Ann's Lil World

My Interview

2012-10-18T06:44:00.001+08:00

Had been busy preparing for my interview the past week. Ya..today is THE DAY. Will be attending my interview at 10am later. Tried to absord as much facts as possible pertaining to our local education policies, budget, blue prints etc. Too much to remember to the details. Tend to forget most of it and most of the time, the facts overlapped and I gotten confussed.

However, I had a good rest last night. This morning, as I was lying in bed, suddenly all the facts just flow like a breeze when I recalled them. They emerged like the bursting fountain gushing out .......I hope my anxiety doesn't over-ruled my confidence later. I know that I do not have good interpersonal skills and often gotten tongue tied when striking a conversation with people.

I hope and wish I could get through the interview smoothly. Yes...Jo can definitely make it.

Betrayal

2012-09-05T09:09:00.000+08:00

Upon seeing your woman being hugged by another man would be too unbearable and hard to swallow. It’s definite for a man. Loyalty and trust are viewed as key requirements in a relationship. Keeping a relationship in proper requires high level of dedications and willingness on both parties involved. Investment of energy, time and effort to keep the sparks is enormously high.

However under circumstances, a woman may betrays her man…perhaps due to…emmm only she herself knows the answer.

Recently, I was deeply engrossed with a TVB drama L'Escargot - 抉宅男女.

Am more interested with the minor @ supporting roles between Ron Ng and Linda Chung and Michael Tse. A love entanglement between a devastated boyfriend and a fragile lady with a greed loving man. Too complicated to be put into words.

My question here….

Why does man gets so agitated when knowing his lady “bed” another man ? But he himself is free bed hop all his life….!!! Why is a woman branded as sluts when she sleeps around but otherwise for a man..? Just wonder why it’s always socially acceptable for a man to bed hops but not the same for a woman…? Something to ponder about…

However, in today’s time, the fairer sex @ women seems to have catch up with the men in terms of acquiring the reputation of bed-hopping. And many guys of today begin to accept this fact and willingly take in women with baggage !!

What say you….

Heartbreak

2012-09-04T21:23:00.000+08:00

A woman broke a man's heart.

By being on another man's arm

The man gotten so hurt.

That he cried out loud.

BETRAYAL....

Clip taken from a TVB drama L'Escargot episod 18.

The Piano

2012-08-28T17:02:00.001+08:00

Life is like a piano
the white keys represent happiness
and
the blacks show sadness
But as one goes thru life journeys
the black keys also create music.

Boredom

2012-08-22T06:12:00.000+08:00

This blog has been neglected for quite some time due to the writer's ignorance of not trying to spare time to create something. It has been ages since I write something 'solid' that make sense. Busy simply being a lame excuse. New life cannot be the reason too. Hectic schedules in school ~ nope, that's not the problem. So WHAT.....?
I don't know. Perhaps, I have grown bored with blogging. No longer have the inspiration to write. Life has been exciting and boring at the same time that hinders me to blog. Nothing interesting enough to publish.

Dear readers,
Thousand apology. Sorry, if you keep coming to my blog only to be greeted with the same old post ! Now, today....I decided to revive this blog of mine. Am literary ...giving it a new lease of life.. Though, it's impossible to blog on a daily basis, but I'll try my best to do it -weekly. Decided to change it's concept a lil bit.

Stay tune folks.

Touching 41 today

2012-07-16T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hmmm....yours truly is officially 41 today. Thanks God...I'm still breathing and healthy. My wishes for today is for world peace, happiness N health for myself and Ah Boy growing up to be someone decent.

Got myself with a piece of 'super rich choc cake' with hazel toppings. Home baked courtesy from a student's mum.

Stricking back...again

2012-06-08T16:36:00.002+08:00

This blog has been sort of abandoned for a long long time. Well..it doesn't sounds good. Hmmm..many a times...I planned to update it but many things seems to be blocking my attempts.

I'm go tied up with my work in school and at home. Will let this blog breathe again....

Gong Xi Gong Xi

2012-01-22T16:59:00.005+08:00

Wishing all a Vibrant Dragon Year".

Birthday Party

2011-07-24T13:19:00.001+08:00

Vividly remembered the day when I celebrated my tenth birthday. All my friends and neighbourhood kids were invited to the party.

For the party, I put on my birthday dress which I was specially sewn for me. I liked the big bow behind my back. I was superslim that day....

I walked into the hall where everyone was waiting for me. I saw a lot of lovely presents being displayed at one corner. They had been bought for me by all those who came that day. I was truly happy…ya for a 10 year old girl to receive so many presents, definitely my heart pumped zillion !!

Then, Ah Pa bought my birthday cake with ten candles on it. It was a large and beautiful cake. The guest sang Birthday song while I stood facing the cake. I was the central of attention for everyone. After that, I was asked to make a wish and cut it. Though I felt rather uneasy, with so many eyes upon me, I somehow managed to cut a line.

The guests were then served with an array of yummy food prepared by mum. Music was played. There were also jokes and laughter among the children. My friends and I played some games-Musical chairs and card games.

When the party was over, I unpacked all my birthday gifts. I was surprised to see such lovely gifts. The happiness reflected in my face…..Thanking my parents for holding such a pleasant party for me although we weren’t from a well-to-d0 background.

Fast Forward to today….eversince that 10^th birthday, I never have the privilege to celebrate my birthday on a big scale. It was always within my family members having a simple meal or a birthday cake or sort. Year in year out….I’ve approached my 40^th birthday !!

Happy Birthday to dear me….

The big 4 Birthday

2011-07-16T20:48:00.000+08:00

Suprises from the two boys of my life. Thanks Dear. Thanks Ah Boy.

Nothing much changesafter all. It's a matter of figure and mathematics. Physically and mentally, am still myself.

Crisis...

2011-07-15T20:41:00.000+08:00

Am savoring the last few hours of my 30s before the clock strikes 12. Hmmm….how is it like to be 40 circle, my life getting better or worst ?

Hitting the big 4 ol. Sigh..

For the first time in my life, am feeling a sense of nervousness, uneasiness right now. A sense of being completely lost in life and completely alone really does scare me off.

For a moment, I’ve developed this feeling like I’ve lost my identity and no longer know who I am. All my values, principles, belief system suddenly evaporated ! What I stand for and what is my purpose in life….am totally blank. Am beginning to feel depressed as well.

Attempting to analyse my emotions and feelings. One thing for sure…I’m starting to feel myself getting ‘old’. Old is the dreaded word…which was never a taboo in my life until recently. I began to get agitated over this word. Am I getting old…where now I’ve landed on my 4^th decade. The inferiority complex in me.

Mid life crisis…is this a natural phenomena when one approach 40 ?

Am I experiencing a mid life crises? So many things crossing my mind…menopause ! Am I ready to face this “M” ?

I guess it is normal to develop such insecurity. At least, I do have the time to sit back and re-access my options and make changes if there’s any….

Happy 40^th Birthday to myself.

Total Confusion

2011-07-06T06:47:00.000+08:00

Being in a daze for months. Can concentrate on just anything..... Lost !! Surprising...Work wise I'm doing fine and so is at home. Managed both reasonably well. No complain from my headmistress nor my family members esp Ah Boy. But I just can't focus. When at work, I think about home. And when at home, I think about work. In a total confusion state.

Wonder why am I feeling so suck..? Is it the 'Big 4 ol' syndrome ?
~~(Hint hint...it's around the corner..folks..!!!)~~

Dilemma

2011-06-29T17:44:00.000+08:00

To continue to not..? Unable to decide. Sigh..! Should I further my studies, am I capable of doing my Masters ? As my mind is still fresh and energetic (after having gone thru my 4 year degree), I think I should move on to a higher level. But on the other hand, I doubt I have the capability and time to do it. Had been sort off neglecting my boy for a long long time. His growing age is important and he needs lotsa of motherly concern and care and guidance. He's already in Std 4 and would be sitting for his UPSR in 2 years. These 2 years are critical. So if I continue my studies now (masters-2 years duration), then I would probably neglect him once again which I wish to avoid. Nevertheless, if both of us do study together, this might give him the inspiration to achieve coz I could be a perfect role model to him.

Apart from time, my another obstacle is cash. I needed to cough out a handsome amount of money for my masters. A good sum of RM16K which I could save for Ah Boy's future etertiary education. If i use up that $$ for myself, then indirectly I'm also using up Ah Boy's educational funds.

Time and cash, then commitment comes next. How far can I concentrate on my studies at such 'advanced age'? Going to be 40 next month. My memory and concentration level depleting....!

Sigh....I'm in a total dilemma. Should I or shouln't I..? Any advice, dear readers ?

So near yet so far...

Graduation Day

2011-06-24T19:32:00.000+08:00

Ah....finally, I can shout to the entire world that I'm a grad. Officially a graduate. Four long grueling years of hardwork, I finally earn a piece of paper !!!! I yearned for this day since the day I attended my first tutorial. My convocation day was on 18th June @ PWTC KL. I wasn't prepared for it, as a result, everything seems chaos and a bit clumsy. Had a tough time adjusting my robe. I've gotten the smaller size but it still abit too big for my petite figure. Have I shrinked ? hmmmm
My hair was messy and my face looked like a ghost due to fatigue. Didn't sleep a wink the entire night before. Heavy eyebags and pale skin. Sigh... I didn't look good at all on that day due to the overwhelming stress.
However, the so many ruin downs didn't exactly spoilt the day though. There was happiness and the anticipation was overflowing. Am glad that I managed to step on stage to receive that priceless scroll after enduring so many obstacles and hardship.

I didn't have a good photographer to capture the moments of glory but all of it will stay in my memories for life.

My updates...

2011-06-23T09:33:00.000+08:00

Hi...I'm back after a month of disappearance. Apologised for the absence. Been busy preparing for my convocation and my never-ending workloads in school. Superbusy the entire month....

Day in day out, was tied up with work, attending endless meetings and courses...that I did not have much time left to update my blog. Keep reading...

Labours' Day

2011-05-01T22:18:00.000+08:00

Graduation Attire

2011-04-30T21:03:00.000+08:00

Everyone were so obsessed over the Royal Wedding of the Duke & Duchess of Cambridge. Her wedding gown...hmmmm. Admired her slender hourglass !!! Kate's every moves, her every utterances~had been scrutinized by hungry paparazzi. Bride of the heir to the throne simply can't be camera-shy, rite?

Yours truly was glued to the TV screen the entire Friday afternoon....watching the telecast from Westminsters Abey. Prince William and Princess Catherine do make a lovely pair. She has the most beautiful smile. May both of them live happily ever after.

Admiring the guests' esp the ladies gowns/dresses and matching headgears. Very formal kinda of attire. The bride's mother donned on a perfect dress. So were a few other Royal guests.

Hmmm...mentioning about fashion and formality attire, yours truly is also busy preparing herself for her convocation day next month. Am searching high N low for a proper good looking slack and blouse to match the graduation robe. Nah...I don't have a personal designer to secure myself an outfit. Gotta look for it myself which is pretty time consuming. Should I opt for ready made straight from the rack or something special tailored made..? hmmmmm...still pending...

It's a package....Hairstyle, new specs, new shoes....oh...don't you think I'm also preparing for my big day ? Any suggestion, dear readers ?

Misery Days

2011-04-12T21:26:00.000+08:00

It's THAT time of the month again. Hated the discomfort, hated the ugly feeling inside. The bloated-ness, the uneasiness underneath, heaviness abdomen and extreme disgusting sensation.

Sigh….

Just made myself some warm ginger concoction…and yet the discomfort still persists. I always dreaded this time of the month where my “Tai Yee Ma” comes visiting. The ill feeling makes everything topsy turvy and usually put my daily activities temporary on hold for couple of days.

Am super tied up with my school duties. Untangled reports and files. Am also busy training my “Action Song” team. The competition is merely days away yet my pupils still have not master their steps and lines. Another load on my shoulders apart from my core business @ teaching. After this event..there come the 2^nd term exams. Still haven’t finish the syllabus, due to my busyness and very much behind time. Oh gosh !

All the above spells another dreaded word “S T R E S S”. Should avoid all these misery. Kept reminding myself to RELAX RELAX.

On a brighter side, am looking forward to my graduation day schedule on 18 June. Am making preparation for my big day…walking down the aisle to receive a well deserved scroll.

Better Dinner Treat

2011-04-05T21:01:00.004+08:00

Had a lousy lunch this noon. For dinner, am replenishing my body with something more nutritious (sort off) and better looking and tastier. More balanced, I supposed. Salty beancurd pork fillet, Tofu topping with minced meat, Lady's fingers blended onion, Fried mackerel and Prawn fritters. Not forgetting the onion rings. Hmmm...a bit too oily and not heart friendly but they simply taste good. Once in awhile lah....

Lady's Finger with onion

Salted Beancurd Bak

A variety of deep fried goodies

(prawn fritters, onion rings, fish, fries, crab meat sticks)

Minced meat tofu

Everything on the table

Ready to savour dinner

And end of the meal, fruits of mango and pear. And hearty carrot milk to drain down the oily stuff.

Fragrant pear and mango

A decent meal...!!!

Quickie Lunch

2011-04-05T15:18:00.000+08:00

Long and tiring day in school. Endless reports to do. Training my "Sunshine Team" students. Came back home, dog tired. As usual no food on the table, no maid to serve me food....as a result got to DIY. Instant Noodle ala Ann. Blanch some 'dou miow' @ snowpea sprout (mersed briefly in boiling water). These greenish shoots are believed to be riched with Vitamin Vit C and K.

Then some tomatoes and oinons. No MSG as I used my own seasoning of Kikoman soya sauce and some home meade garlic oil. Sprinkle abit of pepper...taadaaaa...a healthy meal. Then I had this chicken floss cookies as dessert. Yummy and filling. No quite balanced but I'll cook a proper dinner later this evening.

My Face

2011-04-04T18:38:00.003+08:00

This time around, I noticed that my mature skin took a longer time to recover. Usually after the massive destruction of the facial treatment, my skin would return to it's normal being after a day or two. However, this time, there are still some sightly sore and pore on both my cheek due to the extraction procedure. Sign of aging ah..? Oh no. Am reaching the big 4 ol, which means that the elasticity of my skin is diminishing. Perhaps not...but perhaps yes. Not a good sign.

Oh gosh, I want my youthful, flawless, porcelain smooth skin back. My baby bottom skin...

When I look at the mirror just now, fine lines and a lil tiny bit of wrinkles are noticeable to bare eyes. No need to use any magnifying glass....Oh dear. Under my eyes and my laughing line area. Lines could been seen very clearly. My forehead too.

My wrinkles ~ Each line has a story behind it.....

Need to stop worrying, don't wanna over exert myself. Not enough sleep, stress and food cause a major damage to my skin. Thank God, I had completed my studies. No need to burn midnite oil. In addtion, my crazy hormones too aggravated my skin problem.

Sigh....how sad. My beautician friend did suggest some kinda of supplements (taken orally) to restore my collagen. She too recommend jabs like placenta and vit C. Nevertheless, I'm still not keen on these substances. Chemical and it's side effects in long term. The harmfulness of these chemicals being pump into my body. And it also cost me a bomb to perform all these procedures. Laser treatment would definitely provide an instant result ~ invisible lines after an hour.

Quite tempting...but...I love my body more.

Am not going to opt for all these. Allowing the chemicals invading my body for the sake of beauty. Oh..no need lah.
Prefer to grow old gracefully. After all, BEAUTY IS SKIN DEEP.

What say you? Vitamins and daily supplements dosage....are they trustworthy ? Any good recommendations..?

So worry of the growing wrinkles on my face and yet wouldn't want to take the risk...haha

My Facial Treatment

2011-04-02T22:16:00.000+08:00

Gone for a facial treatment, a good 2 hour treatment yesterday. Lying on the treatment bed, leaving my face, neck and shoulder in the hands of the beautician. Very professional kind. Very relaxing except for the extracting procedure. Removing my acne and blackheads which are ample on my T-zone area. Pinching and squeezing…ouch, my nose and cheek.

The procedure in sequential order :-

Cleansing with two kinds of cleansing product @ deep cleansing gel and mild scrub

Peeling~ applying some kind of peeling ingredients onto my face, leave it to dry and then slowly use finger to rub onto the surface to remove dead skins and impurity. This peeling process exfoliated the top layer of dead skin cell. It leaves the skin looking brighter and more youthful.

Steaming~ to open up pores for extraction of black & white heads. When the pores were fully expanded, thus making the exctraction process much easier.

The Extraction~ the most painful process. The beautician used some tissue paper and squeezed out the blackheads. For stubborn ones, she resorted to a thin metal device. It has hole at one end which would encircle each blackhead, with a gentle tug on it, the blackhead gets extracted. Painful pressing esp on sensitive areas like the nose and below the eyes. This procedure need to be done professionally to avoid scarring or infection.

I have lots of blackheads on my T-zone as a result of overproduction of oil on my skin. Basically, I have oily skin but dry on the surface which made me prone to blackheads. My working environment (chalk dust) aggravated my condition. The excess oil secreted then to clog my pores and entrapped dirt (I wished the MOE could obliged teachers’ plea to convert blackboard to whiteboard in all classrooms !!!

Once all the blackheads were removed, antiseptic cream was applying onto the affected area. There was some stinking sensation due to the extraction just now but it soon go off overtime. Then, the skin was soothed with a cooling cream to avoid swelling and redness.

Facial Massage~The best part. Using essential oil, the beautician massage my face. With proper stroke and right hard press on the exact points…it improved blood circulation around the face area. Very relaxing.

Mask~Mine was a double mask. The cooling effect of the cold mask. I was left to sleep @ rest for a good 20 minutes with the mask covering my entire face.

With mask plastered on my face, the beautician gave me a good shoulder neck massage. Again she concentrated on my trouble areas like neck and shoulder aching due to long sitting and facing the PC for a long period.

Time’s up to remove the mask. So relaxing…

However, I do feel a bit pain due to the extensive of blackhead extracting yesterday. Will take a day or two to recover.

My brunch bento

2011-03-28T22:32:00.002+08:00

Today and the week will be superb busy for me in school. Preparing my students for English Carnival ~ training them for “Action song”. This would filled up my free periods thru out the day. Besides my normal teaching class, I need to look into my action song team.

As a result, decided to pre packed my own brunch box to school. I believe it’s much healthier and also cost saving. Yeah…$$$ saved. There aren’t choices in the menu of my school canteen. Nasi Lemak doesn’t sound too good for a 40 something woman. After eating the same food for many years, I started to get sick of them. Nasi lemak, fried noodles…argh…..

So this morning, I made a brunch box for myself and also for Ah Boy. I started to prepare the raw ingredients the night before. After all, most of the ingredients are leftovers from last dinner. Rice, fried tofu & anchovies.

In the morning, I just have to fried the rice (minus msg, soy sauce) and made some eggs (bulls eyes). Cut some cucumber slices and tomatoes.

Taaadaaaa…as easy as A-B-C.

Packed them in a tinfin and off to school. The rice would remain warm in this special tin fin for at least 1-2 hours, no need to reheat whatsoever.

Of course, I could only prepare simple food, as I'm not really good in cooking. Fried rice is the easiest as it doesn’t need too much prepare it. Simple food yet delicious….!

Today's brunch box

How about you? Do you like to prepare your own food and bring them to work? Or you'll prefer going out for lunch everyday?

Maths Fun

2011-03-25T23:14:00.001+08:00

Fun with numbers....

Ah Boy having fun being fisherman fishing for figure fish. He has to get the answer, look for right fish and hook it up using a small tiny magnetic rod. Ain't easy. He has got to calculate the answers manually
Running against the time limit. When everything done at a limited time, with much pressure...it sure force oneself to excel. Under enormous pressure, things get done better...true ?

When things can done under pressure with time limit, under constant demands and extreme situations, children tend to fair better. Ah Boy was practically grasping for air when doing that activity, as though there wasn't enough time to solve the mathematical problems. The wantings of winning the game was the priority that made him work hard. In fact, it made him more productive @ working hard to catch more fishes..!!

Learn things under stress....

Many a time....when we all must deal with deadlines, people making demands of us, and emergency situations. When under pressure, we feel as though there's never enough time to get things done. In fact, we may even become less productive because of worrying about all the work we have to do. We handle stress and perform under pressure that make the top performers stand out above the rest.

At the end of the day, Ah Boy did enjoy the game. That's was utmost matter.

Red or Blue

2011-03-25T14:57:00.000+08:00

Indulged in some shopping spree which awaiting for Ah Boy to explore the Maths Carnival last Sunday. Initially, supposed to window shop but...errr....."super sales, great sales, slashed prices...." So damn tempting...saliva drooling..

Indecisive mind...can't decide which colour..? Red or blue. Kinda liken both. In the end, I bought both. Save the hassle of picking either...! Luckily it's on sales 50%....!
When back home, I tried on them again. But think that they were way too childish for this 30 something aunty. Hmmmm....can I wear them out..? Aiyoyo...That's what I mean by "blind purchase" syndrome. Buy bought purchase....then fill up the wardrobe and never wear them. Accumulating volume in my closet. Have to control that bad habit of impulse buying N little planning during shopping.