The Blog Begins - A Must Read

2012-06-12T00:35:00.001+10:00

Once upon a time in a kingdom far far away...

LOL Jokes this is real, everything I post here is real. Everything except for one detail, the names. The truth is I have been through a lot in life, not one thing has been so bad as to break me down but everything combine just makes life hell at times. Do not get me wrong I am a very happy person in my day to day life. I am a born again christian with a great circle of 'friends' and 'family'. But i do have a past, it does affect my present and not many people know about it.

This blog is about truth and the main truth is that no matter what we have been through we can move forward, one day at a time, on hour at a time if we need. I do not want any one to feel sorry for me, I want to help inspire people to take control of their life. To accept who they are and where they have come from and help people move forward.

I have been through so much is such a short time. I am 18 years old and it feels like I have lived through a life time of events. I know my journey is just starting at at this very point I just want to make it until tomorrow, every day.

Follow me through my journey of self discovery as I revel what in my past has shaped who I am today. As I move forward in life we move back into my past, things will be out of order this is no birth to death bio. This is all about me finding out who I am, why I am and where I am going. As I post back on things that have happened in my past I will update the time line on the bottom of every post. Try not to judge me for who I am or what has happened to be because no one around me who knows my past has ever been able to tell by the way I live my present.

Who am I?

As you know I am still trying to figure this one out.

My name is to remain a mystery until the time is right so for now I am knows as Inner Desire. The rest of the information is real and 100% accurate except for other peoples names. I am 18 years old even tho it feels like I have lived a life time. I currently associate as being gay , not many people around me know, even fewer know I may not be. I left school early to become a graphic designer, but that did not work out. My farther left me when I was just 13 months old and for 10 years of my life I had a step farther who was an abusive alcoholic who took everything out on me. I have been to 6 schools, Lived in 12 different houses although I only remember 8 of them. I have spent most of those years alone with very few friends ( none at other times ). I have been dating 2-3 years now and have been with 8 or 9 guys (most in the first year and a half). I do not do one night stands, I believe in trying to find love. I am a Christian now although that is only new, I was raised away from religion, god knows I could have used it. I have broken down a few times and at one point in time I was submitted to the mental health ward at a local hospital for a week due to something terrible that happened 3 weeks prior. I have battled with anxiety and depression and a bunch of other minor things over the past 8 years.

Now I am finally starting to mend from my past, I have great people around me and I look forward to my future. So what happened, how did I get over it and how am I going to get to the future? Their is only one way to find out. Follow my blog as over time all the mysteries of my past are revealed and all the answers to my future are finally answered.

Stay Tuned for more Breaking Free, From Inner Desire

This is my time line of what I have reveled to you so far on our journey.

------------- The Present -------------

June 2012

The Blog Begins 'Breaking Free'

This is a must read [Read Post]

1992

Inner Desire was Born

------------- The Past -------------

This time line is updated every post to give you an idea of where in my past you are, what else has happened and where I am today. Stay tuned with the latest post to see more of who I am and how I am breaking Free.
The time line on each post is the time line up to that post. For the latest time line either look at my latest post or my first post 'The Blog Begins - A Must Read'.