Bhobwire: Urban Vampire

Trailers At Lifestyle Camper

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 22 Nov 2018 02:36:00 +0000

LifestyleCamper is Ukraine's first producer of teardrop campers. These campers/trailers can be towed by any kind of car equipped with the hitch. Currently, there are 2 basic campers that can be equipped in different ways.

The basic setup includes minimal but absolutely enough for travel, longtime hunting or sport fishing in open air conditions. There are comfortable sleeping place, lighting, kitchen, balloons for water, battery and other. Every our model can be equipped with solar cell battery to make the travel independent from camping, with shower, heating system, refrigerator, gas cooker and so on.

These fantastically comfortable, extraordinarily beautiful, stylish and multi-functional trailers are able to qualitatively change your vacation, add comfort to nature, bring freedom to your distant travels, attract the rapturous looks and surprise the people around you.

The presence of a full double bed, refrigerator, gas stove, wash-hand basin, TV and audio system, lighting, full energy independence and many other useful options will make your stay, wherever you are, as comfortable as at home.

Canadian Medical Care

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 29 Sep 2016 05:07:00 +0000

The main goal of Canadian Medical Care is not only the organization and further implementation of the reproductive health programs, but also protection of the rights and interests of its members.

With help, it will be useful to the biological parents, surrogate mothers, as well as other participants of such relationships.
Barrenness or sterility had grown today. Various components contribute to this brisk growth, environment pollution, fat food and etc. thus, childless families lose hope of actualizing a dream to raise children.

However, natural powerlessness together conceive or fully carry a gestation should not be a main obstacle to become happy. One of the solutions might be a surrogacy.

Surrogacy is a very ambiguous and controversial thing. Nowadays it is the only way to make childless couples happy, and people are unlikely to refuse it.

Infertility is increasingly becoming a sad diagnosis of many happy families. People are already familiar with long-term courses of treatment in clinics that are inconclusive. In this case, we have to accept what is happening and to admit that the appearance of the child by a surrogate mother is the last necessary measure, which will bring us closer to family happiness.

Check it out www.leihmutterschaft1.de.

Surrogacy Services

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 29 Sep 2016 03:46:00 +0000

Future parents, who decide to use the services of a surrogate mother have to face many important decisions. First of all it is the moral, psychological and ethical side of the program.

On the other hand there are technical questions as how to find a surrogate mother, sometimes also a donor as well as how to control and supervise medical program. There is also not always a real opportunity to independently and competently solve legal and juridical aspects.

A team of experts at Canadian Medical Care Agency works for the benefit of customers. We are well aware of the origins of infertility problems and confidently step on the way to solve them.

Individual approach to every case is the key to a successful start and efficient victory over infertility. We select the Reproduction Medical Center that will conduct IVF procedure. We carry out the selection, coordination, and comprehensive medical and psychological study of the surrogate mothers for the possibility to bear a child.

The birth of a healthy child is the realization of couples' dreams, which will take place under the strict supervision of experts.

Visit www.maternitedesubstitution.fr and find out more.

Surrogate Motherhood In England

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 29 Sep 2016 03:46:00 +0000

Surrogate is a very ambiguous and controversial thing. Nowadays it is the only way to make childless couples happy, and people are unlikely to refuse it.

Infertility is increasingly becoming a sad diagnosis of many happy families. People are already familiar with long-term courses of treatment in clinics that are inconclusive. In this case, we have to accept what is happening and to admit that the appearance of the child by a surrogate mother is the last necessary measure, which will bring us closer to family happiness.

Surrogate has appeared not in our time. One of the first references we find in the Bible, long before the birth of Christ. The Old Testament describes the case when in the family of Abraham and Sarah a long time was no children. Sarah could not give birth to a child, and she referred to the maid. The maid gave birth to her and Abraham’s child, and Sarah adopted a child and named him Ishmael.

Visit http://maternitasurrogata.eu to find out more.

Surrogacy Medical Care

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 29 Sep 2016 03:42:00 +0000

Canadian Medical Care is a center of surrogacy and infertility treatment. For the team it means being competent and understand the needs of people who want to become parents. And patients will always feel such an attitude at the Center of Reproductive Medicine.

Services to same-sex couples are also offered.

The main focus is childless couples with their own individual history, desires, fears and hopes. The satisfaction of the patients, as well as individually oriented and successful treatment, is the top priority.

What is good about the services is that if you have hard times to make a choice, try to collect information from different sources, including the center. This can help you get the best option available and be able to make a final decision.

On a side note, their expertise and success serve as proofs that there is a high percentage of women who have already experienced the joy of motherhood. The successful results and positive statistics are only part of the efforts.

Check out http://surrogacy1.co.uk.

Physical Therapy In New York, Midtown

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 05 Dec 2014 02:59:00 +0000

New York's Dynamic Neuromuscular Rehabilitation (NYDNR) is a premier provider of physical therapy in New York City. They offer patients in Midtown, Manhattan and other areas of NYC comprehensive services with a holistic approach that includes physical therapy techniques, innovative methods and non-surgical treatments.

What is Physical Therapy?

Physical therapy techniques employ a scientific approach to medicine that employs heavily researched methods of manipulating the muscles, bones and joints of the body in order to restore them to function.

Physical therapists undergo extensive education and training that prepares them to engage in the significant task of restoring patients lives through an approach that is varied and prescribed for each individual circumstance.

Physical Therapy Techniques

Therapists employ a variety of hands-on manipulative techniques that work to guide specific body structures into correct position, so that proper alignment is achieved and strengthening can ensue. The use of innovative methods are also put into place and include:

Computer Assisted Rehabilitation Environment (CAREN)
Extra Corporeal Shock Wave Therapy (ESWT)
Extra Corporeal Pulse Activation Technology (EPAT)
Gait Laboratory
Dynamic Neuromuscular Stabilization (DNS)
Ultrasound Technology

This elite provider of physical therapy makes use of cutting-edge technology and researched based methodologies that together offer the most complete system of therapy in the area. Patients in NYC, including Manhattan and Midtown, enjoy the benefits of the most thorough path to care that incorporates non-surgical treatments.

Whether therapies are needed after an injury or accident, or if an athlete desires to benefit from performance enhancement, NYDNR in New York City offers expert professional therapy with experience, innovative technology and care.

Online Tuition When It Suits You

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 03 Sep 2012 01:19:00 +0000

Tutor Hub enables anybody to get help anytime anywhere. What makes their service good is because you can connect with their tutor using your PC and get all the attention you need at a cost of a fraction of what a learning establishment will cost you.

Just like what the title of the post says, online tuition when it suits you. This means you only play when you receive help. Unlike hiring real tutors to be with you side by side and paying them by a fixed rate, you get to save more through Tutor Hub.

The community is also a big help. Users help each other out by answering questions if they can. If you cannot find a good solution to your problem, then that is the time you can get help from the various private tutoring at Tutor Hub.

Any subject you need help with, there is bound to be a tutor available to help you out.

I also like their process work considering that having a transcript greatly helps in keeping track where you left off. You can come back to it for reference or revision. How cool is that?!

LDR

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 12 Jul 2012 07:01:00 +0000

Through the distance of countless miles
I long for you and your cheery smiles

I look for you where the horizon lies
Hoping your gaze be seen in those tantric eyes

I'm wishing you would be here with me
Waiting for you to be in my arms and free

Why this endless space of torments pass
And this emptiness a void so vast

Can my touch reach you this far
Can this senseless kiss feel you near

Would this love be enough to keep us strong
And the world would be small and time not long

I want you here when you're far away
Wishing you're not there but here to stay

In Denial

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 12 Jul 2012 06:49:00 +0000

Denying the truth of being alone
Denying the reality of being down and troubled
Denying the fact that I was unhappy all this time
Denying the true feeling of incompleteness inside

Could not remember when and where this feeling start
Could not even remember how the emptiness feeling takes its part
I just woke up one day disturbed and in pain
Not knowing why and what its reason behind

Couldn't grasp the truth of what I truly want in this life
Couldn't even understand what I'm going through right now
Couldn't put my life's puzzle in the right track
And all I could do is to let myself from reality be whacked

Confused

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 10 Jul 2012 08:50:00 +0000

Some things in my life are not meant to happen I know
But I don't want to so I just kept my eyes closed from the truth
I wanted to believe I can make you love me like before
Even if you're not, I would still long for the love for me you once have.

I can't hold on to what is really the truth in you for me
I can't catch up what were really your feelings for me
You used to be the man of my dreams
Yet now, everything in us and you suddenly change.

Can't quite understand what had happen now to you
I don't know if you're bored and just wanted to be alone
Can't quite grasp what's going on with you in my life
Or for some simple thing, you suddenly for me just fall out of love.

If such reason is true, why can't you just leave me?
In that way, I know where my grounds should be
If such falling out of love subject is what you are going through now
Then let it be, spell it out so I can be free from these miseries.

Loving someone who you think is the least to hurt you is frustrating
Knowing you have invested all of what you have to him just for nothing
He continuously made you believed he loves you more than anything
When all of his actions totally contradicts from what he is trying to say.

Which should I go and what should I choose to believe?
I don't know what to follow, is it what I hear or what I feel?
Which should I be, should I believe in his words or his actions?
For I know, I am now trapped and confused from this situation.

Smiling

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 06 Mar 2012 08:02:00 +0000

I smiled this morning
About nothing in particular
For no special reason at all
The feeling was just peculiar

I smiled this afternoon
About nothing specific
Nothing important happened
Just moments so hectic

I smiled tonight
Wondering in deep sighs
Nothing but cryptic feelings
I just wondered why

I caught myself smiling all day
Just some childish naught
I realized without knowing
The unknown eccentricities of my thoughts

It was those peculiar moments
That my thoughts were unguarded
Those moments my mind was closed
And my heart opened

It was in all those moments
When I caught myself smiling like a fool
It was when I realized
That I didn't catch myself thinking of you

Our Love Must End

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 04 Mar 2012 04:00:00 +0000

The sun ascends
The sun descends
As we both know
Things have to end

Although our love
Is sincere and true
I am so sorry
I can't be there for you

I love you with all my heart
But fate unfortunately put us apart
And though this bond will have to end
You will always be my friend

With a love so true
And fate so blue
All I can say is
I love you

Pause

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 15 Jan 2012 07:19:00 +0000

Fast is the exact word to describe time now. The new age has been a twin of fast advancements. Card catalogues are out. Welcome search engines! Just a click and you have it. Goodbye to telegrams. Hello SMS! A blast of it will let all pals know what's going on. No need of posting memorandum on a public cork board. Sending it to the entire staff thru ms outlook is just as efficient.

People from different societal brackets are now "instant-lovers" - coffee, foods, shopping and the list goes on. Each tick of the clock is so quick that no one can afford to let it slip away. Having all the conveniences, if not all, most of us are always in a rush- meaning, shortening time to accomplish multitude of tasks for profit or for better rewards thought to be the tickets to unlocking our dreams - SUCCESS. Unfortunately, it has a revised meaning now, which is stability, comfort and convenience. Formerly, success was known to be contentment and happiness. That I know.

In the working environ where "deadline" is overused and almost lost its significance, people are chasing their dreams like superheroes. They move, talk, think, decide, invent, test, implement, and commit so fast. The overwhelming demands of the modern times have taken sleep and rest away from the present vocabulary in the consciousness. To get the task done, regardless of ways, has preoccupied the state of wakefulness. Be fast! No doubts there are some things left, if not less, un-attended at all.

Important dates. Greetings. Smile. Reflections. Just to name a few.

For all the complexities that may perplex us, I feel for a need to take a back. Not just to pose with fashion like angles of a cover boy or girl of vanity magazines. But, to spend time for self-assessment…simple questions as they appear….

Do I know my personal mission? Am I aware of my professional goal?
How many times did I think for others' welfare and subordinated mine?
Who am I? Do my partner know me?
What are my reasons of working? Are they worth it? What are my basis of its worth?
Are there changes in me? Do I need to change?
Were there times that I place myself in the shoe of the recipient of my email before clicking the send button?
Am I aware that there are several ways in saying things?
What are my roles -As a friend? As a family member? As an employee? As a stranger?

Guess, it is about time not just be part of the quick evolution of almost everything. To be fast is appreciated. Going beyond is needed. We need not just halt. Sometimes, we need to go back to basics. PAUSE and dig deeper - using the intellect of our soul and functionalities of our senses.

Not pose. Pause. Fast is the exact word to describe time now. The new age has been a twin of fast advancements. Card catalogues are out. Welcome search engines! Just a click and you have it. Goodbye to telegrams. Hello SMS! A blast of it will let all pals know what's going on. No need of posting memorandum on a public cork board. Sending it to the entire staff thru ms outlook is just as efficient.

People from different societal brackets are now "instant-lovers" - coffee, foods, shopping and the list goes on. Each tick of the clock is so quick that no one can afford to let it slip away. Having all the conveniences, if not all, most of us are always in a rush- meaning, shortening time to accomplish multitude of tasks for profit or for better rewards thought to be the tickets to unlocking our dreams - SUCCESS. Unfortunately, it has a revised meaning now, which is stability, comfort and convenience. Formerly, success was known to be contentment and happiness. That I know.

In the working environ where "deadline" is overused and almost lost its significance, people are chasing their dreams like superheroes. They move, talk, think, decide, invent, test, implement, and commit so fast. The overwhelming demands of the modern times have taken sleep and rest away from the present vocabulary in the consciousness. To get the task done, regardless of ways, has preoccupied the state of wakefulness. Be fast! No doubts there are some things left, if not less, un-attended at all.

Important dates. Greetings. Smile. Reflections. Just to name a few.

For all the complexities that may perplex us, I feel for a need to take a back. Not just to pose with fashion like angles of a cover boy or girl of vanity magazines. But, to spend time for self-assessment ... simple questions as they appear….

Do I know my personal mission? Am I aware of my professional goal?
How many times did I think for others' welfare and subordinated mine?
Who am I? Do my partner know me?
What are my reasons of working? Are they worth it? What are my basis of its worth?
Are there changes in me? Do I need to change?
Were there times that I place myself in the shoe of the recipient of my email before clicking the send button?

Am I aware that there are several ways in saying things?
What are my roles -As a friend? As a family member? As an employee? As a stranger?

Guess, it is about time not just be part of the quick evolution of almost everything. To be fast is appreciated. Going beyond is needed. We need not just halt. Sometimes, we need to go back to basics. PAUSE and dig deeper - using the intellect of our soul and functionalities of our senses.

Not pose. Pause.

Bliss in Sinai

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Sat, 14 Jan 2012 07:25:00 +0000

My heart jumped in jubilation as I heard from Ma’am Betty, the homemaker of my host family for the last week of my stay in Holland, that my request to visit Sinai Centrum was granted. I am in the field of Psychology thus my interest in seeing another psychiatric health facility is really intense. I thought that this will give me insights on how to make sound suggestions in improving the psychiatric facility in my hometown. More than that, I also believe that I will be able to harvest a number of real-life lessons.

Ma’am Betty told me that it was just a small organization. However, I was quite surprised when we arrive. For me, it was really huge. Well, I am basing it from our facility here in Cebu. After braving the cold from the outside, we proceeded to the office and an introduction of my visit to the colleagues of Ma’am Betty followed. After that, through the sharing of Ma’am Betty, I was able to gather pieces of relevant information. I knew that Sinai Centrum is a Jewish institution which used to cater around 200 patients. The move to transfer it to another location made it to handle only 12 patients as of this time. My quick tour of the place made me see the impressive isolation room, the well-kept activity room, the patient’s room, the smoking room and the stock room. These are just some of the sections I was able to see.

I am quite impressed of the structure, the equipment and the facility in general to the point that it made me wonder how come that they need to transfer. But more than those is the sincerity I felt from the way the staff took care of the patients. No words can better describe the compassion and the dedication that stemmed from the deepest part of their hearts as they fulfill their responsibilities by endlessly demonstrating proper care to the patients who were denied sanity.

I was also deeply touched by the moment that I joined the coffee break with the staff and the patients. I felt the intense connection of both parties through the unique dynamics demonstrated by all. I was even astonished about the lucid interval I witnessed. In the sane minds of the patients lies a reservoir of depth meanings. And in their hearts are picturesque memories of a bitter-sweet past.

In my short visit, I found bliss. The goodness of human in extending assistance is an experience worth reliving. The meeting of two beautiful worlds, the normal and the special, is a proof that when love surrounds it is human nature to give a piece one’s self in the name of service.

I take my hats off to all I met in Sinai Centrum. May all of you be blessed with a meaningful life.

Us

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 10 Jan 2012 16:20:00 +0000

When I came to know you
It did not feel anything unusual
If I could remember, we introduce each other
Through this yahoo messenger

We were not even friends that time yet
We were just casual chatters in the net
We never tend to make each other special
For we are just strangers to each other’s life.

And when we saw each other and formally introduced
I admit, I felt a presence of a beautiful person
Though you’re a bit of snobbish that time
You did not even smile when I say hi, yet you just nod.

And then we became so close suddenly
It felt like, we knew each other for quite a while already
We came to know and see each other’s hidden smiles
And never imagine it would happen in just a snap.

We became then a special part of each other’s life
And hope we will both treasure what we have now
Though the getting to know stage is fast like flash
Still hope, we can make this special feeling to last.

Vampire's Longing

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 08 Jan 2012 16:12:00 +0000

In the middle of the night, my veins are active. My sticky blood flashes so quick that made my heat beat faster. My eyes wander in silence observing the mortals charging energy for tomorrow’s rush hours. Different things, either morbid or not so, are like film strips in my mind connecting to the reservoir of my always-disguised emotions.

Under the manmade haven, I lurk in the darkness. The shades of the trees made the moment so perfect for me to devour any sight of my prey. The noises made by the rubber slippers signaled that hunger will soon be over. Food has walked in.

But then, I realize that my stomach needs nothing. I am not thirsty either for some cups of warm blood. I need nothing to intake. Nothing. But I am feeling something. My heart is talking to me about something great.

My red eyes led me to where the key is. Grabbed it and opened the room of my past. It showed tender moments of a great love I had with one mortal. It brought me back to the time where the air is pink and the streets are filled with magnolias. Lips were intertwined as the arms scratched the back of firing love. Sunrise and sunset were the perfect witnesses of the feelings shared by me and my beloved mortal. But not for a long time, love left me devastated. For the mortal it was just one of the stages of life. But to me, it was a part of my whole life, my whole being. Life is imperfect and most of the time unequal.

In a corner of my abode where I made friendship with the spider on my ceiling, I hum our music. I consoled my cold self. I let my mystery be swayed by the notes composed by my brothers. I miss the feeling of having someone not like me but love me unconditionally. For a time already, I have closed my doors. Locked them and put the huge sign of no entry.

I don’t know. Maybe, I am ready this time, for my heart to be devoured by what they call love. Ironic as it is as I usually devour someone else’s for me to be in the seat of power. I now celebrate the highest worship I know. I offer to our supreme my petition to meet the one I am destined to spend my whole time with.
We might be heartless in most of the stories people labeled us. But honestly, we are willing for our hearts to be consumed by you. Part of our imperfection is we can fall. For you.

Nocturnal Eye

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Sat, 07 Jan 2012 12:54:00 +0000

No advance notice. No signal. No premonition. But it happens - from time to time.

When it is time for the stars to twinkle and the moon to dominate the blue sky, it seems that there is a center somewhere that draws strength from the moment. It creates a mystical silence that slowly opens my nocturnal eye. It tickles the cornea and stabilizes my wakefulness. My body is shouting for rest but my eye ignores the begging. Carefree and happy, it travels through my mind’s winged chariot. Distance is immeasurable. Sleep is forgotten.

Weightless, I allowed it to happen. It seems like a choice but in reality it is not. I have no control over it. It happens and it is bound to be repeated. I call it a phenomenon of spontaneity. It brings my whole being to another state, perhaps to another dimension as well. Though my physiology is weary, it is surprising that my senses seem to have adrenaline rush stronger than an about-to-erupt pacific volcano. They are enjoying the travel, the experience and the feeling.

Floating midair, my very conscious being moves in circles. There are times that my feet walk me through a familiar valley yet in a different time. Surprisingly, I can see distant memories and events that are yet to come. Ideas are like fairies sprinkling tiny glitters in every loop they make. A kaleidoscope of thoughts highlights the asphalted pathways with vibrant colors and pastel ones too. My walk does not end here or so soon even. It must be somewhere in the maze of moments that I sometimes feel the warmth of a teardrop when I realized that I am just a step away from the brink of the river of insanity.

Very tired, I seek refuge to whatever available abet I can see. I let myself be slaved by the thickness of the milky way. I drown myself with the sweetness of the stingy bees. I engulf all the dots and ovals of human invention with a heart full of hope to be in the plateau of a sound sleep. Disappointment lashes me with the spikes of circumstantial self pity that told me right under my nose that everything I did was just a failure.

Innocent, I stand up as my nocturnal eye is blood shot. Dilated yet hurt. I entrusted everything to my feet. I only have one vengeance – that is to find the way where it will lead me to the end. No thinking involved. No feelings involved. I let the moment unravel itself and bring me to wherever I am supposed to be. I seek no balance. I throw away my box of logic. I hide my parcel of intuition. I lose my personhood. I let everything outside of me rule in arrogance.

Perfect! Spontaneity breeds spontaneity.

In an iota of time, the world I am in halt in perfect timing. A period of the experiential fantasy draws to a close. After two sets of quarters of the never-tired hands of time, I awaken. The angels came down from the nearby heaven to put galaxies in the angles of my eyes. After all, my insomnia is over.

Why

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Wed, 28 Dec 2011 15:34:00 +0000

I thought I'm already fine and doing well with what I have
I thought I have finally moved on with my life
But never did thought I will be very much affected
Of you, showing your affection to someone else

I don't know why I felt uncomfortable of what had happen
I don't know why I felt uneasy of what I see
Was it just because I was shocked or annoyed?
Or was I jealous of seeing you with her for some reasons.

I really can't understand what was going on
It really pinch a part of my heart on what I saw
You showing the world how you love her already now
As much as you have loved me before in your life

Why do I feel regret of the decision I made in the past
Why should I feel this way, knowing it's not right?
Am I in denial of what I feel that I still love him?
Or was it just I then, that was left alone in the air?

Answered Prayer

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 06:40:00 +0000

I am not religious. I don’t hear mass as scheduled. I don’t pray the chain of beads as advised. I don’t read the Holy Scripture as it should be. But, I am well connected with my spirituality. When there is silence, I pray and worship my God.

Living my life is giving the excellence expected of me every moment. Though different from what the usual is, I managed to maintain high standards when it comes to the things I hook myself with while still appear cool and do the usual stuff that my generation mates do.

I then realized that life becomes a pattern of events. I just need the focus and the discipline it requires to get my goals. For some reasons, it made me unexcited. I know the formula. It made me feel that everything can be expected.

Until such time that I prayed to my God to let me kiss love on its right cheek, the unexpected happen.

I found you.

I have tried to use my logic and my analytical skill to make things simpler about my feelings for you. However, the more I do it the feelings I have for your get more intense. Your eyes, your lips, your arts, your unique self made me so full of love for you. There were times that I was shocked that I am so spontaneous that I can tell you without inhibition what I am feeling. And I also understand that there are moments you doubt what I told you. As what I said, I only have time to help me prove to you that my intentions are pure.

I am not a big deal. This is such a huge statement that my brain is telling me that my ego is hurt. However, I am surprised that I was and am not hurt at all. I asked why. My heart told me that when pure love is around, hurt will never surface. My heart expounded that the happiness I am feeling right now is because I have met love in its sincerest form. I began to understand why I don’t ask for anything else in return. It is now clear to me why I am ready to give bits of sacrifices for you my dove.

That it is okay for me not to be in your priority. And I will never demand for it because I know the situation that I am in.

All I know is me heart speaks of you almost every moment. My dreams are colored now with your presence. My energy is at its peak when I feel your attention. No doubt, I was fearless when I told you that I am content with your extra time. Nothing more.

The angel sent from heaven whispered to me that my God has answered my prayer. And that is you. No one else. And from this, the wheels of my life are turning back again making me inspired to continue to do my share as a member of the complex human system and to search for my purpose of living.

You are an answered prayer who led me to be out from the box and met the real person inside me. Your presence made me know what true love is and how do I love genuinely as a person.

Your beautiful and meaningful world gives me the fuel to love you endlessly. I am going to close my eyes now to pray that you and I will grow old in love.

Why Did I?

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Sat, 19 Nov 2011 00:32:00 +0000

Why did I shove off my angel?
Why did I hurt my love?
What happened to me? To this perfect reality?
Why was I too scared to have fallen for someone
I thought was too impossible to have?
Why was I too afraid to lose you one day?
Why was I thinking of this horrible thought?
When I could have enjoyed those moments iwth you,
Which I extremely missed now
Why was I so paranoid and insecure that my one true love
May still be in love with his ex girlfriend?
Why did I not trust what he tells me?
Why did I not accept and take care of the angel God gave me?
When he was totally faithful to me.

He was my companion, my bestfriend,
My brother, and my love
I could ask for nothing more because I had him
I was contented but that I didn't realize till now
If he only knew how many sleepless and aching nights
I had since we parted ...
A year now and still I continue to mourn
If only he knoew how it hurts me to see him very happy without me
Maybe I did the right thing ... to let go of him
Maybe he doesn't deserve someone like me
But I wanted to give him everything I can
Each day that comes my way, the only prayer
I pray is to have a second chance with him
And maybe I can make him feel someday that
I showed and did everything for him coz
I love him, him and he alone.

If only he could hear me speak of his name
Every spare time I have
If only he could see the tears in my eyes when I see him
If only he could read my mind that hinks of him
If only he could touch me, he'd feel the fear of totally losing him
If only he was near me, then he'd feel my heart beating for him
If's ... but I wish he'd know one day the reason
Behind all these coz I've got no other way to express
My heartaches except through this poem

That simplifies all these to 10 words:
I wish he would know how much I love him!

Feb 8, 2002

Tired ...

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 15 Nov 2011 03:12:00 +0000

Sometimes I feel tired
Sometimes I feel down
But there are things I can't hide
The forces tell me you're the only one

Life was so empty without someone
Everyone was simply the same
I trusted no one
Yet it changed when you came

I try to hide what I'm feeling
But I can't seem to pretend
I can't deny the fact that I'm falling
Falling for someone who was just a friend

I may look at other guys
But I just don't know why my heart stays the same
The truth lies in my eyes
And you just have the charm to set my heart on flame

There's something in you I really desire
Something in you that keeps me alive
There are a lot of things I really admire
You caught my heart by a sweet smile

You drive me crazy
With the love you've been showing me
Life became easy
With the sacrifices you did for me ....

Everyday you just didn't know
You go deeper and deeper into my heart
Each day you helped me grow
You taught me where to start

You taught me what love is
You showed me what it is
You made me feel what it is
And you were the one who gave me my first kiss ...

July 21, 1999

My Tribute

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 15 Nov 2011 01:03:00 +0000

I feel and I breathe the same air as of them. Being part of the cosmic cycle of life which origin is untraceable though being attempted to be explained by a number of learned who use logic and scientific theory to dig deeper to what is supposed to be concrete that has been twisted by the existence of several religious artifacts, I introspected. I underwent self examination of my intention before I let lose of the metallic handcuff of the gladiators that chained me to the walls of convention that is seemingly accepted by the majority of the land’s populace.

I played tricks with a handful of mortals, either closed to me or just plain acquaintances, to solicit their personal views. Yes, I was a bit confused at first. I joggled in thoughts if I will proceed or not. However, I am aware that the spirit that thrives and continuously mutate in my unconscious is waiting to be unleashed by the long awaited act. The eyes of my predecessors who have been engulfed by the black ashes of death cradled by the hands of old time awaits in jubilation to see myself offer the most solemn accolade.

The rhythm of my heartbeat and the reverberation of the music of the air that passes through my windpipe and bronchial tubes found a fleeting moment in unison signaling the brain to pass judgment and let it be executed. Fearless, I was protected by the deafening silence, as my feet brought me to the sanctuary. I met the young instrument who already expected my visit.

I showed to him the symbol of the clan that has been passed from one generation to the other. I offered my arm to serve as the land where it will mark as an epitaph - a conclusion that identifies my whole being as part of the underworld. A world that has been there since the beginning of time. A world that is less defined by rules that pave way to human dynamism. A world which some corners are happy and pure.

I felt the hurt. I felt the sting. But in a nick of time, the sanctuary was transformed into a place where the celestial center of the underworld lies. Smoke, I prefer to call it that way than clouds, envelop the atmosphere and confetti of black petals of the century old roses fell from above like raindrops from the angry nimbus clouds.

I hear the felicitation of nature through the laughter of the thunder and the winking of lightning that feels like an affirmation that the moment was true and right. I became numb and I was swayed by the well knitted notes and well composed lyrics of the underworld members who have ruled the center stage of mortals gaining millions through the applause that is never ending. My mouth was sealed however the spirit in me shouted in freedom as it was unleashed by the forces that I have chosen. It screamed like hell and everyone and

I paid tribute to the divine underworld. I offered a lifelong mark remembering and praising the unique culture and art discoveries of my clan. I pay respect to my forefathers’ ingenuity and boldness of coming up with meanings that no ordinary mortal can comprehend. I salute to the condemned weirdness of my clan by the superficial thought of the self claimed normal.

I shout cheers to everyone as I sip through my own cup that differentiates me from the rest of my associates. I declare happiness and bliss to myself, to my true family and to the mystery of our legacy.

Now, I rest.

Sail Away

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 14:14:00 +0000

Set Sail

Dreamers. We all are.

Their eyes sparkle when they talk about their dreams. Life infused in every word that they speak.

Dreamers. Only a few left standing and believing, that no matter how BIG their dreams are- they can still come true.

It is sad to note that there are "dream-killers". And they are out to kill and destroy (some even out to steal hehehe) . A single word can knock a dreamer down.

But God is different. He came to fulfill every dream. He revives every dead dreams. He shakes off every dreamer who's in slumber. He infused passion into their hearts.

Dreamers, won't take the backseat. Passion fuels their hearts. They see beyond the horizon. They are quick to realized that the harbor is not their place. They set their sail unto the ocean and explore possibilities. A storm may try to stop them along the way, but a dreamer would rather take a risk and face the storm than wait and do nothing.

I am a dreamer. I'll wait no more. I sleep no longer. God has infused my heart with a passion that can't be tamed. I will not stop until I am living the dream. I stand with an absolute faith in a God who makes everything possible.

Dreamers, it's time to SET SAIL!

Will It Be Us Again

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Wed, 10 Aug 2011 03:01:00 +0000

After all that has been said and done in this life
After all the foul words we said to each other
After all the back stabbings you and I had made
Do you think we can still be friends in the end?

After all the painful words I have said to make you go away
Would you still hoped to be with the girl you used to love?
After all the bad things you said to all on what kind of a girl am I
Would I still accept you then in the future ahead of us?

We thought before we will be together forever
We even had set a blessed ceremony of us together
All the motifs and the place where we will start has been set
Not knowing that time might come for us to be apart.

Remembering those memories made me sobbed
Knowing now, it was no longer I had
Remembering what we supposed and used to have
Makes me wonder a lot why we never last

We really can't be sure what we will be in the end
We might be forever strangers or might be friends
We might still be with each other or might not
All and every things are uncertain in this life's path.

I am not quite sure of what to do and think...
If you will come back and ask for me again
Should I say YES and will accept and be with you again?
Or NO for it would be too much to be true to happen.

Settling A Doubt

noreply@blogger.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 29 Jul 2011 09:41:00 +0000

Every one of us living in this world made mistakes
And each of those mistakes has its own corresponding forgiveness
It all depends on the person whom you have put asunder
To let you passed that mistake and accepted you back in one's life.

Yes, everybody should have and will deserve some chances
No matter if it's his 2nd chance or his 6th chance, you still gave way
But sometimes, giving more way that you can able to handle
Is way too much for your mind, soul and heart to tackle

Morning and nights you kept on thinking those thoughts over and over
Those thoughts of “His love and feelings for you are no longer there”
That never a day you would want to stop thinking all those things
But how can you not if there is really something you felt is happening?

Can't quite understand why can't he just be the man you once knew
The man who had touched your soul, the man whom you gave your heart to
You don't know much what to do just to patch things up with both of your lives
You don't know either how to settle the doubt that he had made in your life.