Briana Fierce: The face behind the blog.

Peeling away the negatives:Positivism and giving are essential elements for Joy.

2010-08-09T08:20:00.000-07:00

By Briana Booker

Remember you only keep what you give away. If you never give away affection and care, you will never be able to obtain those traits in your lifestyle. And yes, this includes real romance. Also remember how you judge other peoples' characters can give others the ability to rate your character.

When people think or have negative outputs about others around them consistently, it displays his or her own personal unhappiness. It also reveals anti-social disorders.

Peel away all the labels you and others have given you and what is left: pure existence awareness and bliss. Think on it and try it out.

I am sure you will start to see yourself much happier and those around you more welcoming.

Good words from a friend: Let go of negatives.

2010-07-23T08:30:00.000-07:00

By Briana Booker

I was looking at my good friend Mariana Morales commentaries and I tumbled upon one that made me laugh and think!

The commentary was as the following:

Life is like Twitter. You can't control what people say and do. You can just follow or unfollow them.

It's a very honest, truthful, and simplistic statement. When you stop looking for greater meanings and take things as is... I think it makes more positives come into effect in your life experience.

Why keep people in your life that are holding you down? Why respond to immature behaviour? What are these people weighing you down bringing to the table? If you have to think hard on that, it is time to unfollow those people. Cut them out your life.

Keep your head up high and keep doing you. You allow people to effect your life for positive or negative. People only have control of what you allow them to have control upon.

Some may say it is easier said than done. In response to that I say, you are making it easier said than done. You are allowing that power to exist. Do not let it. Ignore those who are only followers but never positive leaders. Ignore those bringing negatives into your life. Be a leader and be around those that exert positive leadership trait.

A true leader actions speak louder than his or her words in a positive way.

When the going gets tough, you see who are the true leaders. Those that do not past that test, unfollow them. Point Blank.

Believe without seeing.

2010-07-11T16:48:00.000-07:00

By Briana Booker

I was watching the movie the Miracle Maker, a film about the miracles of Jesus. I have not seen this movie in a long time and it really hit home for me today. Happy to believe without seeing is a beautiful thing. I am not even talking on a religious sense. I am talking about believing in yourself and believing in your hopes and dreams.

No matter if you believe Jesus as the son of God or not, the story of Jesus and his teachings are amazing. You can not go wrong with the truth of the word and neither should you fear it.

No one is perfect and I believe there is always room for improvement in ones actions and words. Recently, I have come to terms that sometimes the death of a habit does not mean a bad outcome. You have to die to get to where you want to be sometimes. Sometimes, you will not recognize the death of the person you once were, and other times, you will know.

Sometimes, we have to start out as that random mustard seed blowing in the wind that comes upon a foreign settlement to become one of the greatest trees.

To believe gives you more power than you think. Hope can make dreams that seem near impossible become realities. Sometimes you have to go through the storm to see happier days.

What was so refreshing about the Miracle Maker film is that it shows you have to take risk to gain something bigger and greater than your personal wants and needs. Sometimes, life is about a greater will than your own.

Sometimes, we are stronger when we build our house on solid stone versus the easier structure of building on sand. When the storms come, the sand will wash away but the stone will remain.

I was builidng on sand for years and gaining nothing from it but sorrow. However, I have learned some grief is necessary. Sometimes the best days are the ones mixed with laughter and crying in one seating. It makes you a stronger person and prepares you for the greater opportunities set before you...but you have to believe they exist before obtaining these blessings.

I had to touch the marks of my past to stop doubting my future that peace can exist, if i allow it. If you believe, you must forgive yourself for belittling yourself and giving up on yourself. Find a way to open up yourself and be open to what the world around you offers.

I really do believe that all whom are lost can be saved, if we stop wanting to be lost. I wanted to stay lost for awhile because I didn't want to lose what I thought I needed to survive. However, the old wine is not satisfying anymore. I rather have the new wine. I want the new one that makes me live. I want the new one that does not make me afraid to change so that I can be and recieve better in my life and beyond.

Sometimes, we rather take some other way than the challenging way. We would rather run,but it is not our will that we should be serving, we should be serving the higher will of existence...that will called destiny.

Allow yourself the opportunity to push your life boat out to the deep. I am learning to do that more often. I have been so use to having my boat in the shallow waters that I have prevented myself from obtaining the better catch out in the deep.

How can I tell one person I can take the speck of dust out of his or her eyes when I have a log in my eye? It does not make sense.

I am learning now to start with my own soul. I am learning now not to let the past make me silent and afraid to be better. I am learning to live. I am learning to build something new. But this time I am going to build upon a rock and not the sand.

I want to learn to be as humble as a child again. I want to learn to trust. I want to learn to love myself and my neighbor. If that is not a path to happiness, I do not know what could be...but I am going to try.

Please check out the Miracle Maker sometime! It is a great movie for thought for all ages.

How to keep the faith during sadness.

2010-07-07T19:39:00.000-07:00

We all have a story to tell. We all feel pain. But what to do when we have lost something dear to us? What to do when we have no control of an outcome?

Often these questions are especially asked when we lose a love one to death. We feel mad at the world and, if believers of God, we ponder why us? Did we do something wrong to deserve this?

I am here to tell you I have been there and done that. I am here to tell you that more than just you and me have been in those shoes. I am also here to tell you...do not lose faith.

I know you are thinking easier said than done, right?

Yes, it is one of the hardest lessons to give your worries and attachments away. It is hard to say that you feel true happiness after feeling a loss close to your heart.

I felt like my world had fallen apart when I lost my brother to illness, almost two years ago. I was mad at the world. I was mad at God.

I literally took hibernation from the external world. I was in much pain,but I do remember church folks telling me to believe.

Eventually, after they stopped telling me that, life went on. People kept moving, while I was still mourning. Sometimes, I would cry at night or look at a picture feeling sad. Then, in the morning, hide my sadness behind a smile.

But then, I realized, I had to stop feeling sorry for myself, my family and my brother. There were people who have suffered as I have in similar experiences. There were people that have been through worse, such as losing an entire family.

And sometimes one has to wonder during a funeral are you crying because you feel sorry the person has passed or are you crying because you were left behind? You felt the person was obligated to still be alive because you could not bear living without he or she?

It is understandable.

But what I have come to grasp is that you have to give your worries away and enjoy those in your life at all times! Maybe it is true that people come into your life for a reason, a season,and a life time.

Maybe what counts is just the present. Maybe you should hope for enough joy to make you kind and appreciative. Maybe we should hope for enough struggle to make us strong and wise. Maybe we should hope for an enough sorrow to make us know we are only human. And above all, maybe we should try to live our lives to the fullest because we are never guaranteed tomorrow.

What does this have to do with comforting you? What does this have to do with making you less angry at the world? None of what I have said eases the pain...only time can do that.

But maybe this will make you smile:

When we were born, we were crying to show we existed, to show we were alive. Everyone around us was smiling, welcoming us to the world. Maybe death is the reverse way. Maybe you or a loved one can be smiling, while everyone around you or your loved one is crying. Smiling on the good times and smiling because you/he/ she are finally at peace and one with God.

Now that is a fairytale I can roll with, thinking only that life was but a dream.

Yoga Fierce! Free Yoga session Thursday!

2010-07-07T18:59:00.000-07:00

For those of you who are interested in trying yoga, that have never done it, there is a free Yoga Class tomorrow, Thursday July 9th, in Cleveland Park of Washington DC! It is from 7:00 pm- 8:00pm!

Yoga makes both the mind and body lighter and happier! Try it for free! It is introductory level!

The address and closest metro is below:

Cleveland Park Club
3433 33rd Place*
Metro: Cleveland Park

Knowing when to let down the ego and apologize!

2010-07-07T15:20:00.000-07:00

It is human nature to hate feeling in the wrong or apologizing when we believe firmly and passionately about something. We allow our egos to get the best of our hearts! I had one of these moments recently.

The younger version of me would say fuck if [ insert person name] is mad, he or she hurt me! But the woman I am becoming is teaching me to let go of some disputes for those that matter to me and who I know care about me. I enjoy them too much as people to ruin the connections I have with these people. I want to grow a strong connection with those that bring positivity in my life, not a weaker one!

Often in the past I would treat people I knew didn't give a flying fuck about me better than those who did care. Illogical! How foolish!

Why worry about opinions that do not matter? Why appreciate people who do not give two cents about me? It was not sensible.

Loving people in my life deserve to be loved. People I know genuinely care for my well being, I was not treating them for their invaluable worth. Crazy!

The woman I am becoming is learning more and more each day to treat those who respect and treat me well with the same level of gratitude.

I recently wrote apology letters to people I care about in my life. I explained my actions and words were not based on them but negativity from my daily external world. I apologized and meant every word of it.

I can not change the past,but I can live in the present and love in the present. My ego is not that important to me to give up those things worth having- real respect, real appreciation, real kindness and real love.

I feel free being honest about how I felt and how I will change to make things better. Thank God for second chances. Thank God for enlightenment.

Letting go of Fears.

2010-07-04T14:34:00.000-07:00

Well, I have not been personally blogging in a long time...maybe more than a year or so! So much has changed, in both good and bad ways! Where there is change, there is always room for growth! Much growth has happened in the past year or so for me!

I am finally not saying, I wish I could do this and that...now I am acting on it! There is so much power when you bring words into reality!

I finally am starting to make progression in creating a website for the people and by the people! I am falling more and more in love with this mission everyday!

If you have not visit my site http://www.fromgirltogirl.com/ , you should definitely check it out! I have been spending quite some time on it and now it is growing into a passion, not just a job for me!

This summer has been amazing to say the least! And I am learning, slowly but surely, that happiness does not always come externally. The greatest amount of happiness comes from within!

For years I use to wonder, what or who could make me happy! How wrong was I to seek happiness from outside sources beyond myself! Although material goods and people outside of myself can enhance my happiness, at the end of the day, I have to learn to be happy with me. I have to learn to love me.

Now, I am not saying I am fully there...but I am learning to truly love myself. Sometimes, the hardest lessons to learn to love ones' self comes from letting go of some of those external sources and attachments.

Recently, I have been letting go of many things and many people. Some things and people I did not want to necessarily let go for fear I could not have better....including the categories of friends, romance, work, and family. But now, I am starting to feel this was the best action for me. Letting go has open so many doors for me! God has made me gain trust in myself more.

I am starting to learn that I will not have worries when I bring my problems to the Lord. Everytime I have been in a bind, some way, some how, a miracle has seen me through it all!

I have been working and living in DC for a little more than two years. I am an intern learning amazing things about politics and policy! So much I did not know! And I am gearing up for my senior year!

I am finally putting my life back in shape in a physical, spiritual and mental sense.

So many decisions to make and so little time! Although stressful, it is, and I hope it continues to be a fabulous adventure.

I am excited to share my journey. I am excited to share my voice!

Until my next blog post, follow me on twitter @Briana_fierce! I post daily here on my life happenings! :-)

Best deals in town: DSW Rewards!

2010-05-03T18:47:00.000-07:00

By Briana Booker

So, this weekend during my birthday outing I became a fan of and rewards member of DSW! I think it is a great deal and I am so using it to my advantage to revamp my shoe wardrobe! There are fabulous benefits!

One, you get a $10 reward certificate for every 1500 points you earn for buying shoes at DSW! You get 10 points per dollar on regular priced items and 5 points on clearance!

1500 into 10 points is $150 dollars. An average pair of shoes cost about 34-55 dollars, so this is not really a bad deal at all,over time! They allow double points during certain events in the year. This allows you to quickly collect rewards!

Plus, they send you a $5 certificate for your birthday! Not to mention, you can receive free shipping on qualifying orders!

It is free to sign up! I am definitely getting me plenty of comfy but stylish Steve Maddens from here! Keep it classy and fierce!

Baby News: Beyonce to be a mom?

2010-03-25T17:28:00.000-07:00

It may or may not be true,but Beyonce and Jay-Z are supposedly expecting their first baby together! Exciting news! The news popped up on Mediatakeout.com , a urban blog.

As usual, Beyonce will be keeping it 100 by continuing to work as she progresses through her pregnancy! We love her work ethic!

Fromgirltogirl wants to congratulate the couple on the wonderful news! We enjoy classy couples that keep their personal lives discreet( best policy ever)!

Until more updates happen, happy Thursday!

-Fromgirltogirl

Must see performance: Andy Suzuki & the Method in DC March 19th!

2010-03-07T15:22:00.000-08:00

Andy Suzuki, acoustic pop singer recently interviewed by Fromgirltogirl will be performing in Washington, Dc Friday March 19th at American University! Suzuki and his band will be opening for Eric Hutchinson, a pop-rock folk singer! Both are natives of the DC area! Below are the time, location of the show! We at Fromgirltogirl hope to see you there! Talk to Suzuki & the Method after their performance!

Location: American University, The Tavern.

Address: 4400 Massachusetts Avenue Northwest, Washington, DC 20016

Date: Friday March 19th!

Time: 8pm -8:30pm.

Ask away! New anonymous questions!

2010-02-04T20:54:00.000-08:00

Dear readers,

Thank you for all your support so far! Fromgirltogirl blog has exciting stories and events coming up in the next few months! But We can be more interesting and informative with your input! Please ask away in our question forum! Ask anything! We will be sure to do our best to answer questions you are curious about or simply need to know! If we can not answer it, then we will surely contact someone who can answer your questions!

Enjoy and submit questions at the below website:

formspring.me

2010-02-04T20:45:00.001-08:00

Ask anything, on any topic! We will research and interview people who know answers to your questions! Ask away! http://formspring.me/Fromgirltogirl

Podcast

2009-12-21T14:05:00.000-08:00

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Breelavie: Diversify yourself!

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crabcake homemade!

2009-08-16T17:04:00.000-07:00

Launching FromGirltoGirl.com

2009-08-03T19:17:00.000-07:00

It's official! New blog has been launched and I expect amazing things out of it! Inshallah, It will be a success! FromGirltoGirl is my new blog( it is on my following list! It is honest, useful and informative talk amongst girls and women alike! There is a person who has been there and done that. Or a person in your shoes, with answers to your personal and simply being out of curiosity questions!

Ask and you will get an answer to better yourself and your life! Enjoy. I am so excited! Many good things will be coming in the next 4 years of the breelavie launching!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

check out the blog! Enjoy!

THE BLOG: http://fromgirltogirldotcom.blogspot.com/

In the Mind of a young girl by Briana Booker

2009-08-01T13:30:00.000-07:00

As I age I realize honesty is the best policy. I understand that you can't make anyone want to do something. You can't make anyone want to change. It has been one of the hardest realizations for me when it comes to the concept of love. I always wanted to be enough,but then I realized I am enough. The problems we all have in relationships come from how we perceive and hope things will be. But to smell and feel the truth takes off so much stressful weight. I wrote to someone I loved the following, hoping it would open both of our eyes. Things didn't start out picture perfect, they might not not end up picture perfect, but it was worth the try.

Inshallah, things will be fine and we can laugh about it later. It is about one of the realest things I wrote. Instead of feeling foolish or a failure, a huge weight has been taken off my chest. I feel free because I have said all the truth I can say. The truth has set me free,and the person can take it for what it is worth. I can only make myself happy and aid to another's happiness. Internal and external demons of the soul and our perception of life I believe prevents happiness to evolve. Happiness...and no worries, a great place I hope exist somewhere beyond this place where I can see it for my own eyes. Until then, my words have finally spoken for its self.

"Okay,so I know this email might be shocking but it is as honest as I will probably get. I know we have been on an off and on casual fuck buddy relationship. You know it. I know it. However, I have notice the no rules ideal concept of the casual relationship has in fact caused all the intensity and drama without any of the relationship rules. From you checking my phone, when it was just my best friend on the other line. Me wondering are you sleeping with more than just me, and you saying it shouldn't matter. Or telling me it is not. But the bigger question seems to revolve around it because of the fact you say you aren't and yet we have never started solid dating. The big puzzle for me is why or why not this has happened. Been trying to get the answer, but you are the only one that knows the true answer. I will not pass judgment but it would take a huge weight off of me feeling not good enough for you off my chest. I rather hear the truth than keep guessing and comparing myself to others.

Me contemplating and internally struggling with the concept that I must not be what you are looking for in a woman. Where did I mess up? why am I enough for sex,but not enough for company? I don't mean serious right now. I just wonder about company and hanging out( which i thought you wanted when I asked you the first night we were alone. I thought you wanted that because you said hanging out, which trigger me to say, okay we can work on having sex. I felt better having sex because I thought I wouldn't be hurt or used).

He is ashamed of me? Does he worry about an age gap? Do I not please him in bed? Why does his words and actions hurt or bother me? He never said he cared. Play cool like you always do Bree. However, It was always hard to play cool with you. I was never sure of limits or boundaries. My care-free experience to sleep with a guy i have been fantasizing sleeping with started to be a nightmare of my own creation.

It was making the no drama ideal experience anything but no drama. Never being able to express anything. Hearing you say it is not that type of relationship when I ask how are you or what are you doing today, want to hangout. Never seeing a friendly text or a surprise phone call to see how I am made me think the excitement was over. He isn't pursuing me, why not?

The rule of no one being able to say " I'm falling in love with you," and no one being able to say " You're hurting me," started to kill me inside. I started to feel ashamed at my actions and words. I was being foolish. Why should I hide how I feel? If I am into him. Why can't i say I am into him?

Instead I make goofy, overly dramatic gestures...like asking for everything I gave you back. Calling you names I don't want to call you. Comparing myself to women you might have been with...wondering why I was not getting your interest enough for you to flirt at me, call me hot. Want to hangout and see me.

You think I am too young. You think being away from me is for the best. You have told me " I am not what you want or need at the moment." I am telling you that I have accepted that there is never a "perfect time" to fall in love. There is never a perfect time to give something a serious go. There can be only a true effort and willingness to give it a chance. Be able to reach for the stars and also ready to fall on your face and dust off, if it must be. I am ready for that.

Unlike hooking up, seeking a long-term connection made me feel trapped.

I felt trapped growing up in high school and my early college years. I have always felt a bit vulnerable letting people in because those same people end up hurting me. But then, I met you and I wanted things to work out. I didn't have loose strings. I was ready for a fresh start. I get you might not have been. I understand you might have felt trapped dating people. See it as a responsibility. I am not asking for wedding bells right now. I am asking for enjoyable sex and good company.

I think right now you could use that type of joy. You work long hours and you seem exhausted. I do not think you need anything too serious at the moment. But I would like to date you( one step at a time). Show you that life can still be enjoyable. I will not crap your style. I just want you to be honest and in return I will be honest to you. Things deserve a chance though, without the suspicion and guessing games. Set small small rules(just as society must) and things will flow better. we have never set any boundaries and the free-all is making things not work too great.

For things to be enjoyable for both of us we both need to be honest and really come clean about what we want. If you want something that can be dating but not to the serious point of commitment, you need to tell me. If you need a in between you need to tell me. If want something serious, you would need to tell me as while. I can not read minds but I am willing to be flexible for things to work with us/ for us.

I understand that you may or may not want the same things I want. And I have prepared to let you go, if our differences are too great. It will never work if we can't balance things out. I feel it is better to be honest with myself and you and find out where things stand than live in casual relationship purgatory. The no rules, no meaning sex gets old. It has gotten old for me. I would like to talk and tell you where I stand. I'd like you to tell me where you stand at this moment in life...your present stature of wants and needs. I think there is no better time than now. The issue has been avoided for a longtime and it is best we just settle things. You can speak first or me. How ever you would like it. We'll go from there."

I feel free of my cage. I feel free to sing. I am not caged,but a free bird at last.

Special Delivery lyrics By Briana Booker

2009-07-22T15:52:00.000-07:00

Special Delivery

Chorus
So let me hit you off with my special delivery.
Pack it. Cock it. Extra clips every time.
I’ll reload and explode so my haters can feel the heat.
So let me break you off with my special delivery.

Verse 1
Daddy always told me to aim for the top.
Mama always told me don’t ever settle for less than my worth.
But yes, I must admit,
It took some mistakes and growing a back-bone, to get to the point where I understood every word of their wisdom.

Verse 2
I’m tried of being on the ground, the ground is boring,
I’m ready to be a sun; the low-life bullshit just ain’t cutting it.
God gave me a gift that I’m ready to unwrap. Take the world for a spin. I’m ready to go up to bat.

Verse 3
I gotta lotta haters. I gotta lotta of fans. Neither stops my hunger, my mission to be the best.
The best at this lyrical Jazz flow,
The realest and illiest bitch on this platform.

Verse 4
21, they tell me the sky is the limit, I believe it. I know I’m my only limit.
I love the assholes and the bitches, God created them to keep up my persistence,
at my dreams,
at my life,
I’ll never stop aiming towards my ambitions.

Verse 5
I laugh at the clowns. I wave at the tricks. I glance at the instigators; I’m ready to get rich.

Verse 6
Shy girl from Bmore, that’s what I use to be.
Now I’m all Breezy baby, you’re guilty pleasure is me.
I’m a gift, I’m a curse to your world.
I’m not just your average. I’m no ordinary girl.

Chorus
So let me hit you off with my special delivery.
Pack it. Cock it. Extra clips every time.
I’ll reload and explode so my haters can feel the heat.
So let me break you off with my special delivery.

So let me break you off with my special delivery.
I’m ready to flow, I’m ready to blow. Feel the rush, when you puff on my special delivery. Start runnin because I’m comin.

sounds so beautiful!

2009-06-25T18:09:00.001-07:00

Michael Jackson Passes away.

2009-06-25T16:27:00.000-07:00

This was so shocking and sad for me to hear. I pray his soul has peace with God. He was sensational. Rest in peace.

I wrote more at my blog:

http://breelavie.today.com/2009/06/25/memory-of-the-king-of-pop-michael-jackson-passes-away/

Ready to settle down...

2009-06-21T17:44:00.000-07:00

I feel more and more each day ready to start up whatever life i have left. Much has changed since I had left high school. I feel as if I am really getting old. I never really thought I was until now when I see people starting families, dying, getting married. Now, I am contemplating the same things. I am ready to share my life with the guy I love. I am not saying marriage yet,but I am getting feelings to make a life with him. This life includes possibly moving in with him in a year or two. It sounds even more appealing when I think of my share of rent with my roomies and seeing that I can pay the same,maybe less, living in a place with him. It would be our home. It is a nice feeling to think about,but it's just a thought. I kinda believe he is starting to think so as well from telling me he liked the paint job in my apt 3 times so far. Asking about my rent share. Saying hmmmm,really when I said i would be living here for 2yrs(my expected graduation).

I feel even when we argue that he is the one I want to spend my days here on earth until I see what's after this and hopefully once again see my brother someday.

I missed him much today. I was just thinking all day. What a life.

I don't know why

2009-06-16T17:00:00.001-07:00

i felt like singing during my lunch break today! Enjoy!

Thoughts from the past:

2009-06-14T16:52:00.000-07:00

So I was skimming old facebook messages, and some of the things I say to people made me think of what's the same and different with me since a year ago. I'd like to share my words.

I was talking about my major to someone and how I want to head to the middle east:
"
for example, the subsahara holds the lives of many people of diverse backgrounds, culture and religions. However, these small groups of corrupt power hold the lives of millions of people. they rather invest in greed and evil then building up a stable economy and tryin to get people to work together,but since history between the countries are filled with mistrust and betrayal the countries don't work together to be educated or a powerful force in the world. and the disputes the world has about things are just so pointless- if you knew the laws and things people fight over you might think it's the dumbest crap that causes the world to be so messed up right now.

I don't know...i just look at life and dissect matters- and make my opinion of it. i have made conclusions on things:
1. money doesn't make happiness,but it keeps you socially comfortable.
2. if everyone were more blunt about things the world would be a better place. disguising the truth just causes problems later. more than with the truth coming out before hand.
3.life is a constant cycle,and a cycle is never ending. which, i know this sounds morbid,but, there's not a real reason to fear death. i'm not going to lie- i fear the pain that comes before death,but not the actual matter of death. i mean, if i go somewhere else...that would be cool, perhaps,but if there was no longer an individual me- i still exist,just in a difference sense. the body is an energy source, just a part of the universe. i think if i ever get to a point of existence where i stop being individually selfish- that's having real peace and i believe grasping the idea of existing and yet not existing is something hard to grasp.

like did you know most things in the universe-this world have a mathematical beauty to them. and supposedly even in chaos there remains order...or it's a theory that there is some universal order to everything. I believe in it.

i don't know- life if crafted or just a random motion of event- is beautiful. and the idea of not knowing if it is or is not a beautiful and intricate mistake makes it even more beautiful.

like we only us but a lil percentage of our brain potential but there's so much more the brain has potential to do. and even with this small amount we use of the brain is amazing and beautiful at what it does. everything is used for a reason, even the slightest hair follicle."

saying my plans for the yr. Some happened and others did not! I did get my apt with four people( strangers rather than friends). I passed spanish but not with flying colors. My brother passed away,but maybe the world has a way to twist things where we all will be happy and together again, someway, somehow.

"i have to get it done,so no biggie with that. i leave next sat to my apartment. and 19th i have to get my class schedule and books. then a few days after school starts.so, my roommate and I will explore i guess because we're new to d.c for the most part.

yeah, i guess it's cool to look back. most of the time typos and grammar mistakes i notice the most haha.

yeah, i regretted deleting my journal when i realized i use to use privacy entries to save things as a backup for my computer files. but oh well.

well,it's cool to start over. well since it was scary it's a good thing you deleted it.

but yeah, it's true...can't change the past so might as well look at the present and future. i think that's why i find moving away possibly a good thing for me. not to run away from troubles...but try to do something different,perhaps better.

Briana Palabon- Booker
August 6 at 5:03pm
I assume like any major city- fast pace, homeless people, grumpy people, then a few nice people in between. I mean the first time i ever went to d.c there was this cool homeless guy my friends and I saw all the time. he could sing really well and we were like you should go on the apollo or something,ha. but yeah, my friend chrissy was giving him money and i was like stop. we gave him food but he didn't want it so obviously he wasn't doing anything useful with it. But i never saw that many homeless before going there. But where i'll be living is like md,but still d.c area,but too far from baltimore to visit casually. i figure after this yr lease is done to get a place with 4 friends more in inner d.c,but i'm not complaining.

as for homeless people in md, they hold funny signs like "I'm not going to lie-All i want is a beer." then it's like the weird one's that like try to scare you at red lights when it's late at night. But then aren't on every corner and stuff.

md just has crabs, beer, deers, boats and random people,ha. and the way baltimore is set up is that really wealthy people live on the habor then it's like low income. then i guess middle class. then the surrounding counties are middle class to high upperclass,but i give it 10 yrs tops that the city is going move really wealthy people back in the city instead of commuting from the suburbs to the city all day, it's going to make it very convienent just like d.c has made it for the really affulent people to have the metro at their grasp and still live comfortable.

actually, i just figure i could make some money while i am young, if i use my head and network with the right people. and it sounded like a good time to get situated down there while still in school-so it's a leap of faith. i figure if the outcome was worth it eventually."

weird how life works....weirder is prob how death works. If life is a bitch, i don't even want to think what's death's name.

My new Blog

2009-06-13T16:02:00.000-07:00

I'm officially a today blogger...please read my articles! It will be on entertainment ranging from books, events, shows, dc , Baltimore and beyond! Enjoy!

http://breelavie.today.com/

p.s- I will be still blogging here on my personal life. :-)

Sweet Revenge By Briana Booker

2009-06-09T15:36:00.000-07:00

(drum beat)

what is there to do?
your lies have caught up with you
Now it's your turn to burn
to suffer, there's no return
(guitar and drum combo)

Take your empty words, I won't be like your other fools,
It's time for something new, now you'll be the fool.

(guitar and drum combbo)

First it was love, now it's time for war,
No more disillusions for me,
you've made me who I am to be,

Hiroshima on your ass,
this is our reality now,
the poisons in my soul, now it's time to satisfy my soul

(drums)

Bridge

You, you must be confused
To do the things you do,
to take a woman like me for grated
to be a blind,deaf, dumb fool for you,

You're always looking to satisfy your pleasure,
Your games have finally caught up to you,
Oh, look in the mirror, your body's coming ill,
you're too shallow to see
that you'll always be an asshole,
that's all you'll ever be.

So swallow your pills, don't stop to think now.

Are you having a good time baby?
But don't worry it won't last,
You're moving too fast,
Your mind is filled up with fear,
whose after you next?

For now just enjoy yourself
Don't stay bottled up,
You seem to need some help,
I'll help you end it all...

Now you know the pain,it's creeping from underneath,
I see no more beauty in your eyes, this is my reality.
Let me help push you to the end,
stick the needle in,
seep the poison through your veins,
now it's time for you to feel the pain

The scars are already on my skin,
Caused by only you.

I lost all my love for you,you have fallen from my grace,
now all I have for you, is only sweet revenge.

Feel the craving in your soul, revenge's hand never gets old,
It's too late for us to return, you still haven't learned!

This is the price payed for revenge, now it's us whom burn.

( and they say when you seek revenge, dig two graves....)

I sing when I'm bored

2009-06-08T20:02:00.000-07:00

Here are songs i felt like singing after a long day at work. Hope you enjoy them!-BB