Beyond Oblivion

US

2010-06-16T00:04:00.000-07:00

US
(June 16, 2010)
(2:50-3:02)

Looking through that space in my heart
That has been left unattained by you
Now where do I start, when we are about to part
And everything still seems so real but untrue

In my heart lie a thousand melodies
That I have been hiding ever since
Just to keep this love that I believed in
I believed in us,,
I believed in us…

And all of the lies that you’ve made
In my mind are still being replayed
And I know I am to blame
For playing this game

In my heart lie a thousand melodies
That I have been hiding ever since
Just to keep this love that I believed in
I believed in us,,
I believed in us…

Until the end my hand is full
Of regrets I hoped I made…..
In the end my life
Will never be the same

In my mind

2010-06-09T19:08:00.000-07:00

In my mind lies a thousand pictures of memories that I hoped I had

In my mind lies a single person that I hope would be mine

But the tides of time

Made you oh so blind

And all we have left

Is a love full of regrets?

I’m running away from the one I thought would rescue me

I’m falling away and leaving this world of misery

Deep down inside of me

I’m not strong can’t you see

I’m weak…I’m weak…

He told me that he loved me

But still he let me go

He told me I’m the only one

But why do I feel so alone

The tides are high and low but my heart is torn

To a thousand pieces of our memories before

I held on for so long,,

Never thought this love was wrong

Until the day someone came along

And proved to me, that I was worth it all along…

Incomplete

2010-04-19T21:58:00.000-07:00

Incomplete

(I composed this song during class hours, haha, Well its for my boyfriend… ha ha.. Enjoy)

The night is fading;

The wind is blowing

Against the heat of this feeling

As I watch the stars disappear tonight

How I wish that you were here

Coz’ its been too long,

Is our love that strong?

Its been too long and I miss you now..

CHORUS:

What is the use of my arms?

If I’m not going to wrap it around you baby

What is the use of my hands?

If I’m not going to hold your hand in mine

See without you baby my life feels incomplete

La la la la la la la

II.

The rain is now pouring

Lovers are waiting

Is time going to be my friend or enemy?

As I watch them hold each other tight

I find myself wishing that you were here

Coz’ I’m all alone

And I’m not that strong

Its been too long and I miss you now

CHORUS:

What is the use of my arms?

If I’m not going to wrap it around you baby

What is the use of my hands?

If I’m not going to hold your hand in mine

See without you baby my life feels incomplete

Its like a part of me is not whole

My heart is beating but its feels so alone

I feel so alone…

Coz’ without you baby my life feels incomplete

One Last Time

2010-04-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

(I actually composed this song when my bf and I broke up, ha ha,, may tono na and everything pero la pako lakas ng loob kantahina nd irecord..enjoy)

We’re falling apart,

Don’t you try to deny it

I know you feel it too

Baby, I can’t take it but I have to accept the truth

My tears have dried, but the pain in my heart is still alive

Chorus:

For one last time,

Let me hold the hands

Of the man I love the most

Let me touch his face again

And tell him I love him

Without you,
my heart is broken in two

But I have to accept the truth

That you’re gone, gone, gone

II.

I’m falling apart

I’m trying to forget you

But the memories are still here

Each time I think about us

I’m drowning in my fears

My tears have dried

But the pain in my heart is still alive

Chorus 2x

Bridge:

How can the heart move on

When you are still holding on

To a mere memory of the past

That I’m still hoping that will last

For one last time.

The first step

2010-04-19T07:21:00.000-07:00

Pride, if taken into a good context is self-respect or valuing one’s own achievement, however, now a day it is often used in an arrogant manner. You see, Pride is the reason why men lose the love of their lives. It is the poison that slowly pushes away our loved ones. Sometimes I find it hard to comprehend why we always let pride get in the way of everything, I myself am guilty of letting pride ruin things for me, and I always end up regretting what I’ve done. Well regrets always comes in the end, because we are still left with questions of what things could or may have been, that is where the what if’s and if only in our lives start.

Honestly, ever since pride ruined things for me, I started approaching things in a different way, I took risks and enjoyed life more. Instead of waiting for things to happen, I made things happen. You see in a relationship, it does not matter who ever said sorry first, whoever texted or called first, because no one wins or loses in a relationship because a relationship is not made for one person alone, it is made for two people who are willing to set aside their differences, and understand each other as much as possible. No one said everything is supposed to smooth sailing every now and then, we all encounter bumps on the road, and this are supposed to be challenges that we are supposed to overcome in life.

Sometimes I wonder why we create far too many reasons why we do not pursue something when the only clear fact that I can see is that we are afraid, afraid of the fact that we might fail or be rejected in the end, when the thing is we don’t know yet. We just save ourselves with nonsense reasons but deep inside regrets are already haunting us. You see being afraid is normal but hey! When are you going to move forward and save yourself from the agony of your regrets! I f you love someone then shout it out loud! If you are sorry then tell him! If you failed then accept it, because unless you do something you’ll never grow out of your shell. The first step is always the hardest but in the end, I’d rather look back in my life and tell myself I did everything in my power for the people I cared about than be left with the what if’s and the agony of not being able to move on because of my life’s many unfinished business.

10 things I hate about LOVE

2010-04-19T04:47:00.000-07:00

The 10 things I hate about love,

(Love as in bf/gf love ah!)Whatever is written in this blog entry are just pure insights from the one and only macky mc crann, Haha, well here it goes…

1. I hate it when love drives us humans crazy, we totally lose control of ourselves, we just smile or laugh all the time! We are in a so-called dreamland all the time. (mukha na nga silang adik kung minsan eh) haha

2. I hate it when love brings out the corniest and even the lousiest replies ever! Ha ha, pero deep inside kahit anu man sinabi ng bf or gf naten kilig paren tayo kahit na pointless.

3. I hate it when people become too dependent on their partners, okay fine, in love ka nga, pero are you sure that it will last? Eh paano na pag iniwan ka nyan? Diba?

4. Change, why do people have to change who they really are for someone? I mean, why not accept that person for who he really is, and why not show your bf/gf the real you, sometimes we feel so insecure about what other people might think about us that we already forget the real us.

5. Emo, emo, emo! Kung hindi ka emo, bitter ka naman? Why are people so intrigued with other people’s misery? Wala nabang karapatan ang isang tao na magpost ng kung anong nafefeel nya na hnd sya tatawaging emo or bitter? Ha ha

6. I hate it when people actually try to act out movies into their real lives, HELLO, Earth to MARS! Okay fine, there might be some scenes in those movies that might actually resemble your current love life but for God’s sake, not everything! Every one of us has his or her own story to tell. What I’m trying to point out here is grow up, that actor in the movie is not your boyfriend are you’re also a different person from the lead actress, It’s just a story, something to keep people entertained.

7. I hate it sometimes when we let love take control of our entire lives, we let it affect everything, our studies, our families, and we become too attached. The point here is sometimes we should learn to prioritize things in life, learn who are more important in our lives and be responsible enough to accept the consequences of our actions.

8. MAGASTOS, ha ha, I pity guys, well nanliligaw palang sila gastos na, eh pag hindi ka sinagot? Eh d bokya! Butas na bulsa mo, heart broken ka pa! ha ha. Well it’s a part of the courting process pero girls, kung ayaw niyo talaga sakanila wag niyo na patagalin pagdurusa nila okay? Ha ha. Well isa pang gastos, monthsary, birthday, anniversary or kahit na dates or simpleng may makita lang tayong cute at tingin natin bagay sa bf/gf natin, agad bibilhin naten. Ha ha, well it’s our problem naman sometimes, pero I think that the simplest things yung mas may nakakatouch and unforgettable na feeling, well ako yun ah, letters lang kasi grabe na kilig ko! Ha haa

9. I hate it when I cannot fall asleep at night just because of a single memory or maybe just because of a single phone call from someone special. Well, I hate it, but I kind of liked that feeling, especially when you’re missing him or her, and you know it’s so darn late already and he or she is probably sleeping na and you’ll still end up calling him or her just to tell them that you miss them, yun lang, tapos pwede ka ng matulog, corny noh? Ha ha.

10. Lastly, what I hate the most about falling or being in love is the pain. The pain that will one day wake you up to that sad reality that sometimes some things are not meant to be, that maybe too much love from one person can end up hurting the other. Well I will always wonder how something so great could possibly cause too much pain. Lesson learned, if you are not ready for the pain, then do not take the fall.