Becoming Chloe, finding myself

2018 Goals and intentions

2018-01-02T22:22:00.001-05:00

Every year I try to come up with a list of goals for things I want to accomplish. I don't like the word Resolution as they are prone to fail. With a goal even if I have met them I can judge movement based upon where I start.

2017 Is over and my divorce is final. The worst part is that I still have to refi the house and pay her off, as well as the lawyer cest la vie. It is done.

I had a girl friend last year and it was great till suddenly it was not. That has been the hardest part of last year.

Transition stuff will be a theme in the coming year as I am clearing away the garbage that has clogged my life the last couple years. I really would like to get bottom surgery done and out of the way in 18or 19.

I have been having some success with electro and laser so they will continue this year.

More travel! I just got back from a 10 day road trip and look forward to more days on the road. Next up Moab. and the big burn.

Continue to declutter the house and garage.

Read at least 2 books a month

Find a new job, one where I am comfortable being me. My current one is good but to many people know my past and I am uncomfortable presenting as femme as I would like.

Update to 2017

2017-09-20T13:02:00.003-04:00

Update to goals of 2017

1. It is happening, I fear it is not going to be pretty, but it is happening. (Done)

2. Done Everything but my BC has the correct info. now to hope the government doesn't claw back the rules that allow me to be a normal person in society.

3. Done, well in progress ;) 40+ hours by end of the year. Plus 6 laser sessions which allows me to shave once or twice a week instead of daily. Whoo-hoo

4. Biking has been kinda of a wash this year, maybe as fall happens I'll get more in. I've ridden about the same amount as last year. Did a shorter thumb trip, rode copper harbor with Funshine and a handful of fun rides in Detroit other than Slow Roll and the Tour.

5. Met a girl,Smart, independent, beautiful. We'll see what the future brings. (it fell through still friends)

6. Nope, LOF killed me this year and taking time to travel with Giggles, Funshine and Pink burnt my vacation time up. Maybe next year I'll just cross the big burn off my bucket list.

7. Nice thought past self... Best you're getting is electro and laser.

8. Not yet, maybe on hold long term. I still want a biking tattoo, and would like additional piercings but Money is tight this year due to art and travel. (nope)

9 Partial, Took a short tour with Funshine. Went to ontario and Isle royale camped 30+ nights this year

10. Trying, but disengaged most of the time. To constantly follow these clowns is painful and exhausting

Goals and intentions 2017

2017-01-01T22:48:00.002-05:00

Every year I try to come up with a list of goals for things I want to accomplish. I don't like the word Resolution as they are prone to fail. With a goal even if I have met them I can judge movement based upon where I start.
So Without further delay
1st Go forward with Divorcing Amy. She moved out last year and it is time to put the nails in the coffin.

2nd Correct my paperwork, I have my passport being processed. Once I get that back, I need to fix my liscense, ideally my birth certificate but let's take it one step at a time.

3rd. Continue electrolysis 2016 was the restart of this process and I need to keep it up. I am already seeing progress despite having less than 10 hours of work done.

4th. More Bike time_ I don't care road or mountain, tour or sprint. I want to start commuting even.

5th. Start dating. I've been struggling with the idea of allowing myself to be vulnerable and available. I long for touch, for tenderness, but have much fear of rejection or violence.

6th more burns. I did two burns last year and I would like to do others also.

7th. Medical transition, start the prep and ideally get to the finish

8th. More tattoos, piercings.

9. Another bike tour, a trip back to vegas or to Florida

10. resist struggle and fight the incoming administration,

2015 goals a work in progress

2014-12-08T00:18:00.001-05:00

Every year I try to write up some goals for some coming year to keep up motivation and stay on a path of personal growth. This coming year will be no different
I have a couple left over from last year and some that should easy to achieve.
~~1. Get a new tattoo~~
2. Get my passport squared away so that is off my mind for a while.
3. Get the BMW back on the road.
~~4. Sell the truck, and maybe the triumphs..~~.
5. ~~Be Drafted in DDG (Dames? it would be nice or )possibly Dfunk)~~ Fuck Yeah, DAMES!!
~~6. Do more camping with Xi (broke up, I guess not)~~
~~7. Get better at my job, so it is a little less stressful~~
8. Do more yoga
9. Make time for my friends from outside of derby (Sherli, Jess, June,Frank, Aaron to name a few)
~~10. Fix or trash familial relationships that offer me no benefit. (If I don't allow strangers to treat me some way why am I going to allow family to do so?)~~

What blossom are you?

2013-10-21T19:15:00.003-04:00

I am not a delicate flower, a rose in the queens gardens
I am not a wilting daisy, nor sunflower mindlessly following the light.
Despite many who compare me to the lotus rising from the mud, I assure all I am not that complex.
For I am the resourceful chicory.
The rose requires beds tended with care given to soil, I need dirt just a sidewalks crackful.
The lotus is sweet and attached to its humble roots fragile in its existance. I am one step from the tumbleweed, bittered and battered by the wild strong and spindly
The daisy and sunflower once wild, have been domesticated and made to obey. I break free in the wild, or at the least the fringes of society. I am regarded as a something to be plucked away and destroyed, eliminated. But I still exist, just when they think they got rid of me I come back.
What they don't see in this wind worn bloom is the power to heal and nurture others despite my twisted appearance.
There are a precious few that know and value what so many view to be a cast off of nature, the simple Chicory.