BawangJalan Story

I can't wait.

2012-06-17T02:03:00.000+08:00

No no no no. It is not mine.

Nope.

It is belong to my brother.

He's getting engage. Finally.

I keep thinking before, will he ever marry someone.

Will he ever getting engage.

And now, I got the answer.

Me and my brother never get along back then.

I really mean it. Never.

We will always argue the moment we speak.

So, I will avoid him.

I thought that he never loves me. Or even care.

But I thought it wrong.

He loves me, it's just. I don't know.

Ego or something. But now, as we grow up.

I can see that he cares.

In every single way.

And for the first time ever, he advised me on something.

Which I really appreciate.

Oh well, enough said.

I can rant about us all day long.

Whatever it is, I am so happy for you my brother.

I really am :')

Uuuuyesss. I have crazy brothers.

Till death do us apart. :')

Someday it will be My day. :)

2012-06-16T05:06:00.001+08:00

Hai, assalamualaikum.
Now. Seems like lots of my friends fall in love.
Be in love. Guess now it's a month of love. :)
I can feel that the love is in the air.
Love is surround me now.

Oh well, somehow seeing them make me feel a bit sad.
Not really sad. Its actually more to empty.
Yeah, I do have friends. Tons.
But somehow, a girl just need a man in her life.
A man who can embrace her.
A man who can take care of her.
A man who can love her.
A man who can cherish her.

I'm not a woman who demand a lot of things.
I don't.
I guess my time hasn't come yet.
I can't wait for you.
You, the one who will be in my life.
The one who will love me no matter what.

I know I will find someone.

I know I will be loved.

I know I will get to recite the love poem.

I know I will get to bake him cake.

I know I will get to cook for him

And I know I will live with him forever.

I just know.

It's just sometimes I feel a bit sad. That's all.

I will make myself ready before I meet you.

I will make myself perfect before I meet you.

I will make myself good before I meet you.

Someday, somehow, it will be my day. :)

I am too excited

2012-06-15T00:57:00.000+08:00

Okay, as you know, I'm too excited.
So, I did a little something for you to remember.
Since we are too busy to celebrate.

I know this is not as much as a friend could give.
But I did it from the bottom of my heart.
Hope you enjoy.

Ini khas untuk awak wahai kawan.

Occasionally

2012-06-14T02:11:00.002+08:00

So, I have been neglected my blog for awhile.
But still, I write it occasionally.
Whenever there's anything to celebrate.
Or something to be remembered.

So, now my life seems a bit dull.
But there are some fun things that is going on.
A few, I may say.

Friends here are way more different than I had back then in Malacca.
I guess we need some times. I need some times.
I get to see a lot of behavior here.
And it teaches me on how to handle them.
Seems like there's a lot I have to learn on human behavior.
Anyhow, I think someday I can get over it here.

Okay, to those who vaguely know me.
I am a sensitive person.
Oh well, I love to interfere into people's lives.
I guess it is my habit.
I can cry because of it or being excited.
I love to share feelings with my friend.

To my friends,
Don't worry about me.
Well, I know. I did some complain.
haha.
But, I will be fine.
I will get through my life here.
I will find way to stay strong.
I will be.
:)

Congratulation Su

2012-06-13T03:33:00.002+08:00

There's one friend who in relationship now.
I am so happy.
I am. I love to see people happy.

Don't worry friend, I will always support you.
I won't leave you, only because you have a boyfriend.
We are friends now, and will always be.

And it seems like its time for you to be loved. Stop thinking about others.
What you do now and before is enough. It is.
Now its time for you to create your own world.
People will keep on talking. Good things, bad things.
But in the end, its the inner you that important the most.
The love you share with is the important the most.
For me, I can't express how happy I am.
About others, don't worry. They will come around. Okay :)

Congratulation. You now have someone to talk to.
To complain to. Most importantly someone who you can love.
Someone who can take a good care of you.

Here is what you need to do :
Love him, embrace him, take care of him. Understand him.
Helps him. And nothing can go wrong.
Your time has come. :')

And don't worry. Someday, it will be my day.

I miss you big sister. I do.

2012-06-10T03:08:00.001+08:00

Entah kenapa rasa sedih sangat.
Bau kelopak bunga ros yang ika campurkan
dengan daun pandan tu masih lagi terbayang-bayang.
Saat pusara itu ika taburkan masih diingatan ika.

Tak pernah ika lupa macam mana ika dinasihat.
Belum lagi terlupa siapa yang akan pastikan ika wangi.
Tak mungkin terlupa yang ika pernah ada big sister.
Hidup kite sekeluarga dah macam adik beradik.

Ika menyesal sebab tak ikut ibu tengok kak lin.
Bagi ika kerja ika lebih penting.
Siapa tahu, itu adalah saat terakhir yang ika terlepas.
Tiada siapa tahu macam mana menyesal nya ika.
Penyesalan yang tidak boleh diubati.

Malam pemergian kak lin, ika tak tido.
Terbayang-bayang saat kak lin duduk dengan ika bercerita.
Menangis sampai mata bengkak.
Berhari-hari ika tak tido.
Ingat je.

Ingat masih ingat pesan kak lin.
Jaga ibu. Sayang ibu.
Kak lin sayang sangat ibu.
Ika rasa ika pun tak boleh sayang macam tu.

Kak lin jaga ika macam adik sendiri.
Ingat tak masa ika kecik kecik kak lin selalu mandikan ika?
Tapi bila kak lin nak pergi, tak sekali pun ika sempat mandikan.

Ika sayang kak lin. Hati ika takde sape tau.
Tapi sungguh, ika sayang.
Kenapa terlalu cepat?
Bukan ke kita janji nak duduk meja vip masa wedding ika?
Nak kenal dengan suami ika?
Nak tunggu ika dapat kerja?

You the only big sister I had. and will always be. I love you.

I am sad, I am in mourning, I am depressed.

Al-Fatihah.

You always have the beautiful smile ever.

Hijrah

2012-04-02T00:39:00.001+08:00

ingin berhijrah daripada sekarang ke yang lebih baik. Insya-Allah

Farewell darling

2012-03-15T03:43:00.001+08:00

thanks sebab kejutkan bangun pepagi

thanks sebab selalu terima email

thanks sebab dapat contact dengan kawan free

thanks sebab selalu potong kredit aku

thanks sebab dapat sentiasa ber-facebook

thanks sebab boleh download lagu terus masuk kat phone

thanks sebab mengeratkan aku dengan kawan kawan aku

thanks sebab tangkap kan gambar aku dengan orang yang aku sayang

thanks sebab bagi aku kenal twitter

thanks sebab teman aku sepanjang aku forever alone ni

thanks sebab selalu habis battery cepat

thanks sebab ade notepad

thanks sebab kau sangat hebat

walaupun dah kuno type kau ni tapi aku sayang kau. :'(

baliklah. aku janji aku belikan kau battery original yang baru dan baju baru. baliklah :'(

Gurau je

2011-12-01T16:51:00.000+08:00

maaflah kalau gurauan aku kadang-kadang melampau.
haihhhhh. susah ni. aku suka sangat bergurau.
sampaikan tak tahu nak limit kan gurauan tu.
bukan sengaja.
tapi percayalah, gurau je. tak lebih pun.

senyap sunyi

2011-11-29T18:35:00.002+08:00

orang buat keje aku buat menda.
hapdet blog dekat library. feeling feeling sikit.
syok gile. hahahaha.
sebenarnye tunggu mia cari buku.
facebook takleh bukak tapi blog terbangtinggitinggi boleh pulak bukak.
-___-"

The time has come

2011-11-28T18:22:00.000+08:00

this is "the" time.
the time when I need someone to lean on.
I'm exhausted. I'm totally out.
There's no energy anymore.
Only tears running out fast.
I need to lean on someone even for awhile.

Pleaseee.
Pretty pleaseeee.

:'(

Penat.

2011-11-28T04:24:00.003+08:00

perah air mata seharian dan akibat terlalu memikirkan mate tidak mahu tutup untuk menanti hari esok. seakan nye sukar untuk membiasakan diri bergembira menanti esok. bergembira sedangkan ade yang berduka, itu bukan cara yang sepatutnya. dan semestinye itu bukan aku. walau banyak mana pun keyakinan bahawa "baik baik saja" itu diberitahu. aku masih tidak mempercayai nya.

Air mata.

2011-11-27T18:20:00.000+08:00

Kadang kadang, walaupun tengah berseronok,
kalau aku nampak orang menangis pun aku boleh sedih.
tengok hindustan sedih sedih pun aku jadi sedih.
tengok orang nak mati lepastu die terseksa pun sedih.
kalau orang melalui kepayahan hidup pun aku boleh sedih.
kalau tengok happy family get together at last pun sedih.

Dan aku akan jadi lebih teruk sedih malah menangis bila tengok ibu sendiri mengalir kan air mata.
Maal Hijrah aku patut nya dikerumuni perasaan gembira tapi Maal Hijrah aku kali ni dikerumuni hati yang sedih dan mata yang sering mengalirkan air mata.

Bertahan lah ibu. Eqa kan ade.

Sekali

2011-11-23T00:43:00.000+08:00

Kita hidup sekali, mati sekali, kahwin sekali dan insya-Allah bercinta sekali.

Life's short so, forgive quickly, live fully, love truly, laugh uncontrollably and never regret anything that made you smile. (Guzaarish, 2010)

Atotototooooo bebi bebi

2011-11-22T00:00:00.004+08:00

thank you for helping me getting through this 3 ~~fucking~~ stupid months.

makan kat kfc lepas balik dari bank islam.

sumpah, budak kat kfc tu nyampah ngan kite.

aku rasa kite takya gi situ lagi lah eh.

hahahaha. -..-

*aku rasa macam sangat popular pakai mia nye shades. hahaha*

Can I?

2011-11-21T00:00:00.023+08:00

Whenever I'm happy or I'm tired or even worse when I'm sad,
if I ever need to lean on you,
will you offer me your shoulder?

will you?

kenapa?

2011-11-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

kenapa ye perasaan ni berubah?
mula-mula kenal pastu buat-buat tak kenal.
tak best lah perasaan tu.
kalau ade salah dan silap, mohon tegur.
bukan nya biarkan dan lepaskan macam tu je.
sekurang-kurang nya boleh lah belajar dari kesilapan.

oh well, maybe the quote is right.

I'm pissed off

2011-11-19T02:58:00.001+08:00

Please don't piss me off because you will hate me when I do. Just don't. Limit yourself. And stop being rude.

Ini kebenaran dan pengakuan. hikhik.

2011-11-16T01:12:00.000+08:00

dengan ini hendaklah aku mengkhabarkan bahawa,
aku minat lelaki pakai kacamata.
tak tahu kenapa.
tertarik betul dengan mereka yang pakai kacamata.
they look educated you know.
okay lah okay lah. tak caye? tengok ni.

tengok tu tengok tu.

atotototototo.

comel kan.

nampak educated kan.

oh well, its just I have a 'thing' with man wearing glasses. hikhik

Something

2011-11-13T01:08:00.000+08:00

Something that I really miss.

Rindu masak-masak ngan korang.

Rindu nak pergi tesco ngan korang pastu ikut korang pilih pilih jajan.

Rindu nak gi makan kat 'pasha'

Rindu nak cuci cuci rambut korang.

Rindu nak facial muka korang.

Rindu nak pillow talk ngan korang.

Rindu nak cuci kereta ngan sara.

Rindu nak keluar lepak-lepak ngan korang,

buka puasa, sahur.

Rindu nak kejutkan sahur.

Rindu nak tako tao ngan korang.

Rindu nak tengok korang photoshoot.

Rindu nak makan char kuey tiaw

Dan yang PALING rindu : serumah dengan korang.

untuk =

Sara : rindu nak gi kelas, kejut kan dan dikejut kan kau, teman kau isi minyak,cucuk duit, beli mouse, sushi-ing,cool blogging, cuci rambut, facial and almost everything I did there in Melaka.

Yuyun : Rindu nak ngadu kat awak, tidur ngan awak, gedik gedik ngan awak.

Nadia : rindu nak masak ngan nadia, kejut nadia bangun sahur tapi nadia dah bangun dah pun.

Fa : rindu nak duduk sebilik ngan fa pastu tengok fa pening pilih baju nak pakai.

Zee : rindu nak lepak ngan zee, nak facial muka zee.

:'(

Jangan lupa aku disini tau tau tau.

Missyou dear housemates.

Attention!

2011-11-12T04:05:00.001+08:00

okay okay. memang banyak pun entry lepas lepas dah delete.
its due to starting new life.
macam hagham entry lepas-lepas tu kalau ditengok balik. banyak jugak lah yang aku delete.
tapi takpe, i'm making new memories starting now.
will be updated new story and new memories soon.
:)

Friends

2011-11-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

Feels like being left out.
the one that I always hope will be there the most,
unfortunately never be there.
*sigh*

its quite funny when we're trying so hard but they just take us for granted.
don't we ever promise that we will always be for each other,
no matter how hard it will be?
don't we?
now tell me what does all those things mean?
friends, bff, and anything you might call.

what I need now is friends for life.
who will stand by me but has the limits.
who will share the problem but still there's a limit.
I really need one of those.
we can be friends with anybody we want but there should be a limit,
if not, we might end up with frustrated, anger, upset when they are not around.
or maybe when they accidentally forget about us.

right now, I don't think I got one. No Offence

It's the family that matters.

2011-11-01T20:05:00.003+08:00

hai.

holidays are just around the corner.

lots of assignment need to be done.

lots of test awaiting.

despite of all the things, its the family gathering that excite me.

I can't think about anything else.

I just think of my family gathering. the big family gathering.

all my cousins will be there. well, i guess.

really looking forward on that.

till then.

its beautiful when everybody gathers. even though still they are few not in this picture.

HAPPY HOLIDAYS DEAR READERs.

Money rules.

2011-10-25T19:41:00.000+08:00

Money rules the world.

how's that?

can't believe it?

yeah, some might say that, its not the money that has to take all the blame,

its the desire of that person who does.

oh well, for me it is not.

Let me give you an example. what if you needed that money for something important.

Like doing the assignment? its that the person desire? hell no.

Without the money everything will get messed up.

Everything can't be on its own place.

And how pathetic is that when it happen?

and not everybody could understand it.

well, money do rules the world and that is why we have to get a good grade to get good job in order to get good pay.

till then.

lotsa love,

eqa.

My glory day.

2011-10-22T00:47:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah, tomorrow I will be getting my scroll.