Beautifully Natural

Creative Process

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 11 Feb 2012 06:43:00 +0000

Testing lights..

Incubation is pretty much where I am at right now, in between life - somewhere deep in a secret realm, I am scratching my head over the technical aspects of new technology, what it is that I want, and how to make it happen.

Testing, testing, and more testing.. Results, and seeking even better ones.. Does it look normal? Familiar? It's not good enough..

Testing sound..

The creative process for me is home. That bubbling energy where I get to ask myself what do I want to create, and find out how to make it happen. Getting to the heart of the feeling that inspiration sparked, which could have come from anything. Stripping it bare from the fog, right to its very core, and finding the best way to bring it out.

Then comes all the technical stuff, the craft, the physical process.. Learning the tools and techniques. I admit, I am impatient, I want to just make it all happen as I see it in my mind, quickly! But things don't make themselves out of nowhere, and this part takes painstaking time and effort.

Raw video image

Processing test

Then comes the result...

In my process the end result is usually never presented, but works as a draft which I have to improve further. So after the end result there are about 3 more creatures till the final, true end result is formed, and presented.

All of this takes a generous amount of time, but it's enjoyable all throughout and I wouldn't know where to be, or how to be without it.

We are Magi, and we must do what we do :)

Video Update

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Wed, 08 Feb 2012 00:35:00 +0000

Just so you know :) Video cam should be here tomorrow, I can't wait!

And yes, those are the Jewels of the Faery Shamaness on my neck!

A New Venture - Crystal Visions Tarot Review

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 04 Feb 2012 07:33:00 +0000

As I had hinted before, new things, self expression galore and spirit - faery style ;)

I am looking at cameras and will hopefully get a decent one soon enough.. Here are the images I took of this lovely deck:

You can purchase it through Amazon or the artist's website http://crystalvisions.com.

And yes, I am wearing the Keeper of the Sacred Leaf and though hard to see, Daeire's Crystal Shards earrings:

I hope you enjoy the efforts, and there shall be more to come :)

<3

6 Months!

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Fri, 03 Feb 2012 13:39:00 +0000

It's February and that means I've been riding the fruit wagon for 6 months!

I still love it, feel awesome and don't see why I'd want to take any other approach. I'm about to grab my breakfast mandarin juice (13 of them bright amber jewels), and wanted to share what I'll have for lunch in the awesomemost form I could find, in celebration of this milestone :) Here's Josh, enjoy!

Strange As One

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Wed, 01 Feb 2012 13:18:00 +0000

To feel strange as one - the irony..
I adapted to another, for a long long time.. I struggled with that new me, but I adapted, and it became who I was.
Then it changes, the promise of another, a glimpse of what could be the harmonious one.
But what sort of creature was I becoming... An outpouring fountain, receiving so little, going dry.
Then a gush here, a gush there... An inconsistent flow, I struggle to adapt.
I struggle to adapt
I struggle to adapt
I let go

And I feel strange, in my own flow, as one. I feel strange at home, as I came, as I will go.

Like a clay that seeks a new form, drawn to become more than just me, with another.

But it seems, I've forgotten me... And only when I remember, and beam myself out
will I call out to that one other, the one who fits me like a glove
and together, we shall be home
as one

And when I do, it will be so doubtless and glorious you'll all be nauseated reading about it :)

Eating for Light

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Mon, 30 Jan 2012 17:21:00 +0000

The You When No One's Watching

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sun, 29 Jan 2012 08:04:00 +0000

Without going into a lot of detail and rationale, I want to share the space I'm emerging from at this moment... I have been in a cocoon, centering and tuning into new energies. Least to say, I'm sure everyone has felt the recent charged solar energies in their lives.

We are being magnetized and as a result, even more integrity is pushing from within our essence, wanting to burst and be expressed.

The safety nets are dissolving... I am certainly coming out of my closet and refining my contributions to be better aligned with my heart and who I am.

My leaning towards mysticism is no secret. The energetic principles of harmony are the battery that fuel my life line. To see how everything interconnects through the principle of love, and how it all plays out in the realm of symbols and matter, better known as 3D/4D.

But these are not solid realms to be in, and they do bear a sense of knowing and responsibility. I had never wanted to carry it, so I've used my share of safety nets along the way to grow without the risk of exposure, to be in both worlds and neither at once. I've disguised what I do with generic wrappings and let the essence of it do what it must, which was enough for me.

But with these upgrades from the universe comes a greater responsibility to be in deeper alignment with Self.

As I'd mentioned in a previous post, the universe will push us to become more authentic and aligned with our hearts, and the more we raise our energy, the more this will happen.

So I will allow myself to be more exposed and at the same time, be a better contributor for the cause of harmony. I will be combining the many parts of Self that I've nurtured throughout my life in my own space, and share them more openly.

I feel it necessary to do so at this point, and just as I'm letting my life align deeper with my heart now, I hope you will also. We need you, the real you, the you in love, the you when no one's watching.

Declaration of Independence

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Tue, 24 Jan 2012 05:21:00 +0000

I seem to have unknowingly stumbled into a gloomy swamp and would like to, on this new moon, make a few things crystal clear..

First is my detachment of certain labels if not most of them. I do not live according to any rules or systems. I act upon my feelings, common sense and intuition. I have a live and let live approach to life, I take nothing too seriously and I'm all too happy to bathe in a fanatic repellant serum, because I care for none of that in my life.

So let me dissect that which has decided to cross me: A puritan or fanatic takes pride in the illusion of being passionate about a particular subject or cause. The truth is, a puritan or fanatic, though wearing a righteous mask, is anything but authentic. A puritan or fanatic is someone that is trying to overcompensate for a character flaw through a particular medium, and uses the criticism of others as a means of validation and reassurance.

The underlying problem with puritans and fanatics is self loathing on steroids. It is imbalanced, lacks compassion and plain common sense.

We all live, suffer, love and die. Life is an experience, and the best anyone can do is to love themselves, be authentic, concern themselves with the only thing they actually have power over, which is themselves, and fuel their deeds with honest good intention.

Authenticity is such a precious thing.. I like anyone as long as they are authentic. Usually these are the older people who have come to certain realizations about life most young people don't quite conceive. Or those who have experienced loss in the deepest sense. When you feel you've nothing more to lose and surrender to the moment, priorities shift. Oddly enough, the complete opposite is also true. Those who have experienced the deepest love throughout most of their lives also radiate authenticity.

Unfortunately, we live in a time where superficiality, externalization and self denial are way too prominent and encouraged.

Living on the surface of things is like an acid that breeds all sorts of lies, detachments, hatred, wars and confusion. The culprit of drama.

It's a very thick wall of programming that people have to break through to reach themselves, and there's no one out there encouraging anyone to do so. Quite the contrary. But it's a journey that must be taken against the tide of normalcy, acceptance and comfort. If you are repulsed by lies deeply enough, you will take it.

And this is what I loathe the most about copycats, whether they've targeted me or anyone else. They are choosing to be the antithesis of authenticity. You don't get any less authentic than modeling yourself after another.

There is no greater joy than reaching towards yourself and bursting your own essence out, fearlessly and with love.

Any label or group is, unfortunately, an aphrodisiac for fanaticism, which is why, as much as I'd like to feel a sense of belonging, just stay away from them. Put me in no box.

Underneath it all, it's a matter of living in the head, or living in the heart. I used to live in my head, I know all about it. Which is why I chose the heart.

To those who would and have targeted me or what I do to fuel their inquisition: Don't come at me with righteous banter. I'm not the solution to your problem.

More art and beauty to follow...

Shifting Through Different Levels of Consciousness

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 21 Jan 2012 03:55:00 +0000

Given that it's 2012 and we have been noticing if not feeling changes within the structures we've called life for however long we've been on this planet, I thought I'd share some of my experiences. I say different levels of consciousness because that's exactly how I've experienced it. Like a domino effect, for lack of a better analogy, my emotional, physical, mental, etc. - all levels of consciousness in my life have been under rather rapid shifts, with diet and health being a greater point of focus for me in particular, because I've been able to physically see a rather drastic positive change take place, resulting from this same domino effect on steroids I suspect many are experiencing as well. And especially after watching a recent interview with Dolores Cannon where she got into this topic, I've placed the video further below for anyone interested.

My dietary changes you could say began happening through what felt like an uncontrollable synchronistic influence.

Since 2003 I had been trying to eat a raw foods diet and failed. I gave myself a deadline by 2010. I thought I had plenty of time, but I never managed try hard as I did. The date came and passed and I felt like I had failed myself.

But after a series of life changes, rather drastic life changes: change of country, partner and life direction -- it suddenly became possible.

One thing simply led to another. Most things and events I had no control over but were simply happening to me and though they were very painful, I just trusted that life would be kind if I took it one day at a time and focused on raising my energy.

One morning in a Finnish island paradise during late summer in 2009 I had a dream where a white spirit came to visit me. She had a whole court of beings around her, and presented herself as the Spirit of the Island. Her energy was amazing and she told me about a new path or journey I would take on from that moment. That everything in my life prior had led me to that point, that it was all in perfect order, and that now things would shift. I had no idea at the time what she was talking about, but now it's all very clear..

After coming across things like permaculture, cob homes, the Ringing Cedar series and migrating to the tropics as a result, things had started to drastically shift. Then some almost supernatural events took place in my dream states most of all.

I began to feel a shift within myself, with new opportunities presenting themselves. It felt like the cosmos was rebooting my life and I had to just go with the flow and keep up, regardless of how crazy things appeared to be.

Still, it was all very stressful for me. The amount of stress I was dealing with took hold of my appetite for several weeks. I couldn't eat anything because I was so stressed and worried. I lived off cartons of soy milk throughout and these kept me going as I couldn't even get through a whole banana. My stomach was completely closed and my appetite had totally died out. It was worrying and I thought I'd end up at the hospital but then I got a hold of protein shakes and these gave me more confidence.

By the time I was able to eat solids again I thought I would take the opportunity and eat healthier, since I had lost all my food cravings. I still see this event as an involuntary dietary reboot, there really was no transition. I wasn't sure what dietary approach to take, but thought I should eat more fats since I generally didn't add them to my foods, and have no sugars, not even fruit. Clearly, I had fallen into a very prominent dietary "all sugar is bad" mindset.

My meals were whole vegan cooked foods with an increase in avocados. I also took tablespoons of coconut oil, added olive oil to dishes and coconut milk, etc. I ate mostly vegetables and grains.

I noticed I was feeling very heavy and sluggish, and also feeling very deprived and almost depressed. Like I had to have this tight control over the flavours I was consuming, everything was savoury, everything was mild and even though I had no cravings of any kind, I did feel that sweet was missing and with it the joy of eating and eventually living. It felt unnatural.

I would put stevia in my tea but that didn't do anything, it seemed it wasn't the sweet flavours I was missing, but whatever sweet contained nutritionally, if that makes sense.

I didn't understand why these 'healthier' foods were making me feel so lethargic instead of better, why my joints were still swelling up and hurting. At one point I was completely lost and didn't know what to eat anymore, even though I was hungry. I grew paranoid over food, I was at a loss.

That's when I came across a video by Dr. Morse which someone posted on facebook. He claimed to have cured MS, cancer, aids, and just about anything by putting people on fruit diets. I thought it was a bit outlandish of a claim to make so I searched for more information about him, and it turns out that he was saying the truth and had thousands of healed disease cases to back him up. Then I came across this video, where he tells you to take cheese, bread/grains and grapes and leave them on your counter top for several days, then see which will grow mould last. It was a no brainer. I was filling my body with foods that fermented, creating toxins. Add fats to that and it's fermentation x 100, since fats slow down digestion so much.

It all made sense, and from then on I decided to get away from the fats and the grains, and go mainly on fruits and see how things went.

After about two weeks I was feeling amazing. Energy levels were up the roof, I was blissful, my skin began to look more radiant, my body looked less puffy, my bo was gone.. I could really feel that I was in the right direction.

Today, 5 months later, I look back and think about 2003, when I started what seemed like an endless struggle towards eating mostly raw foods, and then 8 years later, how effortless it became almost overnight.

At the time I thought the fruitarian approach with mono meals was a level I would only manage to achieve years after doing gourmet raw. I couldn't even understand how people enjoyed eating like that at all. I tried it and didn't like it at the time. But I was in a cold climate with imported, unripe produce. It was much harder then.

Well, now that's my food and it's so normal to me. I have to laugh sometimes, but I think there's more at work with all this. I attribute shifting energies on the planet as well as us, as people. I did make an effort to raise my energy, and many changes followed.

Now that I watch this video it all makes a lot of sense; events, timing, etc. I mean, it is 2012 after all, and we are undergoing many vibrational changes. Just as she says, living fruits and vegetables are your highest source of nutritional energy. Lighter foods, with greater light and life force in them are in alignment with a body that's becoming lighter and in sync with the higher frequencies we're rushing into. It's not surprising that these are the foods with the highest water content available. Sweet juicy fruits and soft greens keep you hydrated and nourished.

She gets into diet at 10:10.
If you find yourself wanting to make changes for better health, an increase in these foods will set you in the right direction.

It is part of my life's purpose to spread the word, or more like inspiration towards natural health. This is why I talk about such things here where normally I have a more live and let live approach. As the frequencies rise on the planet, our bodies undergo changes and a need for higher frequency foods, along with detoxification are in greater demand.

Everything is intertwined, everything is wholistic. We cannot expect to hold a high frequency while our bodies are toxic and weighing us down. Just as we cannot have a very clean diet yet still maintain a toxic lifestyle that's out of alignment with our hearts and integrity.

The things which were out of alignment in my life shifted one by one and are still shifting. We like our comfort zones, these changes were for the most part painful, but eventually we move closer to our hearts. Our lives become not so much what we've thought we wanted or conformed to, but what actually brings us joy and growth. It can just be a little difficult to see this through the cleansing process. Not unlike going through physical detox itself.

After all, everything is energy, and everything counts in all levels of consciousness, seemingly now more than ever.

My Nutrition

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Tue, 17 Jan 2012 20:04:00 +0000

My "Why I am Vegan", now "Why I am a Frugivore" post drew quite a bit of attention (made a page of it you can see above), so I thought to add a bit more specific information regarding my nutritional habits on a daily basis for anyone wondering. To start, I'm adding some basic yet crucial information regarding my diet and hope this will help fill in the blanks.

The basics...

Eat slowly
I don't really sit down to just eat till I'm done. I eat while I do things, slowly, take my time, savour the meal but the meal itself seldom becomes the event of the moment unless I'm really hungry.

Eating enough
The anorexic mindset doesn't work here if you want to thrive. Empty calorie food portions also don't count here. These are whole, liquid, fiber and nutrient loaded foods that have less calories per volume. I know I've eaten enough when I really don't want anything else. I may not warm up to a mango but would still gorge down a bread roll, then I know I've not eaten enough. Sometimes you just have a bad craving nothing can cure and for this I just cheat. Eventually the craving for that food dies out.

From lighter to denser
Food combining is important, as well as food stacking due to digestion time. The more liquid/lighter things take less time to digest, so it's best to start with these and move towards the denser foods throughout the day. I start with plain water, then juice, then the next juicier fruit and usually leave bananas and vegetables last.

Mono meals are best
Just one type of food at a time sounds drastic, but you get used to it and feel so good you'll want to avoid a big mix, plus it's so much quicker and easier to prepare! You don't get faster food than this. I avoid more than 3 types of fruit in one meal.

What's in season
My menu changes according to what's in season and preferably local. Not only is this better health-wise but also financially. Seasonal produce is cheaper, better if it's local.

Staples and luxuries
I have my staple fruits which I buy in bulk. These are the easier and cheaper ones available. Generally for me these are oranges, mangoes and bananas, but are subject to change according to what's in season and price range. Luxury fruits are those which are more expensive or harder to find and I only enjoy them in smaller amounts. If you have money to throw then this is no issue. Variety is fantastic.

It's got to be ripe!
Unripe fruit is acidic to the body. Avoid it! Unripe fruit is not meant to be eaten, so don't eat it. Go for what's ripe and sweet. It has to taste delicious, otherwise it's not worth it. Same for overripe fruit, that's no longer fruit, it's alcohol. Avoid it! It's good to have backups for this, frozen or otherwise.

Convenience and backups
I never thought of this but turns out buying frozen fruit is not only convenient for when I can't find anything ripe, but cost-wise. Fresh berries can add to a nice lot but frozen are a fraction of the cost. Freezing fruit when they are going ripe too soon is also a great way to preserve them.

Bulk helps
My fruit stash can be daunting to most, but I need to have lots of produce at different ripening stages if I am to feed myself. I buy 2-3 cartons of mangoes, 9 in each. This looks like way too many mangoes but they are generally unripe and I pick about 2-3 at a time in the day as they ripen. If too many ripen at once then they go in the fridge where they last for over a week. Same with all other fruits.

Beyond food
A lifestyle change is wholistic, health is wholistic. First there's confidence in what you're doing, which can be mainly obtained through becoming informed. When you understand the science behind all this, it makes sense and fear can't come to haunt you.

I've been empowered by a professional with the highest success rate at curing anything. All he does is put people on fruit diets and medicinal herbs. If that's what it takes for a human body to be restored, then I don't see why a body should need anything else to remain healthy.

For lots of wonderful information see Dr. Robert Morse's youtube channel:
http://www.youtube.com/user/robertmorsend

Health not only involves what we feed our cells but how the body functions. A stagnant lymphatic system is a clogged body. This is the sewage in your body and it's propelled by gravity, meaning, if you don't move your body, it doesn't move and that causes all sorts of problems. Doing some kind of physical activity on a regular basis is crucial for health! Not only that, but you have to earn your meals. All this pure, sugar fuel needs a purpose, can't just sit around all day.

If however, you are feeling very tired and are getting some other detox symptom, by all means, rest is far more important. When you feel so energetic you want to get your body moving, that's the best time to do so.

Cheating is fine
This isn't boot camp. I've learned that for as long as we give our bodies clean fuel, but still crave other things, it's best to just give them within reason. Eventually you will become less and less attracted to them. They will make you feel bad, they won't taste as good anymore, you will want to make healthier substitutes and eventually you will forget all about them. Also, make sure you're not just hungry. The longer you wait to eat, the more perverse the cravings become.

Allow recovery
Our bodies have not only been subject to years and years of abuse, but also generations. Our genetic codes have been compromised and the younger we are when some nasty ailment shows up, the more clear a sign of it being genetic is. I got arthritis at age 23. My aunt, mother and grandpa all suffer from arthritis (essentially, irritated tissue from too many acids). A weak filtering system is something I have to address from my genetic memory, and it can be reversed. If a change in diet brings up any uncomfortable symptoms, don't panic. For assurance and guidance by a true expert with thousands of success cases from the simpler to the most drastic of illnesses as backup, see Dr. Morse. But don't blame the fruit and veggies, blame a body that's just not functioning to 100% and needs some love and care. If you think you had a rough start, my mother had uterine cancer when I was in her womb. That's the kind of environment my body was created in. If I can do it, anyone can do it. Patience and persistence are your best friends.

Alcohol, drugs, cacao and other stimulants
I don't drink alcohol, smoke or do any type of drug including pain killers, the pill, etc. Don't drink coffee, only herbal teas, water and fresh juices. I also stay away from chocolate and believe me, I was madly addicted to the stuff for years, now I'm indifferent so it can be done. These are adrenal busters meant to ease or crank a body running on poor quality fuel and are not even desired in a body getting prime fuel.

Supplements
If needed, herbal, homeopathic supplements are welcome in my life. B12 supplements are welcome. When I can't forage my own green power herbs like nettles, dandelion greens, clover, alfalfa and such I just buy them in capsules. What I'm not cool with are vitamin and mineral supplements because these are isolates and that's funky chemistry that bears a price. Plus I already consume massive loads of vitamins and minerals from my food so I don't need them.

Last but not least...
Yes I pee a lot! It's logical. When I consume a lot of liquid rich foods I pee more than when I don't. Means the body is working.

My average day looks more or less something like this.
On a good day I'll have 5 meals, but normally have 4, approximately 400 cals each.

BREAKFAST

glass of water
fresh squeezed orange juice: 4-6 cups, half before and half after a workout.

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watermelon: a whole fruit

BRUNCH

mangoes: 2-3 fruits

LUNCH

banana and strawberry smoothie: about 3-4 cups of banana to 1 cup of strawberries

DINNER Savoury treat!:
(If I don't just have more fruit, I have something like this....)

veggie soup: 6 cups of scratch fixed goodness - celery, pumpkin, sweet potato, broccoli, onion, garlic, sea salt w/ low fat salted crackers

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steamed broccoli: half to a pound with sea salt

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roasted sweet or regular potato: a whole medium or two small ones either wrapped in tin foil or cut into wedges, sprinkled with paprika, garlic powder and sea salt, baked in the oven

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low fat vegan hot dog with veggies

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mega salad

To wrap this up..

Low fat whole carb is the key, if I raise my fat above 10% of all my calories I can feel it the next morning with my breakfast. I feel wired on a sugar rush. This doesn't happen when I keep the fats below 10%.

One morning after having had too many almonds the night before (sampling while baking for the holidays), I had one small mandarin orange and felt a nasty sugar rush. I had to go on non-sweet fruits and non-starchy vegetables for 2 days till I could have my regular meals again. I've tested this a few times and it's always spot on.

It took a few days to get back to normal because unlike whole simple sugars, fats linger in the blood stream and add up. These coat the cell walls and prevent sugars from reaching the cells fast enough, so they linger causing sugar spikes. If you've been having more fat than you should for days on a row you will feel it when the levels accumulate in the blood.

Fruits and vegetables have the amounts you need when eaten in right proportions. A few nuts and seeds, some avocado, coconut, olives or other fatty fruits here and there are normal and healthy, the bigger and more active you are, the more you must eat and the more of these you can have easily but overdoing it bears consequences.

Also know that no living creature on the planet heats up their food before eating, only humans do. Cooked food will keep you alive, but you won't really thrive on it and the signs will be very clear mostly on your skin and energy levels. I still eat a cooked meal most of the time, but this is the absolute minimum of my daily food intake. Obtain the bulk of your nutrients from raw foods and consider cooked meals as treats.

Another point of interest is teeth and dental health.
I've had no issues to date with my teeth. I wouldn't recommend brushing extensively. I use a natural toothpaste that doesn't contain fluoride nor sulphides and brush twice a day. Some suggest you eat some soft greens after each fruit meal to cleanse your teeth, like celery. Feel free to try it.

Health matters to me..
And has for as long as I can remember. I say the day I give up on health is the day my family loses their morale, because everyone knows about my passion for health and proper nutrition. But before writing about it I've wanted to wear the robe, walk the talk, have the results and share my findings. All these years I had been searching for answers, trying different approaches and hoping for results.

I didn't have the best start in life. My fetus developed in a cancerous environment no woman would ever want for their baby to grow in. My mother took a great risk with giving birth to me. I also witnessed the life and demise of my grandmother, who had so many bottles of medication to take daily, she needed a special tray for them, as well as countless amounts of people living with disease and dying prematurely all around me. I swore to never let myself be put in that position, and that I'd do whatever it took to be and remain in good health the natural way. I am also fascinated with seeing how man fits into the scheme of nature.

They say that without a good reason there's no motivation, well I have had my reasons, and the best part is that today I am finally getting the results nothing else could give me, so I'm happy to spread the word.

Still, I am not a professional. What I know is what I've learned on my own, and what has worked in my life. I strongly suggest you seek the help of an expert like Dr. Morse if your condition is dire and if you feel it necessary to do so.

The curse of the sad ones.

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 18:37:00 +0000

Dear citizen of planet Earth, if you see something that looks like my work, it's a copycat. Make no mistake, what I conjure in my creative space is the fruit of my spirit and not anyone elses'. About every year or so a hollow being attempts to steal my artistic expressions and pass them off as theirs. Sometimes these sad individuals leave and learn their lesson, sometimes they pop up again with a new name thinking they can get away with it for long.

As with all that is genuine and coming from spirit, there are guardian angels all throughout the internet which inform me of these individuals, and since my work and company is protected by law, I'm never shy to do what I must to protect it.

Message to another sad soul once known as "I Tesori Della Luna" now "Natural Armonia",

(If you think using anonymouse.org to come here without me knowing is effective, you're dumber than I thought...)

So che sono stato un sacco di venire qui, so che mi sono state a guardare su internet per anni. So che hai cercato di fare questo prima, e sono stati catturati, vergogna, è scomparso e ora sono riemersi, anni dopo, solo per tentare di fare la stessa cosa.

Qualunque sia la tua ossessione per me, non lo so, ma mi fa star male.

Non è solo la prima ha cercato di copiare il mio lavoro, ma anche passato la mia bio intero attraverso Google Translate, reso in italiano, cambiato il mio nome per il vostro e lo passò fuori come il tuo.

Ora si sta scegliendo frasi, parole, temi e nomi. Ora si chiama il tuo blog "Armonia naturale", come patetico ..

Si è tentato di copiare la mia identità e lavorare per anni. Mi fa schifo.

Sono stato occupato lasciando tutti intorno a te conoscere la persona reale che si è, non quello che avete fatto finta di essere, e sono tutti molto triste per voi.

Questo bambino è il 2012, l'anno della trasparenza, quando frodi come si è esposti all'aperto. Pensavi si potrebbe tenere a lungo questa farsa?

Ho lavorato sulla mia arte pubblicamente per 5 anni. Mi sono stati pubblicati a stampa, tutti su Internet. Ho clienti, amici e sostenitori da tutte le parti del mondo. E 'stato, infatti, colui che mi ha detto di te. Sei sorpreso?

Non solo sei un frodi con opere d'arte e di identità, ma siete una frode con tutto quello che pretendono di rappresentare. Come si può parlare di natura e armonia, quando si agisce spudoratamente contro di quello che sai è giusto? Quando le vostre azioni in modo da lasciare la vostra coscienza offuscata si deve cercare di essere subdolo, con ciò che si fa?

La menzogna si sceglie di trasformare la vostra vita in grado di girare solo contro di voi. C'è solo la verità, dove non c'è verità non c'è illusione, e l'illusione non è sostenuta dalla vita.

Pensi che io sia solo belle parole e le cose, e questo è dove non si riesce. Tutto ciò che può afferrare è il prodotto, il risultato di ciò che sono, e che la percezione stessa cava è quello che viene fuori tutto quello che fate.

Se vuoi essere me, si potrebbe desiderare di iniziare ad imparare una cosa o due su energia e di karma. Secondo me questo è il posto migliore per voi per iniziare.

I know you've been coming here a lot, I know you have been watching me on the internet for years. I know you have tried to do this before, and you were caught, shamed, disappeared and now have re-emerged, years later, only to attempt to do the same thing.

Whatever is your obsession with me, I don't know, but it makes me sick.

You first not only tried to copy my work, but also passed my whole bio through google translate, made it into Italian, switched my name for yours and passed it off as your own.

Now you are choosing phrases, words, themes and names. You now call your blog "Natural Harmony", how pathetic..

You have tried to copy my identity and work for years. It makes me sick.

I have been busy letting everyone around you know the real person that you are, not the one you've been pretending to be, and they are all feeling very sad for you.

This is 2012 baby, the year of transparency, when frauds like you are exposed in the open. Did you think you could hold this charade for long?

I have been working on my art publicly for 5 years. I have been published in print and all over the internet. I have customers, friends and supporters from all parts of the world. It was, in fact, one who told me about you. Are you surprised?

Not only are you a fraud with artwork and identity, but you are a fraud with all that you claim to stand for. How can you speak of nature and harmony, when you blatantly act against what you know is right? When your actions leave your conscience so tarnished you must try to be sneaky with what you do?

The falsehood you choose to turn your life into can only turn against you. There is only truth, where there is no truth there is illusion, and illusion isn't sustained by life.

You think I'm just pretty words and things, and this is where you fail. All you can grasp is the product, the outcome of what I am, and that same hollow perception is what comes out of all that you do.

If you want to be me, you might want to start learning a thing or two about energy and karma. I reckon that's the best place for you to start.

Why I am a Frugivore

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Fri, 06 Jan 2012 20:44:00 +0000

Because all matters of a natural way of life are to be shared in this purple space. Energy, art, nature and yes, health... I will squeeze quite a bit of information here which I've segmented so as not to make anyone fall asleep.

Please note that by using the terms vegan I refer strictly to dietary habits.

This photo circulated Facebook for a while showing my love of a high fruit and raw, low fat vegan diet. In the before photo I was a compromised vegetarian which I've been since age 15, still not vegan. I started my vegan journey in May 2011 and haven't looked back. The high raw carb/low fat path was a natural progression starting in August. It's definitely a step up in health, but let's not even go there if you're still eating animal products. Simply going vegan will do your physiology a load of good.

I would say the biggest revelation for me over the years with dietary changes was how food affected my emotional states. I would blame myself as a person for being in a bad mood and that happened quite often. When I began to change my foods, I noticed my moods improved, I felt happier overall. So when I look at foods that I used to eat and know I shouldn't, I remember feeling grouchy, moody and depressed, and just turn away from them.

Going veggie was too easy for me. As soon as I made the connection between corpse and meat on the plate, I was disgusted enough to get away from it. The smell, taste and feeling meat left in my stomach was so unpleasant it overpowered my inbred dogma and I just had to turn away from it.

I was still brainwashed with the idea that I "needed" to have meat in my diet to some extent in order to be healthy, and that not eating meat was an eccentric and potentially hazardous choice. Out of fear I would make myself eat some bird or fish at times, or whenever I found myself having a meal at a place where there was no vegetarian alternative and I was too hungry, or too self conscious about being rude to my dinner hosts.

It wasn't until I educated myself that I realized I was wrong. I didn't need to have any meat to be healthy, and I didn't have to succumb to peer pressure for peace and acceptance.

Eventually I realized that cheese, an old loved food, was causing me a great deal of harm. And when I made the connection between what it really was: breast milk from an animal, abused and miserable in fact, which has been left to rot, grow bacteria and then become food? I wouldn't even consume breast milk from another human, not my mother today let alone some animal. To leave it to grow bacteria and ferment before eating is just out of the question. I miss the taste of cheese, but I can't bring myself to eat any out of disgust.

It really boils down to becoming aware of what these things really are, opposed to what we're taught to think and the fancy names they are given as well as how they are presented; in ways so that people don't make the connection. The whole basis of animal consumption in humans is disassociation.

If we were truly meant to eat meat, we would eat it raw and relish the smell, look and taste of it. We would be fast enough to catch it in the wild without tools, we would enjoy the hunt, not need to pay others to do the unnatural breeding and killing for us. We wouldn't need to call it something other than what it actually is. We wouldn't select which meats to consume and which we don't, it would all be the same for us: dog, cow, cat, pig, mouse, etc. And above all, children would naturally enjoy participating in all of the above as soon as they stop lactating.

I don't base my dietary argument on love of animals though it is a weighing element, because one might say that it's part of nature just like lions and eagles eat other animals, so we just have to be at peace with our nature. But the truth is, I don't consume animals simply because that's not part of my species dietary requirements.

I am human, therefore I don't eat animals. The lion would say I am lion, therefore I don't eat vegetables. We don't question the lion, but we question the human, why? Because we are educated about feline species and their dietary requirements, but we are not properly educated about human species and their dietary requirements.

If ever in doubt about a humans proper diet, simply find a comparative anatomy chart for vertebrates and see for yourself! In fact, I'll make it easier, here is one: (click to enlarge)

Why is this knowledge so obscure in our society? Probably because no belief system, comfort, income or lifestyle choice is threatened by what lions eat. On the other hand, all of these are very much threatened by what humans eat. It's in no one's agenda that lions follow any particular dietary regime, but it is in the agenda of many that humans follow a specific dietary regime. Just follow the money, follow things like overpopulation and scarce resources, amongst others.

The clues are everywhere. We don't see wild animals suffering from innumerous diseases that lead to compromised lives and premature deaths. Carnivores and omnivores aren't dying of heart disease or cancer. We do however, have an epidemic of disease amongst humans, most notably within the cultures that consume the most animal products. If self love or vanity aren't good enough reasons for anyone to try and take proper care of themselves, the acute threat and reality of genetic degradation amongst our species should be. Children are now expected to have shorter lifespans than their parents. The integrity and survival of the human race is at stake. We are overpopulated, but we are severely compromised.

As the light begins to dawn here, I would suggest that before anyone submits to a dietary change, to please become educated. Don't do things based on mere faith, understand your physiology, understand nutrients and where these come from. Become empowered in your choices and understand truly that humans don't need animal products for health. Seek information sources that are not based on selling products or funded by these types. Nutritional education in American schools is funded by the meat, junk food and dairy industries. Know your sources of information. After that, the chances of reverting to an improper diet will be greatly diminished.

"She knows more about nutrition than I do." - My allopathic doctor referring to yours truly.

Taking the health and dietary argument up a few notches...

I have been, since August, consuming over 1300 calories from sweet fruit, mostly mangoes, bananas, oranges and dates. My caloric goal has always been 2000 though I don't always manage. Most days it's around 1600, more on active days. My doctor couldn't believe I was so thin on so many calories and asked me for whatever information I could forward him regarding the high carb, low protein, low fat approach.

I can eat carbs to my hearts' desire and maintain my current weight, and it's not a nutrient malabsorption problem nor parasites (also tested for those and came out negative) because when I was consuming oils and higher amounts of fats I did put on extra weight.

Don't blame the potato, blame the butter. Oils are unnatural refined foods, it's practically impossible to consume a high fat diet in nature all year round unless we started consuming animals. Fatty plant foods are only in season for a short while. Seeds are hard to collect in decent amounts to make a meal out of, besides being hard to digest. A high fat and protein diet follows the same principle of a carnivorous diet, both unnatural to our species and hazardous in the long-term.

Nature is perfect and we are part of it, we are designed to be nourished by what we, like all species, are naturally drawn to since birth, not taught by rational means. For as long as we continue to deny our natural state of being, we will continue to suffer.

The brilliant Robert Morse N.D. on blood sugar disorders, our species and proper diet:

And on to the hard facts; my A1C test results (blood sugar for the past 3 months):
click for an enlarged version

Basically, healthy levels.

Looking at my blood analysis here from tests taken on Dec. 6th/11:
*I did $300 worth of tests on this date (blood, urine, thyroid, blood sugar, parasites, etc.) for the sake of hard proof for both myself and others regarding my dietary choices. Everything came out normal or better.

potassium: normal (so much for too many bananas raising potassium levels!)
calcium: normal (so much for needing dairy for that!)
B12: low, but not deficient (which tends to be the case for both vegetarians and meat eaters)
lipids: all within normal range or better
urine pH: super alkaline 8.0 (so much for fruit making you acidic!)

Carnism explained by Melanie Joy:

The brilliant Robert Morse N.D. explaining the truth about disease and cancer, not what you've been led to believe!

Here are some wonderful educated sources of information to help you become empowered and take control of your health, help the planet and treat animals with love and dignity.

Today my diet is mainly an all fruit breakfast and lunch, all I care to eat. Dinner is a low fat cooked vegetable meal like a big bowl of steamed broccoli, vegetable soup, or a salad. At times I eat fruit all day. My cooked meals are all made from scratch using whole ingredients and I *never* use a microwave! It's terrible for you! Stay away from teflon/non-stick and aluminum pots and utensils also. Enameled, glass or ceramic pots are fantastic.

After what will soon be half a year eating like this people ask me however I manage, it seems so unexciting and torturous to most to eat this way, but the truth is, it's been no effort at all. I feel so good, and when I think of eating in any other way it doesn't make any sense to me, so I don't! Of course I have my occasional treats, like low-fat salted crackers, my bowl of corn flakes with soy milk, piece of bread or a tofu patty sandwich. I'm not a machine, but the more I eat this way, the better I feel and the more I want to keep eating this way!

Whole plant foods (unrefined) are nature's way and should you follow, you will be rewarded. Knock over 10 years off you, have an abundance of energy at your disposal, leave disease behind and enjoy feeling bliss for no reason at all.

You often hear people say they tried going veggie but felt sick, why?

There are a few reasons for this, the most obvious being your body cleaning house. It's the hard truth of any detox program, you will feel bad, sometimes really bad, before you feel good and even better than ever. Patience and persistence is needed here. Even I go through bouts of detox at times, and this is GOOD. The last one was really intense due to a herbal formula and I was seriously depressed for a few days. That's what toxins running rampant do to you. That's why there's so much negativity in our society today, it's a toxic way of life that needs to change.

The other is a compromised anatomy. After years of abuse the body tends to clog up, create layers of mucus to protect tissue from acidic conditions and the organs become sluggish. Malabsorbption of nutrients is a big issue whenever deficiencies or extreme weight loss comes up. I would suggest homeopathic remedies to help address these issues.

See http://www.naturesbotanicalpharmacy.com for more information.

Best of health!

Faery Treasure...

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Mon, 26 Dec 2011 18:48:00 +0000

I can't believe I managed to get these done in between the holiday hysteria, but I think it was the sheer joy of it that propulsed me throughout. Time and energy consuming - doubtlessly, but enjoyable all throughout.

More trinkets from enchanted realms now available :)

A Collection of Faery Treasure :)

Keeper of the Sacred Leaf
Delicate design featuring a hand painted leaf.

Jewels of the Faery Shamanness
Rich organic design with Quartz Crystals

And off to more trips I go...

Through Enchanted Realms

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Tue, 20 Dec 2011 08:22:00 +0000

I feel like the Faery Treasure Hunter, taking long journeys through Faerie, finding enchanted treasure and bringing them back for you! In a way, this may not be far from the truth, considering each creation is a journey on its own, and afterwards I do need my rest. Like tonight, after finishing the Crystal Vial of the Temptress, I just need to recharge before that pair of exuberant earrings that keep haunting me can be brought to this world.

So for now, enjoy the treasure...

Amethyst Record Keeper
One of a kind bejeweled confection in silvers and purples.

Crystal Vial of the Temptress
One of a kind adorned glass vial with pearls and crystals

For info and more photos click on the images. -- I am putting together a new collection of made to order designs which should include a new photo shoot and blissful presentation. I am considering these collections for a limited time within the year, or twice a year. In between these there will be one of a kind designs made throughout as time allows.

Right now I am at a pause, but life has it that I am to once again, relocate next year. Who would want a predictable life after all? There's nothing like actually living in a different country, not just being a tourist for a number of days.

To immerse oneself in the culture and landscapes, to merge with the energies of the land, the people, to taste its fruit and open new horizons and possibilities that one single culture or a trip doesn't offer. It's an experience that transforms you into a new creature and opens your mind to different, enriching points of view (a mesh of accents being the giveaway lol). In Norway I learned so much, and the Norwegian part of me is ever present in who I am. There's also a Canadian part of me, and there is now an Aussie part of me waiting to happen.

Tis the life of a prominent Jupiter.. Speaking of which, thank goodness it will finally go direct on the 25th!

In the meantime, I shall continue journeying, bringing Faerie treasure, expanding and sharing.

Merry Yule!

Infused With I

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 10 Dec 2011 02:59:00 +0000

Within silence, surrounded by the essence of your lover's heart, and the light of a shining moon, the I emerges.

The perfume of magick is subtle, gentle, sublime. The pulse of enchantment, the breath of home.

Crucial nourishment for the Fae heart, but it is in silence, tinted with love, that the infusion realizes.

Art is Magick.

The expansion of reality through the Creator's will. Inspiration is the seed of this will. Artists are the Magi.

A gradient metamorphosis through varied paths left me wandering, and I have not been tending to my seed.

But under the light of this shining moon, I drink from the silver Elixir tray, a glittering essence in lilac, contained within a flower-shaped glass vial. The pulse becomes stronger, the breath takes hold..

Remembrance of I, in silence, an infusion.

A love profusion in the expression of my soul.

The Work

Lotus Naiad Jewels
Made to order piece with genuine Crystal Orb

Suntide Pearl Crystal Wand
One of a kind Crystal Wand

Daeidre's Crystal Shards

Crystal point and pearl earrings. Made to order.

Fay Belle in Gold
Crystal centered flower.

Find me on Deviant Art! http://loriangrail.deviantart.com

The Things We Think and Do Not Say

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Wed, 07 Dec 2011 18:37:00 +0000

I love that film. It clearly shows the overall situation a person finds themselves in when they reach their heart and have a choice to make: to follow it, or to look back.

I have been on this journey. It goes in stages, playing out in different aspects of life throughout, but for me it had never been as intense as this year.

I must say that reading the Anastasia books helped me establish this deeper heart connection. For a while I wanted so much authenticity that I stopped thinking about what I wore or how I looked. I would generally take so much pleasure out of being creative with my wardrobe, but I wanted to stop relying on that.

I would say that I did go through a very thorough cleanse, but even then, I was still unwilling to give up what I thought I simply couldn't. Well, leave it to life and the cosmos to make it happen against your will, and remind you what you're really made of.

When I stopped leaning on...

praise and other people's opinions
a partner's income
a functional government
free health care
a stable but stagnant routine
spiritual gurus, disciplines and books
silly games and drama for energy
the status quo
my weaknesses
death

And decided to take responsibility for...

my conscience
my income
sovereignty
my health
going after what I feel passionate towards
my intuition and inner guidance
no longer feeding off other people's energy
myself
my strengths
life

I got a Jerry McGuire. I got it to the point where I couldn't eat for weeks due to stress and worry. I decided in spite of how overwhelming everything looked, to not look ahead and take one day at a time. If could make each day work, because it's all I could control really, I would at least eventually get somewhere better... Just one day at a time. That's what I've done and have never been so grateful.

What's left of an old life are the shells on the ground, and a new one has emerged brilliant and clear. I couldn't see it before because I couldn't imagine it. By stepping out of our way, "letting go and letting God" as some say, following the heart could never lead you wrong.

To be aligned with your conscience and integrity is to be truly alive. 2012 is the time of integrity and alignment. All that is false will fall apart sooner or later, as we are witnessing at this very time. As I have witnessed in my own life journey.

The things we think and do not say, the things we try to shut out of our minds, the things that keep us from a peaceful sleep. These things are asking to be released.

Align with the heart, align with your truth.

Thank you cosmos.

On BlogTalk Radio!

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 26 Nov 2011 03:41:00 +0000

The lovely Suzanne Toro from Be Simply.. interviewed yours truly recently and was it ever fun! We discussed artwork, dreams, magic, nature, food and more! Don't miss it :)

Listen to internet radio with Suzanne Toro on Blog Talk Radio

Some of my recent work discissed includes the Suntide Crystal Wand:

And the Plumeving AURYN:

Crystal centered flowers are in the works now for the holidays <3

Time to THRIVE!

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Wed, 16 Nov 2011 06:44:00 +0000

Disclose.tv - Thrive [Full Movie Documentary Streaming] Video
This has been circulating facebook for a few weeks and if you haven't seen it yet, I strongly suggest you do!

For many of us this isn't new, but what's so new and wonderful about it is that this information has been presented in a mainstream format, so that everyone can digest and benefit from it. Not only that, but the fact that this has been created and spread shows one amazing truth: the world is ready, the world is waking up, the time is Now!

And if this information sparks some further curiosity, the rabbit hole actually goes deeper... If you care to dive further see the works of David Icke.

As for me, I'm diving deeper into the magic of raw foods, fruits and vegetables, feeling vibrant and getting my fitness going. I finally got some persimmons so there is peace in Lorianne's world! I have missed them so much. Ahh the joys of embracing nature's sweetest gifts!

Cultivating Positive Habits

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 12 Nov 2011 02:10:00 +0000

There's something about traditional food dishes, and I mean the truly horrifying ones that the youth could hardly bear to mention, except the real patriotic, or the brave. I remember in Norway there were whispers of rotten, peed on, buried fish... Tales of lamb's heads whole (eyes and all) in a pot of soup. Terrifying... I heard bark bread being a ww2 staple and though it sounds pretty bad, it's nothing compared to the former two. I take the bark bread any day!

Over here we have blood sausages, mondongo and pig's feet. Yum! Mondongo by the way, is a kind of soup made from pig's stomach and ears. I hear of those who eat fried chicken's feet...

I can only speak for the history of my culture regarding these abominations, and basically, these were the scraps the Spaniards left for the slaves. So the slaves got creative with what they got, because those were hard times.

In fact, I'm willing to bet that EVERY SINGLE one of these cringe-worthy traditional dishes was the outcome of hard times. Times of famine and hardship, when proper food was unavailable and people had to survive.

The part that's totally insane is where they keep making these things, eating these things and teaching their children to eat these things for generations, for dozens, hundreds of years! It's nuts! I mean... there's proper food now, why not eat it?

And, this is exactly my point regarding humans eating foods that their physiology is not designed to digest = meat and dairy.

Any animal in nature will eat whatever's available when it starves. It's called survival mode.

It's the 21st century and about time to get off survival mode, and time to get back on THRIVE mode. Them hard times be over folks, don't become the food. Don't become sustenance for the drug, junk food and medical industries. You eating crap is good for business, so they will say whatever will make you believe those things are good for you. You eating fruits, vegetables and herbs doesn't benefit anyone really except you and the planet, if that matters. Bad for business!

If ever in doubt, find a proper comparative anatomy chart for vertebrates from any science book. You'll see crystal clear, that humans fall within the primate category, and therefore, the frugivore category. It's pretty freakin obvious but we've been so deeply brainwashed that common sense doesn't seem to work anymore.

Hopefully this will.

People have asked me about my diet. Some get to see the kitchen counter full of fruit and get curious, others read about my banana whippy and watermelon bowls so they wonder what else is there. I thought I'd not just get into it, but go a little deeper as to what I think about what's happening today with our self-inflicted disease.

A few benefits I've been enjoying regarding my low fat & protein, high fruit/carb, vegan diet for the past 4 months (after 16 years vegetarian):

My skin doesn't get oily anymore (and I'm in the tropics!).
No body odour.
Cellulite and puffy bits GONE.
Glowing skin and clear eyes.
What are wrinkles? Under eye bags?
I feel blissfully happy nearly all the time.
Clear mind, more peaceful.
People keep complimenting my appearance, wondering what I'm doing.
I only need to work out a little bit for better results than before.
I WANT to move my body, I've so much energy!
I'm never hungry or deprived, I never worry about eating 'too much', I stuff myself.
After getting sick 2 times a year for years, I haven't had a cold or flu in over a year.
My hair and nails are growing super fast and healthy.
I look 10 years younger than my biological age.
3 day, mild periods.
Food takes no time at all to be ready. The most I do is peel, slice and/or blend.
I've a clear conscience knowing my diet isn't contributing to the detriment of the planet or its species. My eating habits do not equate to torture or murder.
Medical bills are a foreign language to me.

For more eloquent and thorough information to start with, these are pretty awesome:

The China Study, T. Collin Campbell, Ph.D.
Skinny Bitch, Rory Freedman and Kim Barnouin
The Detox Miracle Source Book, Robert Morse, N.D.
The 80/10/10 Diet, Dr. Douglas Graham

And if in even further doubt, give a child a bunny and a strawberry. Whichever he will pet and whichever he will bite into shall once again prove the obvious... Could you really picture a baby biting into a bunny? Would you even want to?

Looking Through Still Waters

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Fri, 21 Oct 2011 12:29:00 +0000

Celestial circumstances are such that the waters have stilled and I can easily look through them, down to the very depths.. A home resonance is all around me and memories come to the surface... Mostly deeply moving, beautiful..

I remember my first dream, a recurring one that began to fade over time, but I cherished deeply. It must've happened before I was a year old, and though this may sound unlikely, I do have clear memories of events prior to my first birthday, so I know it's true.

The dream was simply me floating in a reality that was prismatic and soft, hazy. There were no bodies, no form, just a mesh of undefinable colours, feelings, consciousness. There I was one with all that was familiar and comforting to me. My essence just floated, for lack of a better term, amongst everyone else whom I loved deeply. My heart would swell up, I felt utmost peace and looked forward to going back every time.. Eventually I'd lose memory of this place and not have that dream anymore, but would forever be haunted by it. It reflects in my artistic expressions, a prismatic fluidity.

The more these memories come up, the more I become centered, the better I am able to align with my heart... I've been getting through a rough patch of really high criticism for the past few months. A time of conflict and self doubt like never before.. But I think I've crossed the threshold now, because I remember more, and feel my Self more. I am coming to my center.

I had specific instructions to not let myself be sidetracked by things that didn't matter, but stick to those that do. The former are hatred, drama, superficiality, glorification and harm, for the most part. The latter are doing what feels right, staying true to my heart and path, to spirit.

I will not change myself to suit Earth. That would be doing me and everything else a huge disfavour. Just because things are upside down here doesn't mean I must follow to be in tandem. That's not why I'm here. I will disappoint many, I will be considered many things unpleasant, but I live by my heart and soul, I will give you authentic, and my conscience will remain clear.

I also glimpsed into an energy I'd been seeking for what seems like an eternity. Forever confused by my lack of remembrance, I fell from one pit of drama into the next, sampling, searching... But I looked deep, I felt deep, and there it was. It dazzled me, and when I come near it, it will strike like lightning, and there will be no doubts.

Magick permeates right now like perfumed smoke. It's a time to remember ourselves, look deeply into the undefinable, allow all that needs to surface, do, uninhibited. Scorpio is a beautiful energy that when allowed, with transform at the very core, and when not allowed, will do it anyways but painfully.

We are changing, everything is changing - it's time to take a cliff dive and not look back.

Declaration of Beingness

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Wed, 12 Oct 2011 08:54:00 +0000

In this world, there are only very few things I am certain of: my name, my date of birth, and that I will one day leave.

All else is pure speculation, which is why I cannot, and find it silly to pretend to know the world, or life, even more so impose the idea of certainty over anything - I am not certain, I cannot be.

Everything is fluid, not black and white. There are layers upon layers upon layers to reality, most which we are not capable of comprehending - so how can I possibly be so arrogant, and ignorant, to assume I understand everything, or attempt to determinedly state how things are? I don't know, simply put.

And that is ok, I'm ok with it. I'm enjoying this amnesic ride through an adventurous world and pondering about its dynamics, seeing the patterns, reading the currents and trying to be in harmony with the flow of it as best as I can grasp it.

I like to enjoy the game, have fun and see where it takes me, with my heart as my compass.

Often people will see something I'm doing, or hear/read something I've said and take it all too much to heart. I am playing, I am enjoying myself and the different aspects of being, because that's what I feel like doing. I'm not taking (most things) too seriously.

I've faith that all things will become clear when I depart this reality, so in the meantime, I intend to enjoy it, dive into it, have fun with it as long as it doesn't compromise my enjoyment too much. So I will avoid things which I've learned lead to sorrow, and follow, as genuinely as I can, after the ones that bring joy.

I also have my bag of dirt which I carry along the way and try to empty as best as I can. That's the homework I've got, what I've to work with as I go along simply because it pains me and I don't like to hurt.

In the mesh of all that is, all simply is - only judgement will define and fragment the experience into categories. I can choose to hate and alienate something, or love and include it.

When I am not ready to include and love something, I will try to keep a distance until I can. The rest is welcome. It's all good.

I will try to find what I like about things, and see where there is a connection (for the most part) than try to cast them into an abyss because of judgements and pre-made concepts.

Throughout my youth I tried as hard as I could to solidify myself. To become a structure, to define myself. I perceived that as a strength.

Eventually I speculated that was the very cause of age and eventually death. To become so solid that life can no longer support you, because life is fluid and in perpetual motion. That it is unnatural to solidify oneself, so one eventually perishes.

Whether that's true or not, I've somehow managed to maintain my youthfulness and although I claim diet to be the cause, I truly believe it's simply not allowing myself to be bound by time or rules. Not allow myself to solidify as much as I can.

I've taken concepts into myself, discarded them, brought them back with a fresh perspective to come and play, gotten bored and put them aside - an endless cycle of getting to know everything from a myriad of perspectives and eventually realize that, it's all connected.

My challenge is to see that connection, to grow enough to be able to grasp it - and that's where I learned about uncertainty. In this moment, I may be certain of a number of things, or think I am, but I cannot tell how it will be a moment later, and a moment after that.

Don't quote me on anything, I am simply journeying through this reality in which I've suddenly found myself.

Full Circle

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Tue, 04 Oct 2011 13:03:00 +0000

I love myself. It's about time I acted upon it.

Under the Moon

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Wed, 21 Sep 2011 10:35:00 +0000

I'm in "5" space, that is, 5:55, 5:05, 5:50.. Change, or more like grabbing a hold of my inner grounds as they continuously shift. I can't tell the ground beneath me any more.. So much is racing past while standing still. A surreal moment in time as I find myself building new creative space, and new physical space with my body possibly becoming fruit.

In a moment of silence I heard a familiar voice, like an angel blowing the trumpet my very core essence had been waiting for this whole life. It said "it's time", "we are here", and as a rock awakening from a profound, deliberate sleep, my soul lit up.. I felt something I'd lost for as long as I can remember: reality

A sharp moment of reality amongst the spinning nonsense, like seeing an image of Earth from space.

The silent wanderer who chose a different world within the world, deeming it more real than the latter.

"Let go of the pain body, it's not yours." Prerequisite or parasite? Who knows... But it's easy to become attached, sometimes too attached. And although there's the appeal of appealing with a gulp of denial, I prefer to dive into the full experience this place offers. Which also includes, choosing not to dive into things. And this is, without question, where I feel so old. Yet, this emotional body paired with what innocence I've nourished, is without question, where I feel so young.

I miss warm moments.

But as always, I hold to my ticket to tomorrow, an uncertain yet more clear tomorrow than any other before it; a precious breath.

Persephone

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Sat, 17 Sep 2011 20:31:00 +0000

Never make fun of Twilight if a Pluto transit is upon you... You will find yourself drowning in the same soppy melodrama of very long 1990's alternative music videos, and will have to eat your laughter and pride, swallowed with oceans.

But I'm not all together dismissing what some lucky people may find on their life journeys, if you're drugged by cupid and your subject reciprocates, by all means do enjoy. As for the rest of us who have been mercilessly dropped off in the mortal world, it's a lonely stay on Earth and we might as well enjoy the sights, learn the culture, eat the food, do our jobs and return to normality after what may feel like forever.

Being on Earth on assignment doesn't always include all the perks. Possibly to ward off from being distracted, but every now and then some of us will get distracted, and pay the price respectfully.

As Pluto took one last stab at my Sun during the retrograde period, my goals had temporarily shifted and so did my work and everything else I'd been avidly pursuing along with 15lbs of me. - Hard Pluto transits are no light matter, terminal illnesses and deaths are no strangers to this influence, but I've survived much worse Pluto transits in the past and by comparison, this was a breeze.. Still, this goes on my resume nonetheless, as a proud regular of the Underworld, death and rebirth don't get any more hardcore than here. And if your Moon is in Scorpio then it's like a second home to you.

So now as Pluto stations to direct and all that lie hidden comes to the surface, including myself, I realign my goals, come back to center and revert back to the unwavering love of my life, which is, my work.

Expect replies to those emails, expect more work updates and expect to see more pieces come to life while the grid holds.

I've also reopened my Model Mayhem profile for a bit of side fun, now more than ever with this stick body, until I get more mass on me again.

Dreams of Reality, Reality of Dreams

noreply@blogger.com (Lorian Grail) — Fri, 09 Sep 2011 20:52:00 +0000

I may get more fun with video blogs, share some experiences in a more personal way...