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You Know Who You Are

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Fri, 12 Feb 2010 15:20:00 +0000

I love you. It goes without saying. Nevermind your past, nevermind my past. It's US that matters. Just when i thought i wouldn't ever love again, you came. Amazing that there is hope in the very word itself. It amazes me how much love i have for you. Frankly, i didn't know i could still love this much. Thank you for making me feel alive. Salamat.

I love you babe. Happy Day. ♥

RIP Reclusive Man

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Thu, 28 Jan 2010 19:33:00 +0000

It's always sad to see the departure of the great. JD Salinger was proof that one doesn't have to be prolific to be profound. Rest in perfect peace JD, you've done your part, you left your mark but it doesn't take away the fact that a brilliant light has dimmed.

WORDS

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Thu, 14 Jan 2010 10:00:00 +0000

Antilamentation
Dorianne Laux

Regret nothing. Not the cruel novels you read
to the end just to find out who killed the cook.
Not the insipid movies that made you cry in the dark,
in spite of your intelligence, your sophistication.
Not the lover you left quivering in a hotel parking lot,
the one you beat to the punchline, the door, or the one
who left you in your red dress and shoes, the ones
that crimped your toes, don't regret those.
Not the nights you called god names and cursed
your mother, sunk like a dog in the livingroom couch,
chewing your nails and crushed by loneliness.
You were meant to inhale those smoky nights
over a bottle of flat beer, to sweep stuck onion rings
across the dirty restaurant floor, to wear the frayed
coat with its loose buttons, its pockets full of struck matches.
You've walked those streets a thousand times and still
you end up here. Regret none of it, not one
of the wasted days you wanted to know nothing,
when the lights from the carnival rides
were the only stars you believed in, loving them
for their uselessness, not wanting to be saved.
You've traveled this far on the back of every mistake,
ridden in dark-eyed and morose but calm as a house
after the TV set has been pitched out the upstairs
window. Harmless as a broken ax. Emptied
of expectation. Relax. Don't bother remembering
any of it. Let's stop here, under the lit sign
on the corner, and watch all the people walk by.

Andreas Seibert Tells the Epic Story of China's Modernization

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Tue, 12 Jan 2010 09:21:00 +0000

It was during one of those sit-and-reads that i came across Andreas Seibert's Photography of the human sacrifices behind China's economic boom.

What used to be passive, reclusive and ravaged by war and social upheaval, China is now said to be the world's third biggest economy with its sudden increase in car sales and mobile-phone users from 2008 to 2009. But just as you are being engulfed with China's dazzling economic boom, Seibert's documentation of the lives of some of the 130 million Chinese migrant workers, who are mostly coal miners and assembly line workers, will make you rethink things and wonder if these workers are given the same attention as their country's impressive economic achievements.

Apparently, their lives seem to be always interrupted and they are often forced to toil in difficult working conditions.

What's new?

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Sun, 13 Sep 2009 07:43:00 +0000

No posts for four months? WTF? Either i was lazy or i was extremely busy. Go figure. One thing i am experiencing right now is CHANGE. I've finally moved on and i can finally say out loud i am moving FORWARD. Yes, MOVING FORWARD in every sense of the word. I don't know if this is just hormonal, but i feel soooo HAPPY right now. Anyway, i will try my best to blog more in the coming days or weeks or months? LOL. I'll be in Malaysia 2nd week of November, i'll definitely blog when i get back. :)

Weather here signals the coming of Christmas. I know need to shop soon for some furrrr and knitted jackets.

Life Lately

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Tue, 23 Jun 2009 19:32:00 +0000

Mood: Excited and inspired
Music: AC hum

My blog has been collecting space dust again. Can someone please remind me that i have a blog to update? Even my Moleskine needs to be updated. Damn.

Life lately has been good to me. I hope it stays that way for a long time, if not forever. Threw a cocktail party for my 22nd birthday and i'm really happy my closest college buddies came. I missed them. I miss college, i miss everything about it. It's good to hear that most of my college pals have work already while others are trying their luck in law school. Going to a law school sounds sophisticated and scholarly to me but it's just not for me. Right now, i am finding myself in a different direction, in a road less traveled. I hope just like everyone else, i am walking the right path, because there's no turning back, not now that i have traveled long enough.

Courage and wisdom. I gotta have more of those. If my mum was so successful doing it, why can't i?

I'm setting up my SOHO. I'm hoping it will look just like how i envisioned it to be.

Phuket, Thailand 2009 | Sawasdee

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Sun, 24 May 2009 04:30:00 +0000

Mood: Taking a rest. Tomorrow's another day.
Music: The Day It Rained Forever--Aurora

We were so paranoid when we reached Suvarnabhumi International Airport in Bangkok thus the mask. Western people were everywhere. I didn't even notice a thermal scanner. Better be called paranoid than be sorry later right?

Note: Guess what? Days after reaching Bangkok. Two thais came in from Mexico carrying the H1N1 virus.

While waiting for our next flight to Phuket, i found a gangsta, all alone.--NOT

Well the person in the hood is not really a gangsta. She's actually a western girl with a guy sleeping in her lap. I know right?! They're so sweet. No comment about the guy though. But the girl is definitely pretty. Too bad you can't see the face behind the hood.

After a boring 3-hour flight to Bangkok and a 1:30 minute flight to Phuket, we're finally in the famous Patong Beach!

I love this beach as much as i love Boracay. Their nightlife here is hotter and heavier here though. Kid's shouldn't be allowed to go out at night. :D

Phuket's main attraction: ladyboys. LOL. I think they're hot and super funny. Some of them looked too good to be true. I don't really know why some white men are easily fooled.

Ever wonder how it feels to be a buddhist?

I got to experience how to pray like a buddhist. I took three incense sticks, one for the buddha, one for the Sangha (the buddhist community), one for the Dharma (teachings of the Buddha) a flower which symbolizes the purity of Buddhist teachings, and a small candle which is for comprehension enlightenment. I lit the incense sticks and knelt three times before putting the incense sticks in front of Buddha.

After praying and putting the incense sticks in front of the Buddha, i then covered Buddha with a thin golden leaf to honour Buddha's teachings.

The prayer ceremony ended well. There was actually this part wherein you would know your future by moving a box of sticks up and down so a single stick could fall. Each stick is numbered and each number corresponds to a certain future. Luckily for me, i got the number 16, my future was written in pure thai so i had our tour guide translate it for me. He said that my future is indeed all about luck. And no matter where i go and what i do, i will always be lucky. I hope so. Even though i am not really a firm believer of luck.

After seeing the famous Bangla road and after being a buddhist for one day, a few more days were spent just lounging around and drinking in our resort talking about politics and Hitler, tattoos, religion, devastating love, filipino foods vs. thai foods, homesickness, and life in general.

I can't say i'm totally happy without him. But i'm happy. At least.

Next: Bangkok Pictures

It's Been A While

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Sat, 25 Apr 2009 18:00:00 +0000

Mood: Thinking. Hates having period cramps.
Song: None playing.

Finally had the courage to get up and embrace the sun once more. It's been a while. Life will not always wait for me.

Albums coming soon: Baccalaureate Mass, Graduation, Spiral Dinner, Boracay 2009

Sorry for the delay.

IMG SRC: Knight Cat

Merciless Cupid

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Fri, 03 Apr 2009 16:24:00 +0000

Mood: I want peace of mind. Please give it to me. Please.
Song: None playing

When will i survive you? When i know that each waking day of my life, i will miss you.

Nique gave me this picture. She wanted me to move on. I didn't. I've got nothing to lose. You're already gone. It was probably both our fault. Maybe i came too strong, and you came too weak. Or probably it was my fault because i was willing to embrace my vulnerability and you didn't.

What Could Have Been

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Thu, 05 Mar 2009 15:39:00 +0000

Mood: Contemplative
Music: On Call, Use Somebody, Sex on Fire, Molly's Chambers--Kings of Leon; Soulmate--Natasha Bedingfield; Shadows of the City--Marcus Foster

Are you still worth the fight? I'm not yet completely over you. Days and counting. I don't know what to feel. It pains me a lot that you never did anything, that you never fought for whatever feelings you have for me.

I am moving on without you.

I do not care if this feeling may take a year to completely die down. I am moving on without you.

You should too.

Probably, we will meet again someday when we're both successful.

Probably we will both be ready.

I know i shouldn't be saying this, but i will be so proud of you during our graduation. I know you've worked very hard and i know you deserve each and every kind of recognition you will receive.

Traveling to Encounter Myself

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Wed, 25 Feb 2009 16:21:00 +0000

Mood: Excited
Music: Philosopher Stone- Van Morrison

I've always wondered what is it about Thailand that makes it the sex capital of the world. I've always wondered how Phuket breathes easy after being hit by a tsunami. Most importantly, I've always wondered about monkhood and temples in Thailand.

Patong Beach, Phuket

Red Light District, Patpong.

One of the many temples in Thailand

I guess i am about to satisfy my curiosity soon. : )

Now that i am about to graduate, i will be doing a lot of travels this year before going to Brisbane for postgrad.

May 7: Bangkok, Phuket
June 19: Hongkong
July 5: London

I've always loved traveling. When i was a little warthog, i promised myself that right after college, i will sail away from my safe harbor and start experiencing the real world. Of course, my parents did not approve of this. They want me to always be with them. They think i cannot handle the daily stress of washing my own clothes, doing my own dishes, and cleaning my own house. They think i am always up to something dangerously stupid. Well, i want to prove them wrong.

While my friends think i am a mentally strong person, my parents think i am very fragile. Couldn't blame them. I was accident prone when i was a kid. Each time we were on a vacation somewhere, i would always go home with a stitch. Seriously. I even know how it feels to be in a state of temporary amnesia because i had a serious head injury when i was in grade four. Thank goodness, there weren't any scars to mark all these recklessness.

Yes, my parents believe that i am very reckless and adventurous thus they do not want me out of their sight.

Though there will always be a running girl inside me, they should know that i am not a little freak anymore. They should know that i am already a woman (Naks!) who is more careful and wiser this time. A woman who has to think of her future seriously. A woman who needs to play the game of survival of the fittest carefully.

I am very close with my family and though i hate to leave them, i have to. I need to find my own person without them. I expect a lot from myself, thanks to my highly individualistic nature. I told myself that, before i set out to marry someone, i will have to fulfill all my major self-expectations first. I guess life really works for me this way, i cannot think of any other approach to begin and steer my future aside from what i had written in this long post.

P.S. Happy Birthday Roshni. You deserve all the love in this world. Ellan told me you are among the very few who passed UP LAW! Gosh, you are so brilliant. Bloody brilliant. LOL.

IMG SOURCE: Cumple Pnp Reptile Street GVA PIX

The Cranky Insomniac

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Wed, 18 Feb 2009 11:58:00 +0000

Mood: HK anyone?
Music: Soho Whores-Sam Bradley; I don't mind, Kissisaknife-Marcus Foster

Hindi naman sa lasingerra ko, pero minsan ay kailangan ko lang talaga ng alak para makatulog. Alam mo yun? Hindi siguro. Nyeta.

Translation: Not that i'm a drunkard bitch, but sometimes, i need a couple of tequila shots so i can sleep. Such is life.

Bad Cough, Shoe Attack

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Wed, 11 Feb 2009 14:52:00 +0000

Mood: Starving
Music: Bobby Dupea

There is one consolation in being sick; and that is the possibility that you may recover to a better state than you were ever in before. I was horribly sick for most of the entire week. I hated it and i am glad it is really over. If there's one thing i learned from being sick, it is probably to stop wasting time and start working in a timely manner! Was so worried my clients would gang up on me because i wasn't doing any work the entire week. Thank goodness, they didn't. I spent my days, last week, bedridden, trying to get some work done, when clearly, it's an impossibility.

I love how every shoe tells a story. I am one of those people who wear their hearts on their soles. Depending on my mood, you can probably catch me in a dominatrix shoe. LOL. Seriously though, i believe shoes turn you into someone else. It's a power thing i guess, which allows you to dress as a sailor, a Victorian, or even a Renaissance princess regardless of the era you are living in. You do not have to be imeldific to enjoy a good pair of shoes, you just have to find the best one that suits you.

Can't wait to buy some boots for Brisbane. :D

"A strong pair of boots will be of greater service for the ultimate triumph of socialism than . . . black eyes"--Maxim Gorky

IMG SOURCE: Cobrasnake Lulu and your mom Stylesightings

Rebel Muse

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Wed, 04 Feb 2009 19:12:00 +0000

Mood: Just right
Music: Shadows of the city rough mix- Marcus Foster

I managed to have some free time yesterday to meet Tippy whom i hadn't seen for months! She looked really good. We hung out for a while and talked things over some chilled martinis. I'm glad her problems and worries are over now. She deserves to be happy even though she's really hard headed.

I mean it Tippy. You know how hard headed and bitchy you can be. LOL.

She told me she's planning to enter culinary school at her dad's request. I supported her, of course, trying not to expect anything from her. I just reminded her that we are nearing mid-twenties and that we should know by now what we really want to do with our lives. I think i got through her somehow.

I've known Tippy for 13 years and Tippy, if anything, is a sister to me. She knows all the dirty stuffs about me and i know all her secrets likewise. Though we can get into each other's nerves sometimes, she knows i love her. Right Tips? I'm sure you know that you will always be my favorite rebel muse. :)

I miss wearing my killer shoes and fuck-me heels. I'll have to wear at least one of 'em this month.

IMG SOURCE: Knight Cat

Busy

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Mon, 02 Feb 2009 22:37:00 +0000

Mood: Panicky. In a hurry to meet someone.
Music: AC hum

Working on an article. I like to listen to FSwitch podcast when working. John's sexy voice stops me from being lazy and sleepy.

Books i have yet to read. One of which was given by my best friend Tris.

In case you didn't notice, i started my first post for the year 2009 with the word Busy 'cause that will probably be my defining moment in a while.

If there's any thing i want for this year, it would have to be career fulfillment and probably some lovin' on the side. If there is anyone out there who will enter my life naturally, then be it. I am not closing my doors to anyone but i am definitely taking a rest fighting for love. I have been fighting for love for so long and i think i deserve a rest more than he does. Entering into a relationship is probably the least of my priorities right now but i won't disregard it.

Been doing some serious thinking the past months and i think i am finally sure of what i want. Hopefully, nothing or no one will hinder me from achieving it. You see, i cannot afford to entertain the slightest bit of distraction right now but if someone will come, i hope he'll be worthy of my time. It's just so hard to find people worthy of my time nowadays. I've given up from being seen in the strobe party circuitry and I can just be seen hanging with people who i have real emotional connections with. I guess i grew tired of dressing up so glamorously slutty and meeting up fake people that i have now shifted my focus on more important matters like maintaining my social relationships and handling my finances well. So far i have been successful with the latter by trying hard to ignore retail therapy and by considering other alternatives like major thrift shopping. I have yet to improve on maintaining my social relationships though. I haven't seen some of my bitches in a while and i know that i will have to arrange something this month.

Time, nowadays, doesn't seem to be on my side guys, but i swear, i will make time for everyone.

I'll Buy My Escape From This World

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Tue, 23 Dec 2008 11:03:00 +0000

Mood: Contemplating on certain things, trying to get things right
Music: In my memory-DJ Tiesto

I have been doing a lot of escapes just recently. Instead of spending my last UST paskuhan, i decided to spend it in Tagaytay, Tirona with good and funny people.

We drank and laughed the night away. I missed Tagaytay. I remember my childhood days when we would go to our Tagaytay vacation house during weekends. I would play with my cousins and then meet one of my childhood sweethearts. But that was then, a lot of things had changed already. The only thing i can do is just look back to those sweet Tagaytay memories and move on.

It is hard for me to feel the Christmas spirit because of several deaths i have been hearing. Tell me, how exactly will you spend your Christmas if your son had been taken away from you? How exactly will you celebrate the holidays if days before Christmas you saw your daughters burn to death? How? These tragedies shouldn't affect me that much but it does. It really does.

I will be spending my Christmas in Boracay with my family and i kind of feel guilty because i know that we would be happy while others weep. Experiencing death right before Christmas is just something i do not want to feel. I feel for those families who will be having the saddest Christmas ever and i extend my condolences to them.

Now, for the rest of the world who might be looking forward to a great holiday season, endeavor to seize every moment because you would never know when Death would steal your Christmas away from you.

Instead of having a Christmas wish list, i feel that this post should be dedicated to those families and individuals who need the warmest kind of love this cold season.

Merry Christmas, everyone.

Love,

It captivated me once, it captivated me again.

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Mon, 10 Nov 2008 16:15:00 +0000

Mood: Steady
Music: Hey Jude-Joe Anderson; Hum of my AC

If you let your dazzlingly upbeat daydream carry you somewhere, you will certainly hope that it is in the island of Panglao. Located in Central Visayas, Panglao is home to people who are seeking a momentary calmness, away from the busy urban honeycomb.

Though it is distracting to know that the number of foreign nationals visiting Panglao far outweighs the number of Filipino guests, Panglao's perfect if you want to get to know yourself further and do some serious thinking. Even if i did not get the chance to have a date with myself, i enjoyed the trip since i was surrounded with lovely people who demonstrated the irony of being crazy and sane at the same time. Because of them and because of the cute foreign guy who kept on following us, the trip was really worthwhile.

We were all really sleepy when we reached Cebu. All we wanted to do was reach Lost Horizon and rest. Unfortunately, Panglao is still two hours away from Cebu and we still had to ride a fast craft before manong driver could pick us up in the Tagbilaran port. It was really a loooong trip but it's cool, jess and i just talked about love, life and atlantis while braving the waters to Tagbilaran.

Sleepy Badette

Lost Horizon

The resort,where we stayed, was perfect. Everyone seemed to be so accommodating and friendly. If you are planning a trip to Panglao, Lost Horizon is a good choice. Rooms are clean and their rates are affordable. Expect to have international neighbors in this resort and see less and less Filipinos.

I don't know but it was really satisfying to succumb to Panglao's beauty again. Compared to Boracay, which is also one of my favorite places to relax, i'll choose Panglao if i want to just think and think and think until i rediscover myself.

Love,

Read Between the Lines

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Fri, 03 Oct 2008 03:37:00 +0000

Mood: Excited
Music: Blog soundtrack

I am finally going on a break! Thank goodness. I need it and have been waiting for it.

Oct 24: Panglao
Dec 25: Boracay--again, and again.

I can't wait for Panglao. I am going with the most self aware persons i have ever met. Feels good to know that i will be surrounded with people who have thoroughness with a little bit of superficiality.

So sick of being with people who are so one-dimensional, where only booze, sex, and crazy shit are the only things they talk about. Of course, it is fun to talk about these things but it gets boring in the long run especially if you know that self-growth had stopped and superficiality is eating you alive.

It has been two years since my last visit to Panglao. Had there been any changes? We'll see.

Me and one of my best buds

I go down deep...

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Mon, 14 Jul 2008 15:59:00 +0000

Mood: Drinking Jinro--the best Soju in the world!
Music: Kape-Jeepney joyride

I am so busy busy busy busy busy. Why? I don't know. To forget something? Maybe. To forget someone? Maybe. One thing is for sure, i am having the greatest time of my life with my family. No more parties for now, i am done doing things you do not want to know. Doing those things, will only cause you trouble and brain cells deterioration. If there's anything i have gained from being my past self, it's experiences. Experiences that are now telling me to stop being so adventurous and to start taking care of myself for real.

Forgive my crapiness, i am not even sure if i am making sense here. Maybe Solju is getting the better side of me. My dad bought me lotsa Jinro bottles to keep me from going out. My dad's the coolest he knows my needs. --Lol.

I have had two bottles so far and i'm still up blogging. I'm blogging because i know i have readers and friends who want to know what's been happening to me. Well, FYI, my birthday passed without a greeting from you! Kidding, i hate birthdays. It reminds of the coming of age. I do not like it. The only thing i love about birthdays is food because i love to eat.--lol. Anyway, am i still making sense? i'm writing under the influence of Jinro, two bottles of Jinro to be exact so please excuse the drama.

I will be going to sleep soon. I hate the fact that i will see you tomorrow. I know it will bring back a lot of memories. Memories i want to be erased. Memories that should have been with another person instead. You do not deserve me or even my attention. So please stop trying to make it work because i do not think it will still work. It was good while it lasted. You know that, i said that to you a long time ago so please stop. You are not my weakness anymore, just want you to know that. I do not need you. I have been known as someone who is a fighter of her beliefs so the last thing i need is a coward. The last thing i need is you.

I know i will erase this post tomorrow when i am sober again. In the mean time, i hope you get to read this.

My Sweetest Partner

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Wed, 28 May 2008 16:21:00 +0000

Mood: I will miss you Bruce. No one can replace you.
Music: Ipod Playlist

Perhaps you do not belong here, but rather in the sky where your love together with the love of Lolo and Spike pours through and shines down upon us to let us know that you are finally happy.

I love you Bruce, you are better off there and not in this cruel world. You will be greatly missed.

Keeping Myself Alive with Words

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Sun, 04 May 2008 16:25:00 +0000

Mood: Youth is not wasted on the young.
Music: Love in this Club- Usher; 4 Minutes- Madonna; Our Song- Taylor Swift; See you Again- Miley Cyrus

I wanted to post something about my delicate recklessness the past months which my readers and friends don't know, but since i still couldn't quite figure out the right words to use, i just decided to write about it some other time when my brain's fully functional again.

There's nothing really special about my post today. I am just gonna rant about the fact that life has been impartial to my needs. One of which is that i don't get to read good books anymore because of so much work. I hate it when my imagination, feelings and subconscious inklings of things are being compromised. It makes me feel that i am less of a person, incapable of giving voice to my own wordlessness.

I noticed that i am constantly experiencing a form of writer's block which is in every sense of the word frustrating. I don't know what's causing my mind to riot from its own design. Perhaps, i am just not in the mood to write an articulate prose. Perhaps, vigor has abandoned me for someone who's more capable. I don't know.

I wish i could say that i didn't care if i could not write the way i used to. But things don't go that way for me.

I like learning about many things. Photography. Sports. Art. Music. But writing has proven to be the passion that can either kill me or save me. At this point in my life, i want it to be my lifeline. Soon, if it needs to serve a purpose larger than my life, i will, by all means, allow passion to end the high cost of living.

For now, i just want it back, i know i haven't lost it.

Get up, Stand up Philippines!

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Fri, 29 Feb 2008 13:43:00 +0000

Mood: Thinking hard about the lifelines and crimes of every politician.
Music:Being in love- Tori Amos; Africa Unite, Is This Love, Three Little Birds- Bob Marley

While the interfaith rally in Makati might be peaking any moment now, Pres. Gloria must be in her decent designer pajamas, smoking her lungs out, and considering suicide. I mean, Who can blame her for considering that? She's stuck in a 'glorious' moment and unless she adapts the ways of Vladimir Putin, there's no way out for her. Let me just stress though that Pres. Gloria can never be a Putin because Putin never risked the efficiency and security of Russia against his own political survival.

Sadly, our country has a long way to go if every leader's effort in political survival has taken precedence over efficient administration. No matter, here's a song that best fits our situation which never really changes.

RAGE BY THE JERKS

Children begging at the streets at night
Knocking on cars till the morning light
People standing in line for a kilo of rice
Welcome to the dark ages, the era of lies

Dreams of progress, of visions gone mad
Mendiola’s still drenched with innocent blood
Demolition men rumbles through smokey mountain homes
Darkness indeed, justice dressed in gloom

But I’ll go not gently into the night
Rage against the dying of the light
Sing a song about this terrible sight
Rage until the lightning strikes
Go not gently, go not gently, go not gently
And rage with me

And the names and faces of the tyrants change
But poverty, pain and murder remains
And the voices of truth are locked up in chains
Darkness remains, freedom in flames

P.S.
A TV reporter, who i intently studied as he shoot his spiel before the camera, just lost his mobile phone while covering the highly attended Mass for Lozada in Tondo. The funny thing is, he looked really gay in person but looked really manly on TV when he was complaining about his snatched phone. Oh well, i guess it's none of my business but i really think he's gay. Wala lang. Just wondering about it.

Most Terrifying Video You'll Ever See

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Tue, 19 Feb 2008 05:13:00 +0000

mood: steady lang
music: Spider Pig- Hans Zimmer, Simpson Movie; No Woman No Cry- Bob Marley; Boy You knock me out- Tatyana

This video has more than 3million hits in youtube and was featured by Yahoo! because of its message regarding global warming. Personally, I am amused with the brilliance of this geek, and it is for this reason that i'm letting his lack of a voice be heard all over the world.

G'BYE 2007: My seven things

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Wed, 19 Dec 2007 18:35:00 +0000

Mood:Motherfucking ambivalence- We bumped into each other kanina sa paskuhan. You were on your way home. I was on my way back to the field. You smiled and avoided my eyes. Weird, why does it feel like everything can't be the way they used to be.
Music: Irreplaceable- Beyonce; Linger- Cranberries; Go on girl- Neyo; Soul to squeeze- Red Hot Chilli Peppers

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE ME

1. My being indecisive
2. Being away from my family for such a long long time
3. Flying cockroaches
4. The idea that God does not exist- that maybe everything only depends on a system of valuing. I don't really talk about religion concerns here and i think it's dumb to even start talking about it but if you're intrigued 'bout the system of valuing i mentioned then Spake of Zarathustra is a good read.
5. Firecrackers- i saw how horrible firecrackers could be. My dad almost lost a finger years years ago.
6. Earthquake
7. T-rex dino- their being extinct- thank God- doesn't mean they're not scary. In fact, whenever i watch NGC's show about Dinosaurs, T-rex still gives me the goosebumps. They're like the ugliest and fiercest creature that set foot on this planet.
Imagine living in the Jurassic period with this creature? Irk. No way.

SEVEN THINGS I LIKE THE MOST

1. LOVE- enough said.
2. The water. - i'm a waterbaby. I love the feel of water on my skin, may it be the beach, pool or even the shower. I love hot and long baths especially after a stressful day. Shower therapy.
3. Ferrero Rocher- the only chocolate that i don't get sick of eating.
4. Food and travel- experiencing different places, reliving history, eating so many kinds of cuisines. The good life.
5. Booze sessions
6. Intellectual conversations
7. Retail therapy- guilty as charged!

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN MY ROOM

1. My growing collection of Art films
2. My dresser where all my perfumes, cosmetics, and meds are.
3. TV and Dvd player
4. Closet
5. Pictures
6. Radio
7. Bed

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME

1. I have 5 dogs but and my favorite is Hutch, my labrador.
2. I love the feel under the sea. It's like a whole different planet down there.
3. I am super OC when it comes to my bedsheet. It has to be clean no matter what. If i see just a tiny dirt or spot, i'll make sure to change it to a clean one right away.
4. Even though i am not a shy person, i can be shy with the person i really like.
5. I love watching action films compared to watching love stories.
6. I want to learn how to pole dance.
7. People say i look exactly like my dad.

SEVEN THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE

1. Travel the world and experience each and every place.
2. Be able to uncover the secret or reality behind a mystery.
3. Have a hot and steamy night with Wentworth Miller or Hugh Jackman.
4. Be able to send at least one child to school.
5. Go skydiving or bungee jumping.
6. Be a successful media practitioner and a lawyer.
7. Save, through my own little way, our mother earth.

SEVEN THINGS I CAN DO

1. I can love.
2. I can just write the whole day and feel fulfilled.
3. I can finish a box of Krispy Kreme in a day and a half. I did that once. Maybe i can do it again. Hahahaha
4. I can swim really well.
5. I could be a bitch when i didn't get any sleep.
6. If you're my friend, trust me when i say, i'll be with you all the way. Just don't take me for granted.
7. I can quit smoking. I know i can.

SEVEN THINGS I CAN'T DO

1. I can't be a good soccer player no matter how hard i try.
2. I can't resist caramel cakes. Oh god. So if you know that we're not in good terms, just give me a caramel cake then maybe, after that, everything will be alright. You can bribe me once in a while y'know. Hahahaha.
3. I can't stand crowded places.
4. I can't sing and i can't play any instruments. It's a shame because me and mum are the only one who are not musically inclined. My dad is such a romantic singer and my sister, besides having the voice, plays the guitar and violin as well. The whole clan knows how to play at least one instrument except for me and mum. Tsk. Oh well, i love music but the idea of learning to play an instrument just doesn't appeal to me.
5. I can't stand people who always make excuses.
6. I can't eat fried meat if there's no Catsup.
7. I can't afford to slack off when i got big dreams waiting to happen.

SEVEN THINGS I FIND ATTRACTIVE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX

1. How he carries himself. I like it if a guy looks "suplado" and mysterious but is really nice and sweet once people get to know him. Just like me, i may look suplada but i'm really not. You just have to be gutsy to know me.
2. I like eyes that can make me melt.
3. Confidence. NOT OVERCONFIDENCE.
4. I am attracted to guys who are knowledgeable. I prefer knowledgeable guys to academically smart guys. Knowledgeable guys tend to have opinions on almost everything. Academically smart guys stick to what they have to learn in school. Intelligence for me is being knowledgeable and being critical of what you have to learn. It's not about how well you do in school but rather how well you know the world. I have nothing against academically smart guys. In fact, it's even better if a guy can be the best of both worlds.
5. I like a guy who takes care of his body. And i mean his hot body!
6. His sense of humor. I really like it if a guy can laugh at my corniest jokes.
7. It's a plus for me if a guy can sing.

SEVEN THINGS I SAY THE MOST

1. Oh mi god.
2. Really?
3. That's hot.
4. Grabe ka naman.
5. Whatever!
6. Seriously?
7. Takte!- Got this expression from Huie. I don't have a clue what it is. Putakte?

SEVEN CELEB CRUSHES

1. Wentworth Miller
2. Hugh Jackman
3. Freddie Prinze Jr. - he's still my crush 'cause this guy i want to quit looks like him.
4. Robert Downey Jr.
5. Johnny Depp
6. Jude Law
7. Jet Li- despite his age, he still looks hot!

SEVEN PEOPLE I WANT TO SEE TAKING THIS TEST

Tris.Tata.Ellan.Nique.Huie.Jerrah.Cathy

HAPPY 2008 PEOPLE! I LOVE YA ALL!

to my crazy ones

noreply@blogger.com (Melanie D.) — Tue, 04 Dec 2007 01:25:00 +0000

mood:Fuck politics, just drink
music: Apologize- Timbaland Feat. One Republic; Love show- Skye;

Aside from World Peace, i couldn't think of a single want this Christmas. I feel so unbelievably appreciated that i think it would be too much to ask for more. I feel very much loved by people who make me want to move forward and just forget.
Friends who can cope with my bipolar tendencies, not to mention my appetite. Friends who i bitch around and who bitch me around in return.
Friends who wish ill things about You that some even want to crush each and every bone you have but won't because they know i wouldn't be too happy about it.
Friends who helped me rediscover the feeling of excitement which was long absent in my life. Friends, who no matter what time of the night, would open their doors for me.
Friends who would booze with me even though they know they have piles of articles waiting to be read at home.
Friends who are willing to explore the vast and dangerous grounds with me without having second thoughts.Friends who make me feel warm by saying that having a conversation with me is always a good thing.
Friends who are not a slave of their inhibitions that they always know how to have fun.
Friends, who scowl but understand when there are times, that i don't want to be reached on a saturday night.
Friends who are there to remind me that i'm thinking too much. Friends who dream with me. Friends who enjoy being with me for countless number of hours without uttering a single word. Friends who speak their minds if something is definitely wrong.
Friends who share the same passion for knowledge and life.
Friends who stick with me despite their hatred for cigarette smoke.
Friends who can tolerate my pompousness. Friends who know why i have some serious memory breach and still understand. Friends who listen to the absurdity and rarity of my beliefs. Friends who act in disbelief when i say that i don't consider anyone ugly but then realize that may be i am right.
Friends who are so real that people living in a box hate, but nonetheless i love. Friends who let me be.

Happy Christmas guys. You guys are one of the reasons why i believe Christmas should be celebrated no matter the kind of spiritual beliefs.