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Shanghai, a city that outshines many cities, is now my new home. In the last 14 months since I got back to the city, I gradually let "the city" switched from San Francisco, to Shanghai, both are romantic, brutal, unsatisfying, but here in shanghai, I feel constant peace with my aging parents by my side, work is equally if not more important to me than before, but in a few years, I will say

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10 years ago when I was "dating" Gaia, a beautiful art student in academy of art University, she asked me to watch Adaptation, the movie. Now, 10 years later, I am watching it again on a Saturday night, trying to see what I have lived in the past 10 years.

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Many years ago, I was supposed to meet my later ex-wife for the first time at a dining place in Shanghai. We briefly contacted each other online and arranged our meeting, I was anxious, excited...until the moment I didn't see her at the place where we were supposed to meet that night. For about 60 minutes after realizing I would not be able to see her, I had swollen my pride and take the bus back

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I started my London trip from the strange part of it, that doesn't look or feel like England at all, except weather. It was cold, wet, wembley area is largely taken over by very poor Indian population, it was simply miserable even at the most festive time Christmas. Its so bad that I started regretting my decision to come. It didn't help when the gorgeous girl I thought she was was nowhere like

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The desire for success is so strong it suffocates me, I can't smile, breath, play, interact. I always frown when I'm alone, I can not sleep, I've pushed myself into a corner, no, the corner of the same city where I set out to do glorious things 14 years ago but failed to do. I'm too scared, too unwilling, too hesitant. I can and am able, but my pride holds me back. I rather suffer and take my

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My friend Paul introduced Stevepavlina.com to me a year ago when he first stayed at my place. That was 2012 Mar., for the rest of 2012, I chased a simple idea of doing a startup, naively. I spent whole year working on the product, dragged my friend into this and kept him out of his family activity for very long time. I did not know any better. I thought it's about the product. I thought a demo at

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Today is my birthday. Happy Birthday to me. Yesterday I started reading the famous book written in the 30s by Napoleon Hill, think and grow rich. The burning desire to succeed is driving me the new height of my career, and my destiny of making a change.

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The past couple of days has been emotional roller coaster. I thought with 3 years gone by, Caroline would finally calm down and look back at the days we spent together and realize there are sweet moments we shared, and realized that I did try my best to support us while sharing those sweet moments. But nothing from her. After 3.5 years, she still resent every bit of fact that she think she

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I've been facebooking back and forth with Caroline and her final replies couldn't be colder, she is very bitter about us, somehow I went from being extremely sad, to being pragmatic in a day. She is right: I have to realize what I did wrong in order to move on and heal. I can't just look at the surface of the problems and feel sorry about it. I either have a bad memory or I am not good at caring

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I started this blog at later part of 2013. Hard to imagine it's been 10 years. The main theme for 2013 NYE is "to create". Instead of snuggling at home watching NBC's New Year count down, I went out for a run to the golden gate bridge water front to watch the fireworks from the distance. It got really cold and I almost got the cold if without my ginger soup and super hot shower. Comes to new

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There are two Caroline in my life or memory. Anna wrote me this peaceful piece today from NYC:"It's so beautiful and luminous here, I bought a bouquet of yellow roses yesterday they're catching the sunlight.Yesterday, I had a job interview for a teaching position in a school in NY but I don't think that's the job I want to do.Went to see the doc too, said I'm doing better but not yet fully

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Wow, London 2012, 17 days of glory and tears, first ever olympics where all participating nations send female athletes, has come to an end. Aug. 24, 2008, Beijing Olympic ended, I was joyful, tearful, and happy. 4 years later, lot of things have happened. That girl named Caroline I came to know right before Beijing Olympic became my wife 6 months later, but we split right after that. It's been

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This is the first time in 2012 that I finally remembered to revisit the road less traveled. It's a Saturday night when I have completed my 30s, grew up from a boy to a man, ended my first marriage, on a hunt to the next journey. It's mother's day, 2012. It's a night a 2004 movie called notebook was on. It's a night that my 10 months effort of launching our first significant startup will

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It's almost Christmas time, I just got back from NYC, I have been out on my own doing my startup for 4 months, somehow I managed the finance and stress level well. Somehow today, I am feeling the stress level shot up 10 times thinking about financing my venture on my own, timing of my startup launch, the actual work needed and what/how/when to get investment...the heavy loss from stock market...

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I know I should not have done that, but I did it anyways. I yelled at my parents on the phone for some mistakes I made. I hate chore, paper work and anything involved with it. The problem is that my parents need me to send them the "power of attorney" so they can sell their house, which they put under my name. In order to get this power of attorney, I need to go to the Chinese consulate to fill

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Today is the commencement day at Stanford university. Today of 10 years ago, months before 911, I walked the commencement and graduated in the stanford gown covering my wacky shorts and beads, wearing color-framed sunglasses indoors at Soho. These 10 years are compact, don't feel like a decade, the way people look, the way Stanford look, the way things are, have probably changed much less than

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I had doubts about getting older and not being able to have fun on a Saturday night like I used to. My doubts vaporized like water drops falling on a sizzling pan when I threw myself into the melting pot of saturday night soul dance party at Elbo. I am writing this blog post with smiles on my face. I don't remember anything happy lately that could put a sincere smile on my face. I have not been

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I have finally made the move to treat finding my other half as a serious task, not just something one randomly feel like doing, honestly, its my responsibility to do that. And I have been really thinking who I am really looking for or possibly happy with. Other than physical, sexual chemistry, I wrote the following piece to describe the personal connection. and I am about to post it everywhere;)I

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There will be a storm coming tonight. Looking back the first 4 months of 2011, I had mixed feelings. The past two years have not been easy for me, all I had toward my short lived marriage was sadness. I have never been in a mood to go out on dates, meet new people...I am not depressed, not in anyway. I guess it's the hope and knowing that one day I can find my true love...or have I found it

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"I solved many mystery...but the only mystery I couldn't solve is why my heart couldn't let go of you".- Quote from movie "Illusionist" Dec. 31, 2010, the last day of 2010. I still remember how unsettled I was a year ago, dread of growing one year older, tried many things to make sure I fully "utilize" the every minute of the 2009. I am no longer like that now. I was at ease for the entire

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When work or life isn't so busy, and when I am alone (most of the time), I often struggle to find a place to go on a weekend day.I would wake up in the morning, make simple breakfast, washup and as if get ready for a trip out. Wherever it might be. Mostly likely in a good day, I will pick a hiking trail in the north bay or east bay and walk a few hours alone, get immersed into the nature. Most of

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Funny as it sounds, coworker told me nicely on friday afternoon, half jokingly in my opinion, "I have a feeling you will meet a nice young lady this weekend".It stays in my head. Hitting my 2nd half of 30s, in the middle of divorce, not completely bouncing out of the shadow from the break apart of my sweet short marriage and the woman I loved, I have not been looking, when physical needs can't

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Today's ESPN program following the US open match (Nadal vs. Lopez) examined the merge of rise (hence fall) of two human being Mike Tyson and Tupac Shakur, on this one night of 1996. Two humans beings who were extraordinary, brilliant, articulate in their own ways, rising from poverty. Two human beings who lives/lived with passion, or left with the blazing trail behind their own comet. They both

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Another foggy San Francisco's summer night, cold, windy...a perfect Sunday night for a movie alone. It was the night for "inception", one of the most well orchestrated movie in recent history, in my opinion. It may not be as deep as some historical drama, but it certainly is well crafted, intelligent, well acted.Before the movie, all I knew was an image of folded universe, can't be well received

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Time flies. It really does. I have traveled far to China to care for parents for two weeks, I have done a few crazy things that I have never done before. I have managed to make a trip to Dallas for its summer scent of southern heat and humidity. I have yet met any special woman in my life, maybe Caroline still plays a role at the back of head. Friend told me that I have to let it go, because it

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