Almost Somewhat Positive

24 Years Ago

2013-06-03T17:33:00.000-05:00

Sometimes it feels like 100 years ago, and sometimes it feels like just yesterday that I married my soul mate and love of my life. Our 25+ years together has been bumpy, rocky and sometimes seemingly impassable, but here we are one year shy of our silver anniversary. I can only attribute that to the both of us growing into stronger and more forgiving people, and having faith. Twenty-five years

It's been a year

2013-04-11T16:36:00.000-05:00

One year ago today I was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, and it's been one roller coaster of a year for sure. It's been a long, dark and scary back alley of a year in some respects; an alley that I thought I was destined to walk alone, desperately looking over my shoulder as I scrambled to find an exit or some safe haven from the horrible unknown that skittered in the dark closely behind me. Then

12

2013-02-07T23:37:00.002-06:00

My baby is going to be 12 in 21 days. TWELVE. My oldest child... the beginning of something truly beautiful, a new phase of my life that I thought I would never be lucky enough to experience. It's been gritty and tortuous being a parent, and at other times soulful and stomach-hugging hilarious. Today, I realized that my oldest child is so much like me, so much more than I had ever realized. I

A little bit of this...

2013-01-16T22:19:00.002-06:00

And a little bit of that. That is what 2013 is bringing hopefully! Though I am not sure if putting my jewelry and teacup candles in the local hospital gift shop is going to work out, I do have a couple of deals in the works. My best friend has a beautiful blog and I came up with the idea of making pendants/necklaces for it as I fashioned a heart shaped pendant for her Christmas last month. I

Well, it looks like it's that time of year again!

2013-01-03T08:59:00.001-06:00

It has been brought to my attention that I am seriously over due for a blog update, by one of the people I care about most in this world- my best friend Monique. She is right, so here I am at 7 am, at task. This last 12 months has been something else, a lot of good and a lot of "Seriously???" In the last year I lost a relationship (said good bye to an odd and nearly one sided friendship),

Fibromyalgia and vitamin D

2012-09-16T23:19:00.004-05:00

Well... Back when I was diagnosed in April my doc wanted to check my vitamin D levels. I was asked to sign a waiver since my insurance most likely wouldn't cover the cost of the lab test, costing me 200.00 out of pocket that I didn't have. I did NOT take the test. I just could afford it. My best friend (oddly and eerily) was diagnosed only 2 weeks after I was, and her doctor put her on a really

Hair loss and fibromyalgia

2012-08-28T13:23:00.000-05:00

It's been awhile since I have posted, and my goodness it's been busy here. My oldest just started middle school and my middle child was transferred to a different school because of zoning. Because of where we live, our street always seems to be where the cut off is so my kids get shuffled around every 1-3 years. It can be frustrating. Luckily my kids adapt well. On top of all that we are trying

New/Unused! Stampers Anonymous - Tim Holtz - Cling Mounted Rubber Stamp Set - Mini Cirque Alphabet

2012-05-04T19:19:00.001-05:00

New/Unused! Stampers Anonymous - Tim Holtz - Cling Mounted Rubber Stamp Set - Mini Cirque Alphabet *** Each Destash item comes with a free gift!!!*** Retails between 29.95-34.95... FOR SALE for 25.00!!! Brand new, never used, never opened. I bought these just this end of March but they are too large for my jewelry stamping needs.With the Cling Mount stamp sets from Stampers

Fuseworks Microwave Kiln for sale

2012-05-02T16:58:00.001-05:00

Fuseworks Microwave Kiln for sale, unopened and unused for sale at my Etsy Shop. ***Bonus earrings with purchase*** in addition to the already low price! I bought this kit thinking I might use it for making glass pendants, but have not had the time to do so. This kit is new, purchased March 20th, 2012 from Hobbylobby.com. I opened the box to read the directions for the kiln but

Free to be...Part Two

2012-04-25T07:00:00.000-05:00

Oh hi! You came back! My last post was something. If you haven't read it yet I will just say that this post will make much more sense if ya do. Basically to summarize I recently realized that I need a little compassion in my life, compassion for others in my heart... manifested in actions and words. I consider myself an OK person... sometimes a pretty decent human. Giving my time and things,

Free to be...Part One

2012-04-24T11:30:00.001-05:00

Here I am. I just am, nothing more... nothing less. Is that it, really*? *Hang on for a minute and take a little journey with me. I know I am going to upset a few people, the journey may get a little cloudy but I assure you there is a patch of sunshine waiting just over the ridge. Ready? Take my hand... I'm moving slower these days. I promise I wont go any faster than what the terrain calls for

Letting in the light

2012-04-18T15:00:00.000-05:00

I decided to wash the dishes and I looked out my kitchen window to see helicopter seeds floating down from the gray sky. Despite the dreariness of the day that brought me momentary joy and smile to my tired face. My eyes moved to the old tree in our backyard and my moment of joy settled like those seeds drifting across my yard. Dry and blackened in spots, a husk of tree hulks over my house and I

Excuse the dust, this body is under construction

2012-04-17T08:44:00.000-05:00

Well, let's see... I'm on dose 4 of Nortriptyline for the new ball and chain in my life, fibromyalgia. I wouldn't say life is better per se, just a little different. I know, I know. I'm only on day 4. I need to give it time to build to a therapeutic level. Some days have been good and some days have been meh. I'm lucky that so far I haven't really felt any adverse reactions from the medication

I passed the test...Do I get a prize?

2012-04-11T17:08:00.000-05:00

Today I had my doctors appointment, and let me first say that I am so blessed to have a family doc that listens and does not patronize me. He truly cares. I suppose it helps that he and John go to the same men's group at church on Saturdays and that they are kind of friends. Knowing me and my medical history can be overwhelming so I took some time this morning to type up a brief history of

Hoping

2012-04-10T11:17:00.001-05:00

I'm hoping there is a light at the end of this tunnel; I know tomorrow's doctor visit is just the beginning of finding out what is going on with my body. I wonder if he will send me to a rheumatologist? I basically feel like I have the flu[s]. I am so tired, my body aches in different spots, sometimes all at once. I have lower stomach aches every time I need to use the restroom, and I often

What is this pain? Could it be fibromyalgia?

2012-04-07T13:00:00.001-05:00

I have been living with physical pain for quite some time, I believe my first chronic pain started when I was 11. I can remember falling onto my back from a great height for the second time in my life, the first time being when I was probably only 4. Since the 6th grade I have had back problems. Everyday I have pain. Sometimes aches, sometimes a tremendous amount of joint pain after sitting for

2012-03-06T09:41:00.004-06:00

My first blog post about making jewelry is up at Dreaming Of Jewelry! That is all, over and out :)

New Etsy Store

2011-11-21T09:47:00.002-06:00

Hey y'all! I have a new Etsy Store named Mary Jae Designs (for Jacob Anna Emma). Basically I want to make affordable jewelry because every girl and woman deserves pretties!!! It's my new love and I hope you can tell by the designs and prices just how much I am enjoying creating again. I might add girls reversible purses again at a later date. If you would like to check out my shop, you can

I am

2011-10-04T08:48:00.000-05:00

My 42nd birthday is coming up soon and after a somewhat melancholy reflection on my life, I had many, many emotions and thoughts on who I am. As they say: All's well that ends well. Booyah. ;) I Am I am digression, recession. I am undiscovered and resigned. I am fertile, contemplative. I am of a flawed design. I am a little crazy, uplifted. I am attention deficient and annoyed. I am curvy,

Jacobs First Birthday OR I forgot how hectic birthday parties can be

2011-07-18T10:31:00.023-05:00

Ahhhh another birthday, and being a birthday veteran I did what I normally would do, preparing as much as possible the day before. This time around I did things a little differently... I chided myself for not thinking of this sooner: Why not put up birthday decorations a day early and save myself the stress! Just like realizing that I could mash up a hot dog with a garlic press 10+ years after

I'm amazed

2011-05-15T12:49:00.008-05:00

This last week construction started on our walk up attic, we are making it into a large bedroom for the girls to share. This week I was amazed at how unfazed Jacob was by all the noise, and how he managed to sleep through hammering and sawing 2 floors above us. Today I watched him sleep in his crib (as his daddy and daddy's friend Aaron did the electrical and network wiring so that construction

And Then I'd Just Feel A Blog Post

2011-03-21T09:03:00.007-05:00

I was talking to a good friend the other night and she showed me one of her new blogs, and as I read and savored her words we talked about blogging and what it meant to us. I told her a tale of what my blog once was: funny anecdotes about my girls, musings, deep dark stuff from my childhood.I told her about how my readership grew as I formed relationships with my favorite bloggers and how

Jacob's Halloween costume!

2010-10-17T13:45:00.002-05:00

Matt, my BIL , sent us this costume from our nephew Logan. It's a 6-9 month costume :) Hopefully it wont be unseasonably warm this year. Oh, and in case you were wondering, Jacob (whom I often refer to as Biggie,Biggie Smalls, Big Poppa) is 3 months old now, is 14 lbs 2 ozs and is 24 1/2 inches long.

8 weeks already sigh

2010-09-13T09:35:00.004-05:00

I have many nick names for my baby boy, hopefully most he WONT be embarrassed by when he gets older... but I doubt it: Big Poppa, Biggie Smalls, Big Man, Chubbeh The Hut just to name a few. Jacob is doing great except for some issues with formula allergies and sensitivities. We have him on Similac Alimentum but believe it or not his system still hasn't adjusted and he has bowel problems. Our

Finally... It's definitely a boy!

2010-08-04T16:45:00.006-05:00

Hey there blog reader, I know I am way overdue but not in the way you would think. ;) I woke up on there morning of July 16th at 6:30 with a contraction of sizable discomfort value. With contraction #2, I grabbed John's (the Male Income Support Unit) arm and said evenly through clenched teeth, " I don't think you will be going to work today." Contraction #3 happened much like #2, about 7 minutes