Buhay Bojoy

Learn to be happy.

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Wed, 25 Jan 2012 19:42:00 +0000

Never expect a fairy tale. This is real life. People get hurt. Mistakes are made & nothing is ever perfect. Just learn to be happy.

Plain and Simple. Just Treat Her Right Bro.

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Mon, 23 Jan 2012 05:06:00 +0000

Came across with this post on Facebook and I just want to share this in my blog. Women are delicate creatures it's not really hard to decode them, you just need to treat her right. :)

I know it can be hard to please her sometimes, but it’s worth it in the end. Remember that she’s your happiness, your world. She should be the first person you talk to in the morning, and the last person you whisper “Good night” to. Unlike some of your bros, she’s going to be there for you when you’re the happiest, but more importantly, when you’re at your lowest. She’ll cook for you and care for you, so treat her like a queen. Girls are delicate creatures. Think before you say. Think before you act. They take every little mistake you make and multiply it by a thousand. So try not to mess up, aight? When you’re fighting, sometimes it’s better to put your relationship before your own pride. You’re not helping yourself by making her upset, bro. And never, ever, under any condition, let her go to sleep crying. She’ll resent you for it for the rest of your days. Don’t forget to make her feel special everyday. Open doors, go shopping with her. Hell, make dinner for her! The more you show her you love her, the more she’ll give you in return. Remember that an “I love you” via text is never as special as one in person. And show her off to your bros, don’t be ashamed of her. She’s never been ashamed of your dorky ass. Look, she doesn’t really need much in a relationship; she just wants to feel like she matters to you. That’s not asking for much, bro.

But if you haven’t learned a thing from reading this, remember this. Love her unconditionally, loyally, and keep her close. Love her with everything you’ve got: emotionally, mentally, and physically. Because I swear, if you won’t treat your girl right, someone else definitely will.

As Of The Moment

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 10:38:00 +0000

This is what I can only come up so far. Been trying to play with the codes for a couple of hours now, already wasted so much time. The colors are not yet polished but I'm sticking with pink and gray. I wanted a simple and clean template. My hands are off with fancy designs, I'm going minimalist for this year. :)

More updates to come!

Will be publishing late posts from last year, when I could get everything iron out.

Accidents Happen

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 08:25:00 +0000

Yikes! I accidentally messed up with my layout. :| I don't know how to get everything back cos I wasn't able to back-up my template. Sigh, what a waste. I didn't really intended to make a change (not today), I was just checking something out. I don't want to blame little kiddo but I've got an inkling that he has something to do about this. Well I guess I now have a reason to do a blog makeover and an update. :) Been wanting to do so but didn't had the time. :'( Also, I got a little busy with my newest baby. :') A simple outlet for my random rants, will share the link later. Yes my new baby is a blog, not a real baby, silly. Guess I have to make that clear.

I'll end this here. :)

Please bare with me for the next couple of days cos things might get ugly. LOL

How do you??

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Mon, 05 Dec 2011 16:24:00 +0000

How do you settle differences in a relationship?

How do you make a relationship work, when it seems like a dead-end?

How do you learn to comprise?

How do you change a mama's boy? To make him stand up for his own family?

What do you do if things get a little too difficult with the MIL?

How do you rekindle the fire you once had?

How do you? How can you? What would you do?

I have been carrying these questions in my head for quite some time. Sa totoo lang, may mga sagot naman ako sa mga tanong na 'to. Peterson and I had been through difficult times and with our experience alone I could say that I can wisely answer these questions, except for the mama's boy thing though. But this isn't about us, I'm very blessed with my relationship right now. Thank God and thank you to "Ms. Experience", they're all correct she's the best teacher there is. They're about someone I know personally and bad things have been happening in their relationship lately. Petty fights turned into big fights, then even into monstrous fights. It's been going on for months, so much for unnecessary drama. I feel so sad for them, even sadder for their little girl. They can't resolve their problem no matter how they tried to talk things out. Kasi din siguro sa walang nag ppakumbaba sa kanila. Each one claims that he/she's correct, puro bunganga ang ginagamit. Para lang nman silang mga bata, immature. Na to think they're already 27 and 29. Dapat gamitin din kasi ang pag iisip at ang puso. Where's the love yo!? :'D And earlier this day I found out that Mrs. finally left their home, leaving Mr. and little girl. She tried to save her family but then Mr. is very stubborn. What would you do when your husband openly tells anyone that he doesn't love you anymore? Or tell it to your face that he doesn't need and love you. Can you even take it? Hindi ko tagala alam kung paano pa sila ma aayos. A lot of hurtful words had been said. Basta I feel sad for their daughter. :,(

My Little Family

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Thu, 01 Dec 2011 17:24:00 +0000

Get this from My Stick Family from WiddlyTinks.com

Meet the family! Yours truly, Joy. Our little tyke, Ayne. Hubby, Peterson. Our loyal pet, Dino.

Came across with this stick family generator. You can choose a stick character closest to your persona. I guess this perfectly describes my little family; simple and happy. Also, meet our pet dog Dino (we named him Dino because little tyke loves dinosaurs), he's 4 months old. I'll post a photo of him soon. He's a little too playful but he's bait2x. We love him so! :')

Goodbye November, Hello December!

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Wed, 30 Nov 2011 18:04:00 +0000

And the count-down begins! :-)) I know everyone's been counting the days until Christmas Eve even as early as November but mine officially begins today. I've always loved the month December, well who doesn't anyway. I love the cool breeze (even if it gives me nast rhinitis attacks), i love the Christmas songs being played everywhere, and of course love the spirit of giving. I've already packed little tyke's old toys and clothes, we'll be sharing it to the needy. And also, we'll be putting up our tyree this weekend. (excited!) There's always something special about December, and more than anything it's the birthday of Jesus. I've heard (well even talked to them) several grown ups said that they're not really that excited about Christmas anymore, maybe because they're all grown up. But me? I've never lost it. Thinking about Christmas make me feel giddy, excited and kilig. It brings out the the child in me. Do you still remember how it feels like during Christmas Eve? When you all dress up for Noche Buena, great music being played, with all those pretty lights on your Christmas tree, and the gifts under it? Do you remember the festive feeling? I'm all excited about that. More excited for my little tyke. :') What I miss is the fireworks. Fireworks' are not allowed in where I live, Davao City. It's alright though coz we kinda got used to it. But of course fireworks' are fun, but then again it's better be safe.

There's a lot to look forward to this month. Parties, family and friends get together, exchange gifts and lots more!! :-)) Isn't it just great? Yes, I'm really excited.

XOXO

Coffee and Tissue to the rescue!

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 17:13:00 +0000

Working with a cup of coffee and tissues during a cold weather. Coffee, to keep me awake all night and tissues to wipe my runny nose. Tissue is an old friend, a dear friend to someone who has rhinitis. :'| Have to gear up during these cold nights.

They grow up so fast, don't they?

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Mon, 21 Nov 2011 16:32:00 +0000

..because i miss the days when he was just this small, the days when I could still cradle him in my arms and dance him to sleep. ♥

At the edge of..

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Fri, 18 Nov 2011 21:17:00 +0000

I'm back! It's currently 4:30 in the morning and I am trying to get everything done. Earlier, I went through my message archive on YM and through my Gmail, checked if there are any tasks I have to finish. And yes, I have a handful of them and I'm not even halfway there yet. After several hours of facing my monitor, I'm now in the edge of boredom and I am trying so hard not to fall into the procrastination trap! No, not again please. I refuse to get distracted but somehow I gave up. But I'm not giving in to Facebook, YouTube or Tumblr (twitter isn't that distracting :'D) so I just decided to maybe update my blog. It's not really that bad right? As I've said a hundred times before, blogging is my way of getting off from boredom. Proven and tested (that's for me though, don't know about you). So that's why I'm here, blabbering myself off until I'll get the energy and the drive escalating again. I refuse to open any social networking site because it could only lead me to one thing, yeah procrastination. And I've fallen into that trap a million times and believe me it won't do any good. Specially when you're trying to ran after deadlines! Anyways, hope I'll get things done before the run rises. It would be a really good idea to go out for a morning walk. Great for mi lungs and asthma, but if it's chilly I wouldn't dare go out. Cause it'll only cause me rhinitis/asthma attack and I want neither rhinitis nor asthma. Can't risk that. (:

So I think I should go now, I have something to look forward to for the next couple of hours so I should get these done with.

Thanks bloggy, for always having a space for me! LOL

I'll be back soon for updates, lots of great things have been happening and I thank God for all the blessings!

XOXO

Swim Time! ♒

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 07:24:00 +0000

*Because I can't upload photos on FB, I'm posting Ayne's swimming photos here.

It's been weeks that he's been trying to convince his dad to go swimming, but to no avail. And you can only imagine how excited he was when he learned that Forest Hill Resort was included in their field trip's itinerary. He loves swimming, he loves the water (even though he gets [very] alarmed when water gets in his eyes)! (: Also, he's no longer afraid to swim on his own. My little tyke has really grown and matured in some ways. I'm a proud momma! ♡

Curvy Puzzle

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Thu, 27 Oct 2011 06:43:00 +0000

Found this via Stumbleupon.com and it occupied me for a couple of minutes. Had fun playing this and it's very stimulating! So I'm sharing this to all of you. If you're bored, here's the remedy for that. (: The Curvy Puzzle. Have fun!

Yeeey! I did it! (:

I Miss You :'(

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Tue, 18 Oct 2011 21:10:00 +0000

Dearest hubby,

I feel odd, I feel odd because I'm missing you even though we're together everyday. Maybe this is because everything's not the same anymore. You've finally landed a job after several years of being idle, cheers to that! I just got so used of having you around and now that you're working 8(+) hours a day, 6 days a week, I terribly miss you. We only have a few hours to be together everyday and when you get home you're dead tired. But I understand, I'm still thankful that you've finally stepped up from your death bed. LOL I miss you tons and I love you much much much! <3 And congratulations for having the strength to stop smoking!

[x] I miss staying up all night with you, dvd marathons, late night coffee, late night snacks, late night cuddling! (Not worrying about work the next day.)

[x] I miss spending the whole day with only you and yen-yen.

[x] I miss driving with you.

[x] I miss our late night drives, going to the nearest store to buy chips and ice cream!

[x] I miss our trips to McDonald's drive through.

[x] I miss swimming with you and yen2x. (Not minding what day we do it.)

[x] I miss having petty fights with you. (Not the major fights oh please!)

.... and the list goes on and on and on and on...

I love you babe, I'm glad we're able to patch things up. I know the last 6 months have been like hell! I'm very thankful that we're finally doing something and finally getting things right. It's still a long hard road to travel, but we're slowly getting there and I'm glad we're still together in this journey. May God be with us always.

XOXO

is it time to start shopping for the holiday season?

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Fri, 07 Oct 2011 21:18:00 +0000

I have always wanted to go shopping online because there are a lot of pretty things I see online that I don't get to see here in our local stores. But I'm always hesitant because I'm too afraid to use my credit card online, you knw for safety reasons. But when I started earning money online, I made my very first purchase on Ebay. I don't have to reveal what it was, but it was a gift for myself for doing such a great job! *blush What I liked about online shopping is that you could find the best deals and discounts, you could easily compare prices, and you could actually save money on shopping.

Are you familiar with Black Friday sale? It's the day following Thanksgiving Day in the United States, traditionally the beginning of the Christmas shopping season. The stores usually opens before dawn and dangle deep discounts to lure customers out of bed. Some deal-seekers even show up in pajamas! Well, with online shopping we have Cyber Monday sale! Yaaaay! You don't have to fight for your life in those tight crowd of zoombie shoppers. LOL You could land the best cybermonday deals from gadgets to shoes and accessories that would be perfect for holiday gifts! :')

Do you want to be A MERMAID or a WHALE?

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 03:35:00 +0000

Just a few minutes ago, I've came across with this story posted on someone's wall in Facebook. A very interesting story with a very strong message to convey and I want to share it with all of you. This is to empower women who feels ugly because they're fat. Think again, re-evaluate yourself and read this article. This sure will help you feel a waay lot better. Curves are definitely beautiful on a woman but health is more important than weight.

So here's the story:

Recently in large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin, and tanned woman appeared in the window of a gym. The poster read:

THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?

A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.

To Whom It May Concern:

Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas, seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Barren Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia . Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.

Besides that, mermaids don’t exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crises. Are we fish or human?

They don’t have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them and not to mention how could they have sex? Therefore they don’t have kids either. Let’s not forget to mention who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store?

The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.

P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver and a coffee with my friends. With time we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren’t heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy.

Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think, my gosh, look how smart I am!

How about you? Do you want to be a mermaid or a whale?

Gnomeo and Juliet {are really cute!}

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Wed, 28 Sep 2011 07:47:00 +0000

This song from Gnomeo and Juliet is stuck in my head. The song is actually sang by Elton John and Lady Gaga, entitled "Hello, Hello". I've watched this movie dozens of times and this is my favorite part of the movie. Really cute and romantic. :3

Breathe Taking Sky Lanterns

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 20:03:00 +0000

When I see photographs of sky lanterns my heart would always skip a beat. I've always adored night lights, you know lights during the night. LOL Yes, that includes city lights, STARS (stars will always be no. 1), traffic lights, bright colorful lights, Christmas lights, anything! And sky lanterns are one of the most beautiful things to see, it's just breathe taking. Others call it wish lanterns, maybe because it's like sending your wishes or letters to heaven. The word pretty is an understatement to describe them. This could be perfect for weddings, just imagine sending off your promises of love to heaven.

In Thailand they have Yi Peng. Yi Peng refers to full moon night of the 12th lunar month.

The Yi Peng Lantern Festival, commonly known as Festival of Lights, is annually organized by the Chiang Mai Municipality. Tubular lanterns, resembling hot air balloons, are lit and released into the night sky as an offering the Lord Buddha. As hundreds of illuminated lanterns drift into infinity, this conjures the same sense of wistful closure as the krathong float downstream. Maybe I'll die when I'll go to a lantern festival. Cause of death: Asthma attack due to too much excitement! HAHA

Pray for the Philippines

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 19:25:00 +0000

After every STORM,

comes a RAINBOW.

Let's all Pray for the Philippines, for everyone's safety. Spare us Lord from the threat of typhoon. We lift our safety unto your loving arms,shield us from destruction. Oh God hear our prayers.

Amen.

I {heart} Books

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Tue, 27 Sep 2011 09:43:00 +0000

If I have this amazing room in my house, you'll find me sitting in my comfy chair all day long with a good book in my hand, not moving a limb. I may even forget that Internet exist! Ha! ♡ I love books, I love reading! When we still lived in Cebu in my grandpa's house (I was about 8 yrs. old), I would dig into BIG old dusty (atchuu!) boxes which contains old books and old magazines. Trying to find something good to read. I won't stop digging until I'd find something that would interest me, and when I do find one I'll just sit there reading my way to wonderland. Are you familiar with the movie "The Pagemaster"? That's my favorite movie when I was a kid! (& also The Never Ending Story) I've always dreamed to be able to go inside a big library like the one on The Pagemaster movie or go inside a book like Bastian did on The Never Ending Story. Oh what a wonder it would be. :)

When I was in my teens, I've always enjoyed reading Collier's Junior Classic. You'll find me locked in my room on a Sunday afternoon, awash in my imagination and eating peanuts! (yes it's a combo, peanuts + a good book to read LOL!) And now that I'm a grown up, the love hasn't faded and never will (I guess). There days when I'd crave for a good book to read. Something that would stimulate my feelings and imaginations. I'd rather read a great book than watch a movie. Yes, that's just me. :') I'll always stay inlove with books. ♡ ♡ ♡

HEY IT'S YOUR BIRTHDAY!

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Mon, 26 Sep 2011 19:34:00 +0000

Dear Google,

Thank you for making my assignments a way lot easier and for making everything a click away. (I LOVE YOU, but books are still my first/great love. :'D) Thanks for being awesome! HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

PS. Please get my PR back to rank 3. :'D

XOXO,
Bojoy

Paypal, Why?

noreply@blogger.com (bOjoy) — Mon, 26 Sep 2011 04:46:00 +0000

I was feeling giddy when I went online last Saturday night. First thing I did was check my Yahoo mails and just checked if I got the mail I was expecting. Yes, it's there just right on time. :) I didn't even opened and read the email, I just hurriedly logged on to my Paypal account, went straight to the Withdraw page to withdraw my money. (Yes, it's my salary I was excited about! HAHA) But to my surprise, it said "Funds withdrawn must not exceed your available balance." I tried again wondering what might have I done wrong but still I can't transfer funds saying I have $00.00 balance. Whaat?! O.o Can you say that again?! :[ (I'm doomed!!)

I didn't know what's wrong so I went to the main page to check my actual balance. I was really excited to withdraw my money hence missing the note in My Account page which says I have a pending balance. Pending balance? What do you mean by that? I checked my Yahoo mail again and read the email I got from Paypal, and yes it says that my client's payment is under review. But why? T.T How long do I have to wait!?? Did anyone had this problem before?

I've talked with my client and he said maybe this happened because he sent the money using his mobile (with a new number) while he's on a train in China. (he's in a business trip) And maybe Paypal has seen this transfer suspicious since he's in a different country. Does this makes sense? I looked through Paypal, and they stated that it'll be under review for 24 hours. But I've read in the Internet that it'll take 21 days. How true?? Do I really have to wait that long?! :[

I'm an Asthmatic :'| Not Something To Be Happy About.

noreply@blogger.com (bOjoy) — Mon, 22 Aug 2011 23:10:00 +0000

"Breathe In. Breathe Out. Relax and try to feel comfortable."

That's what I always tell myself when I'm having asthma attacks. It's hard telling yourself to relax and feel comfortable when all in fact you aren't. How could you feel comfortable when you can hardly breathe? But I still have to, I need to cheer and comfort myself. :) I'm doing it for years and I've also had several trips with the 911 ambulance but yeah I've gotten the hang of it. When I get asthma attacks I get away from everything that would stress me out, and sad to say that it sometimes mean to distant myself from my little bug for a while. Because when my emotions heighten it'll add more discomfort for me, I'll just sit in my comfy chair and try to relax concentrating on my breathing.

FACTS ABOUT ASTHMA:

1. Asthma is not a psychological condition. However, emotional triggers can cause flare-ups.
2. You cannot outgrow asthma. In about 50% of children with asthma, the condition may become inactive in the teenage years. The symptoms, however, may reoccur anytime in adulthood.
3. There is no cure for asthma, but the disease can be controlled in most patients with good medical care. The condition should be taken seriously, since uncontrolled asthma may result in emergency hospitalization and possible death.
4. You have a 6% chance of having asthma if neither parent has the condition, a 30% chance if one parent has it, and a 70% chance if both parents have it.
5. Asthma is not contagious.
6. A new environment may temporarily improve asthma symptoms, but it will not cure asthma. After a few years in the new location, many people become sensitized to the new environment and the asthma symptoms return with the same or even greater intensity than before.
~ Medicinenet.com

Living with asthma is not easy. I grew up with a lot of restrictions and there were tons of things I wasn't able to do while growing up. Just like joining sports or Girls Scout. lol I've alwas wanted to join the Girls Scout and camp-out with the troupes but parents didn't allowed me. I fairly understand now and so I always pray to the Lord to save my son from it (Asthma) because I've always read that asthma is somewhat hereditary. :( I never want to let my son experience the discomfort that I have felt with asthma. I'm an Asthmatic :'| it's not something to be happy or to be proud about but I'm taking care of myself more. There's no better person that can help me but myself. :)

Say I Love You, before it's too late.

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Sat, 30 Jul 2011 04:13:00 +0000

I found myself crying a bucket-full of tears early this morning. :| I was literally broken hearted from what I've read. Yes, I cry very easily. Even small things could make me burst into tears. Why was I crying? It was because I happen to came across with this featured story on Yahoo! (I bet you've read this one too), it was about Paul Flanagan. A sad but true story to be shared, about a loving dad and husband, who did what he could in the little time he was left for his family. From their country cottage filled with memories of Mandy Flanagan’s late husband Paul, she shared with us their story.

Paul, a teacher, who died of cancer at the age of 45 in November 2009, passionately believed his children, Thomas and Lucy, should have more than just fading photographs to remember him by. For the children were only five and one-and-half years old at the time of his passing. “There was nothing more important to Paul than being the best father he could be,” says Mandy.

“When he knew he was dying, there was NO time for self-pity. He became absolutely focused on doing whatever he could to continue being a good dad to them throughout the years, even though he wouldn’t be here in person.”

(CLICK THE PHOTO TO READ THEIR FULL STORY.)

We all have a finite amount of time in this world, some less than others. And it is not the amount of time, rather how we use it which truly matters. Ever so often we get absorbed by our daily rat race and tend to take our loved ones for granted. Perhaps it is time we slow down and re-examine ourselves before it is too late.

Chasing Deadlines. Cramming!! O.o

noreply@blogger.com (Joy) — Thu, 28 Jul 2011 12:41:00 +0000

Inhale.
Exhale.
FOCUS.
Inhale.
Exhale.
SMILE. ☻

You can do this! Yes you can!

I guess you already know by now, yes I'm chasing deadlines again. :| It's been quite hard keeping up lately with all the distractions around. I have let my focus slipped away, shame on me. I have to do this, I will because I can. So gotta run now, just came by for a quick post and let my mind relaxed for a while. ☻

I'm currently hearing a kid singing "watermelon, watermelon, papaya papaya. Banana banana.. fruitsalad!"(to the tune of 'Are you sleeping2x, Brother John') from outside my window. and this alone made me smile. ^^. thanks sweet pea!

Can Nightmares Kill?

noreply@blogger.com (bOjoy) — Fri, 22 Jul 2011 08:03:00 +0000

I seldom have nightmares and I never thought it's this terrifying. I woke up around 1 am to work. At around 4:30 my Internet connection was acting real bad so I decided to went to bed.

I laid awake in my bed for several minutes and then I felt my consciousness drifted away to what I thought was a good night sleep. I first felt my arms then my body went numbed and the next thing I knew I was struggling and was panicking. I was struggling to move and to speak, I knew I Peterson was next to me and I want to grab him to wake me up, but i can't. I felt the urgency to wake up because if I won't, I'd die. :| I only saw white, it's like a bright light shined on everything. Seriously, I thought I would die. I kept saying that I don't want to die, I tried to shout but I could't even make a sound. I then started praying. I recited Our Father because I somehow knew that I would wake up by calling Him and also to erase the illusions my mind was starting to create (believe me it's an ugly vision). I just recited Our Father several times and finally I broke free from the sleep spell. I was breathing real hard and was trying to get all the oxygen I have from my lungs. I could compare the feeling of somebody tried to drown me and then finally I was able to get some air. When Peterson heard me, he was alarmed and immediately went up from bed and got me a glass of water. He thought I was having an asthma attack.

I know I'm not the only one who experienced this. I've never been this terrified in my entire life and I'm somehow glad that it's just a dream. Now my question is, can nightmares kill?