Ballerexx

Keep it to yourself.

2014-05-14T13:24:00.004+08:00

Mistakes that lead to tragedies,

A downpour of innocence,

Lead nowhere but despair,

Alas, I'll tread my path,

With no hand on my shoulder,

But a shovel hanging on my back,

To dig a well to place my thoughts,

For sometimes,

There are things that can't be shared.

Nostalgia

2014-05-14T00:12:00.003+08:00

It's been more than a year since my last post and I've almost forgot this page existed. It existed for different reason then , and it still exists for another reason today.

This blog was like a companion to me back then when I felt lost, confused and lonely. Reading back some of the posts, I find it amusing how I was so full of shit. I remember feeling free and senseless while thinking at the back of my head that someday a post will drive to instant fame.

I'm no writer nor am I aspiring to be one, but writing once gave me a feeling so good that I wish I hadn't lost. Like I was in my own little kingdom and the population is 1. My form of escapism from this sometimes 'meaningless' life.

I guess I'll start writing again in hopes that I would get back on the track with my life in Swinburne as I've seem to be derailing. The fundamental reason this blog still remains is still the same. Writing gives me solace.

Cheers!

Free will in religion?

2013-01-06T11:31:00.003+08:00

Now it has been ages since I last posted something here. Kind of forgotten about till I realised yesterday, how much I miss ranting to the cyber world. This is not my diary or anything like that. It's for people who live average daily lives to have something to 'entertain' themselves with in their 'essential free time' that we all love to waste.

Typical Christians go to church on Sundays. Sometimes I wonder, if a survey on how 'honest' you are with church going is done, how many percentage of my fellow Catholic brothers and sisters go to church out of total respect for the religion?

Priests and often parents too tell us that we should go to church on Sundays with an open heart to receive the Christ in the form Communion and to listen to the word of God. Is it any wrong for us to carry this duty just as an obligation to the church? Aren't we actually obligated (forced?) to go to church cause skipping Sunday mass promises us eternal damnation?

I always belief that religion is a guide for us to understand the threshold of our free will. We should not be forced to believe that Jesus is the saviour of the world (I'm not a non-believer. Trust me). It all boils down to our own free will if we choose to believe, isn't it? We can't blame parents, priests, friends or anyone for that matter if we 'stray' away from the light.

God gave us a free will. And no one can ever change that. "A Clockwork Orange" is an eye opener of a movie that questions free will. Highly recommended movie.

Anyway, I'm not judging anyone's faith here, nor am I questioning mine. I may not a hardcore Catholic nor do I memorise every prayer and say the Rosary everyday, but I do have faith in God and I believe in the Bible.

My question is, what's the correlation between the free will I have and my faith in God?

It sucks when...

2011-10-26T02:13:00.000+08:00

We aim for the stars but we don't have the brains to achieve it.

It sucks when....

2011-10-25T02:13:00.001+08:00

Your best isn't enough.

Maths test. LOL

2011-10-25T01:06:00.003+08:00

You know that feeling you get when you have prepared yourself for something where can you just shout out cockily "Give me you best shot", but in the end, you're actually weren't half as ready as you should be?

I made that complicated.

I meant have you studied so hard for a test or something but still can't achieve your satisfactory goal?

Of course you have.

Well, the thing about test is that if you don't have the proper study technique, exams can really give a wedgie while pouring a bucket of ice cubes down your pants and leave you hanging on a meat hook in a meat freezer.

That's what happened to me today.

It was not as hard as waking up at 6am on a Saturday nor was it as tough as trying to ignore the alarm clock.

Well, it's not as bad as I made you picture it, but still, I felt I could do better if only I had studied not my ass off but studied smartly and wisely.

But of course, it happened and there's no way I could turn back time to fill in the hole of my regrets. I am proud enough to say that I gave it my best shot and whatever the result is, it's what I'm capable to achieve.

I just wanna complain.

Have a nice day peeps!

Malaysians love demoralising news!

2011-10-19T11:51:00.002+08:00

These are the two snaps I took from last night at around midnight at today around noon. 12 hours later, what news are the most viewed?

Are we concern Malaysians or do we just indulge ourselves in such immoral activities?

Think about it people. Why does this happen?

So yeah, I'm gonna read those news too!

Have a nice day peeps!

Physics test.

2011-10-13T02:54:00.001+08:00

I have a test tomorrow for Energy and Motion.

Let's see how it goes.

Need to get some mental rest.

Or else :

Q: What's the average velocity of the car if it travels for 12km in 20s from rest?
A: Godspeed.

Life's tiring so far. Why am I not adjustable?

I hope I have a nice day peeps!

Questions..

2011-10-13T02:20:00.001+08:00

Why have I have been so lazy lately?
Why do I feel like I'm running away from something?
To what am I distancing myself too?

What is my conscience up too?

All fragments of my desire have been blown away.
Am I inviting a new desire?
Or am I building up the fragments I've thrown away?

What do I want?
What's my purpose?
What's my aim?

Why do I want this?
Why is this my purpose?
Why is that my aim?

How do I get what I want?
How do I know it's my purpose?
How do I achieve my aim?

Where do I get what I want?
Where do I find my purpose?
Where does my aim lead me to?

Questioning leads to searching. Searching leads to finding answers. And answers will lead to questioning.

The cycle goes.

Why do I ask questions?
Cause it's by asking that we know what we need.

Have a nice day peeps!

JJ.

2011-10-08T15:04:00.003+08:00

A great song to make your day go :).

You make me smile.

2011-10-08T02:46:00.002+08:00

The shade of the night swayed me away,

To a capable view of the sunrise,

That embraces your beauty in a glorious design,

All rays of my desire shine on you.

Just some of the interesting photos I've taken lately.

2011-10-07T23:35:00.002+08:00

I went home and googled 'facelook' right away to see if this is some kind of a popular outlet and actually got positive results!

THIS!

Check it out yourselves.

So it's RM31.80 for the pair.

This actually the cheapest I've seen in my life. RM5 for 3 collar T-Shirts.

Differene of RM10?

I actually can't figure this one out. I really. Just. Can't.

Not so innovative Malaysian. I can only imagine the annoying rustling sound it makes while driving at a high speed. I have almost a similar problem with my Kelisa. Can't wind down.I wanted to blame the quality of locally manufactured cars but the car below blew me away from that thought.

Now who wouldn't want a car with wifi but only funcitons for YouTube Vids?

Dad kills teen’s married boyfriend

2011-10-07T16:58:00.001+08:00

AN ENRAGED man who learned that his teenage daughter was having an affair with a married man hacked the girl's lover to death at Lalgudi village in India's Tamil Nadu state.

Malaysia Nanban reported that before the incident on Monday, John Kennedy had warned 28-year-old Gopalakrishnan to stay away from his daughter.

But John's daughter, 16-year-old Jasmine Christina, also did not want to leave her boyfriend.

After repeatedly failing to break up the pair, the father blocked Gopalakrishnan while he was cycling in the village and killed him with a sickle.

Lessons to be learned from this news article I've taken from StarOnline.

Never mess with a man who has a sickle.
Never date a 16 year old girl if you're 28.
Never date a 28 year old guy if you're 16.
Never go cycling if you're married.
Avoid hackers. (pun intended)
Don't get married before you're 28 for guys.
Don't go for married guys if you're 16.

But seriously, this is shocking news, and of course, these are the kind of news that we love to read. That we find enticing. Entertainment at its top notch.

I happen to be one of the many people(victim) who are engineered by the media to enjoy unfortunate news.

Surely you are too right?

My condolences to the hacked victim's family.

Have a nice day peeps!

Thank you Swinburne!

2011-10-07T12:46:00.000+08:00

Thank you, thank you, thank you, Swinburne! Unfortunately, my parents can't make it. But it's okay. Still happy!

Have a nice day peeps!

My message to the PM.

2011-10-02T12:30:00.001+08:00

Taken from today's StarOnline.

PEKAN: Every Malaysian can become successful with a national education system that does not discriminate, said Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak.

He said the country’s education system had opened a pathway for many individuals to become successful within just one generation.

“We can see that our leaders, corporate figures, professionals and scholars are successful today because of an education system that made social mobility a reality,”

This system, he added, was probably much better than those practised in other advanced countries, where only people with status and means could have the opportunity to become successful.

“If a person were to be born as the child of a labourer in a ghetto, they would have a very narrow chance of succeeding in life,”

“Even if they are successful, it is because they have extraordinary skills in boxing or basketball."

“Whereas in Malaysia, we have the opportunity to change our lives through education due to our system that allows anyone regardless of economic status to enjoy success as long as they have the will.”

Then why was I not given a place in a government University when my I have CGPA of 3.00 in my STPM, sir? I had to go to a private university now and apply for PTPTN loan. Even that, PTPTN doesn't give a full loan so I have to pay the extra thousands of Ringgit with my parents money who are close to retirement.

I'm not judging that this is a mistake. But I'm thinking that what you have said might be a little overstretched.

If our education system is better than other advanced countries, does that mean that very soon that we are going to be more advanced than them? Since education is one of the fundamentals in achieving a more advanced country. Or am I too naive too see your point of view, sir?

And how extraordinary is extraordinary skill? There are many people I've seen in sports like NBA or football that possess average sportsmanship but still made it into professional sports. Why? Cause these advanced countries also focuses on groups of people who can't excel in their education but can excel in sports. Do we have that here, sir? I love basketball, but it seems as though that professional sports in this country is still behind many other countries.

And do you know that in schools now, there are many hidden fees that we have to pay? Co-curriculum fees, PIBG fees, School uniforms, Books, Photocopying worksheets and etc. It is true that they have the will, they have the opportunity to achieve success, but how many from the lower income group possess the will to handle all these 'hidden' fees? I suggest that this 'fees' should be looked into by your people, sir.

This is not me bashing the government or you sir. I believe you have good intentions but at times, you may be a little outstretched and forgot the little Malaysians whom in the present, might seem tedious and don't have any effect on your status as a Prime Minister.

But aren't we, the people. your priority?

I'm a Malaysian who's just voicing out my thoughts.

I know it's near impossible for you to come across this post, or even my blog, but I hope others who share the same message I have will reach to your understanding.

God bless Malaysia.

Have a nice day peeps!

What I see.

2011-10-01T23:56:00.001+08:00

Is the related videos just wrong or do I need to go for a psychological test?

Or is it just "Love"?

We shall meet again.

2011-09-30T20:16:00.001+08:00

Top : Philomina Lighter. Been friends for the last 12 years.

I call her "The Accountant" , cause she will always be the one who handles our budgeting when we hang out.

Mid : Thomas Shanon. Been friends for the las 12 years.

"The Joker." It's hard to bring down to have a serious conversation.

Bottom. Dominic Lian. Been friends for the last 7 years.

"Roach". Simply because he hates cockroaches. Oh, and he can really play the guitar and the piano. Basically, my partner in music.

Miss them.

To me, they define the meaning of best friends. The people to turn to when there's other wall to talk to.

They're just awesome.

Have a nice day peeps!

"The Long Day Is Over"

2011-09-29T18:33:00.003+08:00

After a long and tiring day, this is the perfect song to make you feel satisfied and complimented.

It can sometimes stir a melancholic feeling, brings up those nostalgic moments..

In other words, it's just a beautiful song to end cool down your hard day..

Norah Jones can often make me feel dreamy and transcends me away from here for a while..

This song lasts for 2:45 and consists of only 33 words. Yet, it's magical.

Feeling tired

By the fire

The long day is over

The wind is gone

Asleep at dawn

The embers burn on

With no reprise

The sun will rise

The long day is over

Hubby claims wife raped by ‘invisible man’

2011-09-28T20:20:00.000+08:00

From todays StarOnline

A MAN has claimed that his wife was raped by an “invisible man”, Sin Chew Daily reported.

The youth, in his 20s, said his wife would remove her clothing, touch her own body and moan while sleeping at night, since a month ago.

He sought help from a me- dium, who then told him that someone had used black magic to take away the wife's “soul” and rape her.

The couple, from Bintulu, Sarawak, lodged a police report but the cops could not do anything to arrest the “invisible man”.

I'm so proud to be from Bintulu!!

Have a nice day peeps!

Engineering Drawing.

2011-09-27T20:40:00.002+08:00

Can someone make love engineering drawing?

"It's all up to you"
"No one can help you but yourself"
"What's drawing?"
"Engineers draw?"
"Since when do engineers know how to draw?"

It's when science meet art. Or rather, logic.

Somehow, the engineering part just doesn't seem to find it's way to my artistic side.

Even the ruler can be confusing.

"Eh, itu jurutera ada klas melukis ah? Saya tidak pandai guna itu pembaris buat garis. Nak pakai yang cm ka Inch punya tepi untuk buat itu garis?"

It's not that I hate drawing so much. It's the tediousness that I have to go through when doing the task. It's more like precision drawing.

"Eh, kalau 1cm sama dengan 10mm , 1mm sama dengan berapa inci leh?"

It's time consuming.

"Rex, it's been a week since you passed the deadline to submit your tutorial. Have you started drawing?"
"Draw?"

And I really can't picture and know what to draw.

"Rex, you draw this lines joining here and there. Then you extend the line so that it meets here. After that you must draw the dimensions and stat here. After finishing that, write down your name in this column and proceed to draw a curve here after you've done drawing the line in mm that is not more than what the rule states so that you can get marks if you draw correctly"
"Okay. I understand that part, sir. But when do I start drawing?"

I don't know. I just don't like to draw. Adding salt to wound, I have to do it neatly, which is an aspect I've kept hidden deep in my inner core, never to be found again.

"Rex! Why your work so messy?"
"Are all good engineers neat and tidy, sir?"

I just don't want to fail or get just a minimum pass for this subject.

I haven't started using AutoCAD yet.

Don't know what will happen then.

Have a nice day peeps!

Green light means pretty colour in the sky?

2011-09-26T18:39:00.001+08:00

Why do some people slow down when the traffic light is green?

Just to make sure that the traffic light doesn't turn yellow ah?
So that you have enough time to decide to accelerate or to brake ah?

So annoying la some people in traffic.

Fortunately, Lite.fm is constantly playing an ad that goes something like this :

"It's easy to lose your temper on the road. Like when someone suddenly cuts your lane or someone threw an egg at your windshield or even maybe even a police officer pulling you over in the middle of traffic to ask for directions to the nearest 7Eleven. In no circumstances must you resort to violence and knock down the motorcyclist who knocked your side mirror while overtaking you."

Something like that la. Can't remember the whole thing.

So I just had to join the car in front of me, cruising down the road while admiring the beautiful greenery of the traffic light.

Haiya. If the traffic light is still green, you don't have to slow down to take picture of the traffic light and twitpic it just to tell your friends you've waited your whole life for it to happen.

Green means go.
Yellow means pedal to the meta.
And red? You can go head la if you want to meet your maker early.

Drive safe.
And SMART.

Have a nice day peeps!

"A Circle That Doesn't Quite Meet"

2011-09-25T15:29:00.000+08:00

An awesome interview with a great man of science and music. Love Brian May.

The Grand Design by Stephen Hawking And Leonard Mlodinow

2011-09-25T12:37:00.001+08:00

I remember buying "A Briefer History Of Time" a couple of years ago ; it's an updated version of Hawking's bestselling "A Brief History of Time"; a book by Hawking and Mlodinow. And I was really fascinated by the contents of the book as it made look at the universe in a whole different perspective, a perspective I never knew existed!

The manner in which Hawking explained briefly about how science have evolved throughout the many centuries was just alluring and despite my busy schedule then, I was able to able to finish the book within a few days.

And just last year, both Hawking and Mlodinow produced another new book, which similarly tackle the most common question asked by Hawking "Is there a need for a divine being in the creation of the universe?" . His idea of the beginning of time certainly opposes my religious beliefs, but the curiosity I have in what he has to say just made have to buy this book, only with an open mind.\

I got this book a few weeks ago, but only recently manage to find time to indulge in this book. I know I won't be disappointed.

What is reality?

Are you being yourself?

2011-09-25T02:28:00.002+08:00

Do you know how to be yourself?

Do you know who you are?

Do you know yourself?

Who are you?

Are you sure you are being yourself?

Are you sure you're not being what the society/media want you to be?

Enslaved.

2011-09-25T00:00:00.002+08:00

Time chains to our feet,

While we stand in between,

The future pulls us ahead,

As we drag along our history.

Dusting off those pieces,

That we intend to ignore,

But our heart is too stubborn,

To set ourselves free.

Is that how life should be?