Building my future

Loosing track

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 04:39:00 +0000

Ok, So I have just read back to a few posts and see that it may appear I am loosing track of where I began? Well, from my perspective, I am not. I am still on course and reving ahead. I am still educating myself on what my future will bring and what I can bring to my future.

I still have the 2 businesses, although 1 of them I am starting to shift back a few gears as I am learning new things that I don't like about it:o) But we live and learn no? That's what my mission is all about, and that is what the purpose of this blog is about. To report what I am doing, try and track progress and sift through the good, the bad, the ugly and the totally attractive:o)

My main mission in life still remains to be financially free, and this is still my major goal. Just how and when I get there may change along the way. I am still and am always looking for new things to get involved inand am quite happy to sit and do my research and learn as I go. I never said I was in this for the short term.

I have given myself until I am 45 which is a huge 13 years away. Have I done this to cover my arse and not look stupid? NO I have done this because is suits us to give a wide berth of our time frame. Hey look if we manage to do this in 2 years then major BONUS....Hallllooooo.

I have also realised and still realising a few things along the way about friendship. I think I need to stop giving this site address to people I know, cause one day I'll post something about someone and get myself into heaps of poo.

I have heaps of opinions brewing inside, and I am gonna have to keep on top of posting them. I have been researching programs online, but have been failing to add them in here. So I think I may start a new blog and use for program discussion?

Who knows what I'll do? and so what? Am I here to please you? NO. But I am very trying :o)

Wooohooooo

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 02 Apr 2007 00:06:00 +0000

Well, a quick update on my last post. All went well. We can begin our journey to financial freedom. WooHoo.

However......yeah.......we are gonna wait 12 months. Currently our interest rate is the best we will get for a long while. So we have planned, re budgeted and decided to offset everything against our mortgage and get as much as we can paid into it so in 12 omths we will be able to either get 2 properties or get something that is worth while.

So the outcome is that we can do it, which is why we went in the first place. great news for us.

I have some other interesting stuff to post about online investments, so
i'll get to it as soon as I have the time.

Haven't forgotten about the secret either. Time keeps running away.....

Too Much going on?

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 26 Mar 2007 00:58:00 +0000

Well, since my last post I have found the secret. Altho haven't watched it yet, but I have my copy here waiting. I haven't forgotton, after I watch it I will post my opinion ( I am sure I'll have many:o)

So I am posting today, cause today my partner and I are taking the first major steps towards our long term goal. We are off to see the wizzard - our mortgage broker - to see where we stand financially to starting our property portfolio. Baby steps all the way.

We have been searching for a property we believ is within our means that will create a positive cashflow. We think we found 3 different properties over the weekend. All we need to do is re asess the number crunchng today and make a decission.

The decission is not whether to go ahead or not - we know we will as it's our dream- but mainly to asess whether we want to start now, or wait 12 months before we take the plunge. Once you make the decission to become an investor, you're 50% there already.

For us, we have the cash for the despoit etc ( luckier than most) we have our own home already. What we needed to do is re budget. Now if we are smart and choose to wait 12 months, the purpose will be to reduce our current mortgage and invest the cash we have to produce more. Hence in 12 months time we will be in an even better position to begin. Personally, I think if we wait we will be better off in the long run. BUT we will wait and see.

It's funny you know, when you decide to begin something, whatever it is on a money making journey, people come out of the woodwork with all kinds of advice. I mean lucky for us, lots of our friends are on pretty much the same journey - that is to be financially free - Which means our friends know where we are goin and are on our wavelength. Which is good.

Now we have 2 couples we are friendly with. One couple have begun their property portfolio, and the other have not. Although we are ALL on the same path, we all have different opinions on how to get there.

So who do you listen to? The couple who are on their way offer advice with knowledge and experience. They have tried and tested a few things and from experience have a lot of answers to our questions. None is biased. It's always ended with.... whatever works for you.

Now couple no#2 have all the advice in the world about what they know, and what is best for them, what they are doing. Which is great, cause we listen and make our own assements. I find it hard to discuss things with couple number 2. Their way is the best way. Now don't get me wrong they know a world of information and they are quite right on alot of things. But what I don't like or understand is how people tell you what is right for you. I say something that we are doing and the response is that's wrong. What you need to be doing is.........

how the bloody hell to you know what is right for us? I am not about to stand financially naked in fornt of my friends so they can asess our situation. At the end of the day couple no#1 are more valuable cause they actually teach. They talk about their own experience and let you decide thereafter. Whereas couple no#2 tell us what we are doing is wrong. and try to correct us????

What is with that? man! I like both couples just as much. So the best thing I do, is listen ( argue a little) and then walk away, do my research and asess what will work for us.

I believe there is a boarder line with friends. As soon as you start opening up financially everyone knows what you have and tries to tell you what to do with it.

So I recommend.....
Listen to everyone.
Only give away information you want them to know.
Never directly tell you're friends how much money you have.
( you can hint around the subject and watch for facial reactions - thats fun)
Never give your opinion on their financial status if they open up to you. Stay neutral.
Share your success, but not the extent that you make your friends envias.
Offer information and help, only when asked.

Friends are important in all walks of life. We have a large circle of friends. It's funny, there are certain couples we would never entertain at the same time cause it would be sure to end in bloodshed. This is why I say stay neutral.

Very important.

So come back soon if you want to read about our trip to see the wizard :o)

A little Slow?

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 19 Mar 2007 04:00:00 +0000

Now, Forgive as I am a little slow at somethings. I have heard about 'The Law of Attraction'. I have come across 'The Secret' websites. I have read reviews from multiple companies etc that endorse This 'Secret'.

A friend of mine lent me an audio of a book called 'The Science of Getting Rich'. Now I often listen to audios while I am driving (I find it's the best place where I don't get inturupted) So I popped this one in........What a great concept, I was actually listening to this disc and enjoying it. ( always a good thing to enjoy what you listen to no? hmmm :o)

BUT. I tell you, after about 10 mins I had to turn the thing off. Where on earth do they find these people who read audio books? Honestly, I think if I had to listen to this women for another milli second, she was going out the window and into someones garden probably. Poor lady.

So I haven't actually got around to buying the book (it will be an addition to my list).

Well today, my daughter is at day care so it's a me and business day. With the exception. If and only IF Oprah has a worthy show, I may stop for an hour to watch. So I am looking through the TV guide and see the caption..'Find out the Secret' WAYHAY. This is one for watching.

So I watched and became intregued. Now I am on a mission tofind The Secret. The concept is certainly inspiring. It's all about energy and what you put into the universe, basically, rebounds back at you. Right now I am interested in watching the DVD to see if i come out trumps.

The first thing I did was come straight here. I cannot believe I have bypassed this so many times? So I am off to find me a copy of the Secret. I will watch it and get back to you.

If you too want to know a little more, go to the link in the title of this post.

I'll be back................

I forgot to say....

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 03:54:00 +0000

I meant to say before that when I say I am on a journey, I don't mean a 2 week vacation. I have a long term plan. I recommend to anyone reading this who is interested in securing their future, don't think quick. There is no such thing as get rich quick. Start to research what others have and are doing. It will take me at least 5 years to build the foundation I need to progress towards my dreams and goals. (read previous post)

So for me 5 years isn't a long time. I am 32 years old and by the time I am 40 I will have enough wealth to retire and begin planning for my kids future. 40 is just the beginning for me. How old will you be?

I don't know how many times I have to tell people to start now. It's not too late for anyone.
Are one of these peopel who say money doesn't matter or i'll never be rich? If you are.......it's these words that are you're reasons.

Everyone has dreams. Do you dream of what you would do if you won the lottery? Of course you do and do know what? These are your financial dreams. NOT JUST LOTTERY DREAMS. They are possible, it just depends if you are wiling to re-train your brain and your way of thinking in order to make your dreams your reality.

How much do you want it?

Investing in the future

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 13 Mar 2007 03:33:00 +0000

Well, today I made my first (of many) payment towards securing my future. If you didn't know....that's why I am here. I am posting this for myself and anyone who is interested in my personal journey.

So back to the payment. I will not disclose any information on the comapny I have funded money in, until I know for sure I can feel comfortable in my recommendations. I only say this as is it is an online funding company and it is a risk. But if you're a savvy investor then you'll know risks are inevitable :o)

I decided to make this payment as it appears to be a great opportunity. I have researched the company in many ways I know available on the net and have not found anything negative. So I took the plunge.

My reason for sharing this with you is becuase it's now the 3rd step I have taken towards becoming wealthy. Now I don't consider wealth to be taken lightly. I use the word wealthy because it has a different value to rich. We all say we want to be rich. But wouldn't you rather be wealthy?

Being rich can mean you have loads of cash and can aford to spend as much as you want. How long will it last?

Being wealthy in my eyes, means an ongoing income of cash that I can spend on whatever I want. Being wealthy means I can afford to re invest my money and live from the earnings without touching the initial principal. The principal will continue to create wealth for me as an income.

My long term goal is to build enough wealth to begin investing in property. My short term goal is to build enough wealth to get rid of my debts. Firstly, to pay off my credit cards. I am sure there are many of you out there with the same goal.

So what I have lerned is that in order to reach my goal, I need to build a foundation of funds. This where I made the choice to start small. When I say a foundation I am talking about an intial amount that I will have forever.

Look at it this way:
The other day I was playing with my daughter ( 2yrs) we were building a tower of blocks. The tower was getting taller and taller, swaying to the left and right ( great stuff:o) Until it falls down.
Now I noticed something when the tower fell.... The very first block was still in it's place.

We repeated this over and over ( as it's great entertainment for any 2 yr old) Each time we played the same thing happened. The very first block stayed in place.

This is when it clicked. (it always does sooner or later) In one of Roberts books he talks about having a foundation. Referring to actual buildings as an example. He say's that if you want to build a sky scraper you wouldn't start with a residential property foundation cause it will not last in the long run. Eventually the building will fall and you will loose.

So you need to have the right foundation to begin with.

In my reference to the bulding blocks, the first block that stays in place, is my financial foundation. Once I have built this foundation I will start to build on to it. So this payment or funding for the chosen company is the start of my foundation.

Keep posted as I will put a referal link for thecompany I have chosen on here soon. I can guarentee that you will agree it is a fantastic opportunity for creating wealth by starting small.

Learning again

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Sat, 03 Mar 2007 21:32:00 +0000

Well I would like to go back a couple of spaces. As I have said before I am educating myself a little more each day. My self education began with the reading of one of the best selling authors in business and finance, Robert Kiyosaki.

Rich dad, Poor dad. Did you read it yet? Please get this book and give it a read if you haven't. You will not believe how different your views on life and money will change. If you have tried to read it and not found much interest in it, all I can say is you are not ready YET.

In this book Robert actually puts a few REAL questions in your head. You know... the answers to these questions are in your head, whether you have read the book or not. You just don't know the answers yet, cause you brain hasn't been prompted.

One of Roberts views: (in MY words)

When you were young (or perhaps you still are?) Do you remember your parents saying, 'you need to go to school to get good grades so you can get a good job and have all that you want?

I remember my parents saying this to me. In fact I remember my teachers, career advisers, uncles, aunties and just about anyone who had an opinion on my future said these words.
Do you know WHY they said these words? basically cause they don't know any different.

Anyone who has spoken these words to you did this: Went to school, got good grades and got a job and probably now have the Australian/English or American (Worldwide) dream - House car, kids etc.

What if someone came along and told you that the reason this saying is the way it's done is because the government want it that way? Think about it. Teachers are only taught to teach what they themselves were taught. Does that make sense?

The government don't teach ANYONE about money cause if we all knew how to create more wealth than the average person, we would know more than them. We would all be rich and economy would be a mess.

So why don't the government encourage us to learn more about money???? Ask yourself this question and see what answers you can come up with.

Life and finances are a little like a domino effect. You know what I mean?

Well imagine you have thousands of domino's lined up for a rally - you know the ones you see for Guinness world records etc?

You hit the first domino, the first hits the second and second hits the third etc so on and so forth. This is life as the government has taught it. The first domino is your earliest ancestor since taxes were put in place. All the following domino's are your family line, your family tree.

Now see it as BIGGER. It is more than your family tree it is the entire world. We all follow the 'hit' from the first domino, cause that's all we know.

You know every now and then 1 domino slips out of line, but just enough to keep the rally going.
This domino is the person that tries to break the rally. This is the person that creates their own wealth and financial security. BUT, you will notice it's only every now and then that a domino falls out of place.

Wouldn't you rather be the one that falls out of place? The one that learns about money and secures their own future?

Another way of looking at stereo typical living, is the ads you see on TV. You know where everyone is out mowing their lawns at the same time every Sunday. Then they all stop and stare cause 1 person down the street isn't mowing their lawn.

It's an idealism that we are taught to know. It's a way of life that is implanted in us from the day we are born. And the only way it's going to change is for YOU to change with it.

There may be risks and fear involved in changing this life cycle. But if yo don't face these fears and take risks, you will never get to the top.

I don't know what else to say, I am trying to make people realise something here.

I will proceed and I will continue to post until someone reads this and decides to listen. I want all to understand one thing. I am not into get rich quick schemes. I am into learning and passing on information to those who are willing to be taught.

Please WAKE UP.

Not Selling...

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Wed, 28 Feb 2007 21:44:00 +0000

OK I know in my last post I said I was going to reveal more about this busines number 2. Well After lying in bed last night reflecting on o few things, I decided it might be a bad decission.

I didn't create this blog to turn it into a sales page. So the last thing I want to do to people reading this is put them off by trying to upsell in every post I write.

This blog is for me. To track my prgress towards my goals and tell others how and why I am doing this. So for now I am going to do just that. I am going to put a little more into my businesses and then I will disclose some more information!! You may think this is being cagey? Well it's not. It's to protect you and me.

Once I am more savvy in there ares I need to be then I can discuss my progress, what I have been doing to get there.

That way I am sticking to my goals of helping people instead of turning into the dreadaed sales person that noone wants to talk to cause all they do is try and sell you something

Thats NOT me.

So now I have 2 businesses

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Wed, 28 Feb 2007 05:46:00 +0000

It might seem I am jumping all over the place here..... you're right. This is about business number 2

Ok. So if you have read through my posts, you will have read about 'that' friend who was hounding us to go and see this presentation for this 'thing' he is involved in? So a quick re cap. He gave us a dem o presentation at his house as practice for himself (of course with the alteriative motive of enrolling us.) But hey at the end of the day he is a friend so we go with the flow.

Anyway, after walking away from that presentation I told you how I finally understood what it was about. NOT THE PRODUCT. But the way it worked.

I can honestly say, I think the ONLY reason I finally understood the methods to his maddness was due the valuable reading I have done. Since I started reading (Robert Kiyosaki) I really have changed my ways and the way I think. It's not like brain washing, it just opens up areas of the brain you never realised you had. So in a manner of speaking, you brain already knows everything. You just need something to prompt this information to come forward and be used in every day life of things.

Don't get me wrong I am not a different person today, I just think differently.

Anyway back to the point.

So lat night the same friend took me to a seminar presentation, the same as he showed us at his house. Only this time it was presented by a guy who has been in 'this' business for years and travels the country to tell everyone. NOW I was quite contented at the number of people there.
It made me feel good about being there myself.

As the presentation begins....I am listening to Trevor. The first thing he talks about is how the company has been endorsed by Mr Kiyosaki himself. This is fantastic news, 'cause if Robert has a positive feeling about this business then I am half way there already :o)

Tell me: How can the best selling author's (in business and finance teachings) judgment be off??????? READ HIS BOOKS then get back to me.

So anyway this presenter 'Trevor' didn't really do it for me. BUT, he didn't have to. Because I understand how the company works, his personality didn't matter.

I don't believe he could sell ice to an eskimo. Although he was funny I give him that. I guess if all you do is travel and do the same talk every 2 days or so, you might be the same (unless you're a proffessional)

So at the end of the 'spiel' I sat and talked with my buddy and scoured the room to see what everyones reaction is. WOW. 3 people are signing up. I guess they are good friends with Robert too :o)

Between you and me, I had already decided to sign up and hand over some cash before I went. But wanted to here everything again!

My buddy ( let's say his name is Jon) brought his neighbours with him too. We all had a joke at the beginning of the night about the fact we were only there to shut Jon up. hehehe. great friends we are huh?

So as it happens they signed up too. So 5 people signed up to be a part of this business.
I say business, cause thats what you CAN make it. You don't have to do anything really. There are certain brands you purchase and recieve discounts on for being a part/ member of the 'cult'
but you don't HAVE to sell it to people if you don't want to.

I am going to tell you what we do in my next post. If you would like to hear more cause you are genuinely interested you can email me here:

cwmr23@optusnet.com.au

If anyone actually reads this......wait for the next post.

My Buisness

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 27 Feb 2007 01:00:00 +0000

Well I have been working on my 'new' business for about a week now! I have enrolled 9 people under me and still growing!

Now I have seen many MLM businesses and decided against them as they didn't really suit my needs. So when I signed up for this one, I remained skeptical. (still am a little) So positively moving forward, I am gonna give it a go. It's great to think that in a week I can sign up the average of 1.3 people a day! But I ask how long will this last? I answer to myself, as long as I keep going.

Now MLM seems like blasfamy on the internet. People back away before even researching the business offers. Well news for everyone. This isn't actually MLM. It's what we call MRM.

Multi Referal Marketing. We offer a fre service to anyone building an online business and a bricks and mortor business for that matter.

Anyone is invited to join as free member to advertise their business or themselves. A bit of both really. We offer a meeting people service for anyone just wanted to connect with other people. Also we have job communities for people look to employ or be employed.

The opportunities are endless really. If you want to build a business out of it you can for as little as $9.99 a month. Which if you see it as I do, is about 5 months worth of business that you have spent on buying 'how to' information from other gurus who have all the answers.

So wish me luck as I continue on my journey. I am giving it 5 months and then will reasess where it's taking me, or where I am taking IT.

I'll keep you posted.

Books I am reading or have read.

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 04:34:00 +0000

Ok I have read some really fantastic books lately and I would like to list them for you as promised.

Some people call them self help books - yes you might view them as that. Persoanlly I don't. I read people who are willing to teach and pass on information to those who need to be taught.

So here they are:

Currently reading - (2)

"Why We Want You To Be Rich"
Robert Kiyosaki and Donald Trump

"What I Didn't Learn at School But Wish I Had"
Jamie McIntyre

Previously read-

"Rich Dad, Poor Dad"
Robert Kiyosaki

Richard Branson - Biography

"Money, Markets and Derivatives"

On the shelf - To be read!

"How To Make Money Out of Thin Air"
Brian Sher

"Rich Kid, Smart Kid"
Robert Kiyosaki

"CashFlow Quadrant" - Next on my lsit to read.
Robert Kiyosaki

If you haven't read Rich Dad Poor dad, I strongly recommend you do. This book is a fantastic starter for anyone who wants to be rich! Robert doesn't tell you any secrets or offer businesses for you to try, he leves it up to you to decide where you can take your life from here on.

It's a really big eye opener and not full of jargon that 'regular people can't understand.

If you read this book I promise you, you'll be out looking for his next one!!!

Believe it or not, I had this book in my posession for about 2 years. A friend gave it to me and I put it in my cupboard and forgot about it. It wasn't unti I stopped working and started to ask myself all these questions about life and money blah blah blah, that I thought i'd give it ago.

What a wasted 2 years that was.

The only way is up

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 26 Feb 2007 04:29:00 +0000

I am eally getting the hang of this 'new business'. I've only been involved for about a week and already have some clients signed up.

I'm not going to say it's easy cause it's NOT. Far from it! But I think that was always the problem. I wanted it to just happen and see millions of dollars in my bank account. Well I matured in the spate of about 6 months.

Is it maturing or learning? I think one comes with the other and vice versa. It's hard because I am trying t learn about investing and finances aswell as getting this business up and running crawling for now)
But I will proceed. At 32 years old I think I have about 5 years to perect everything. What I will build in those 5 years is knowledge and wealth. I am on my journey. Are you on yours?

ebaby

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Sat, 24 Feb 2007 03:34:00 +0000

OK! So I think you get the whole picture about me investing in me.

I'll let you know my online pressence as ebaby I say ebaby because thats exactly what I am. I am taking baby steps to the future.

I am constantly creating links for you all to check out. I think you'll find them all interesting and helpful ...that is IF you are on my wavelength.

If you are looking for a new business venture or simply looking to meet people on an international level, then I think you'll find 'my networking link' really beneficial.

I discovered this site, well, in turth someone from the site discovered me. I cannot believe how many people I have met. All I did is write a quick profile and posted it and now I am connected with over 200,000 people who think like I do.

It is totally free to join. There are thousands of people here who are ready to meet people like us. If you're from Australia then I definately recommend signing up. This is going to be really big in AUS.

Once you have been and had a look around I am sure you'll agree with me.

There are also thre different upgrade options for you. Depending on where you want to go. You can even use it as a business if thats what you are after.

Either way go and have a look now. Don't forget to check back with me for more updates.

My Niche...me

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 05:01:00 +0000

With this sudden realisation of what the hype was all about, I decided to take baby steps towards my future.

I began by reading many books ( I will post links to these later). Absorbing information. Researching the authors and find out as much as I could about their knowledge.

This is why my niche is me. I decided to invest in myself. Not financially but with education. I began my path to a wole new world of information. Stuff I wouldn't even give a first glance to, let alone a second.

I have begun my journey towards my future. In order for me to invest in my future, I need to invest in me first.

My future of financial independence is in my hands. Not yours, not my partners ( altho he is part of the equasion) definately not my governments. NOPE.

It's up to me and me alone. This suits me fine.

baby steps

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 04:54:00 +0000

I decided to have a break for a few weeks. In that time a good friend of mine invited us round for a demo presentation of a business he has tapped into. First eaction was my god. WHAT NOW. This guy has been hounded us on a limited effort ( as not to p*** us off I think) for a while now about signing up for this scheme. Anyway we went we saw and walked away :o)

But this time after months of listening to our friend, Something clicked in what he was selling. It wasn't the product but the idea of the scheme. It is a business that worked the same as any online, with downlines and profit cheques and all the wonderful tools you need to be a millionaire.

Finally I walked away smiling, knowing that I had new knowledge and direction in where I was headed.

That day I decided what my niche would be.

MY NICHE IS ME ( for now)

The Overload

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 04:46:00 +0000

As I was saying I now suffered a new type of symptom. BRAIN OVERLOAD. if you have been in my shoes at any one time in your life you'll understand what I am talking about. I just went out and rushed into it without stopping for a breath.
That's why I ended up with the overload of information.

I had totally confused myself in which direction I was headed and what exactly it was I wanted to do. Of course making money was still at the top of the list.....but not happening.

However, from all the information I had absorbed over those couple of months, I did find a creative side of ME. A side to me which I had never tapped into. Like a niche of myself.

So now as I type this, I am full of inspirational ideas. Yes. They're just ideas. But transformable.

So read on if you want to know what step I took next.......

My Brain.....

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Tue, 20 Feb 2007 04:26:00 +0000

So realising that my brain was being underworked and definately no pay comming in. I decided to search for the ultimate business that would ern me millions. Oh yes. It's that easy....NOT.

So I searched for an online business to solve my problems. I started a website called ebaby2work. That's me I am an 'e' baby. new to this wonderful world :o)

I reckon, you name it, I've been there and got a ew T-shirts. I experimented with the whole affliate programs and referals. Which I have now learnt, seems to be the way for mosy newbies go. My aim was to build a website for mums looking for the ultimate business. Well it's easy to sell anything. you can sell ice to the eskimos if you know how. But how do you sell something that you are not successful with yourself? Hmmmm.

I have paid for get rich quick schemes and read way too much information from different people.
So then I faced a whole new dilema.

BRAIN OVERLOAD.

What's next?

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 05:12:00 +0000

So there I was a stay at home mum. What the?........
i didn't know what had hit me. I planned out days for Gracie with activities and fun. After a couple of weeks a low set in. I love my new life. I love spending time with my family, preparing dinner for Mike, having a clean house should rank somewhere high on list too. just generally having time to do the things I couldn't be bothered to do when I was working and balancing full time and then some.
So what was wrong with me? Why was I feeling so low? Yes I missed the girls at work and I missed being there and communicating with my clients (not MY clients anymore) but that wasn't the problem.
It was My BRAIN. I had absolutely no mentally stimulating adult stuff going on up there.

What the past had................

noreply@blogger.com (e-Baby) — Mon, 19 Feb 2007 03:25:00 +0000

Hi
I have decided to create this blog in the hope of finding and helping people like me. So I'll give you a brief overview of how and why I came to this point in my life.

So 3.5 months ago I was working fulltime (salaried Sucker) for an international hotel company. I had been with the comapny for 8 years, working as conference coordinator. I loved my job.
I had perfected the balance between family and work (or so I thought ;o)

The pressure was building both at home and at work. My partner, Mike and I worked different shifts to enable us to care for our daughter Gracie at minimum costs, as I am sure many people are in the same boat.
So there I was 9-5 and Mike was 2-11pm. My parents are close by and helped out with childcare when Gracie wasn't at day care.
After working for 18months straight after Gracie was born, we decided to take a well earned break. We went overseas to see family and friends for 6weeks. God we needed that break.

That break was a huge eyeopener for us. Mike was desperate to get out of the kitchen as a Chef and get into a 9-5 normality ( what is normal these days???) So when we returned he quit his job and joined the agencies.

As for me I went back to work as normal. Things were strange after a fantastic holiday. My boss was a bit wierd with me and I sensed something needed to be said. So then it came. The Speach. I was told how whilst I was away he noticed a real difference with my replacement cover starting earlier and working later. He continued to tell me how I need to work more hours and entertain potential clients for dinners etc. While I understood where he was comming from, I was angry cause not only had I been there for so long, worked over 45hrs on salary for 38hrs, But I had always levelled with him about the hours I could work. I was busting it big time to keep my family balance working. The balance was slipping as it was and my work was outweighing my home life.

I felt the pressure was brewing again. I couldn't handle it. Don't get me wrong, I handle pressure very well. In my job you have to work well under pressure as you do in most. What I couldn't handle was the fact it felt like my boss was saying if you don't do this something will be done???? I can feel the anger now. Only joking.

So I made a very emotional charged decission. I decided to leave my job that I had excelled at for 8 years and become a mum.

To this day I cannot for the life of me understand why I didn't do it sooner. It has been the best decission I have ever made. My life is nearly in balance again.

Instead of seeing my daughters life flash before my eyes I am participating in it. What on earth was I thinking? I actually thought my job was THAT important. I think I thought my job wouldn't be a job without me.

Now I am on my way to discovering new ventures, a new mind set and a wonderful family life;o)

So this is my past....where does the future take me???