Блогът на Марина Колева - Just Marcheto, без етикети

В очакване на бебе №2

2024-12-12T18:38:00.000+02:00

Дните се нижат и ти се струва, че все по-бавно се влачат дори, а всъщност 9 месеца минават като няколко кратки мига, от които остават понякога само малко бледи спомени...

Аз не съм особено търпелив човек и както не исках да чакам до последно предния път, така не желая да чакам и този. Термин 21 декември - не ми допада, не искам на празниците да съм в родилното. Дори и да съм, важното е да сме здрави. Имам си и други доводи обаче.

Моето първо раждане завърши със спешно секцио. Не успях да родя първото си дете по естествен път и колкото и глупаво да звучи, това ме кара да се чувствам по-малко жена. Като че ли, щом с тази напълно нормална женска природна даденост не съм се справила, значи с какво мога да се справя?! Изключително лесно се залита в тази посока на самообвиненията, че не ставаш за нещо, а всъшност е хубаво да се поспрем веднага щом ни мине тази мисъл през главата и вместо това да си изброим всички неща с които сме успели.

Сред моите постижения след онова първо раждане има за какво да се хвана:

- кърменето се получи и беше основен метод на хранене докато имаше нужда от мляко;

- възстанових се изключително бързо и успешно след секциото, благодарение на това, че бързо преминах в активна фаза;

- бебеносих активно и благодарение на това имах много повече спокойствие от очакваното в трудните нощи и дните, в които не можех да излизам с тежката количка.

Получиха ми се и доста други работи, но пък да не се хвалим прекалено, защото всеки родител би казал - разликата от дете до дете е голяма.

Та... на прага на второто ми раждане отново смятам да опитам то да се случи нормално. С ясното съзнание, че вероятността да се наложи отново да ме срежат не е никак малка. Но пък да помислим за алтернативата - някога, когато бебето просто не е можело да излезе какво се е случвало с майката, с бебето? Повечето от нас са гледали "Домът на дракона", развоят на събитията е ясен.

Нека само сме здрави двамата с бебето, с другото ще се справяме, както можем. :)

Да съживим това пространство

2024-12-07T22:52:00.000+02:00

Първите ми публикации в този блог датират от 2010 година - годината, в която завърших гимназия. Анализирайки цялото си присъствие във виртуалното пространство, виждам, че тогава подходът ми е бил доста погрешен - исках да споделям тук своя прогрес в рисуването и това да бъде един вид виртуално ателие.

За 14 години свърших много неща, но малко от тях биха могли да бъдат поставени с етикет "Изкуство" и разбирам, че всъщност въобще като цяло ми е доста трудно да поставям такива на всичко, с което съм се захващала. Ето защо този път съм решила просто да изливам тук думите, които насъбирам и не знам къде да сложа. Защото социални мрежи имаме за всичко - имам профил и страница за рисуването си, имам профил като графичен дизайнер в LinkedIn, имам свой личен профил във Facebook и Instagram, както и още куп други профили из различни платформи, които имат една или друга функция. И колкото повече контакти чрез тях съм натрупала през годините, толкова повече се въздържам да пиша и споделям разни неща из тях, защото ги смятам за неуместни.

Защо не пиша в дневник, както правят нормалните хора? Да, аз пиша за себе си, но нямам нищо против да срещна съмишленици по пътя си, ако по някаква нелепа и странна причина са попаднали именно на моите писаници и са намерили нещо полезно и интересно за себе си.

Тук не смятам да се ограничавам в темите, които ме интересуват. Вероятно до голяма степен ще бъда погълната от майчинството, предвид това, че очаквам второто си дете, едва ли не всеки момент да се пръкне на този свят, но се надявам, че с този блог ще имам и една възможност за отдушник в следващите месеци, които несъмнено ще са вълнуващи, но и изтощителни.

05.03.2013

2013-03-05T19:51:00.000+02:00

Demon

2013-02-22T19:28:00.001+02:00

Demon; Photoshop

JUst a fun portrait of my boyfriend :D

22.02

2013-02-22T17:24:00.000+02:00


Portrait; Size A5

Portraits

2013-02-21T08:48:00.001+02:00

Portrait of a friend with white acrylic and pen; 2013

Portrait of a friend, Photoshop; 2013

Project for portrait, pencil; 2013

Self-portrait, Photoshop; 2012

Portrait of a friend, pencil; 2013

Portrait of my sister, Photoshop; 2013

Portrait of a friend, pencil and pastel; 2013

I`m drawing more often lately, because I feel I could forget how to do it if I`m always busy for that. So I try to find time and be productive :)

New works

2013-02-21T08:36:00.001+02:00


Landscape, acrilyc on canvas panel; 2012

Winter, acrilyc on canvas panel; 2012

Crow drawing, pencil; 2013

A few new works

2012-02-18T18:44:00.001+02:00

Here some works from my last semester, it`s not much, but I will show you maybe later the other ones. I don`t have much time to draw. Actually I don`t have any time for anything lately. Just the academy projects and zero time for personal works.

This is from me for now, I hope I`ll have more time soon to post again.

Some studies

2011-11-19T13:31:00.001+02:00

You saw this already, but this is a better photo of it.


Practice of my attention to details, I`m not satisfied with the result actually

Back to the Academy

2011-10-12T22:52:00.000+03:00

I`m second year in the Academy now and you can see how we work :)


50/70; oil on cardboard

And here it is my friend Vili:

And here we are the whole group! We were 7 last year but some things happened and now we`re just 3, but we really have so much fun together:

Besides drawing in the Academy, I don`t have a time for that right now. I started a job and my whole life is so intensive in the moment. It`s hard to work and study at the same time, but I`ll get use to it, or I hope I will. :)

Self-portrait 03/09/2011

2011-09-04T22:39:00.001+03:00

Self-portrait; pencil 5B on paper; size A5

I really think this is one of my best in likeness :)

Gift

2011-08-21T09:21:00.000+03:00

Gouache on paper; Size 9/13cm

This was a birthday present for one of my best friends. On the picture is she with her boyfriend as caricatures. I should do things like that more often, it`s funny :)

Meanwhile I made some photos of me these days and I can show the results here:

Self-portrait 13/08/2011

2011-08-15T12:15:00.000+03:00

Gouache on paper; Size A5

I really like how that turned out. On that work you can see my favourite stuff like books, my dog, painting etc.
Something similar as idea is one of the recent photos which I took:

I had to do some changes in Photoshop, because the photo itself has a bad quality, because my camera is broken and I`m using the camera of my new phone, which is not so bad, but still... it`s not the same...
By the way, I`m planing to make some photos with my old Konica Pop camera, we`ll see what would happen ;). Just these days I`m a little obsessed with photography :)

Self-portrait 24/07/2011

2011-07-25T23:38:00.001+03:00

Self-portrait; gouache

Another one self-portrait for practice. :)

Virgin Mary with baby Jesus

2011-07-25T23:33:00.000+03:00


Virgin Mary with baby Jesus; Size 10/15cm

Finally I`ve did it! This is my first real icon and I made it with egg tempera on wood. I`m very happy with the result and I hope you like it too.
For first attempt I`ve used this reference. In that kind of art you just can`t draw whatever you want, there is canons, so I`m going to make copies for now.

Close-up

With a feather

2011-07-16T17:50:00.001+03:00


Self-portrait with a feather; 40/50cm; pencil on paper

The latest art from me

2011-07-10T10:00:00.000+03:00

Ok, in this post I will show you my works from the second semester in the academy:

These are some of my drawings, with the woman figure I`m not really satisfied, but I`m glad that I had the chance to draw nude male, because I don`t really have many male drawings. The third one turned out good, I think. :)

Well, this is it for now, but soon I will post something new and guess on what I`m working now? Ha, that`s right, another self-portrait! :D And also one little orthodox icon, this art is really captivating!

Have a great summer!

Summer time

2011-07-08T10:45:00.000+03:00

Hello again! Let me tell you what`s going around me lately:

1. My first year in the academy is over with good results on the exams. I was a little worry for the chemistry, but I had luck to get an easy theme to speak. It`s passed now and I`ll not worry for exams until february. :)

2. I was on practice in The Rila Monastery for 2 weeks and I should tell you, if you`re coming to Bulgaria, visit this monastery, because it`s magical place. You can find more information for it here. And stay for the night there, it`s very different then. So that was 2 weeks without television, internet and mirrors! Very refreshing it was. As for the work, if you see some tourist photos from there with some people working on the gates with brushes and instruments, probably one of them is me. :) We were like the animals in the zoo, big attraction. Here is some photos from the practice:

We restored some of the scenes on the gates. I worked on The Samokov Gate.

3. I want to show you also my works from academy. I`m pretty satisfied with the copy of the orthodox icon, not so happy with my mural techniques, but I will do better next year.
Here it is my copies of icons - technological and fully copy:

My mural techniques:

And the drawings and paintings I`ll show on single post. ;)

End of second semester

2011-05-18T08:06:00.000+03:00

Well, I`m studying for the exams, I`m finishing all school projects... Eventually I will post them here. This year I`ve learned a lot for murals(I actually did a few techniques) and for technological part of painting on wood and canvas. I`m making at the moment copy of Christian icon in orthodoxy style. I quit my job, so I can take my time to study. At the end of June we`re going to have a practice in church or monastery. I`m very excited about that! It will be fun, I`m sure for this. When the summer vacation comes, I promise to update more often this blog with personal drawings. :)
So, I think this is the new from me. ;)

Here is one of my friend from the academy. I was bored by our model in drawing classes, so I draw the 2 of my colleagues while they drawing:

Venelina & Violeta; 50/70cm

New self-portraits

2011-04-09T23:03:00.000+03:00

I have a 2 new personal works from that week.
I have a new shoes and I decided to paint on them. What do you think about the result?

And the second is from today:

Self-portrait; Acrylic on cardboard

So busy...

2011-02-20T13:27:00.000+02:00

I don`t have much time for personal drawings, but I can show 2 works from last week. I`m really trying to improve my drawing from photos. :)

Oil on cardboard; 20/25cm

Reference here.


Oil on cardboard; 20/25cm

Reference here.

Violet

2011-02-07T22:48:00.000+02:00

One work, which I started before some time, but I didn`t finish it until today. It wasn`t even violet at the beginning, but I like how it turned out.
Reference here.

~2h in Photoshop CS 2

Portrait of Venelina

2011-02-02T19:47:00.000+02:00

Just one portrait of a friend. I like her features and wanted to draw her. :)


~2h in Photoshop CS 2

A little practice

2011-01-28T22:38:00.000+02:00

~2-3h in Photoshop CS 2

Reference here.
I like how it turned out even if there isn`t much likeness.

End of semester

2011-01-24T19:57:00.000+02:00

The end of the first semester of my first year in National Academy of Arts, Sofia is coming. So, this semester we draw one model mostly. I`m submitting my drawings of her, I hope you will like them. :)

Drawing 1; 46/55cm

Drawing 2; 46/55cm

Drawing 3; 46/55cm

Drawing 4; 46/55cm

Oil; 46/55cm

Drawing 5; 50/70cm