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of An odd pursuit

2012-01-20T12:33:00.000-08:00

I do not know where do i start, I want my opening line to be....

" It is really an impossible task to understand self fully"....

And yes of-course this is what i want my opening line to be and not what it should be.

But the very next moment i am compelled to think again and reflect on the reality of the above said and this time i want to make a different statement.

"It is a really hard or may be an impossible task to know the self completely if you are not equipped with the instrument of truth, if you refuse to face and confront even a single minutest detail about yourself ,be it an obscene one or a good one."

But again i am not sure of this statement either.

Then again i flounder a bit and want to change my statement ..

"Sometimes we may be confronting and upfront about all that exists within us. But there is a chance of not having full knowledge. There is a chance of misplaced foundations which served as a ground to our whole idea of self. If the underlying assumptions which were considered as absolutes are not actually absolutes, of which there is a fair chance, then the model of self derived from the erroneous assumptions will definitely fall flat.Such knowledge therefore will not reveal to us the nature of self completely because the erroneous assumptions cant facilitate it against all twists and all odds."

So I am forced to think again and this thought just presses itself upon me "How can we build castles in the air? How can we know self absolutely and completely without knowing The Absolutes? Without knowing the standards on which we have to rate ourselves, how can we rate ourselves?

All in all i end up with one fact that i want an absolute answer for what absolutes are....

WISHES n blah blah ...................

2012-01-06T12:51:00.000-08:00

Hello my precious blogger friends!!

and a very very happy new year to all of you :)

may the year ahead be a blissful one for you and bring a lot of nice surprises for you!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

Do you believe in signs?

ummm.... yeah may be may be not!! actually i wonder whether i should or not!! Should I? what do u say?

I think yes! Its all connected. Every happening will lead to another. Every thing will unfold at their own time but if u believe you can sense the signs.Even the smallest event of your life is directed in a way that if u take the right learning from it, it will lead you to another step up towards the destiny.But the hardest thing is to believe.

Do you really think so? I think believing is the simplest thing to do. Isn't it just similar to ignorance where you shut your eyes and accept anything anyways. And because its the simplest thing to do perhaps that's why it becomes the most difficult to do!!

To believe is to learn, to grow, to rise.

To believe is to surrender your mind to whim. Its like seeking some guidance from outside always.

To believe is to trust yourself the most and cut the connections with the outsiders dictating right and wrong.

To believe is to shut your eyes

To believe is to shut your eyes to see.

Title less :)

2011-12-11T20:40:00.000-08:00

its just a race!!

a race that never ends,

racers set out

looking forward

to the end of it

with a victory

but before reaching

the end

there is another race lined up

they keep running

and soon

the race becomes their drug

racers race

sometimes

changing their pace

and sometimes

changing their directions

racers race

sometimes

taking the shortcuts

and sometimes

taking the wrong turns

racers race

without a halt

in between

racers crave

for race

just like the druggists

crave for drugs

like the drugs

this drug of race

might harm them

might take over their consciousness

but this is an addiction

which racers can not get over

racers race

and they want

more and more of it

and soon

there is the stage

where racers are no longer

running for victory

or the destiny but

racers race

because

they are addicted of it!!

racers are we and race is throughout the life........................................................................................

End..

2011-11-23T08:06:00.001-08:00

she has blocked the last ray of sun

entering through the smallest crevice possible

for this is the end of hope

so that she can atleast live with the peace.

the world of darkness calls for her

for that is where she belongs

for that is where she can breathe

for that is where she can have eternal peace.

.....................

2011-11-21T06:20:00.001-08:00

The intangible touch of

the thin beam of light

from the first rays of sun

burns her skin

making the cold blood run

from stillness to chaos

rushing through the veins

to make her numb with the pain..

"Quote"

2011-11-16T12:05:00.001-08:00

the true happiness lies in the life

of the philosopher,

the life of scientific and philosophic contemplation."

The highest and most satisfying form of life possible to man is "the

contemplative life"

Aristotle's Ethics

Rantings!

2011-11-16T09:45:00.001-08:00

The virtue of selfishness!!!!!!!!!!!
i love it yet Y am i unable to practice it?? WHY??

talking to myself!!

2011-11-16T09:38:00.001-08:00

Megha is not in a good mood today!!!

Why ??

Why??

Don’t know why! Just like dat!

My mood literally changes like a swing !

Its not a mood swing its my mood swinging back n forth , ….back n forth,…. round …round… round… , still,….. again back n forth………

High n a low in a fraction of second…

Craving and yearning for what I don’t know!!

Or may be I know!!

Yea well what else to say dan to say peace !!!!!!!!!!!!!

Jst like dat!!

2011-11-09T08:16:00.000-08:00

Sometimes i just love sarcasm :) ;)

I don't know why do i go all gaga over sarcasm and satires sometimes!!

But on the contrary i hate somebody showing sarcasm to my face. Still the people who show sarcasm will stay on my mind as an influence.

I am nothing but a living irony!! ;)

someday i would like to build a pathway to reach the doors where i can see a dead end .......

Beyond!! i want to reach beyond!! what that beyond is i yet don't know ;)

QVENDO !!!!

2011-10-29T15:48:00.000-07:00

"While clothes may not make a woman, they certainly have a strong effect on her self-confidence------- which ,I believe, does make the woman."

Mary Kay Ashe

"Clothes make the man. Naked people have little or no influence on society."

Mark Twain

Helo Guys and Gals,

So tell me …………..

Are you a shopping freak?

Do you simply love fashion?

Are you a brandaholic ?

Do you fancy about All the international brands at affordable prices?

Would you like to have all the fancied about international brands into your closet straight way from Europe and US without having to go searching for them in the malls and that too at cheaper prices?

If answers to above questions were in the affirmative then Qvendo is a the perfect place for you to indulge.

Qvendo is an online private luxury shopping club which provides its members a hassle free shopping experience. It caters all the international brands to the Indians and that too at prices lower than the retail prices. The site gives an elite and classy look and if you visit the site for the first time you sure will like to go through it all!

Does not matter whether you are a gal or a guy, best designer deals are there for everyone even for the kids the stuff is available!!!

It includes brands like Armani, True Religion, Hugo Boss and Calvin Klein, Luis trenker, Joana danciu, pink poodle, replay and much much more.

Whats unique and nice about Qvendo? Well…

We get all the western brands at the member only prices. We have to pay less than equivalent Europeans – including duties and shipping! Does’nt that sound exciting! I love saving money while getting the best deals.

Door to door delivery service with a flat shipping fee of 900 Rupees to anywhere in India, that too in 4-10 days. I love the idea of online shopping for the fact that I don’t have to go out in search of stuff that I want and then eventually come back with some stuff altogether different from what I had imagined just for the lack of patience to checkout different places. What can be better than getting all the biggest brands all at one place and that too just a click away!!

Worried about security of transaction??.........Don’t need to!!

QVENDO uses Wirecard AG, Germany’s leading international payment gateway, ensuring transactions are secure and confidential at all times

Want to have a close look at the products viewing all the critical angles?

Well I personally liked the zooming quality of QVENDO better than many other online shopping sites. Zooming is provided just at the perfect angles. You get that feel of seeing it just in front of your eyes with a fair look at the texture also.

Even one other plus point is that it comes with the size chart in the navigation page itself. So if you are not sure about your size you can always refer to the size chart before adding the item to your cart.

QVENDO is also offering 100% insurance incase of any damage to the product while delivery.

Another positive point about Qvendo is that unlikely most online shopping sites QVENDO is actually interacting with their customers through the QVENDO blog and magazine. It updates the members about the new upcoming brands in the most interesting way, not only that but also unique styling tips, Fashion events, and other interesting reads like interviews with fashion celebrities.It has its presence on facebook also.

So all in all it’s a fabulous deal with added style quotient at affordable prices. Just have a look at the site and you sure will love it.

Now its time for me to blog about what I would shop from QVENDO for Rs 50000!! (that’s the indivine topic put forth by QVENDO). Rs 50000!! Wow!!!! The idea itself enthralls me! Shopping is always a pure delight. So lets get going and check out the stuff!!

This dress with its V shaped neckline appealed to me at the first sight itself. Simple and graceful and flows along the body so perfectly. The color is pleasant one and the waist tie gives it all the more elegant and complete look. I just loved this one.

The only rule is don't be boring and dress cute wherever you go. Life is too short to blend in.

Paris Hilton

So go define your own style by experimenting all the mix n match of your clothes and your accessories!!!

So the next thing in my list is…..

This one is simply sexy and classy. An addition of simple accessories will enhance the look further and anyways black is my all time favorite color. I wonder what shoes will go with it!! (mmmmmm…..)

Phewwww!! Again I laid my eyes on a dress! I love the round neck with stripes. Again simple and cute one.

Now obviously shopping cannot be complete without a pair of shoes. So here is the one that I select. The soft cherry colored heels. Will go well with the evening dresses and also with the casuals.

One more thing left before the shopping list ends! How can a girl forget a handbag!!

Well here I go for this small rose clutch which I liked at the very first sight!!

So this completes my shopping list of 50,000.

Hey ! all the guys out there ! you also check out the stuff because there are as many options for guys as well. Casual wear, formal wear, Accessories, Watches and what not!!

So what are you waiting for !!! Your best shopping experience is just a click away!!

Go to the below link and get your membership of the blog.

http://qvendo.com/vip/indianbloggers

I have written this post for indiblogger contest check out the link at at http://www.indiblogger.in/indipost.php?post=88311 and hit fb like dere!!! :)

crossroad.

2011-10-20T10:49:00.000-07:00

broken, smitten, crazy

in a trance...

losing herself to the windy nights...

dazing about in the mysteries that surround...

standing on the crossroads...

seeing the shining pearl far away...

yearning to go inside that pearl for resting there eternally...

till the sun rises and sets...

till the moon shines and stars twinkle..

strolling along the never ending seashore..

she breathes slowly, advances..

unless comes the whirlwind to thrash her, trap her..

pearl flowing away leaving her breath heavy...

she surrenders but the yearning never dies..

it fades, it loses its colors, but its alive...

she starts all over again following the light...

but the light is intermittent...

she needs the light of her soul...

she feels that has extinguished long back..

or may be it has never seen the light..

heading towards austerity, walking at her own pace..

towards the oblivion..

the ever existing void is taking its toll to an abysmal end..

or plain simple oblivion..

crossroads is the beginning to an end or an end in itself...

or the means to an end?

Jst a thought!!

2011-10-02T02:36:00.000-07:00

Does silence always imply arrogance!

" I "

2011-09-28T10:25:00.000-07:00

who are you to know me!

who are you to reach out!

try to catch me

and the next moment

i'll vanish

try to keep an eye on me

and the next moment

u'll realize

u are staring in the dark!

try to challenge me

and the next moment

u'll realize

u r shouting to the empty skies!

try to getinto the mysteries

and the next moment

u'll realize

u r in a trap leading to vileness!

try to feel the aura

and the next moment

u'll realize

u r stuck in a sarcastic illusion!

who r u to know me!

who r u to reach out!

talking senseless! ;)

2011-09-26T10:08:00.000-07:00

I want to be free!

But what is the thing that holds you, where are the chains?

There are! See with my eyes!

Tell me one thing …whose is the choice to remain in the chains?

Ok u want to trap me through your words!! Ok its mine but do I have another choice!!

Why would you think there is not!! Whose is dis life?

Ofcourse mine! But associated with me are expectations, love of the people who make you what you are, conventions, social obligations, and a thousand small and big things!

Do u think love puts restriction on anybody? Do you think there is anything greater than your happiness and bliss for those who love you? Do you think thinking about society and societal norms are a thing to be thought of in the path that you want to get into?

Which path do I want to get into? Which destiny I am looking forward to!!!!! I just don’t know!!! I DON’T KNOW!! Sometimes I feel so peaceful after saying I DON’T KNOW!! But I hate somebody else telling me dat u don’t know!

When will I know! When will I know what do I want from life!

When will I know the meaning of life!

When will I know how to draw the fine line between reality and illusions!

When will I know my purpose of landing into this enigmatic mirage!

When will I know whatever I am supposed to know or at least whether am I supposed to know anything or not!

When will I know that is there actually something absolute in the world or is it just the matter of perception!

When will I know that whether I actually am after something or just a badly perplexed creature landed in the wrong place asking all the wrong questions!

When will I know whether is it all too simple inside the complex or there actually is no thing as complex!

When will I reach the stage of I have started knowing a little bit from dis stage of I don’t know at all!

The day u start believing yourself! The day you start trusting your inner self! The day u stop looking for approvals for your opinions! The day you start loving unconditional! The day u start understanding that love is nothing but a higher form of existence where negativity does not find its roots! the day u discover the ocean of complacence and bliss free of tidal currents! The day u become a dogmatist!! ??? is it??????

Words!

2011-09-24T00:34:00.000-07:00

jump out of your comfort zone!

when u walk on a road multiple times u automatically become adapt at it

dont compare your life with others coz thiers is altogether a different

journey, they might not need to know the things that you are supposed

to know!

patience is a virtue. remember to be patient when there is nothing u

can do to set the things right.

done is done. forget it as a close chapter of your life.live in

d moment.

somethings just happen. there is no point being stuck in

those moments.stagnant water will start giving a rotten smell but

flowing water remains fresh.

getup and set the path of your dreams! they are meant to be true if you

are ready to take just one first step that is required.

there are no mistakes just some lessons.

live completely. forget, forgive and don't regret a single thing in

your life coz every single event in your life adds a new dimension to

your life.

listen to others but do as your heart says! don't let others opinions

bother you as long as you know u landed here coz of ur heart.

there is no such thing as a bad decision. decisions can alwaz be

proven right if u have zest to do so! n nywaz how can u say dat

decision would have been better when u did not experience going

on that path.

any decision is right if the person taking it is right.

don't give a damn to the opinions that associate u with a slightest

amount of negativity.

life comes once. live it your way.

your life won't be counted as

the sum of money u collected or the position and status that u achieved

its the sum of those small and big moments that u loved about ur life,

sum of those moments when u did what you wanted to do inspite of its

consequences.

is growth of a person only meausred in terms of materialistic things

he achieves! might be true!..is true..

but for me i'll grow the day i start

understanding that there is no such thing as grievances, sadness,

dissatisfaction,thinking twice, coz those are not an option

for people who want to grow

there is so much to understand

and

for me faith is a journey!

life is an adventure trip where destiny is bliss!

but often i take the wrong turns! and get lost!

hoping that one day i'll realize

that every turn leads to the same destiny n none is a wrong turn

only if dont forget the faith!

don't measure your life on the relative standards rather measure it on

the absolute ones that u define for yourself!

Jst like d@t :)

2011-09-22T10:21:00.000-07:00

mere sang to chal zara

kyun dikhe dara dara !!!

awwwwwww!!

i was listening to dis song when all of a sudden i started scribbling

the following note! ;)

u don't need to worry

about a thing..

coz m dere besides you to make u smile!

u can touch the skies

without leaving the ground..

coz m dere holding the staircase for u!

u don't need to be afraid

of your innocence and your ignorance..

coz m dere to keep u safe!

u don't need to feel lost..

coz m dere to find you

forever n alwaz!

u don't need to feel alone..

coz m dere to hold ur hand

today, tomorrow n alwaz!

u don't need to think about the walls

that u have built..

coz m dere to break them

to come n embrace you

today, tomorrow n alwaz!

u don't need to worry

about a thing, luv!

coz m dere for u

today, tomorrow n forever..

n till the eternity..

u will be tha same for me, luv!

today,tomorrow n alwaz!

:D

2011-09-20T09:45:00.000-07:00

I am in an elated mood!

without any reason i am feeling a strange

excitement.i am dreaming with open eyes and as if i am living my

dreams so closely. This is just the effect of music in my ears. Music

is such a strange thing! It can sooth you, heal you, break you..

it can

make you smile, make you jump, change your mood,

can takeover your thoughts,

can make you travel into territories that you may find

inaccessible without the effect of it in your years!

u can shine like sunlight, u can fly like a bird,

walk on the edge of pavements,

u can dive deep into the oceans,

adventure, thrill,

high on the realms of love, desire, drunk , mad, crazy

tranquility...

u can reach out to the dormant corners of your mind..

u can reach out o your hidden desires..

u can reach out to your untapped energy..

u can reach out to the serenity that prevails inside you..

u can reach out to the immense love inside your heart.

u can reach out to the sensations

that you have become so oblivious to..

u can reach out to the passions

that are dying with the humdrum and monotony

u can reach out to yourself..

yourself that becomes inaccessible in the world of yours..

you can reach out to the music inside you

that is dying every moment in the lack of recognition..

you can reach out to a higher definition of you!!

you can touch the intangible, can speak the undecipherable

you can JUST FEEL THE MAGIC!!!!!!!!!!

gudnite swtdrmz!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :)

in luv with myself!

2011-09-18T02:07:00.000-07:00

life is a bitch and so am i ;)
my blog has really become a depressing place. It gives an impression as if i am a depressed soul at least thats what people think. I am not a 24*7 depressed person man! Yeah i hold different views and i think a lot about small small things and only because i dont like to share my thoughts with everybody around i write them here. I love my blogger friends who always are there even if i write all the crap. But all of a sudden i have started feeling that i am loosing on my followers comments although that might just be my notion. And yes my about you posts they are evr increasing these days!! but thats not because m in love or i have ever been in love!! you know what i think movies and novels have spoiled my mind and i have a very high rather a very very very high expectation from love! i just can not tell u how much i wanna be in love :) but seriously i dont think with such notions and high expectations about love i can ever find a person to fall in love with but still i am waiting! isn't love something that will just happen when the person is right even if i have these false notions in my mind or am i creating a blockade in the way of love. But honestly speaking i don't think so!! Love should be spectacular as i had mentioned in one of my previous posts. So for a spectacular thing wait is always worth it. U know what when u buy a thing you know all the specifications what you want and not. Then Whats wrong in thinking all the specifications of a person whom you want for life!!!!!!! People thats just not being depressed... Thats being over obsessed about the person whom you want for life!! :) You might be thinking that whats wrong with me! But one of my friends told me that my blog suggests that i am depressed! But hell no!! i am moody, i get mood swings! i write crap , i write anything that comes to my mind and i write here because i dont like sharing my views with people who won't respect them. However stupid i may be i hate being told so! The loved ones and my precious friends can tell me so though ;) I hate rules, I hate conventions and yet i am caught in them and please don't ask me why!! And thats the onlt reason i write such posts where time and again i have mentioned about flying high or breaking the chains. At least if i cant do that in my real life I have all the rights to dream about flying. Does that suggest I am depressed. If my blog really suggests i am depressed please do let me know people. At least i would like to know honest opinions of people who read my blog. Only then i can improve after honest feedback from people who have always supported me and my stupid and senseless and meaningless words!

these are some pics that reflect how my heart wants to stay always :

free, serene, busy with myself , walking on clouds, enjoy like a butterfly, oblivious of anything that goes around, free from negativity, fresh as flowers, soothing like breeze n much more like dis :)
But i know am way away from being this kind of girl yet... WAY away!!! But whats wrong in dreaming! Dreams don't cost you anything and if those dreams keep us happy why creating boundaries like realist dreams and unrealistic dreams!!! to hell with such boundaries. There are enough boundaries in real life so dreams should just fly!! Thats why i never share my dreams with anybody because i am scared that people will give odd looks to me, they will tell me i dream impossible, i dream about things that i am incapable of achieving, thats why i keep certain things to myself only.Even my friends think that i am vulnerable! I don't say i am not but inside i know i am strong. Inspite of all my weaknesses, mood swings, incapabilities, cribbing habit (My worst habit!! i get started and dont stop at all!!) I luv myself the way i am! because thats what makes me ME!

Have a great great sunday!!
LUV U ALL :)

Dreaming!

2011-09-07T09:21:00.000-07:00

As the Breeze blows

Across my face….

I feel

My breath,

As if trying to

Recognize

The fragments of air

That you have breathed;

I feel

With my eyes closed,

Searching for your aura

By means of my heart;

I feel

the serenity,

as I’ll get in your arms;

I feel

The strength

As I’ll get in your companionship;

I feel

Free,

As I’ll feel after discovering you;

I feel

Faith

As I already have

That you will be perfect for me! J

@wake!

2011-09-04T08:50:00.000-07:00

A silky smooth

completely dark inside

with no scope of light to enter...

such was the shell

i resided in...

it was a world

of my dreams

where i didn't know

something as reality

exists...

but time

left my dream house wretched

to let the light in

to perturb

the peace of my dreams...

introduce me

to a new world

of reality...

wings i was granted

as i was kicked

out of my shell...

but i didn't

know how to fly!!!

blah blah blah!!

2011-08-02T10:12:00.000-07:00

Am lot confused today …..sometimes I just can’t figure out…how can you figure out what somebody wants……!!! I really don’t understand this world sometimes n to understand myself that was always an impossible thing!

Ah forget it !! I think sometimes people need to understand on their own…

Let me talk about some dreamy kind of trash now ;)

Castles in the clouds

Rivers in the sky;

Rainbows in the gardens

Imaginations can always fly;

Love in the smile

Can win every turmoil…

……….

…………

;)

2011-07-21T08:49:00.000-07:00

P.S: again u can tell me if u think there is something that u can comprehend out of d picture :);)

Thought for the day: JUST BE!!! :)

...........!

2011-07-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

P.S : You can tell me if you can comprehend something out of the picture..

Thought for the day : A smile is a contagious thing...so keep smiling and hence keep spreading smiles.

:) :) ;) :) :) :D

hihihhihihiahahahah

hallucinations!!

2011-07-15T10:58:00.000-07:00

In the star lit night

I gaze up at the site;

Closing the translucent doors

of my eyes,

Hallucinations start flowing

that are not so wise;

I see an utopian land

made of transparent white,

Up somewhere

overflowing with colorful light;

Enigmatic beams intersecting

bending towards height,

Reflections playing to form

sea full of colors and bright ;

Walking down on me

to offer me a flight;

I hold a light

To climb up for a ride,

Longingly watching

The waves of various colors slide;

Blending playfully

with a fall and rise,

Shining and smiling

As light falls on the floating dice;

I watch my shadow dance

To the tune of every glance,

Changing shapes

And adapting to balance;

separating walls of silence surround

yet a music plays sounding so profound;

this is a world that exists

only as long as the night persists………………

P.S : IMAGE SOURCE- Google

:)

2011-07-14T08:46:00.000-07:00

Once in a while,..

When the skies are not clear;

I see myself juggling in there;

To find a meaning

In the clouds so queer;

I fly with the wind

but the pace Is little too much to bear;

I shut my eyes

and am tossed constantly upstair;

I see the birds flying

Wondering how serenely have they thrown their fear;

I jump and snap out of the wind

To fly on my own n cheer;

Suddenly to realize

how heavy my burdens are to hang in there;

then the clouds

throw me back with their tears;

washing off another layer

to let the rainbow peer;

it is when

I open my eyes with a dream so dear!