Bittersweet Moments ♥

Moved ~*

2010-04-06T17:52:00.000+08:00

Well I've moved my blog since a few months back. Please change the links okies? *huggies*

Press on the picture to go to my new bloggie xOXo ~*

www.xanga.com/beckyliicious

Forever.N.Always ✿

Thanks Kay Gen ~*

2010-01-15T03:28:00.002+08:00

My cousin, Kay Gen, wrote a poem for me
It's really VERY sweet of him
I almost teared when I read it
Thanks cousie, for always being there for me
For supporting me in everything I do
And for knocking me back to my senses
I'm glad to have you as my cousie
Where will I be without you
I love you, cousie !
xOXo ~*

Treading in a dark tunnel
Is both hard and weary
Even a veteran wise person
Don't have the guts to say it is easy
To see the light on the other end
We find ourselves wanting help constantly.

Life is like a tunnel
Sometime things will not go smoothly
If you found yourself stumble in this situation
You can always text me immediately
I might not be able to walk you to the light
But I will cheer you up wish a message that ends with a 'smily' :-)

By: Khoo Kay Gen

Forever.N.Always ✿

A Day Out with B ♥ ~*

2010-01-10T12:12:00.002+08:00

Had a ~~good~~ GREAT time with B yesterday ツ

Ate at some chinese cafe opposite the GSC, not really a nice meal but it was alright

Watched "Old Dog". It was hilarious ! Had a very great laugh

Headed over to find Aaron but too bad he's already eaten.

Owed him a meal (He said he's going claim it when he goes to KL)

Chatted with his girlfriend when the guys went out for smoking session

Just in a few minutes, I learn quite a lot about her

Nice girl ツ

Me and B went there, have a sip of the green tea, and scrammed.

I know it's ~~BAD~~ but.... I don't care

We ended up at Jamal for a sip of Limau Ais for a few minutes...

Met my 3rd uncle there with his son

He couldn't recognize me at first.. sad :(

B's friends came and took us over to their club house and we rotted there for awhile

Ah Boy and his girlfriend, Su Mei, was actually quite friendly after a few times I went out with them

I had an opposite opinion when I first joined them

Went to Q-Zone and watched them playing HON

Stomachs were growling after 2 games

Went over to Ah Leong's place for Fried Koay Teow ツ

Went home around 2.30am and I was tired EXHAUSTED

But somehow I was really happy ~

At least I get to spend time with him ツ

And I was glad to know that his friends are friendlier than they seem

Too bad I didn't snap any pictures

But my last day in Penang was awesome !

Great laughs, great smiles, great friends,

Great B ♥ ! ツ

♥ *~ ily B ~* ♥

Forever.N.Always ✿

Yucky Yucky ~*

2010-01-08T12:29:00.000+08:00

Failed movie ! It's a disgrace to the vampires !

I seriously think that the director of this movie needs to read more about vampires !

I think I should come up with a campaign on discrimination of vampires

Vampires don't poke ! They BITE ! Gosh...

Anyway 2 more days left til I'm back in Subang

I don't feel like going back at all ! O.M.G ~

Time to pack up my things... *Sigh* Life sucks !

To work or to come back to Penang ?

Valentines is on Chinese New Year and my brother is coming over to KL

Means I couldn't go back to Penang then

Another year in KL for my birthday !

I wonder what's gonna happen this year..

I'm 22 already ! Double-2 ~

Grow up grow up... Yeah right...

Forever.N.Always ✿

Love ... ~*

2010-01-05T04:21:00.000+08:00

5 more days and I'll be back to Subang

My heart is asking me to stay but then, I have to go

Oh wells.. We can still see each other :)

But the prob is... When?

Will be going back on Sunday..

I want to see him everyday before that ~

But sadly, he's working. So... Too bad :(

Well.. At least I can spend my Saturday with him :) Yay ~

Something for me to look forward to ~ ♥

♥ ily B ♥

p/s: I think I'd need a wardrobe makeover

Forever.N.Always ✿

Happy New Year ~*

2009-12-30T23:10:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year to all the earthlings !

May all of you have a great year ahead of you

All the best to your future undertaking !

This is especially for my B, my family and his, and my closest friends

*~ ily B ~*

♥ Happy 2010 ♥

Forever.N.Always ✿

Changing for Love ~*

2009-12-30T14:18:00.004+08:00

The title itself sounds wrong... Oh wait.... It IS wrong !

Okay.. Moment of truth? I love you. I seriously do. But somehow you have to accept me for who I am. For me to change myself to make you love me is... Wrong... You told me that you love me, but to what extend? Do you love me for the sake of loving me or you really do LOVE me? What's the point of killing my points for you? But somehow I'll try to change... Don't change me anymore, I don't think I can take it anymore.

1. ~~I have no intention of changing~~ (Actually I have, but it's because of how you treat me)
2. ~~I don't think that it's worth changing~~
3. You aren't loving enough to make me uncontrollably in love
4. Isn't girls suppose to be 'manja'? (Maybe not all but hey... My personality is 80% manjaness)
5. ~~Be matured~~ (I will be as soon as I grow.. Duhhh...)
6. We hardly spend time together
7. Would you stop smoking? (You BETTER!)
8. Would you change your everything for me?

Seems like I'm actually asking for trouble but hey, it's my PERSONALiTY ~ ♥

Anyway.. Although this thing is happening and what-so-ever,
I'm still yours :)
ily ~ ♥
xOXo ~*

Forever.N.Always ✿

A Day Out With My Dears ♥

2009-12-30T14:02:00.001+08:00

Went to curl my hair.. I was in shock when I saw myself ! Waiting for the curls to subside a little. Now I look like a cute little witch trying to be evil. Talking about overdoing ! This is O.M.G ~ But anyway, I still look cute :)

Went to Gurney with my darlings, Fang Mei and Joyce, for a movie after the oh-my-goodness-curls are done. Had a girl-to-girl talk with Fang Mei again as usual. Too bad Joyce doesn't really know about what's happening but it's a good thing. She's always so innocent and nice/cheeky. Her parents must love her very much :) She's such an obedient girl.

We watched Sherlock Holmes. Dang.. It was a good movie ! Interesting and oh-so-funny.

Can't wait to catch up with Fang Mei and Joyce again ~ Monday is coming :) Oh dear... How much I missed them. Hugs and Kisses dears ~* xOXo ~♥

Forever.N.Always ✿

Some Time Alone ~*

2009-12-28T00:00:00.000+08:00

At times I feel better being alone

Suddenly I felt a glitch in my relationship

Somehow it feels as if he's loving me for something else

He's trying to change my every thing..

And what's worst... My personality...

I don't care if he changes my attitude or what-so-ever but my personality is MINE

Why doesn't he get it.. Never did I thought that it would come this way...

Never did I thought that he dislike the 2 main personality of mine...

Does that mean, he doesn't like anything about me except for a certain something?

Well.. I just hope that I'm thinking too much like I always do

Beach... I wanted to go there for fun but then...

Somehow something happened and I couldn't go

Beach is my favourite place to be in... Why does it have to be this way?

And he's someone that you must shoot straight instead of beating around the bush

There goes another personality of mine xD Seriously, this is really crazy

It's like I have to reborn into someone I'm totally not right now =D

Awesome isn't it?

Forever.N.Always ✿

Meeting Up With Them ~*

2009-12-27T23:20:00.002+08:00

Most of the people couldn't make it yesterday night.

They said to make it on New Year's Reunion..

I'm still thinking if I should organize it.

It's not like they are going to come. Sadist...

Ended up that we're just going to have a small reunion then

At least better than nothing ! A night out with my cousie was great

At least he really cheered me up

Thanks loads cousie !~ xOXo ~*

Forever.N.Always ✿

Organizing..? Yuckie ...

2009-12-26T12:05:00.001+08:00

Forever.N.Always ✿

Merry Christmas ~*

2009-12-24T04:57:00.001+08:00

A Merry Christmas to each &nd everyone of you ツ

May you all have a blessed Christmas with your love ones ~*

May all your wishes and dreams come true ~ ^^

Thank you Lord for such a wonderful day ♥

I'll cherish each and every day with you ツ

I lOvE yOu, biE ~*
*~ xOXo ~*

Forever.N.Always ✿

Thank You ~*

2009-12-24T03:03:00.004+08:00

Penang is never perfect without all of you there ✿

Everyone of you is all that I ever needed ツ

Thank you Lord,

For blessing me with a warm and caring family

&nd a charming yet understanding boyfriend ♥

Wondering ... ~*

2009-12-22T23:36:00.002+08:00

Someone came up to me and asked me a funny question

I was suprised and I wondered who would talk about such things

I didn't really know what to say

Have I become something that I don't want to be ..?

I wonder ...

Rants...

2009-12-15T23:21:00.004+08:00

4pm bus to Penang tomorrow.. My luggage isn't packed and I have no idea what I should be taking either. I'm already missing my classmates even though we just parted not long ago. Most of them went back to their hometown. Just when I felt like seeing them more. Cher Pin became my little brother. He was the first one ever to tell me that he felt protected when he's with me. Walauehh.... That was the very first time I have heard that from someone. It was VERY shocking ! But anyway, it's kind of late but anyway, I'm happy to have him as my younger brother. Cheeky and funny.. In conclusion, he's cute. Many things happened during my 1 year over at Taylor's. There were many ups and downs but most importantly, I love all my friends there. There were some misunderstandings and some were still unsorted but whatever. I shall leave it that way because I don't think I want to think about it either. It'll only make me dislike that girl more. I hope she knows what she's doing.

And yet again I'm dating my cousie out for light dinner tomorrow and of cos, more gossips and inside stories about him and Penang ! I seriously need to get myself updated with all these things. I AM afterall the queen of destruction ~ I just couldn't wait to see him !

My boyfriend, well, he told me that he'd be sleeping when I reach Penang, so to hell with "I want him to be the first one I see when I reach Penang". He actually thought me how to be cold hearted and not bother so much about all those lovey dovey stuffs. I wonder if I should actually thank him for that. It doesn't really sound like we are together but, yeah.... We ARE together. Somehow... Still together :D

Results are coming out the day after I reach Penang. I've posted a note to Miss Clara. I hope she receives it. I guess I'd better ask for her email address from MuMu just to double check that she received my note. I'm seriously a worried about my Biology results. I hope I don't flunk it @@

Planning to meet up with Fang Mei and my evil twin brother back in Penang too (: and of cause maybe with Sui Hoong, Roger and Yennie. Christmas Eve will be at somewhere barbecuing with FlyGuy, Ian, Kenji, Choon and the rest of their friends. My cousie will be there to pick me up and go for some light snacks for dinner :D The first guy I'll see then x) I wonder if I'm actually happy or sad. Hehe ~

I hope that the rest of the FiS-rians are having fun over at their hometowns or wherever they are. Next year I'll have a chance to meet some of them during orientation. I guess we might be planning for a reunion soon (: I really want to see all of them again..

Plans ~*

2009-12-11T11:33:00.004+08:00

I'm too lazy to update stuffs so I guess I'll just update briefly

♥ finished FiS

♥ had loads of gatherings and "farewells"

♥ ice skate with Cher Pin, Ryan, Ida, Chen, MuMu and Tiffany

♥ reorganized my room

♥ did my laundry

♥ got my new Satio

♥ got a necklace for my boyfriend

♥ got new keychains from MuMu

♥ broke a ring

♥ played WoW

Planning to

♥ go back to Penang for my holidays

♥ get a part time job after January

♥ spend time with my hubby

♥ spend a day by the beach

♥ buy keychains for me and Cher Pin

♥ get a handphone chain for MNM²

♥ help out for Taylor's open day

♥ be nice to everyone (as usual)

♥ finish up my poem

♥ get my photo book done

♥ play AiON (maybe)

♥ get a new monitor

♥ clean up my room

♥ get an air freshener for my room

♥ enjoy my holidays

Hubbylicious ~*

2009-11-28T13:53:00.002+08:00

Currently writing a poem for my hubby

It's just partially done

Maybe I'll finish it after my finals

Curse my finals for killing me !

Justin Bieber ~*

2009-11-28T00:27:00.002+08:00

He's so cute right now

I wonder if he'll actually stay cute and hot when he grows up

Anyway Justin Bieber is C-U-T-E~! ( for now )

Exam!~*

2009-11-27T15:54:00.004+08:00

Having my finals but I'm not really in a mood to study.

Have to hand in my e-portfolio and movie review.

Ah.. Right... Movie review @@ Guess I better be working on that.

Furthermore I seem to have endless things to do other than studying.

By the way, here was a few things that happened these few weeks

♥ Class politics - Love problems..

♥ Sue is in the group ! It's about time (: (She's better off without him)

♥ Tommy is no where to be found ):

♥ More class politics

♥ University application - HELP

♥ After finals planning

♥ Hubby came to KL (:

♥ Brother came over with dasao

♥ Went out with hubby for a movie and 2 dinner nights

♥ Went for community service at Good Shepherds Home

♥ Met a few friends but was told not to communicate with them

Happy 18th Birthday ~*

2009-11-20T18:19:00.002+08:00

A surprise birthday party for Gabriel by Dillon !

Had a great night ~

And it's a birthday that he will never forget

Happy Birthday Hubby !~*

2009-11-05T00:01:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to my darling hubby ♥

Too bad I couldn't see you on your birthday

Hope you have a wonderful and unforgettable one

Hope your wishes and dreams do come true and that you could find a great job

Good luck and all the best in your future undertakings

Muacks ~*

Always and Forever Yours,

Becca ♥
xoxo ~*

Life? ~*

2009-11-04T23:18:00.003+08:00

Final is just around the corner. ISP is just next week. There's still so many things to complete !
Choral speaking competition on Friday... OMG !!
Life in FiS.... Was NEVER simple or free
Just a few more weeks to go and I'm FREE !!!!
I seriously can't wait til the day comes ♥
I want to hang out with my friends, crap and go crazy with them like last time
I seriously missed those times with them

My boyfriend said he's coming over next week
I hope he's coming to find me though...
But I don't think it's inside his list so I'm not really putting much hope on it
Better safe than sorry
I've learnt my lesson ! :D
But there's harm hoping ~
I really missed him a lot
But then I tend to cover myself up with work so I don't think too much of all that
Oh wells ~ That's me (:

The OmGoodness...

2009-11-03T17:11:00.003+08:00

It's hard when your friends are arguing
And it would be wrong if you only took 1 side
Well, 1 of them has already let go but another 1 is still holding on
To me, she's still too naive to see what's going on around the world
One day she'll get over this...
And I really hope that she wouldn't let this affect her

I have gone through the same thing as her
Only that my relation was way longer than hers
Everytime we talked about this, I kept reminiscing about my past
Now it's haunting me again
Actually I really wanted to scream my lungs out
And at times, I just wish I could also just find someone to talk to
I'm turning back to my old self....
I don't want to....
Just who am I to advise others when I myself couldn't do it myself?

I'm drowning again...
From a past that I have almost forgotten and now is flooding back in again
This is hell.... This is HELL !! I hope this only last for today...
If it drags on, I think I'm seriously going to go crazy
To be holding on to something that was never meant to be mine,
To be together with someone who barely even acknowledge my existence
To care for someone who only wants to be with me because I listen?
To mix with someone who only wants to be with me for a certain reason?
How many masks must I put on to endure all of this?

Now I wish I could turn back time......

Goth? ~*

2009-11-01T12:54:00.003+08:00

Going goth doesn't seem to be so bad huh?

I find it pretty actually

Thanks a bunch to a novel then now I'm deciding that I want to go goth

But then, not that heavy metal thingy

That's way over my league :D

A little of goth won't hurt right?~

Let's see how things go then

Anyway, happy belated Halloween to the bloggers!~

XoXo ~* ♥

Editing ~*

2009-10-25T01:10:00.004+08:00

Have been editing my blog for the whole day

I just couldn't get my eyes off it

Chatted with him a while then I forgot to reply him =x

Anyway I'm so glad my bloggy got its new look

Later I'll have to rush my work again...

There goes another weekend ):

Another few more weeks to go and I'll be dead

But after that I'll be free.. Hope I can survive it xD