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American Dream

2018-11-16T13:25:00.000-08:00

Pursuit of hopes shattered by false popes

Expectations withered by words from plastic puppets

Dreams seasoned black via deep-fried prophets

Dream chasing fueled by capitalistic illusions

Smokescreen equality created by cabalistic elites

Selfishness parallels cultural toxicity, venomous pollution

Thoughts handcuffed by hidden class rules

Mental slavery, an intelligent design

Lowbrows segregated into cattle like pews

Knives in the backs of disenfranchised peers

Slave fighting slaves for crumbs fallen off silver plates

Circus and bread as highbrows’ clink wine glasses--Cheers.

Status quo remains chained to a wall of historic humiliation

Mass idleness drips in with famished pain, self-esteem flayed

Only collective pain can trigger socially progressive change

Book Worm

2016-03-15T12:59:00.001-07:00

Book Worm

Inhaling novels, essays, and poems

Swallowing verbs, nouns, and adjectives like handfuls of pills

Mental escapes from suffering and hate, anesthetizing motives

Self-medicating on creativity’s playground
Chugging short stories numb like cheap wine deals
Mortal horrors dissolve into mystic dream-worlds
Exhaling rhymes fortifying spiritual rebounds

Again And Again And Again

2015-10-12T10:15:00.001-07:00

Head spins as stomach churns, dizzy
Lust and attraction and love swirling flummoxed
Lies and betrayal and rejection burns white hot

Heart scarred inside out
Emotional fool turned out
Silence abounds, flame blown out

Self-reflection proliferated with psychedelic insight
Spiritual guidance pregnant with hindsight’s forewarning
Sadness’ tears cleansing of perilous plights, a healing rite

Momma's Resume

2015-10-02T12:29:00.002-07:00

Living life underneath a wardrobe of masks

Delusional anecdotes nourished globular

Truth vomited—allergic reaction

Self-inflicted wounds, merciful cries embroiled in wet-less tears

Pockets filled by profits off exploitation of her children’s horrors

Tireless tongue flapping, exaggerated tales of victimization

Grim’s scythe sharpened, revenge’s chops drooling

A legacy enveloped in crimson flavored unforgiveness

Mother's heart black-ice frozen, underground broiling

Voluntary Enslavement

2015-09-25T10:31:00.002-07:00

Lizards herd sheep into corrals of false images

Lambs nurtured on greasy disinformation

Greed idolized, fattened by spiritual pillage

Obey, obey, obey, the sublime truth

Running in circles, trapped in a neverending rat race

A system designed by fork tongued pigs

Lion-heart gorillas lay listless, outnumbered

Total control equates total corruption, no saving grace

En-caged in a concrete jungle, no escape

Rebellious hearts eviscerated

Publicly displayed by stool pigeons, snake-faced

Mutiny's blood drips crimson on a tyrant’s trident for profits sake

Beautiful Baby Boy

2015-09-22T14:36:00.000-07:00

A life sparked, stoked in sulfur womb warmth

An infant birthed under white fiery eyes watching

Screams for comfort blistered by fists of familial legacy

Razed in a scorned recapitulation of a father’s past

A baby baked in parental abandonment, glazed by a mother’s apathy

Tiny heart blazed for an ashtray end

Starved for attention, as nurturance stirred molten

A soul pulverized, burnt, a boy neglected

Child branded body scarred just like grandpa’s

White smoke, flickering flame fainted

Loved less than cigarette droppings, toxic compost
Ashes to ashes, dust billowed in the wind

Forgot by Mourn, a child's light smothered
Grief applauded a heritage extinguished
A spirit deep fried, rising phoenix wingless

An Island onto Oneself

2015-09-02T13:03:00.003-07:00

A infant’s vision distorted

A child’s psyche splintered

A teenager enraged, caged

A low life educated

A tattooed miscreant evolved

A black ice perception thawed

A passionate, empathetic man accepted

A competitive man rejected

A man lost in bottomless perplexion

Compassion Heals

2015-08-20T15:12:00.000-07:00

Slaying homelessness via remixed street smarts and formal education
Harnessed collective collaboration without fearful hesitation
Tireless placation past bounded, discarded

Suffocating stagnation, misallocation of hope old school thinking
Misappropriation fails strong, a rightful correction
Extreme capitalism implosive, worldly detoxification
Concentrated wealth diluted for the greater good

Kindness seeded, sprouted, nourished—thrived

Disenfranchised rising off oil-slick asphalt, off stained concrete
Extreme poverty eradicated efficiently
Ill erected cardboard shanties to apartment placements

Know your place, boy, continued

2013-06-27T23:30:00.002-07:00

Slandered by falsehoods, vilified by slurs of hypocrisy
Principled, unbroken, white flag never surrended
Authentic integrity, merciful tenacity, void of cruelty

Chain of command pontificated wanton reprimand
Competence worn, titled emboldened on badge
Fingers pointed by snitches, telling empty tales on quicksand

Actions spoke volumes, no one injured, no need to justify
Morals manifested without hesitation amid perpetual strife
Apathetic toward flagrant lies told by shit eating horseflies

Enraged by no reaction from gratuitous allegations
Despite the situation, adhere to rank, to a immovable caste
Don’t astray, safety not a duty, an obligation

Wits polished, trained for a one-sided dogfight
Words slung raw, dripped with substance, yolk
Unmoved, fearless, unswayed truth of hindsight

Actions right or wrong, bow and grovel, beseech forgiveness
Follow, revere, embrace despotic authority
No deliverance, disciplinary wicked, grim vileness

Intelligence enveloped in compassionate might
Muscles flexed tight, silver tongue unleashed
Beliefs steeled, abhorrent to conventional plight

Slights, barbs, character assassinations proved futile
Stepped back, hands fisted, hollow valor
Threats of termination hissed off a fork-tongued reptile

Level of empathy and compassion exposed
Leadership, domination, commands unheeded
Shallow, conscienceless, inhumanity opposed

Pressured speech, white-knuckled, mouth foamed
Reminded of status, less than, a pauper, a peasant
Face reddened, eye-brow furrowed, respect the throne

to be continued...

Know your place, boy....

2013-06-27T23:30:00.001-07:00

Empty tales told by snitches, foundation built on quicksand
Tyranny worn on superior's sleeve, titled emblazed on badge
Chain of command pontificated wanton reprimand

Actions spoke volumes, no one injured, no need to justify
Morals manifested without hesitation amid perpetual strife
Apathetic toward flagrant lies spread by shit eating horseflies

Enraged by no reaction from gratuitous allegations
Despite the situation, adhere to rank, an unassailable caste
Don’t astray, safety not a duty, an obligation

Wits polished, well armed, unfazed by one-sided dogfights
Words slung raw, dripped with substance, fresh yolk
Unmoved, fearless, confident with the truth of hindsight

Right or wrong, bow and grovel, beseech forgiveness
Unilateral decisions not authorized, despotic authority reigns
No deliverance, punishment wicked, unthinkable vileness

Intelligence enveloped in valor, coupled in might
Muscles flexed, silver tongue unleashed
Beliefs steeled, abhorrent to conventional plight

Slights, barbs, character assassinations proved futile
Stepped back, hands fisted, hollow valor
Threats of termination hissed off a fork-tongued reptile

Devoid of empathy and compassionless gluttony exposed
Leadership, domination, commands unheeded
Shallow, conscienceless, inhumanity opposed

Pressured speech, white-knuckled, mouth foamed
Reminded of status, less than, a pauper, a peasant
Face reddened, eye-brows furrowed, respect the throne

Slandered by falsehoods, vilified by slurs of hypocrisy
Principled, unbroken, reflected, paused, surrender is comical
Authentic integrity, merciful tenacity, rebuttal void of cruelty

Compromise laughable, steadfast stonewalled
Quarrel shackled to stagnation, a lose-lose draw
Status quo preserved, ranks fixed, progress stalled

Dead Heart

2013-06-27T22:58:00.000-07:00

A lake of love invalidated rippled

An eviscerated heart skipped

Slow sinkage, icy water dyed red

Electrical charge fumbled

Rescue never intended

Four chambers choked, silenced

Bottom feeders frenzied

Morsels of love lost digested

A wicked lover's revenge manifested

The Tale of a Pharmaceutical Junkie

2012-11-29T10:22:00.001-08:00

Awoke in a haze of macabre melancholy

Hit the medicine cabinet, snatched prescription bottles

Roaches scurried out of site, a daily routine

The living room: cold, dark, uninviting

Pills splayed across a glass coffee table

Razor blade sharpened, spoon polished

Deftone's record spun backwards

Lexapro minced, lithium diluted, xanax danced

Sweating, tremulous, thoughts distorted, heart twisted

A golden straw gleamed, god-like

Relief aligned in formation

No retreat, respite abounded

Inhaled then exhaled, dust snorted brain-bound

Forehead numb, drainage slunk

Pixey dust back flipped into the gut

Lips chapped, anxiety stifled, yet crazed

A spittle of water, a cotton swab, a Bic lighter

Heart stopping tonic bubbled, sweat dribbled

Syringe filled, plunger cocked

Trigger pulled, middle fingers up to god and the devil

Euphoric apathy flooded primal senses

Alarm clock blared, focus regained, void of emotional pain

Skipped a shower, toothbrush untouched

Yesterday’s clothes, off to work, comfortably numbed

Positive poor denied!

2012-02-13T16:43:00.001-08:00

One parent, three children, wrapped in rags, a dingy shack

Slept together, head to feet, back to back
Cement rugged, fought for space, someone got smacked

Stars shone, roof--torn tin

Rats crept, roach scurried, bed bugs stung

Heat raged, like a white flame, wearing patience thin

Roosters crowed, mouths yawned, arms stretched, bellies growled

Utilities unpaid, clothes sweat-drenched, cupboards bare

Mom’s cigarette lit, huffed and puffed, hungry children howled

A knock on the door, the first of the month, summer relief arrived

In the doorway, government man stood, with food, clothes, and cash

Door opened, his snout crinkled, lips thinned, turned about, left deprived

Without hesitation, mom chased, rabbit speed

The man halted, snatched the cigarette from chapped lips, and shouted

“You know the rules! No money for those who smoke weed.”

Confronting Incompetence!

2012-01-13T11:15:00.001-08:00

Fork tongues flapped in mistruths

Words pure hocus pocus

Sloth cloaked in pious righteousness

Hypocrisy stealth in motion

Malice veiled by godly intent

Masses hoodwinked by biblical verses articulated

Accountability affronted cowish bamboozlement

Facts trumped subjective truths

Mind uninfected by snake-oil potions

Voodoo tactics crumbled under hard footsteps

Actions bemoaned the hollowness of spoken word

Piggish greed revealed, ardently reviled

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2012-01-04T12:26:00.003-08:00

Banality abounds
Creativity proves evasive
Head bangs against beige walls
Monitoring plinking, pixelating

Daydreams of razors gliding across tattooed wrist
Goals unwatered, wilting
Ambition fades to black
Hands cramp on keyboard

Anger regresses inward
Phone calls sent straight to vioce mail
Motivation lost, no searching
Slapped self in face, twice

Don't fret
the hamster's fed
Wire wheel turns round
Cognition sputters and sparks

Time to refocus, concentrate
Release the mind from slothish tedium
Envision something to be desired
Inspire to be more than what is now

A Love Affair

2011-12-13T08:16:00.000-08:00

Beauty manifests cute, sexy, bold
Ethereal eyes reflect compatriot blue
Swagger pure steel resolve elegance

Preserver of inalienable freedoms
Sharp intelligence flexed in lithesome might
Exercise daily, fortified against subversion

Wit articulated stark arctic frozen
Silver tongue ominous, unfazed by tyrannical intimidation
Words melt cowardice, orange-flame lava

Forever indebted, yet…
Barbwire protected, guns cocked, bullet-proof invested
Integrity, conscience, justice dovetailed tight

Her majesty revealed, sitting high throne
Uncloaked, Unadulterated, Undeniable
First name: Miranda, Last name: Rights

Will not be denied!

2011-11-29T12:08:00.000-08:00

Opportunity abounds, ex-con branded
Applications skimmed, interview denied
Doors slammed shut, stonewall stranded

Self-esteem battered, determination resilient
Prejudice enacted, diving through open-windows
Black-balled, escorted out, will not remain silent

Gathered a stick, cardboard, tape, inked a message
Occupy now, rest later, fist in air
Posted on every corner, following an irrepressible linage

Cheers!

2011-11-15T16:55:00.000-08:00

Behind steely eyes and half smiles, hides a deep psychic schism
Daily situations trigger flashbacks of childhood horrors
Tormentor’s misdeeds alive after years of absenteeism

Abused boys evolve into men imploding, exploding in callous immure
Learned helplessness infectious, authorities ignored multicolor signs
Healing snail paced, forever a victim of the vilely impure

Legalized narcotics fail to quell violent inward aggressions
Middle fingers to false protectors, pour shots of 100 proof liquor
Embracing alcohol's bliss, a respite from haunting trangressions

Job in a box!

2011-11-10T08:27:00.000-08:00

Clock ticks, tocks, mocks
Little hand points south, derisive laughter
Big hand points north, opportunity balks

Apathy aphyxiates, ambition pale blue
Mediocrity laughs in the mirror in slack-jawed sneers
Aspirations limp, pipedreams skewed

Change laughable, an intangible abstraction
Thoughts molder, mood shiftless, spirit decays
Complacency consumes, entombed in rank stagnation

Suspended animation!

2011-09-28T12:27:00.000-07:00

A job in a box ignites atrophy
Thoughts ping pong off fractured dreams
Sitting goalless, rotting, mental distrophy

Sweating, walls melting, soul draining
Clocks mock with each tick and tock
Vision blurs, eye’s aching

Opportunities exist, yet heart adrift in deprecation
Progress retarded, selfish complacency infected
Potential wasted, adrift in precontemplation

To be continued…

Rambling...

2011-09-02T13:21:00.000-07:00

Intelligence enveloped in valor, emblazed with might
Muscles flexed, silver tongue fluid, molten
Beliefs steeled, abhorrent to conventional plight

Values manifested in action, evidence provided by hindsight
Words raw, marinated in substance, dripped fresh yolk
Fearless, battle ready, victorious in foresight

Muse Vs Procrastination

2010-11-21T20:17:00.000-08:00

Sitting at the desk, a little distressed, yet ready to write
Word document open, ideas marinating, stomach twisted tight
Marker blinking, page blank, words stirring, muse out of sight

Procrastination taunted, screamed, “You’re a have-not”
Muse vanished, disappeared, reward sought
Attention distracted, unfocused, no story, no plot

Fingers stagnated, slumped on keyboard
Stir-crazed, minutes to hours, idleness abhorred
Mind blank, ego at stake, nothing to record

Muse located, battered and bruised
Roped, kidnapped, verbally abused
Writhing, held hostage, ransom refused

Monitor plinking, eyes strained
Thoughts rotting, head pained
Perseverance crippled, self-doubt reigned

Sharp axe hung overhead, procrastination’s arms locked
Muse shell-shocked, head on writer’s block
Determination interrupted, suggested reprieve, maliciouly mocked

Head in hands, browbeaten, skills unmatched
Computer clicked off, defeated, confidence snatched
Walked away, battle another day, a definite rematch

Life without love

2010-06-19T19:57:00.000-07:00

Sorrowful eyes dried aching
Heart writhing, twisting, shaking
Marrow frozen, bones breaking

Stomach contorts into hangman’s knots
Blood trickles sluggish, clogged by icy clots
Breaths stifled, lungs weak, tissue rots

Falling to the ground, clutching chest, no will to fight
Confusion abounds, walls closing in, blinded by light
Body siezing, heart imploded, dead at midnight

A few hours of sleep...

2010-04-01T20:40:00.000-07:00

Down the hall, the 20th century grandfather clock brings in the midnight hour. Twelve solemn tolls echo into the soundless bedroom. The bells stir our wrinkled-face bulldog awake.

Scary lifts his fat head, looking for intruders. Tree branches screech across the bedroom windows. He whimpers. The wind howls as it passes through the nooks and crannies of our brick loft. Scary’s trembling. Shadows dance on the walls. He's had enough and dives under the sheets. I’m unfazed by the storm, but amused by Scary’s butt shaking underneath the blankets.

My amusement is short-lived. I’m restless again. I can’t shake the demons of my past. I stare at the ceiling fan blades swishing in a clockwise motion and wonder if I will ever be forgiven for my wrong doings, if all my debts are clear, if my enemies still crave vengeance.

Scary’s cold nose quivers wet on my leg. I flinch him off me, but he scouts closer. She moans. I stay motionless. I don't want to wake her. The moon light accentuates her curves under the sheets.

The air hangs stale, sticky. My throat’s dry and coarse. She rolls towards me. I cough. I push the blankets off my upper body. I’m hot. She lays her arm across my chest and squeezes me tightly. She whispers something inaudible.

Our breaths become synchronized without effort. She presses her nakedness into mine. Her close comforts soothe my anxieties. My thoughts lull into quietness. I feel my jaw relax. The racing of my heart slows. No running. No death. No betrayal. I close my eyes.

The alarm blares at 7a.m.

“Baby,” she whispers. “Ten more minutes”

“I got you,” I hit the snooze button.

I rub the blurriness from my eyes. I wrap her in my arms. I pull her close to me. She nuzzles her head into my neck. "I love you," I murmur while I run my fingers down her back.

The snooze warning goes off. I hit the silence button and stretch out. I sit up in bed as Scary falls to the floor. I rush to his aid. He licks my face. I wipe my face off on the blankets and hush his excitement.

I grab my pajama bottoms off the floor and pull them over my boxers. “Go get your leash, Scary.” I point to the corner of the bedroom door.

"What are you doing,” She says with her head face buried in pillows. “Come back to me.”

“I’ll be back in a minute.” I kiss on her ear and smack her softly on the backside. I never met a woman who had such sex appeal. Her body is flawless, well toned, and curvaceous. I take the leash out of Scary’s mouth, clip it onto his collar, and we head for the dog trail behind the loft’s.

To be continued….

rambling...

2010-02-09T11:00:00.001-08:00

style of love obsolete... tears dried scarring... second guessing… alone in sadness... regret consumes… heart suspended in agony… defiance supreme… concentration enigmatic… legs wobble heady in melancholy… directionless abounds… finite collision clear… emotion crackles cold.... craves apathy’s bitter taste… breaths hollowed... paranoia spreads… black ice illusions dreaded… change mirrors ineptitude… collapse, defeated...