before Dawn, after da Dark

Circle of Life, Hope

2026-04-19T22:18:00.004+08:00

Someone asked me in the other day, what matters most to me. With no hesitation, one's freedom is the utmost prize for the man who uphold his basic rights. Thinking deep, it is freedom that allows you to say "no" and walk your way of life. We both laughed but later; he furnished another blowing question; "Not your health?". I stopped but given him the life I live now, that is to correct/ ensure the following "circles of life", meh, not the one on your Apple Watch.

Blood Circulation
Energy Circulation
Nerve Circulation
Food Circulation
Water Circulation

Maintaining the above, you probably live in the good shape of life. So the question does not trigger my mood but in fact gotten me to search the Disney song which I have always fond of. I last listened on this song is with someone whom I think we share the same life thought. It is a Disney show and we all enjoy the vibe and I would say, good memory to recall as part of life collection. While the word used, is a memory, but the worth of the song stays. "Hope" is part of life, that is when you believed in.

Never stop believing and you will be there. Believing does not warrant a truth of outcome but it is your mindset that set the game apart. If believing diminish, what is earth worth to you? Share another great songs which I get fond of in recent year.

You Jump, I Jump

2026-04-04T16:33:00.004+08:00

It is not an easy phrase, when you confront your fear to outdo yourself. Probably that easy sentence is what playing in my mind when they are convincing me to step out from the floor edge to go thru the free fall from 2 storey down with the help of the secured latch. No, I am not able to make it. The fear grip me tightly to tell me that I have everything to lose. As I believed I have been better, this moment reminds myself that I am not that brave after all. From that moment onward, I know I have to refresh myself that my journey will be ending soon if I am not taking the bold step to do something I chase, all this while. At least this is what this lyric has recalled me (read in cantonese);

The motivational scheme is always here to teach you that you are not competing with others but to yourself. Outdo yourself and live the fullest. I guess, to this day when I cheer my success, it is time to unlearn and relearn. This is a powerful term which I have forced myself to take the journey on. Put down your pride, probably what we learn as truth is only the tip of our growth. Stop not now but to continue to push for the boundary. It is personal I would say, but what's grown is part of the output my life stakeholder is to enjoy. Or in another word, that is what age teaches us.

In many ways, we know there is no outcome to our effort. For some reality, this is a waste of your time. Stake up as a younger perspective, at least we have tried and the process is what that matters. Embrace life, enlighten soul and embark a journey.

After You

2026-03-14T21:16:00.000+08:00

This is a topic that have made me famous in my team for the past 2 years. The argument of the chicken and egg legend that spells no end. "After you" is always defined as insecure and imbalance to proactively take action in view of losing out. While we narrowly looking into a topic under your life microscope, we live in our own definition. In another word, being selfish. Enough saying from some, being selfish is to self guard our own interest. As a result, what have you gain?

Similar to investment, life does not mean we shall win all. Sometimes we take some, sometimes, we give some. When we realistically counting our gain, we have loosen out on our intangible potential. I remember someone who once told me, "I have gotten nothing from this journey. By right I should have enjoyed all the privileged which you have given to others". While it is mesmerising to recall the statement, but I cannot help to think, what have you lose from the journey when you have gain the trust, the favour, the understanding and what's not.

Be it in life, business, friendship and relationship, we are not winning all. We give up some plans to prioritise life event that give impact to you in long run. Maybe the short reels from the social media teaches us to focus on our life for the short period of 3 minutes. At the end, that is what you gain for that moment. Please do not stump on me by saying life is short. Yes, life indeed short but average life span for an Asian is 74 years old (by GEMINI). So, to risk in such a life stage for that mere gain, I bet you are a lousy investor.

As a summary, I am not complaining. While you play your cards well, you get what you sow. No crying baby (no patent violation) is allowed here. Rightly pointed out, the world is still spinning while you are crying. Cheer de os.

Do It or Be It

2026-03-01T23:26:00.001+08:00

I used to love this part of the scene in Harry Potter, the scene where Professor McGonagall who chanted the spell to protect Hogwarts. She said, "I have always wanted to use that spell" and this simple script captured my attention. Her giggle in that pressing scene speaks my thought. There are many times in life that require us to make certain unpopular decision. It is the emotional inertia that stopped us from doing so. If the fundamental of the decision is to rectify the wrong, think no further, but to action it. We are condemned for being positive during negative moment especially when "the" decision is made but instead, isn't that is what we need?

"Missing the best timing" is another phrase that I have learnt from someone important who came into my life. The sentence stings but at the same time brings many perspective to my days after. No turning back and I learnt my lesson. Looking back, I do feel regret why I take the lesson so easily. Lol. Nothing fall to the puzzle if it matches. At the end, timing is any time but mindset speaks the truth of what is in our destiny.

In 2026, it is a simple thought to keep metamorphosing myself to another stage of homo sapiens. It will be only a more consistent ride rather than a hit and run case. What's more when the world is moving fast towards the extreme side of two. We pray the best for everyone to stay happy, healthy and peaceful soon if not now.

Bowing to 2025

2025-12-31T12:22:00.002+08:00

The tradition to review my yearly journey continues, with this year 2025. Let's kick start the review and the key take way for what I have gone thru. To the future me, let's make it happened and be a better you.

In summary, it is a quiet year, or I have gotten myself quiet for many reasons. The belief in my zodiac power which will attract negative vibe indeed keeps me grounded. It is important to keep reminding myself that I should have taken the year lightly with; follow the flow approach. Even there are bad moments taking place, what is better then, to bite the bullet and surviving the year alive. The chinese saying of, "君子报仇，十年未晚" always valid. For you who is Chinese language intolerant, the sentence basically refer to, there is always time to take revenge. Nah, I am not a real negative person, positive side of the story, it will never be too late to regain positivity and excel in life even though you are losing the ground now.

In fact, many great assumptions, estimation and prediction in career, health, wealth and life during the start of the year slowly turns sour. It is a challenging year to myself. Let myself review what I have learnt so far for this year. It might not be a new life lesson, but a great reminder to myself that I need to remember this long forgotten lesson.

Patience: Some would say, waiting is a waste of life. Decide and be practical to start kicking the can. It looks good on paper but changes in life will only come when all of the stars are aligned to you. Having the right mindset is important and the progress will become real when you are doing the right thing at the right time to the right spot. Regardless of now, next month, next year or even century, when it happens, it will, if not, be it.

Yourself: I have started to appreciate this one sentence in my younger age but now, it is part of my life. Remember, "You can't change the wind, but you can adjust your sails". How you see yourself and carry yourself is important. Good and bad days will come, with mercy from the ultimate, but one thing for sure, you are who you are. Tomorrow will always come, so be alert and learn how to survive today. Always be the best of yourself and that is the best reward to the future you.

Quiet: Reminding myself, quiet is noisy. While consistent spells boring, unattractive and routine, it is similar to quiet which brings distraction. The biggest challenge is to stay stagnant within the changing world. We may be the wisest of all dumber, being the one truth survivor, the cleanest of the polluted world, the naive of the corrupted and the one who knows everything which "they" treat as nothing, we shall be the first to be sacrificed for not being quiet. I guess, Warren re-enlighten me again for his speech on this great lesson.

I have finally walked out from a despair moment of 2024 and 2025, I believed 2026 will be a great year. Changes are coming and I hope the momentum will gain speed. Look no back and work hard for the year. Again, it may turn out sour but who care. Stick to the mindset and stay diligent for the year are what first needed to welcome the year. Thank you 2025 for every lesson you have thought me. Grow no hate, no fear but only to improve and keep the future more real. Until then, signing off for the year. Adios.

The Luck Im Not Chasing

2025-09-28T22:04:00.003+08:00

Someone told me that I should have taken this route instead of my own decision.
They advised me that I should have given up on this opportunity to prepare for a better one.
Facts are obvious to draw a painful emotional break from this person I love.
It is fishy that I will lose my money if I have invested in this product.

Sometimes I wonder, do I really need this so called luck, you always have claimed.

I wanted a mistake that I am proud to claim as owner.
I am not a hero to be labelled the Mr Win All.
I share the same mammal instinct, curious and to venture.
I love that I grow my step for my own destiny.

The journey is mine.
I have been lucky that you have stay awaken to remind the gap between the metaphor.
But indeed of the additional luck, I wish I authored my own.
Be it broken, dark and muddy.
The least, it is my choice.
To make a choice is a luxury.
That is the basic freedom I seek.
I hope I have accumulated enough lucky star in my life jar.
That one day, I will meet her to share what I have saved.

That's My Decades

2025-09-27T23:17:00.001+08:00

I used to laugh one, who chase nothing but to stay sitting, to count days. For the young me, I have all my hours calculated, to harvest the best of me. The wild dream is unheard, as long as we push the limit to walk the journey. Never land is behind me, when I am diagnosed with success addiction. This is the joke which I learned lately, seriously, I take it as my lesson.

We speak about if when we are 10s
We chase dream and fantasy when we are 20s
We wonder life when years linger 30s
We look back and sigh when we are 40s
We start to review insurance, saving and health when we are 50s
We recount our adventure and past when we are 60s
We start to receive news of the fallen comrade soldier when we are 70s

Just a short writing on mesmerising my life in this after rain night in Asia. Emotional strikes and it feels yesterday when all this happen, by your door step. Packing up and let's enjoy, probably the last reunion of them; Spice Girl. This is probably the best group singer which I have indulged when I am young. The energy, the dream and finally the memory which they have brought into my life. Thank you for the everything.

Dawn, Journey Begins

2025-07-14T19:10:00.004+08:00

Promise, Forgotten

2025-07-04T10:17:00.001+08:00

While she rains, I walked my soul
Along the roadside, splashing drops
I wonder to the dark sky and fantasize
The glimpse as usual, comes and fade
Really, I do not need the world to see me
All I need is a second thought of you
Reminded you of my shadow ever exist
Leaving behind you, story of this journey
The stain on my shirt, the pain and scars remains
Laughter heard by the ladder end
Only to know that is the way for exit
Reluctant but understood
For you to win the war, I promise to retreat
Foot steps are heavy, splashes and dirt
To carry the empty promises
From now to then
I will remember those words
You have whispered during our days
Is fantasy but I shall enjoy the ecstasy
Until the day I have to reunite
Between soul and rain again
I will

"I Used to Rule the World", the Memory that Lives Forever

2025-06-29T23:54:00.004+08:00

When the story is painted by the feeling of unwillingness to give up, I buried myself deeper to a dilemma. The trauma is real, which haunted me for 2 years. Slowly creeping the side walk of my journey to establish personal career empire. Arrogant yet forgotten the past I have endured this far. I pulled back early last year, lucky to realise I still have options. The road is not easy but strength is needed for the big dream to slow and halt.

My days started with bad memory. During the weakest and darkest day of one, we realised how important the sense of ownership at our own pace. I remembered how you used to bless me with my crazy idea, nor I am being selfish to live a life without your shadow. I have forgotten you have live your life for us. Leaving behind your dream, a mighty one which was dwarf-ted by family responsibilities. The stories of "if" being our active conversation when I have grown up, always painted freedom to my soul. I am way blessed with your dream and hope.

Running away from reality in the last one year, to some where I used to bring you along. The places and food we have enjoyed are selfishly appearing in my journey for the year. I have not forgotten how we have taken train to the down town just to grab a great pastry while visiting grandma. I long for this memory lane which I have always steal from my busy schedule. It is a secret between my self and space. It is a secret kept til now, so that I can own the memory, myself.

Today marking the last of the month of my promise to you, I shall walked out from our memory chasing dream. No, you have not been forgotten, but you are safe in my memory. This is what I have promised you. Coincidentally, I found this good clip to showcase how much your love to me. The love is well portrayed by her sight with the smile that melted me. Supporting her son to chase his dream, she will always be the supporting role for him to shine. No reason to chase fame and recognition, because love comes with true sincere heart. Her love, is to give, not to be compensated.

You are my world which I used to rule, as yet I still hold the key to the wall we built. I wish you heard me and loud me for my mischief, if I have ever done it. I miss you dearly, from the day you left for better days ahead. Wishing you free like the bird you used to call, happy forever with our prayers for you. May we meet again, the day when we shall.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 20 ] Negativity, New Atomic Bomb

2024-09-17T11:08:00.006+08:00

I have a good teacher friend that used to complain on how modern student lack on positivity and sustainable focus. I take this view personally. At this age, especially after I have made a new career decision, I have realised the people I work with is becoming of such. The curiosity, anxiety, inpatient for a fast result has overcame the beauty of result appreciation.

The waiting time of hour is required in second. While years seems to be interpreted as day. Anger, disappointment and many emotional amplifier have created a mix thought on what life should be. Law of affection is always true that with such an energy, you are destined to attract the same. We started to judge with our own perception. While no right or wrong in any judgement, it is negative element to start should be avoided.

True, we may not be positive all the while in life. Being positive will only deter the courage to face the negative choices in our life. I choose to accept negative of someone. Even myself, I know imperfection is the start to celebrate a perfection. In fact, what is perfection when we slowly embrace what we are lack of. Reduce the negativity and think of others from positivity. Maybe we all can live happier?

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 19 ] Life, is An Asset

2024-09-16T20:14:00.006+08:00

Economy teaches us that, we are always be a part of the economy. When a population is degrading, that is the early sign of the world economy deceleration. Society that spend money is contributing to the profit of any organisation. It is part of the modern economy vicious cycle, you earn and you spend. By leveraging the number, the economy will flourish.

Stop treating oneself as useless slap of the society. At the end, you are part of the economy. Generate the value of yourself if you wish to be part of the game. To many, they take me as one of the economy supporter. In fact, I speak finance and economy all the time. Because of knowing this too well, I am reluctant to be part of this cycle.

The impulse to spend, to be part of the viral marketing and to justify the asset price bubble chase are no longer in my to do list. Living within means is vital. We may not be a part of the global economy, our value is dictate from what we have gained in life. Wonders are everywhere, you just need to slow down to observe, even it is a small piece of your life.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 18 ] Death, a Journey

2024-09-16T19:50:00.005+08:00

During the age before 40, death is a strange word to appear in my mind. Life is filled with excitement to experience different elements in this world. Be it life experience, emotional, taste buds, you name it, it will be part of your to do list. I have forgotten the fact my parent is retreating from their glories. Numerous of reasoning to justify that I have done enough for them to allow me to embark a journey of self fulfillment. Lately I have read a virtual book that share a thought which I repeatedly think on her validity.

We are preparing to die when we live past 20s. The glory is before but not after this age. Looking back, I some how agree. Now, death is becoming a norm when I grow older.The early whispers of similar nature of news are creeping from my family members, then to my inner circle friends. Due to the nature that death is a status, we are not in any position to alter the law of nature. But emotionally, it strikes us twice, from the moment we know and the moment we face.

Death is not painful but the process to achieve the status is fearsome. To those who know, will know. Experiences gained from losing my parent, I learn to accept death. From the moment I accepted the loses of my parent, I treat each day of my life as an itinerary of my ultimate journey. I am not expecting the wild run of chase to get the best experience, but more on will I join tomorrow breakfast session with my friends. Losing someone is painful but since no changes can be done, I appreciate every moment of "losing" in my memory. What is right wrong, what is happy and sad, what is revenge and gratitude, does it matters any more? The keyword is, appreciation.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 17 ] Success, An illusion

2024-09-16T19:39:00.004+08:00

There is no specific formula to determine success. It is subjective and personal, the best summary of success. There are collectives human who like to decide, judge and label anyone's success. Probably this what we known as society court. Each action is defined by objective. That is how we are groomed when doing science lab practices. Do your hypothesis and compare the result, that is the success? To achieve the objective or to proove that you are doing accordingly?

After years, I soon to realise the truth of the so called success. If you do the way of others wanted, that is success. I am once a success chaser. That is to gain recognition from the "supporter". No right wrong being ask but to do something that is being asked for. If not, you are not in their favoured. You missed out the first task but not the second task. That is a job for the success chaser.

I have seen the ups and downs in my life so far. There are just many mistakes along the life experiment I have on my body and soul. Now, I prefer to ask myself, how many right things I have done so far. Doing the right thing may not be celebrated by many, but at least, doing the right thing does not lead to a failure.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 16 ] Invest, Be Early

2024-02-22T00:57:00.002+08:00

Invest in yourself. No, not being someone who scroll social media for hours. No, overspending is to feed the crave and not yourself. Too many fancy thing you can do for yourself when you have the time. In fact, spend quality time to know who you are, your value, your belief, your body and what define you. It is hilarious when someone tell me that they have enough time for themselves. I say, you need a whole life to know who you are. Better be early rather than be silly when you in your life cross road.

Invest in knowledge. I still love books this days. Can say I am more of the anti civilisation. I have always shared, it is always a disaster for thing which comes in speed in life. Run slow on knowledge, rub the book cover and focus on the knowledge. You can be a bitch behind a blog posting (certainly not me) with no accountability but not an author who need spends million to get his book properly sold in a bookshop. Digest the knowledge and apply greatly. Share you one quote I learnt this year; to be wealthy is to live life paid by income paid by the income earned from your asset.

Invest in health. We are a nature made hospital as we cure ourselves. We lose this ability when we forget the x-men super power we are granted. Find the secret sauce to live healthy. I aim no longevity but healthy and happy when I age. Remember, we do not fight the nature law which we cannot control. Embrace the fact and enjoy the journey. Health is life saving monies for Fixed Deposit. It is a slow journey but a rewarding one. When you need it, voila, you are surprise that you are lucky to be the one who can survive the cancer news.

Invest as in invest. Starts slow, accumulate, grow and protect. Save your monies, use it wisely and consistently. Do not buy the 1% rules belief, "you only live once", "what if tomorrow never comes" and this type of bs. Now, 99%, you will survive and doomed if you empty your account for the sake of these golden quotes. I am not a mathematics master to tell you, 99 is way larger than the 1. Money is not the greatest invention but certainly a great tool. Learn when to use it, you will live a life with lesser problem.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 15 ] Great, Not At All

2024-02-22T00:42:00.000+08:00

The naive me, when I am young, I used to think that I am one of the 1% of hooman that is elite in mind, life and all the bs. Been a successful boy, from family (I guess) to study then career. I believed with my capacity, we certainly can changed the world. At least I believed I can change my life, working hard in exchange of what I dream of.

Life is a great lesson. Being time teacher, she teach me a lot of irreplaceable truth. Best seller will be the next retrenchment candidate, the luckiest gambler will lose all his chip in a golden bet and many more. I have been thought the hard way how life is filled with moment of ups and down. Being great is only a small adjective in the world of luck.

One man say, it is not a matter of what you live on, but a matter of if you been great once. Well said I guess? Thinking deep, I guess, I still prefer to live a life rather that a moment glory. Spike graph is not what I aim for, but ogive is. Humble living, consistent adulting are way better than being great. Firework? Not my style.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 14 ] Introvert, The Gem in Gemini

2024-02-17T00:32:00.002+08:00

I have a strong and complicated inner world of myself. Rightfully, that is how, we as human survive; my view. I am an absolute introvert, living in an extrovert use case. Frequently, the society see us, as the new species which will bring various momentum to the team, group, relationship, family and etc. In reality, yes, we can.

But, in the extreme end of another, we enjoy our own time space a lot. I do not like to speak with anyone whenever I want to. Now, this is not emotional breakdown, instability, sad and etc. We just prefer and choose not to communicate. Enough with labeling, any decision which is decided without impact to others should be respected.

I, too deserve to make my own decision for myself. Say, is my birthday and yet, I am not able to decide what I like to eat. Some will say, hey, lets eat something better? Lets have fun? Lets decide something more luxury and etc. Well, not that I am not able to afford these, just that, it is my choice. So, fuck off and leave us introvert alone. Lol.

Worry no, I will not decide to kill myself or take up a costume and be someone else. We are friendly by choice but wish to be lonely in real. Next time when we say, hey, I just want some space, then you know, you just have to fuck off.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 13 ] Free Soul, The Ultimate Me

2024-02-17T00:22:00.005+08:00

During my young age, I have always asked my mother, why she likes to stay away from home whenever she is not occupied. The answer is simple, she enjoy the freedom when she travel out. It is always a low expense journey. Those days, we are allowed to buy a daily bus ticket which entitled you to take bus ride for the whole day. So, there she goes, with a daily ticket, she will take different busses route to enjoy the scenery of the journey.

She will be out in the morning and be back in the evening to rush prepare dinner for the family. I guess I learnt what I saw. I fall in love with bag packing trip, not with anyone but only myself. Obviously, there are many questions; why alone? Not even with family? Not even with partner and etc. No, I like to travel alone if I can choose.

No specific reason, I just like to be alone when traveling. I inherited my mother's practice and now, I seems to realise. The freedom to decide what, where, when and how to chart our journey is too addictive. I like to observe but without judging. I like to analyse without concluding. Yet, there are many challenging voices but yes, who care. I love the free soul spirit and I will continue to practice this whenever I can.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 12 ] Value, Subjective But Superlative

2024-02-17T00:12:00.000+08:00

In business study, we always emphasize on value creation. Value is something meaningful to an entity, human, business or whoever receive the value. We love to equate value to any tangible item. Not that human is comparable but we are stupid to define value with what we can see or touch physically.

Any transaction or activity will only be possible when value is created. Value only comes in to transaction when equal value is found from both end. Should inequality happen, either end need to accept the shorter change. How many of us will do a less valued transaction? Or in how many frequency.

Learn to communicate the value, else transaction will not happen, and this include communication. Will you attend a meeting if it brings no value to your work or etc? Will you speak to someone who keep demotivate or demorale you? These are the basic of value to be communicated. Rather to ask what value you will receive, we should speak on what value will I deliver to the table.

Speak politely, bargain morally, request properly and much more. Value is what we seek, value is what we appreciate.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 11 ] Labelling, The New YOLO Disease

2024-02-17T00:02:00.003+08:00

I have my own world, my perspective, my value and etc. You name it, I have it. In short, this is unique (selfish mode), in modern words it is YOLO. They start to throw you a bag of jargon to ensure you communicate the value with them. If you are the outlier, you are just living your own world and they label you to be uncooperative, weird, stubborn and many more of, you name it.

I am good with label. List it out and I will accept it. It is not important how you see myself in your lenses. I know who I am and I appreciate my own value. I may be right or wrong, at least it is a decision which I made myself. I do not really care how people label or even judge me. If you live my shadow, will you do the same? Let's the IDGAF spirit works her way.

2023, The Tail

2024-01-21T22:51:00.001+08:00

It has been a colourful year of 2023. Impactful as it is, it is the year of self bravery, confidence and finally the burnt out version of myself. Sounds great of a journey on how a flower starts budding, bloom and finally dried out. It is indeed a year of which I have never imagined will take place. All I want, from December 2022, is to work out my final episode with my current career. This is the main excuse for me to take up this challenge.

Long story short, my 2023 has proven a great challenge with great changes in my career. At the same time, this is the first time I have fully enabled myself to use various skill sets which I have built this far. Feeling grateful with what I have achieved, I feel the pain which left me wondering if I should have to stay stagnant with my current path.

So, for the month of December, I have promised myself to take charge on my own career path. To someone who has been loyal with this team, it is a heavy decision. No one ever understand my loyalty and family bonding I have with the members. Though, the distrust and selfishness have indeed crushed my thinnest confidence with the so called "family". I remember I have told my leader; "Do not question my loyalty. For will I make, I shall make it mine if I want to. To dethrone you, is not a challenge but an option which I can make by my own leisure".

I believed the sentence has made the magical wand swipe, I shall form my army for the sake of my own. Betrayal it may seem, I only will take what belongs to mine. To me, monies is only a tool by the wise man to achieve objective. I do not tract my wealth here, nor from you. This is a hard made decision which I have finally made to redeem my confidence. You have taken all enough for this two years.

It will be a new year with new vision. It has been so many years of; do it your way. Now, I shall proclaim; your way is out, find your new master. Once again, thank you for all the blessings you have showered us. We shall made the forgotten dream awaken once more. For success we strive, for glory we made.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 10 ] Health, Late Aged Wealth

2024-01-06T12:09:00.002+08:00

Not a long grandma story who tells you tips to keep you in tip toe. I am not in any grand master class to advise you best way to stay alive well. I learnt from what I see and what I live for the past few years. In human natural life stages, I experience death of those I love and care. How life made a big u-turn in any second or minute. That spells the journey of my new Indiana Jones.

Guessed I have followed suit those in golden age. Switching my life profile to a slower route. Ensuring life is boring and stagnant for all the essence to be remained. Ditching my anxiety and rush for a simple emotion life. Calm is an interesting word to this 40s wormie.

Don't judge me, I still live a hectic life, spring to anger and etc. Though, as I progressing, I know my wish by now. Those elements that trigger your anger, we leave it far. Harmful food is to be avoided and reduced if you have no choice. Simple clean diet whenever we can. Sound simple but still a challenging path to myself. Let's keep it consistent and simple to begin with. Ohm...

2023, The Twist

2023-12-31T20:50:00.000+08:00

If memory serves me right, I am always eager for year to end. This is the time when I used to evaluate my own success, on what goal I have achieved and what proud I have made to my family. Looking back to year 2023, this is the year I considered as among the disappointing years in my life journey. No worry, I am not negative. It is more of a reflection of my journey.

First, it is all about work. On this front, I am proud of myself to make such a drastic change in my career. I changed my mindset and I made a leap to outdo what I suppose to do. The long forgotten Spartan spirit is once again shout for a release. Yes, I made it this far. At the same time, I have decided to make a full overhaul to my existing regime. Instead, I am leaving my comfort zone, for a better journey in the future.

This year, I made a couple of friends and enemy at the same time. Being a more crucial personnel in a growing number of people's life, made myself a limelight. I hate to admit this, I just want keep my life simple. I have enough of nosy people who keep asking me questions and to evaluate my life's belief and existence. No matter who you are, mind your own business. I am not in the favour to feed your curiosity.

Along the way, I repeatedly questioned myself, have I done the right decision in this year? Proudly admitting, I have made a couple of better and bad decisions. This made my journey so far. Extremism thinking is growing behind my back for now. Worry less, I know what I need to do. There are many times I keep myself quiet. To the enemy, you better count your days, to the opportunist, you will be doomed shall you cross the line. To my friend, please welcome the old me in 2024.

Honestly, this is not a year I will keep in my memory for long. I appreciate who has assisted me along, trusting me and given the ample space for me. Yet, this is not a complaint posting to trigger hate. I wish to remind myself, 2023 is indeed a challenging year. I believed a better year is ahead for me. Only when I am able to ride out the storm, I shall be able to protect my family and friends.

For the future we stand, for the current we embrace and the past to pardon. Happy 2024 ahead. May you stay blessed, happy and healthy.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 9 ] Consistency, My New Routine

2023-07-05T12:46:00.005+08:00

Once upon a time, I am proud to admit I am in love of a song that I will play it all day, all night. When I love to eat a restaurant, the restaurant shall be my love spot for whole year. When I started to age, I started to realise we are open for more options. Overflow of choices, information and thoughts have destabilised my discipline life. For some who against changes, may have the opposite look on me. For myself, I take this as an aging journey.

World is progressing daily and in fact, we only can stop progressing, should we shut out from the world grid. The daily news, social feed, even the vlog which you watched and all sorts will play a role to shape your mind and decision making. It is OK to be deviated from your own life profile. In fact, to spend effort to go against the tide will not bring you benefit.

Yes, changes are unavoidable, still the basic pillar stands. I will never change my liking of food even though I have stopped eating the food for weeks. I will not stop loving my dog even though he is not with me all the time. I do always remind myself, that I love my job (cynical chuckle) and that I grow my life with slow investment, wisdom and health.

It is OK to enjoy some ultra processed food from time to time. As long as you know, is time to make a u-turn. But still, don't get me wrong, a crime and wrong deed is always as it is. Some wrong journey will only have one destination; regret. Think twice and stay grounded with consistency. Consistency is not a MUST go journey, more like a routine that it is OK to skip for a day or two, but you are certain that you will pick back up the routine when you should.

The Aged 40 Learnt 40s [ 8 ] Wisdom, Hermes Alike

2023-07-04T22:05:00.005+08:00

My friend used to scold me, "You are ignorant and arrogant to scold people stupid. Who you think you are?" when I told him, I will not speak with this chap for the third time. Reason being, he has been ignorant to ignore the fact that he is wrong. If being honest and brutal to explain the reason but get ignored, it only spells trouble to ownself to feel offended. Best approach is to ignore and leave the space, for the peace of my own mind.

The old saying holds her truth, "It's like talking to a brick wall". If one to understand, she will. If effort is spent and she does not appreciate the effort, move on. We may be the chosen angel sent from heaven to assist someone to achieve self actualisation. In reality, we are the few 0.0000000000000001%, thus we failed to be the right person in many cases. If the advise fallen to a deaf ear, is time to move on.

It takes wisdom to realise a mistake. It takes wisdom to alleviate one's life. Wisdom is a pure luxury, as in you may not be the wise one, as you wish. Some with age of 60s are living in minimal civilisation mindset. While you may ask me, is wisdom is important? The absolute answer, is a no. Wisdom is only a luxury tool to allow you to understand and maneuver life easily.

You still live in healthy, wealthy and happy even without wisdom. No, it is not a desired luxury too. There are many who has given up, in search of wisdom. If we wish to achieve this luxury tool, learn to be less ignorant, stubborn and start to listen. These may not bring you luxury life, but hell ya, is a tool belongs to you, forever.