True Love Wonders

Mirandas SWEENEY PLAY!!!

2013-05-01T14:45:00.003-07:00

Again, several months ago Miranda was in a play at her high school (Central High School) it was the play: Sweeney Todd

Now the reason I decided to do a post about this is for several reasons..

The stupid songs are still stuck in my head!
Do you really feel me?? hmm..? Do you really feel me Joanna?
Miranda played Lucy/Beggar Woman and did an amazing job!
I needed to make sure these pictures will be seen by her when shes older! **this is the best reason!

I was actually surprised with how well they performed the play, considering that they used a rotating box to change from scene to scene! ..still the icing on the cake was the fact that my crazy, maniac of a sister played true to her roots! hehe Seriously though, she is a born actress with an uncanny ability to give up herself in the eyes of her character. She does not get easily embarrassed, and although she seems to have robot like emotions at times, she is very sweet and positive at heart. I pray for my sister and wish her the best in everything that comes her way. She will be going to New York for college and I she will need her guardian angels like never before. Thank you Jesus for loving us, for loving my family, and giving us blessings upon blessings. Although our blessings are surely not material nor in the form of financial success, our needs are still met and there are many deserts in our lives. I pray that everyone has desert in their life!!! :p ..I'm hungry

Best pic EVER lol Mirandas favorite line hehe

TLW

Memories, Moments, You know! The things we love!

2013-05-01T13:48:00.002-07:00

Today is beautiful! Gorgeous sun shining in the windows, the air is hot enough outside that I am kicking on the A/C.

Koala hats at the mall!

My fiance Kristina and I spend almost all of our waking time with each other and because of it, I have endless memories and moments of happiness and love. Although at times we can lose sight of what truly matters whilst being caught up in the arguments of the world and flesh, it never takes long for us to be guided back to common ground thinking. God our father loves us so, and he is always willing to give peace and love to those who desire it purely. I have faith :)

So here are a few pictures from random times throughout the past 6 months, I have many to choose from but these popped out at me))

Here are a few pics from when we stopped at Jordan Valley Park, my sister Miranda was with us one of the days.

I Love You!

FINALLY ACCEPTANCE PAPERS!!!! WOOO WOOO

I-797C Paid and Accepted!

New F-1 Visa!!!

Not everyone who applies for work and travel gets accepted.. But she did! :)

Not everyone who applies for a status change gets one..
But she did!! :)

Not everyone can pass the TOEFL, especially with hardly any time or preparation.. But she did just that!!! :)

Not everyone can be admitted to a 4-year college, especially in between statuses at a college that does not know how to deal with international students.. But she has and is doing just that!!!! :) We are so blessed, and I am sooo proud of her for all of the fighting, courage, and absolute determination to do things that are not easy and paved out for us. Although the unpaved ride can be bumpy, it is well worth getting to the destination in which few have ever experienced or gazed upon. Our path is full of bumps, and although they can be uncomfortable, I am fully aware that every time I hit one that I am on a special journey. Each bounce is a reminder to the rider that he is moving forward to their destination.

YA LOOBLOO TAYBYA

Workin hard))

I love my millie!

TLW

This 'KISS' Memory has to go somewhere...

2013-05-01T12:49:00.003-07:00

A few months ago my littlest sister wanted to dress up for 80's Day at school!

Here is the result!

Rock n Roll Addie! :p

Shes so shy :)

Addie is a Rockstar!

TLW

Winter Parade in Springfield, MO 2013!!! - Darth Vader?!??

2013-04-15T22:11:00.000-07:00

Winter Parade in Springfield, MO 2013!!! - Darth Vader?!??

So I other than there being absolutely no parking, nor any clear instructions on where the beginning of the parade was, I finally found my my sisters, my mom, and two of her close friends.

It was your typical cold parade, minus the hot cider carts that I had growing up, but it still managed to keep alive with the odd twists I just never expect to see.

To highlight I saw Darth Vader in person! It was amazing.

hehe Miranda all ready to go!

Mom's hat...lol

cold sisters

Still brainwashing kids :)

He was looking right at me!!!

It's still cool!

after the parade, warming their feet

Also... There was a spinning driving Porta Potty! - This is a needed life experience... Can you imagine how crappy it was for the person inside??? ...cause he's on a toilet.. get it? :p

Anyways always fun to see people coming up with new ideas!

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IM BACK!!! for 2013!!! just took me a few months...

2013-04-10T17:21:00.001-07:00

So here I am! Living in Springfield, MO with my beloved Kristina!

WHAT A BLESSING!!!

The past few months have been so new for me that I have a hard time keeping track of my thoughts. I started this blog last year so that I could sort out my thoughts and not let them get tangled into knots! Yet here I am NOT doing what I told myself I needed to do in order to be taking care of business.

So here I am! BACK! I know that I need to write and that I need to use my other blogs in order to keep my head straight! Everyday we are bombarded with overwhelming forms of media and information, I find it very helpful to have a place where I can put all this stuff down and feel lighter in the process.

I have a lot to post!!!

Although I am randomly writing right now, I have a video rendering at the moment to add to Kristina's Blog. It is about 5 min long and is a compilation of videos taken around Christmas time. I literally have about 4 different blogs that need several posts each. But simply writing this here is already making me feel like im getting some of it done!

I decided today, and after praying about it last night that I will attempt to ask for help so that I can make my wedding dreams come true :) I figure I can try and maybe nothing will happen, and in any case, if I do not try than I can only get nothing no matter what!

I found this site called indiegogo (http://www.indiegogo.com/) it allows people to begin campaigns in order to raise money for a cause. As selfish as I feel reaching out to others for money so that "I" can have my dream wedding, I've realized that God is here to provide for us, and that I must ASK in order to receive! I just finished a book (the boy who came back from heaven) and one of the messages that hit me was that God will use his hands and feet to help those in need. Meaning that other believers are out there and they are willing to help others. I pray that I am worthy of such things and I will begin my campaign as soon as possible. First I need to finish getting my blogs updated, next I will need to write a script so that I don't seem like a guy just trying to make a video for money. Luckily I have enough video and pictures to show people who care about me and my relationship with God and my engagement with my fiance Kristina! I trust that God will use those who are capable and willing to help me get to the next level in my life.

Ok well the video is done rendering and I need to get back to my posts... Anyways Thanks BLOG!

I will be back soon)

-GOD BLESS

TLW

Anxiety or Anger whats the difference?

2012-06-10T16:43:00.001-07:00

^ my head ^

I am blessed person.

So why do I feel so selfish and unhappy?

My head is a terrible thing sometimes..

"Life is not easy and I cannot please everyone"

better written:

"Life is easy if you try to please only yourself"

"Life is meaningless if you try to please only yourself"

What is my life? What is my purpose? What makes me happy?

What will I do to fight for life? What will I do to fight for a life I want?

Being taken advantage of.. How do I know when it's happening?

Follow the Golden Rule..

easy to desire... difficult to continue when your by yourself.

Support.

I need Support.

I want to be supportive as well.

Talking to myself in my blog is only somewhat helpful..

Now time to Open Photoshop and see what comes out of me...

I'm doing a good job keeping anger at bay while worry washes up on shore in droves... it's silly to be feeling either.

People are silly creations))

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Isaac's Live Lip-Dub Proposal - I really enjoyed this!

2012-05-26T08:02:00.000-07:00

Original

Creative

Meaningful

I enjoy this type of news))

youtube: These are no tears... it... it's just my manliness leaving through my eyes.

This video had me laughing and crying at the same time..

Wonderful feelings, I wish them the best.

misss my milllie

TLW

Finally Finished!!! Matthew West - Kinetic Typography Project

2012-05-23T12:56:00.000-07:00

It was a grueling task I realized after 4 hours of work and only about 20 seconds into the song... haha..
Still I had support throughout and I am happy with how my first After Effects Typography project worked out.
I just thought I would post it about my blogs so that it could get its face value)) :P i worked hard!!

Thank you for everyone who gives me support!!

TLW

Reminder to Self! Random Post

2012-05-20T06:18:00.000-07:00

Currently I am working on Kinetic Typography with Matthew West's Song - "More"

so far I am about 1 minute and 25 seconds into the song and have a little over 2 minutes left to animate!

I just had a few things to remind myself to Animate after this:

Bible Verse's
Personal Poem's
Letter/Message/Story to KK
cool audio fruit loop waves.. with kinetic type
lastly old wav (takin bath)

TLW

finding resources, in hopes to get a CELTA

2012-05-13T06:22:00.001-07:00

Several weeks ago I applied for and was accepted to The Teaching House in Chicago, IL. This was in order to get a CELTA certificate that can be used for jobs all over the world in order to teach English to adults!

Currently I do not have enough money to actually go to this school. Sometimes I do things without having all things in alignment.. more or less hoping or trusting that a path will be given to me.

As I said I do not have a way to pay for this course and I do not know if it will become a reality at this point.

I have a widget that I have made but in my experience things like this go largely unnoticed.

oh money.. silly concept

yet it controls our lives..

Not for long.

I have hope for the future, even if I am not meant to take this class at this exact time.

Still I have to try everything and keep faith. I hope that things will work out.

Possibly time to make a quick youtube video explaining my situation, maybe actually do it!

I have a job interview this Tuesday!

I need to thank God for the blessings that I do have and take care of what I can.

All I really want is to be educated, to be with my love, Kristina, my fiance, to have the tools that are necessary in order to provide for the family I wish to have. I trust that God will be with me and help will come in compliance with his plan.

Oh lord I am willing, please show me the way.

TLW

Ever feel like Meh? :p

2012-04-16T00:39:00.002-07:00

Sometimes we just feel depressed. Generally because there is a situation involving a loved one.
It does not mean that we are depressed all the time. It just means that we have feelings.

Nobody wants to be held back by there past mistakes. It is natural to be stupid and then to become smart.

It is quiet opposite to expect it the other way around. I am a better person today that I was yesterday.

That is the Goal.

TLW

Writing, i miss you...

2012-04-06T04:40:00.001-07:00

Many times I feel like I have good ideas, but instead of actually doing what it is I'm thinking, I just try to remember the idea. How smart is that?

I do not think it is very smart at all.

I see myself as someone who can do a lot.

But I do not see my actions matching up to my potential.

It's getting to the point that I can no longer bare it and something needs to change!

Like most guy's in there early 20's I spend a lot of times doing things that "I" want to do. It's sad to say, but as mature as I think I am, I realize that left to my own devices I can fall off course.
I'd like to change these bad characteristics about myself before it gets worse.. before I am even older and wishing I had been different.

I do not like knowing how many hours I have spent on games rather than doing helpful or productive things.. rather than doing something for, or spending time with, loved ones..

Currently my heart feels like it wants to explode..

I wish I were a better writer so that I could express myself fully, but I'll get out what I need to get out.

I have to make Goals, and I need to keep up with them

I need to make them public so that I cannot hide from them

I need support, my heart is tender although it is strong, I am still growing and I have my tough days like all

~God is Watching me I need Not to Forget this Truth~
Everyday, Every Moment, and Always

Clean up
Get rid of the excess
Be the man that your preach others to be
Love with all of your heart
Be humble
Check yourself

The best way to live happily and genuinely, is to be doing things correctly, and righteously.

I know that all things done in dark will eventually be seen by others in the light.

Of course there is a point.

I want to be a good Husband.

Rather than try to BS myself through life, I want to help people and love my family.

I seem to fail quite regularly, but I hope that I can learn to one day succeed in this endeavor.

:sigh::

miss you

TLW

YouTube beginning to Suck!

2012-03-28T19:20:00.002-07:00

So I have noticed now that Google has decided to try to take over the world with its own branding...
Everything is beginning to suck..
Kind of like EA taking over video games and making everything awful.
Not only does youtube care more about marketing and making money than actually HOSTING accessible user videos, but as of late, the website has had terrible technical reliability in the past month!
It takes me several attempts to upload a video and often it says it is 100% processed only to say on another screen that it was cancelled..
come on youtube !:( :p

TLW

Having thoughts of traveling to Turkey!?

2012-03-23T05:40:00.001-07:00

I was doing some research and found out some thing about Turkey! Although there are a lot of positives in the culture... There are many that have me running away!

see this article below:

'Honor Killings' Have Morphed Into 'Honor Suicides' in Turkey

And Later I was reading an article about rock climbing.. It was written by Turkish Muslim man earlier this year..

Here is little quote that kind of freaked me out.

"Although Turkey is a secular country, over 90% of the population is Muslim. That is mostly because, according to Muslim “law”, the punishment for changing one’s religion is death. You get your religion handed to you at birth, just like your nationality. In eastern Turkey it is frowned upon to dance with the opposite sex, sing, wear makeup, expose your arms or legs (not to mention your bosom), and have sex outside of marriage. If you are a woman, you do not need to wear a scarf. If you ask someone if they “had fun”, you are asking if they had sex. According to the government of Turkey, fornication or homosexuality outside of marriage is not illegal, but according to the Muslim culture, it is not permitted. You won’t be permitted to take a local up to your bedroom. (Hotels are required to turn their guest list into the local police every night.) "

Things I sort of knew already, but something about the idea that being Muslim and Muslim Law are one in the same.. something about it lacks civil liberty.. granted I do believe in God.. I just disagree that this is his Law.
just a thought

TLW

It has been many many many years... But today I learned a NEW english word!!!

2012-03-18T12:30:00.003-07:00

Thanks to KK, I was chatting with her on FB chat when she busted out this one! "planophrasia" ... I know WTF right!?
Turns out it really is a word after all..

planophrasia
planophrasia Wandering speech; usually used to refer to a flight of ideas in manic syndromes.

Love it when the foreigners have to teach me English! Thank you education system!!.... :p

wowowwowowwowowow

2012-03-18T06:08:00.001-07:00

Been motivated all night!! Finally getting my Portfolio page updated with some old old old work that was desperately needing a place to go! I design and make all kinds of things that really have no purpose.. but I feel like it's a waste to leave them in a folder on my computer.. Simply by putting them into a blog I feel like they are finally out of my mind. Somewhere I can see them if I want to reference them ever.. at the same time I do not have to worry about storing them on my HD.
Earlier I watched Gnomeo and Juliet! It is a super cute movie that is a quick and easy watch. I couldn't help but think of my own situation)) miss my millie))
Been listening to Lana Del Rey and her "Born to Die" album a lot thanks to KristyK! Great background working music! My only complaint is that the CD is too short!
Alright! getting back to adding things to my portfolio page! Check it out!

Shipping Crate modeling in BLENDER!

2012-03-08T18:10:00.002-08:00

I found this tutorial online that showed the basics of modeling.. It was about 4 hours long and took me atleast 4 times that amount to make something similar! haha I actually wish I had a teacher that could work with me through this. Unfortunately the community college that is near me does not offer classes this "advanced".
Sad because this is a huge part of the developing industry! Regardless I will continue to "self-teach" so that I may have skills that can help me later in life!

Below I will list 11 program renders.. prephotoshopped:

Below are screen shots taken during modeling:

TLW

BALLOONS!!! & Learning Blender!

2012-03-03T02:23:00.006-08:00

So I am super excited to have hardware that can actually render the software I have been longing to play with for going on 4 years now!!! I downloaded the Free program Blender from there website blender.org last night and spent the day working on a balloon tutorial!

It started with taking a basic UV Sphere, and then of course modeling it to look more like the shape of a balloon. For the most part getting started was pretty easy, but for some reason simply tieng the knot around the balloon took me like 45 min! It was my first time actually modeling in 3D and it was a lot of fun.

Below I will put a bunch of screen shots but I will start with the finals!

main size 1920 x 1080

2 screen display 3840 x 1080

Closer Up Definition 800 x 400

Close Up of Knot and Reflections 800 x 400

The rest are screen shots taken during the process: click to enlarge

TLW

Podomatic! Testing Testing Podcast

2012-03-03T01:55:00.001-08:00

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New Hardware! wooot

2012-03-01T16:19:00.002-08:00

I have to admit... It is a little more difficult than I had originally thought it would be. Keeping up with several blogs.. making daily devotionals.. and working freelance all take there toll. I find I do not have the time I think I do.
I still want to equal my time with socialization, games at times, and of course I need to eat better!!! But lately I have found myself in kind of a rut. I imagine that part of it has to do with the fact that I am still waiting for tiger direct to send me a replacement monitor!!
Last week I got my new computer and monitors, but one of them had two dead pixels and the entire screen had a somewhat blurry look to it.

After contacting tigerdirect customer service I was issued a prepaid return label and told they would ship out my other monitor immediately! :p It must've been a joke because I am still waiting for them to ship my replacement! They have already recieved mine!

Regardless I am happy with my purchase.. With the things I spend time on every day it is crazy just CRAZY that I have not invested sooner into getting a working and proficient system.
Originally I spent $600 on the tower for a 2TB Hard Drive, Intel I5 Core, and 6 gig Ram with integrated graphics. After Updating the ram to 12 gigs and putting in a GT 520 1 gig EVGA graphics card, my pc is now a rock star!
It has a total of 4 gig video memory available compared to like 300 mb on my laptop.

The computer shows that I only have a 4.9 rating, but overall it is much better than what you can get anywhere I have seen for under $700 dollars. Add the two full HD 1080p LED monitors and you can have a great setup for just under $1000. My videos render so fast! Not to mention photoshop, Cinema 4D, and just about everything else opens up and runs without hiccups! Even games like League of Legends or Counter Strike Source play on high settings all around, even though this it has just an entry level graphics card, it still makes all the difference when working with HD video.

Lately I have been gaining my voice again.. it seems my legs dooo work so I am starting to get moving as well. btw, I am going to take over the world)) just saying. :p

check out what random things I have been working on by going to my portfolio page!
for example here is a mock logo i designed a week ago:

click to open in portfolio page in a new window

Ok I am going to work on my resume, and then I will finish the last old 365 video from my laptop.. I reallllly want to start doing those videos again.. I felt soo much better day to day when I was expressing myself.
Time to get back... 2012 the year for no fear! lets do it! Postive action will result in positive reaction. Your choice and JOB to see it this way)
much love :)

TLW

IM BACK!

2012-02-21T12:10:00.000-08:00

!! So I spent the last 3-5 days feeling sick sick sicK! It was awful.. The kind of sick where you can't think or do anything.. yet you cannot sleep. Every time I would look at my computer screen my eyes would water and my sinuses would act up. So... basically it was what being sick is generally like for anyone.. awful, as I said in the beginning.

Considering today is the first day my nose isn't scarlet red, I feel full of energy and I am ready to get things done! After hearing that the Ebay business I worked at was closing down, I've had to keep myself active and positive while I look for alternative work. I am hopeful, but at the same time I have a bunch of work that needs to be finished as it is. Today at some point I should be hearing from UPS, so I can finally begin working with the High Definition footage I shot in omaha for a project.

Because my computer takes so long to load HD footage, and often crashes in the editing process I think it is best for me to wait until I have adequate equipment before I begin charging for my work ;)

At the same time I need to hurry up and get to making these videos for him or else I won't be continue getting work :p

Ok enough babble.. I need to edit up some daily devotionals and work on a logo! Really.. like I neeeeed to do to it.. or else.. :p

TLW

What day is it?

2012-02-17T13:16:00.000-08:00

Nothing like sleeping in! I have been sickly the past few days and I am hoping that today will be my turn around day! As SOOOOON as I am done posting I will be upstairs making some french toast and sausages! Current Status: Starving! :p Drinking on some natural Cranberry Apple Juice is putting me in the perfect mood to post up and get this day started..

I was informed that when your throat and sinus aren't feeling so well, that you should boil some milk, then add butter and honey and drink up! I don't know but sure sounds tasty to me as long as I don't add too much butter.. eecckk...

I have been trying to keep up with recording my 365 Vlogs and so far I have been doing well with the recordings. The problem is editing, rendering, and uploading, not to mention, naming, blog posting, and ....Life.
It has been a learning curve getting started, but I know that after this coming Tuesday I will be able to do a lot more a lot faster.

I ordered myself two gateway monitors that will really help me create a steamlined workflow, as well as see my video in it's own screen while editing, rather than a few inches wide. To speed things up I got a Gateway Tower with an Intel I5 quad core processor. I also got a few upgrades to add to it all. Rather than spend more overall on a tower, I saved a few hundred dollars by buying the graphics card and extra ram separately! To make things look a little cooler I got a wireless mouse that matches my wireless keyboard))) take that wired microsoft mouse!

Here are some videos I have uploaded from the factory days:

Also I have been trying to keep the 365 VLOG updated check it out!!!!

TLW

can someone say MINGS house!

2012-02-13T18:00:00.000-08:00

Ok Ok! I have been behind! No doubt about that! I am eating some Chinese food and getting down to editing. I really can't wait to get a proper computer so that this process can be more stream lined! Will post more and have more details on current projects soon!)

TLW

HAIRCUT!

2012-02-09T23:19:00.000-08:00

This is what happens when you start spending too much time in front of a camera..

I had fun making it, at the same time I was learning how the mic settings worked. Once I got it into Vegas I noticed that the audio I had actually recorded was a little quiet so I had to boost the volume to get a response. Anyways, time to move on and continue to something new))

TLW

slacking..

2012-02-09T15:55:00.000-08:00

Ok! So this week has been more exhausting than I would've possibly guessed! Today I am determined to be productive in terms of what I want done :)
First I have a call with a client @6 and then I get to record my Feb 10th Vlog about looking for attention rather than looking for God's heart. It's a little ironic, in part I feel that I'm going to get looked at like I want attention with my videos, rather than the real intention. Which is to relate with people that think similarly as me, as well as to help others out there whom are struggling and could use them as a tool to bring some word into there day)
I still am trying to figure out a lot of things, but I know that I need to keep up with writing and posting so that I don't just fizzle out and quit.. It is far too late in my life to continue starting things without finishing them. It is time to get things done! Being as cold as it is makes me lazier but not today :p.
Anyways I will make a post of what I DID lata)))

TLW