Awaken to Your Life

Opening The Door

2012-02-10T16:12:00.000-05:00

I had my Akashic Reading yesterday and I have to admit that it was wonderful. It was the tip of a very large iceberg of knowledge that will continue to unfold over the next few weeks. I have cleared out a few cobwebs and have swung open a door that will never be shut again. So forgive me while I step away and spend some time with this. See you Monday.

Beyond Tired

2012-02-09T16:02:00.002-05:00

I am emotionally tired. I think that I am taking this week in stride and rolling with the flow instead of letting the rushing waters of change pull me under. However no matter how well I do this it seems that there just comes a point when I need to sleep deeply and let go of reality in favor of dreams. I am always amazed at how necessary it is to get in some dream time. Dream time seems to put a

Listening to our Animals

2012-02-08T06:14:00.002-05:00

It has come to my attention that animals are here to teach us about spirituality. Their frailty and their ability to accept what is there in the moment of any given situation is a lesson in itself. As humans we have the ability to complain and vocalize about our life and living conditions. And for many of us this is what we do over the simplest situations. We have expected life to be simple and

Ginger Bear

2012-02-07T23:58:00.001-05:00

Our Ginger Bear went in for emergency surgery to have her spleen and two masses removed. We picked her up late this afternoon. We are taking it moment by moment. Yet over all I am filled with happiness that I can spend another day with her.

Friday Continues

2012-02-06T06:21:00.002-05:00

As it turns out the lesson that showed up on Friday became important on Saturday. I spent 3 hours at the emergency veterinarian with our beloved Ginger Bear. She is very ill and at this point we are taking it moment by moment. It is easy to slip into “what ifs” and this can bring waves of sadness. The path that I created on Friday keeps calling me and I remember how it felt. I keep pulling

Make a Note of That

2012-02-03T16:53:00.002-05:00

I am happy that it is Friday. I have arrived at Friday and have managed to shed some of the pressures that I had earlier this week. I have planned a wonderful dinner and am looking forward to two days of not knowing what I will do. I have some projects on my list, yet none of them have to get done this weekend. I do have to wonder if finally getting some sleep has a lot to do with the stable mood

Taking a Nap

2012-02-02T17:31:00.002-05:00

I had the opportunity to take a nap today. I had not planned on it and had not expected it to be successful. I am a bit groggy now, however the nap worked out. I drifted off to sleep ending up in the land of lucid dreams; one of my favorite places to end up. For me this state allows me to really step away from my life and I always come back feeling rested like I had a vacation from myself. I don’

Stepping Out of the Cold

2012-02-01T18:52:00.003-05:00

I went to a meeting this morning and it was cold, very cold. It was 48 degrees and it was an inside meeting. Apparently the programmable thermostat stopped working because it needed new batteries. This problem was taken care of and the heat did go up a bit during the 3 hour meeting. The thing that was most astonishing to me is that we all sat there in the cold. I at least got my jacket and gloves

Maybe, Just Maybe

2012-01-31T18:51:00.000-05:00

I was reminded today to ask what is possible instead of drawing conclusions and getting stuck on what I think is not possible. This question of possibility is directed at me, yet it is not rhetorical. It is directed at the still part of me, that inner sense of knowing, that keeps me looking to be the best that I can be. Impossibility is a huge road block I throw up to stop myself dead and if I

Slogging Through Rough Terrain

2012-01-30T07:38:00.002-05:00

Saturday night brought no sleep. I wish I could say that it was my usual insomnia, but it wasn’t. Life bothered me. And it bothered me well into Sunday. I try not to get locked into a point of view about things, yet sometimes it seems like it is just beyond my control (even though I know it isn’t). I spent some time doing things that were not a vibrational match for me (I felt emotionally lost at

Waiting for 2012

2012-01-27T05:48:00.003-05:00

The sensationalism has started. There are a lot of things being said about this year and only time will tell if they are true. Will the world end in December? Will the banks and money systems end just like they did in the year 2000? Oh, that’s right they didn’t. So how is 2012 different? Are we so certain that we have gotten doomsday right this time? I am not saying nothing will happen by the

Got Stories?

2012-01-26T06:58:00.000-05:00

I was fascinated by a story line that was playing in my head this morning. No matter what I said to myself I just kept pulling together “facts” to create the storyline. This was not a story about something I was going to write as a fictional novel. It was a story that pertained to my life and the details of my life. I knew it was ridiculous and only based on one real fact, yet I just kept

It Can’t Be All About Procrastination

2012-01-25T05:43:00.001-05:00

It seems that every couple of days I am checking in with the work load that has built up. I sort through the list in my mind just to see if everything is moving forward. Most of the time this mental process works well enough and I am actually getting done what I want to do. Other times outside tasks infringe on my time and I have to make a list so that these “other” tasks don’t lose their way. I

Lights Out

2012-01-24T06:21:00.002-05:00

As I get older I am discovering that I don’t sleep as much anymore. I find myself awake in the middle of the night. I might use the time to do some deep breathing or meditate or I might just get up and start my day writing or doing some paper work for the business. Last night, however I was woken from a sound sleep. Our elderly dog was pacing back and forth. As I tried to shake off sleep I

Not What He Planned

2012-01-23T17:25:00.002-05:00

I recently read that a local veterinarian passed away from pancreatic cancer. I didn’t know he was sick. He was not my vet but he used to be. Apparently when he found out he was sick he sold his business and worked on healing full time. It struck me how hard he must have worked to build his practice and that getting sick and selling it was probably not what he planned. I wonder how often we have

A Dark Start

2012-01-20T17:58:00.002-05:00

I got up really early this morning and was heading off at 5:30 to a meeting in the snow. It was really dark and not many people where on the road which was nice. This all changed rapidly. I was amazed at the lights that started to show on the horizon ahead. These lights turned out to be the spot lights at a gas station. I was not sure why a gas station needed so many lights that where actually

Slow; So Slow

2012-01-19T18:07:00.002-05:00

I had one of those days that seemed just a bit too slow. It is strange how a slow day can be more tiring than an action packed day. In the middle of a slow day I generally feel like I need a nap. And even though the day is slow there is usually no opportunity for one. It is hard to get going after a slow day. It seems like the only thing that will completely banish a slow day is to go to bed and

Using My Mind Against Me

2012-01-18T18:16:00.000-05:00

I received a comment on my posting about the Big Box Stores that said this is just marketing and advertising. My intent was not to be naïve about marketing and advertising. What concerns me is that our minds and our nature are used to lull us into acting out of reflex and emotion. What would be so wrong if we put a little heart into life and we nurtured each other into acting for the good of each

Big Box Store

2012-01-17T19:05:00.002-05:00

I have recently discovered the psychology of shopping in the big club stores. I know that they have super sizes of a lot of items, yet more than that it is the scale of the building that prompts us to over buy. I have recently experienced how items in the warehouse seem to grow once they get home. And this psychology applies to all super-sized stores not just the warehouse clubs. You can over

I Get Hungry

2012-01-16T18:38:00.001-05:00

I am discovering that my ability to consume large amounts of food is exponentially proportional to the hunger I get as I contemplate my place in the world. It is the contemplation of what is next and my inability to define a next path that drives me to the kitchen in search of food. The food does not hold any answers and it does not satiate my hunger. All it does is stimulate a few endorphins as

Scripted Reality

2012-01-13T05:31:00.001-05:00

Continuing with yesterday’s post I just wanted to comment that we all know that reality TV is scripted; don’t we? Well I am at least fairly certain that it is and if it isn't I am practically sure that it is at least pushed and prodded in a certain direction. I bring all this up because of the comments that I have noticed on the web. I have started to watch TV through my computer. This means that

I Get Lost

2012-01-12T05:56:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was one of those mornings where the sky was so beautiful that I had to stop the car and watch. I am never sure what I am watching for. It just seems like it is a moment that is too amazing to lose. The colors yesterday where pink and blue and there was a shade of light and awe mixed in that I have never found words for. Perhaps it is a lightness that only the clouds can come up with.

I Get Crabby

2012-01-11T05:50:00.000-05:00

I have to admit that I have been dragging my feet a bit. The New Year is well underway and I have remained silent. I wish that I could say that I have been silently watching and gathering my thoughts together, but that is just not the case. I seldom ever have to gather my thoughts. They seem to swell up inside of me and then they just roar forth like a summer thunderstorm; I rarely can stop them.

Ah The Holidays

2011-12-23T06:18:00.001-05:00

It is a few days before the Christmas holiday and we are really not ready at all. The tree is not up and we do not have presents for each other. We do have lots of presents for the dogs, cats, chickens and fish. I would like to say that it has been an overwhelming year, yet that is not my sense. We have been busy and remain busy, yet it does not seem overwhelming. It has been a happy peaceful

Diets are a way I hate myself even more

2011-12-19T22:39:00.002-05:00

I was silently chastising myself for not keeping up with my new program. And as my internal dialog continued I realized that dieting and all the ways that I had been looking at my health, weight and eating lifestyle was completely dysfunctional. I realized that this was (perhaps) the last hold out in a long string of ideas that traveled the realms of self hatred and not being good enough the way