berry blue :)

Ozine fest '09

Sun, 5 Apr 2009 04:09:04 -0000

2nd day. With Jester, Yobs, Gelik. Too bad I wasn't able to drag home the ultra cute cosplayers. LOL. After the event, Krocodile Grille with Kuya Ian the Strong Ice Master.

coffee love

Fri, 24 Oct 2008 17:09:43 -0000

hehe.. came across this article from mingle2.
this comes close to the reason(ssssss) why i'm so fascinated with baristas and the coffee they make.

Damn you barista, why must you be so cute?

Posted on 06/13/2007 in Geek by Matt

Ever heard a woman say she has a thing for a guy in uniform? I've got a similar thing, except it's for baristas. It's an inexplicable attraction to someone who makes coffee for a living. I think this attraction exists because of a few different reasons:

I don't know how to make a latte, therefore watching a barista fly through my order in a cloud of hissing, bubbling, beeping machines is like watching a samurai at work.
I live near a large college campus in a part of the country where coffee culture is huge, so working at a coffee stand instantly makes you seem hip
Many people appear to look smarter with glasses on. I feel the same way about baristas: because they know how to prepare beans in a cup I instantly assume they have a de...

last night

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 13:52:19 -0000

12 a.m. I drove out and got him.

1a.m. 2 a.m., in a SLEX gasoline station, highly relieved.Though he had to travel far, I still preferred it because at least I'm sure that he was safe with me.

3 a.m., at home, tried to relax but worry was still eating me alive. But I was happy and I tried hard to be happy.. Because someone as depressed as him wasn't what he needed.

4 a.m. 5 a.m.
In the dark, all I could hear was my own heart beating hard. All I could see was his form, lying.
Trying to sleep. Thinking. Thinking. Thinking...

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

=_= : Sabihin mo nga sa'kin.. Bakit hindi ako makatulog kagabi?
^.^ : Kasi hindi ka sanay na yung taong gusto mo natutulog katabi mo.
=_= : Sira. 'di kaya.
^.^ : Hehe. Syempre.. Kasi nag-iisip ka kung bakit ayaw niyang sabihin sa'yo. Kung bakit sinasarili niya ang mga bagay na hindi naman dapat sa kaniya lang. Guston mong kunin 'yung burden. Gusto mong ilabas niya sa'yo 'yun. Ayaw mong nakikita siyang problemado, nasasaktan, malungkot.. Na parang pasan an...

batangas.. again

Wed, 22 Oct 2008 05:50:47 -0000

bawal daw ang hindi sumama.. so we spent fri-sun in our farm. as usual, all we did was eat, sleep.. and fool around. yey! galing sa camera ni van.. ninakaw ko. mwahaha! :D :D

3:26 pm

Thu, 16 Oct 2008 07:25:59 -0000

What is the game we're playing?
Should I stick around for more?
Snap your fingers I'll come running
Leave again when you're bored
With me
I'll make it easy...

Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
My God I feel so small
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just cast shadows on your walls
Nevermind me, nevermind me
I'll just let myself out.

This facade that I'm stuck with
Has got me wondering
Just tell me how you want me
And I'll be naked stumbling
Just to get a reaction, any signs of love

Bottle up your smile
Pour it in a cup
I'll be on my way
Once I've sobered up

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Haven't you heard?
I'm stuck on a face
I'm stuck on a boy who fills me with joy
I knew I was wrong
to jump straight on into this picture so pretty
but he is so pretty to me...

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

...And now I got pulled back to reality. :- |

*Nevermind Me- Maria Mena
*Your Song- Kate Walsh

8 a.m.

Wed, 8 Oct 2008 13:02:16 -0000

He was waiting for his flight.
I was reviewing for the exam.

He sent his last text.
Turned his phone off.
Walked to the boarding area.
Then he was gone.

I read the message.
Wanted to cry.
Felt so heartbroken.
And then he was gone.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

Yesterday was Andrei's last day here in Manila. I call him "panget" because we have this love-hate relationship that started 2 years ago. For a while we had something going on (LOL!). Now I simply think of it as a big joke that made him one of those special people. We ended it and are in good terms although we really didn't have the chance to recover. It would've been great if we got to hang out more because yesterday was also the first time in (years then) monthssss that I saw him again. I thought that it would be just like any other tambay nights with them, (code switch!) 'yung puro kalokohan at kwentuhan lang. 'Di ko rin naiwasang makaramdam ng lungkot, sakit, at panghihinayang. Cliche na pero... Kung alam ko lang na aalis siya ng ganito ka...

tambay

Wed, 8 Oct 2008 11:43:58 -0000

grainy night pictures with my village tropa. last day ni andrei panget.. so had to say goodbye. =( but it was also a chance for me to go out of the house... para tumambay hanggang 12! :D konti lang yung peekshures coz it was mostly kalokohan and catching

fuh-meh-lee

Wed, 8 Oct 2008 11:38:42 -0000

Batangas and LB

toxic kasi

Sun, 5 Oct 2008 14:31:04 -0000

Among the many things that I always think of, he's the one I start and end with. I dream of seeing his goofy smile, hearing his gentle voice, feeling his soft touches... And his eyes. I long for them. His are the warmest, kindest, most sincere brown eyes. They express everything that his lips could not.

On the first time I gazed upon them, I immediately thought, "Maybe with him I won't need anybody else." And again on the next times that our eyes met.

Funny. Surprising. Confusing... Because apart from drowning in his eyes, I don't know how that line got into my head.

Or how I fight the buckling of my knees when we walk together.
Or how I resist the strong urge to melt whenever he looks at me
Or how he makes my heart skip a thousand beats and beat a thousand times.
Or how he makes me smile just by thinking about him.
Or how he makes me miss him so much.
Or how he makes me feel complete.

Or how he makes me think that perhaps, there is actually a chance...
That I just might be falling in.
Deeply.
xox...

randomness

Fri, 26 Sep 2008 15:25:55 -0000

dapat talaga ung dino pix lang.. kaso wala lang, dinagdag ko lang yung iba.

fster :D

Sun, 21 Sep 2008 15:42:39 -0000

Did a last minute check on my Friendster acct at eto ang tumambad sa horoscope ko:

The Bottom Line

Lots of flirting but no follow through? If you want it, you have to make your move.

In Detail

There has been some heat generated between you and someone else, but unfortunately, while there's been a lot of flirting, there hasn't been a lot of follow-through! This could be a sign that while this person is indeed interested in you, they are probably a lot shier than you realize. If you want things to move forward, you are going to have to be the one who puts their foot on the gas pedal. Make your move today. And if you get shot down, at least you'll know not to waste any more time.

xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox
Watda?! XD
Half of me is defensive, half of me is weirdly delighted.
Sabi na eh, ako na dapat manligaw. Hahaha.
Oh hay, lutang na naman ako sa cloud nine. :D

p.s. kakatapos lang ng Banahaw fieldtrip namin. yey. :D

a series of msgs

Wed, 10 Sep 2008 15:11:30 -0000

=_= : Kala ko madali akong nakakabitiw, madali kong napapalitan ang mga bagay. Mahirap pala talaga kapag nakasanayan mo na.
^_^: Awww totoo yan lalo na pag natutunan mo nang mahalin yun. :(
=_=: Oo no? Kahit palagi mong tinatanggi na di mo gusto, alam mo na yun pa rin ang nagpapasaya sayo. Kahit na may binibigay na kasiyahan ang isang bagong bagay, iba pa rin yung sa dati..
^_^: Yan ang tinatawag na emotional attachment. At mahirap kumawala jan....
=_=: Siguro kapag ginawa ko yung logical thing, pakiramdam ko magsisisi ako.

(matapos ang ilang oras)

^_^: Eh kasi di ba? Bakit mo naman siya iiwan kung siya nga yung nagpapasaya sayo? At kung wala ka namang reason para iwanan siya? Di ba? Yun nga lang, masakit kapag all the while, wala ka naman palang inaasahan tapos malalaman mo yun sa bandang huli na at sa oras na di mo inaasahan. Haha. Naisip ko lang.
=_=: Kung may reason man na iwanan siya, gusto ko dumating yun sa time na pareho naming mare-realize na hanggang dito lang talaga kami. Kaya ko p...

pinoy!

Mon, 25 Aug 2008 09:04:00 -0000

Orayt. After answering Friendster surveys, I picked this up from Lue's bulletin post. Kahit dis-oras na ng gabi, sobrang naaliw pa rin ako dito. :D

Mga Linya Mula sa Pinoy Movies na Pwedeng Gamitin Kung...

... narealize mong mas magaling ka sa idol mo Sharon Cuneta: Nung una hinangaan kita,pero ng makilala kita, sinabi ko sa sarili ko na hindi lang kita papantayan, lalampasan pa kita.
(Bituing Walang Ningning)

... choosy ka at maraming ayaw sa mundo Maricel Soriano: Ayoko ng masikip. Ayoko ng mabaho. Ayoko ng walang tubig. Ayoko ng walang pagkain. Ayoko ng putik!
(Kaya Kong Abutin ang Langit)

... pasikot-sikot ka magtanong sa mahal/kailangan mo Claudinne Baretto: Mahal mo ba ako dahil kailangan mo ako, o kailangan mo ako kaya mahal mo ako?
(Milan)

... matindi kang magmahal, pero medyo cheesy ka Sharon Cuneta: Ayoko ng first love, kase kung may first, eh di may second, may third... ang gusto ko...

biogyugan 08

Sat, 23 Aug 2008 10:29:20 -0000

pix taken last thursday night, most are from yesterday (friday) congrats to the seniors! after three years. hehehe. ang galing. =) *some pix blurry.

a very special... :D

Sun, 10 Aug 2008 04:29:12 -0000

"Kahit minsan, hindi ko naramadan na nakakapagod kang mahalin.. Ngayon lang."

If you guys have watched a certain tagalog movie lately then I think you know who said that. Muahahaha! Yesternight, I watched "A Very Special Love" with my sister in Festival Mall. I don't really watch pinoy movies but since it's John Lloyd, why not di ba?? Cheesy but I'm a proud fan and he's the only pinoy male celebrity that I'm dying to meet. :D

It took me and my sis two hours to calm down and stop chattering about ~~john lloyd~~ the movie. What can I say? Funny and dramatic.. It was that good! And the family values are strongly highlighted. Material wealth, in no way, compares to the amount of love that you have around you. :) I don't really like Sarah but she's okay since the role required a young 'n cheerful belle. My only BIG complaint is her clothes. I mean, shimmery, sequin-like night dress and shoes? You have to be kidding me. Layered banglessssss? Too much of something is bad especially if it distorts y...

sick

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 03:43:14 -0000

Aside from feeling too groggy (I got home late from a wedding anniversary celebration. No, I didn't get drunk) to go to school today, I have the perfect excuse not to: fever. It's already a week since I had the colds and right now, I'm feeling very funny. It's been a long time since I ~~got paralyzed~~ felt this weak. Good thing that Friday is P.E. day.

I'm also studying for our Physics 52 exam tomorrow. Huhuhuhu. May the heavens help me overcome this dpsm obstacle. *dies* XD

~~Perhaps another reason why I got sick is... =( =( =(~~

Perez Hilton

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 11:55:14 -0000

Celebrity gossip. Juicy celebrity rumors. Hollywood gossip blog. The reason why I'm updated with the latest highs and lows on H-land.

bakit single ka pa? + updates

Sat, 12 Jul 2008 11:36:17 -0000

Got this from Janine:

The Usual Dramas of the Singles...

Destiny Addict
Ito 'yung mga taong hinihintay na gumawa ang tadhana ng paraan para pagtagpuin sila ng kanilang mga "soulmates" and whatever. Ayaw kumilos o kung ano pa dahil naniniwala siya na kung sino man 'yung talagang meant for him/her ay darating na lang bigla sa paraang maaaring hindi niya inaasahan--wow, parang Serendipity.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Dadating din 'yan. 'Wag kasing hanapin!"

Perfectionist
Simula nung magkamalay ang taong ito, nakalista na ang mga bagay na gusto niya sa kanyang magiging boypren/girlpren. Kapag may nakilala siya at nakitang madumi ang kuko, magkadikit ang kilay, may butas sa ngipin, o parang penguin maglakad, wala na. Turn off na 'yun para sa kanya.

Laging maririnig na nagsasabing: "Ok na sana siya e. Kaya lang gusto ko 'yung ganito..."

Busy Bee
Pasensya na sila pero masyado kang maraming inaasikaso tulad ng libro, bolpen, papel at calculator. Umaalis ka ng 6 am sa bahay at umuuwi n...

The Bottom Line

Fri, 27 Jun 2008 18:11:00 -0000

Patience is a virtue -- what you're waiting for will be so sweet when it arrives.

In Detail

You shouldn't expect to make very much progress in anything today, but then again you don't need to make much more progress -- you are just about exactly where you need to be, so take a deep breath and relax! Today will serve as simmer time for that delicious project you've put on the back burner -- remember that patience is a virtue, and what you are waiting for is going to be oh-so-sweet when it arrives. In the meantime, reconnect with a friend and have fun.

x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x-x
Just thought of checking the horoscope in Friendster.. I should feel good but I'm too tired, physically and mentally. Emotionally? Yeah. It's like I'm playing Jenga, getting pieces here and placing them there.. I think I miscalculated a few moves but I am definitely not going to let this one topple down. I just remembered that I'm supposed to be manipulative. =P

Alas dos na. Makatulog na nga. Inonood ko na lang 'to ng dvd ...

MIA

Sat, 21 Jun 2008 03:50:08 -0000

Yesterday, I wasn't where I was supposed to be. Haha. I was off searching for something. A treasure? Maybe.. And I think I found bits and pieces of it. :) :) :)

'Cause you keep me coming back for more
And I feel a little better than I did before
And if I never see your face again I don't mind
'Cause we got much further than I thought, we can't deny

Ang sarap ng food sa Mang Jimmy's.^^

midnight rant

Sat, 14 Jun 2008 16:36:01 -0000

Was this Saturday a sort of come back/after-effect of the so-called Friday the 13th just because I had so much fun on that day?!

Save for the squad dinner and car ride with my couz, this was definitely one of those bad days that you and I would beg to avoid.

Perhaps it's just me and my unstable moods but puh-lease, this sucks. Sana natulog na lang ako buong araw para hindi nasira 'yung magandang mood ko kahapon. Hindi gumagana 'yung feel good songs ko. Huhuhu.

Robi pa rin. haha!

Sat, 7 Jun 2008 14:43:47 -0000

I'm not really a fan of grand 2-hour presentations of winners but I managed to stick through the whole PBB Big Night.

Reminded me of the American Idol finish because Beauty and Nicole got 4th and 3rd places, respectively, leaving an all-male battle between Ejay and Robi.

Ejay won. Robi landed second.

Not bad. It was like Atenistas + other Robi supporters against the rest of the Philippines. Pinoys simply love underdogs, no? Hahaha.

Robi had it all na raw so I guess it's just right that Ejay won. He deserves it din naman. =)

Prince Caspian

Fri, 6 Jun 2008 15:14:46 -0000

I'm not going to gush on how HOT and good-looking Prince Caspian is (haha!) because I got far more impressed with the whole movie. From the costumes up to the heated fight scenes, I fought the urge to squeal and sit on the edge of the cinema seat. XD If you loved the first Narnia movie, I am soooo sure that you'll love Prince Caspian. It's a movie where every good element of fantasy was brought together. The characters and settings are real and dream-like at the same time. *sighs* :) WATCH IT! Watch it! Watch it! p.s. Lucy, still oh-so adorable! And Edmund is just.. Wow. p.s. 2. for more pictures visit: http://www.narniaweb.com/default.asp http://costumes.narniaweb.com/default.asp

the things i love

Thu, 5 Jun 2008 18:50:50 -0000

Before I go to sleep (it's 2:39 am!), I just want to show how excited I am today because of...

This! Yes, pens and paper. =P Nah, it's an artwork! Yey me! Due to busy months, it took me a loooonnggg time to come up with a finished one. I have developed this bad bad habit of leaving works unfinished because I get distracted or too lazy. That's Ayanami Rei, btw. I owe this one to KC.

I'm back to watching and downloading anime (Vampire Knight and XXXHolic), also squeezing in a few episodes of My Boss, My Hero. It's a delightfully FUNNY Japanese drama that I'm absolutely loving now. =)

Aside from the PC, here're my constant companions: sketchpad, pencil, eraser, a book entitled Fragile Things (woot!!!), and Fishball. =)

for you

Tue, 3 Jun 2008 08:59:10 -0000

I'm feeling quite okay but still crappy. But anyways...

The quote that I highlighted..

...I was wondering whether it applied only to me? Because I realized that I didn't cry a single tear ever since that day. Maybe it's the reason why up until now, I haven't been able to forgive myself completely. There's no hatred and pain anymore but the guilt is still there. After all these years. After all that has happened in his life. In my life. I feel the guilt even more when we finally see each other during the rarest of times. Even more so when he gives me his smile. And I think, "That's it. That's the reason why he's so dear to me."

...I was wondering whether it applied to me doing that for him and not just for myself? Because I realized that I didn't make an effort to ease what I have caused. Pretended that everything was his fault and not mine but in reality it was I who brought the pain. Regret. Time. Two words that are synonymous to "What if?" when joined together. Unfortunately, I chose to...

upset.

Tue, 3 Jun 2008 08:10:06 -0000

Magda-drama sana ako kaso bigla akong nawala sa mood. Grrr..

Dapat hindi. Dapat hindi talaga.
Dapat masaya ako. Dapat masaya ako para sa kanya.

My own demons.
Struggling to fight my own demons.
I shouldn't allow myself to feel this.
Walang dahilan.

Hindi rin bagay sakin.

NAKAKAINIS!!!!

I should have rebuilt it soon. Damn crap of a wall.

I very well know what and who shouldn't be compromised.