Brittany Brydahl

What I'm Doing These Days

2012-12-08T10:51:00.001-08:00

I know I've been away for a very long time. I just don't really have much time lately.. not that I don't love you guys. If you want to keep up with me check out my Facebook and my new blog. Links below. I just don't have much use for Blogger these days. Who knows though. Maybe one day I'll come back. So many exciting changes lately! <3 p="p">
www.facebook.com/BrittanyBrydahl
http://brittany.thexception.com/

I Miss Them!!!

2011-06-23T13:35:00.000-07:00

My mom came to visit for like a week, so I got to spend a lot of time with her and my younger siblings. I still can't believe they're gone already. We had a blast and I can't wait to see them again. Funny thing is, I could seriously live with them again and it wouldn't bother me one bit. Even my dad was saying, he wouldn't mind if they were to move in haha. It's funny how people change in time. I had a blast and I really hope I get to see them again soon! Jaedyn and Jazzy are growing up so fast! They are so adorable! (I didn't have a pic of Jae and Jazz together, but this one is one of my favs of Jae and Jordan :P)

I got to spend a lot of quality time with them. It's amazing how quickly kids grow up. Jaedyn's hair was SOOOO long.. I can't believe it grew that fast since I saw him a few months ago. I wish I could have went home with my mom but she didn't have enough room in the car. You should have seen all the stuff packed in her truck haha! It was crazy!!

Here are some photos from their visit:
http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.193229691608.161937.549071608&l=a88180fee0 (The first 6 rows of photos are from this visit)

Congrats Tory!

2011-06-23T13:29:00.000-07:00

I swore I posted this before, but apparently not. I was so excited to be able to attend my brother's High School Graduation earlier this month. I'm so insanely proud of him. He has so much self-control and is just an amazing guy overall. I see him doing big things. Although I don't see him as much as I want to, he's always on my mind and I can't wait to see what he does next. He never ceases to amaze me and make me proud.

Congrats! Welcome to the next Chapter of your life :)

Rat Games/Toys

2011-06-23T13:22:00.000-07:00

I came across this neat site the other day that gave me a lot of fun ideas on how to interact and entertain my rat. She's been loving what I'm doing so much that she doesn't even want to be with me anymore, lol. She's much rather play in her new cardboard houses and crawl through T.P. rolls and snuggle up to the socks I've given her. I miss my baby haha, but it's worth it because she's really enjoying herself.

Tell me what you think: http://www.dapper.com.au/toys.htm#blanket

If you have anymore cool ideas, let me know :)

Life Amazes Me!

2011-06-07T13:01:00.000-07:00

Just when you think things can't get better, it seems that they always do. Or, when things are really bad, there is always a light at the end of the tunnel. I love knowing that life is unexpected and everyday is a surprise. I love the challenge of life and the fact that things are always changing. All the negative things I've gone through and the pain of my past has made me stronger and really means nothing now.

I wish when I was younger I knew that things would get better. It really would have made things much easier on myself. I was always worried about the future and scared of so much. I think if I knew I was going to make it through everything okay, I would have enjoyed everyday much more.

For those of you going through rough times, keep your chin up and remember the light at the end of the tunnel is always there; even if you can't see it right now!

Gambling

2011-05-09T15:58:00.000-07:00

Who here likes to gamble? I tried out a few slot machines last night and they're alright but not something I would probably ever do again. I am, however, a big fan of scratch tickets. I find them really fun. Bingo is my favorite :)

And of course, Chris and I play the lotto here and there. It would be amazing to win!!

League of Legends

2011-04-17T22:47:00.000-07:00

I've been having a blast playing LOL with my fiance. We are kickin' some serious booty! Whoop whoop. Anyway, I'm just really tired and thought I'd post since I haven't been keeping up with it. Sorry! Lol.

If anyone plays, feel free to add me. I'm still a noob, level 5 but my name is abejareina1989

My dad is on YouTube!

2011-03-16T18:01:00.000-07:00

Hehe, I never thought I'd see my dad on YouTube again (other than on my channel). His friends and him were jamming the other day and there's a video of them online. Check it out!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iC2UkXCrr18

House of Night

2011-03-02T12:30:00.000-08:00

I'm finally back to reading the House of Night series. It's taken me so long and I'm still only on book 3, because I'm always getting distracted. I think there are like 8 books in the series, so I have a ways to go still lol. I have so many books that I own that I have yet to read so I'm pretty excited to try to read them all.

What book(s) are you currently reading?

An Amazing Day! :)

2011-03-01T14:46:00.000-08:00

I completed a project yesterday that was worth $55. I can't wait to get paid hehe! I love when I accomplish something that's worth that much money. The great news is, it really didn't take me much time at all. I'm really excited right now. There is so much stuff going on, and I'm really happy. Chris and I got a new TV, which is AMAZING. I love watching movies on it, and hooking up our laptops to it to play games etc. It's fantastic!

Sorry, I'm a bit overly excited at the moment. Chris is doing so amazing at work and I'm doing so amazing with my jobs. Things just keep getting better all the time. I do wish him and I could spend more time together but making money is important so it's fine. When we are together, it's very much worth it, so I can't complain :)

Moving in May is going to be a bit stressful but we are going to be saving a ton of money by getting a cheaper place, so that's going to be wonderful. I can't wait until we buy a house! I know it may not be for a year or so but it's something to look forward to. Houses now are so freakin' cheap! It's amazing!

Happy Valentine's Day

2011-02-14T13:28:00.000-08:00

I hope everyone is having a wonderful Valentine's Day! I sure am :) Even though my fiancé and I are working all day, I'm still enjoying myself. It's not like I don't see him everyday and we always have an awesome time even if we are really busy. What are you up to for Valentine's Day?

http://cache.heraldinteractive.com/blogs/entertainment/the_assistant/wp-content/uploads/2010/02/couple-valentines-day.jpg

If you have a moment, I would really appreciate it if you could check out my latest article. Thanks to everyone who continues to support my writing. It means a lot to me :)

We're Engaged!

2011-02-08T17:15:00.000-08:00

It blows my mind that I'm actually engaged! I'm so excited, happy and proud to be with Chris. He's such an amazing man! We have no idea when we're getting married, but I don't care lol. I'm just so happy to be together and spend the rest of our lives as one :)

I Still Get Butterflies

2011-01-11T18:36:00.000-08:00

It blows my mind that after all this time, I am falling more in love with Chris. How is it that I still get butterflies every single time I see him or think of him. I love reminiscing and looking at our old pictures. Every time I look at our old pictures, I get super excited and pumped up about life and can't wait to see him again. Even if he's only been gone for five minutes lol.

For those of you who have been in relationships for a long time, has this feeling faded for you or has it continued?

I love being in love!

Tough Days...

2010-12-15T14:34:00.000-08:00

This is really embarrassing for me and hard to explain but I'm going to do it because I want anyone out there who has anxiety to know that they are not alone.

It's so extremely hard to be so upset, crying my eyes out and have no "legitimate" reason for it. It's hard when someone asks me what's wrong, or they think they know what's wrong, but no matter how hard I try to explain it, not even I know the answer. I've been in "freak out mode" or whatever you wanna call it for a few days now and it's just like this building pressure inside me. I feel a constant tightness in my stomach, dizzy a lot of the time, like I'm out of my body and like I literally will start crying if someone says the wrong thing to me. What's funny is... the "wrong" thing can be as simple as a joke. Something that I normally find hilarious, I will take personally and start crying my eyes out.

I know there are some thing that have been bothering me but it's nothing too major that for a "normal" person would make them this upset and for this long. My sleep is affected, my appetite is affected. It's like, I just have to sit here and wait for the feeling to pass. It's so annoying because no matter how hard I try to have fun and how much I try to smile and show the "real" me.. this anxiety cloud just takes over and covers up everything that is me.

The littlest things freak me out... having to get up in the morning is too hard.. having to make myself something to eat, having to walk my dog.. things that I know are easy and I know will make me feel better once I do them, I just can't get myself to do them half the time. And then, I start balling my eyes out because I can't do them. When I say I "can't", I know anyone who doesn't have anxiety won't be able to fully understand. But it's like.. I literally can't sometimes. Every day is a constant battle against myself and this anxiety. Sometimes I can handle it fine and other days it's just stronger than others. There doesn't even have to be a reason for it.

I used to be able to handle stress and I think I handled it a lot better than other people, but now.. it's just like any little tiny thing that stresses me out makes me cry and then I'm so exhausted from trying to be "normal" that I have to lay down, cry, take a nap etc.

It's so hard because I want to open up to people, but I'm so terrified that if they knew how much I really go through on a day to day basis (and like I said, sometimes I'm totally fine.. it just hits at the most random times), they wouldn't know what to do. I so badly just want to cry my eyes out to anyone sometimes.. and just get reassurance that it's going to be okay.. but then I'm so freakin' embarrassed that I just end up hiding in my room and crying.

I feel really bad for people around me a lot of the time, because I know that there's no way they can fully understand.. hell, I can't even understand most of the time.

Even writing this is just so exhausting.. and it seems so dumb and like I'm overreacting but that's the thing.. I'm honestly not.

For anyone who has anxiety, I just want you to know that you're not alone and we can get through this together. There's a wonderful site that has helped me TONS, and I'm going to give you guys the link again, in case you don't have it: www.anxietyzone.com.

I know I've asked for help and advice hundreds of times haha, but if you have any ideas on how I can get through this faze, that would be amazing!! I know I can do this.. I know I'm stronger than this anxiety but right now it just seems like it's taking over me. I don't wanna be around anyone because I'm so worried I'm going to freak out and they're not going to know what to do. It's so embarrassing to have the feeling that you could lose control of yourself at any moment. I'm not gunna lie... a lot of the time I feel crazy.. because any "normal" person should be able to control their emotions. Anyways, thanks for listening. Writing this helped!!

My new Job!

2010-10-25T13:43:00.000-07:00

So, I wanted to talk to you guys a little bit about this new job I found. I love it. I am helping sell really neat services like video phones, cell phones, home security, television services and much more. I can't believe I didn't know of this before, because even as someone not working for them, you can save so much money on things you already have or need.

Here's my personal website where you can compare prices and things like that. I'm sure you are going to be happy with what you see

www.brittanybrydahl.acnrep.com

I miss her

2010-10-02T02:25:00.000-07:00

It's so strange how some days it's like my grandma was never on this earth and then there are other days that it hurts so bad.. knowing I can't see her again. I miss her voice, I miss her laugh. I miss how close we were, how she made me feel like everything would be okay. We had so many jokes, and we went through so much together. I feel like she was one of my many angels sent to me that helped me survived the terrible things I faced.

Listen to Avril Lavigne's "Slipped Away" if you are missing someone you love.

AAR Merchandise

2010-09-11T00:30:00.000-07:00

I am so happy to announce my new merchandise at www.cafepress.com/AdviceandRelationships. I had so much fun making it and I'm so excited to know what you guys think. I am such a dork, because I can't wait to buy a Love Yourself hoodie and clock haha. I am looking forward to that. It's not often in your life that you get to make something and then buy it, you know?

Anyway, hope to see you soon!

Talk to you later,
B

Things Are Great

2010-09-10T18:53:00.000-07:00

Today's Chris' dad's birthday so we went and hung out with him for a bit. It was hilarious; I got his dad a Larry The Cable Guy card that says "Get 'er done" when you open it hehe.

Chris and David only work a few hours tonight, which is nice. I can't wait till they get home so we can watch some movies or something. I'm such a dork. I'm all excited today because I FINALLY am going to start receiving my Cosmopolitan magazines in the mail. I have waited way too long to do it lol. I'll be saving 75%, so it's nice. But anyway, I don't want to bore you.

I'm sad, because I've been a writer for Demand Studios for a while now and I got a few articles rejected and now they won't let me work for them anymore. It really bums me out because I think of myself as being a good writer and to be fired like that.. it was upsetting. I submited a ticket and hopefully they let me back on. They are supposed to help you edit your articles, not just reject them so fast.

But anyway, I should get back to work. Hope your day is going well.

TTYL

One Year Anniversary

2010-09-08T23:34:00.000-07:00

Chris and I celebrated our One Year Anniversary on the 1st and OMG did we have an awesome time!! I wanted to share some of our latest pix with you guys! We went to a drive-in movie, which was awesome because I've never been to one before. The next day, we went go-karting, which is when I took that crazy pic below lol. So ya, things are amazing and I love him more and more each day <3

To see more photos of us and other things: http://www.myspace.com/itzwinkie/photos/albums/album/3069654

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Two new sites I signed up on and they look very promising. If you wanna make money online as a writer, check them out :) Leave comments and let others' know your experiences.
https://www.demandstudios.com/
http://paidforumposting.com/
And I'm going to mention again the sites I do make money on already:
http://www.xind.ca/
http://forums.digitalpoint.com/forumdisplay.php?f=102 (the exact section where I find my jobs)

GOOD LUCK!!

P.S. Don't forget to read all the new topics on my website!

New Pets :)

2010-08-19T13:43:00.000-07:00

OMG this is so freaking awesome. We have a ton of pets now!! I got a Chihuahua, Chris got a German Shepherd, Hayley got a Pomeranian, and David got a Bearded Lizard. Our house is like a zoo now and I love it!!! They are all 2 months and boys. Well, the lizard is actually 4 months. I thought I would be afraid of holding a lizard, but I actually love it! We don't have a name for him yet. My dog's name is Pickle, Chris' is Jax, Hayley's is Titan.

Here are some pix.. I don't have pix yet so I found some on Google that look close:

My dog (except mine is less furry)

Chris' (except this one is smaller)

Hayley's (Her dog is fluffier though)

David's lizard (this looks exactly like him lol)

Today Rocks!

2010-08-11T15:06:00.000-07:00

Okay, so we're all settled into our new apartment and we got Comcast internet and cable today. I love it! I've never been happier, and I'm loving this place! I never want to leave. I really hope all of us can start making more money so we don't have to ever move out.. unless we want a three bedroom that is lol

Complicated

2010-08-04T14:29:00.000-07:00

Why does life have to get so complicated. I can honestly say that I'm happier than I've ever been in my life and it's upsetting to know that those around me, those that I love, aren't as happy as I am. I hate how people don't accept what I do for a living, they don't seem to understand that I need to promote myself in order to go somewhere. I don't want to be famous or anything crazy like that, but I want to be well-known. Even if only a few hundred people know who I am and support my work, that's fine with me.

Life only gets complicated when people don't communicate. I can't stand when people don't take the time to explain how they're feeling. Don't you hate it when someone's mad at you but they won't tell you what you did to upset them? Those are the things I can't stand.

Anyways.. I dunno what I'm trying to say exactly. I just feel confused because I'm doing what makes me happy but others don't seem to get it.... Read More

Purchase my stories!

2010-08-03T21:35:00.000-07:00

I am VERY excited to announce that in the very near future, you will be able to purchase my stories. I would say books, but I'm going to start small for now and see how you guys like them. If you have any suggestions as far as topics, price, length etc, let me know.

I want to make things affordable for you guys to enjoy :)

Tell your friends! Learn More

Anxiety is a Strength, not a Weakness

2010-08-03T09:13:00.000-07:00

I think strength can be found in anything. Anxiety may seem like a weakness at first glance, but really it is a strength. Anxiety is what taught me that it's alright to be different. Anxiety allows me to write, to sing, and has taught me all these fabulous outlets. Without anxiety life would be boring. Without anxiety, I wouldn't be able to relate to and help so many people in my life.

I wouldn't trade my anxiety for anything!

Up Late Again

2010-07-28T00:32:00.000-07:00

I'm going pretty crazy with the reading lately. Yesterday I finished a whole book. This month I have read:
The Almost Moon and Lucky by Alice Sebold, Speak (which had a movie based on it, starring Kristen Stewart), and now I'm working on reading The Vampire Diaries series. I'm not a huge vampire fan or anything, but I figure since I saw a few episodes of the TV show and it seemed pretty cool, I'll give it a try. I have about about 20 books lately, and I'm making really good use out of them so far :) The more I read, the more busy my life feels and the more I feel that I'm accomplishing something, it's nice. I also feel a lot more creative and I think if I continue reading this much, writing a book is going to be so easy for me. I get lost in these books, and the world becomes real. I love how books do what a movie can't, they make you picture things for yourself, guess what people look like etc. It's really interesting. I can read for hours and not even realize how long it's been. It's a really great feeling. I keep thinking, if I'm ever so old that I can't do much of anything, I'll at least have to read so my life will seem more interesting!

Chris is passed out and I really should be too. I'm always the last person to wake up in the morning and the last person to go to bed at night, it's always been that way. I remember always hating that when I was a kid. I don't like being alone and when I'm the only person awake, I feel alone. I remember crying (sometimes I still do it) because everyone was sleeping. I guess I felt unsafe or something; like something bad was going to happen but no one would notice but me. I'm not sure exactly. It's just another one of my childhood fears I guess.

So anyway, I'm not too sure what to say lol. I'm just really inspired and wish that sleeping wasn't required lol. I would love to just read and write for days at a time.. maybe that makes me a real artist? LOL. Either that or crazy, right?! haha.

My mom is talking about visiting, and I don't know if I want to see her. Last time I saw her, things didn't exactly go as planned. I ended up freaking out and making a huge mess of her house because she was drunk in front of my younger siblings, after their dad clearly told her she couldn't do that. I'm scared to see her, because she has this strange power over me, and I hate to admit it, but it's true. She makes me feel like a little child just by looking me in the eyes. I can't stand up to her. Okay, I should rephrase that; I choose not to stand up to her because I'm too scared. Scared of what? I'm not sure.

Sometimes I feel like it would be good for me to go back to therapy, not like I'm unhappy or anything, but just because it would be nice to have someone sit there and listen to all of this. I guess that's why I'm writing this.. it's like free therapy! :)

Well, Imma try to sleep or maybe read more.. who knows.

Later!