Here's My Life

2009-11-05T06:43:00.000-08:00

Once again i said my goodbyes to those i love most.
My heart feels that familiar pain as i long for hope.
Cause this road is hard when i feel so far.

God I'm crying out tonight
Cause I have given you my life
But I'm tired and I'm missing what's behind.
So once more, here's my life.

On the day that you called my name, all that i knew changed.
I found when i said yes that i would never be the same.
Though the call is hard you are worth it all.

Even when the tears are falling
When I find I feel the calling you remind me
Word's you've spoken over my life
Promises I have yet to see
You comfort me

So here's my life.

-Barlow Girl

How Amazing He Is!

2009-11-04T10:34:00.000-08:00

So this week has definately been hard. My cousin Shay has been in the hospital for another open heart surgery. The surgery took 12 hours and the doctors thought that everything was going good. Before the surgery took place, I got to visit with Shay for a little bit. He seemed tired and weak but he still had is sarcastic, funny attitude. He talked about how he wouldn't get to play ball this year but next year he would. It really made me tear up when I heard that. Once it was time for me to leave, I told him I loved him and for him to have fun, and he smiled. Finally after surgery, I had already left the hospital and made it safe back to Norman. When an unexpected call came from my upset aunt, I knew something was wrong. They said they had 4 surgeons working on shay and was afraid he might not make it. I began to weep and texted everyone in my phone to pray. So much support has gone out to shay and I do believe he will make it through this. He is so strong and such an amazing gift from God that it would be too soon for him to go. Yesterday I took off work to go see him. I walked into the room where he was and it killed me to see him wired up and not awake. My cold hand touched his warm, soft hand and I knew that he would be okay. It made me think of how well I have life. Why complain? Shay is an innocent teenager who is suffering. Prayer is continued and so far everything is going well. He was able to nodd his head and squeeze Kelly and Chris' Hand, my aunt and uncle. God is so amazing and i know that he can do all things. I know that he will heal shay and make him even stronger than before. All of this had definatlely brought everyone together and has made all of realize that we shouldn't take life for granted. We are so selfish at times and never take the time to appreciate our family, friends, God and our lives in general. My thoughts and prayers are with Shay and I cannot wait til he is awake!

All beautiful you are, my darling there is no flaw in you

Here's My Life

How Amazing He Is!