All i feel,all i think !

Enjoying Laziness!

2013-03-27T02:31:00.001-07:00

It was a long time desire, occasionally would just have a taste of it, constantly had a fear it might never happen,but finally it did!

Laziness - how beautiful the word is, even more beautiful is to be lazy and enjoy it. A wish to forget office and work, no other commitment, sleep heartily, do nothing, watch movies, long walks, sit like a statue for hours together!!This continues for 4 months. Very nice, enjoyed laziness in its true sense. A big thanks to all of them who made this happen :D I was literally hibernating in Toulouse.

Now,with the offset of spring, there is a strong desire to restart some things, and start few more! there is also a guilt for loss of personal productivity.

So, it begins with reactivation of this blog!

learning!

2012-07-27T10:23:00.001-07:00

Never shop when you are free....provokes to buy all the "not really needed" things and digs a deep hole in the pocket :D :D

It was delicious!

2012-06-25T00:19:00.002-07:00

So, my 5th year in Bangalore, and a few months back heard about the "chat street" of VV Puram from a colleague. Surprisingly, my hubby being here for 30 years, having studied in BIT,visited VB bakery a thousand times,but hadnt a single time tasted the delicacies in the street!Finally we decided to give it a try and that happened the last friday.

I had heard my colleagues discussing that its not like "before" and all. So googled it and again found mixed responses !

So,we were there and here is the story:

Its a narrow street with a dozen shops on either side. I found the cooking clean enough and far better than most of the restaurants :D. Haa, though there are only handful of shops,you definitely have to give a second visit for 2 reasons:

1.Your appetite will not allow to taste everything one single evening
2.You'l relish so much that you'll be back again

We started with a plate of idli - idlis were soft ,chutney was average though

Next,the bajjis - raw banana, mangalore bajji and maddur wada - all were good. So still 2-3 varieties including the capsicum one left for the next visit

The third was hot jelebis - 4 for Rs.10/- I have nothing else to say!

Then,Pav bhaji - very very tasty.

It was dosa time now! There are 3-4 shops making the dosa and we chose Raju tiffin centre. Masala dosa - and it came with a fine roast, nandini ghee poured generously! It tasted delicious.

I was almost full by this time, and we were in a dilemma to share a plate of paddu or to share another dosa or akki rotti. Finally went with a plate of "mosaru kodbale". Hadnt heard this before and gave a try.It was really awesome.Haa and now comes my try for that and the next post will be the experience with it :)

We were almost done when we decided to end with badam milk. I went for custard fruit salad while my hubby went with badam milk.

It was a wonderful experience altogether - very tasty food for a very low price!

Whoever has not tried, just go for it.You have missed something!

I am Smoking

2011-08-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

SO much So much, almost 3 a day :( , might not be really , still the thought of it is so disturbing.

Koramangala - Happening place in B'lore ! Huh only passive smoking is happening to me.

Every morning, guys dont you have a better job :X , again in the evening - whichever road I take....for the 10 mins I walk, I'll come across 4-5 ppl inhaling smoke.

Weekend - I plan for a loooooong walk. Ahh such a nice feeling , lasts only for 10 foot steps.

SO, time to wear a facemask while walking. Aarghh hard to digest.

perfect for this evening

2011-07-17T06:40:00.000-07:00

Thought of having a 15 min nap, but dozed for 2 hours! Waking up, I feel I am in a snow clad hill station.Badly want a cup of coffee.
things on my mind : Get milk and prepare coffee
Go out and have a coffee
Go for masala puri
however,no company and too lazy to get up and go out!

settled for knorr soupy noodles!!not a bad choice,a little less salt would make it perfect.Got my senses back after something hot went in ;)

Nyways no match for FILTER COFFEE.

cunning

2011-07-12T02:40:00.000-07:00

Why was I silent !!I was sensing this from a year but still kept silent.Hey no, I didnt. I did raise voice :)
Hehe when its done intentionally,how will my concerns be addressed!
Whatever, I will not let things washed off.
You are not worth for what you are
I deserve much better for what I am
And so will that happen in the near future
Weak in courage is strong in cunning
And you are already punished for it
Keep on doing the same thing
you'll be blasted very soon
I am laughing now - for so strong I am!
And laughing more - what an IDIOT you are!!

HOME

2011-05-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

Excitement,anxiety,joy,too many plans,enthusiasm,and calmness - Everything I have at this moment.

Setting up new house - All I had heard till date was ----its a terrible job,becomes very difficult,pain,tiring,responsibility etc etc. Need at least 2-3 people for help!!

Finally today only we brought 2 loads of stuff and within 2 hrs I have arranged half of them,I am not finding anything I had heard true!!

Well planned it was a very simple task,all going fine and I am sure the rest of the things go hassle free.

I tell you,only human beings cause problems !! noting else !!

growing OLD and growing UP

2011-05-02T02:00:00.000-07:00

For the first time,I am feeling sad for growing OLD....booo hoooo :( :(

At the same time,I am feeling very very proud of myself for growing UP !!

Guntur idli

2011-04-27T01:31:00.000-07:00

Huh....how can I overcome this pain :(

Hotel Chutneys ! - supposed to be one of very good restaurants at Hyd.

Name sounded good - guntur idli!! and we ordered....

It was definitely not a surprise,A SHOCK - 2 medium sized idlis fully pasted with "chutney pudi"........aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa Rs.65/- for that :X :X :(

Idu hagalu darode

Dosa was very very ordinary again over priced.Our stomachs not even half-full.Next ordered upma.....man, I doubt if the cook is a human being.

Absolutely nothing in it....my hubby - "Shall we ask for some salt?? "

Thats not enough - we need to ask salt,lemon,kara and everything to turn that "sajjige" in our plate to upma.

completely disappointed , returned back :( :(

CHUTNEYS DOWN DOWN

Chotu!!

2011-03-25T09:58:00.001-07:00

So many people come and go in our lives! only a few leave a mark behind! those people are not necessarily high profile business men,scientists,superstars, they need not be very intimate,work together or have many things in common!They can be as ordinary a person as chotu!

Lemme tell you who this Chotu is :

He was the assistant chef(I dont find a more appropriate designation) in our guest house at Hyderabad!Aged between 16-20 years,medium built.I wish I had a snap of him,what I can remember is his confused face and the green T-shirt which he used to wear most of the times.He would welcome me with a wide grin after I used to return from 8-10 days of b'lore visit!

I saw him for almost more than 3 months! his activities would be like this :

1.Assist in chopping vegetables etc(I doubt he did that, there were 2 others for this)

2.serve breakfast and dinner to everybody who come there.It would take 5-6 foot steps from kitchen to the dining table.

3.Serve tea

4.clean the table and dump utensils in the wash basin.(Another maid will come to clean that)

5.Visit all rooms with cleaners,change bed-spreads once in a week.(I'm sure he'd not change for months together in other rooms where people are not there wen they come for cleaning).

What he would get :

1.I am not sure abt how much he was paid.

2. 3 times meals a day

3.Comfortable place to live

4.Color TV - he could watch it rest of the time

One fine day, Chotu went missing along with another boy!The supervisor there said they have gone back to Orissa to celebrate some festival and would come back.

But there were lots of suspicion as they had took that months salary and all of a sudden went in the afternoon!

I really missed his presence for a long time! one day I was surprised to know how much everybody missed him too!!when we sat for dinner,began the discussion :

Everybody went on telling their unique experiences with him, how he used to react, how angry he used to get to serve extra roti!! how he used to look with corner of his eyes, how differently he used to behave with different guests!( Yes, he used to be nice to those who treat him with respect, others who used to order harshly used to get a stint of ignorance!),how he used to fight with supervisor!

days passed,week after week, and months rolled, Chotu never came back! he'll never again !

Sitting alone this sunday evening, I remember him! God knows why....I was then thinking about 2 points :

1.Why he would have fled : The first thing that come across is may be he was paid less! a little hike in his salary would have made him stay. Each one of us irrespective of our jobs feel that we are paid less and always expect a hike right :)

2.Was his life really comfortable : Sometimes I think, man! so easy and comfortable his job was.....no pressure, no tension, no competition, no deadlines! Once in a while I wish I had that kind of job :D with salary, food, accomodation, entertainment, what else u need....

But later, definitely I would not be happy and satisfied with that....

Now more thoughts come....

Did he feel disappointed to do this kind of job, where people a couple of years older to him used to come there, live with all comforts, earn a fortune!

Did he realize he didn't have a bright future with that job

Did he realize the importance of education

Did he want to explore something better for his life

If the answer is Yes, I am extremely happy for him.

So many youth, due to lack of awareness, poverty, and helplessness end up with mediocore jobs and can never go beyond it :(

Such a simple character, yet so many times has been the point of discussion between me and my husband!!

I dont think we'll ever again meet him,but again who knows!world is a small place....wherever he is, I wish hes doing something better and is more happier than he was here.

All the best Chotu!!

A craft mela ??- not just

2010-12-26T21:47:00.000-08:00

I always get excited when there is a art-craft mela somewhere! One such exhibition that was so amazing and beyond all expectations was the shilparamam mela.

This time we entered it to come out in the next 20-30 mins.Came out too....but with the decision to visit again the coming weekend, morning at 10.00 AM so that we get ample time to look at everything there!

It was hard to believe that what we are seeing are clay and mud works!!

It was 3 PM when we returned home.

Bye Bye 2010

2010-12-26T21:26:00.001-08:00

Time to say goodbye to 2010

2010 has been a one big year in my life I would never ever forget.A great year in which I have accomplished "big" things,uncovered soo many realities,come to know so many peoples' true colors ,rediscovered what is "work" "life" and realised again how beautiful the world is!

Year started with a vacation,car,house,jewel,promotion etc etc followed.Change in lifestyle, adapting to new place brought excitement.Many false expectations were flushed out,could understand my weak points,felt happy abt my confidence,dare.Determination and motivation(is it really?? yes I think so,more on tht sometime later) have come in for a new task

So many learnings,bad thing - I couldnt make a note of everything then and there;however nothing can be forgotten !

With so many agendas, looking for a still bigger year!

Welcome 2011

Weak in courage is Strong in cunning!

2010-04-04T23:01:00.000-07:00

How true! Saw this line on my friends chat window custom message,and it paused me for few seconds but mind was running asking isnt it right.Of course,it is.With experiences I say,those who fear to accept truths,face what is right,and feel guilty,will over react to everything.They fear to hear anything,listen to what some1 is saying because they might be put in fix.Instead they shout,scream and just dont allow the other person to speak.In the background will be running all these wars and to overcome that,they become cunning.Speak nuisance,do non sense all with disturbed state of mind caused by themselves.With anything and everything there will be a selfish agenda,their inabilities,dissatisfactions come out in various colors :)

People,why fear to say what is right.Why fear to say,you are wrong.Take courage,with clarity in thought commuicate what is your problem.Rather dont do stupid actions and screw your lives!

Narrow escape!

2009-11-03T07:54:00.000-08:00

It so happened,after moving to B'lore for my work,riding my 2 wheeler was once in 3 months or so!that too that weekend,if we planned to go out,and I decided to ride than sit and watch!

Without my knowledge,I would raise the accelerator,only to realise I was exceeding my limits and Mysore road speed limits,only when my sister used to shout at me.This was all because,I was accustomed to b'lore traffic and used to move by sq.cms and at Mysore,I felt the roads were almost empty!!

It was one such day,me and my sister were out and I was riding.I told her,there is something wrong,literally there is no other vehicle on this road....IS THIS ONE-WAY

She confidently said,"noooo....I saw no such board....I did look for them"

ok,happily I moved,only to be stopped by a cop at a cross...."banni madam ee kade"

I with full confidence,"I have DL,Insurance done,Emmission test done,and I am wearing helmet,and tried giving all of them to him"

He,"adella beda madam,one way nal bartidira!"

Me,"IS it one way,there is no board"

He,"Ofcourse its there,and moves the branches of the tree to a side"

Shit,he was standing there to hide it and catch people!

I,"Oh sorry,I didnt notice that,as I was new to this city"

He,"From where do u come"

Me,"Bangalore"

He,"Ok pay 100-00 and go"

I to myself - "No luck....100-00 is not mine from now"!

He,"This fine is valid for this whole day

I,"so it means I can go in all wrong directions today??"

He,":D"

I,":X"

Next,it was another day,I was riding with my husband,explaining all roads,buildings,parks to him as we moved.

I suddenly halted at a signal,noticing its red!

A policeman started signalling me to come to his side.

This time,ok I didnt violate the signal,I did stop,may be a 2-3 footsteps ahead than where I should have been.

I was confused.

My husband got down.

He again asked to getdown and bring vehicle to side.

I signalled my husband to join me.He was laughing!

I tried to explain the cop,I saw the signal a bit late,and then suddenly slowed down.

He laughed,"Still u dont realise why I have stopped u"

I really didnt.

He helped,"This is one way madam"

howcome!!!!!!!!

Same story again,

I,"Oh sorry,I didnt notice that,as I was new to this city"

He,"From where do u come"

Me,"Bangalore"

He,"Number plate says,its registered here!"

I,"haan its not my vehicle,my sisters"

He,"U have DL"

I,"ya ya I have,abt to show him"

He stops and laugh"Its ok,but dont repeat this.I am leaving as you said u r new to city,turns to my husband,"I would not have left if he was riding,now turn and go!"

We started backwards,now we laughing,"If at all I had to pay the fine,its 100-00....if my husband was the rider,it'd have been definitely 500-00.He didnt even have the DL!!"

Next,where is the board here that reads its a one way.We stopped and looked for it....finally to find it again behind a tree!The tree protects it u know!!

What I did!

2009-11-03T07:28:00.000-08:00

Its a very common scene in movies.If its not the comedy one,it'll be mother-in-law,her brother and his wife's....or the other way daughter in-law,or poor husbands at times!

slipping into kitchen midnight,searching,end with some leftovers and finally get caught!

I happened to experience the first 2,but fortunately or unfortunately,the last 2 didnt happen!

What a hunger,I tell you....at 12.30 in the mignight,I am not able to sleep!Never was I soo hungry in my life!that too at that hour!Dunno why!may be I had worked out more!but I had sufficient dinner also!God knows!!

Went to kitchen in the hope of finding bananas.I was not lucky enough to find them!I searched searched in the hope of finding something!Plastic covers were making a irritating sound in that dark hour.

I thought how odd it'll be if my in-laws wake up and come due to this disturbance....then I thought,let me close the kitchen door!no ways....suppose they,for some reason come out,its all the more embarrasing!!!!

nyways my search was not giving any hopes.drank 2 glasses of water and returned!!

rested my head,thinking what has gone wrong with me!!I remembered the day,I had felt a similar hunger,woke my mom at 2.00PM and she gave some slices of bread and milk!it was the day when my SSLC results were out!oh,I should say night:)

I was over excited that night for my very good results....had soo much anxiety and I understand, it resulted in such a hunger!but yesterday oooo :(

Long time!

2009-08-07T00:21:00.000-07:00

It seems its been long long time since I have blogged,but actually not!last post was on may 9th,3 months for now.I say its not a long gap coz lots lots and lots of things have come to my life in these three months and believe it or not,I am not able to realise how days are passing and I havent got enough time to blog!Also, I have got sooo many things to write that I am perplexed myself today from where to start!

New Life,New Place,New People,New team,New work ....

New experience ?? Not really .Everything seems to be asusual!

New Life-Nothing seems to have changed in my life.

New Place-Place is as comfortable as the one before.

New People-Seems I have known them since ages!

New team-Cant figure out much difference.

New work-Change is the only thing thats permanent and change is for good!yeah its going good also!

Had deep thoughts so many late nights...whats going to happen! how my lifes going to change!so many what-ifs,and a lot more question marks....All went off the head even before thinking abt them! LIFE is BEAUTIFUL and you can always be HAPPY if you want to BE :)

Life is changing !

2009-05-01T01:46:00.000-07:00

Life is changing everyday....something totally unexpected happens !yes, it may be for good....but still everyday is becoming a new life....with lots of surprises every morning! Today just heard SSLC results are out!Few years back, waiting for this result was the only agenda of my life....Had a feeling this is my life....career.....what not !Now I feel like laughing remembering that! howmuch ever u score there....whats the use now ! but still that was so important that day!today priorities have changed so much in my life!A thing loses its importance when some other thing replaces that!! how true....This is life !

Holi Again!!

2009-03-14T02:27:00.000-07:00

Was like a usual day, and was engrossed in my work suddenly when I was attacked from behind with "happy holi"! oops within the next few seconds I had all colors on my face,dress and desk too! There was no point in washing face and getting cleaned as someone or the other would come every now and then....next I decided,why should Shruthi and Sneha be so clean and tidy!!it was my turn going around and putting colors on everyone now! Was happy to see everyone taking this on a lighter note and enjoying! An unexpected pleasant HoLi it was !!

HoLi

2009-03-09T08:54:00.000-07:00

That day,it was so exciting....all 5 of us had grown 10 years younger!for hours together,it was running,chasing and screaming to make everyone colurful!v had joined pradyumna,skanda,dheeraj,Rakshith,Pavan,sujay,soumya,sahana,Adarsh....subbu!!how could I forget him!and many others....all primary school children of our neighbourhood!After sometime,to add joy to our celebration,all aunties also joined!buckets of water thrown at each other,I bet that moment u would definitely not recognise whos who among 5 of us!!me,shilpa,shwetha,pooja and prashali!v never wanted to end that day....running between the roads,me and prashali went chasing Pradyumna till his house,and had to give up only after his mother gave such a bad look:( .I had strong orders from mom not to play holi,and I had also obiediently said "yes" till I stepped out of the door!Now,the fear started,how to return home!!but how....Pooja giving all ideas,to take bath at her place and go....or change dress and go!!but finaly took courage and went like that only!!Fortunately,We had some guests and I moved straight to bathroom escaping from everyones' eyes!I wonder how sharp are my moms' sense organs!!She started "stinking egg smell"!!,yes Skanda had hit my head with 2 eggs!She continued to complain even after washing that dress twice! that was 2 much na huh!nyways my hair had a glow the next day,natural conditioner u see ;)
Hmmm that was the last holi played....all 5 of us in 5 directions now!Dont see those kids around these days....yes,our lives are colourful...hope we again and again get chance to make these special days colourful!

"Destiny"

2009-03-04T07:35:00.000-08:00

It is said,"co-incidence decides whom u meet in life,ur heart decides with whom u want to stay in life,but only destiny decides who gets to stay in ur life"!I believe this or not is a diff story!What I am thinking at this point of time is,why do people always relate destiny to "fate","something bad","something they dont want but cant avoid" likewise in negative path.The dictionary meaning of destiny says:
(n.) That to which any person or thing is destined; predetermined state; condition foreordained by the Divine or by human will; fate; lot; doom.
(n.) The fixed order of things; invincible necessity; fate; a resistless power or agency conceived of as determining the future, whether in general or of an individual
Also synonyms to destiny include :Fate, Fortune, Lot, Luck, Portion!

I have never heard anybody saying "I was destined for this" when something great happens to them!
Another exciting thing is "destiny" is a popular female name!please see
http://www.thinkbabynames.com/meaning/0/Destiny

This is the second link I came across in less than 3 hours today when we were browsing for the popularity of our names and got this:
http://www.gpeters.com/names/baby-names.php?name=Shubhada
(sorry for deviating from the topic....old habits die hard ;) )

so where were we....yeah destiny,so I was wondering today why people relate "destiny" with such a negative understanding to "supposed to be" the "sweetest" moment of ones life - MARRIAGE !!

Crap!

2009-02-28T06:50:00.000-08:00

I just started to read some of my prev posts! noooo , I knew they are bad but not to this extent! What all things I have written....how many of them make no relevance to topic ! High time, atleast now I should make it a habit to re-read what I have written or write cautiously than scribbling whatever comes to mind!But thats a pain!okay , nyways my blog!I'll write All I feel,All I think ! Yes, that was the true intent behind starting this blog!

Daddy No.1

2009-02-17T10:32:00.000-08:00

Happened to watch a television reality show and thats "Daddy No. 1" !Bloody show, it literally makes u do all kinds of circus,make fool of urselves and what not! Let me admit, I really dunno the full rules and concepts of this show as I have never watched the complete show,I got too tired learning the basic idea of this !What all ideas people get to increase their show ratings! and the dramas played in these reality shows,I wonder for the involvement they show.
Person is rated Daddy No.1 if he succesfully does all the monkey pranks some appearing quite dangerous too.And the kids get sooo emotional that they feel their dad is not so good if he doesnt win !U must see those conversations there! ooofff husband trying hard with all his energy and wits,wife on the other hand commenting,criticizing as if this is life!and the child filled with tears will be standing just to see if his/her dad makes it,else it starts crying!! superb!
okay,if it just starts there and ends there, all dramas and emotions fine !I dont say good but a piece of entertainment for some other TV addicts!Well, as u might have guessed by now, I cant end something without going philosophical!
Yes, I thought isnt it that every dad is "daddy no.1" for his kid ??! answer is yes and no . Unfortunately there are many instances where people turn to be so irresponsible and brutal and how bad they lead the families . How unfortunate some kids will be .
I just thought for a minute how lucky I am to be "My Fathers daughter". A perfect dad,who pampered me when I was a kid,taught me as I grew up and now is more than a friend!
A complete man,who guides me at every phase of my life,helps me in making decisions above all he has become a role model by practicing what he preaches!
A person,with whom I share anything and everything of my life,I feel so comfortable after sharing my feelings with him. Hours together we talk everything from gossips from my friends' circle to family stories to professional life,business,literature, art,religion,philosophy to US presidential elections !I dont say we have similar thoughts,many times ours will be diverging opinions....and thats where the discussion continues and v'll have gone somewhere!I feel so easy to say "U r wrong" for any of ur actions and decisions,u take it so sportively,consider my thoughts,respect my feelings,discuss and we end up with a clear understanding!I bet this is not at all the case with all fathers and daughters....
I have learnt sooooo many things from u ,which has helped immensely for my personal and career development, I just dont have words how to say how fortunate I have been. U have been "Daddy No.1" for me for which I am greatly blessed . Thanks for being my friend,philosopher and guide!

Congratulations!

2009-01-30T10:28:00.000-08:00

I was supposed to say this 2 days ago i.e 28-01-09,the day on which I completed 6-months of my professional career. Laziness for blogging also!I dont know what to call this attitude!!Now what is added to my resume other than the degree is 6-months storage experience ;) Feels good!!U may be wondering what nonsense is this ! but I tell u how important 6-months is !!
When I had carelessly ignored my future plans,wrote for gbs and remained idle for the rest ofthe days,I never had thought one day I would subscribe to naukri.com,timesjobs.com what not!When the rumours went thick that gbs may delay or in worst case deny offers,some fear of insecurity peeped.Ofcourse that was also because of the concerns of parents,relatives and friends who would collect news from newspapers,tv,net and neighbours :D and then eat head with "got joining dates??","where will u be posted??","u have onsite opportunities??","my uncles sisters' sons' granddaughter was given pink slip" .... who would want to bother about all these when u would want to enjoy the last golden days of student life.
Everyday mail-box would be filled with so many openings!!!!u hit any -all they ask is min 6 months exp!!got my point ;) Now that recession has hit the market,you will understand this more clearly!At the end of the day I used to feel all those mails are spam!It was a tiring task to unsubscribe from all those seriously!
Well,I have been fortunate for so many things....and me landing at a good place without any difficulty and frustration is also one of them.But I'll never forget the long 4-hrs exhausting interview for that! The day I reported, I had 3 other offers on hand!I could only laugh at myself for worrying unnecessarily.
Whatever!so its been very good till date and I have successfully completed 6 months !Have stepped into water,so havve to swim whether somebody pushed or I fell or I came willingly is a different story!So I take this opportunity to congratulate myself and wish myself all the success for future. All the best Shubhada and congratulations!

Every year that day comes!

2009-01-30T09:15:00.000-08:00

Some things you never forget in your life even if you want to badly throw it out of mind.Time and again it passes through ur memory and drown u in different thoughts. I actually dont want to forget that day!Jan 17th,2004 -saturday-horrible day of my life. Unexpected things happen to every1 but for me its such a shock that even today I'm not able to accept that I met with the bloody accident. I went to such a position that accepting is a different story,I couldnt realise where I was and what I was doing for a week after that!. For everybody but me,I survived was the biggest relief, and that I could write my +2 exams and cleared it was my greatest achievement.Sure, this has definitely changed my life,if only I had not met with the accident that day,I say with full confidence , I would not have been what I am today.I say I would not want to forget it because,though it has done harm to me,I see about how my life has gone after that.Pretty good,I have enjoyed every moment since then,am in a good job today,no regrets,totally in a sentence,I have not been deprived of anything called "good things".Only thing is I am nt what I wanted to be and I am what I never ever had dreamt I would be and never ever had longed to be !but I continue to be the same person with same dreams,ambitions,goals - only the preface of my "life book" has changed!the saying goes "man proposes,but god disposes"!well, again, no regrets for anything.Infact such things have made me go more philosophical at times, more mature, more challenging,what not! But still, I dont say whatever happened is for good!!what happened is actually bad - but the goodness that has come to my life has covered it so much that I could not realise and celebrate the "5th accident anniversary" on time, even when 17-01-09 was a saturday again!For the first 2 years,It was one day I would kinda mourn!Not just 5 years, it'll go to silver and gold jubilees only to look back for my fulfilled dreams every year!

My English has gone bad :(

2009-01-12T09:30:00.000-08:00

Soooo bad....I am able to feel that....after everytime I speak,after every line I write, I am able to realise what a bad english came out of me!This is happening since 2-3 months for now....y is it so....I dont actually find reasons for my language to go bad!infact it should have been better than my engineering days,as I regularly speak english here and in college it was not the case as going to college was itself a rare event;)
Or is this just a feeling!!? may be not....the proof for its not just a feeling is the fact how I am struggling to make this sentence!!and ended up with a bad one:( oooooofff really bad!!Where might this lead to!!To what extent can this get worse!! How can I come back !!It has so happened I need to say "Once upon a time I had such a vocabulary to write essays!prepare for debates!go for elocutions!! All that seems a story now!what a good rate of deterioration!(may be I've spelt this wrong!)
Or does this happen with everyone ?? or many atleast ?? coz I have myself seen Shilpa's language going bad day by day after she started going to IBM! may be it happens with all who come to IT industry ;) as they,ok rather we take language for granted,our slangs replace the grammar!!U speak proper language or not,somehow it should reach the other end properly,thats the need of the hour here!and incidently always that happens here!I have seen many many guys speaking english terribly bad!but still their words will have made complete sense!!That is IT industry!!
Nyways but still, I need to wake up and take care of my vocabulary language whatever atleast to a certain extent!!