tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7931801433635203992021-12-02T23:44:54.745-05:00The important thing is not which road you take, but how you experience your life.Unknownnoreply@blogger.comBlogger742125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-793180143363520399.post-88831272692414860482012-12-14T13:11:00.001-05:002012-12-14T13:11:20.772-05:00

When we need to see into a dark space we simply shine a light into the darkness. This also applies to our internal life and how we make our way through our world. Decisions and confusion can frequently be clearer when we pause and request more light. Sounds simple enough when I am calmly writing about it here. Yet when my mind is caught up in its own turmoil it is not clear at all. And this is

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How often do we think about doing something special for someone else and then we don’t follow through? The moment passes and we move to something else. Was it just a fleeing idea or do we feel a bit of remorse that we did not act on our first thought? I know that I become very frustrated with myself when I don’t bring an idea to fruition. It feels empty and hollow and then I tend to look at

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Anticipation is a huge part of how we expect to experience life. We anticipate the taste of a familiar food or drink before we actually taste it. And if that taste is something other than what we expect the shock to our senses can cause us to cringe or spit out what we ate. And this revulsion has nothing to do with the poor quality of the food; we are simply responding to the dramatic change in

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When you live with another person there is an accumulation of personal stuff: theirs and yours. I am not talking about the big objects; I am taking about the small things like stockings hanging to dry in the shower.  Often what the other person places in your shared space is something that you would never own, yet there it is day after day. Recently I became acutely aware of the space that

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I have been sitting in silence for many months. I wish that I could say that I have been contemplating the state of my world and that I have now arrived at an epiphany that has caused me to break my silence. None of that is true. I just stopped writing. I am not sure that there was a reason that I stopped. Perhaps I just got bored with myself and instead of writing my way through it as I

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I was struck this morning how life shows up to reinforce our beliefs. I had asked a friend a simple question and she without knowing fed my belief back to me in her answer. As I pondered her answer I realized that I had a choice in the moment. I could use what she said to reinforce what I believe or I could step beyond that belief and question the truth in it. Truth is a tricky thing. Often times

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I drive a lot for work. Some days it is a drag and others it is fairly pleasant. The utilities in our area have been clearing trees away from the power line. In most cases this has been a significant pushing back on the woods that seem to take over rapidly if left unchecked. As I have watched this clearing it seems to me that it is much like a huge spring cleaning that is leaving row upon row of

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I was talking with a friend and they mentioned that they work with a person who believes in their false sense of who they are.  I was immediately struck by how profound this was. The depth of this observation may not be apparent so let me explain. On some level we all have an idea of who we are and for the most part we are constantly searching and uncovering clues about who we are. However there

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It has been a week since Ginger Bear passed away. We have received cards, flowers, and support from friends and clients. Most days, life is moving forward as it tends to do after a death.  Yet there are moments of the day that seem to stand still and I wonder why and how life can continue on without Ginger Bear. She was a shining light in our lives; a light that vanished too soon.  And even with

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We are resting in the sadness of our loss for now. Ginger Bear was a huge part of our life (we didn’t realize) and in her last month we spent more time doing special things for her. The void this has left in our lives is huge. And the word huge seems small now that I have said it. We know that each day will get easier and that at some point we will move into a place where all of these memories

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Ginger Bear  4 June 2002 - 12 March 2012

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This week we decided to embrace the spiritual quality of health. This is based on something that came up in my new course. After some discussion it occurred to us that we have been focusing on poor health and disease for many years. This is due to personal health issues, aging parents, and most recently health problems with Ginger Bear.  Our concern about what was happening around us turned into

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I am taking a course to give me a tune up as we head into spring. It is a spiritual tune up. I am discovering that I have let technology and life put me out of synch with where I want to be going. I am tearing down my foundations and rebuilding again on a solid foundation that is firmly rooted in a more purposeful connection with the Creator/Source that I Know and Trust. It has been a subtle

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I am sitting here wondering what it is that I want to say. I am hardly ever at a loss for words and it seems that the more I write the more I have to say. And that is pretty much all I have to say tonight. I do have a lot on my mind yet it has not jelled into anything that wants to hit the paper. In some silent way I am contemplating the mysteries of some universe. It is a sad night for us Ginger

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As it turns out this week is not so tough after all. I gave myself a Monday attitude adjustment and started again on Tuesday. I am always so amazed at how often I can stand in my own way and usually it is out of fear or ignorance. I am still wrestling with a few things (big things) and this causes me distress on a regular basis. I want to reach for and fulfill my dreams yet each day it feels like

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I want to say that life has been a bit of a roller coaster. Then when I look at what is happening in the tornado ravaged areas I have to admit that what I am dealing with really isn’t much. There is nothing like a natural disaster reality check to make you appreciate all that you have. I was once on a call with someone who made it through Katrina. It was conversation stopping for the rest of us

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I have been struggling a bit with myself. I know what I want to say yet I hold back pretending that I cannot hear and see what is more than obvious to me. It seems that this has been a bit of a safety net for me. Denial has kept me moving forward and has allowed me to play it safe as I do so. The thing that I have not realized (until now) is that the denial is finally catching up with me. I am

Unknownnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-793180143363520399.post-84670298465024889622012-02-27T19:23:00.000-05:002012-02-27T19:23:22.009-05:00

I didn't really kill my TV. After months of discussion we finally decided to give up satellite TV (previously our only option to TV as we are in a bad location for an antenna). We now have access to all that TV has to offer via the internet; however it is just not as convenient. It is however a free side benefit to the internet service we already get. I have been astonished over the past five

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I am taking a course (no not the engineering one) and our assignment this week was to think about what inspires us and to get in touch with the feeling of inspiration. I had a couple of wonderful examples of inspiration come up for me late last week, so it was easy to get in touch with the feeling of inspiration. I was just not sure that I could translate this into inspiration. However our

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As an engineer I am obligated to take continuing education training. The thing that is difficult is that for the most part the courses are boring. I have tried to figure out if it is just because I am not interested in engineering design or if they are really boring. The answer is that for the most part the classes are dull. And many of the people attending do not care that they are there; they

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We have started to settle into a new way of life with our beloved Ginger Bear. The surgery is behind her, yet the threat of a fast moving cancer waits somewhere in the future. It is hard not knowing yet we are so thankful for the additional time we have been granted. We are just doing all that we can to live our life with her to the fullest. I have a friend who lost her dog suddenly. This dog

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I am taking a late night course online. I guess most people would not consider it to be late. It gets done at 10:00 PM and I know that I will be almost comatose by then.  I could wait for the replay and am tempted to do that. I probably would get more out of it, yet it doesn’t have the same feel to it. There is a bit of energy lost. Even though they say the energy of the group stays with the call

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Not really much to speak about; it was just a break from my normal routine. It was not a vacation and it was not restful. I had thought I would write and spend time relaxing. I installed a closet organizer. When I got all done I wished that I hadn't bothered. The finished product did not wow me and more time consuming than it should have been. Sometimes more is just too much.

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We got a bit of rain and snow this morning. It was not enough to amount to much and as I headed out this morning I was struck by how spring like it was. It was not particularly warm; it just had the sense and feel of spring approaching.  As I continued my drive to work I felt a noticeable shift in the energy of the Universe. It is always hard to describe what that feels like. It is something

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I am feeling a bit unsettled today. I have started a new course and I am feeling a bit like it is just something, once again, that I will do with no results. I know that it is self- criticism that drives me to condemn projects that do not result in a new creation. For me it is all about the results of the project and not so much about the journey to get there. And the moment that I say this out

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