Diet, exercise and ...chocolate cake??

2009-07-14T08:22:00.001-07:00

Finally grass on the way..

2009-06-30T07:10:00.000-07:00

Hey Everyone! So excited to mention that construction guys are FINALLY working on my grass outside!!

I know it takes time but I, along with my other neighbours were getting so tired of looking at rocks and debris, and sticks and dirt for the last few months!!

I really enjoy my time outside, especially at night when the sun goes down and the kids are fast asleep to just sit on my back porch and hear absolutely nothing but the crickets and summer breeze. Its really relaxing for me doing that with a tea in my hand and just thinking good thoughts to myself, or when coming down from a busy day or even when thinking about just nothing. Its the tranquility of the night air that really brings my anxiousness down which I feel usually throughout my days.

Anyways nice to know that for the next part of the summer I will be watching as the grass begins to grow and it starts getting cleaner looking, which hopefully will also be an example of my personal life in the next few months.

I mean I have been constantly going from negative to positive..then something happens to shoot be back to negative and I have to get myself up to positive again, And now for the first time ever, I have to say I am so sick of this happening and just tired of it!

So I have decided to make a clean slate from here on in, and to stop allowing outside negative influences along with certain negative energies have such an effect on me. I am a person who really thinks alot, and when something bothers me it really really takes a certain effect on my life and what my output is. And I need to stop allowing myself do that.

No more! Nothing and no one is more important than your own happiness. And if something or someone is bringing you down for whatever reason, then its just not worth it. No matter how positive you perhaps have tried to be, no matter if your intentions are all good, there comes a point when you just need to move on and say enough already.

So on that note, while hearing the big truck outside and feeling the vibrations which is giving me a nice headache I suppose its best I sign off now;)
Cheers to new beginnings!

Talk soon
Rosy

Happy Monday to you all and day off for ME!

2009-06-29T10:05:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! Today I have the day off. I had all 3 kids their annual doctors appointment in the morning so took them to that. "No needles" they cried "no needles"...I just smiled knowing they would be getting one saying to them "we'll see".

Its funny cause i cannot help but smile when that happens..not because I want to torture my kids LOL but because it brings back memories for me when i used to do the same. The anticipation of getting one really throws the kids out of whack when waiting to be seen. My kids all had to go to the bathroom multiple times before hand cause they were all so nervous. Man....I just thought to myself "you guys wait these little needles are nothing compared to what life really has in store for you 3!!" Life is tough and they will see that soon enough.

As far as the needles my 2 girls took them and were tough about it actually..my boy...skirmed and yelled..man! He is a strong kid! But then again, isnt that always the way. Us girls always tougher! *wink*

When that was done I was all ready and had my workout gear on prepared to go straight to the gym once all that was over. So once I dropped 2 of them off at their summer program (that they just love) I was on my way with my youngest to take her to her daycare until my she began crying with tears..."no daycare"..."I want to go home, I want to go home".

Well, I took a breath and although I was ready to start a good week again at the gym thought..."well how can I say no".:-( It's not like i have time off often and perhaps she just wanted her mommy today.
So forget the gym today.LOL Instead I have decided I am spending my day off with my youngest daughter by my side.

So after we tackled our first load of laundry, she watched as i trimmed the plant that I have in our house by our staircase and she helped me pick up the dead pieces. I guess I am going to take her to the park that is just down the street from us for a while, perhaps a walk and thats pretty much it. Having a pretty easygoing day.

Well this is going to be my Monday. Hope you all have a wicked Monday and a great week!!
talk soon
Rosy

Life is just like a puzzle......

2009-06-28T14:18:00.000-07:00

Sometimes life is just like a puzzle. Sometimes the pieces just dont seem to want to connect..and you just keep trying to somehow piece them together hoping to get a glimpse of the picture that the puzzle is suppose to display.

And then, all of a sudden, when you least expect it, you just make that one connection....and once you get that one connection going....all the rest of the pieces seem to just come together. Leaving you with a sense of relief that you finally get to see the REAL true image.

Once done, the picture however, (just like life), can leave you somewhat dissappointed when it doesnt always turn out to be as beautifully coloured or as sharp as what you thought it would be, or what the actual box displayed..but at least you got it done, and you are glad, leaving you seeing the picture for what it really is, with a sense of peace and another lesson learned!

Well hope you all had a great weekend!

POSITIVE POSITIVE POSITIVE...thats what its all about friends!!

2009-06-24T05:53:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone! What a wonderful sunny and bright morning! I'm lovin' it, then again I am just loving life in general!!

I had some time to jump on this morning because I ended up waking up at 4am today..and thought to myself..well...I suppose I can always go and do my workout extra early..and thats just what I did!

I got there, and did my 30 minutes of cardio..and then went right to the part of my workout that I love the most...WEIGHTS...I didn't want to waste any time!

I really want to get these arms all lookin cut again..and it seems like the more I talk to those who have knowledge on this sort of stuff the more I hear about not to do too much cardio..and to just do more weights and heavier!

So this is my new modo! I want to try this theory out, while also incorporating one of my old eating plans once again that I have been doing which need to go both together hand in hand(very important). I look at some of my girls that I look up to and this is what i would like to look like..I dont believe in my heart that I can get my legs looking the way they do, because of the excess weight I always carried on my legs for years..(the worst part of my body I tell ya)

Whenever I would gain weight...it would go right to my legs! It really sucks. I mean its good in one way cause people could never guess right on how much i weigh and would always assume less because my upper part would always be smaller..but in another way when trying to get them toned and nice..its a tougher job to say the least! Even when I was at my peak...I saw some deffinition but with all those exercises and weights I did...there was always that layer that I just could never get rid of to actually show my muscle underneath.

But i will do what I can. But then again to be honest, I never thought that having really muscular legs on me would be attractive (to me). Some women are different. I personally would prefer having really muscular arms and toned arms and some nice calves in skirts...to me that it HOT and that is what I am aiming for!

My main objective right now is to come down in body fat once again, to GAIN as much muscle as possible. This should burn off the extra fat around them ...but most importantly give me back those arms that I always loved, and that I was always most proud of..!

OH and I have also been growing out my hair again:) I didnt mind the short cut..but I just thought now for a change I want to grow my bangs out so the front is all one length that shortens as it goes to the back...so I will be keeping the shorter cut in the back..I cannot DEAL with long hair! Too much time to fix!

So anyways...now that my workout is done getting back home by 6:30am...I took my shower, did my hair, my plucking and makeup... and now i have all this extra time before I have to go into work before 11:45. So I guess I will do some of my meditating..positive thinking and energy..and thats about it as far as plans go. Maybe I will be lucky and a friend will call me for a coffee..thats always nice to share on a nice morning...who knows.

In the meantime this is a song I want to post for you guys. Its an older song, but one that I listen to every time I step foot into that gym now...keeps my positive energy going, positive thinking..and helps me get through another day knowing that i am that much closer to kicking some serious ass! Enjoy!!! I know video is a little cheezy BUT...its the words that count!

Have a fantastic day! Reach for the sky!!

Coming to terms....An honest entry

2009-06-22T15:45:00.000-07:00

Hey Friends...

Today I had a really GREAT day, despite the fact that it started off really chaotic to say the least..

But i managed to stay on track and focused on getting to that gym this morning, and sticking to the plan(my plan) no matter what!!

I thought I would come on anyways and touch on the subject once again on how very hard it can be on anyone once you are done a transformation, or when having reached your "goal" of losing that certain amount of weight.

"I" personally went through a LONG period of feeling lost, regardless of the fact that I was given all the knowledge and tools I needed through my past training to stay on track if I chose that route.

But i know it was more than THAT, that I needed. I was a person who was big all my life, and all that got changed within a 12 month period. Then, in the end..it was just me.

There were people around me yes, friends and family...but really...unless you have been through something like that, and not to mention in that short amount of time, you cant possibly understand what thats like for a person. And being in the public eye and the pressure of it all that comes with it didnt exactly help the situation. Not making excuses dont get me wrong..just stating the facts.

And so, sadly I personally chose to just let myself get lost in the moment of living a somewhat easier life, without taking responsibility for myself and my own wellbeing.

Perhaps because it was that "something else" i was missing that was eating me up inside. Maybe I needed more guidance in the end, much more than I had thought. Maybe in the end I was just way too confident and cocky, thinking I was too strong for anyone or anything to bring me down ever again. Or maybe it was just simply something I personally needed to do for some strange reason to be able to see the bigger picture.

I dunno. I am just taking guesses here. I really am not sure what happened, probably just a mix of all those things..but the fact of the matter is that I am facing up to fact that I screwed up:-((

It takes alot of guts to admit to that you know. And i hope that those reading will somehow respect me for my honesty here and not judge me. It is not easy for anyone to admit defeat or failure or in my case "falling off the wagon" in anything.

I really dont want to even post this if i may be honest. I would rather keep this all to myself and for you guys just to see my picture in the end when its my one year after the fact picture that I am planning to put out there. But along with that picture, there is a story. One that I am hoping to share in the Ottawa Sun Newspaper. What it was like for me for that one year. I told the editor when he contacted me that I think it would make a really good story and that I think people might want to read what my year was really like.

...But even though it doesnt really matter to me anymore, I think people should hear about this and get an understanding about this side of the situation as well.

I now have taken what i needed and learned from this. And this life really is all about learning new things isn't it? I never did say I was perfect. But I now have begun to once again look ahead, rather than focus my energies on looking back.

Someone who I still consider very close to me once said.."what you are today isnt what you'll be tommorow." Words that I will never forget that really puts everything into perspective really.

And I have now learnt to not allow myself to beat myself up about it anymore, not giving it even another thought. Its time wasted really. Instead I smile, thanking God for my day, counting my blessings and I always start my mornings off by telling myself "I am going to have an amazing day today"...you would be surprised how positive talks to yourself really work and help you along!

I believe this is what has helped me see the light out of all this, just by simply opening myself up and getting in "tune" with my inner self, something I never EVER took time out to do. And this has made a TREMENDOUS difference. This is what has really truely helped me these past few weeks in taking the right steps in becoming stronger again but most of all finding myself. I totally recommend everyone try doing this whenever they can.

I now almost feel like since opening up myself to the act of meditating, that now there is a constant certain positive energy around me always, someone/something looking out for me, maybe protecting me or guiding me....something that I never knew existed. Sometimes if you find that you are just not getting positive energy from people you wish you could get it from or from those around you, maybe you just need to try and find it in another place....starting within yourself.

Even though I will be the first to admit I pretty much had to have a breakdown with tears and guilt and the whole shabang of letting myself go along with thoughts about letting you guys down in a sense as well. But I needed to come to terms with what I had done and be honest with myself before I could even begin to start to heal.

But i think that old Rosy is finally resurfacing again. I feel it in my thoughts. I feel it around me. Its that certain feeling I had when I first began the last transformation. A feeling of just knowing what i want, facing and accepting the fact that this is how it has to be and what I need to do.

In my mind now, there is no future. There is only today. And I know what I must do today in order to change tommorow. I don't see the cloudiness in it anymore, nor am I allowing myself to get consumed with thoughts on what other people are thinking because this in the end can be the worst thing you can do that can easily destroy you. I only see myself now and think.....this is what "I" want and I am just GOING FOR IT!

The good news is I dont have as far to go like last time, but nevertheless, its really tough accepting the fact that you basically "fucked up' a little and need to start working hard again.

This however is part of life. This is the life of someone who battles a weight problem. We will always be fighting to stay alive..to stay afloat. Its sad really..but true.

But the time has now come for ROUND 2 I suppose. Game on! But when that bell rings...its time to show myself just how strong I can really be, even if going to be tackling it alone.smiles

Life is only as complicated as you make it..and yet if you choose..you can make it just as simple. KNow what you want, and just go for it.

Anyways,
thanks for reading
Rosy:)

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY...

2009-06-20T20:56:00.000-07:00

Well to all the fathers out there and especially MINE...HAPPY FATHER'S DAY!!!!

This fathers day I feel even more closer to my dad. Why? I suppose because in the last few months i have been getting much more in touch with my own spiritual side as I am trying to get deeper into my soul trying to figure out my calling and the reasons why I am here and why things happen, and certain feelings I get and carry with me.

I have been meditating more (neat stuff by the way) and welcoming in more positive energy into my life. I also have been allowing myself to "for once" release and still trying to get rid of anything thats negative in my life that seems to bring me down as a person. Holding me back from being my best. Something instead of putting all my focus on, just letting it go while not giving it another thought. And believe it or not, its working. When looking back at these last few weeks...all of a sudden my life lately has been alot quieter, compared to just a few short weeks ago..its taken a change. Its as if its done a 360 degrees turn around and the waters are now more calmer, the way they should have been.

And by starting to open myself up like this, by doing this kind of meditation, the one thing that it is helping me do is to allow me to see the greater picture on life,and putting more of my focus on being much more appreciative of the time I do have here, thanking God for all the blessings and positive things that do happen and all those people that come in and out of my life.... instead of being so petrafied of death.

But on the flip side to the positive, it also sadly makes me face the fact and come to terms with even more, that we are not here forever. It's a time that will someday come for us all, where we must leave this place, and go back home. Where our journey here might be over, but yet continues for us on the other side. A very sad fact of about life but yet the reality of it. To lose my dad will be like losing myself.

Its funny cause I always joke with my father about how he is not allowed to leave me. And if "god forbid" that time comes, he is just not allowed to go. Personally I cannot see me living my life without him here. I cannot even take in the thought of that.

He is like an angel that god sent to us/me..a person that looks just like a normal everyday type of man, but yet carries a special kind of heart and soul that you never really do find much, if ever. Really extrordinary actually.

He is absolutely one of the most unselfish, loving, caring, giving, kind hearted, always ready to help anyone in need type of person that i have ever encountered or met in my life time. And I am not just saying that cause he is my dad..I am saying that cause its TRUE.

Sometimes i can be driving in my car (where I happen to do alot of my thinking like many of us) and for a split second the thought of him and that sad day when he must take that voyage alone leaving us here (whenever that is scheduled to happen) plays in my mind...tears just begin to fall, and they don't stop. And i can feel the pain like its so real. It is going to be like my heart will be ripped right out of me. God blessed me with him in my life, and I know that day and time will be for me probably the most hardest and most sadest days of my life.

From the first breath I took when arriving into this world, he was always there for me and my siblings. Whenever we needed anything and I mean anything...he would never question...and would give us whatever we needed. And i am not talking materialisic things, we were never really spoilt nor did we have tons of money growing up..but its the little things that stand out in my head.

I remember looking back, if I would call my dad at 2:00 in the morning cause i missed the last bus and being really irresponsible..dad can you pick me up blah..blah...you would never hear him bitch..he would be there in minutes no matter how tired he was.
Dad I need just 20 dollars for a new pair of shoes if you have it?...he would always give me 60. And if he didnt have it...he would make sure I would have it by the end of the week.

Sometimes I remember when he would get paid..at the end of the week..or if he had a good week...he would just give us all a few hundred dollars each just to give it. Once he paid all his workers, material, and whatever...He always was one to share. Any extras he made for himself, he made for his family. And giving was always something and is still something that my dad did/does best. Not only with his own immediate family, but with even strangers.

I always said my dad was always happy as long as he had some of his favorite food on the table.. things like nice fresh bread, strong cheeses, and of course, cannot forget, those incredibly popular but yet the worst most terrible food you can take in as far as your thighs are concerned..(italian cold cut meats)..smiles, but that was pretty much it. Was never fancy, didnt take much to please him, actually never demanded much if anything from anyone. He is and always was happy when friends visited, you would always find him conversing, laughing while sharing some of his best funny stories along with drinks and food. His door was always open.

Sometimes it was almost a little too much. When we were younger my siblings and I, we would get all ready to go out for a family outing or family visit(which wasnt often because dad worked long and hard hours doing contruction and sometimes wouldnt even come home until after 9 p.m)

But when we did have the chance on that rare occasion where my dad DID come home early...I can still picture all 5 of us kids, ready to go....but once or IF that doorbell rang before getting out the door, because someone decided to stop over unexpectedly for a visit..we would have to all start taking all our stuff off and forget about going out. WE knew the drill. I remember us being so upset, dissappointed, not being able to understand, and just asking why?why cant dad say we are going out? why cant he say not tonight? My dad could never kick anyone out or turn them away, even if it did mean sometimes dissappointing his own family for the sake of others. But he gave us so much, and worked so hard, how could we possibly stay mad at him? That could never happen.

Sometimes even when he should say no, or wants to say no, he will say yes. He goes about his life, so relaxed usually that nothing really bothers him. It never mattered if bills were piling up..or if he would go home paying his workers more than he paid himself...he just was such a proud man. Proud of his work, was always thankful, and you can still find him always giving something away..even today.

When thinking back the only hurt I remember seeing in my dad's eyes was when our dog passed not long ago. He was my dads real best friend. And that night I was told my dad held her while my sister and I were on our way to pick Stella(our dog up) to bring her into the emergency vet hospital...and he just held her, looked at her, kissed her and hugged her teary eyed...and gave her to my other sister there and said...Don't bring her back. Go.

I know it killed him to say that..but he knew he could not bare saying goodbye again. That dog was always there with my dad. She would greet him when he walked in the door after a long day..he would give her the best cheeses and shared his dinners (lots of pasta)...he always joked that stella lived so long cause she was fed like a queen all her life! LOL

In the end when stella was getting pretty sick..he still took her with him everyday to work..he wanted it that way cause he always said she was there for me when i was sick and now i am there for her. He still has her old bed..and chain in the apartment where they live my parents now..and he will always have them. You can still see that sadness in his eyes when speaking about her.

But this is so my dad. Again so simple..not at all into fancy cars..or expensive gifts..he just loves to love. and loves to give onto others. He respects everyone..no matter what colour or race, rich or poor. people are all equal to him in his eyes.

Mom always said its because when he was younger he never had much and that he really had to work hard since he was 9 years old (his own father passd when he was young and so he being the only boy was basically the one who had to work for the family). CAn you imagine being 9..having to work and to have to take on that responsibility and the role of a father? Perhaps he didnt make much, but enough to have food put on the table. Mind you sometimes it was only bread. Most people in italy were pretty poor back then, and so that in turn changed my father by wanting to give to everyone as he went on and got older! Some people might turn greedy after living that life, others might hold on to money really tight and not want to share or spend..but not my dad.

Anyways..I am thankful to have him in my life. I love him to pieces.

Anyways.. I can go on and on...but ...I wont. Thats it for tonight. Just thought I would do a fathers day entry..sorry if I bored you guys..

Have a great day..and make sure to always cherish the times you have with your dad or those you love, and tell them you love them or that they are special to you...because that really can be taken away in just an instant.

Sometimes I know that life doesnt always allow us to say what we really want to say to others we care about and whats in our hearts...and to even truely do what would make us the most happiest deep down....for whatever different reasons..trust me i know...but when you can....its best to always take advantage of the opprotunity while its there.

anyways, thanks for reading
Rosy
hugz

Is this it??

2009-06-09T19:45:00.000-07:00

So I am lying here relaxing on the edge of my bed tonight and thought I would jump on for a few minutes. I never realized that my keyboard would reach and fit nicely on my bed, mouse siting right next to me on the floor on top of a cardboard box that is just perfect level when reaching over..and the actual screen of my computer is also not too far away..close enough so that I can see what I am typing at least(no, I still havent been able to get myself a desk and this is a nice change from my butt becoming numb):-( sweeeet!

These last few days I have been in my thinking mode again. Not sure why, but mostly having to do with thoughts about life..my life in general and one question that seems to pop up more than usual...and that question is..."Is this it for me???

I am not sure if its just me, or if many of us might go through this same exact thing at one point or another...but I cannot help but look around me and question that.

Honestly.. I am not a person who should be at all dissappointed in my life, and what life has given to me and has blessed me with. Actually quite contrary..I am really thankful cause I realize there are so many others living who are not so fortunate.

I did my share of partying when I was younger...I had my share of dating men...I have met some really amazing people throughout my life, who all carried different personalities, and such a wide range of sorts. Over the years, I have gained more friends than lost. I have been so lucky to have a close net family by my side one that seems to get even closer as time goes on..and even in today's age where you find families separated for many reasons..we are all still close together. Mom, dad, brother, sister in law, brother in law, sisters, nephews, niece..its great! I wouldnt trade that for anything.

Then i have my own marriage. One to a man that is the hardest worker I have ever known next to my dad of course. The greatest father to my children that I could ever ask for..and we have now been married for 7 years..something really hard to believe really cause it doesnt feel like it. LOL

But even with these wonderful things listed..I still wonder ..is this it for me? I don't know why that is. I mean I go to work...thankful that i even have a job...we just bought a brand new home after renting for so many years..I love my kids dearly...and spend most of my time with them and around them...but then when I find myself in a moment...and think of life as a whole...and how life is so huge, with so many opprotunities for many MANY things that we could all experience and try...it just leaves me feeling as if there are other things that i might like to do..without knowing what they are..if that makes any sense?? I wonder if this makes me a selfish person? Should I even feel guilty for even feeling this way?

When looking at the life I live and whats around me, and watching as people not only myself go about their days..it reminds me of all of us carrying on like a bunch of robots in this so called society. We all have our own regular routines that we must do each day..we all have priorities that cannot be overlooked..work deadlines that must be met and so many other responsibilities that we are so used to taking on and having, that we are sometimes not even given the time to think twice about the greater picture on life and what we have all been given.

And as people, if we never question and never try and venture out of this "comfort zone"..this can seem all somewhat normal. Even for me when I am not in my "deep thoughts" sort of state.

But when you go into some deep thinking and opening up our minds..about life...with having given just one chance to be here on this earth, can we all say that we are truely completely happy and satisfied and have done what we wanted to do? Would there be any changes we would want to make? What about volunteering our time to help sick kids...or elderly people, instead of just working for ourselves and for money in our own pockets...genuinely being able to help out someone just to help.?

I am sure this would bring out the best in so many of us, and bring us the most joy. A change that would actually touch our souls. Something so simple, yet so rewarding. Something that perhaps might not bring us fortune and fame..nor help make us beautiful in a superficial way on the outside such as lipstick and fancy clothes...but something instead on the inside that is so deep and meaningful, that it just leaves us with a feeling that we end up carrying with us that is uncomparable to anything else. Worth more than what any amount of money can buy.

Even over this past weekend..I was at home with my husband and children..and i looked at him (my husband)and said..I feel like i am bored like there is something else I am also suppose to be doing. He didnt quite get where I was coming from, nor did he understand...but I suppose when you are doing the same routine over and over and over again..your mind starts to wander...and this is how some people like myself end up feeling.

He on the other hand is completely happy with routine.LOL
He is not hard to please ..he doesnt expect alot..he counts his blessings and his thoughts are pretty basic. Such as this is where I am ..where I should be!

....Where I am the type of person who thinks outside of what would be considered the normal box. My husband and I are in many ways really different. WE think differently. But this is something I have accepted.

Anyweays, I think I am just too comfortable right now typing away here. This is actually really relaxing doing it this way.

I will try and figure things out. Perhaps I just need a vacation or even better...just looking for my calling whatever that may be:-)

anyways...time for nighty nights...

Rosy
huggies

Got my frist speeding ticket??? what?? me??

2009-06-05T08:07:00.000-07:00

Tonight we are going out for my moms 60th birthday....HAPPY BIRTHDAY MOM....!!
Wow 60 years!! What is that? Strange, scary, nice..I dont know.

I remember when I was in my teens and anyone over the age of 25 seemed old to me. And it seemed like I personally would never get to that point. And look at me today..35 half way to 40..and scared as hell!! I only have very few grey hairs mind you...surprisingly for the amount of dye I have put in it throughout the years..but still. I really am not personally looking forward to 40. Anyways..I have 5 years yet to enjoy my 30's before that time comes around.

Yesturday funny story. My car needed fixing again. So i had to bring it to the place which is on the other side of town. I live in the west..I had to go east...so it was about a 25 minute drive or so..

Anyways...I was booting it..I had to work later on that morning so like usual in a rush as my life ALWAYS is.

As i was driving at one point...ok a little bit fast..i see this guy standing in the middle of the road..flagging me down..pull over..pull over...what he heck? I looked to my left and right..is this guy talking to me I thought??...yup he certainly was cause it seemed like I was the leader of the pack sort of speak..shit i thought!!

Turns out to be a police officer..oh no:-( what to do what to do..
So I decided I had to play the part.

As he walked over to my car..he said so professionally(something i have never actually heard before except in movies) license and registraton please!??

ok...so trying to find everything..totally embaressed cause its always been usually me looking at the person who is pulled over to the side wondering what they did..this time i was the one being pulled over.

Here you go( I gave him what he asked for after looking through all the garbage in my purse). He says ..do you realize you were going 76 in a 60 zone?? Um..ya i said..(thank god i didnt shower as of yet that morning cause i looked like crap something that should help the situation)

I went on...its just I am not feeling well. I really am trying to get to where I am going. Where are you going he responds... work? No..no..just over there. I had brain freeze!! I couldnt think of where the heck I should be going, and not to mention I am the shittiest liar ever!!

Anyways, be right back he says. SO he comes back hands me my very first speeding ticket. He says to me ..i have given you a break cause i see your not in your right frame of mind(meaning sick i suppose) so i have lowered it to $55.00 so that shouldnt break you too much..but you have gained 3 points in the meantime. Drive slower next time..

ya.. thanks alot I thought. Anyways so Rosy got her first speeding ticket. I wish i was at least in a nicer car. ;-)

Here I was trying to save some money by trying to get to a place where my dad knows the person to fix my vehicle..and i end up spending even more..that SUCKS!

Talk soon
Rosy

Our family seriously needs "the nanny" to come for a visit!

2009-06-02T07:22:00.000-07:00

OK. So over the weekend had my daughters 3rd birthday party! Yeah "3" already...!! I can't believe it actually. To think soon she will be in school as well, what ever mischief will I find myself getting into???? After all, I will have more time on my hands once all "3" are in school. yeah....the countdown begins...

Anyways, as far as the party, went fairly well. I told my sister jokingly "other than a bleeding nose and blood all over the carpets..hey..party went pretty good";-)

Our kids are bad man!! LOL I know as a parent you should not use those words..but..there is no other words to describe these little monsters.

We have mostly boys in our family as far as nieces and nephews are concerned. And to top it all off, they are all around the same age as far as boys. So here we are 7 children under the age of 8....we have my 3 sisters and one brother..mom and dad...and sister in law...all i can say was the night was INSANE!

Our kids cannot play nice together. In our family there is none of this...aw lets play this or that...play nicely..chit chat..laugh....oh NOOOOOOOOOOOOO
more like..punches here, punches there..screaming yelling..running around the house like a bunch of crazies...

But on Sunday night..one seriously got punched right in the nose..my brother carried him upstairs...blood all over the place his hands..face..trail of it all over our new "light" carpet....my mom having a serious heartattack when viewing this (she is already a nervous person when someone gets hurt)...yelling things like."omg..these kids need disipline..." "this is crazy" "my god" "WHAT HAPPENED..WHAT HAPPENED" !!!
LOLOL
....then there is my dad sitting at the table (other than saying hi when he arrived I had no time to talk to him at all that night because of the rush of it all) He was all cool and collective saying things under his breath however in italian like.."if these were my kids I would have given them so many palaties by now" which means slaps by the way..or like most of italians refer to them as beatings...and of course swaring away...my dad just cannot believe how kids are today. Especially his own grandchildren....he is in shock I guess.

LOLOLOLOL
it was like a mad house. Its always this way!!! At one point when all that confussion was happening..I seriously am not one to drink..only very occasionally..but man ...I looked at that can of beer...popped it open and drank it like there was no tommorow.
Talk about stress.

So ...our plan now I think is to have no more of these tradtional so called "birthday parties" until the kids are older. I told my sister, it might cost us, but we may as well just take the parties somewhere else rather than our homes" Family keeps getting bigger, kids keep getting terrible....and then there is me..turning into an alcoholic for christ sake:)

If the Nanny seriously came to visit our family on one of these occasions I sware to you, she would quit doing what she does!:-) there is enough going on at one of these parties to scare anyone away.

That was my sunday night..thought I would share that one with you guys!
Have a wonderful week!!
Rosy:-)
a.k.a. the alchi!

Look around you....

2009-05-28T07:53:00.001-07:00

Life has really strange coincidences now doesnt it? Or are they actual coincidences or things that were meant to happen for unknown reasons.

I know in my case in the last few months, even before that many "strange" things have happened. Not sure why, and its almost really a waste of time and pointless to analyze them because we sometimes will never know these things. But it always leaves me thinking..

Are we really all here for a puprose? What is that purpose? Have we really unknowingly been given a path that we are all taking for different reasons that are unexplainable. Do the people we really encounter throughout our lives really have a reason for being around? hm.. interesting.

When you really stop and think about your life, and stuff that goes on around you, you will begin to notice certain things that just seem strange. It is when I became somewhat more aware that this was actually happening, that all of a sudden, it left me wondering if I was actually meant to be here,. At this moment, at this very point in my life, and if my cards were dealt already for me before my existence.

Actually when thinking back...if I may be honest here. I think this all started when I met this friend. When we started hanging out..I noticed that weird stuff began happening. At first it was like nothing, nothing that I really thought about ..never really caught on to it...until one day I said..hey wait a minute...did you? did I? me? you? same time? what??lol
And then after that..it started happening so much. I would smell and feel things perhaps even think about things that my friend would be as well. Or show up at the same time somewhere where that certain friend would be without talking to that person. I can write a list of strange circumstances pertaining to us..but its too long to list.LOL

But when going back in time..none of this ever happened before that. Now I feel really weird..lol I know i sound like a freak..seriously I am not! Just saying it like it is. Maybe in life your meant to meet up with a certain person, and you dont know why but you share this certain "sense" and it starts everything off from there. Doesnt even have to be a close friend I am sure, could be just someone you pass on the street, but its this unexplainable stuff that seems to happen thereafter.

Anyways I better not talk about this anymore, I will end up not sleeping tonight. This topic really leaves me questioning too much. I am a person that really can let things get to me and I try not to do that anymore. I just go with the flow these days...but LIFE IS WEIRD!! LOL

However, the latest thing that just came to my attention.
My mom and dad sold their house months ago..one that they had for MANY years. My siblings and I (as children) grew up there for the most part, so we were all somewhat sad about having to sell.

Now, myself having rented for so many years, finally, about a month ago we (me and my family) got the keys and moved into our very own first home. Even though we paid for it to be built about almost a year ago.

Now is it a coincidence that when looking at the numbers of our own home from right to left, instead of left to right that its the exact same numbers and sequence as my mom and dads old house number? I dunno.

But for those of you who have never "bought" from an actual big builder company before, you know the one's who make tons of homes (townhomes)...let me reassure you that the only things you do know ahead of time when buying are things like lot sizes, how big your house is, the layout,,,the general plans, and you have a "lot" number that your home goes by.(thats it thats all)...there is no other info given out at the time because its too far ahead...as far as what the house colour will be, address number etc..not even a street name is given to you at the time when putting your deposit down....oh there was another coincidence concerning the name of my street, but i wont even go there. (thats another story) LOL

But you see, I wouldnt have even noticed that (regarding the number)if my sister didnt point that out. So keep your eyes opened and what goes on around you...you just may be surprised at how many of these so called "coincidencees" happen!!

But this sort of "weirdness" does somewhat run in our family. My sister for one has weird stuff all the time going on, this has been happening to her since she was little and slowly more in depth once she started opening up herself to this whole thing by meditating and doing some research...my grandmother on my moms side has had some sort of other thing..forget the name..when you think about something or topic and then it just magically appears in the local newspaper..some sort of focused same topic within that same week(she is a very educated woman my grandmother ask her anything and she will know the answer and if she doesnt she will find out). I was just told this somewhat "sense" that my grandmother carries with her when I went to visit her about a month ago in the hospital, and my mom told me it is true that nanny always had that for years..lol
oh nice, i thought.Our family is a little freakkkkish..smiles

So you never know..maybe its running into me now. Too bad it had to be after the age of 30, or too bad I couldnt predict numbers in the lotto so i can pay off some of my long existing bills...lol. But I will have fun with it in the meantime.

Anyways, have a great day! smiles

CHANTAL AND ANNA....I had questions, and they answered!!

2009-05-22T18:50:00.000-07:00

Name:Chantal Milot
Age: 35
Occupation: registered massage Therapist/ Active Release therapy provider/personal trainer/rehab specialist

Location: Toronto

(1) What are generally the types of foods you personally focus on eating on a day to day basis. lean proteins (poultry or fish) egg whites, whey protein. Fish Oil (every day) low glycemic carbs (yams, large flake oatmeal, cream of wheat, brown rice, russet potatoes, greens and berries

(2)Many women and men for that matter sometimes feel intimidated when seeing pictures that you might be displaying around competition time. However, what women might be interested in knowing is if you look like this all year around displaying this sort of "picture of perfection" lets say?
I used to 'let myself go' on the off season, but I have found that it is much easier for me to remain relatively lean year round. It is healthier to do so for me, as extreme dieting measures for prolongued periods of time are often deleterious and harmful for the body..and mind.. (as well as to the minds and bodies of your loved ones.. LOL)

(3) I personally was surprised and shocked when having heard from you both of you and how my own personal transformation story touched you.
Why and how did it touch you, and also how did you find yourselves somehow relating to it?
I was a personal trainer for a long time.. and often found myself listening to all sorts of excuses my clients felt like giving me to justify or explain their hardship in losing weight. I only wish Rosy had been around then, so I could have simply carried her blog with me at all times (while training clients), so to be able to 'flash it' to my self-defeating clients (at the time!).
These days, I tend to provide treatment plans for all types of people, including Insurance cases, and MVAs (Motor Vehicle Accidents Insurance claims). Most of these people are often limited in the ADL( Activities of Daily Living) and thus tend to battle the bulge (sort a speak). It was refreshing to see how someone can take charge of their life and achieve the success they invisioned. I guess I see/hear so many cases where people have given up on their health (for whatever reason)on a daily basis.. that it was just nice to hear that true weight loss success IS attainable, if you just love yourself enough to believe in yourself. Thanx Rosie!!

(4) You guys look fantastic! Have you always been in this great of shape? And if not, when did you decide to start living a more healthier lifestyle?

I can't remember a time where I wasn't active.. sorry :S..

I have had to learn a LOT over the years though, on what works and what doesn't.. as a matter of fact.. I am STILL learning :) ( Yea.. I know this doesn't answer your question.. but its the best I can do at 1 am in the morn.. lol)

(5) How do you personally keep yourself motivated to continue staying on track without getting weak and getting yourself sucked into the easier lifestyle with all the "bad" foods everywhere or skipping the gym because of the fast paced life that we all live.Especially when a competition is done, or a goal has been reached?
I keep track of everything I eat, and cycle my caloric intake (carbs:protein:fat ratio) everyday. the only thing that keeps me on track, honestly is the knowledge that I have a cheat day coming up, (or a planned refeed as they call it). Knowing this keeps me on track the rest of the week.. and believe me.. a cheat day is never as good as when it IS something that you have worked for all week!!! (Can you imagine just how amazing that Starbucks Chocolate Chunk Oatmeal Square tastes after you have thought about it ALL week long??!!! It's your $1.95 ticket to heaven , I say! :))

To be honest, I'm not one to start eating crazy things after a show.. I actually LIKE clean , fresh, bland and tasteless food. I find that after having eaten this way for months, eating large quantities of refined/processed goods just does not sit well with me (nor would you want to find yourself sitting next to me!.. lol.. seriously! ).

I think that the thought alone of the innevitable GI perturbance that would follow a 'food orgy", is enough of for me to stay away from refined goods and fast food. (Ummm.. lesson learned, my dear!!!)

(6) Do you have any personal health problems or issues that you deal with like many of us, that if you allowed could very well hold you back from being your best? Yup.. I'm hypoglycemic.. so I am Uber Carb Sensitive. meaning I gain weight easily, because my sugar will spike up and crash rapidly as well (thats not good for weight loss).. and it makes it really tough for me to get very lean :S Oh well! It obviously still can be done!

(7) If there is a woman right now reading this who perhaps thinks that she could never possibly achieve what you have achieved, or live the life you find yourself living , or that its too late for her..what would you say to her to convince her otherwise or to motivate her?
Have you seen the Biggest Loser last week?? I think you should ask THAT guy (Jerry) if age is a factor in weight loss.. or if it is ever too late to start :) (for those who don't know what I am talking about, this man lost 177lbs of bodyweight and he was 63 years old when he started... amazing!!! )

(8)Chanty can you briefly describe....

what its like to compete? Crazy :) Addictive..i'm not kidding either.. been competing for 9 years.. I can't stop! It's just so great to finally step on that stage.. after all that training.. after all that primping.. it just makes it all worth whileWhat is it like to prepare yourself for one?(anna you can answer this one)
how do you feel mentally and physically when its done? Well mentally .. it depends on what the placing was.. LMAO if it was a good placing then its great, if it was a bad placing, then you're frustrated and mad at the world .. for a few days, then you forget about it.. and go right back at it.. (hehehe I'm just too honest).. Physically.. it's always draining.. :)
Chanty i know you have won a few competitions...can you tell us what thats like for you as a woman?

Well.. it's great.. lol

9) Just so other women can understand and get an inside idea of what its like living the life you both do...there is obviously much more you take on on a daily basis like many of us other than just working out and eating well. Can you describe a typical day of your own for us? >(I dont really have a typical day per say.. bc my trainer makes me cycle my activity level along with my caloric and carb intake.. so thats a toughy for me (yes.. Erik is pretty clever.. and his programs are pretty cutting edge.. lol)
Generally my day will start with food.. basically rolling out of bed, so i can head to the gym and perform my first workout. I generally head home afterwards to prepare my meals for the entire work day ( 2-8pm). Eat my meals at every 2 1/2 hours (so I eat between massage sessions), then head back to the gym after work for an additional cardio session.I generally treat between 3-6 patients each day, and work 6days a week, so between training, eating, preparing food and working.. I guess there isn't too much time left :S

(10) We all experience those "off" days. What are your own personally off days like? How do you deal with them and handle them yourself?
An OFF day for me is a day where I feel lethargic or negative (lack of carbs and overtraining will do this). I can't afford to 'be' this way at work, so.. I just "fake it". I have learned to control my moods over the years, through understanding that hormonal fluctuations are normal when dieting.. but that this fact does not earn you the right to 'snap' on everyone or at every thing. However, becoming self-aware is a practice that takes time .. (so cut yourself some slack if you can't control your urge to grump around the office for a few minutes.. lol).

(11) If there was any advice you could give to other women right now on how they too can reach inside themselves to come out winners in the fight against obesity, or anything else for that matter that perhaps is holding them back from being the best they can be, (or in my case striving to be the best I can be) what would you tell them?

I live my life by the Law of Attraction. Think of greatness, and greatness will follow.. its as simple as that!
Chantal Milot

Thanks so much Chantal for sharing that info with us. As I mentioned to you before, you are like an idol to me. I truely look up to you and not only do you inspire me but many others to try and be the best that we can be. Wishing you continued successs!!:-) Rosy hugz

Name: Anna Gates
Age: 32
Occupation: Administrative Assistant
Where do you live: Yarmouth, Nova Scotia

1.What are generally the types of foods you personally focus on eating on a day to day basis?I generally focus on eating good, clean foods. I eat a lot of oatmeal, brown rice, sweet potatoes, egg whites, chicken, fish, lots of green and red veggies (green beans, spinach, broccoli, tomatoes, peppers), walnuts, natural peanut butter, low fat yogurt and berries. There is a lot of variety of good, clean foods out there, depending on preference. These foods are my basic staples, what’s always stocked in my fridge and cupboards.

2. Many women and men for that matter sometimes feel intimidated when seeing pictures that you might be displaying around competition time. However, what women might be interested in knowing is if you look like this all year round displaying this sort of “picture perfection” lets say.NO!!! Definitely not! For me personally, it is unrealistic and next to impossible for me to attain how I look in those pictures all year round. Every figure girl/bodybuilder has an off season and for the most part, if you were to see them, they look “normal”, not intimidating at all. For me, 9 months of the year, I look, let me see…..bulky, heavy. Because of the muscle I have on my body, when I gain body fat I look big. It takes me 16 weeks to look like those pics….and it is super hard to get there….that’s why I have the pics taken….to document what I have accomplished because it’s only for a short period of time and I want to be able look back and remind myself what I am capable of doing. Because once it’s all said and done with, if I didn’t have those pics, I don’t know if I’d believe it myself.

3. I personally was surprised and shocked when having heard from you both and how my own personal transformation story touched you. Why and how did it touch it touch you and also how did you find yourselves somehow relating to it?
Because a healthy lifestyle and fitness is such a huge part of me and because I know how difficult and challenging it can be at times, your story touched me beyond. I am inspired by any one who wants to change and improve themselves by living a healthy active lifestyle and is actually taking the steps to do so. It’s hard to take that first step, results aren’t immediate, and it’s a day by day slow progression. It takes a lot of determination, persistence, dedication and hard work. Whether you are 300 lbs trying to loose weight for health reasons or 140 lbs wanting to loose weight to compete, we are going through the same struggles…that’s why I related to you Rosy…some of the things you wrote were as if they had come out of my mouth. I have experienced a lot of the same things, both good and bad. It’s no easier for me to diet than you. I’m shedding blood, sweat and tears too. Hearing your story, watching your video, reading your blog, I bonded with you immediately.

4.You guys look fantastic! Have you always been in this great of shape? And if not, when did you decide to start living a healthier lifestyle?
No, I have not always been in great shape. I made the decision to get into shape 6 months after the birth of my second child, that was the first time I stepped foot in a gym. The minute I did my first set, I knew this was for me and I was going to love it. I never had a passion growing up, didn’t like sports, music, art, nothing…this was the first time I connected with something and it clicked in my head that this is what I was meant to do, this is what it feels like to be passionate about something…finally!!! That was 4.5 years ago and I haven’t stopped since.

5.How do you personally keep yourself motivated to continue staying on track without getting weak and getting yourself sucked into the easier lifestyle with all the “bad” foods everywhere or skipping the gym because of the fast paced life that we all live. Especially when a competition is done or a goal has been reached?
Sometimes it is hard to keep yourself motivated, especially after just dieting down and seeing yourself put weight back on. There is a “let down” afterwards, which I think is very important for people to be aware of when dieting. I wasn’t aware of it the first time I dieted down and I think if I would have been aware, it would have helped me prepare for it. I try to keep things in perspective…I do treat myself. If you eat clean 90% of the time, one “cheat meal” a week is not going to make you fat and gain all kinds of weight. I’m just as guilty for having cheesecake at a family get together as the next person…and do I cheat more than I should?, of course I do! I do have a small group of supportive friends, and if I feel like cheating really badly, I call them. They know my goals and they always point me back in the right direction. I also always carry my cooler bag with me; all my meals are in it. I always try to be prepared if I’m going to be out. On days I don’t feel like training, I tell myself doing nothing will make me feel worse and I remind myself how much better I always feel once I’ve trained. And if something comes up that I am unable to train, I tell myself its ok, the gym will be there tomorrow.

6. Do you have any personal health problems or issues that you deal with like many of us, that if you allowed could very well hold you back from being your best?
I am a binge eater…and this has held me back more than once. I found myself binging after my first time dieting down. So I have been dealing with this for the last 2.5 years. After dieting so strict and for so long, I’d find myself jumping from one restaurant to the next…like you Rosy, I have found myself eating 4 chocolate bars, one right after the other. I just couldn’t get the food in my mouth fast enough. It is by far the most physically sick I have ever felt in my life. There have been times when I’ve felt like I was dying and could not physically roll over for hours. I would have to sleep it off. Waking up the next morning is terrible after a binge…I feel so disgusting and so disappointed in myself. I have gotten help for this and although I still struggle with this, I am aware of my limits and what triggers the binge. For instance, I know that one bite usually turns in to hundreds, so I ask myself is that one bite worth it? An of course emotions trigger it…that’s the hardest to control. But I have to remind myself that I am in control and those negative emotions are not worth risking what I am working towards.

7.If there is a woman right now reading this who perhaps thinks that she could never possibly achieve what you have achieved or live the life you find yourself living or that it’s too late for her…what would you say to her to convince her otherwise or to motivate her?You can achieve whatever you put your mind to. Believe in yourself and anything is possible; in fact the possibilities are limitless. It is never too late to do anything in life. Whether it’s a healthy lifestyle change, a trip you always wanted to go on or joining a dance class. If you want something, go after it. Don’t live with regret and don’t live in the past. It’s a decision…make the decision, commit to it and start working towards it now. Don’t ever doubt yourself; you are capable of doing beyond what you could ever imagine. And never, ever let fear stand in your way. If you need help ask for it. Believe and take the first step….

8.What is it like to prepare yourself? How do you feel mentally when it’s done?I have yet to compete….I have wanted to compete for the last three years. However, I do know what it’s like, minus the part of walking across the stage. I am currently 8 weeks away from attending a pro figure camp, which I am super excited about. I’m hoping that this camp will prepare me for this amazing walk I’ve wanted to take for some time now. Come 2010, I will be competing in my first figure competition. It takes me 3-4 months to diet down. This year I hired a coach, and he is wonderful. Knowing myself well, I need that person to answer to. I raid my cupboards and fridge and get rid of anything that is going to tempt me and get in the way of my goal. I have favorite inspiring/motivating quotes and pictures that I put up in the places I am the most, my bathroom, my kitchen and my bedroom. I inform my friends and family, so they know what I am doing and can be supportive. I have to mentally prepare myself for the next four months. It does take a mental toll on you. I know the road is going to be long and hard, but I remind myself of the amazing reward in the end. Then I tell myself,”You have all the tools, you know what you have to do girl, now do it.”

9.Just so other women can understand and get an inside idea of what it’s like living the life you both do…there is obviously much more you take on, on a daily basis like many of us other than just working out and eating well. Can you describe a typical day of your own for us?
I do lead a “normal” life like everyone else. I’m up at 6:30 in the morning; I have two small children I have to get ready for school and the babysitter. I work 8-4; I train after work most of the time. I have to pick my children up (on the nights I have them. I am divorced). I go home, prepare meals, do my house work, spend quality time with my children and finally get myself ready for bed. I have a lawn to mow, garbage to take out, bills to pay, errands to run and friends and family I love to spend time with. My daughter is involved in dance and my son is involved in soccer. I cook my meals twice a week and have them all measured and ready in containers in the fridge to help save on time. This makes my day much easier.10.
We all experience those “off” days. What are your own personally off days like? How do you deal with them and handle them yourself?I have had “off” days where I’ve walked into the gym, sat there for 30 minutes and left. I have had “off” days, where I’ve walked in the gym started a set and left without finishing. I’ve had “off” days where I’ve gone in the gym, did my training and didn’t feel good about my workout at all. I’ve learned that everyone experiences “off” days, now and again. They are normal. Again it’s keeping things in perspective; you aren’t going to be setting personal records every workout and you aren’t always going to be full of energy and motivation every workout. I have learned to accept those days for what they are…”off” days. I leave it there in the gym and I don’t take it home with me. I tell myself, tomorrow’s a new day…it’s ok.

11.If there was any advice you could give to the other woman right now on how they too can reach inside themselves to come out winners in the fight against obesity or anything else for that matter that perhaps is holding them back from being the best they can be, (or in my case striving to be the best I can be) what would you tell them?First of all, I would like to tell them, that they are already winners, they just don’t know it yet! Know that you are in control….you are always in control. Your mind is a very powerful thing. Whatever you tell it, it believes it. So be careful what you are telling yourself, be aware of what you are telling yourself. Be positive and rid yourself of negativity. Surround yourself with people you love and who love you and do things that you enjoy doing and that make you happy. Don’t let anyone drag you down, hold you back, or tell you you can’t! Do it for yourself, not for anyone else. Know that it’s ok to be scared; just don’t let it keep you from accomplishing what it is you want. Know that you aren’t alone and if you feel that you are, let me be the first one to reach out to you and tell you that you aren’t. You can do it…take the first step. It’s not easy, but what reward in life is, when you think about it? Know that nothing happens over night, small and steady steps win the race. Have patience. Start believing and amazingly enough you will start achieving….and when you do, it is the most empowering feel in the world. I believe in every single one of you out there…make the decision, commit to it, make the necessary changes and never, ever give up!

Anna Gates

Thanks so much Anna for also taking time out to answer these questions for us. It is great to hear from both....someone who has walked the stage..and one that is going to real soon;-)
You have a great attitude, and I am sure you will come out a winner as well in the end! Wishing you the best of luck!!!
Rosy:-) hugz

Here fishy fishy....

2009-05-22T07:47:00.001-07:00

I was eating my breakfast today after my workout which by the way in case some of you might be wondering, I decided to have a single portion size of oats..1 egg and and orange (trying to keep things on a balanced thing these days). Oh and a tea...must not forget my tea.:-)))

Anyways, while I was chowing down..looking at my fish tank I noticed a couple of fish missing. Well, I guess one of the "bigger" fish I decided to buy for my fish tank seems to like to feast on the smaller fish..hmm

Something the aquarium people never mentioned to me of course. According to them, they told me this big fish would go fine with small ones. This isnt good. Although come to think about it, the big one does look kind of like it might have a few little teeth going on..so perhaps it can munch..not sure..but big enough for sure to just gulp one of those other cutie ones down. So I am now about I bleieve 3 fish down from when i started this tank.:-((

Anyways, got me to thinking...not sure if anyone reading this blog might know the reason why..but speaking of fish, something really strange I just don't understand.
When I eat a really small portion of one of those water creatures..im ok.
If I eat more than a small portion..I get all hyped up, heart pulputating etc..its strange.

I remember one time (a long time ago) i had even some of those shrimp in a homemade sauce, with bread ( it was soooo good)..and I feasted on that..overloaded big time..and man..I couldnt sleep all night long. Made me feel all weird and anxious.

Just thought I would mention that. Wonder if anyone else seems to get this at times.Makes me almost too energized for my liking. Maybe I was a fish in another life perhaps and it just doesnt agree with me I dunno.

So I actually dont eat much fish because of this reason. Only once in a while.
IF anyone knows the reason behind this feeling or if there is anyone else that feels this way after eating fish, free to write me. I guess I am curious this morning.

Well I need to jet...need to get my lunch ready and go make some money by working for a change..if you want to call it that;-)
Have a fabulous day friends!

Rosy

Rosy's on the right path....she's coming back....

2009-05-21T10:39:00.000-07:00

So this morning I was able to get through my weight routine using 15lbs free weights (at least). Thank GOD! It was tough but I did it. Legs are still somewhat sore even though I have had a day break inbetween weight training days. Cardio went well. Everything seems to be going as planned.

I wanted to write about my lunch today. You know, it was a crazy morning. I not only had a later workout, but before the workout I had a late breakfast which consisted of half a banana. I know..not good.

But then again, I was never the type of person that could go and work out on a full or even partially full stomach. I have always been this way. Its just how my body works. For me personally, I just seem to work my best and can push myself further when I work out first thing in the morning without eating much (if anything).

Once I got home though after the workout, I needed to have a quick shower. Afterwards I had a appointement with someone from our builder concering our home for our 30 day inspection. So ....still havent eaten:-(((.

Meanwhile I am chatting with him, laughing...putting on a somewhat friendly face (the usual me)when really all i could think about was..IM STARVING MAN!!!I really was FAMISHED!!

Thats the only drawback with working out. You can get real hungry. Your body needs to be fueled big time! And this is where you need to think before grabbing the first thing...and where your choices come into play.

Once the guy left, I bolted to the fridge..what to have...what to have??? So impatient..so me LOL
But when you have left eating until this state..it can get pretty crazy...

So at first I took out sliced bread...mayo...margarine...processed turkey slices....but then I thought..wait a second here...

I put all that stuff back and started over...

Instead, I chose to have a whole wheat bagel...mustard(instead of mayo), lettuce and tomatoes to top off my bagel sandwich... and some real unprocessed boneless and skinless chicken breast that I made the other night. And to finish things off I grabbed a nice fresh pear!! "Now thats what I am talking about" I thought to myself!!

It was great! AND you know what..I was full and felt satisfied. And this is what i wanted to really blog about today. I think its important that we all understand even without someone giving us a diet to follow, we can all make better choices really.

We might not be perfect all the time as women, but where you can, try and cut corners as far as extra calories etc..and try and remember to reach for more healthier whole food stuff most of the time..and you'll be ok.

Its about living friends. I want to live. I want to enjoy my life. I dont want to be just concentrating on the gym 24/7..I dont want that to consume my every thought anymore or what other people are thinking. WHO CARES ANYWAYS??

Even little things like when I took my shower when i got home..I dont usually wear perfume..but i thought..ah... why not? I felt good. I always feel good after a workout mind you..so relaxed like nothing could bother me. I was all nice and fresh and thought why not..couple of squirts..smiles and i was good to go!! It wasnt like i was trying to impress anyone..I was home alone ..but its nice to be able to feel good and treat yourself nice, even if its just for you.

So, it looks like I am starting out on the right path once again. Got the gym thing going, starting to think again before I eat..and i have the rest of the day off work to just enjoy this wonderful sunny day! What more can a woman ask for. I think I am going to go sit outside for a bit now before its time to pick up my little monsters from school and daycare:-)))

Love ya's
Rosy

Started back at the gym..finally!

2009-05-20T17:00:00.000-07:00

Hey friends. Just a quick update about myself.

I have FINALLY started back at the gym this week. Its weird because I was really shocked about my cardio. I honestly thought I would physically be taking a real beating concerning my cardio because its been quite a while, but believe it or not..I'm not doing bad at all!!LOL I honestly was able to keep up, not even much of heavy breathing..

I dont know why. I mean the fact that I could keep up and even do 45 minutes a couple of times this week (being that its my first week back)without a problem at a pretty fast pace just surpised me. I really thought I would need at least a week or even 2 before I got pretty good...but that really wasnt the case? strange.
I hope this is a preview of whats ahead for me.

Maybe i just had alot of steam built up over these past months that needed to be released I dont know, but nevertheless this chicky is not complaining. my tunes on my mp3 player were all set up..and i just jumped right in !

Weights are a different story.:-( I almost cried on Monday.
As far as my weight training this week. The time away from THAT did HURT me unfortunately.:-(((

When i was at my peak friends...i could easily do 25-30lbs of free weights..not bad for a girl...now....try 12.5 lbs starting out:-(((( what is that???? That is a huge drop.
I know i could do 15 probably tommorow..but still...thats sad to me. I was so much stronger before. Oh well. Push ups im not bad...did some lunges with my 12.5 lbs of free weights...lets just say my legs are just killing me right now. again SAD

Other than that, I have to say going to the gym this week has left me a little less stressed, more relaxed...exhausted at night mind you...but leaving me with such a great feeling.

I can recall when i left the gym the first morning this week when done my workout..I was all sweaty and stuff cause i only live minutes away from the place so I go back home to shower...but the breeze hitting my body as I was walking to my car..amazing feeling after a workout. So relaxed...I could have easily just lay down underneath a tree while feeling that breeze hitting my body and went to sleep. lol

Starting back at the gym, has also brought back that somewhat spark that I have been missing and that I almost had forgotten about. A certain excitment about the whole thing, that rush that I was used to getting throughout that year of hardcore training.

But, this time around is nicer in a sense, cause there is no pressure anymore..and I have felt like I can actually enjoy the gym.
I dunno..weird..but I am liking it again.
I plan on going heavier in the weights real soon..I dont really want to waste time there.

As far as Cardio this time around.. my plan is not to be doing too much of it..probably only about 30 minutes during weight training days after training..and on non weight training days i will try and stick to 45minutes to 1 hour..but nothing more than that and only a couple of times a week.

I found for that year, i was spending sometimes close to 2 hours in the gym in the morning..and that was way too long! I want to enjoy it this time around. My only thing I have to get down pat and really work on is my eating again. Thats been a somewhat problem to get disciplined again. Tough going back.

I start off pretty good..and then somehow at least once during the day something not so good just happens to be around and it amazingly just dissappears.lol

But all in due time. Right now I am trying to put my main focus and energy on getting this gym routine thing going again. A good habit to once again get used to. In the mean time i am just trying to make better choices regarding food on the whole...having a variety of different "good foods" (which is really important to me this time around) different fruits, good carbs such as whole grain stuff brown rice..lots of veggies and salads..of course tons of chicken again and fish.

I realize that my goal last year was pretty extreme considering my starting weight and where I wanted to get to and to be at once the 12 months was up. Trainer and I only had a limited time to get to that goal, and there was no time for playing around with foods. But, honestly..I need to somehow figure out how I can eat a variety of different healthy foods so that I can carry it on as a lifestyle. How i was eating before, (during the transformation), wasnt really something I could use everyday for the rest of my life. This is where it got hard for me in the after math. Never had any training in that department.

You cant really blame me for slipping. I mean I went from one extreme (the eating I got used to for that whole year... Sometimes same meals/foods for months)..and then the other extreme where I was at the end and thought...ok my goal is done..what now? lol

You need to just try taking a taste of these forbidden foods that you were not allowed to touch for so long...you wanna see how fast your body goes into overdrive? It become like this obsession eating thing. It is really hard to explain. Its like your body doesnt want to stop. I will never forget when I was done last year..in the first few months..I remember especially sugar...I could not stop friends. It was crazy. I could down 3 chocolate bars without a problem and my body just wanted MORE. So this is the downfall when you limit yourself to foods....once you get one taste..there is just no control anymore. And i am not sure if its completely the persons fault..but rather your body/mind just freaking out in a way.

Anyways...didnt mean to go off topic there...but regarding the gym..before I know it, i know people at this gym will also start seeing me as one of their own regulars just like the other gyms i have been to previously...you would be surpised how people get to know you, and seeing you..and you all start talking like a big ol' happy family...so for now I want to enjoy this time being a newcomer there and keeping to myself and just figuring things out more. If I need to, I have a really good referred person who would be willing to help me out..which I might consider as well in a little while.

This morning I could not help but look at the people weight training..I watched as they pushed their bodies..both men and women...I need to be back there, and soon I thought;)

rosy signing off

P.s....I had a friend tell me that she actually thought Chanty the lady at the top of the picks I posted would have look alot more built from what I have said about her..LOL :-))))
Let's just say i tried to pick one of her many fabulous photos that did not look so intimidating...she can be one tough looking chick...perhaps if you guys want I can show you some of her other ones..but i didnt want to scare you guys off...hehe

Anyways..those questions and answers should be ready soon I hope...I just thought it would be something different for a blog, to hear from actual women who live a life of health and fitness.

It is time for us as women to get all re-inspired...there is no better way then to hear from the best!!

2009-05-18T20:16:00.000-07:00

Hey Friends....well I am still working on this next blog. Might need a little bit more time...but lets just we are going to have a chance to hear from these 2 amazing women!! Remember those 2 particular women that I have spoken about? Well you are finally going to have a chance to meet them for yourselves in a way!

I asked them if they wouldnt mind sharing with us some of their own personal info by answering some questions on here (submitted by me of course), and they were more than happy to!

One is named Chanty, a true professional woman bodybuilder who has won a few titles!
The other is Anna, a woman who is only 8 weeks away and getting ready to attend a pro figure camp, to help prepare her for her very first competition! How exciting is that!

Pretty crazy!! I wanted to get down and personal with these gals and thought that you all might also like the chance to kind of get an inside perspective on what its like for them as well, living everyday and staying in shape etc...thought we might not only be able to learn something from them, but also open our minds up about women who compete and that lifestyle. Pretty interesting stuff!
Stay tuned coming soon...for now...a couple of pics...

Chanty

Anna

Check back later with questions and answers from these lovely ladies.....

Working on a new blog entry...

2009-05-15T19:49:00.000-07:00

Hey guys..just to give you the heads up I am working on a really special blog entry that I will be posting soon. I am so excited about it..hope you guys find it just as inspiring as I.

I know this is something that will help me stay focused, and hope that it might even help you guys either stay on track, or get a kick start to trying to improve your own physical self. Either way, i cant wait to post it for you all!!

Love ya lots
Rosy

Coming from one of the ladies I look up too....

2009-05-14T06:56:00.000-07:00

Hey friends. One of those ladies I look up to wrote something really nice today that made sense, and so I thought I would post it as well on my blog.

"One day at a time--this is enough. Do not look back and grieve over the past for it is gone; and do not be troubled about the future, for it has not yet come. Live in the present, and make it so beautiful it will be worth remembering."

Returning home...

2009-05-12T14:54:00.000-07:00

So last night I finally received my card in the mail in regards to my new gym membership. I was actually pretty excited when opening up that envelope. When seeing it, it was like a breath of fresh air, a new beginning and a reminder at the same time that "yes the time has come".

It is time for me to take responsibility for these last few months and to step up to the plate. It really sucks when you find yourself having to somewhat start over again. I know I am not even close to being as overweight as I was before, however, at the same time I am not even close to that physical greatness where I found myself in the end either..so, I am basically in between time zones right now which really sucks:)

In my mind, I still see myself as that same strong woman..killing the cardio, and pumpin' those weights. Physically able to tackle anything. But now, I am faced with reality that I am actually not that same person, at least not at this point of the game. Its going to take some serious workouts and eating plans to get me back to where I was or beyond where I was whichever root I choose to take.

I know time wise it wont take me long, it never takes a body long to adapt if you are determined enough....but I don't know whats worse.

Because I slacked off for a longer period of time than I thought, is it the extra few months that I have to put into this once again the worst part or... is it actually the harsh reality that we all will sometime face at some point or another that you actually gained, and could very well continue on the path of destruction if left alone. Its a tough call.
People are so right when they say it really is a lifestyle change. I remember people saying all the time about later...how will she do later...and man they were right..its tough.

It is so easy to lose control and to just find yourself getting lost in the easier lifestlyle once again. Finding yourself backtracking.
It's deffinetly going to be different this time around,but if anyone has the guts and the strength to do this, I know its me. I need to show people that it can be done, even if you are doing it on your own.

Pushing forward on my own is how it now must be from now on. No one there this time "physically" to encourage me. No one there to really give me praise saying things like "good job well done" type of things...the only thing I can do is to take what I have learnt while perhaps incorporating some new concepts...and just kicking my ass again basically. There is no other words to describe it.

Well, I made sure to arrive at the gym early this morning, and got all the paper work done, so basically i am now all ready to go. I took a minute while i was there to look at the surroundings around me and of this new gym, I guess to get somewhat firmiliar with it all. Boy is every gym different I tell ya.

The good thing is that it was nice walking in there as a nobody I must say. No one knew who I was. I had no regulars coming up to me and chatting. As much as i loved doing that in the past, this time around is going to be different.

I want to focus on what I want, what i want to achieve, and to just get in and get out basically. An approach i am not used to going by, but something I need to start doing. I will be getting some good tunes ready on my mp3 player, and just going to jump right in.

It will be a little tough for the first little while I am sure. Just getting used to going to the gym so early once again(the only time I can go). I can already see me doing some serious bitching before it becomes again a normal routine. But like in the past, i know it WILL become a good habit once again.

But whats somewhat scary was that some of those machines, especially the weight ones, I havent really seen before. Interesting. This should be fun. LOL NOT!

Well i may as well get used to getting to know this new place, after all, it is going to become my second home in the next little while.

Well thats it for now
Rosy

Happy Mother's Day!!

2009-05-10T07:54:00.000-07:00

Kind gestures towards others...makes a difference in everyone's day

2009-05-08T07:01:00.000-07:00

Hi friends. I am not going to be really writing much anymore, however, there will be times like this morning where I may pop on for a minute unexpectedly when there is something that I feel that I should share with you, or when something arises that I think you might benefit from hearing about.

This morning after getting the kids ready, I had to go with my youngest one to her daycare because they were having a mothers day breakfast for all the mom's with their child/children celebrating mothers day.

Wow. What a great turn out! There were so many moms there!! And it was nice to talk with them, and to share that time. Being a mom is a real blessing, but yet can be such a challenging job as well.

We are the ones that are bringing up these little ones, helping them to learn the rights from wrongs, shaping them for tommorow. And they will not always be this tiny, and we should all try and remember this, even though it can be really fraustrating at times.

Anyways, we all got some lovely little gifts, obviously hand crafted stuff, but so sweet, you could see the excitement in all the kids and the proudness about giving their moms their crafts that they made just for them.

Afterwards once done, I left the daycare and was going to go to the tim hortons for my morning coffee ( the one thing they didnt supply) smiles.
Line up for the drive through was so long though so I ended up going to the gas station instead near our place which offers timmies stuff too.

While I was in line, I started chatting with this somewhat older man, while getting our own individual coffees done ourselves,. He was nice. We were talking about how the lineups are crazy..I joked that they must put something in this coffee. Then we were looking at the machine for the sugar and cream..figuring it all out. (I never knew they had even a machine for sugar)

Thats one thing about me. I am someone who will make conversation with everyone and you will always catch me in conversations with different sorts of people! LOL

No matter the age, circumstance or whatever.. I just love conversing and i am really genuine about doing so! No fakeness about me thats for sure.
Husband doesnt really like this part of my character I have. He is more to himself, more private, and he always says my mom and I talk to everyone like everyone's our friend..I respond by telling him he is just snobby! :-)

I have always been that way all my life though. I dont know any different. It started even at a young age when mom taught us as kids, when you call someone always pay respect to the person who answers the phone for example. So when calling a friend or even boyfriend, I would have like a whole conversation with their parents or whoever answered the phone. How was your day? how are you? blah blah blah..and then finally I would ask..Is so and so there? lol
But you would be amazed at how parents respected us as kids even for doing that. Always we were the nice kids. Rosy is so nice. I like her. And people I think in general really appreciate someone who is just nice and respectful.

Everyone is equal in my eyes, and I think people get that from me, which makes them friendly with me in return.

So back to the coffee, when it was time to pay, I was after him...when the cashier said how much, he said "this young ladies too please".
I was so shocked.."no no " i said.."thanks so much but really"...anyways he just paid. smiles

I was so surprised! Not many people are like that anymore you know. Just to be genuinely nice to someone else. Not expecting anything in return, not even really knowing them either. Anyways..i kept thanking him.."so kind of you" I said, "thanks so much"." "no problem" he responded nicely. Then when I walked out we just waved goodbye to each other.

But, when someone does that, you really should make an effort to really make them understand that what they did was a really great thing and show appreciation towards their action because you dont run into these kinds of people all the time, actually its really rare.

But, at the same time...if we all did this like a chain reaction, it would make this world such a better place.
Like i left there feeling so great. Even though it was only a medium coffee which was a dollar something..it wasnt how much it was, but what he did.

So now, I have the guy who did my blinds coming over this morning because there was one blind for the door that wasnt right and needed to be reordered. And even though he is all paid up in full, I am going to slap him a 20 for doing a fantastic job, other than that (which wasnt his fault but the factory's)! Just to say "you know what, thank you, you did a GREAT job".
And in return, I hope he does something nice for someone else today because of my action as well.

Anyways, my point, try and and be nice to someone today! Even if its just a little gesture, doesnt have to be money related, but it really makes the world a better place. Affecting us more than we think.

Anyways the blinds guy here..gotta go.
:)
Rosy

P.S. Thanks so much for the wonderful personal emails I have been getting from you guys!! I was pleasantly surprised to hear from so many of you!! Its great to hear from everyone, especially on a individual basis so I know who you guys are rather than just blogging names you supply with your comments. Im also glad that the majority of you loved my blog, and are looking forward to more later on.

Even though I am not going to be on here all the time, I will still be around, and as you can see at times surprising you all with a unexpected entry when you do check it out in between. I just have alot of work to do myself coming up in these next few months, and need to really stay focused once again. New trainer, new awsome women mentors. But feel free to email me whenever you like, and I will make every effort in making sure to respond to you all!!
rosyg@live.ca
hugz

Be back November 11th signing off....

2009-05-06T17:16:00.001-07:00

Well I have decided that I am going to take a break from this public blogging for a little while. Give myself some much needed time away from it.

I will continue to write, however in a private format.

I will be back November 11th, with the marking of my "one year" after losing..and if you are lucky enough some brand new photos, along with all of my entries that I will be continuing to write along the way!!:-)))

....That's If you remember my blog address *winks*..hope to see you come back then!! Will miss you all!
Hugz & Kisses

In the meantime, I have chosen these 3 photos that you can remember me by until then.
Take care

Always remember you can accomplish anything you want in life. Continue to stay focused, and always give it your all, for there is nothing in life that is impossible to achieve! Stay strong and keep smiling friends because life is a wonderful gift!!

One of those days..

2009-05-06T06:33:00.000-07:00

Hi friends.

Had a few minutes to write this morning so thought I would jump on. Now what to write about is the question...

I find myself wondering. I am contemplating if I should take this blog off. I have been noticing that with everything that was said and done, there are still certain people who are continuously coming back. They know who they are. These are people who have said things in the past, things that have really bothered me, comments that actually somewhat hurt when said. So I just cannot understand why they seem to still want to return.

I have done my part. I have appologized to those who might have taken this blog the wrong way before. I have had my time to feel bad about it, but yet, I feel like these people are still just coming back for one reason. Not to enjoy my blogging, but rather to see for themselves "what is she going to write next" and will it be appropriate? And it ruins the whole excitment for me about blogging now. Whether this is the fact or not.

I never did plan my blogs. Its just whatever idea came to me at that time, I would find myself writing about. Thats it. And I think thats how blogging should be.

But now when I blog, its uncomfortable for me to write. Feeling as if I will just be judged. Even if it is just concerning a few people...for me it has still made a differnce in my writing.

I used to really enjoy writing and I still do, however things are just different now.

I have even lost a good friend out of it. Actually a few. And i am not blaming it on anyone or casting stones, but this blog is almost like a disaster zone for me. Sometimes people just cannot take someone as open as myself and end up taking what i write all the wrong way and reading too much into everything.

There are not many people as opened as myself, and I think this scares people making them think I might have other alterior motives, which I never did.

Writing about just diet and exercise ALL the time, became somewhat boring to me. I thought it would be so much more interesting shaking it up a little, and hearing about a real life, a real person living a life, and real thoughts and emotions about life in general. Life is not all about diet and exerise and I dont know about you, but I love the diversity aspect concerning a persons life. To be able to talk about one thing one day..and something completely opposite the next.

We as people are so different, along with the lives which we live. But for someone to open themselves up and to just blog about their own personal life, is different. You dont find that too often. Not even regarding any certain specific topic, but rather on a variety of subjects.. I think this is why i have so many returning visitors.

To be able to get up close and personal, and experience the ups and downs of someone elses life for a change takes us away for a moment from our own. Having the chance to be in someone elses shoes rather than thinking about our own problems. I think this can be somewhat theraputic and not to mention whether we want to admit to it or not, we can all relate in some way or another.

We have all made mistakes, we all have our faults.

However the hardest part is usually finding someone who can be gutsy enough to be that opened as most of us are usually on the whole are the types to keep things personal and to ourselves, not allowing others to know too much about our own lives, faults, nor the not so great sides of our lives, usually just afraid of being judged or condemmed by others.

But in my case, by me opening up to everyone, people ended up upset, and came up with their own conclusions of what I said and why I said it.

Well I have come to accept that now. I sit here writing and I suppose there is a certain sadness that I carry now around with me because its ruined something that I really loved doing, writing.

I know I am not perfect, and I too may have said things that were not considered "right" things that i regret, and you just cant turn back time, and erase it thats the worst part.

But I think life shouldnt be like that. Holding on to grudges and carrying negative feelings towards others. I was never like that, and for me to see this and to hear about it, I just dont know what to say anymore.

It would be nice if other people would step up to the plate as well and send appologies, but that has never happend and i dont expect it to.

Anyways, this is my blog for today, my butt is getting sore cause i still must get a computer table for this computer cause sitting on this floor is killing my back and butt!!

anyways hugs to you all..hope you are all having a great day and thanks for reading.
Rosy

Rosy is now starting to tackle her "things to do list"...

2009-05-02T14:39:00.000-07:00

(1)Ordered my new gym membership today....check

(2)Talked to my soon to be new trainer about what I am looking for, how much he charges and what he can do for me ....check and double check!
(he sounds amazing by the way) will fill you guys in 'bout him later.

So, as you can see I am starting to get all organized and ready to hit the gym again. Its not going to be easy I am sure, but I am ready nevertheless. Unfortunately the actual card wont arrive until after the 6th of May sometime, so whenever it does...you can bet to see me at the gym again every morning in the early am!!

I think I just had too much shit going on before, but now that I have dealt with alot, and wrapped up most of all the "extras" that I had to deal with...its time to get back in there.

So, in the next few weeks you will be hearing about my adventure on getting back in shape...sadly for the second time.

I will also fill you in about the NEW trainer who will be helping me, who he is, and how you can get in touch with him as well if you like. It is great because he does online training too. He gives you your diet and exercise routine and then you do it. He explains it really well..so it does not leave you guessing anything. Right to the point!
Great for if you have busy schedules like myself. You also are given cheat days...and planned ones.... He also has some kind of website that you can go to and see what exercises he is talking 'bout if you are unsure. This way you can view it being done I guess before you try it.

I am so excited that I have decided to go with him and see what he can help me achieve for myself. Like I mentioned he deals with all those inspiring ladies that I talk about, helping them right up until competition time! Pretty cool.

But this is how you do it friends. Get the right resources going, make sure to plan it out, plan out your goals and what you want, get focused and visualize ..and just go for it.

It doesnt matter if you are someone like myself that slacked off for some time..hey this is life! We are not perfect, and our crazy lives sometimes can take over us and we happen to get lost in it in the meantime. But, we so easily can change all that once again. Its not like cause you slacked, you can never go back. Its all about choice, thats it. What is today doesnt always mean what will be tommorow.

I know this will always be my life like most of us. I have accepted that. I will always be up and down as far as weight goes..I dont think I will ever be able to just stay at the same weight all my life. Its just me and who I am.

I could also make a whole list of reasons why I slacked off. But the truth is, really, I just got too involved in other things and made gym and eating healthy not priority. Thats it. If I would have continued going to the gym everyday, burning off what I was eating more of, I probably would have been ok. But its not too late. I still am less than half the person/size I was when starting this last time. No biggy.

anyways, talk soon
Rosy

A night out with the girls....

2009-05-01T20:02:00.001-07:00

Just got home from being out with some coworkers. What a riot they were to be with. We just did the supper thing at one of the restaurants in our neighbourhood, but it was great! I think I needed that "me" time. I cannot believe the amount of people at the restaurants here though..I was really surprised..just packed. One friend I was with said its always like this...(I think I have to get out more)
Where did all these people come from I just thought? Here I thought I was living in a nice quiet place, but yet..I suppose at night they all come out to play (i mean eat) LOL

But, Im actually really physically tired friends so I was glad that it wasnt a really late night. I think this whole moving thing really took alot out of me. I am still paying for it days later.

I plan on keeping a light weekend. Just basically sleeping in tommorow morning and lazing out for the next few days.

I have alot coming up in the next little while, so I should take it easy while I still can.

Anyways, thats about it for now..I suppose I am just too tired to even write.:-)
thats strange..usually I am never too tired for that!

Well take care and we'll talk soon.
R