Anup Verma

RJ Anup, Radio Misty 94.3 FM - Siliguri (West Bengal)

2013-10-28T02:47:00.002-07:00

At NH 31 (Sevoke)

Anup is currently working with Radio Misty 94.3 FM (Siliguri, West Bengal) as a Radio Jockey and Producer. He is the host of Misty Dilse (Mon - Fri 8PM), Saturday Fever (Sat 4PM), Misty Unplugged (Sunday 3 PM), Misty top 20 (Sunday 9 PM) and previously he also hosted Yaadon ka album (Radio Story Telling) and Star of the week (A talk show).

A Lover's Rant..

2012-10-02T05:28:00.001-07:00

I realize this everyday when i have myself yearning for a smile to cross her face, i cant even explain the calm that it gives, it actually makes me feel some worth when i can make her smile. For sometime now I have not been really doing anything and lost all purpose in life, it was like I was falling into a never ending pit of darkness and was loosing myself to it. She came like a bright ray of light that tore apart that void of darkness and pulled me back into my senses. She is my muse of life. Everything i do in my life now is her. She is my goal, my destiny that I have chosen for myself. I don't think I have ever credited her fully for this but she is one of the reasons for my existence today.

I also wanted to admit something. I blabber a lot to her, that i am there for her and stuff but in truth i don't really do any of those, i am hardly ever capable of picking her up on her bad days, which i know is a big failure as a s/o. I know writing this story does not justify my mistake but it feels a little better admitting that. I wish that I could do better to keep her happy, its not that I don't try, but its just not enough and i don't know anymore being so far away what can i do.

Her happiness is something that I want more than anything else, even more than i want her. Its like her happiness is key to my happiness and i fail in that over and over again. I don't even know what I am saying anymore, i have all these feelings running through me right now. I am in a partial state of consciousness right now, feels like i am floating in some subspace of my mind.

I am all confused now.

I just know i am in love, deeply in love and i feel like I am failing terribly at everything related to it. And i want to say sorry for all of it and than her for giving me my life back...

I love you.

Things you MUST know about Lata Mangeshkar

2012-09-28T02:58:00.001-07:00

* The Royal Albert Hall, London has recorded the graph of Lata's voice with the help of a computer which is by far the "Most Perfect" in the World.

* Although Lataji attended school for a day, she has been awarded an Honorary Doctorate by 6 universities including the New York University.

* Lataji has been rated as the 2nd most Admired Indian after Atal Bihari Vajpayee (The Week-Mode opinion poll). She has also been Voted as The Most Important Indian of the 20th Century (Arts) in a Net Survey By IndiaWorld.com.

* Lata Mangeshkar's horoscope is among the ten most Powerful Horoscopes of the century in the country.

*After India’s losses in the India-China war in 1962,Lata had sung the song, Aye Mere Watan Ke Logon, Zara Aankh Me Bhar Lo Pani. The song, moved the then Indian Prime Minister, Jawaharlal Nehru, to tears and he confessed 'Beti toone mujhe rula diya'.

* Once when Lataji was 6 or 7, she was humming a tune to herself, suddenly she fell down and got unconscious. On regaining consciousness she started singing the same song from where she had stopped it on losing consciousness !!

* She has a permanent gallery reserved for her at the Lord's Stadium from where she enjoys watching her favourite game- Cricket.

* Photography has been one of her lesser known passions.

* At the age of two Lataji had an attack of Smallpox which made her to carry its marks to this day, she also suffers from an acute Sinus problem.

* Lata's Favourite :

Literary Works:- Khalil, Gibran, Chekov & Tolstoy
Classical Singers:- Ustad Bade Ghulam Ali Khan & Ustad Ameer Khan
Playback Singers:-K.L.Saigal & Noorjehan
Film Makers:- Guru Dutt, Bimal Roy & Satyajit Ray
Movies:- Padosan, Gone with the wind, Limelight & Titanic
Music Directors:- Madan Mohan, Salil Chowdhary & Jaidev
Lyricist:- Shailendra,Sahir Ludhianavi, Majrooh, Neeraj & Naksh Lyallpuri
Sports:- Cricket, Football & Tennis
Hobbies:- Photography & Cooking
Food:- Kolhapuri Mutton & Fried Fish with Tartar Sauce
Accessories :- Her Golden Payals
Indian City:- Mumbai
City:- New York
Colour:- White
Jewellery:- Diamonds
Festival:- Diwali

* Maximum Duets With
Male:-Mohd.Rafi (440) Kishore Kumar (327)
Female:- Asha Bhosle (74), Usha Mangeshkar (62), Geeta Dutt(34)

* Maximum Songs With
Music Directors:- Laxmikant Pyarelal (666), Shankar Jaikishen (453), R.D Burman (328)
Lyricist:- Anand Bakshi (700), Rajendra Krishan (554), Majrooh Sultanpuri (431)

* Lata always sings barefoot as a mark of respect to the platform where she sings.

* She Can sing in 3 Octaves, most singers can only sing in 2 octaves.

* Aayega Aanewala [Mahal](1949) is considered to be one of the biggest hits in Lata's career but The Gramaphone Company Of India gave the credit for the playback of this film to 'Kamini' which was the character Lata sang for, she is yet to be paid for this song.

* Naushad Saheb told Lata to imitate Noorjehan for the song 'Uthaye Ja Unke Sitam' [ANDAZ] (1949), he said "Achha Latabai Ab Apni Pakistani Behen Ko Yaad Kar Ke Yeh Gaana Gayiega."

* In 1985,Lata performed in a charity show in Toronto, this was the first time that a 3rd World Artiste performed for a 1st world charity organisation and collection of over $1,50,000 were made which Lata donated to the charity organisation.

* The secret of Lataji’s melodious voice lies not only in her talent but also in her strict discipline over her diet , so she eats a lot of Chillies preferably Kolhapuri chillies which add to the sweetness in her voice.

* To keep ourselves fit we exercise, go to the gym etc. but for Lataji its a different story altogether to keep her voice in shape she chews gum !! ,yes Chewing Gum.

* Like most actresses, Madhubala before signing any new film insisted that Lataji playback her songs. After all, 'Aayega Aanewala' immortalised the magical Madhubala's onscreen charisma.

* She has a liking for scents and perfumes especially the very Indian ‘Itr’. It is this liking for Itr which prompted the launch of Lata perfume which initially has its range of fruity tones which have been selected by Lata herself .

* In 1974, Lataji became the First Indian to have performed in the Royal Albert Hall, London

* 16th December, 1941 marked her first AIR broadcast, her father Deenanathji heard that broadcast in Pune and it moved him to tears. "Lata will take the family name further" is what he said on that day.

* Before singing any song Lataji writes the song in her own Hand-writing and starts by writing ‘Shri’ on top of the page.

* If reborn Lataji would want to be an Indian again and preferably a Maharashtrian but not again as a woman.

* In 1984, the Madhya Pradesh Goverment instituted the Lata Mangeshkar Puraskar in Lataji's honour.The award has been conferred to Anil Biswas, Naushad Ali, Kishore Kumar, Jaidev, Manna Dey, Asha Bhosle & Khaiyyam.

* Lata's small disputes
S.D.Burman: From 1958 to 1962 lata didn't sing for S.D.Burman due to a personal dispute.The Song 'Mora Gora Ang' [BANDINI] was sung after a resolution initiated by R.D.Burman
Mohd.Rafi: They didn't sing together for 3 years because of a fight on Royalties, S.D.Burman reunited them for 'Dil Pukare'[JEWEL THIEF]

* Nargis declared she never required glycerine to emote for Lataji's songs. How else can heartwrenching love be articulated than in 'Rasik Balma'.

* Bimal Roy once persuaded Salil da to sing a complex Bengali song Salil Chowdhary obliged and was alarmed to find that young Lata had fainted. She confesses, 'While listening to the song, I was overcome. I couldn't control myself'.

* 'Rasik Balma'[CHORI-CHORI] won the best song Filmfare Award, Lata refused to sing it live in protest of no playback category.

* She knows Urdu as well as her mother tongue Marathi.

* She has never sung for O.P.Nayyar & has never performed in Goa even though she hails from a small hamlet Mangeshi in Goa.

* Despite being of a shy persona, Lataji is a good mimic and likes telling jokes.

* Of all the actresses, Lataji feels her voice suits Saira Banu the most. .

* Lataji loves getting small gifts from friends and family, Greeting Cards are her favourite.

* Lataji was first named as 'Hema' according to her birth date, she was nicknamed 'Hridaya' by her father, the name Lata was used later.Although, the family surname was Hardikar, it was Lata's father who adopted the surname Mangeshkar, since the family hails from a small village, Mangeshi, in Goa.

* The very talented Asha Bhosle revealed that there are no negative vibes between the two sisters (Lata & Asha), they are considering a worldwide tour together in the near future. This would definitely be a blockbuster tour, as both sisters have a huge following all over the world.

* Lata Mangeshkar has undertaken a colossal hospital project to immortalise the memory of her father. For the purpose the Lata Mangeshkar Medical Foundation was formed.

* Dinanathji also owned a studio in Sangli,Maharashtra.

* Satyajit Ray & Lataji are the only two people who have received both the Bharat Ratna & the Dada Saheb Phalke Award.

* Lataji is the 5th Woman to receive the Bharat Ratna, the other four are Indira Gandhi, Mother Teresa, Aruna Asaf Ali & M.S.SubuLaxmi.

Random Pictures From My Facebook Account - RJ Anup Radio Misty 94.3fm

2012-09-07T10:12:00.001-07:00

On Saraswati Puja

19th Birthday.. :)

New Year 2010 at orchid (last day with Radio High)

With School Friend Ravi

Tribute to John Mayer

Live at TownHall

Bike ride with friends

Live in Prison

With Office mates

Live in prison

With Monchu

Monchu Panchu and Anup (me)

One of my favourite bollywood singer rockstar Suraj Jagan

Good Friend Radha(anuradha)

With RJ Manisha at city center

Valentines Day at city center

Raksha bandhan at Prison

Matargashti with friends

Event at city center, siliguri

with friends

gang of sharif kaminey

with friends

Live in Prison

I Love The People Associated With Me In My Life

2012-07-31T10:02:00.002-07:00

Waking in the morning to falling asleep at night and then into dreams. If I am unhappy, crying, or down. You would never know that I see people and life the way I do. I have a hidden passion for living things and life in itself. I am not one to judge others based on their appearance or what they do. You may be confused as I say this because although I do separate myself from people who do awful things, I still have a sense about them that draws me to still care. Just because I get angry at some does not mean I am hateful. I seldom admit to loving others for who they are.

I have learned that everyone has a story and mind of their own. We often forget this and treat others wrongfully.

In my path I have learned all souls deserve a chance no matter if they think like us or not. Each has their own. If they effect us with their wrong doings we must not hate, but forgive. Life has a balance. There is good in all of us and it is as common as the bad. Learning to accept this isn't easy but once you do, you become more.

I promise to never hurt anyone no matter how upset I may be. I will never turn down a friend in need. I will always look for the good in you. I will remain hopeful. I will continue to see this world as a wonderful spirit in itself no matter the destruction it may ever face. I will continue to love others for who they are. If they make the wrong choice, if they are poor, sad, lonely, sick, disfigured, or deceased, I will always love them just the same. I have promised myself this. This is my promise.

There comes a time in our life's where our eyes open. We are shown truth through all we have lived through. You learn so much. You learn that there is no longer room for hate and finally we push aside our petty differences. I see a light in this world. its one of trust, loyalty, beauty, life, and love.

I am dumbfounded yet embracing this at the same time. I have truly learned to love life, people, and everything surrounding.

Rude People

2012-07-20T08:51:00.000-07:00

I do NOT understand why some people feel the need to be rude to other people. Isn't there enough unnecessary drama in the world? Why add to it by being mean and viscious to each other?

Who made you judge and jury anyway? Who are you to judge another person for their lifestyle? Each person has only one life to live, why shouldn't they be allowed to live it in whatever way that makes THEM happy? Why do you feel that they should live their life to YOUR standards? It's THEIR life. Not yours. Let them live it as they please. Everyone has the right to be happy, even if they have to achieve that in a way that you yourself wouldn't. They're not in this life to make you happy.

I say, worry about your own life and your own happiness and stay out of everyone elses back yard...

Spent Shells

2012-07-20T08:49:00.001-07:00

"With friends like these, who needs enemies?" So the old English proverb goes.
I could never decide which is worse, an enemy who goes out of their way to let you know how disliked you are, or a 'frenemy' - a so called friend who puts you down behind your back, but is sweet as pie to your face.
I don't consider myself perfect, and I admit I have done things that have been wrong and have upset people, but I have never done anything venonmous to anyone. It isn't in my heart to. But through life, we live and learn. It's impossible to avoid those who want to cause us harm in some way.

While writing this post I have many faces in my mind. They are just empty, hateful shells of people. To hell with them.

I'm a writer

2012-07-20T08:40:00.003-07:00

I'm a writer. I could write a million stories, all with happy endings. I could make realistic fairytales. I'm a writer, I can do anything with a pen and a piece of paper. I could make a story about two lovers, who end up together despite any struggles they might have. I could write about finding love in an unlikely place. I could write a million stories of love. Each with the perfect ending. I'm a writer, and writing I can do, but that's all I can do. And at the end of the day all I have are words on a piece of paper. I have lies. I have things that are made up in my mind. Things like you and me. I could write a story about you and me. But if I do, I can't write a happy ending. I can't put us together. I can't have that fairytale.
I'm a writer. I could write a million stories, all with happy endings. All one million but one. The story of us, it doesn't, it didn't, and it will never have a chance. I'm a writer, and I hate the story of us. I can't write a new one, if I could, we'd have the perfect ending. We'd have the sun set while holding hands. We'd have the love that we could show each other through just one look. If I could change it, I'd give us the chance. The chance that fate never gave us. Then, I'd spend my whole life living the best story I've ever written. If I could have the chance; I'd write us.

lot to say

2012-07-20T08:20:00.001-07:00

I have a lot to say, and sometimes it's not what some want to hear. I am normally very positive about my life but to some this is a negative. I choose not to allow those persons to rain on my parade. So to those that feel others’ words aren’t just right or that they cut into you like a knife then I say take heed because although that person most likely is NOT talking to you or about you, through your paranoid mind you assume their words are meant for you. Have you ever assumed that this is because you see yourself in the words and find yourself on the defense?

Yes, I have a lot to say so I won’t hold it in for anyone else. I couldn’t care less if it touches a few nerves because I have a lot to say.

Kuch dost Bohot Yaad aate Hain

2012-07-09T05:11:00.003-07:00

Jab Yaadon Ki kitaab kholun
to Kuch dost Bohot Yaad aate Hain
Mai guzre dino ki Sochu to
Kuch dost Bohot Yaad aate Hain
Ab Jany Kis Nagri Me,
Soye Pade Hain Muddat Se
Me Raat Gaye Thakk Jagoon to,
Kuch dost Bohot Yaad aate Hain
Kuch Baten Thi Phoolon jaisi,
Kuch Khushbo Jaise Lehzy the
Mai yaadon ke bagiche Me Tehloon to
Kuch dost Boht Yaad aate Hain
Wo Pal Bhar ki Narazgian or
Maan Bhi Jana pal Bhar Me
Me Khud Se Jab bhi Roothun to
Kuch dost Bohot Yaad aate hain...

The Haircut

2012-06-29T04:31:00.005-07:00

Female version:

First Woman: Oh, you got a haircut! That's so cute!

Second Woman: Do you think so? I wasn't sure when she gave me the mirror. I mean, you don't think it's too fluffy-looking?

First Woman: Oh God, no! No, it's perfect. I'd love to get my hair cut like that, but I think my face is too wide. I'm pretty much stuck with it how it is, I think.

Second Woman: Are you serious? I think your face is adorable. And you could easily get one of those layer cuts-that would really suit you. I was going to do that except that I was afraid it would accentuate my long neck.

First Woman: What's wrong with your neck? I would love to have a neck like yours: anything to take attention away from my awful shoulder line.

Second Woman: Are you kidding? I know girls that would love to have your shoulders. Everything hangs so well on you. "You're like a walking fashion
catalogue.But look at my arms - see how short they are? If I had your shoulders, I could get clothes to fit me so much easier.

Male version:

First Man: Haircut?

Second Man: Yeah.

We Can Still Control Our Fears..

2012-06-27T08:57:00.003-07:00

God created us with a small heart, filled with feelings and love, but he balanced them with a wise and deep mind.
Im one of those who are scared to love, even scared to trust, because in every time, i end up by being hurt. So i decided no to love again, and not to trust anyone, because i've been hurt enough. But let us think about it, is it the right decision? Well, i dont think so.
Everyone deserves a second chance, even us, because we shouldnt judge from our experiences, but we should learn from them, so that we take more care in the next times.
Well, i know we cant control our feelings, but im sure we can control our minds, we should show up strong and love with our full hearts, and just ignore our fears, because we cant avoid being hurt, whether it was because of love or because of other things.
I saw a post on my Facebook News feed by one of my friend that said "im not single, im reserved for the one who deserve". I guess thats the story of my life.

I Help Because It Feels Right

2012-06-27T08:44:00.001-07:00

I also enjoy helping people in need or help people realize that they might need help to overcome something. I care too much some would say, but would that change me in helping people? No. I simply help and talk to others how are; lonely, depressed, or just need a friend to talk to. I have 2 good ears, and an open mind. I've help many people onair, on FB and people offline too, but I want to do more. Its an idea that seems unreachable at the moment, but my hopes and plans that I have may make it closer than it appears. There's so much I want to say, but my mind has gone blank lol. i want to be like someone, who remains unnoticed but helps others who really need help. I just find it so much easier to help someone then it is to just ignore that they need help and keep moving on. sometimes im self conscious and help because im worried about people thinking i have some other motive then just trying to be helpful but thats only with bosses or someone who is really attractive (xoxoxo). hope this inspires people to help more!
If anyone ever needs a friend or someone to just let stuff out on, I'll listen and only give advice if you ask for it :)

Apology - To whom it may concern

2012-06-18T09:07:00.000-07:00

This is so hard to write i don't know if i should be funny or serious but here goes. I am so very sorry to you. I am very sorry for those instances when I have been rude to you. There have been so many misunderstandings between us. I apologize for the hurtful, harmful, dishonest and reckless things I've done in my life, to others and to myself, out of not knowing how to love and accept myself. I apologize also to my self for the countless hours I've wasted stewing and being angry and bitter and refusing to forgive. I am truly sorry.

I apologize for losing my-self as I prefer and pay attention to other external happenings. I apologize for not responding to myself more. I apologize for not taking the care I know I am capable of. I apologize for cutting down my joy significantly so that I can fit in to this world. I apologize for not being able to believe that I am made solely of love. I am sorry that I close my heart when I get afraid. I am sorry that your invitations for closeness scare me and make me want to run away. I am sorry if I disapointed or hurt you in the end. I apologize to anyone whom I have treated in a demeaning way. Please forgive me.

I'm sorry for all that stupid mistake that I made. And for those harsh words that I yelled. Those hurting arguments and tears that flowed on your cheeks. I'm sorry to hurt you at the time that I shouldn't do. I'm sorry to make you lost your temper to my foolishness. I'm sorry to call you "annoying" **I can't help it that time, you just are haha. (juss kiddin)No offence** I'm sorry to make you deal with my child-like personality. Yeah I was so childish. Yet you still be friend with me. Thank you for that and sorry for sometimes I didn't treat you like my best friend. Sorry for all the ignorance. I'm so proud to have a friend as smart as you. haha. ** ehh ehh don't blush now** Oh yea... Thanks for talking to me in the middle of night when I have problems. i'm sorry to make you sleep so late. :P

I don't know how to describe this feeling but when it comes to my friends *including you*.. I feel so hard to be separated from you... not just you.. all my friends too. ? I know I've done so many wrongdoings on you. Forgive me. :'( Thanks for being my friend again. Truly.. I can't take control of everything. People come and go, but memories stay. And I'm afraid that will haunted me for all my life. I'm afraid if I can't let my friend go on their own way. Including you. From the guy that always pissed you off.

Unanswered Questions

2012-06-13T03:51:00.002-07:00

I sit and wonder how countries emerged,
How did these invisible boundaries surge..
Who gave men the right to claim,
Putting God’s own view of a united world to shame…

How is it that visa’s are denied to some,
And still they have the audacity to write ‘welcome’ !
They need bank statements to check whether you can sustain,
Oh – he’s gonna go to your country and beg his living – you think people are Insane?

Who defined what’s right and wrong,
Is it people with influence all along?
Pay your taxes for a better living,
Potholes, inflation, in return where is the giving?

How to complicate these simple facts?
Divert the people to something that attracts…
In the rat race chaos who wants tensions,
Is ignorance bliss to these unanswered questions?

Music and Moods

2012-06-13T03:49:00.001-07:00

People say music is life,
And every moment they live with it,

Moments of past,
and moments of truth,
Moments that last,
The moments of youth...

Listening to slow progressive,
feeling an adreline rush,
Whats life got to give,
wanna speak but also wanna hush...

Sometimes people are rude,
And things go haywire,
Emotions and different moods,
Sometimes make things dire..

Live life the way you want to,
there are things which will come along,
life & music will take you through,
there is nothing right or wrong...

Emotions

2012-06-13T03:48:00.002-07:00

There has always been this debate,
The girl asks the guy why are you late?
What happened to all the times when she made the guy wait,
The times that I speak of - are the times when they were on a date..

The girl always says - why are you insensitive,
The guy always has the opinion - my life let me live,
No matter how much the guy tries to give,
A small little thing and the girl takes ages to forgive..

Why on a date, does the guy always pay?
If he's silent - she says u never have anything to say,
I'm still waiting for that very day,
When girls understand - the guy cares in every way!

Dosti - Anup Verma

2012-06-10T07:02:00.001-07:00

A song written and composed my me dedicated to all my friends.. recorded on a special occasion or call it a get together.. sorry for the bad audio quality, this video was recorded on mobile phone and plus i had some problem with my vocals(cold).

Week Ends Fun Starts

2012-05-31T08:18:00.001-07:00

We decided to go on a casual road trip one night over dinner, because all of us needed a break from both work and studies. And all conveniently agree to the idea of needing a break. So last minute decision - to Rongthong.

Rongthong is famous for Momos and beautiful view of the city and hills. Actually there are some more reason but I'm not aware about them. So, everything was set a day full of masti and maza. Me, Pankaj, Honey, Rohit, Rahul, Alok, Komal, Shweta and Rohit. There was one more guy but I dont know his name all I know that he was my friend Honey's Friend.

The plan was perfect, everything were in place but suddenly arrives a natural disaster "RAIN". Of course we love rain but that time we didn't wanted rain because our plan was at stake.
One by one the probablities were getting lesser. Rohit denied, Pankaj had some important work, Rain etc etc. Yet we started our trip but we had to decide what to do and How to do. After deciding, Ignition ON Full Throtle and here we go........

it was so fun and wasn’t too expensive, which made for a great little getaway.

Rohit and pankaj joined us inbetween. The journey was good and clean.

I had a really awesome time with my friends; enjoyable, fruitful and fun.

Even though it's a bit short and rush, I still had heaps of fun.

Thanks for the company and entertainment provided! :D

Im sharing some videos of the day.

SUICIDE ATTEMP...

Zindagi se pareshaan mera dost alok aka kanahiya ne faisla kar hi liya, ke ab ye duniya, ye mehfil uske kisi kaam ki nahi. ek alag duniya me kadam rakhne ka faisla usne kar hi liya. Wo duniya jo har kisi ki manzil hai, wo duniya jaha hum sabhi ko ek na ek din zaroor jana hai chahe hum apni marzi se jaaye ya nahi. Fark nahi parta!

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BHOOT AAYA....

Kehte hai ghana jungle khatarnaak hota hai, har tarah ke khatre hote hai waha. Chahe kisi khatarnaak jaanwar ka khatra ya kisi khatarnaak katil ka khatra. Lekin ek aisa khatra jiss se darte hum sabhi hai lekin aaj tak saamna nahi hua; Bhoot, pret, atma ka khatra. Kab kaha aajaye kya pata. Aur kab kisi ke sarir me pravesh kar jaye, kya bharosa.

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THE BEGINNING

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THE JOURNEY - BAS YUN HI

The Reason Is You

2012-05-23T09:48:00.001-07:00

I really screwed over someone. It took a while for me to realize what I did, maybe I was not healthy emotionally. But this song put's into words what I can't describe. Since She made me realise, I have come to know what a horrific thing I did and if there was some way I could take it all back I would do it in a heartbeat. She is one of the best person I have ever known. With is song I feel I can become perfect person and she is the reason of this energetic feeling. The song is the perfect appology for mistakes made in friendship or it can be a relationship. It allows me to realize that I am not perfect and I don't have to beat myself up forever but, as an intelligent and loving person, I have a responsibility to myself and to those in my life to learn and improve...

I remember the first time I heard this song ages ago and I loved it. I've heard this song more than a hundered times before but never thought much about it till today. This song is true. Sometimes I think I'm not a perfect person for anyone but I know I can be a better person for someone. This song means a great deal to me.

Lyrics

"The Reason - Hoobastank"

"The Reason"

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

What Is Love

2012-05-15T05:33:00.001-07:00

Love... we talk about it, say it, and feel it.

But, in relationships it is valuable to behave with love, to experience love, to interact in love.

"Love, as a word, is memorialized in countless books, movies, poems, and musical compositions. While there are many definitions of love, its essence, when used as a verb, can be captured in a few phrases: to care for, to cherish, to respect, to honor, to show an interest in, to value, or to treat with kindness."

~Francine Ward

Falling Out Of Love

2012-05-15T05:30:00.000-07:00

People who "fall out of love" can indeed fall back in love.

It happens all the time.

Occasionally I hear people want to end relationships because they have "fallen out of love".

They just don't feel what they once felt hence think the relationship must end so they can find someone else who they truly love.

My response to this is that, most often, "falling out of love" really means, a couple hasn't invested in the relationship in a way to keep love alive and vibrant.

Now, of course there are times where a couple has moved into two different worlds and has no interest in coming together, or a couple finds the relationship unhealthy, and therefore believe it is in the best interest to separate.

But, more often then not, a couple can absolutely rekindle that spark if they want to, and if they are willing to nurture the relationship.

I use the plant analogy a lot but it applies to this situation... if a plant is not given the nutrients it needs to survive it will die. Similarly if a relationship is not given nourishment it too will wilt and ultimately die. But, even a wilted plant can come back to life if given sunlight, water, and healthy soil.

And, the love that was once in a relationship can also come alive again with the proper care. In truth, often couples find their new found love is even stronger and more powerful than previously, and that overcoming the challenge brought them together in new more amazing ways.

To create a vibrant healthy relationship does take time, energy, and determination. It takes a willingness on both parties to move toward love. And it takes knowing that one can, again, fall in love.

Pal Pal Har Pal (Pal = Friend)

2012-05-07T09:33:00.004-07:00

Throughout my life, my friends have always been there for me... they have helped me to maintain my stability and happiness. They always help me when I'm in trouble and they share my joy when I am happy. They are like candlelights that brighten up my way by providing me with their priceless advice. Some of them are so close to me that I even consider them a part of my family.

each of those moments was special because they were there to share them with me... Now that I've said this, I guess it would be better for me to tell YOU a litlle bit more about each of them.

(I will have pics of each of them soon)

Subhojit Ghosh(bonny)

If what you are looking for is fun and an awesome person to share your life with... go with Bonny He is always hyper and full of joy to give to his friends and we love to talk and basically chill together. He is one of my best friends and he knows how important he is in my life. We've spent the coolest moments together!! Everyone that knows me in person knows exactly how much I talk abut him and how important he has been in my life. With Bonny I not only found true friendship... I also discovered the real meaning of love. He loves a girl since high school and trust me he haven't fallen for anyone else. He is by far the most amazing and mysterious person I have met in my life. Bonny: thanx for giving me some of the best moments of my whole life... and eventhough we might seem to be separated, you know that deep down we'll always be one.

Pankaj Agarwal

Pankaj and I have gone through soooo much in the last couple of years. We have laughed and cried, but most importantly we have grown immensely from each other's company. He is one of the most admirable and passionate people I know and I love him dearly. Thank you Gotiya for bringing the sunshine into my life.

Shweta Agarwal(rajnikant)

I consider her to be one of the most influential friends. She taught me millions of things, and you can thank her for who I am now. We had big big fights and when i say BIG its really BIG. She understands almost everything and sometimes this is the thing that i didnt really liked about her but now i know thats the best part of her. There is no one like her. She thinks she doesn't knows me but i can assure her one think, at this moment if there is a girl(friend) on earth who knows me very well, its Shweta. With Shweta I spent incredible moments & she is the one who knows everything about me... hehehe I know many things about her also.... She loves music and dancing... Shweta is a happy person who would give everything to someone she cares for. I call her Rajnikant for a reason and she knows that.

Honey Singh

When you move to a new locality the last thing you expect is to find friends that are so valuable and important that fast. When I moved here(punjabi para) I met Honey the 2nd day of Apna Utsav, and since then we started this journey of happiness and adventure called friendship. He has become more than a friend to me, he's always there when I need him and with a smile to share when I'm sad. We have fun everytime when we are together, it's like if magic surrounded us and made of that moment a special one everytime. I'm so thankful that destiny placed this brother cum friend in my life because I know we have something that will last 4ever. Sardaar: I just wanna thank you for being always by my side and for just being you... yOu kIcK aSs!!!

Rohit Sharma(kanji)

Definately one of the coolest dudes I have ever met. With Rohit I've spent the coolest and craziest times of my life. We get so hyper together it's not even funny. I am really glad he is a part of my life because he is a really good friend, who is always willing to listen to you when you need him. We are "work out" partners and our goal is to build 6 pack to show off our muscular bodies [yeah right!!] hehehe... He is really an honest guy and can never tell a lie. I count on him and respect him a lot.!

Komal Chugh

Komal is one of the most authentic human beings I have met in my life. Although we haven't spent much time together but yet she has demonstrated how much she is worth time and time again and has never disappointed me. Therefore, she occupies a very special place in my heart, and with her I've spent some of the best times EVER! Thanx Komal for always putting a smile on my face. I love Ya!

Shiwam Prasad(mota)

Shiwam is one of the best friends I have ever had. We shared the coolest times together... I mean... I hardly ever connect with someone in so many levels as I did with him. He was always there for me... and I think we both really grew up thanks to each other's company. We were inseparable in secondary school... and although he is enjoying the good life right now... I know that deep down we will always be tight. Shiwam... thanx for helping me to express my true self... U R Awesome!

Arannya Bhaduri(guddu)

I met Guddu at High FM about a year ago... but somehow it seems like I've known him for a lifetime. He is what I call a TRUE friend. He is always there for me when I need a shoulder to lean on. Guddu is a very talented Artist and a very passionate and goal driven individual. I know there are great things waiting for Guddu in the future... and I definately hope I will be by His side to share them with him.

Hemant Agarwal

Hemant is one of the wickedest guys I've ever met. We basically started hanging out, but in this very short time period he has shown me what a true friendship is. When we are together, we can talk about anything and just chilling is AWESOME! He has become my best friend and hopefully this will last 4ever. Love ya Man

Rahul Garg(idly)

"Chota Packet Bada Dhamaka". I guess this would be the perfect term to define him. I have no idea how we became good friends but one thing i want to say about him.. He is one little MAN. There is a saying "Never judge a book by its cover", once when you get to know rahul; you will agree to this saying. When i was ill and hospitalised, there was not a single day when he didn't came to my home or hospital to see me. I owe him a lot. A sweet and kind friend.

Anand Kanu(hawas ka pujari)

Anand is a very clever guy, he met me when I was in High FM, and since then we became very good friends, we use to talk about lots of things, and we shared one of the best moments in our lives... and then suddenly.... time was a bad friend.... we had to split because his training with high fm was over but when i moved to Radio Misty and since then our friendship tirned to a great friendship. He likes computers, flirting with girls... he likes to read and enjoys writing poetry and stories...

Smiti Tamang(munni)

Smiti is the sweetest thing! At first when I saw her, I was amazed, she was really gorgeous but few months back she told me that we we saw each other for the first time she thought i was a very egostic person. One of the most amazing thing about our friendship is that since we became friends, WE NEVER MET. Yes we didn't. Recently she got married and i really wanted to be with her on that very special day of her life but for some reason i couldn't. We support and help each other a lot (i guess so). She is a sweet girl and loves dancing a lot. Her husband really cares for her, I never met him in person or had a word with him but i know he Does.for the longest time I thought she hated me and that she was glaring at me, but then I got to know her and discovered the sweet and caring girl behind those glares. We've had so much fun together, like grad and our tanning sessions. Thanks Emily for always being there for me and for worrying about me, XoXo

P.S. Still there lots of friends about whom i am writing and will update this post soon.

I Dream

2012-05-03T10:14:00.000-07:00

I can go to a place from my past in my dreams. Sometimes I want to see someone so badly, that I make them appear in my dreams. I will have conversations with my grand father, who died many years ago. Sometimes, the people seem so real, but other times they are so distant. For example, quite often I tell the people in my dreams that I am currently dreaming them, and they just stare at me. It is like I just burst their bubble, and they don't want to believe me....

I am Me

2012-05-03T10:06:00.000-07:00

People get surprised after they know the real me... well i didn't ask them to expect i m prefect or angle, i m who i am, not more or less.

people think of me high, well its nice and good to be prefect at the eyes of ppl but then when they know the real you the get surprised. Because they want you to be someone you r are not. when ppl see me they think i m gentle, family guy, not social, religious well i m not i m fun guy, romantic, very social, i like to let loose i m very open person and one thing they never expect i m single...

Well ppl i come as package take it or leave it. ... Kind Of Obvious... but just to make it perfectly clear, I'm not who I'm not :)