What's on my mind?

All is well

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Mon, 18 Sep 2017 13:31:00 +0000

There is this feeling of stability that gets me going. Whatever the circumstances are, there is a sure way that all dwell in the right time, for the right reason and with the right purpose.

I do believe that persons exist with the glow of going into directions that lead them both to good or bad. There is indeed no turning back if unfortunate things may occur. But there is always a hope to persevere and be the best one could be.

All is well. It will dwell into its proper place, in time.

Purest of Pain - Son by Four

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Thu, 03 Aug 2017 16:19:00 +0000

A song that is so great could pass a year, still one of my favorite...Music Marathon!

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call
But I couldn't fight it
I guess I was weak
And couldn't even hide it
And so I surrender just to hear your voice

I know how many times
I said I'm gonna to live without you
And maybe someone else is standing there beside you
But there's something baby that you need to know

That deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking

Vida, give me back my fantasies
the courage that I need to live
The air that I breathe

Carino mio, my world becomes so empty
My day's are so cold and lonely
And each night I taste
The purest of pain

I wish I could tell you I'm feeling better every day
that it didn't hurt me when you walked away
but to tell you the truth I can't find my way

And deep inside me I feel like I'm dying
I have to see you it's all that I'm asking
Vida, give me back...

Why do you miss me?

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Thu, 03 Aug 2017 15:16:00 +0000

I am just me, typically a homo sapien, but not an ordinary me. I come to live in commune with people and in being with them defines the kind of "me".

You will miss me if you want to, but I never ask for it. It is just you and your feeling of my total absence make you still believe that I constantly did not exist now in your life.

"There is no permanence in this world", I always keep that in mind. That is the sole reason, I am going to be unatouched to you. It is my choice, my freewill. Why? Because I want you to know the reality, that I too, will be gone in your life. And that, you can get ready to live with it, this time, without me.

There is no big worries. Why? We are bound to meet again, probably...maybe...I do not know. But there is one thing for sure, "We are under the same blue sky". And for sure, you will be able to sort me or even find me there.

I received lots of messages of "I miss you already", "How are you", "I miss talking to you", "Hope you are here", etc.

"You do not know I am here", that is always what I will tell you. I am not neglecting, nor despising you. You can actually feel it that I am just here, just near, right now and right there.

Life may be different now. But what makes it not distantly different is that, you do not have to worry. Again, we are under the same blue sky. That, I assure you.

Thank you. Yes, YOU are my FRIENDS! :-)

"You did not open the closed"

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Thu, 03 Aug 2017 13:48:00 +0000

It could be more than words, it could be a coincidence, a chance in time, a pop-up or just merely said but not meant, vice versa.

There is this instance in one's life that would drive us to utter words and we just realized that is meaningless at first, shall I say, but turned to have meaning in the end. It meant to be uttered to have purpose or just stating for the sake of an act, etc.

"You did not open the closed" connotes various interpretations based on one's perspectives. It could mean words left unsaid and just remain to be it, letting the tide of the wind unlock them in time, making the "hearer" left unknown of the true state of the "other's feeling".

"You did not open the closed" is an avenue that leads to questionable truth, either it brings "hanging" revelation or it would directly lead to the truth.

"You did not open the closed" quests to search for meaning, apart from reading beyond the lines. It clamors "answers" that would really direct to the point of leading the "doubtful" minds to have peace and gain the sweet price of peace to be able to achieve real happiness.

"You did not open the closed" calls to ignite an action that not to aggravate opinions nor principles, but rather it perseveres to lead one's mind to travel to the countless available resources of options in order to come up with a decision.

"You did not open the closed" spins to confused the unspeakable minds even more, digging the unfanthomable depths of luck in keeping track, taking every chance that possibly lead to workable resolutions. Questions lingered every now and then, spinning like a wheel, continuously disturbing the minds.

"You did not open the closed" spells like adckzvxypfdswqyum18108329#@&*! and honestly, it is horrible to understand.

But my "You did not open the closed" is so carefree, full of blastful happiness and believe me, one of the most unforgetable event in my life. It is so queer like it is clueless to understand, and hey, believe me, it is...

NCLEX Review: No pain, no gain

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Tue, 18 Jul 2017 09:31:00 +0000

Taking an exam is not a joke, much more in reviewing in preparation to take an exam.

NCLEX examination is really not a joke. One needs to prepare in order to pass. It takes a lot of sacrifices in order to attain the sweet price of success. But before I rightfully enjoy my victory, I have to undergo sacrifices. I sacrifice myself from the "usual" stuff of being relaxed into a very serious one who is eager to pass. Indeed, "no pain, no gain".

I need to stretch my time more on studying, reading, going over the topics which I have difficulty on and reviewing them, utilizing the available resources, medium or supplementals that I need for my preparation. In this way, I will not feel regretful in due time. And being ready erases my feeling of anxiety.

When you want to earn something, you must put your heart and mind into it. These two shall collaborate. Heart, in the sense that you have to put the "love" out from what you are doing. Of course, no one wants to be "deprived" for too long of the usual things one does, but putting your heart to take such great sacrifice will lead you to sweet success that will always lead you to greater happiness.

Mind, in the sense that you have to seriously let your mind work in studying. You have to find means and ways in order for you to have easy understanding of the things you need to know. There are lots of things that you should tackle on reveiwing. Discovering the strategies and techniques are workable ingredients in order to make your life pretty much easier.

Taking NCLEX examination is equivalent to your life. That is why, you need to:

1. Discipline yourself to study. Never procrastinate. Time is precious and your "every day" leads to triumph someday. Do not dream dreams just for the sake of dreaming. You need to move, show your actions. If you do not want the topic, you need to love them and just embrace them. Best remedy is to find your own mainstream, you own style that will help you understand the topic. If your passion is drawing, then put that passion in learning. In order for you to remember the topic, you have to mark traces or simply draw them and jive them to the topic. There is no standard protocol on studying. You can do your own thing by simply finding ways that makes life easier.

2. Know the basics. In an exam, the very usual scenario is to exactly orient yourself with the basics because questions circulates on that, making it appear complicated. Never disregard the standards, the steps, procedures, the concepts out from every topic. If you find difficulty, you have many resources that will help answer your problems. Do not make things complicated.

3. Use the available resources all you can. There are books, online informations (look into the trusted sites), review books, practice questions, online review, videos, review cds etc. These important things help you in your review.

4. Practice answering questions. This will harness you in fully conditioning yourself in the exam. Never feel down when you get low scores upon practicing, remember, that your mistakes will lead you to know the unknown. Try to go over them. When you answer, learn to manage your time. Always think that you are bounded by time and you need to think well because time is ticking out. Do not ever underestimate yourself during the practice questions when you get unsatisfactory scores. Remember, you have the strength to get up and do something about them. Simply look for strategies, techniques, clues, etc. that will lead you to the right answer.

5. Test anxiety is expected but you can control them. Of course, we are humans. We have the tendency to be anxious because we are thinking if "we could pass the exam or not". There are lots of questions that lingered in our minds. They distract our sense of focus. Now, it is your choice if you let "anxiety" rule over you. That is why, you are the only one who can control them. Breath deeply. Fill your brain with oxygen so that you can rightfully think. Never doubt yourself nor compare yourself to others. Remember, you are you. Whatever you do, you will be the ones paying for it. So better trust and be in control of yourself.

No pain, no gain in taking the NCLEX exam. If you want to land a good job as a nurse, aim your goal and reach them. But going into the process is very, very tough, and if others can do it, so why not you.

Remember, no one reaches the top in an "easy-way-out" attitude.

On quitting Social Media

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Fri, 14 Jul 2017 19:17:00 +0000

Communication with friends and loved ones is the very sole reason why I joined the world on social media. In fact, I have been enjoying to use my account for almost 6 years. I am publicly exposed to what my friends and loved ones posted every minute, every hour, everyday. I admit, I got information that helps me especially when it comes to opportunities and extending my acquaintances. I admit, I have known their whereabouts, the story of their successes and needless to say, their failures. I have known their stories of hope and their ups and downs and how they react to every situations or news that has been shared from one page to another.

Then, I questioned, "And so, what are those for?", "Why should I indulge much in this kind of world?". And more than that, I have realized many things and just last month, I decided to quit. It is not because I want to quit communicating with the persons who are part of my life (though there are other ways to reach my friends and family apart from indulging myself in social media). I just want to be me unfakingly.

Quitting on social media makes me to be more focus on things that makes me happy and not exposing them into the big screen. I am more determined to work even harder. It is just so carefree because I can think more and wondeful ideas pops up every now and then without comparing myself to others'successes.

Quitting on social media saves my time. I do not want notifications comes out from time to time on my phone because there is no instance that I can not browse or skim over them and once interested, even attempted to read what they have written on their personal posts. And sometimes, I can not even notice that I have wasted so much time. This, I think make me unproductive. Most importantly, I can fully sleep now. It saves my nights from looking into what others have posted on their status. And I love being able to have better sleep now.

Quitting on social media does not make me worry on things that leads me to compare sometimes to others. There is no point of seeing their successes and I have the tendency to question my recent status and instead of striving one's best, mentions like "lucky are they..." always surface on my mind and that, for me is "unhealthy". Instead of minding their lives, it is always a great idea to focus on what I could do, rather than knowing other's business of successes. I am happy for their ups, but moving on is what I have to do and this atones me now that I left the online social world.

Quitting on social media means my privacy is protected even more. I can live my life without even posting what's in store for me in my every day. I do not have to post exposures of my personal life anymore for others to see and know. It is freedom that I am not anymore exposed to the kind of "usual stuff" happening in the social world, like once I post the event of my life for this day and so what's next...What then it implies? How do others react? I mean, I can possibly have my life story without coming out to the open for the world to see. It is such a wonderful feeling now being me like I can capture what I do without telling the whole wide world. That, I have my privacy.

Quitting on social media leads me to find out who are true to me, who are not. Bullying has stopped and I am carefreely living my life, full of enthusiasm, alone. Though I was so shocked that many find me why I "deactivated", but still I never know if they really do care or just "pretending" to care in order to ask for reasons. I do not have to explain because it is my personal choice. I have realized that it is better to have only few, true and good friends, rather than have many, but are untrue. I am tired of dealing with the "fake" and leaving social media is the bravest decision I have done so far. Now, I am on my own, no worries on what to do. I am just simply me now.

Life in the web is not forever. There is this point of dropping down on what is the trend on the social media world if one has fully come up with realizations and I have already found mine.

The Hidden Nook

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Tue, 11 Jul 2017 14:40:00 +0000

Dark, secluded, compressed spaces and compartments like small, open rooms in each sides, cigarette smoke spreads the place, women sexily dancing with ridiculous moves and dancing steps and even half-naked on-stage, the crowd heralded in much awe, this kind of nook is different from what I have known and this time, it is hidden. Going there is like you are going to an underground and bear with me, it takes a lot of courage to see the nook, the hidden nook.

There was I, sitting in the front view where I could 101% see all those women doing their hilarious things. I was totally shaking and nervous unstopably. I was feeling apprehensive for I do not know what to do. I could only hear my heart, beating so fast and if I have a heart problem, I could probably die. This very first scenario in my entire life, I have witnessed unexplanable situations that traps me in the middle and this time it is with NO choice, but to jam in respect of my friends' wants. This is my very first weird experience, ever! And shall I say, the most unforgetable so far.

At that time, reasons are dropped and pride are eaten nowhere. I could not complain because doing so, would drive my friends boring. Pupils dilated and eyes shunned to blink. I was quite static at first and turned unease afterwards. This experience is horrible, the kind of feeling that I was deprived from my own self witnessing what I have seen. I have felt that it is not me at that moment. I whispered to my thoughts, "Why am I here?", again and again. I swallowed my own saliva of the things I have seen that seems against my will. I felt that I have sinned so much. It is unbelievable. I have totally realized and awakened that there is indeed this kind of reality, not written in books and prints, but captured clearly right direclty at my very naked eyes. And take note, it is direct, instant. It just happen so fast, as if no total conditioning was made. All my senses were activated.

As the weird dances continuously roll and disco music sounded loud, almost-naked women continue to do their thing on-stage. Loud noices of cheers captured my ears. There they are, being with the boys. By and by, I then do my best to be calm. I said that all are just an expression of art in order to modulate my undescribable feeling. Frankly, I want to vomit. I do not know why, but I want to vomit. I am totally innocent of that kind but still, I continue to be with them. I could not leave my friends enjoying what they have seen. That would be disrecpectful. And so I try my best to enjoy and be okay, where in fact, I am totally not.

The "hidden nook" is not an ordinary nook that I have known. It is a place of survival, of various reasons, of false dreams and hopes, of sad reality and instant money. The "hidden nook" is not merely their initial choice, but do become their option in dealing with life's pressures and uncertainties when they think there is no other way to live and earn modestly. The "hidden nook" would probably make their family's stomach full, but sad to say, their body is the one to pay. The "hidden nook" displays them to be courageous and numb of what others might say. They are the sole "figthers" in their own way.

I could see their faces, as if it says, "I do not have any choice...Come what may". Their faces look innocent, so young and vibrant, but not free. Every dance is equivalent to life. Every customer is equivalent to money. Every intimate encounter is equivalent to "come what may". Then I asked, "Are they contented with that kind of life?", "Is it really okay for them to playfully be with guys one after another in order to gain instant money?", "Are they not be afraid to get STDs of what they are doing?", "Do their families allow them to be in that lustful job?", "Do their families know about this?", "Why is it okay for them to be played with guys?", "How do they feel everytime they display not just their dignity, but also thier flesh to the crowd?", "Do they have self-worth?", "Until when they can be like that?", etc. Lots of speculations lingered on my mind.

I pity them a lot. But still, I can not judge them. I know behind every depth of their exposures in the lustful spotlight, they are still warriors on their own way.

The "hidden nook" drives me to the other side of life, a reality that only those women know and me, to discover.

The "hidden nook" turns out to be the unhidden reality of life. Pretty weird to see, but do really exist. 06-23-17

Capitol University Medical Center, Cagayan de Oro City, 1st Hemodialysis Training: A Success!

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Tue, 30 May 2017 08:34:00 +0000

The "first-ever" Hemodialysis Training of Capitol University Medical Center in Cagayan de Oro City, Philippines started last April 17, 2017 and it took its culmination last May 29 of the same year. The 6-week training garnered quality teaching-learning experience especially for us, trainees who in the future serves as the frontliners of taking care of the patients who have kidney problems.

It has been said by Antonio Paraiso, DOH program manager for the Philippine Network for Organ Sharing, that close to 23,000 patients were undergoing dialysis treatment in 2013. He also added, "At the end of 2013, close to 23,000 and it is still increasing. You have about 10- to 15-percent increase per year” whom Paraiso found out that the leading cause of the outburst of kidney failure in Filipinos is diabetes, followed by hypertension and glomerulonephritis. (The whole article which was written by Sheila Crisostomo, dated February 25, 2014 - DOH: Cases on kidney failure on the rise can be read through the Internet)

This shocking rise in the cases of kidney problems among Filipinos are really serious and the need to reside on the “experts” on this field is highly in demand for it calls for the preservation and prolonging of life. In order to respond to this tremendous need, Hemodialysis Nurses are much needed in the medical field in order to answer for the “call of these times”.

Through the wondrous, extraordinary and helpful efforts of the “honorable heads” of Capitol University Medical Center – Hemodialysis Unit, Rizza T. Fulache, RN, CNN (CUMC-HD Unit Supervisor) and Vanessa Claire Alban, RN, CNN (CUMC-HD Unit Head Nurse) and also with the never-ending support of Rosalinda P. Deleste, DM (President), Maria Theresa C. Huizo, RN, MN (Nursing Director), Helen Yvonne D. Villaret-Roa, MD, FPCP (Chair, Clinical Didactics Committee), Sandra P. Oliveros, MD, FPCP, FPSN (Chair, Scientific Committee), Engr. Joey R. Deleste and Frances Gay L. Pia, RN, MAN, we, the “pioneers” of the 1^st Batch of Hemodialysis Trainee in CUMC would like to extend our warmest “Thank You” for the quality teaching-learning experience that we savor from two weeks lecture, one week return demonstration and three weeks of clinical duty experience in the area. The 240-hour Dialysis Training Course are all worth it!

We also would like to extend our warmest thanks to the assertive, autonomous, equipped, compassionate, talented, skillful and competent Registered Nurses in the Hemodialysis Unit in Capitol Universtiy Medical Center for sharing their knowledge, learnings and for guiding us all throughout our training – Mary Jane Variacion Luna, Jennifer Jane Quijada, Jairus Magdadaro, Niña Mae Janolino, Porcia Grace Bajar, Adelane Concha, Kristy Dawn Gabule, Nhestly Abejero, Christine Marquita, Jerramie Kris Blanco, Nikka Engcong, Sarah Grace Emnace, Klerramae Hope Barretto, Angelica Allere, Chona Bonglay, Angie Low Sabado and Stephanie Micayabas and Sheryl Cortes.

We would like also to thank the technicians for sharing their time for introducing us to the world behind every start of the Hemodialysis processes. This is spearheaded by Mark Anthony Nudalo, Edu Lou Acerdano, Kariim Ray Garcia, Jerome Tingabngab, Axyl Russ Sagarino, Neil Javon Aranas, Gretel Maglacion, Rex Lim, Artemio Aclo, Jr. and Jake Labuntog.

Furthermore, a big "thanks" to the clerk who in any way designate us to our patients who we take care and give our best. A big thanks to Edlyne May Reyes, Charmagne Macabaya, Charito Pisla, Aura Paz Barillo and Marlyn Zabala.

Lastly, "thank you" to our patients who bring out the best in us for letting us give the right nursing interventions based on our assessment and for responding to their seriuos concerns regarding their health condition. We have learned a lot from encoutering them. Understanding and prioritizing their needs pave us to be more knowledgeable, alert, equipped, more sensitive to their needs and compassionate in extending our care. We learned how to build rapport and communicate with them in the best possible way that we can.

Moreover, I would personally say "Thank you" to my co-trainees (Batch 01) for the opportunity for us to cross our paths, building the gift of friendship, love and understanding and for the spirit of helping each other on our training days - Mae Dagupan, Paulette April Mercado, Mary Grace Imboc, Nikka Pangonahon, Jhalil Sangcopan, Ma. Elena Valle, Ruby Jane Estrada, Katrina Lariosa and the couple - Maria Michaela Cabasag and Benjamin Cabasag. I definitely know that we will see each other someday.

The training is not just merely for the sake of learning the skill and mastering them, but it is also a values-formation that nurtured us to be more Christ-like as we go along the journey of our individual lives. Being in the Hemodialysis Unit at CUMC spells a big responsibility and accountability that the very moment you enter its door, trust is build to everyone not just to every patient, but also to their families and loved ones. The quality training that they instill in us lets us become more humane to be always ready to accept the challenges this world could ever bring.

It is good to produce history that spells quality. Thank you Capitol University Medical Center - Hemodialysis Unit for making us grow individually and letting us excel in our chosen path to be a Hemodialysis Nurse. We are saturated with all the learnings in this training. Continue to be an avenue that opens the doors in dealing with the rising health problems in "these times" to give hope in the lives of many. And I can say that this training is a good start!

Understanding: All that was left.

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Thu, 01 Jan 2015 14:23:00 +0000

Have you ever felt that there is always "missing" where in fact there is really none, for those who sees you as such. But deep within your soul, there is. It is quiet weird, but it is worth tolerable.

Life is queer. Captivating to be mesmerized by all the selfish pleasures and material happiness this world could ever give, I stand calm for not a single one, I remember, I dream of.

There you are standing in the crossroads, often. You have nothing in mind, but just a piece of understanding all the time. A kind of understanding that makes you numb from complaining because there is really no reason to complain. And all of a sudden, you create suggestions in your mind, but just in your thoughts, for as usual, your attitude of "you don't have the right to complain" flourish on you. Then, you just understand everything as if you don't have the choice, but really to meet at one point - to understand.

I was welcomed in this "new year" (2015) with depths of much understanding in every situation as I was tested many times this day. And as usual, since I don't have the right to complain, I keep my word and just stay calm and understand the situation because I am more on "their" feelings than "mine".

Am I always a martyr in this? If I were to ask, "Yes!" my reply because "to understand" is the only thing that I know and deeply rooted in me whenever I encounter situations. I can't force the scenario if it is not justifiable. All I just do is to "always understand".

"Understanding" is my way of sacrificing, my way of respecting, my way of showing how much I love and care the person, my way of giving what I want to let them in, my way of accepting things that life doesn't always come my way. But the best in all of that:

"I will not stop trying because I want to know what is on the other side of the road."

Just a sort of reflection I have for this day...:-) I know you have yours in mind too.

What to look out when you cook "Kangkong"

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Mon, 29 Dec 2014 15:28:00 +0000

"Kangkong" is one of the vegetable that I love to eat. It is a vine that finds me appealing to eat when cooked. You can actually think of many possible dishes that you can collaborate having this in your recipe. And mine is called "Adobong Kangkong with matching corned beef".

What you are going to pay close attention when cooking "Kangkong" is its leaves (most especially) because it can be overly landed by dusts of any kinds.

There you go, you got it fresh, but it is dusty, that is another big problem for once the dust is not properly taken away through thorough washing, then for sure, you will surely enjoying to also be eaten them. And that is a big no, no!

My not-just-an-ordinary Champorado (Chocolate Rice Porridge)

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Sun, 28 Dec 2014 10:26:00 +0000

The weather is cold and my appetite for cooking is incredibly unstoppable. So I prepare what I have got to warm everyone's day. How? It is through my so called "Not-just-an-ordinary Champorado". In short, it is "Chocolate Rice Porridge", Filipino style.

What makes it not-so-ordinary is that when you have extra cooked rice at home, instead of throwing them as leftovers, you can add it on this. It is the idea of recycling and being not wasteful about food. Plus, when you cook, it doesn't mean to say that you have to buy everything to really perfect your creation. I mean, you need to utilize what is available. In this part, I don't have glutinous rice or "malagkit" which is supposed to be the original ingredients for this, I use plain rice. I don't have condensed milk as toppings, but I just utilize the bits of bread to appear my "Champorado" tempting to eat.

In cooking, you can make your own initiative, have your own style, follow your instinct as long as it will not compromise the exact taste as you wish for your food to appear.

And for my "not-just-an-ordinary Champorado", this I got for you...

The ingredients are:
1. 1 and 1/2 cup of rice (or you can use glutinous rice or malagkit)

2. 1/4 cup brown sugar (or you can also use white sugar)

3. 100 ml Ricoa Sweeteened Cocoa (or you can use "tableya" or any other cocoa powder)

4. 400 ml water

All you need to do is to follow these simple steps:
1. Pour 400 ml of water in a pot and bring to a boil.

2. Put-in the rice and allow water to re-boil for a few minutes.

Note: Don't forget to add the extra rice instead of throwing them as leftover. Put-in the old rice once the rice (new) is already cooked. Make sure that the old rice is not spoiled.

3. Pour-in the 100 ml. cocoa powder and add the 1/4 cup brown sugar. Stir.

4. Mix and wait until all the mixture is fully blend.

5. Once done, remove from the pot and place in a serving bowl.

6. Serve hot with a swirl of condensed milk on top, but for me since I don't have condensed milk, I use my creativity. I make initiative of the bread, get bits of it and form "smiling" face on my "not-just-an-ordinary Champorado".

Bring on the happiness for you and your family with this so-called "Not-just-an-ordinary Champorado"! I just did for my sisters! :-)

How to spoil everyone's day? The secret? Here's how!

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Fri, 26 Dec 2014 14:29:00 +0000

Long hours of waiting for another day and just get bored. Well, it is a sort of how to you turn boredom into excitement. It is a matter in a way of thinking how you can bring spark to everyone's lonely faces in the home.

I believe that the way to everyone's stomach is to make their tummy happy. Food, the ultimate solution! And not just the ordinary foods, but the ones that indeed give justice especially to their delicate "pouch".

Food. It is not to intentionally add weight to their growing body. It is to spoil them with the ultimate taste that you got for them. And so far, this is my ultimate love.

Being at home for a long vacation, I want to create a big smiling face to my sisters. That is why, in order for me to spoil their day, I always make it sure to cook or prepare something special for them.

Honestly, when you are not good in cooking, don't frown because I do believe that everything can be taught. Everything can be learned. I started from lots of trial-and-error attempts in order to perfect my cooking. And now, I can say that I am not in the losing end. I have applied what I have learned.

This afternoon, I prepared them the so-called "Egg Sandwich". It is just so simple. Here's how:

Ingredients:
150 g of all-purpose mayonnaise
3 pcs. boiled egg (peeled and chopped into very small pieces)
sliced bread

Procedure
1. Chop into small pieces the boiled eggs.
2. Pour the all-purpose mayonnaise and mix.
3. Spread the Egg Sandwich in the sliced bread.

See, it is just so simple. With just 3-steps away, you can create big smiles to everyone's faces. Happy delighting!

Yum! Yum! Yum! Delicious! :-) Egg Sandwich, it is a day's spoiler!

Jumping in at Iligan City: G-Force Rocks!

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Mon, 22 Dec 2014 15:38:00 +0000

Christmas Time in the Philippines is not complete without exchanging gifts with friends, families, etc. It has been a part of everyone's culture in my country that when there is an occasion, there should always be a celebration. And one of that is having a Christmas Party.

Filipinos love to feast whatever celebrations in the month calls for, whether it be a birthday, fiesta, wedding, thanksgiving, Christening, farewell, relocating to a new house, New Year, etc. We feel the essence of love, the presence and togetherness as we enjoy celebrating the occasions with our friends, families, cousins, relatives, neighbors, loved one, etc. It is already part of our culture. That is why, last December 20, 2014 (Saturday), we had our party. It is called the "G-Force Christmas Party". Why "G-Force"? Because I spent the event with my "Gorgeous" (the adjective of how I describe our group) circle of friends who are precious and important to me. We held our party at Iligan City which is part of Mindanao.

Why Iligan? Because we want to experience something new. And indeed, we really, really experience something new. All the places that we have been were unplanned, but shall I say that I enjoyed them so much!

The call-time is 6:30 in the morning and all of us should reach the meeting place where the van will pick us up on or before 6:30 and so I did. Evening of that day, I just can't sleep. It is because I am overly excited.

It takes about 3-4 hours travel from Cagayan de Oro to Iligan City, but we didn't noticed the time because all of us were having a sort of "Sing Along" in the van. The music are extremely great. All are my favorite songs, both classic and the latest ones were played. My friends are enjoying too. We sing at the top of our lungs. Boisterous laugthers and unstoppable loud noises are everywhere. It is a sort of, "Who cares?!?".

We had three places of excellent invites that we have experienced landing:

First, we had our first stop at Maze Parks and Resort where we had our simple yet meaningful Christmas Party celebration. It is where we enjoy submerging ourselves in the cold water. It is also where we had our exchange gift and of course, eating time!

The area is tremendously huge. There are lots of cottages and mostly are "reserved" (already taken for occupants). Ours are P350.00 only. It is big.

Almost everyone in there are celebrating Christmas Party too. There are lots of people. Children, young and old adults are present. And all of them are enjoying the cold waters just like we do.

The pool caters for various ages. Children's pools are the coolest. There are countless kids swimming there. Adult's pools are just so-so. Not too many people and not too few.

What I love most is the time when I take the slide. It is wonderful. Actually, that was my first time and so I was never acquainted. As I was taking the last drop, it so happen that I drunk little amount of the pool's water. That is indeed hilarious. But that was indeed fun!

Second, I wasn't expecting that the tide would drive us to the place called the "Nature's Park" where the "Crocodile Park Botanical and Zoological Garden" as well as the "Maria Christina Falls" are awaiting for us. This time I am super excited because I really love the nature so much and I know it is about time for me to discover something new. I have realized. This is a sort of an educational trip as well.

The crocodiles are like lifeless. I wonder if they ever move. They are super big and scaly. If they could ever stand, probably almost all of them are 9 feet long. They look scary because it seems like their stare are ready to take a bite. The baby crocodiles are the cutest. They are like lizards. They are tiny.

It is my first time to see the ostrich. Its long neck is an advantage because it can see views way up there. The duck is attractive. His color is purely white. I remember seeing the duck as the dove. But the most furious are the snakes. There were two of them. The one is like transforming his skin. I love to disturb them to see how they react, but I think it is not a good idea because I know my friends might be afraid. The moment I see the snake, there is that feeling that I would like to fight with them with a sword. Hahaha...what a weird thinking!

Third, since we are running out of time, we directly went to the place where the beautiful "Maria Christina Falls" is situated. It is also my first time to see the falls. I have seen them many times in pictures in some Social Study books in my elementary and high school years. Seeing the falls for real, it is a fulfilling adventure.

I want to capture the view in the near site, but we don't have the opportunity to do it. They said that the way to get intimate to the falls are closed. But nevertheless, I enjoyed a lot. The falls are like coming its prime start from the clouds above and it flows to the bottom. Its water drips down low and the sounds of the waters flowing in the river are suggesting me to take a rest and unwind for some time. Hope I had the time to go up close-and-personal of the falls but it is okay. At least, I am filled with much happiness on that day.

It is a wonderful feeling to see what nature can give for us. I have realized that I have to really work hard and even strive to study harder so that I could land a job with good salary after college so that when I have lots of money, I will let my family to travel places that they have never been.

Traveling makes me write a book. There is a sort of "ignition" that is happening in me. It is like there is a fire burning in me to do the composition now, as in now! It is a kind of determination that inspires me to see life in a greater chance of opportunity and that being with nature inspires me to love life even more and to thank God more, who is the Giver of life because of the opportunity that I have seen His wonderful creations with love and happiness in my heart, with my circle of friends who also inspires me everyday.

The experience is immeasurable. It can't be paid by money or luxury. Simple things like being with nature and with the people that I love (my friends who is my family) are worth-remembering. It is life-determinating!

And the most that completes my day is because we have made meaningful circles such as these:

I had a lot of fun! Thanks that the sun cooperates!

Hooked in the middle: What should I do?

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Tue, 28 Oct 2014 02:07:00 +0000

Until now, I am in the point of finding the right moment how to comfort the "important persons" in my life to ease their sadness that they are feeling. I admit that I am a people-lover person and I have this inner self of reaching out to persons, but this ones made me stop for some times and let me think all over, again and again and again on what to do, how to do it, what to say that they will not get offended or if what comes in my mouth will not aggravate their feelings. I admit that I find it quite hard to be in this situation because what I want is more on happiness for everyone, but life lets me think about the reality that there are some points that I need to accept and further place myself in a situation where understanding is always a must. That me too, I need to accept the reality and emphatize them the way how it should be. Frankly, I am just looking for the right time, the appropriate move to approach them.

This is one of the hardest part that I have encountered so far this year. What I have in mind is just the thinking that I just have to keep quiet and let time heals because what I think is that if I talk to them on the delicate matter that causes the breakdown of their heart, then I will add more to the sad feelings that they bear.

Life has everything - sadness, failures, depressions, turmoil, plaques, frustrations, etc. Name them, the world has it all. But to surpass all those unwanted "viruses" that kills the heart, time settles the feeling of a broken heart.

Realizations will come. What happen to them is unexpected and of course, no one wants it in the first place. It is to tap them out from their sleep. It is probably to hurt a person in order to be formed. It is to calm the wild waves of procrastination so that it will swiftly drip into its level of doing the things now. It is giving a tranquil atmosphere where rooms of improvement are theirs to take and that give some extra shots of ultimate force to sacrifice - a matter of prioritization.

What I know for sure that I do is that I did not give them false assurance because it is much hurtful for them to know because I know from the fact that the situation will lead to a bad news.

I just listen and keep quiet. I just keep my mind registering all those information and create judgment which I just know in my mind because I do not want that someone will get hurt.

One thing that ALWAYS holds this Earth is that REALITY BITES. And that is the fact that everyone needs to STRONGLY face. :-(

This one tests me. My answer: Conquer them with all tranquility. In time, answers will then form.

On heated situation

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Fri, 26 Sep 2014 04:44:00 +0000

People do have a choice to voice out what is really in their mind. It is part of our being human, the need to tell the world what we really feel and be involved in the kind of process that do delivers communication.

At times, when situation calls for a heated scenario, it is better still to calm ourselves and sit for a discussion on making everything mutually normal.

Oftentimes, people have this tendency to burst out all in an instant to tell the world what they really feel in a way of involving "swifting statements" in their hands. It should be that knowing that a kind of "attack" will lead to something unusually unexpected, then it is always better to think as many times as possible before we urge ourselves to speak if this statement will lead me good. There should be conscience in speaking. On the other side, it is best to confront with all honesty the person we want to talk with to settle things out.

There you go. You are in the verge of absorbing everything as if there is no other choice, but rather to dwell into anger, that you don't think twice or many times and you present all your anger to the social networking site.

At all times, calmness is essential. Before meddling into a heated situations, the best way is to look at the sides of the two and it is better to talk to the person, telling him what you really want to say. Eventhough that the both of you will not come into "okay", but at least you say what you want to say. That's it.

Bursting into much anger in the middle of an argument always vests for the proper things to do: Keep still and be calm as always. Settle with a talk and sit for moments of peace to that person. It is then that you are at peace. Don't make it up to express your anger at the social networking site.

Jogging with friends

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Wed, 11 Jun 2014 07:08:00 +0000

Taking a jog with friends is very enjoyable. You are not just simply being with them, but you are

Fun with Friends at Colonia Hidden Valley Park, Cagayan de Oro City

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Sun, 08 Jun 2014 12:54:00 +0000

It was June 06, 2014, a Friday, my friends and I are having so much fun at the newest, beautiful place where the view of Cagayan de Oro can be seen in the midst of the cool invites of the waters.

This place is called Colonia Hidden Valley Park which is owned by Mr. and Mrs. Colinia, themselves. This I knew because I had the chance to talk with the couple as they are in the place on the time of our get together with my friends.

The place has two pools. There are those for children and of course for adults. The water's chlorine level is being monitored and it is not that harsh. In fact, I love swimming in this pool because the water is filtered and its chlorine level is just okay. My eyes don't get red.

The sun shines so bright and we are enjoying the waters. The place is so cool and refreshing. We had so much fun!

Penis Extender for Men

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Sun, 08 Jun 2014 12:08:00 +0000

One way to boost one's confidence of men in the reproductive process is through the kind of penis that they have. It is an advantage if the penis is not small at all.

That is why, in order to give men a blast of workable reproductive system, it all leads to penis extender. In this way, better excitement will be theirs of their loved ones upon making-love through the night. And in order to produce offspring, it all matters in men's penis.

Penis extender is for boosting men's sexual participation in the active reproductive world.

Their night, my morning

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Sat, 07 Jun 2014 16:17:00 +0000

Looking at my sisters comfortably sleeping, I let my pen works. Thoughts linger always on my mind. If it wasn't for them, maybe I am not the strongest person I used to be now.

They sleep soundly. I am tempted to close my eyes, but I dare not to shut them. I deeply need my eyes not to scribble words, but to seriously use them for me to create wonderful words for me to earn a living for them.

I am amused seeing them well asleep. I deeply love them that is why I never get tired working no matter how my eye bugs bother me. Still, I need to work and be busy all the time for them.

Their nights are my mornings. Sacrifice is gain. Work harder and never surrender, I tap myself. :-)

Shades of green and yellow

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Sat, 07 Jun 2014 15:47:00 +0000

Colors reveal what I want.

Finally

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Tue, 03 Jun 2014 11:11:00 +0000

This time it is going to be me.

Fixing my teeth is what I always wanted. And now, thanks God, finally, it is happening. After many years of saving, sacrificing my allowances in school and being thrifty in many ways, I have my teeth fixed.

I believe that a perfect smile drives happiness and positive transformation to the ultimate edge. An edge that will bring one to many opportunities and would let one travel to many countries. A person with a perfect smile contagiously makes everyone smile too. They will bring glow to an unfortunate life and it gives hope to the hopeless souls. Having a perfect smile boosts one’s confidence to the highest level that a person will not fear to face any challenges. Having a perfect smile is what I always wanted, the kind of smile that the teeth will glow and now, I am starting to have it.

Having what I really want in life is the kind that I have to work for it in order for me to have it. And this time, having my teeth fixed is one of them. It is a very good feeling to accomplish something for oneself that out from one’s hard work, one can enjoy the bliss of what one saves just to have the things that one wants deeply.

It is many, many years of much saving and finally, I have it. After all, this is about my happiness that would lead me to fully reach what is it that I really want for my sisters, for my family. That is why, I am fixing what I know that will add to my asset, my perfect smile.

It is a hard struggle oftentimes to show no perfect smile everytime picture-taking dominates the occasion. There are hides and shyness. I can feel it because I have been there many times. It is so sad that I just have my teeth fixed this time that I am now an adult. But, I shall say that this is just the beginning.

It is not about me. It is always about them, my family, whom I love dearly and now, finally, I can have it! J

In life, there is no easy way out always…

Energy on-the-go: Tri-Fuel Portable Generators

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Mon, 02 Jun 2014 11:13:00 +0000

Everyday, energy is needed in order for work and business to progress and go on with its process. In the nature of its success, tri-fuel portable generators have been a part of its wonderful story.

It can't be denied that everything that people do has something to do with power and energy. If there is no energy, there is no power and vice versa. The way people deal with everyday lives come to a perfect reason to go on until limitless and thus, the century fuel products never disappoint everyone through its services. The kind of energy they serve generate to run businesses and make huge progress especially in the lives of the people and the economy of every country worldwide.

The touch of this extraordinary power that tri-fuel conversion kits have, come with the idea of perfection. Perfect in the sense that it doesn't lead people to doubt, but rather it transport them to trust with the mark of quality services. They are exquisitely manufactured to serve people from all walks of life and to give power like hope that make them move on doing for their businesses unendingly.

Tri-fuel portable generators extend high to make life easier and a whole lot of fun. It serves to make people's dreams come true and to go on with works everyday. Without this generators, people will be stagnant and their lives will be in chaos. But because century products extends its wings to the widest, it simply implies a positive marks of great achievement because of its power that can run many transactions without expiry.

In order to give life a full-blast of power, tri-fuel conversion kits simply are amazingly the solution! Every home is not boring, every offices is not blatantly dry, every business doesn't lead to downfall, every transactions works fast and every plans are indeed a big accomplishments. It is always because of tri-fuel portable generators and they really make a whole lot of great and intelligible sense!

An hour: Internet

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Thu, 29 May 2014 02:23:00 +0000

It is like a countdown. I want to explore more and read lots of things, but this one hour indeed makes me prioritize to do what is the most best - to communicate with the people I love, my Tatay and Cecille.

Everytime I am in the internet cafe, it seems like being fast is the most that top on my mind. I laugh so hard at home as I arrived from the Internet cafe because it feels like I am always on a race, a race between me and the time.

Having an internet connection at home is what I wish I could have. But for now, I cease because of some priorities that the need to budget is urgent. That is why, I end up going to the internet cafe and do the stuff of surfing and of course, communicating. And when the times ticks to count as 5,4,3,2,....1, there you go, the happiness subsides.

Whatever that is I take it as a regard. Situations do come as like that. If one doesn't have patience, doesn't have understanding and doesn't know how to modulate one's feeling, the risk is, he will end up spoiling his day because of not having an internet connection.

This is just temporary. I can fully enjoy the internet connection with no time-bounded as "You have only 5 minutes left"-thing. Life is so funny and laughable. Now, I have to say goodbye! Time is up! :-)

The child in me

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Tue, 27 May 2014 11:00:00 +0000

Pics from http://xandddie.wordpress.com/2013/12/12/the-heirsthe-inheritors-110/

Everytime I am happy and amused about something, this reveals the child in me.

I am fascinated about many things in life especially those things that are simple and those that what makes me excited, giggle, happy and smile. But this week, the child in me shows more fully as I follow watching the movie series of Lee Min Ho and Park Shin-Hye's "The Heirs" in Filipino version that aired in one of the famous TV program here in the Philippines. I can't help myself but giggle alot. I feel like I am part of the scene. I feel like I am Park Shin-Hye.

I really love how this story has been told. It all comes in the idea of a poor woman who fell in-love with the rich guy and how their lives circulate in the story, but they too both love each other. It feels like it is all against the odds. But I believe in the fighting spirit of Ryan (Lee Min Ho) who really go on loving and standing firm for the woman he really loves, Julia (Park Shin-Hye). I totally love the kind of story for the main reason that somehow I can relate to the situation of Julia in some ways.

I really love to watch love stories film and tv series as much as I also love to watch true-to-life stories too. I am more fascinated in everything in life especially the ones that suits to my taste and those that I find simple and extraordinary. But Ryan and Julia are my favorite now. I am a child in myself as I watch them feeling in-love all over again and I was like feeling the same way to to no one.

Time, we all have it.

abucayarleenjay@ymail.com (Arleen Jay R. Abucay ) — Sat, 24 May 2014 10:59:00 +0000

Out from what we do in a day, I pretty well know that we do have time.

Being busy is not an excuse for spending time for some things that need the attention of our time. I firmly believe that we all have time. It is just a matter of giving portions of our time to really head on to something that needs our time. In short, it depends on our priority.

I don't have to say, "I don't have time" because I do really have time. What is just the different of it is that I give time only to the kind of instance that really deserves to spend with. As much as possible, I want to insert events to get into my schedule because every occasion and event is very important to me. I don't find happenings insignificant especially that I want to be apt to spending it.

Spending time for everything is a matter of choice, whether one prefers to make not being able to go, as an excuse or it is just one doesn't care at all.

My way of managing my time is a sort of spending and savoring it with full fun and happiness. I rely to the fact that every bit of its second, minute portrays a story like no other and thus, I am always awaiting for good things to come.

Spending time is like cherishing every moment of it even though I can say that I spend it with less than 30 minutes or so. Being workaholic is not an excuse being with people.

My time is always for my love of writing, for helping people, for sharing the meaning of life, for enjoying what life has to offer each day, for being with friends and for setting to the kind of happiness out from listening to music and studying.

There are lots of wonderful moments that time offers. And I do believe that when one says, "I don't have time.", he is just making a big excuse...exception: Unless that is a bad thing to do, there it can be that he doesn't have time.

Time is important for me. It is precious. It is gold. It is money, but the whole of it, it is indeed a whole lot of fun! :-)