Breathe in....and out.

friday - month 2 expressions

2014-10-03T09:59:00.000-05:00

I'd like to write
anonymously
that i've forgotten how to spell,
how to form focused thoughts and sentences.

life is so overstimulated that i'm not sure i can remember what it is to ponder a problem and unravel a solution. if the work cannot be completed in two seconds then it's frustrating and obnoxious.

this is a problem.
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tomorrow
early morning we go to explore a new adventure
Mr. D to run/hike an half marathon
Mrs. D to hike a mile or two in joy to be outdoors

then homeward bound
to start to write Thank you Cards
for the many and multiple expressions of love
that have flowed our way

Thank you.

Afternoon Reflections & Catch Up Time.

2014-09-29T15:07:00.002-05:00

on May 17th i graduated from my Executive MBA program.
and was promptly sick for a month.
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A little less than two months ago I married Mr. Brock E. Dennison. A true life changing event.
i'll soon be "RoyaLD" ennison as soon as i get around to changing my name. ;)
I'm not one to post on the day-to-day events of my life or even to take photos of the people i Love most.
But this one i've got to share - so please enjoy:
http://heartstringsphotosbyheather.blogspot.com/2014/08/monte-sano-lodge-wedding-huntsville-al.html
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Been trying to find my roots since the endless stream of events & changes that have occupied my life the last two years. I crave both work (new work) and rest. And am confused by my lack of energy.
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Phone conversation with a friend
current levels of dissatisfaction with employment
our shared thought was to list out points of conflict
decide if actionable results are possible
act on those things that seem plausible
or commit to making a change

“Courage is the power to let go of the familiar.” ~Raymond Lindquist
Any other possible lines of action that we should think about?

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The healer of all thine ills is remembrance of Me, forget it not. ~ Bahá'u'lláh,

2013-10-24T20:34:00.000-05:00

its been weeks
days and months since i last
composed my thoughts

the questions of
are you well
are you good
are you happy

keep finding their way into my world
as if the changes in my life
are vibrating the souls of those around

and i am good
i am well
i am happy

everyday brings a new thought
and i find myself sometimes
without the time to express

i am enjoying the moments in which i find myself
and long for more free time to say it's so.

a shared conversation with a certain MM leads to...

2013-02-27T21:42:00.001-06:00

i approve of dreams
the fuzziness of worlds
beyond description
that turn into lands of
flights and vivid color
airy clouds of joy

i approve of dreams
dark and scary
that wake you up in the middle of the night
and leave you tired the next day

i approve of dreams
and all they mean
waking dreams
pondering dreams
lonely dreams
adventure dreams

oh the adventure dreams
the paths to travel
the mysteries of the mind to unravel

i approve of dreams
i share with you mine
the shared conversations
the open book dialogue
the pregnant pauses
the looks
the disappointments

when dreams fade away
and don't materialize

leaving room for
new visions
new scenes
i approve of dreams

for my friends.

2013-02-13T10:48:00.001-06:00

http://dailyoddcompliment.tumblr.com/image/42963288990

2013-02-09T13:47:00.001-06:00

Communication is key.

12:26am - earth sign - grounded.

2013-02-01T00:27:00.000-06:00

my trust was fractured
cracks appear

to ignore it all - wish
and yet why handle it poorly
understanding - important

awareness of my position and yours
is a feat that may require a few moments
of deep breaths.

eyes heavy with lack of sleep
burden of politics
and emotional stress

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today was a day like others
yet so different

phone call of appreciation
mixed in with omission
lessons in leadership
shared Hidden Words

O SON OF SPIRIT! My first counsel is this: Possess a pure, kindly and radiant heart, that thine may be a sovereignty ancient, imperishable and everlasting.

2013-01-27T12:32:00.002-06:00

the responsibilities are heavy on my shoulders
the lists seem endless
the steps to walk appear to wind their way through many a turn

and yet

the rewards are plentiful
the learning is tremendous
the growth of facing new challenges brings light

overworked and sleepless
i do this for a reason.

2013-01-10T10:30:00.002-06:00

my morning
slept so deeply
three alarm clocks couldn't wake me up

it's a nice.

Yes...I think this is Awesome.

2012-11-11T16:31:00.002-06:00

http://dailyoddcompliment.tumblr.com/image/34201999948

Flightpath

2012-09-23T11:46:00.001-05:00

i sit in a coffee shop
writing about a leadership development challenge
trying to define my own strengths and weaknesses
and as i sit here thinking about how deeply emotional i am
and how hard i find it to separate my emotions from what comes out of my mouth
i am struck in awe again but how connected we all are in this world
the people i'm surrounded by
with headphones covering their ears, staring at computer screens, in private conversations
share so many similar traits but are all so different
from appearance to clothing to the slants of eyebrows
to the position of feet resting on the floor, or crossed underneath, or bent at angles
we are all so different and yet have the same needs
the same emotions
and yet we process words so differently
we see the world through our past and dreams for the future
and rarely do we see the same light

i agree

2012-08-31T08:50:00.002-05:00

Inspiration exists, but it has to find you working. ~ Picasso

going the distance.

2012-08-21T20:56:00.001-05:00

Learning to do it all
participating fully in class
offering words of insight or
voicing contrary opinions

and still finding time
to visit with friends
to laugh, exercise, and last but not least
dream.

Executive MBA Here I Come.

2012-08-08T19:33:00.000-05:00

on your promptings.

7:28 pm
Pandora plays a Boy&Bear station
i've delayed as long as possible
and now i must sit down and focus on quadratic equations
and read articles on leading with integrity

my goal from my undergraduate days of going for an MBA
are taking root
classes start tomorrow night

and i'm already wondering what these next 21 months will lead

i'm counting on support from friends
family
strangers
my classmates
to make it through

who knows where this will lead
i know i'll be tested
probably to my limits
but the mere fact that i'm increasing my knowledge base
that i'm learning new skills and tapping undeveloped potential
well darn it - that's Awesome.

wish me luck
wish me well
make me laugh when you can
and I'll try to update this little spot of mine with insights into all i'm gaining.
always
me

thoughts on a monday night

2012-05-21T20:39:00.000-05:00

I sit.
listening to the black keys on repeat
trying to write with eloquence and focus
filling in the applications to raise my level of education to a new level
anticipating that i'll be accepted without any concerns

yet finding the words elusive
why am i aiming for this goal
what's the purpose

and why are the ones you wish to talk to the most
the slowest to respond

i thought that if i was to sit here and freely write, more words would come my way, and yet, instead, my eyes are caught by the contrasts in color on the brick wall opposite me, the blue of the sky filling in the spaces not covered by the green of the live oaks, the conversations that seep past the earphones in my ears, and the odd collection of individuals who inhabit the neighborhood in which I live.

i've dreamed lately vivid dreams of lions
and loss
and living a life as someone other then I am
with different qualities and characteristics

have I challenged myself enough?

Learn Something New Everyday.

2012-05-10T22:55:00.001-05:00

Are you happy?

2012-05-10T15:37:00.001-05:00

Happiness consists of two kinds; physical and spiritual. The physical happiness is limited; its utmost duration is one day, one month, one year. It hath no result. Spiritual happiness is eternal and unfathomable. This kind of happiness appeareth in one's soul with the love of God and suffereth one to attain to the virtues and perfections of the world of humanity. Therefore, endeavor as much as thou art able in order to illuminate the lamp of thy heart by the light of love.
~ Tablets of Abdu'l-Baha, p. 673

question in bold....

2012-04-15T13:55:00.003-05:00

2 April, 1912, Friday, New York City.

From early morning people were lined up at His ('Abdu'l-Bahá's) hotel suite to meet Him. Howard Colby Ives, the Unitarian minister, wrote “life has never been quite the same since.”

That afternoon ‘Abdu’l-Bahá spoke to a thousand persons in the MacNutt home. Later that same day He spoke to another thousand people in Miss Phillips’ studio saying, “Do you appreciate the Day in which you live?”

p. 18, 239 Days, ‘Abdu’l-Bahá’s Journey in America, by Allan L. Ward,

2012-04-12T20:32:00.000-05:00

I go from work
to work
my eyes on the computer screen
glazed
please remind me to blink.

Acceptance

2012-02-23T23:28:00.001-06:00

the sky was ablaze in neon colors
vibrating with beauty

I
accept that no matter
how
I envision my world
the constant change
into something far more glorious
and vivid

illustrates that imaginations
do have boundaries

surpassed by true creation.

Question of the day?

2012-02-19T17:20:00.000-06:00

Roya, i know we're not in school anymore.
but do you still get spring break?

My response: I truly wish I did.

Zoom Zoom

2012-02-13T21:51:00.004-06:00

My coworkers have a race car
Entered in the 24 Hours of Lemons
and I'm going to get in on that action...

Just Because
I think it will be Amazing
to take corners at 80mph.

hehe

2012-02-11T00:10:00.001-06:00

2012-02-06T23:55:00.001-06:00

a thought that stays with me....

"keenness of understanding is due to keenness of vision"

after a night of reflection with friends
an open sharing of words and meanings
i find myself at the end of the day
repeating this phrase
and questioning

what vision
what understanding

Here's the full quote for any who may be interested:

We cherish the hope that through the loving-kindness of the All-Wise,the All-Knowing, obscuring dust may be dispelled and the power of perception enhanced, that the people may discover the purpose for which they have been called into being. In this Day whatsoever serveth to reduce blindness and to increase vision is worthy of consideration. This vision acteth as the agent and guide for true knowledge. Indeed in the estimation of men of wisdom keenness of understanding is due to keenness of vision. - Baha'u'llah

I'm sure i've posted this before ... or at least thought of posting it.

Exactly

2012-02-03T11:15:00.001-06:00

Exploding Dog - Speaks Straight from My Mind