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Amber — Sun, 20 May 2012 00:26:47 +0000

This post is racially charged. As is my life, but like many women of color, I tuck much of me in. When I was in 6th grade, a boy in my class said he wished he was white. The whole class, made up of 99% Black children and led by a Black teacher, fell silent. [...]

Fluid.

Amber — Mon, 26 Mar 2012 13:39:28 +0000

When I write my heart aches. Sometimes I cry and the words come faster than I can type them. I need complete and total silence. Occasionally, I need to hear a very specific song, and then it too must be shushed. It is at these moments when I feel fluid. Completely capable of putting my [...]

Burp.

Amber — Thu, 01 Mar 2012 13:55:21 +0000

Lately, I have asked myself a lot why I stopped writing. Sure, there was the whole “I need a job” thing and the whole, “I want my blog to be more ____[insert something unauthentic]___” thing. I went through the “benchmarking myself against other blogs” thing and eventually settled on the idea that “I don’t really [...]

2012.

Amber — Tue, 07 Feb 2012 14:32:58 +0000

They are back at it again. Nudging me to get these words out. Sending me back into my archives to find things I have written to feel emotional about them all over again. It typically starts with someone asking me about my blog or me encountering another writer whose style I admire. What follows is [...]

Space.

Amber — Fri, 28 Oct 2011 14:18:09 +0000

Let me preface this post with this statement: I am in the happiest space I have been in my life. Even at 20 pounds over weight. Even with my grandmother in the state that she is in. Even with a number of things that remain out of balance – I am very happy. I just [...]

Black.

Amber — Wed, 12 Oct 2011 03:35:01 +0000

This post is a little sensitive, but I try not to shy away from the obvious issues, because without some attention, they will never reach any semblance of a resolution. I am a Black woman. While I may be very fair, have light colored eyes, and not the kinkiest of hair – I am still [...]

Pitch

Amber — Fri, 07 Oct 2011 13:10:21 +0000

My tone has changed. Finally. A sincere improvement in my natural pitch. People who speak to me regularly have taken a moment to note it, and although I don’t actually hear the joy in my voice, I feel it. I have been a great many places, both physically and mentally. Many of them uncomfortable or undesirable. [...]

Favorite Things.

Amber — Mon, 01 Aug 2011 12:30:32 +0000

I have spent a lot of time in my life trying to be several things I am not. What those things are is kind of irrelevant and could create a complication in one understanding my next statement, so I won’t detail them. I am great at a number of things. Just about any thing I [...]

Verbal Warning

Amber — Wed, 22 Jun 2011 13:06:44 +0000

“Consider this a verbal warning.” Ever had a leader who ruled with fear? The kind of leader who had a roster of demands and deadlines and if you mess up anything, just once, their knee jerk, reactive leadership style had you on the receiving end of a sentence like the one above? Leaders who use their authority [...]

Identifying the Important Things

Amber — Tue, 31 May 2011 22:19:06 +0000

This spoke to me: I have a very hard to impossible time forcing myself to do things that I don’t want to do. When I feel that lack of motivation, there’s always a reason. I instinctually know whatever I’m working on is not actually worth it — that all this effort I’m about to put [...]