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*MARRIED OR NOT**** YOU Should Read This--->

2012-01-15T12:24:00.000-06:00

When I got home that night as my wife served dinner, I held her hand and said, I’ve got something to tell you. She sat down and ate quietly. Again I observed the hurt in her eyes. Suddenly I didn’t know how to open my mouth. But I had to let her know what I was thinking. I want a divorce, I raised the topic calmly. She didn't seem to be annoyed by my words, instead she asked me softly, why? I avoided her question. This made her angry. She threw away the chopsticks and shouted at me, you are not a man! That night, we didn’t talk to each other. She was weeping. I knew she wanted to find out what had happened to our marriage. But I could hardly give her a satisfactory answer; she had lost my heart to Jane. I didn’t love her anymore. I just pitied her! With a deep sense of guilt, I drafted a divorce agreement which stated that she could own our house, our car, and 30% stake of my company. She glanced at it and then tore it into pieces. The woman who had spent ten years of her life with me had become a stranger. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now. The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn’t have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep very fast because I was tired after an eventful day with Jane. When I woke up, she was still there at the table writing. I just did not care so I turned over and was asleep again. In the morning she presented her divorce conditions: she didn’t want anything from me, but needed a month’s notice before the divorce. She requested that in that one month we both struggle to live as normal a life as possible. Her reasons were simple: our son had his exams in a month’s time and she didn’t want to disrupt him with our broken marriage.This was agreeable to me. But she had something more, she asked me to recall how I had carried her into out bridal room on our wedding day. She requested that every day for the month’s duration I carry her out of our bedroom to the front door ever morning. I thought she was going crazy. Just to make our last days together bearable I accepted her odd request. I told Jane about my wife’s divorce conditions. She laughed loudly and thought it was absurd. No matter what tricks she applies, she has to face the divorce, she said scornfully. My wife and I hadn’t had any body contact since my divorce intention was explicitly expressed. So when I carried her out on the first day, we both appeared clumsy. Our son clapped behind us, daddy is holding mommy in his arms. His words brought me a sense of pain. From the bedroom to the sitting room, then to the door, I walked over ten meters with her in my arms. She closed her eyes and said softly; don’t tell our son about the divorce. I nodded, feeling somewhat upset. I put her down outside the door. She went to wait for the bus to work. I drove alone to the office. On the second day, both of us acted much more easily. She leaned on my chest. I could smell the fragrance of her blouse. I realized that I hadn’t looked at this woman carefully for a long time. I realized she was not young any more. There were fine wrinkles on her face, her hair was graying! Our marriage had taken its toll on her. For a minute I wondered what I had done to her. On the fourth day, when I lifted her up, I felt a seqnse of intimacy returning. This was the woman who had given ten years of her life to me. On the fifth and sixth day, I realized that our sense of intimacy was growing again. I didn’t tell Jane about this. It became easier to carry her as the month slipped by. Perhaps the everyday workout made me stronger. She was choosing what to wear one morning. She tried on quite a few dresses but could not find a suitable one. Then she sighed, all my dresses have grown bigger. i suddenly realized that she had grown so thin, that was the reason why I could carry her more easily. Suddenly it hit me she had buried so much pain and bitterness in her heart. Subconsciously I reached out and touched her head. Our son came in at the moment and said, Dad, it’ s time to carry mom out. To him, seeing his father carrying his mother out had become an essential part of his life. My wife gestured to our son to come closer and hugged him tightly. I turned my face away because I was afraid I might change my mind at this last minute. I then held her in my arms, walking from the bedroom, through the sitting room, to the hallway. Her hand surrounded my neck softly and naturally. I held her body tightly; it was just like our wedding day. But her much lighter weight made me sad. On the last day, when I held her in my arms I could hardly move a step. Our son had gone to school. I held her tightly and said, I hadn’t noticed that our life lacked intimacy. I drove to the office, jumped out of the car swiftly without locking the door. I was afraid any delay would make me change my mind. I walked upstairs. Jane opened the door and I said to her, Sorry, Jane, I do not want the divorce anymore. She looked at me, astonished, and then touched my forehead. Do you have a fever? She said. I moved her hand off my head. Sorry, Jane, I said, I won’t divorce. My marriage life was boring probably because she and I didn’t value the details of our lives, not because we didn’t love each other anymore. Now I realize that since I carried her into my home on our wedding day I am supposed to hold her until death do us apart. Jane seemed to suddenly wake up. She gave me a loud slap and then slammed the door and burst into tears. I walked downstairs and drove away. At the floral shop on the way, I ordered a bouquet of flowers for my wife. The salesgirl asked me what to write on the card. I smiled and wrote, I’ll carry you out every morning until death do us apart. That evening I arrived home, flowers in my hands, a smile on my face, I ran up stairs, only to find my wife in the bed dead. My wife had been fighting CANCER for months and I was too busy with Jane to even notice. She knew that she would die soon and she wanted to save me from whatever negative reaction it would have on our son, in case we pushed through with the divorce. —At least, in the eyes of our son—- I’m a loving husband…. THE SMALL DETAILS OF YOUR LIVES ARE WHAT REALLY MATTER IN A RELATIONSHIP. "IT'S NOT" the MANSION or HOUSE, the CAR, PROPERTY, the MONEY in the bank. These create an environment conducive for happiness but cannot give happiness in themselves. So find time to be your spouse’s friend and do those little things for each other that build intimacy. If you don’t share this, nothing will happen to you. If you do, you just might save a marriage. Most of life’s failures are people who did not realize how close they were to success when they gave up... YOU DON'T REALIZE WHAT YOU HAVE UNTIL ITS GONE!!!!

2011-09-12T18:04:00.002-05:00

Faith is trusting in the good. Fear is putting your trust in the bad. May the joy be with you, Rhonda Byrne The Secret... bringing joy to billions * No copyright infringement intended*

From The Secret Daily Teachings........Rhonda Bryne

2011-08-29T17:12:00.001-05:00

When you find your purpose, it is like your heart has been set alight with passion. You know it absolutely, without any doubt. *No Copyright infringement intended*

Government war on raw milk?

2011-08-05T20:26:00.000-05:00

Acid/Alkaline Testing cont........

2011-05-11T16:28:00.000-05:00

I decided to take another ph test on myself. I wanted to see what my ph levels would range in the afternoon. This time I did a saliva test and a urine test after a two hour period (nap with my son). My urine test came out exactly the same as the morning test- 7.4. But the saliva test came out acidic - 6.4. After doing some research, I took the saliva test again, two hours later. This saliva test came out 6.7. According to the research I have done, I am within the healthy rage of ph balance!!! Yeah Me!!!

ph testing acid/alkaline

2011-05-11T08:31:00.001-05:00

Yesterday I decided to buy ph test strips, and start a study on myself and my family for the next few weeks. Today I tested my urine ph. According to the color indicator, my urine ph is 7.4 . Which is alkaline!!! (Yes!!!) Now time for the kiddos!!! I did the ph test on my children...............both were acidic!!! 6.2 range for both!!! (Not good!) Maybe, for the older one, my daughter, this will help me to get her to eat and drink in a more healthy way!! She doesn't like to eat healthy, or try new and different foods. Now my son, will at least try new things, and tell me that he likes or dislikes it. And so the saga begins!!!!

Thoughts

2011-05-09T08:21:00.000-05:00

Phenomenology always comes back to the understanding that people act out of their own choices and once you realize that then you know that others don't make you do anything - it is how you choose to react to the things going on around you that determines your own reality. Understanding that each of us has a different reality is a toughie as people so much want there to be a right way and a wrong way for everything. Humans like to keep score! Mary Virginia Baird-Vivian

Emails from Neal Don Walsh

2011-04-08T08:55:00.001-05:00

On this day of your life, I believe God wants you to know... ...that you can only succeed, you cannot fail. Failure is impossible; it is an illusion. Nothing is a failure. Nothing. Everything moves the human story, and hence the process of evolution, forward. Everything advances you on your journey. You will not have to think but a second to know exactly why you received this message today. *No Copyright Infringement intended*

TEDxAustin Robyn O'Brien 2011

2011-03-27T11:38:00.000-05:00

So Close - Jon McLaughlin (Enchanted OST - High Quality)

2011-02-14T20:59:00.000-06:00

From The Secret Daily Teachings

2011-01-31T17:33:00.001-06:00

If you find yourself in a negative situation with someone in your life, take a few minutes each day to feel love within your heart for that person, and then send it out into the Universe. Just doing this one thing helps to remove any resentment, anger, or negativity towards that person. Remember that feeling resentment, anger, or any negative emotion attracts it back to you. Feeling love attracts love back to you. What you are feeling for another, you are bringing to you. May the joy be with you, Rhonda Byrne The Secret and The Power... bringing joy to billions *No Copyright Infringement intended*

Naturopathic Medicine, What is it?

2010-12-16T09:15:00.000-06:00

Naturopathic Medicine, What is it?

The Mountain Rose Blog

2010-12-15T12:55:00.000-06:00

The Mountain Rose Blog

Herb Energetics: The Sensory Language of Life, with Kiva Rose

2010-12-12T21:07:00.000-06:00

Herb Energetics: The Sensory Language of Life, with Kiva Rose

To Celebrate Growing Older by Regina Brett

2010-12-07T18:58:00.002-06:00

This is something we should all read at least once a week!!!!! Make sure you read to the end!!!!!! "To celebrate growing older, I once wrote the 45 lessons life taught me. It is the most requested column I've ever written. My odometer rolled over to 90 in August, so here is the column once more: 1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good. 2. When in doubt, just take the next small step. 3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. 4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch. 5. Pay off your credit cards every month. 6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree. 7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone 8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it. 9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck. 10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile. 11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present. 12. It's OK to let your children see you cry. 13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about. 14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it. 15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks. 16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind. 17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful. 18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger. 19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else. 20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer. 21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special. 22. Over prepare, then go with the flow. 23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple. 24. The most important sex organ is the brain. 25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you. 26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five years, will this matter?' 27. Always choose life. 28. Forgive everyone everything. 29 What other people think of you is none of your business. 30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time. 31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does. 33. Believe in miracles. 34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do. 35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now. 36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young. 37. Your children get only one childhood. 38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved. 39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere. 40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back. 41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need. 42. The best is yet to come... 43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up. 44. Yield. 45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift." Written by Regina Brett, 90 years old, of the Plain Dealer, Cleveland , Ohio (this was sent to me by a very dear friend of mine)

The Mountain Rose Blog

2010-12-02T08:50:00.000-06:00

The Mountain Rose Blog

Magnesium

2010-11-26T18:10:00.001-06:00

Magnesium is used for treating attention deficit-hyperactivity disorder (ADHD), anxiety, chronic fatigue syndrome (CFS), Lyme disease, fibromyalgia, leg cramps during pregnancy, diabetes, kidney stones, migraine headaches, weak bones (osteoporosis), premenstrual syndrome (PMS), altitude sickness, urinary incontinence, kidney stones, restless leg syndrome, asthma, hayfever, multiple sclerosis, and for preventing hearing loss.

How to Make Herbal Tooth Powder

2010-11-13T17:17:00.000-06:00

7 Simple Ways to Be Happier

2010-11-07T11:09:00.000-06:00

7 Simple Ways to Be Happier

Evidence Flu Vaccines Are Needless and Useless - Detroit alternative medicine | Examiner.com

2010-11-06T10:51:00.000-05:00

Evidence Flu Vaccines Are Needless and Useless - Detroit alternative medicine | Examiner.com

Pumpkin Cheese Cake Bars - WAHM.com

2010-10-26T12:29:00.000-05:00

Pumpkin Cheese Cake Bars - WAHM.com

Citation of Mercola.com Content

2010-10-26T09:07:00.000-05:00

Citation of Mercola.com Content

Eighteen Reasons Why You Should NOT Vaccinate Your Children Against The Flu This Season by Bill Sardi

2010-10-25T13:56:00.000-05:00

Eighteen Reasons Why You Should NOT Vaccinate Your Children Against The Flu This Season by Bill Sardi

Seasonal flu death estimates grossly overestimated

2010-10-25T08:32:00.000-05:00

Seasonal flu death estimates grossly overestimated

Consciously Feeling

2010-10-15T10:39:00.002-05:00

From Beverlee Garb to me. By “Consciously Feeling” you gain a tremendous amount of respect for yourself, your body and your healing process. You learn that you are the director of your unfolding. You are not at the mercy of some big ugly monster called EMOTION that will overtake your body and gobble you up in the process. You are strong enough to allow your feelings to move through you -- until their job is done. In their wake, they will leave you – whole, empowered and able to allow all that life sends your way. You are the container. You are the vehicle. You are not the feeling, the despair, the pain. Big difference! Releasing emotion is an essential part of the healing process. If you do not feel, sadness, grief, anger... will lodge in your cellular system and continue to attract that which you do not wish to create. Because feelings have a very specific vibration, they will magnetize other people, situations and circumstances which vibrate at the same level. Hence, without feeling, you will continue to recreate the very situation you so desperately wish to change. *no copyright infringement intended