Another Sunrise

Macular Hemorrhage from Bungee Jumping

2009-09-12T04:49:00.000-07:00

A 25-year-old woman with no clinically significant medical history and with normal coagulation and hematologic studies went bungee jumping from a vertical height of 150 ft (45.7 m). Immediately afterward, she noticed a substantial decrease in vision in her left eye, with a large central scotoma; no other symptoms were noted and there was no pain. On examination, the patient's right eye was found to have a normal disc and vessels (Panel A, arrowhead) and normal fovea and macula (Panel A, arrow). Examination of the left eye showed a normal disc and vessels (Panel B, arrowhead), but the foveal and macular architecture was obscured by a large macular hemorrhage just below the level of the internal limiting membrane (Panel B, arrow). Vision was 20/400 in the left eye when the patient used peripheral scanning and 20/20 in the right eye. The patient had a form of Valsalva retinopathy due to increased venous pressure in the upper body, brought about by sudden deceleration in the head-down position (such as occurs during bungee jumping). She underwent surgery with evacuation of the blood in the left eye. Visual acuity in the left eye 1 week later was 20/25 and has remained stable.

The New England Journal of Medicine

Not your home !!!!!

2009-08-30T19:36:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt that you are not the part of the family ? Ever cried thinking that no she cannot be my own. Because she disgusts me , she hates me . Then why am i here ? Do i run away or just stay here , living at a unknown house , thinking i have no future ? Thinking that what will i do if i run away ? Do i go to my relatives or do i just hang around day and night ?I have no answer even when m searching for the answer for years long ? Why do people have to live such a life, full of misery , anger , a huge pressure since the time you wake up. It's the time when you wish that you would never wake up after a good night's sleep.
You do so much and at last it's not enough.The expectation always is way above our mind.I can't understand what is it.Is it the love or simply the hatred.I want my chances to come. To take me to my way.My future.My destiny.

Who is the Father ?

2009-03-24T20:17:00.000-07:00

My dog finally gave birth to 5 puppies after so much of waiting. haha. The vet had given the date a week back and we were desperately waiting for the puppies to pop out :D . Finally it did.But after the puppies are born we are very eagerly waiting for the doc again. Why ? Coz to know who the father is. Since my dog , Sofi , is a german shepard and is brownish n blackish.It has given birth to all black puppies and they are purely black.So who is the father ? But m glad she made it . :)

Nepal and My Luck !!!

2009-03-03T18:23:00.000-08:00

Good Morning everyone!!! It's 8:11 am here at y place and i am minfront of my computer with a cup pf tea. Can u believe it the governent of nepal has increased the load shedding schedule. I mean what are we supposed to do in just 4 hrs time. No tv , no computer. Nepal is definitely going back to the dark ages.We had no light since yesterday nite 8 pm till today morning 8 am. Again i dont know what time it's gonna just go!!! They havent even put up the schedule.Besides m having a big headache about my exams. I have almost studied 85% of it still in the mornings i wake up with a fear. Damn when is it gonna be over. Everyone please give me your luck for those two days. :) ....

Weekends !!!

2009-03-03T02:28:00.000-08:00

Firstly hoping all my blog friends especially Sara had a great weekend. Due to our country's heavy power cut i couldnt even come online. Anyways my weekend was better.
Saturday was great . Had planned for the movie , the one which got 8 awards i.e The Slumdog Millionaire. Well the movie was pretty cool.Me and my boyfriend snuggled close together even in the theatre ;). wouldn't miss a chance to be close to him . :)After the movie we went for a cup of a coffee and some talks. Then he dropeed me home. There's always a feeling of loneliness as soon as he drops me off. But then thinking that i will get to meet him on the next day brings a sense of relief.And not to mention there's a;ways a 1 hour talk in the phone before going to bed.:)

Funny thing :As soon as the movie ended they were giving the names of the actors. And my boyfren so innocently asked where was this character ( the character was a police officer and was there from the beginning of the movie till the end ).. I couldnt stop laughing when i looked at his face. He was trying to remember so hard.haha

Sunday too wasn't that bad. Finally we had our valentine's day shopping. I got him a pair of shoes of his choice and for me a red top. He insists that i buy more. Well now i guess i should ;). Only a top os not enough. Well planning to go another weekend as he has office the whole weekend and m not allowed to leave home late evenings. So i so wish the weekends would come soon.

I confess !!! I confess !!!

2009-02-28T07:00:00.000-08:00

My fav blogger SARA The breathing post has tagged me and guess what i love playin these games. Thanks for tagging me Sara. So here i go confessing :D

Here are the rules:
Copy and paste the whole questionnaire and replace my answers with yours.
You have to state and create a link for the blogger who tag you.
Pass to 4 other blogger.
Remember to inform them by commenting on their recent post.
You must display the logo anywhere on your blog

Lastly answer each question with truth and nothing but the truth since this is a confession tag. Have Fun!

What is your blogger name? Rachana Nakarmi

2) When is your birthday? January 4

3) How long have you been blogging? ummm around 2 months

4) Who tagged you? Sara

5) Tell me your 5 most favorite body parts.

My hands, my neck, my lips, my belly and my back :P

6) What do you wish most for your birthday?Enjoyment n happiness

7) What color is your nails now? ahh it's natural in color rite now

8) Any depressing thoughts lately?
Nahhhhh....

9) What's your next 1 month's plan?
To study hard for the upcoming exam coz i have to pass it anyhow.

10) At what age is your 1st crush?
14-15 i guess

11) Did you attend any school reunion after you graduated till now?Not yet

12) Have you ever passed gas in public and pretended you didn't smell anything?
Yes but fortunately i guess it didnt smell at all...or was it my nose ? haha

13) Are you a clean freak?
Yepppp!!!! i have to have my room cleaned and organised.

14) Which era you wish you were born into? Ahhh i don't know. this is better i guess.

15) Are you a vegetarian?
Hell no :D

16) How many pillows you sleep with at night?
Two

17) Are you a light sleeper or I-don't-care-there's-a-bomb-here sleeper?
Depends how hard i worked in the day time.

18) Do you secretly wear comfortable nanny underwear when your man is not around?
Nope !!!

19) What is your ultimate dream job?Working in an international company (UN , USAID , AUSAID ) or any other NGO companies.

20) What is it your hubby does that annoys you the most?
He just asks me something and i give him the answer but after sometime he is again asking the same thing. I always shout at him do u even listen to me ?

21) What is your dream car?
Something fashionable.Ferrari ?

22) Do you easily wake up in the morning?
Yep when i have work. And NO when m off duties.

23) Do you like hairy man?
Not at all but a bit of a rough look does luk sexy .

24) How about goatee man? Okay !!

25) Which one do you prefer, 2 hour spa, 2 hour Thai Massage or 2 hour foot massage?
2 hour massage.

26) Have you ever wish you had a different name other than your real name? what name is that?
When i was small i wanted something different.

27) What is the most extreme sport you had ever did?
None

28) Do you prefer traveling in Europe or Asia?Europe. Had enough of Asia.

29) What is your favorite food?
MOMO ....yummmy

And Finally,

30) What is the most embarrassing moment when you were out on dates?

Nothing lately !!! Lucky eh !!

Since m late m not tagging anyone of u . don't know enough people blogging around . Thank u sara i had fun doing this . :)

Thank You Sweetheart

2009-02-20T22:45:00.000-08:00

Valentine day did pass away but the charm remains.And my bf always gives me a smile with his sweet gifts. Our valentine day gift shopping is yet to be finished ( too bg :P ) but he just had time to come up with something sweet. Photography is his hobby and he is too good at it. and here's his gift for me. :)

The verse is from a hindi song sayin : If you are around , my heart sings
when you are not , there is no song in my life.

Thank You Sweetheart. Every sweet lil thing you do means a lot. :)

For more of his pics do check out http://flickr.com/photos/whatsthere/

1 Million U.S. AIDS Cases

2009-02-19T22:42:00.000-08:00

AIDS has now struck more than 1 million Americans, the CDC's latest HIV/AIDS numbers show.

As of 2007, there were 455,636 Americans living with AIDS. In the 34 states that report HIV infections, there were 571,378 Americans living with HIV or AIDS at the end of 2007.

In 2007 -- for the first time -- more than half (51%) of new HIV/AIDS cases were among African-Americans. Blacks represent 13% of the U.S. population, yet 48% of Americans living with HIV or AIDS are black.

Some other numbers from the CDC's annual report:

* Women accounted for 27% of adult and teen AIDS cases diagnosed in 2007.
* From 2003 to 2007, deaths of Americans with AIDS decreased by 17%.
* 20% of people living with AIDS are 40 to 44 years old -- the highest percentage of any age group.
* Among men living with AIDS or HIV, 64% were infected by male-to-male sexual contact.
* 40% of people living with AIDS reside in the South; 29% in the Northeast, 20% in the West, and 11% in the Midwest.

The data appear in the CDC's annual HIV/AIDS Surveillance Report.

My days..

2009-02-17T05:53:00.000-08:00

Sitting all alone sometimes from time to time i come to think atleast one day of seeing myself as someone , someone very special , something to the world. I know now that i am usually silent not as a bubbly character i used to be but still i tend to be the same as before.I do some thinking , noo a lot of thinking to be precise. What i should do and what not ? What could have made things better and what should i do to make life better . Thinking of it waves of emotion come and pass away. Life is a rollercoaster. :). Is it only me wanting always more than what i got ?It isn't bad in a way. Reaching for the sky , but again the bad impact ... losing what we got in our hands in the present.

Anger has really gone over my head.Everyone and every little things tend to get into my nerves these days. But i control . But i don't opt the right way to control it.When will the better days come ? Patience says Mr. B. That is the thing i lack.I have a lot more to do in life and why do i think the time is so less ? A lot to do and so less time and due to my negligience i m losin my time. damn me.

Anger !!!

2009-02-17T05:35:00.000-08:00

I am angry because i failed myself and i have to wait for the better days just because of me. I have to waste my time , my precious time . I have realised how precious the time has become and how hard it is to stay at home just doing nothing. waiting for the day to come.Nothing can happen until the day. I sometimes ask the one upthere is it only me u r after ? I am frustrated because of the rising anger inside me. The hatred i have for many of the things and the desire of being alone.The whole day not being able to talk with anyone and at the end of the day everyone showing up. Sometimes i feel am i the only available one ? Does my life end up here ? I am depressed thinking WHAT NEXT ? WHAT MORE ?

Post Valentines day

2009-02-16T03:09:00.000-08:00

Every people in the world may have celebrated their valentine day on 14th feb. But me n my bf were quite unfortunate. We don't really celebrate it , not that we are against it or anything but since we are always meeting up and sit together n talk .Each n every day for us is a valentine day. But this time it was because of me we didnt get to meet on that special day. My younger sister's birthday falls on the same day and i was there at my aunt's place to celebrate it. he waited for me for a long time .I did feel guilty making him wait and said him sorry.But he's one of a kind and said it's allright , he understands. I thought for myself if it had been him making me wait i would be angry. Anyways we met on Sunday n Monday to make it up ;). we had a good time being together and ofcourse eating. We two eat a lot when when we are together. :D Still there are gifts waiting for both of us. Tring to fix a date for some shopping. :D. Hope you guys all had a great valentines day. Mine was PERFECT even if it was not on the same day.

My Baby Pumpkin

2009-02-11T06:45:00.000-08:00

The day was soo good today. The weather was changing in minutes though . Thank God it didn't rain.After the sun started peeking beyond the clouds i hurriedly dressed up and went off to see my little pumpkin (that's my younger sister's 1 month baby). I love babies. My younger sister hasnt kept a name for her yet but i call her pumpy (short for pumpkin). As you might see the pic she is lil black. But noooo , she was not like that when she was born. She was soooo milky white , but as a tradition in our country,Nepal , after the baby is born that pregnant woman n the baby should sit in sun for hours.I admit sun is necessary for small babies but my relatives they keep babies in sun fir sooo long that their skin turns black in a day. Anyways she's a month old haha n c's so cute. She likes to be carried around. As soon as we put her in bed she starts crying.She's soooo cute.Anyways i totally had a good time with her.

Again the same day !!!

2009-02-10T06:02:00.001-08:00

Boredom is killing me...Luck aint on my side too. After a straight 8 hr long power cut off , finally i can open my computer and check my mails n all.You really can't imagine how boring it is when u can's watch tv , nor can u log on to your computer. My dad says we are back in the dark ages. N i say yeahhhh.....maybe !!! But after i checked my mails n all i had nothing to do .then i logged into linkreferral.com and started surfing others blog. Some blogs u know are really cool. esp the personal blogs.It's interesting to read about peoples daily life's activities and find out that even when people are living thousand miles away from us , their lives are not at all different from us. They are bored too but not with the same problem. Well I am glad i ain't the only one. haha

LG Arena KM900 is now official

2009-02-10T04:10:00.000-08:00

LG has officially released word on its Arena KM900 cell phone which is set to be its flagship multimedia model, where it will take centerstage at Mobile World Congress ‘09 later this month. You can tell by the specifications below that this will be a power-packed handset that does not skimp on features, and we’re extremely interested in the rich 3D graphics found in its intuitive, touch-based menus that seem to look easy and natural to navigate through. We wonder whether this will be able to give the iPhone 3G a run for its money…

Tri-band GSM/UMTS/HSDPA 7.2 Mbps connectivity
3″ 800 x 480 WVGA 262K color touchscreen display
5 megapixel camera with DVD quality video recording
FM Radio
Mobile TV
A-GPS support
1000 mAh battery with 300 hrs stand-by and 230 min talk time
Wi-Fi
“S-Class” 3D interface
There’s no word on pricing or availability though. How much do you think this will cost, on a contract and unlocked?

Americans get next generation Acer Aspire One netbook

2009-02-10T04:02:00.001-08:00

Specifications and features of the Acer Aspire One AOD150 include :-

Intel® Atom™ Processor N270 (1.60GHz, 533MHz FSB, 512KB L2 Cache)
Windows XP® Home with Service Pack 3
10.1-inch WSVGA Acer CrystalBrite™ TFT LCD 1024 x 600
Mobile Intel® 945GSE Express Chipset
1024MB DDR2 533 MHz SDRAM Single Channel Memory
Integrated Intel® Graphics Media Accelerator 950
160GB SATA 5400RPM Hard Drive
Multi-in-1 Digital Media Card Reader
Acer InviLink™ 802.11b/g Wi-Fi CERTIFIED
Acer Crystal Eye Web Camera
Two Built-in Stereo Speakers
Three USB 2.0 Ports
6-cell Li-ion Battery (4400 mAh)
2.95 lbs.
10.2” (W) x 8.0” (D) x 1.31” (H)

You will be able to choose from a quartet of high-gloss color options including seashell white, sapphire blue, ruby red and diamond black to suit your personality. It isn’t all just work though, as Acer has made sure it looks good as well with stylish details such as an aerodynamic-shaped metallic hinge with a colored accent and a brushed-metal palm rest that are pleasing to the eyes. Each purchase will also come with preinstalled software from Acer including Acer eRecovery Management, Acer Launch Manager, Adobe Reader, McAfee Internet Security Suite, Microsoft Office Trial 2007. A one-year limited warranty is standard practice here, and we think this would do pretty well considering the size and design factors, as I find it most comfortable to work with a 10.1″ netbook’s keyboard. Anything smaller and I get finger cramps shortly thereafter.

Cupid teams up with Sprint for Valentine’s Day

2009-02-10T03:55:00.000-08:00

LG Lotus: In a fashionable purple hue, LG Lotus offers Sprint One Click, a highly customizable user interface that makes texting, Web access, email, Sprint Navigation, Sprint TV, Sprint Music Store and other features easy to access. LG Lotus offers the perfect combination of both style and substance with a full QWERTY keyboard that is ideal for quick text messaging, email or instant messaging. It also offers advanced features including stereo Bluetooth and a 2.0 MP camera/camcorder. The price on LG Lotus recently dropped to just $99.99 with a new two-year contract, and after a $50 mail-in rebate.

Samsung Instinct: Now available in pink, the award-winning Instinct boasts full touch-screen functionality with access to the 3G speed of Sprint’s EV-DO Rev A Mobile Broadband Network. It recently saw the addition of full calendar synchronization access to Microsoft Exchange Server and IBM Lotus Notes. Samsung Instinct offers Visual Voicemail, stereo Bluetooth with audible caller ID, expandable memory up to 8 GB and a 2.0 MP camera with camcorder. For a limited time, get Instinct for just $99 with a new two-year contract, and after a $100 mail-in rebate.

Samsung Rant: With bold purple or red color options, Samsung Rant is a messaging master, complete with email, text, voice SMS and instant messaging capabilities. It offers easy access to Sprint Navigation, Sprint Music Store and Sprint TV with an extensive collection of live and on-demand content through the new Sprint One Click customizable user interface. Additional features include a 2.0 MP camera/camcorder, stereo Bluetooth, expandable memory up to 8 GB and speaker-independent voice recognition. At just $49.99 with a new two-year contract, and after a $50 mail-in rebate, Rant makes a very affordable gift.

All three handsets are equipped with the latest data services, making them useful for setting up a memorable Valentine’s Day date as you can then send a mushy Mobile Greeting or track down that perfect romantic spot with Sprint Navigation.

Plasma Heart

2009-02-09T02:34:00.000-08:00

If you’re looking for a Valentine’s gift still, here’s a cute one. Instead of the usual boring plasma ball, you could pick up this one that’s shaped like a heart. Then you could give her a card with some cheesy bit about an electrifying connection. Nothing says Valentine’s Day like things so sweet they could make even the sappiest girl a bit nauseous. Despite all the potential things that could be said along with this gift, it would still make for a great geeky gift. How can you resist it when it combines love and geekery so well?

The plasma heart works like your average plasma ball, the blue rays will instantly react to your touch by moving to come in contact with the tips of your fingers. The heart itself is made of glass and is small enough that it’d be great for you desktop and won’t get in the way or hog space. The heart is USB powered, so to get it up and running just plug it into your computer. It will at the very least give you something to do when work isn’t keeping your attention. You can purchase this on USB Brando for $17.

Toshiba TG01 vs Iphone and Blackberry Bold.

2009-02-04T19:04:00.000-08:00

Two phones that we know are loved and make the top ten easy is the iPhone 3G and BlackBerry Bold, but there is a new phone out this year to add a little something different.

With the hopes to shake things up a little the Toshiba TG01 will be released in summer of 2009 (no exact date is known of yet). So what’s so special about the TG01?

The Toshiba TG01 features include: only 9.9-mm thin, a 4.1-inch WVGA (800 x 480 pixel) touchscreen, custom Toshiba 3D GUI based on Windows Mobile 6.1, microSD slot, WiFi, GPS and HSDPA data.

While the above features a nice, they are not the most notable. The winner feature of the TG01 is its 1GHz Snapdragon chip that should make it considerably faster than any device out today (including the iPhone an Blackberry’s).

You can check out some amazing hands-on photos over at electricpig, these show the Toshiba TG01 vs. iPhone 3G and BlackBerry Bold in photo.

My Dream Gadgets

2009-02-03T03:17:00.000-08:00

Valentine's day gadgets

2009-01-30T01:26:00.000-08:00

mStation: Orb - Elegant, 2.1 stereo iPod speaker dock

* “Made for iPod” Certified
* 6 Cosmetic Docking Cradles
* 10 key remote
* Docking station syncs w/iTunes
* Comes in 7 Different colors(White, Black, Blue, Green, Pink, Red, and Silver)
* 30 Watts of room filling stereo sound.

The mStation Orb is available at mStation.com for $129.95.

Scandyna: Minipod - The Minipod loudspeaker follows an organic design, where ‘form follows function’

* Available in White, Black, Silver, Carnaby blue, Yellow, Red, Racing green, Midnight blue, Pearlescent white and Lucente
* Stereo arrangement, AV, 5.1, multimedia, near field monitoring for studios
* S2 way reflex, abs cabinet
* Each characteristic of the design has a precise acoustical justification

The Scandyna Minipod is available at High End Audio Retailers for $849 the pair.

The Grid Tag USB Drive

2009-01-30T00:40:00.000-08:00

Here’s another great USB drive that’s perfect for those that have a tendency to lose their USB drive. With flash drives being so small and only getting smaller, it’s understandable that some people lose theirs on occasion. Even those that are great about keeping track of their things, have their hectic days where the little things turn up missing. With these USB drives, they’d stay attached to your book bag or belt and it’d never again be far from where you need it.

They’re even brightly colored to accommodate those that don’t want to be stuck with boring gray or black USB drives. The Grid Tags would be especially great for younger students that have just started using a flash drive. That first while when you’re trying to get used to having a USB drive around is usually when they get lost the absolute most. The Grid Tag USB Drives come in 1GB which is about $50 and 2GB which will cost you $70. Unfortunately these are being sold in Japan, so for those of us in the rest of the world, they will be hard to get our hands on.

Another day in my life

2009-01-28T07:12:00.000-08:00

Everytime i think i've got to d bottom of d pain,i tend to find a new way to sink even lower n i know it's d worst...no matter how bad it is n no matter whatever happens to meh frm now on these few mins will remain wid meh as a shining cautionarybeacon.Is it better lyin down on d bed thinkin hard after d conversation or is it better to cheer urself?i keep askin myself d same thing n i keep lyin down on mah bed until i fall asleep....cryin ofcourse.....n when i get up n i can't take it anymore i die deep inside.....deep inside sumthing sinks.....sumthing breaks knowinly n unknowinly.....I saw for d first time hoe scared i was of losin sumone.....n hoe dis fear has prevented meh frm all sorts of things....givin up smokin....given up mah so called bad habits n all.....Everyone does have d fear of losin sumone ....by any means rite?....not only meh.....death, d ex....anything....Y can't i be less emotional ?...have a heart of a stone so tht i wouldn't love d person so deep n would hurt d person.....damn d fuckin wishes neva cms true rite?

that nite i have to stay awake till dawn
my fate is etched like dis
sorrow has entered n left mah heart
stars,y dunt u fall asleep wid meh ?

He d almighty won't let us meet....we won't slp at nite..
thinkin abt each other.....all night we cry.

The world ain't urs BABY !!!!!

2009-01-28T07:10:00.002-08:00

9 months in d womb n we r brought in d same way into this world.d same way we r loved n our wishes r fulfilled.we grow up n then d differences start.d sarcasm , d pretence , d superiorty complex.d every negative things, widout oneself realising.we expect to be better, better than others in every way, perfect in all d ways we can.to be d "one" in everything we do.but y do we forget tht human being r not all perfect.there's alys sumthing tht pulls us down.you ask for d perfect figues, you ask for d brains or u ask for d life of d perfect person u imagine but we forget they in a way suck too.we dunt know em.we just see d outer lives of them but if we get to know em....every person has d bitter part of their own.more or less d same as ours.every ppl stands in d same line only tht we dunt see d line.in every case we see us ourselves in d last n others in d front.each one feels d same.THE GRASS IS ALWAYS GREENER ON D OTHER SIDE.Never ever make d mistake to wish u lived sumone else's life only coz d person is rich n lives a happier life.d things may never seem d same.

i say IT SUCKS TO BE U DAMMIT !!!!! .... u r no way different than meh.just coz i failed doesnt make u superior than meh. maybe i dunt have that u had. LUCK !!!!! ....but d world goes around n cms around. i'll have my day n you dunt have what i have. THE WORLD AIN'T URS BABY !!!

The Real MEH !!!!!

2009-01-28T07:10:00.001-08:00

I'm all grown up...but i don't feel it right.there r so many things which i yet don't know n till feel like a child.So many things out there which makes meh wish i still was a child.Musn't let them see meh cry , musnt let em see meh lose coz m all grown up n wise.I can take care of myself ...i do say it to all ...but deep inside i say it to myself.i do need sumone...m too tired of all these things...n m too old to believe as to fairies n good things exists ....i watch d cartoons ...good things happenin ...miracles...smile at d end of d happy ending n wish what if life was like dis? but again m too wise n too old to believe in these......then i wish god y ain't a still a child? what's d need to grow up ? to realise d things...to get responsibilities? coz i try n it's so hard to believe.....i try but i cant stop wishin .....i try n i cant stop lukin at stars n wish.....

getting along wid life but still there's sumthing in meh tht holds meh back in mah childhood.....i still wanna watch cartoons. i still believe in god n wish things even then i know things dunt happen.....i wonder if he/she is dere....i believe in ghosts n believe they exists.i still get hurt in small things n cry in small things. i still want small things n when i dunt get it i cry ;) ....will i ever grow up ? Nyahhh tht's meh i guess....i will when i have to .....I shall still believe in stupid things tht may not exists n things tht r just a make belief.....i shall still get angry n forgive n be forgiven....i shall be Meh. Love meh or hate meh...i dunt care....tht's meh ....even if i lose or win in mah journey of life.I dunt wanna grow up. :)

O LA LA !!!!

2009-01-28T07:09:00.000-08:00

You smile even though ur heart aches....sumthing pulls u down ...sumthing so heavy still u rise high n make d effort to smile just to see d person u love HAPPY !!! You love d person , cant live widout him but still u wanna let go coz u feel sumthing is just not right....may be the thing u did for him was just not good enough.....Not enough for him to be happy.....You just completely fall apart when u talk wid him....coz u love him truely....dunt just wanna let him go.....No matter who broke ur heart or how betrayin it was u will never get through it widout d help of him !!!!
Are all d relationships based on lies n mutually accepted delusions? Pretense ? are all our lives based on tht ? we know what's inside us still we pretend n smile !!! The make beliefs n d pretence ...i cant drag it through d days.....m getting over it....but i dunt know how long can i go....i remember d day n i just break up inside.....What's holding meh back time n time....i try to move wid time but sumwhe sum part of meh is stuck behind....ummm a Grand gesture ? the Vague gesture? As if studyin MBBS is getting dramatic enough for meh all sorts of things happens wid meh....woah god am i d only person u see ?You alys seem to pull out d rug under meh whenever m so stable wid sumthing....do u enjoy doing it or what?