Blog of a Stockham Student

The Flat

2006-10-24T09:44:00.000+00:00

I promised myself i would not let things get to me, they will not get to me. But am i living with 2 or 4 people? It seems that the world has gone mad and yes i know we are all entitled to have our respective partners but when I'm trying to sleep at goodness knows what time, i do not want to have to hear giggling, loud music (maybe it's being used to cover up some other noises) and when one person realises I'm in, why do they then feel the need to make as much noise as possible. Just because I'm in does not mean I'm actually awake at midnight. Maybe i should just let my alarm go off every morning instead of disabling it. I'm not that vindictive though. On another note, i'm missing Chris like mad, its really affecting me, but i'm trying to stay positive about it, i mean come on i'm going to see him roughly every couple of weeks but i get a very sad feeling in my stomach when i see other couples practically living together when at uni. I'm just jealous thats all i guess.

Oh well better get home and actually do some work, got some cleaning to do as well before the BT engineer comes to fix the internet tomorrow, problem is that i won't have it still because of the crappy landlord haven't contacted me to have a box fitted in my room so i can have a phone line. Hope you all have a happy day.

Long time no see

2006-10-07T11:10:00.000+00:00

Well it's been an awfully long time since i've updated this blog, but now i'm back at uni i suppose i shall be writing it in more to cure the intense boredom that i often feel.

I'm back in Stockton in case you couldn't tell and i'm not enjoying it. Well I went to Prague with Mr Spencer 2 weeks ago and it was the best holiday ever. Not only is it really cheap out there, but it's such a beautiful city. We managed to cram a lot into the 3 days, but we still didn't see all that we wanted to so i think a return trip is on the cards at some point. The most magical part of the trip was probably the last night, we got all dressed up, had dinner in the Cafe Louvre ( a must to visit if you go, it's such a nice traditional cafe restaurant, and it's cheap!) and then walked across Charles Bridge which is probably the most famous part of Prague. It's a medievel bridge with lots of religious statues along it. The way it's lit up is fantastic and there were a couple of guys playing an interesting raw yet tribal beat ona some drums just under the east tower. After walking across there we walked the 3 miles or so back to our hotel in the dark through the back strreets of Prague where we discovered that you can buy Pilsner lager in McDonalds! Another memorable part of the trip was probably visiting the Jewish Quarter. Not only did we find Hoegarden Lager for about £0.90p per half litre but it was so moving. One of the synagogues has been transformed into a memorial for the victims of the holocaust that came from the ghettos in and around Prague. All the names are painted on all the available wall space with the dates of birth and death along side. I was obviously moved but nothing could prepare me for the sight of the number of children that died there. One girl, with the name Ema, wasn't even 3 years old when she was killed. When i saw that, i just burst into tears. I urge everyone to go, because until you see something like that, you don't quite realise just how important an event it was in the history of the human race and nothing like that must ever happen again.

On a lighter note (slightly) I've had about 3 lectures and already have 3 research papers to read and a presentation to write in addition to the compulsory reading for the course. It's all a little disheartening really. Plus the living situation is getting me down because now I'm torn between living with my best friends at uni and the flat. However I am going home on Friday to see Mr Spencer and pick up some books so all is not lost. Then I'm going home on the 17th November as well because Steve and Kat (Chris' friends) are getting married and apparently I have to go to the wedding. Think it will be a lot of fun, just hope I don't get too drunk like Thursday at Dubliners.

Anyway I hope you all have a great weekend and keep smiling everyone!

I'm H-A-P-P-Y

2006-08-29T11:46:00.000+00:00

A lot has happened in the past month and a bit. An awful lot.

I've been to the land of sheep (aka Wales) even though i didn't particularly want to go. The parental units were ok, it pissed it down (we even had a thunder storm directly overhead) and I missed home.

Apart from that my life has revolved around work and seeing Chris. I only have 3 weeks left in Grays before I head back to Stockton (although i may not be staying there) and in those 3 weeks i have so much to do and so many people to catch up with.

I really don't know what to write here, i'm so so tired after a long day yesterday, that I really can't think straight today. All I know is that this is the happiest I've ever been and I don't want it to end.

Wow

2006-07-13T20:21:00.000+00:00

Well it's been almost a month since i last updated this thing. I apologise for the lack of updates but i have managed to find myself employment in the form of a sales associate in H Samuel. It's a pretty good job, the people are interesting to say the least and it's not too difficult. It's probably the first job where i've actually enjoyed going to work.

My life now revolves around work (for more than one reason) but i did manage to find time to go and see Over the Hedge and Pirates of the Carribean yesterday. The first was good the second was bad, but it was a good day out and away from work for the most part. Now we have an inspection by the area manager tomorrow and i'm shitting myself about it as not only will i get questionned about my job, i could get the sack if i'm not careful about my behaviour at work!

Hope you're all having a good summer!

What a difference a year makes!

2006-06-26T16:07:00.000+00:00

Well I'm now at home in Grays (where it rains all the time it seems), facing the prospect of 3 months of working ahead of me. I have also finished my first year at The University of Durham, and I'm awaiting the results of it with anticipation. So without much further ado, I present my round up of the year 2005-2006:

Accommodation: After being informed that I would be sharing a room in Halls, I was quite apprehensive. Although we had a minor disagreement at the very beginning (over what, I can't remember), Sharing with Kat has not been too bad. I thinI i got on the best with Mr Biggs, but also feel that i can talk to Mish about pretty much anything (even though I do snap at him sometimes, sorry!) So all in all living arrangements worked out quite well! Living in the block that doesn't exist does have it's advantages, it means you are less likely to be stalked (plus it adds a sense of mystery to you when your asked about where you live) but it's also rather annoying when you have to go outside and physically drag guests to the Fairbridge Drawbridge (Nat's phrase) because they have no idea where you're talking about on the phone. College dining wasn't too bad, it was still awful though, but I'm going to miss it!

The Course: Psychology (Applied) hasn't been too bad. My previous knowledge was put to good use and I feel that I managed to learn an awful lot more. At the beginning I was regretting taking Psychology and felt like switching to something else, but in the end I'm glad I stuck at what I did (even though I am slightly fed up of people asking me to tell then what they're thinking when I first meet them in a bar) All I have to hope is that I've actually managed to pass the year!

Friends: Where to start! Well firstly I have to thank Nat for putting up with me all year. Not only in lectures but also I found myself at her flat quite a bit! Her and Vickiiiii are probably my best friends at uni and I love them to bits! The Backhouse Penthouse crew provided much entertainment (usually involving alcohol) and I love Bryan for his ability to get so wrapped up in something and let it control his life (I'm talking about LOST here...) Then of course there's the Rokeby crew, which we met through Mish's attraction to Kwan (but I think we would have met them anyway, Ryan seems to just go out and meet new people all the time) Jess, Emma and Danielle are great girls, that know how to have fun! After that we have to course friends such as JD, Jo, Kirsty, Luke, Laura etc who provide much entertainment in lectures and also at the beloved Rocket. Bring on Year 2 people! Then of course there are the random people, known through friends, who you get to know gradually and make life far more interesting: Henry and Co (also known as the Biomed lot), Ben and his older friends, Daggy and the rest of the Snow football team (I randomly find them standing outside my room waiting for Mr Biggs), Ant and Dav (one of whom tries to kill me most of the time and randomly sleeps on my kitchen floor), Mo, Rob, Nicki, James and Tim who have put up with my drunken ramblings the past few weeks, James Fountain (who I met before we came to uni, but didn't actually talk to him properly till the second term and he was good friends with Vicki by then), Miss Sarah Chape (the Grape, that I am going to miss dearly next year when she's at Butler, which I will of course gatecrash from time to time) and finally, last but not least, you, the reader of this blog, you've really made my year. To all those who are not mentioned by name, you know I love you a lot and want to give you a big thanks for making my year!

This year has been full of lots of new experiences for me: living away from home with people I'd never met before being the main biggie. I've had some laughs and some cries, loved and lost, been annoyed at some people and been annoying myself. Mish asked me not too long ago, if you could go back to the start of the year, would you change it? At the time I didn't answer him, but now, looking back, I can definitely say, I wouldn't change it for anything else.

2006-06-22T12:31:00.000+00:00

Here's a song that sums up something perfectly for me:

Good Day by Angels and Airwaves

We don't need to whisper

I should have turned back
I should have known better
Than to walk away defeated
I'll say it tonight, I'll say it forever
And this time I really swear I mean it

Oh I need you now
The Earth fell fast asleep
This room is safe and sound
Will you lay here with me
And feel it..

I think I like today
I think its good
Its something I can't get my head around

True love is something that comes easy
Just one kiss god I swear I want to...
I heard a pin drop and a nervous heartbeat
Have you ever heard me scream I love you

Oh I need you now
The Earth fell fast asleep
This room is safe and sound
Will you lay here with me
And feel it..

I think I like today
I think it's good
Its something I can't get my head around [x2]

dadah da dah dah dadadah [x8]

I think I like today
I think it's good
Its something I can't get my head around [x6]

"I think I like today..."

2006-06-22T09:11:00.000+00:00

Ok i'm never going to drink alcohol ever again. Monday night, Connie had a lot of fun i hope, in the company of me and my friends, however i only think so as i was rather drunk that night. So much so that i woke up on the kitchen floor and then proceeded to spend the whole day in bed, then walked to Tees Barrage in the rain with Vicki (and still in a drunken state i think as it was chucking it down, absolutely freezing and i didn't have a coat and didn't care about it either!) I'm now covered in bruises and scratches and i don't know why...Oh well!

Yesterday, Nat came back and we decided to go out and celebrate at the Coc-Soc garden party and then on to Lava in 'Boro. All in all it was a very good night. Jess wasn't very well, so i ended up taking her home and putting her to bed. Hope she's feelin better this morning! I'm off into town later, and i have to actually pack today, it's going to be so weird leaving this place, but it's been a lot of fun this year! A proper round up will be posted at a later date.

"They think it's all over...Well not quite yet!"

2006-06-18T10:14:00.000+00:00

Just as i was starting to moan and complain that there is no one around here anymore, cue most of the inhabitants of John Snow returning. You see we have to come back to register for next year, and most people are returning to the land of the north tomorrow. This also includes Connie.

After a very nice trip to Coventry/Warwick, seeing most of it by bus, and walking a fair bit, she decided that she wanted to see what Stockton has to offer her...don't know if that's a wise decision or not! I really enjoyed my time down south with eh Birthday girl, her friends are really nice (cue adding them on facebook!) and they even organised a surprise celebration in honor of her in their common room. It's so weird being in halls that aren't separated into flats like ours, to be honest i can't decide which is best. Anyway, so Connie is coming to stay tomorrow night and I'm trying to drag together a group of people willing to visit The Crown tomorrow night with us, this is an open invitation if you would like to join.

Not much else has been done with my time the past week or so. Applied for an awful lot of jobs and watched an equal amount of football i think! The plan today is to basically clean the flat in preparation of Connie's visit and to try and pack a bit. I can't believe that this time next week i shall be waking up in my own room in my own flat. It's a scary thought that I'm now so independent, but i shall leave the so called slushy end of year round-up till next week and i return home.

I still have no means of monetary gain for the duration of the summer, but i do have an interview on the 27th June, so hopefully if all goes well i shall be selling my soul to Lakeside for 3 months.

Have a happy Sunday everybody!

"There's no one in town I know..."

2006-06-13T10:00:00.000+00:00

Things are so weird around here. I'm starting to think that I should have perhaps headed home for a few weeks to really hunt for a job, but then I wouldn't be having all this fun would I? Hmmm maybe not.

The weather has taken a turn and it is now unbearably hot all the time. So hot that you can't sleep, can't do anything! It's ridiculous! Still, i'm getting a bit of a tan now, so I'm pleased.

In my quest to find something, anything to do, I am heading to Warwick for a couple of days to see Connie, a friend from college for those of you who don't know, that i haven't managed to see for a year! So after 4 hours on the train i shall be in catch up mode. I can't wait, i don't think i've ever been to Coventry/Warwick before, so it will certainly be an adventure. Might see if I can meet up with Kenny as well before i leave the place.

The plan for today is that i might drag Mish and other people into town later, and then i'm going to make a pizza from scratch with the guys, for want of something better to do! Perhaps I should actually get out of bed at some point today...

Job Hunting

2006-06-06T20:06:00.000+00:00

That's right people, I'm in Sunny Grays (a rare thing I know) searching for a job to last for over the summer. So far it looks like I'll be returning to the wonder that was Boots, but that doesn't bother me much, as long as i get a job somewhere.

Just to brief you up on the events of the past week:

Snow Day was great! I beat Nat on the assault course, which in turn assaulted my knee. Had a few drinks, lazed in the sun watching the bands and strutted my funky stuff at the Rocket later on that evening. Returned to Harewood block for some more vodka and returned to my dwelling at approximately 5 am.

Nat left on Saturday (i blame Rory for taking her away from me) and I have to say that i do miss her! Still i get to see her in 2 weeks, and then i'm sure i shall see her over the summer many times.

I think we've managed to exhaust everybody's entire dvd collection in Snow, that's how bored the population of Fairbridge and Backhouse have been! Still, i think i may have something to take back with me that will cheer someone up...

So now i'm off to drink the Koppaberg that i left here after Easter and pay some attention to Pebbles before I leave. To all in Stockton, I shall be back at 4 pm tomorrow, so if you need me, come and meet me at the station! See you all soon!

"I'm Starving." "I'm Jess."

2006-06-01T10:40:00.000+00:00

Yesterday was an interesting day. Laying in bed till 12 pm and then heading to the astro-turf to watch the College Cup. The thing with having 2 colleges on the same campus, and only 2, means incresed rivalry between them. Therefore any sporting event held between Snow and Stevo equals a very interesting time. Sadly, Snow didn't seem to do too well and Stevo won the cup once again. There are some photos from the football which shall be on Facebook. After a disappointing afternoon, it was decided to go to the last Hush of term.

Emma, Jess and Nicola went to Lava first while, Mish, Scott, Kwan, James, Rob, Nikki, Tim, Mo and myself headed straight for Hush. A few shots of Black sambuca later and the place was looking a bit full. 45 minutes standing at the bar annoyed me slightly, but i was even more annoyed by the absence of air conditioning. This meant that everyone was sweating even more than you would usually in a club! Scott and Mish were dressed as twins practically (i'll post a photo later) but i don't know how some of the guys could keep their jackets on! At the end of the night i headed home with Tim, James and Mo, back to Harewood for a brief period, before going back to Rokeby. There we stayed till about 4:30, inventing names for people (Keith, Ralph and Mark ring a bell?) and generally having fun! It was Kwan's last night, and i'll probably not see Emma or Jess again for a while so it was a good way to say goodbye for the next few weeks.

It made me realise that the summer is going to be so weird, not actually seeing all these people that i'm really good friends with now. Also made me realise that this year has gone so fast and brought me so many new experiences. What a difference a year makes.

"Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous"

2006-05-30T20:11:00.000+00:00

Today was X Factor audition day and even though I was in Newcastle, i didn't witness the days events. Sadly Mr Biggs didn't get through, but I'd like to congratulate Miss Black for getting through to the next round. We'll just have to see what happens come July 10th!

After a day of shopping, i'm off to Spoons to meet the Biomed's for a few jugs of cocktails to celebrate the end of their exams. Then it's all back to the flat for a continued drinking session and maybe some poker. Although i'm not really in the mood to drink tonight. I have no idea what's wrong with me lately. But I do know that i've been drinking way too much so I'm not going to get totally pissed, that's what tomorrow is for!

Hope you are all enjoying the summer (those of you that have finished exams) and to those of you that haven't i wish you the best of luck.

All Finished!

2006-05-29T00:15:00.000+00:00

Exams are over and have been for a while now! Cognitive was definitely the hardest. Let's just say that:

1 mediocre essay + 1 extremely crap essay + 1 list of words = Emma resitting Cognitive.

So to you all who are resitting, i shall see you around in August!

After the nightmare of an exam, Nat, Bryan, JD and myself headed to Teeside park to see X-Men 3, the best film i've seen recently! We got into it so much that we couldn't talk of anything else while sitting in the pub or on the long walk back to campus for college dining. That evening, i once again found myself on a long walk, this time to Thornaby to pick up a copy of Episode 23 of Season 2 of Lost. That's how desperate i was to watch it! Nat and I polished off a bottle of wine to celebrate the end of exams and joined the nuts of Bry for the spectacular event. After discussing the merits of the series and episode for a good few hours, it was time for bed.

Luckily i managed to wake up in time for lunch at Spoons with a few of the Business girls who had just had their last exam. A few pints of cider and black later, we were wandering down Stockton High Street trying our best to not get arrested for drunk and disorderly behaviour. We bought more alcohol and of course pizza in preparation for the Backhouse party later that night. Many people joined us for the party, and i slept on Nat's floor to save myself any embarassment upon returning home. All i can say that it was a great night!

Yesterday involved a trip to the retail park to help Mr Biggs find an outfit for his up and coming audition. I purchased a few books for myself including Haunted by Chuck Palahniuk (the guy who wrote Fight CLub) and i have to say that the first chapter has caused a riot in my flat as it is quite disgusting in nature! The evening was occupied with a visit to the Rocket to celebrate Clare's last weekend in the UK as she will soon be jetting off to the big old US of A. Much fun was had, just want to apologise to Clare herself for walking off early without saying goodbye, still i shall see her tuesday no doubt, when the bio-meds have finished their exams (finally!)

Today has been a day of catching up on sleep (I realise it is now officially Monday, but hey!) and a trip to Riley's for a few rounds of pool, one of which i won by default and the rest i lost dramatically, especially my final bout against Mish.

Well i guess i should head for bed since even the hardcore among us retired to the land of nod a good while ago.

"Its the final countdown..."

2006-05-24T12:28:00.000+00:00

One more exam to go...Cognitive. Yes that's right it's Cognitive tomorrow, not Tuesday as we all thought. I am forever indebted to Bryan for actually checking his exam timetable at 1am on Monday morning. So after a night spent on Vicki's floor, it was a tough 12 hours of straight revision. It ended with Nat, Bryan and myself reading to each other in order to drum the notes into our brains. I think it went well considering that we had less time than most for cramming!

Now there is only Cognitive to do, which is by no doubt the hardest exam (and the one which i will fail). Then, it will all be over and plans have been made to keep us occipied for the first few days of the holiday. Might make a surprise trip home for a few days at some point, but i want to travel. I want to go to exciting places and do exciting things!

The msn problems at the moment are annoying the hell out of me because it just keeps logging in and out and now that i dont have messenger plus, it doesn't let me know that people have logged out. So many conversations have been blocked by the incompetence of Microsoft.

Procrastination is a wonderful thing....

Never again

2006-05-21T13:06:00.000+00:00

The wild west night on Friday was very interesting. After a whole bottle of wine to myself, i made a total arse of myself. With multiple people. I'm not going into details, but i feel like an idiot. I aplogise to everyone that i saw that night, because i did some really stupid things...I'm so embarassed. However i can't remember much of what happened.

"Little girl you're in the middle of the ride"

2006-05-19T09:27:00.000+00:00

I know, I know, I haven't updated in almost a week, but that's because of very important things known as exams occurring. Tuesday was Statistics, during which I forgot what a parametric test was and therefore did one whole question wrong and also couldn't remember the parameters of any of the obscure distributions. So that's 40% down the drain already.

Then came the panic of revising for Social and Developmental (two modules in one). An all nighter was attempted and only 3 hours sleep had before I had to have a nap in the morning before the exam and arrived at campus with a sense of dread. I knew that Nat and Bryan had done way more revision than me and I only knew about 3 topics really well (Aggression, Attraction and Autism). It seems that luck was on my side and those 3 topics were on the paper. This then made me feel really bad about Nat as I knew how much she had worked and she was hoping that Attribution would come up and it didn't. So being the kind and generous friend that I am, I managed to get Episode 22 of Lost season 2 for her to watch to cheer her up. I'm grateful indeed to the person that gave it to me, it did the trick. It's so good! But episode 23 is the last in the series, what are we going to do?

Now I am sitting on campus waiting around for an IT exam which I'm probably going to fail as I haven't looked at Authorware for about 3 months and can't remember anything about it. Also can't find any notes on how to use it so I'm a bit stuffed really. Now my supposed god like genius with computers is going to come into disrepute if I fail this....Wish me luck!

Tonight I have the Da Vinci code to look forward to and also the Wild West night in the Rocket, but if you think that I'm going to be dressing up, you must be joking.

UPDATE: Finished the IT exam in about 20 minutes, stayed for the first hour though and just made myself look busy. Quite easy when they tell you exactly what to do...
Now i am off to listen to music and do nothing for an hour or so...

2006-05-15T10:51:00.000+00:00

Well a great weight seems to have gone from the flat. After his first exam, Mish seems to be in a more chippper mood as now he knows that it's not impossible to do. I am however rapidly descending into a pit of oblivion as i realise how little i know. Revision has been halted till the afternoon so i can get a long run in when i've woken up. Afterall there is no point in trying to do revision when you're half asleep, it just doesn't work.

I probably should go and have a shower at some point today...

By the way, Jimmy Carr was excellent on Friday, especially when confronted with the stranger inhabitants of 'Boro. Thanks to Jess and Emma for a wonderful night!

Now about that shower...

MUSHY PEAS!

2006-05-14T10:30:00.000+00:00

Last night was the set in of the great depression. People were busy revising because lets face it, most of the people around here have been outside every night playing in the courtyard. Therefore, for those of us who's brains have turned to mush, we were completely bored. In the end it was decided that we would have a mini-party in the Backhouse Penthouse. Nat, Vicki and myself were the only participants but it was a wild night to say the least...

Cocktails were made that resembled Mushy Peas (in colour, not taste or texture). Carrots were thrown at me by Bryan, with the help of Mike (think i have a bruise there now). We found ourselves unable to leave Vicki's room due to the door being taped up. The word "whore" found itself magically appear on Nat's wall. Bryan, Mike and Pete all showed us various parts of their bums (i said i wouldn't post pictures, i didn't say i woudn't mention it). We all got rather tipsy.

Now i face a day of stats revision when all i want to do is go back to bed after only 6 hours sleep.

"We're going down , down"

2006-05-12T10:50:00.000+00:00

Today i realise that i know nothing. All previous knowledge of psychology has left my brain and floated out into the ether. Therefore i am going to lock myself away in the flat till Tuesday (apart from a quick trip to Morrison's) revising like crazy. You will be amazed the amount i will learn in that time. I will astound you all. Or i will fail. However on the plus side, Grays Athletic are doing quite well in the football at the moment, just one more match against Woking in the FA Trophy Final! Just think i could be there, i have the tickets, just no money to get there!

Dubliners was the place to be last night. I think there were only 5 people in the pub apart from Scott, Kwan, Emma, Jess and myself. There was no karaoke per say but upon returning to Rokeby, the two X Factor hopefulls serenaded us with their chosen audition songs. It looks like the competition is hotting up already!

Tonight is Jimmy Carr night, and the quotes have been flying around the place all day. But in order to justify my trip to see the great man (what is a girl to wear?) revision must be done. So i leave you all with the knowledge that I am off to make some essay plans to learn. If you need me, then contact me. If you want me then you know where i am, but above all, someone please save me from my insanity!

"We be Burning"

2006-05-11T15:57:00.000+00:00

I'm a lot less stressed today since discovering that i can just read my IB revsion guide and know more or less what i need for these exams. So cue a fairly mellow Emma, almost back to her usual self.

Today has been spenton the Barrage avec Vicki and Nat, enjoying the sun, getting a bit burnt (or a lot in Nat's case) and watching the flying fish. If you don't believe me go down there and have a look! It seems that we have the ability to attract rather strange men after the whole "Have you been to the gym?" comment yesterday on the way back, today was filled with "You just relax there girls" and "Are you doing your lessons?". What is it with the randy old men of Stockton? Much fun was had, albeit interspersed with the enjoyment sucking revision.

I was very pleased to discover last night that the Badger (Ruth that is) lost out to Michelle on The Apprentice. Sir Alan can make some good decisions then. It was very hard to restrain from telling Bozz the result, but i didn't spoil it for you did i? Now there is no enjoyment left to my Wednesday nights except for Desperate Housewives.

Now it is time to try and digest the muck that is College dining with a Nat who matches the colour of her bag (very VERY pink) and a very very brown Vicki (it's not fair!).

"Under Pressure!"

2006-05-10T10:08:00.000+00:00

My mood seems to fluctuate recently. With the obvious stress of exams, there's also the influx, it seems, of hormones racing around my body in conjunction with the heat and lack of sleep which would make anyone grumpy. Plus this time of year doesn't hold the greatest of memories for me.

I know i get paranoid, but that's based on past experience. I've been hurt a lot and until someone shows me that things don't have to be filled with pain, then of course i'm going to be wary.

All i ask is for 15 minutes of your time to talk. You asked me to be honest, well i'm being honest. I just want to get things sorted so i have a clear head for the next few weeks.

Don't dwell on the past, live for the present but think of the future.

"Get Your Tits Out"

2006-05-09T18:34:00.000+00:00

Finally managed to finish watching the wonder that is Lee Evans today! I've been gearing myself up for Jimmy Carr already (thanks to Emma and Jess for inviting me). I'm really looking forward to it on Friday, should be a good evening out.

Last night i admitted something that not many people know and i surprised myself with how easy it was. But now i think that things may have gone tits up (hence the title partly). Why can't things ever work out? It's probably because i wait for ages before doing something about how i feel and then by that time everything else has fizzled out. Or i come on too strong for some people and freak them out. I can't win. No wonder i end up hurt.

"Falling over backwards for you"

2006-05-08T19:35:00.000+00:00

What an interesting weekend it's been. Full of revision and a lot of fun. I didn't manage to resist the temptation of Dilbert on Saturday afternoon and so watched as much as i could, including my favourite episode ever (The Return).

Saturday night started at La Roche (The Rocket) for a few quick drinks with Vicki, Nat, Rory and a few other people before James and Vicki literally dragged me to The Crown in 'Boro against my will. I really wanted to stay to talk to various people including the one who doesn't look good on the dancefloor (that was only to through a drunken insult his way). However after a few drinks at the crown, it was time to head to Empire to see Sarah. After trailing around for a bit and having a few compliments thrown my way due to the hat, we found James and Sarah outside in a bit of a mess really. Upon calming Sarah down and reassuring her that things would be ok and that there was nothing to worry about anymore, we headed back to the haven of Old Halls.

To You: I'm sorry i went off. I really didn't want to leave you.

Yesterday was spent revising and getting stressed over stupid things which wasn't helped by Mr Biggs (just you wait, i'll get you back for all of this). I acted on a few big decisions today but it hasn't come to anything just yet so we'll just have to wait and see what happens. I've probably blown it once again like i always do.

"I just wave at them as they pass by"

2006-05-06T12:52:00.000+00:00

I can't remember when i last updated this so i aplogise if i repeat myself.

I didn't go to Moby's Grapes on Thursday as I was too tired after playing football with the guys. Ok i admit that i sat out for most of the game and only came on when Mr Biggs injured Mish by accident. Well that's what happens when you have one "professional" football player wearing his boots and a whole load of people runnign around in jeans and trainers because we're there for the fun aspect... I was quite impressed that i actually remembered how to play football after all those years with rugby, although i did a handball once of twice out of habit. All in all it was a fun time and it will certainly be repeated at some point. After that we headed to Dubliners for Karaoke, how i've missed the place! Scott and Emma spent most of the time singing in preparation for the X-Factor auditions. Mr Biggs has changed his mind every day it seems as to what song he is singing...Let's hope he decides tomorrow finally!

After getting up for a rather boring and pointless 9 am lecture yesterday it was decided that the Friday Night Cinema Project would still be going ahead. Vicki, Nat and myself left it to the gods of fate (a Bell's bag and some pieces of paper) to decide which film to see. Mission Impossible 3 was picked and so we headed to Teeside Park with Skittles and Jelly Tots. The film wasn't too bad, although the romantic story line did kind of intrude on the action (yes i like all the explosions and stuff). Became slightly freaked at the sight of a internal explosive charge going off in one of the agent's heads.

After a trip to the heaven that is Bells to pick up some alcohol, a party was in full swing in the Backhouse penthouse. After sharing a few stories and secrets with the girls from the past few weeks, i manage to drag myself across the courtyard to my own flat to simply crash into bed.

Now i have Dilbert on dvd (courtesy of Mo) and i'm so tempted to watch it, but i haven't done any revision in a while so i may just watch a few episodes which wont hurt...Who am i kidding, i'll watch the whole thing!

"That's GCSE maths!"

2006-05-04T09:01:00.000+00:00

For those of you i actually know in real life, i have a new mobile number. For those of you i don't, please don't ask me for it, because you wont get it.

Revision has grinded to a halt really over the past few days, but i don't want to fail so i guess i should start again today... However upon viewing Mr Biggs' Maths exam paper, i'm starting to think that maybe i should have done Primary Education as the Maths is about GCSE level...I don't think i need to go into details about how that feels, but the Business students also fail to have a management exam whereas i have all my exams intact. It's not fair.

Tonight is "Get Your Kit On" at Moby, raising money for something, i'm not sure what exactly. The idea is you turn up in some for of kit or stash and get drunk. The general consensus is that its come at the wrong time and people are too busy working or sleeping to go. Hmmm i'm torn between the looming exams or the chance to go out with the Coc-Soc.

Lack of sleep is really catching up with me, i find it so difficult to stay awake now in any situation whatsoever. Even when Mr Sach is texting me from Croydon because he's "bored". Normally i stay awake for our late night conversations because he makes me so angry! Anytime i'm sitting down or near my bed, i'm overcome with an urge to sleep. So apologies if you've been trying to get hold of me while i've been asleep, i know i'm usually the one to text you lot late at night.

Life is pretty boring at the moment to be honest. Actually it's starting to get more interesting but things are getting in the way. Namely other people, possibly acting out of jealousy, trying to invade my life at the moment. I think that after the exams, things will get a lot better/easier, just have to get the stress out of the way.