcoholics/470567-a.html Tue, 12 May 2026 21:19:59 GMT �

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x just showed up, demanding kid. I knew he wanted to see kid but never answered the sobriety question. His typically word salad with no actual answer.

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He refused to answer, called me names, told me I]]>�
Went inside to find a sobbing kid. I told her he won]]>��
She cried, we hugged, and I apologized. I can]]>� ]]> Friends and Family of Alcoholics Atlast9999 https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/friends-family-alcoholics/470567-a.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470566-did-any-you-get-married-before-getting-sober.html Mon, 11 May 2026 23:44:47 GMT How does it make you feel?

How does it make you feel?

]]> Newcomers to Recovery Idkwhatiwant https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470566-did-any-you-get-married-before-getting-sober.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470565-im-back.html Mon, 11 May 2026 20:52:13 GMT But not sober. And now drinking out of fear, my liver aches and I feel awful every day. I desperately want to stop, just feel like a lost cause. This is going to kill me im sure

But not sober. And now drinking out of fear, my liver aches and I feel awful every day. I desperately want to stop, just feel like a lost cause. This is going to kill me im sure

]]> Newcomers to Recovery Torie https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470565-im-back.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470564-i-have-question-im-not-good-person-partner.html Mon, 11 May 2026 19:58:59 GMT I have messed up so much, if anyone who is in an okay relationship could talk that would be great as, this person should not be scolded. But I know our situation is weird and honestly I want to drink...

I have messed up so much, if anyone who is in an okay relationship could talk that would be great as, this person should not be scolded. But I know our situation is weird and honestly I want to drink again so much. Im sorry this is written so poorly

]]> Newcomers to Recovery Idkwhatiwant https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470564-i-have-question-im-not-good-person-partner.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470563-do-you-ever-just-splurge.html Mon, 11 May 2026 03:36:33 GMT

I'm coming up on 8 months sober in a couple of weeks. I'm dealing with a lot of stress. I'm still in the process of quitting smoking for one, due to some setbacks. I began eating sweets to reward myself a few months ago and have put on considerable weight. I went to the doctor a month ago and everything checked out (I'm almost 52) except for borderline cholesterol, which I have since taken step to improve. I'm improving my diet and cutting out sweets. I've also started walking about 4-5 days a week. I took a cologuard colon screen for cancer and it came back abnormal. This doesn't necessarily mean I have cancer, I just have to go in for an actual colonoscopy. This has got me stressed.

I'm still trying to save up money to purchase a car to drive for doordash or such so budgeting is taking its toll & stressing me out. I feel so restrictive and stressed all the time about money.

I don't get along with my mother & that has got me down on this mother's day, especially seeing everyone else celebrate their mothers(I wish).

So tonight, in my depression, I splurged & ordered some gourmet ice cream on a brownie and a big cookie thru Uber eats. I hated spending the money, I just needed a pick-me-up. I suppose it's better than getting hammered & smoking a pack of cigerettes. I figured you all would understand. At the end of the day, it's a win as long as I'm sober. I just can't do it everyday.

So, what do y'all do to occasionally splurge & reward yourselves for staying sober & a job well done?

]]> Newcomers to Recovery BeauRiv09 https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470563-do-you-ever-just-splurge.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470562-another-new-guy.html Sun, 10 May 2026 21:33:33 GMT

I'm not new to recovery been at this a long time but I'm not so great with the technology of social media and stuff but I would like to get involved with with others that are trying to sober up.

]]> Newcomers to Recovery Covell https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470562-another-new-guy.html https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470561-chat-forums.html Sun, 10 May 2026 21:19:18 GMT

I'm not new to recovery but I am new to technology I guess I'm just trying to find some chat forums talk to other people going through this.

]]> Newcomers to Recovery Covell https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/470561-chat-forums.html