Bhob Wire: Urban Vampire

Pause

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 07:19:00 +0000

Fast is the exact word to describe time now. The new age has been a twin of fast advancements. Card catalogues are out. Welcome search engines! Just a click and you have it. Goodbye to telegrams. Hello SMS! A blast of it will let all pals know what's going on. No need of posting memorandum on a public cork board. Sending it to the entire staff thru ms outlook is just as efficient.

People from different societal brackets are now "instant-lovers" - coffee, foods, shopping and the list goes on. Each tick of the clock is so quick that no one can afford to let it slip away. Having all the conveniences, if not all, most of us are always in a rush- meaning, shortening time to accomplish multitude of tasks for profit or for better rewards thought to be the tickets to unlocking our dreams - SUCCESS. Unfortunately, it has a revised meaning now, which is stability, comfort and convenience. Formerly, success was known to be contentment and happiness. That I know.

In the working environ where "deadline" is overused and almost lost its significance, people are chasing their dreams like superheroes. They move, talk, think, decide, invent, test, implement, and commit so fast. The overwhelming demands of the modern times have taken sleep and rest away from the present vocabulary in the consciousness. To get the task done, regardless of ways, has preoccupied the state of wakefulness. Be fast! No doubts there are some things left, if not less, un-attended at all.

Important dates. Greetings. Smile. Reflections. Just to name a few.

For all the complexities that may perplex us, I feel for a need to take a back. Not just to pose with fashion like angles of a cover boy or girl of vanity magazines. But, to spend time for self-assessment…simple questions as they appear….

Do I know my personal mission? Am I aware of my professional goal?
How many times did I think for others' welfare and subordinated mine?
Who am I? Do my partner know me?
What are my reasons of working? Are they worth it? What are my basis of its worth?
Are there changes in me? Do I need to change?
Were there times that I place myself in the shoe of the recipient of my email before clicking the send button?
Am I aware that there are several ways in saying things?
What are my roles -As a friend? As a family member? As an employee? As a stranger?

Guess, it is about time not just be part of the quick evolution of almost everything. To be fast is appreciated. Going beyond is needed. We need not just halt. Sometimes, we need to go back to basics. PAUSE and dig deeper - using the intellect of our soul and functionalities of our senses.

Not pose. Pause. Fast is the exact word to describe time now. The new age has been a twin of fast advancements. Card catalogues are out. Welcome search engines! Just a click and you have it. Goodbye to telegrams. Hello SMS! A blast of it will let all pals know what's going on. No need of posting memorandum on a public cork board. Sending it to the entire staff thru ms outlook is just as efficient.

People from different societal brackets are now "instant-lovers" - coffee, foods, shopping and the list goes on. Each tick of the clock is so quick that no one can afford to let it slip away. Having all the conveniences, if not all, most of us are always in a rush- meaning, shortening time to accomplish multitude of tasks for profit or for better rewards thought to be the tickets to unlocking our dreams - SUCCESS. Unfortunately, it has a revised meaning now, which is stability, comfort and convenience. Formerly, success was known to be contentment and happiness. That I know.

In the working environ where "deadline" is overused and almost lost its significance, people are chasing their dreams like superheroes. They move, talk, think, decide, invent, test, implement, and commit so fast. The overwhelming demands of the modern times have taken sleep and rest away from the present vocabulary in the consciousness. To get the task done, regardless of ways, has preoccupied the state of wakefulness. Be fast! No doubts there are some things left, if not less, un-attended at all.

Important dates. Greetings. Smile. Reflections. Just to name a few.

For all the complexities that may perplex us, I feel for a need to take a back. Not just to pose with fashion like angles of a cover boy or girl of vanity magazines. But, to spend time for self-assessment ... simple questions as they appear….

Do I know my personal mission? Am I aware of my professional goal?
How many times did I think for others' welfare and subordinated mine?
Who am I? Do my partner know me?
What are my reasons of working? Are they worth it? What are my basis of its worth?
Are there changes in me? Do I need to change?
Were there times that I place myself in the shoe of the recipient of my email before clicking the send button?

Am I aware that there are several ways in saying things?
What are my roles -As a friend? As a family member? As an employee? As a stranger?

Guess, it is about time not just be part of the quick evolution of almost everything. To be fast is appreciated. Going beyond is needed. We need not just halt. Sometimes, we need to go back to basics. PAUSE and dig deeper - using the intellect of our soul and functionalities of our senses.

Not pose. Pause.

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chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 06:19:00 +0000

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Shaken By Silence

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 15 Nov 2009 13:30:00 +0000

Failed to reply on the dot
Silence delivered in a pot
Worried as I got
Moment left me flat

Sent sincere apologies
Silence increased my worries
Heart feeling so guilty
Mind tortured with ambiguity

Teardrops endlessly fall
Soul loses control
Hands surrender in heaven
Asking to be enlighten

This silence is deafening
My heart is wondering
Will I be forgiven?
Or will I be beaten?

Floating in fear and sadness
Body burns in wilderness
Eyes moistened every minute
Hoping answer will arrive in a second split

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Loving

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 09:38:00 +0000

More magnificent than the crescent
Above the fast cars at present
Body enhanced by silver
Radiance from ear to finger

Blue shades on the hair
Shirt revealed sexy flare
Pearly white teeth matched perfectly
With red tender lips so yummy

Talents as hot as the sun
Made me the number one fan
Poems stirred my tear gland
Meanings left me stunned

So special to my universe
In the crowd, you can’t disperse
Clueless as you may seem
Love granted my dream

Doubly happy when you are
Proud when you have gone far
Stabbed when you are sad
Scared when you become mad

Swallowed all my pride
Intense feelings I can’t hide
Wondering you may not believe
I am yours as long as I live

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Bliss in Sinai

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 07:25:00 +0000

My heart jumped in jubilation as I heard from Ma’am Betty, the homemaker of my host family for the last week of my stay in Holland, that my request to visit Sinai Centrum was granted. I am in the field of Psychology thus my interest in seeing another psychiatric health facility is really intense. I thought that this will give me insights on how to make sound suggestions in improving the psychiatric facility in my hometown. More than that, I also believe that I will be able to harvest a number of real-life lessons.

Ma’am Betty told me that it was just a small organization. However, I was quite surprised when we arrive. For me, it was really huge. Well, I am basing it from our facility here in Cebu. After braving the cold from the outside, we proceeded to the office and an introduction of my visit to the colleagues of Ma’am Betty followed. After that, through the sharing of Ma’am Betty, I was able to gather pieces of relevant information. I knew that Sinai Centrum is a Jewish institution which used to cater around 200 patients. The move to transfer it to another location made it to handle only 12 patients as of this time. My quick tour of the place made me see the impressive isolation room, the well-kept activity room, the patient’s room, the smoking room and the stock room. These are just some of the sections I was able to see.

I am quite impressed of the structure, the equipment and the facility in general to the point that it made me wonder how come that they need to transfer. But more than those is the sincerity I felt from the way the staff took care of the patients. No words can better describe the compassion and the dedication that stemmed from the deepest part of their hearts as they fulfill their responsibilities by endlessly demonstrating proper care to the patients who were denied sanity.

I was also deeply touched by the moment that I joined the coffee break with the staff and the patients. I felt the intense connection of both parties through the unique dynamics demonstrated by all. I was even astonished about the lucid interval I witnessed. In the sane minds of the patients lies a reservoir of depth meanings. And in their hearts are picturesque memories of a bitter-sweet past.

In my short visit, I found bliss. The goodness of human in extending assistance is an experience worth reliving. The meeting of two beautiful worlds, the normal and the special, is a proof that when love surrounds it is human nature to give a piece one’s self in the name of service.

I take my hats off to all I met in Sinai Centrum. May all of you be blessed with a meaningful life.

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My Tribute

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 01:03:00 +0000

I feel and I breathe the same air as of them. Being part of the cosmic cycle of life which origin is untraceable though being attempted to be explained by a number of learned who use logic and scientific theory to dig deeper to what is supposed to be concrete that has been twisted by the existence of several religious artifacts, I introspected. I underwent self examination of my intention before I let lose of the metallic handcuff of the gladiators that chained me to the walls of convention that is seemingly accepted by the majority of the land’s populace.

I played tricks with a handful of mortals, either closed to me or just plain acquaintances, to solicit their personal views. Yes, I was a bit confused at first. I joggled in thoughts if I will proceed or not. However, I am aware that the spirit that thrives and continuously mutate in my unconscious is waiting to be unleashed by the long awaited act. The eyes of my predecessors who have been engulfed by the black ashes of death cradled by the hands of old time awaits in jubilation to see myself offer the most solemn accolade.

The rhythm of my heartbeat and the reverberation of the music of the air that passes through my windpipe and bronchial tubes found a fleeting moment in unison signaling the brain to pass judgment and let it be executed. Fearless, I was protected by the deafening silence, as my feet brought me to the sanctuary. I met the young instrument who already expected my visit.

I showed to him the symbol of the clan that has been passed from one generation to the other. I offered my arm to serve as the land where it will mark as an epitaph - a conclusion that identifies my whole being as part of the underworld. A world that has been there since the beginning of time. A world that is less defined by rules that pave way to human dynamism. A world which some corners are happy and pure.

I felt the hurt. I felt the sting. But in a nick of time, the sanctuary was transformed into a place where the celestial center of the underworld lies. Smoke, I prefer to call it that way than clouds, envelop the atmosphere and confetti of black petals of the century old roses fell from above like raindrops from the angry nimbus clouds.

I hear the felicitation of nature through the laughter of the thunder and the winking of lightning that feels like an affirmation that the moment was true and right. I became numb and I was swayed by the well knitted notes and well composed lyrics of the underworld members who have ruled the center stage of mortals gaining millions through the applause that is never ending. My mouth was sealed however the spirit in me shouted in freedom as it was unleashed by the forces that I have chosen. It screamed like hell and everyone and

I paid tribute to the divine underworld. I offered a lifelong mark remembering and praising the unique culture and art discoveries of my clan. I pay respect to my forefathers’ ingenuity and boldness of coming up with meanings that no ordinary mortal can comprehend. I salute to the condemned weirdness of my clan by the superficial thought of the self claimed normal.

I shout cheers to everyone as I sip through my own cup that differentiates me from the rest of my associates. I declare happiness and bliss to myself, to my true family and to the mystery of our legacy.

Now, I rest.

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What Citizenship Means To Me

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 09 Nov 2009 13:34:00 +0000

Eating the dust of the burgeoning economic progress of once crippled nations and the consistently dominant big players is what I see in the desperate soul of our motherland. Breathing slowly as she rides in the winged chariots of the fast race of global advancements and complex yet trendy world systems. Opportunities have migrated to somewhere else they call the greener pasture. This has invited and even transported a number of our talented fellows as they were persuaded with reasons of futuristic contentment for themselves and most importantly for their loved ones. Without a single drop of hesitation, motherland kisses them good luck. She taps the shoulder of each trying to verbalize her assurance that soon we will be reunited.

It feels sad to witness this happening just right under my nose. The archipelago is slowly getting lonely. Childhood friends and some recent comrades have and will soon be away by ocean miles. Honed skills will be shared in a different place far from the motherland’s terrain where it was learned and perfected. This is a piece of reality where most of us are brought in a crossroad.

In as much as I would like to hold their backs and insist that they should stay, I am strength-less. I cannot compete with the noble reasons tagged in their hearts – their and their family’s future. They deserve no judgment. They have promises to fulfill and responsibilities to shoulder. I feel I am being slowly left alone until the time I found myself in the crib of history. It refreshes my memory of the highlights of revolution and the blood shed by the unsung heroes. The struggle under the intimidating oppression was as sorrowful as the way of cross. The colonizers insults were as sharp as Herod’s soldier’s bayonets that sliced the innocent babies into halves. History made me realize how solid the foundation of our country through the solidarity and the intellect of our forefathers. The strength of their character plus the unity they have achieved formed into a diamond-like key that liberated our race from the merciless captive.

Alas, we were freed. We smell the morning dew in the dawn of independence. The overwhelming joy brought the enthusiastic souls of the countrymen to double their efforts to propel the wheels of growth of the nation. It paved way for unique values to flourish like “bayanihan”. The passionate leadership of the young republic that time encouraged the mob to give full cooperation and support the economic plans. Recovery was speedy. Growth was fast. The economic figures as reflection of the republic’s performance skyrocketed. The life in the country was simple yet the people were contented. The children dreamed of growing up fast to be like their idols and worked nowhere but here. Indeed, they were the hope of the nation.

Sadly, the speed towards the pinnacle poisoned some ideologies. It insidiously put off the fire of genuine motivation to move forward as a nation. The leaders have evolved into aliens with massive personal dreams. Fearless they become as they continue to drink from the cup of greed and self satisfaction. Seemingly, black magic lurks in the hearts of many. It gives promise of personal fame and fortune. Political dynasty propagated in the archipelago making unborn babies seated to positions already. Power intoxicates and too much power is addictive. The supposed guidance of the flock has lived in luxury and has become a penumbra of deceit and ruthlessness. The “bayanihan” has torn into pieces of lonely garbage scattered in the slums and suburbs. The economy is suffering. The mob almost healed from the history of tortured colonization left unattended. This is the present. Motherland is sick. I don’t know if she is dying. But yet, the strength of her character from time to time is reflected in the windows of her soul.

We are in a dilemma. Many say that the future has lost its meaning here. Success bid goodbye to its definition in the pearl of the orient seas. People go out of the country to look for where they can shake hand with comfort. The nationalists blame some. The western dreamers call names of the ones left. Exchange of views is as perennial as the dessert’s wave. Division exists.

This has led me to introspect. Questions of different intensities wander inside my triangle of consciousness. I was tempted to pass judgment on those who decided to leave the country and herald those who chose to stay. I dig deeper and found out that the opinion that is beginning to cloud my self is based on the loneliness that is getting under my skin due to the parting ways of some childhood and friendship bonds. I then realize that I need to search the meaning of what is going on. I need to understand why things have fallen this way.

In the middle of this chain of events, our motherland cries. I feel that she deserves an understanding beyond comprehension. What had happened and what is happening are the ultimate reminders to each of us that sincere appreciation of our history dawns in ourselves. We have to value the veins of our past that led us to experience the roller coaster ride. We also need to enjoy the few victories of the recent past to keep ourselves motivated that we still can do it and soon the sun will rise not in the east but in the midst of our motherland. Our present failures, endless as they appear, should be considered something positive, that they are part of life cycle and soon they will give us insights on how to be stronger in facing the gargantuan challenges soon to visit us.

It is now our duty as her citizens to take pride of ourselves as offspring of history and the modern times. No more rooms for finger pointing of who are the loyalists and backsliders. We have to be committed to the idea that our collective uniqueness who has come to mature brought us so many things that we can share to the people around the world. It does not matter if one is located above or below the equator or just right inside the oriental shell. What matters most now is for us to consistently strive for excellence in the best way that we can, making our Filipino linkage as a point of reference in every step that we take. Nothing has to be ashamed of – political frailties will always be around. We just have to make sure that it is not and will never be intentionally repetitive. All we need to do is to make sure that our being Filipino is in our ventricles as we tenderly touch other people’s lives wherever our fate will lead us.

I call this citizenship.

A state where we have come into terms with the persons we have become as a result from our own societal metamorphosis.

This is the blend of nationalism, dependability, integrity and open-mindedness. As responsible citizens, we have to show our respect to our cultural heritage. We have to embrace our past wholeheartedly including the most painful ones. We have to accept the present and won’t leave it as is. We need to do something special for ourselves and our children’s children. Now.

Our responsibilities, either as an employee or a spouse or a brother or even as a friend, are to be fulfilled conscientiously. I am pretty sure that the sum of these small dedicated efforts will contribute to making the lives in the community meaningful. We have to give kudos to our unique set of values. We have to align them to the declared universal goodness. They will be our medium to communicate selflessly to our fellows and to our friends of different colors and beliefs.

Also, the challenge of advancement is for us to consume. Innovation and re-inventing things to suit to the present and future’s requirements should be our slogan as we get immersed with the global race. Our minds, though sometimes peculiarly tired, should welcome new thoughts and the idea of intricate changes. We should allow our stream of consciousness to be flooded with rain water resulting from the numerous summits in the international arena.

We need to exert a conscious effort of learning from the successes of our neighbors so we can localize it within our society. It is our tall order to replicate and propagate little victories within our reach to inspire our brothers to also do the same. Simply, a pat on each other’s back is desired for us not to lose any single drop of hope as we continue to give full service to our motherland.

It is a tattoo that embodies our burning love to our motherland translated into simple actions that give impact on humanity. It is a pure fluid that powers the neurons of interrelations of the societies within our society directed towards growth and development for the present and the succession of generations.

It emanates from within. Its parents are the memories of the old times and the struggle of the present. It is something beyond words. It is felt. It is a drive. It transcends beyond geography. It is our placenta.

This is citizenship, for me.

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chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Tue, 27 Oct 2009 15:02:00 +0000

I admit to myself I did missed you dearly
I admit I was thinking of you every day
I admit how sadden was I on how time flies so easily
Making me missed you more in every step of my way.

Barely there is nothing much to hold on to this missing part
For I know, all of this are merely factual lies of my suppressed life
There is no longer a way to make a past to be present now
And there is nothing much I can do to undo what has been done.

I am happy now with my life; least that was I thought
I am contented with what I am now; least that was I dreamt of
I can say I am better off alone; least that was I believed in
Yet rather after all those beliefs, all I did was lying to myself.

I must start things the right way anew in my life
I must stop thinking on the past and leave it behind
For there is nothing I can do to bring back what I lost
Even though I missed you and it hurts but I need to.

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I Am Sorry Father

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Sat, 17 Oct 2009 10:39:00 +0000

HE had given me a wonderful life
HE had given me a place to live and be free
HE had given me undeniable true love
And never did HE ask for any returns of those unselfish acts.

HE had sacrificed HIS life for me
HE catches all the sins I had committed
HE forgives me with no questions asked
Even if I disgraced HIM over and over in my life

I was HIS child on the day I was made
I owe HIM my life just when my heart starts to beat
I owe HIM for giving me a whole family
Everything I am now is all my debts to HIM.

I am sorry to have remember YOU only in my pains
I am sorry to have caused your heart to bleed
Many sins I did made why YOU ended in pain
But YOU never failed to wash it all clean.

I am sorry FATHER to have beseeched you over and over
I am sorry FATHER to have continuously disgraced your name
From this day on till to the day I will surrender back my life to YOU
I will honor and praise YOUR name with my heart and soul.

Vampire's Longing

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 15:12:00 +0000

In the middle of the night, my veins are active. My sticky blood flashes so quick that made my heat beat faster. My eyes wander in silence observing the mortals charging energy for tomorrow’s rush hours. Different things, either morbid or not so, are like film strips in my mind connecting to the reservoir of my always-disguised emotions.

Under the manmade haven, I lurk in the darkness. The shades of the trees made the moment so perfect for me to devour any sight of my prey. The noises made by the rubber slippers signaled that hunger will soon be over. Food has walked in.

But then, I realize that my stomach needs nothing. I am not thirsty either for some cups of warm blood. I need nothing to intake. Nothing. But I am feeling something. My heart is talking to me about something great.

My red eyes led me to where the key is. Grabbed it and opened the room of my past. It showed tender moments of a great love I had with one mortal. It brought me back to the time where the air is pink and the streets are filled with magnolias. Lips were intertwined as the arms scratched the back of firing love. Sunrise and sunset were the perfect witnesses of the feelings shared by me and my beloved mortal. But not for a long time, love left me devastated. For the mortal it was just one of the stages of life. But to me, it was a part of my whole life, my whole being. Life is imperfect and most of the time unequal.

In a corner of my abode where I made friendship with the spider on my ceiling, I hum our music. I consoled my cold self. I let my mystery be swayed by the notes composed by my brothers. I miss the feeling of having someone not like me but love me unconditionally. For a time already, I have closed my doors. Locked them and put the huge sign of no entry.

I don’t know. Maybe, I am ready this time, for my heart to be devoured by what they call love. Ironic as it is as I usually devour someone else’s for me to be in the seat of power. I now celebrate the highest worship I know. I offer to our supreme my petition to meet the one I am destined to spend my whole time with.
We might be heartless in most of the stories people labeled us. But honestly, we are willing for our hearts to be consumed by you. Part of our imperfection is we can fall. For you.

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Nocturnal Eye

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 09 Oct 2009 11:54:00 +0000

No advance notice. No signal. No premonition. But it happens - from time to time.

When it is time for the stars to twinkle and the moon to dominate the blue sky, it seems that there is a center somewhere that draws strength from the moment. It creates a mystical silence that slowly opens my nocturnal eye. It tickles the cornea and stabilizes my wakefulness. My body is shouting for rest but my eye ignores the begging. Carefree and happy, it travels through my mind’s winged chariot. Distance is immeasurable. Sleep is forgotten.

Weightless, I allowed it to happen. It seems like a choice but in reality it is not. I have no control over it. It happens and it is bound to be repeated. I call it a phenomenon of spontaneity. It brings my whole being to another state, perhaps to another dimension as well. Though my physiology is weary, it is surprising that my senses seem to have adrenaline rush stronger than an about-to-erupt pacific volcano. They are enjoying the travel, the experience and the feeling.

Floating midair, my very conscious being moves in circles. There are times that my feet walk me through a familiar valley yet in a different time. Surprisingly, I can see distant memories and events that are yet to come. Ideas are like fairies sprinkling tiny glitters in every loop they make. A kaleidoscope of thoughts highlights the asphalted pathways with vibrant colors and pastel ones too. My walk does not end here or so soon even. It must be somewhere in the maze of moments that I sometimes feel the warmth of a teardrop when I realized that I am just a step away from the brink of the river of insanity.

Very tired, I seek refuge to whatever available abet I can see. I let myself be slaved by the thickness of the milky way. I drown myself with the sweetness of the stingy bees. I engulf all the dots and ovals of human invention with a heart full of hope to be in the plateau of a sound sleep. Disappointment lashes me with the spikes of circumstantial self pity that told me right under my nose that everything I did was just a failure.

Innocent, I stand up as my nocturnal eye is blood shot. Dilated yet hurt. I entrusted everything to my feet. I only have one vengeance – that is to find the way where it will lead me to the end. No thinking involved. No feelings involved. I let the moment unravel itself and bring me to wherever I am supposed to be. I seek no balance. I throw away my box of logic. I hide my parcel of intuition. I lose my personhood. I let everything outside of me rule in arrogance.

Perfect! Spontaneity breeds spontaneity.

In an iota of time, the world I am in halt in perfect timing. A period of the experiential fantasy draws to a close. After two sets of quarters of the never-tired hands of time, I awaken. The angels came down from the nearby heaven to put galaxies in the angles of my eyes. After all, my insomnia is over.

Personalized Number Plates

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 14:59:00 +0000

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You can inquire first hand if the number is available or not before you do any purchases. Ordering for registration numbers is allowed from 9am to 9pm. If you decide to purchase the number, buying it through their site is safe and secure as it uses well known security technologies to ensure personal information is kept safe and online transactions are secure.

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My Poem

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 07:43:00 +0000

Been noticing for quite some time
My poem's content was recently on the bright side
It was full of happy intentions and thoughts
hIt was full of life and soul.

It has been said, eyes are the window to one's soul
And Eyes had been known not to tell any lies
But my eyes can tell lies and pretend in any way can
My eyes can be sparkling happy even with deep pain inside.

It was my poems that are considered the window to my soul
It was my poem who made my heart express to its inner thoughts
It is the only inhuman best friend I ever had in life
Writing to it all what my heart truly felt and desired.

I wanted to write again another set of poem on love
But it seems I can't find the words to start
Writing down on one piece of paper what my heart felt
But it rather shows the thoughts of being in pain and distressed.

Guess my poem was right, I wanted to be happy
But I can't deny the fact that I was sad
Sad of what had happen last night between me and my love one
That made us fight over some acts.

Couldn't deny the result of what I wrote
It was full of sadness and full of no hopes
Yes, it was the same thoughts as before now
And it's all about pains hurt and lost in my life.

Share Your Thoughts

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Sun, 20 Sep 2009 04:30:00 +0000

Place all your thoughts on anything into one site, which comes with features being able to add photos, videos and sharing your thoughts with others in the same community and you have Thoughts.com.

At Thoughts, the power of blogging and social networking is incorporated into one site. With a special feature offering podcast services, Thoughts has taken its services one step further.

All these features are unlimited so you can share anything with no limits. Best of all, it is absolutely free! Apart from placing all your thoughts into your personal page, Thoughts' online community also has its own forums so you can exchange ideas and share your opinions on any matters with other members of the community.

Thoughts members can do any as they please as long as they remain respectful with each other to establish a harmonious environment within the community. With other features like breaking news, polls, and updates, most of the things you do online can be done here.

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Would Have Been

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 14:44:00 +0000

Sometimes I wonder what my life would have been without you
Sometimes I ponder what could have come to me not around with you
Sometime I think if the decision made of choosing you was right
Anticipating the other side of what could have been my life.

My life without you would have been so in contrast with what I have now
My life would have been no tears in my eyes and pains in my heart
It would have been a life free from sorrows and worries
And yes it would have been a life with no troubles in my self.

But then seeing what I anticipated of what would have been my life
Was all I would not want to tackle and have right from the start

Yes you have given me lot of tears in my delicate eyes
But those are tears of joy and happiness anyone wishes could have
Yes you have given me some pains in my precious heart
But those pains made us stronger to cross over our problems together

Yes it would have been a worry-free life
But just thinking of living without you, worried me a lot
It could have been a life without problems and troubles
But then, those trials made our bond stronger to withstand any storms.

Without you now; "I" could have been no meaning
Without you now; "I" could have been no life
Without you now; "I" could have been no love
And without you now, there could have been no Love in my Life.

Things I Wish I Had Known

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Fri, 18 Sep 2009 12:24:00 +0000

We all make mistakes in life. After all, we are not perfect. Well, no one is. Don't you sometimes feel frustrated when you regret doing something wrong? We cannot turn back time. What we can do though, is learn from it, move on and if the same situation may happen in the future, do the right thing.

But what if you do not know what to do or where to start? A forum called "Things I Wish I Had Known" invites people from all over the world to join and share their experiences, give advice and enlighten others. If you have used forums before then you will not have a hard time using it.

This forum also takes posts of its members seriously, and rewards them. A rating system is available for members to rate posts and the forum occasionally holds contests for the best post.

The site leverages the power of the internet using the concept of social networking for a higher purpose which became the foundation of the forum. Turn something wrong into something good. Give advices, share your experiences and in turn, help others.

Dreamt Wedding

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 04:05:00 +0000

Every woman wants and wishes to be wed someday
To one man she cherished and loved dearly

Walking in the church aisle in a white long dress
Holding in her hand those bouquet of roses
Saying to each other those “I do’s” and bows
And happily be pronounced as husband and wife forever life

Yes I am one of those girls that dream of a beautiful wedding
A wedding that will momentarily freezes both of your love one’s moment
A wedding that capture what our love truly was
A wedding that binds me and my man into one

Enthusiastic I am with the whole preparations
Even though that moment is still on 2011 of June
Quite funny how excited we are for it to come
Even though there was still no proposal mentioned

It may not be the wedding I dreamt when I was a kid
But I know it would be one of those moments
I will forever treasure and will never forget.

Where To Buy Bathroom Materials Online

chitgoks@gmail.com (chitgoks) — Mon, 14 Sep 2009 03:05:00 +0000

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Shop for bathroom items right at the comfort of your own home and have no worries with deliveries because its delivery service is nationwide. Standard delivery time frame is between 7 to 14 working days. Small items will be delivered to your door through courier service while larger items are delivered on a pallet. You will be called to arrange a delivery date suitable to your preference.

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